Living with Borderline Personality Disorder

Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is a mental health condition characterized by a pattern of instability in one's mood, self-image, behavior, and relationships. Individuals with BPD often experience intense and rapidly changing emotions, have difficulties regulating their emotions, and struggle with a persistent fear of abandonment. They might engage in impulsive and risky behaviors, have unstable relationships, and experience feelings of emptiness.
Other common symptoms include identity disturbances, recurrent suicidal behavior or self-harming tendencies, and sudden shifts in their views of others, alternating between idealization and devaluation. It's a complex disorder that can significantly impact an individual's life and their interactions with others. Treatment often involves psychotherapy, sometimes complemented by medications to address specific symptoms.
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[@444anette]

“no one knows what it took to become this gentle” is a quote that i think everyone should come across and it relates to the message within this video ❤️ beautiful episode!

[@SH-rg3gb]

It’s actually “no one knows the violence it took to become this gentle”. I heard it years & years ago & it’s been my favorite one ever since.

[@belle3055]

She’s just talking talking talking Gosh I couldn’t finish the video

[@kaytlen777]

I’m

[@STRcircaFKR]

​@@belle3055its literally an interview what did you expect???

[@camisafespace]

​@@STRcircaFKR literally lmao i don't understand people

[@sweet2sourr]

“In order to be heard I had to take it to an extreme” yes. And teach them a lesson.

[@faidra.]

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[@hannahmurphy3462]

This is such an important way of explaining it.

[@kenya9435]

so me 😢

[@maggie11993]

bar 4 bar

[@proctorsledge]

navigating the world with BPD is so hard. relationships, friendships, loving myself, all of it. it’s so so hard. no one teaches you what to do with such strong feelings.

[@amayalaurenb]

It can be so intense sometimes especially when others can’t understand how you are feeling!

[@marinetter.8423]

Literallyyyyyy

[@akirashiori6265]

@@amayalaurenbpeople always say “it’s okay to feel the way you feel” but they don’t understand that feeling the way we feel is overwhelming. It’s not just sadness or anger, it’s all consuming

[@amayalaurenb]

@@akirashiori6265 exactly!

[@megan7292]

I have depression and BPD and no one ever understands. People with BPD are thought to be explosive and angry but when I split I get depressive and suicidal. You insult me I don’t want to punch you, I have a panic attack and start crying. BPD is easily one of the most misunderstood mental disorders out there. We still have a long way to go when it comes to the research but Im glad that people like Priscilla are talking about it and spreading awareness ❤

[@aaliyah7361]

I relate

[@barafbarbosa]

You’re not alone, I have the same diagnosis ❤️

[@4haruchan]

I relate, i have quiet/self destructive bpd

[@DazzledCat]

Me too I hate the stigma of BPD people being angry and insensitive when I‘m very sensitive and empathetic around ppl cause that was my only strategy to survive without getting beat up

[@marseillesulfur2592]

@@DazzledCatI relate to that - I don’t have BPD, but I’m on the spectrum & CPTSD. Oddly enough, there’s lots of overlap between BPD and autism symptoms. Us autistic people are also largely labeled insensitive, but I & many I know feel things very deeply. Some are even overly empathetic to the point of serious distress. The stigmas behind these disorders are awful. It sets us back so much. I like to learn the similarities other disorders have to my own, it somehow makes me feel less alone. ❤

[@littlemonalisa]

the amount of times I’ve told myself “it wasn’t rape, it could’ve been worse, was it really that bad” is so upsetting. We didn’t deserve that.

[@Knottyautumn]

They don’t educate us enough on rape. We were told that rape had to be physically violent when a lot of the times it’s not

[@alicleveland3384]

Did your abuser say those words to you or your parents? Because it's trivializing. Almost a form of gaslighting yourself

[@IkamiLog]

Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

[@APOLLINAIREBARTHOLOMIEU]

Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!

[@elizabethwilliams6651]

Yes, dr.sporessss I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

[@morseemily]

I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.

[@APOLLINAIREBARTHOLOMIEU]

Is he on instagram?

[@elizabethwilliams6651]

Yes he is. dr.sporessss

[@haleygoff7412]

She is so aware of her wording, her body language, and the thoughts she allows to flow in and out. A truly remarkable woman who I definitely now look up to. ❤

[@soullooker]

Perfectly said. I was in awe.

[@2xr1ssx]

“You did It because you did It, there’s no pass because you’re a trauma victim” beautifully said. You’ve got a good head on your shoulders girl, keep up the great work, thank you for sharing your story!!!

[@CasaDuroTinyHome]

Priscilla is SO GOOD at telling her story. When she said BPD is "an exaggerated form of self protection" it really perfectly encapsulated a loved one of mine who lives with BPD and is sometimes hard for me to understand. Priscilla really put this all into perspective for me in a way where I can now have much deeper understanding of why this person thinks and acts the way they do. Thank you so much for giving her a platform to share her experience, I'm really deeply touched by this episode💙

[@jl4260]

I used to call it an "overactive defence mechanism" but exaggerated form of self protection is beautifully put.

[@cx0b1n]

I have bpd and I've heard a lot about wilderness programmes, they're really disgusting and not beneficial in general and honestly there should be more laws involving them, there have been actual cases of people dying during them because of how bad the circumstances there were.

[@yourloveriswild7533]

Yes! So true!

[@spac3c4d3t]

most wilderness programs are all about tearing people down to build them back up, and the truth is its just straight up psychological/physcial abuse masked as tough love or “discipline”, its true that hundreds of children have died in these programs and after leaving many are traumatized, recently a well known program was shut down due to all the abuse that went down there, and theres so manyy more open, the people who run those genuinely disgust me

[@jennymarshall8334]

She actually has a whole episode with someone who survived one of these type of programs! :)

[@cx0b1n]

@@jennymarshall8334 ohh I never saw that one !! I'll check it out

[@nimanixo]

Isn’t that what happened to Paris Hilton and Bhad bhabie

[@jackieeleanor]

the anger and resentment towards men is so real. I've been hurt so bad that i just... struggle to really trust any of them. The ones i do have in my life are few and far in-between and they are the only ones that see me as a person and dont sexualize or fantasize about my bpd. Hearing that was super reassuring in a weird way.

[@nikkijune]

as a therapist, you can hear and see THE WORK she has put in! 👏🏼❤️

[@mikoletea]

the part about not comparing your problems to being less impactful as others (her classmates drinking more than her, so she felt she wasn’t as bad as an alcoholic) really hit me and gave me a super new perspective on how it’s so much easier to be like “well this person does much worse than me” rather than facing your own issues and putting in the effort to fix them, really helpful in my healing process right now.

[@godofwomen]

diagnosed with bpd as a teen (which from what ive heard is rare) cannot fathom as to why people think this is some quirky "yandere" illness. its not, its awful and im glad more people are speaking out about their experiences.

[@apseudonym]

I was diagnosed as a teen too and I'm still mad about it. my doctor didn't even let me develop a personality before diagnosing me with a personality disorder smh

[@m4n1c.p1x13]

I was diagnosed last year when I was 17 bc I couldn't go through dbt until my twin finished so they were diagnosed 15-16

[@raincoathaveli]

@@apseudonym actually you are not even supposed to get diagnosed with a personality disorder until you are 18 because youvare still developing and personality disorder are complicated to diagnose(unlike other mental health issues like depression and Generalized anxiety disorder)

[@larissacastillo6960]

My therapist did say to me when I was 15 "I think you could have a personality disorder", but didn't want to diagnose me yet. and when I turned 19 he was like "yep, as I said, personality disorder, this one is borderline". It was so bittersweet because I could finally put a label to it, but still hard to know I had to live with this disease for the rest of my life.

[@sallyostertag6774]

@@larissacastillo6960it’s not a disease it’s a disorder. You can get better with the right help even tho we will live with the reasons we developed the disorder in the first place 😢

[@hanhes]

i absolutely respect her journey, but one part where she talks about her reaction to the sexual assault at the frat party made me sad for her. i think all women NEED to respond to assault with violence/threats. men need to LEARN. i don't have BPD, but i am a survivor and if a man tried to assault me again...he's not going unharmed or without the threat of harm.

[@moderngoblin]

You are my fucking hero. Thank you for your message it is so important to push.

[@2536l1]

I said out loud when the blade came out “thats not that bad”. They need to keep their hands to themselves.

[@somuchstyle17]

I agree. Men have assaulted me way to many times. They get away with so much in our society, it’s NOT acceptable.

[@izzyindendi7916]

i was diagnosed w bps just before i turned 15. it sucks. i wouldn’t wish this on anyone. thanks for this episode. we aren’t all evil drama queens, we’re hurt people.

[@Kenzi24]

When i realized i had bpd, i was suicidal for at least a year. I felt like it was a curse. But i have to remind myself that everyone is struggling somehow, not just me. Not just mental illnesses, but physical ones i dont have to deal with. Just have to take it day by day and believe in yourself. Some days are good and some days are bad. That acceptance has saved my life. My therapist once told me that bpd is kind of like having broken heart syndrome. Something hurt you so badly and now you have this tornado of emotion, deep sadness and intense anger and self-shaming thoughts, it's almost like you hold an eternal grudge for your trauma. It was an interesting way of looking at it. And understanding that more has helped me somewhat disconnect from my trauma and see it as something that happened to me but is not happening right now. Im safe now. How it formed for me was being abandoned by my dad, my mom being a narcissist and having untreated bpd and would split on us constantly, and going to a private catholic school as a huge outcast. Immediately abandoned, loved one day hated the next by my mom, and being the weird girl. Really put a chip on my shoulder. I was also invalidated as well when I was 13 and threatened suicide and my mom laughed and told me to make sure I do it right so she doesn't have to take care of a vegetable. I also used to cut my wrists around that age really hoping a teacher would notice and ask me what was wrong so I could get help, but they never cared. I just felt very uncared for, unloved, and unliked from a very young age. Then as an adult I had a really shitty experience where i told a guy to stop touching my friend at a club and he said he touches whoever he wants and kissed me. I dont think i've ever felt more rage in my life. But him and his friends had guns on them. They got kicked out, but just came back 20 minutes later. Here I am self-pitying again, but have to remind myself it's the past and right now I am safe. I just still have so much sadness and anger inside of me

[@jackiemaldonado7777]

❤❤❤

[@daynachapin7916]

We all have really terrible things happen in our lives your not alone, just flip it and use your pain to help others ❤️❤️❤️🙏 your stronger then you know

[@beydilove]

I just became a DBT therapist. When she started talking about validation & the biosocial theory, I knew she is in DBT. 😌 super proud of you! I’m happy you are working on your life worth living♥️

[@nadia_here]

BPD truly sucks, it controls every aspect of your life. It's not fair I didn't have the opportunity to self-regulate my feelings in a healthy way like others, you can't control your environment when you're just a child. I related to when Priscilla talked about the rage she felt towards men, I know that feeling very well. Comorbidities can very much occur which makes it all so confusing and you get sucked in and caught up with labels. We need more mental health awareness, proper health insurance, higher standards for psychiatrists and therapists. I've had to and still have to jump hurdles to get the help I need. I'm glad the guest brought up "self validation" because it's very important for your healing.

[@JessiToDaMoon]

I also have BPD and CPTSD, and one thing I’ve noticed for sure is that each person with BPD thinks and feels completely different and we are not all the same. It’s like we are a the same base of cupcake but with completely different flavors and sprinkles on top. Metaphorically speaking. Blows my mind. Especially that so many people have it.

[@ruquiamulamba6169]

I did the work this year. DBT Therapy, DMT, Ketamine therapy, and hypnotherapy and for the first time in 12 years…I’m at peace. I have learned coping strategies and I feel in control. I can now be direct, I also do not need to respond. I am able to separate genuine relationships from those that trigger me. As someone that’s been in and out of the mental hospital all my life I’m proud of myself. Do the work for yourself.

[@bosswashington2215]

Unfortunately it doesn’t take a year to work on your self it takes longer keep on doing the work

[@kendra.1525]

“that’s exactly why i need to share it, i need people to see this was always me. i’ve always been a generous kind little girl even when i was out here wylin i was still volunteering” as someone who finally healing in my experiences with bpd this really touched me

[@sweet2sourr]

She's well-spoken, and paints a picture of her experience. I relate to being in the hood and asking a dope dealer on the block to buy me alcohol. I look forward to the rest of this episode!

[@Hey_0kay]

Misdiagnosed Bpd…gemini…childhood SA/trauma…ED…substance abuse…Michigan… scary how much we have in common😳 thanks for sharing❤️

[@morbidfascination7686]

Same with misdiagnosed bpd Gemini childhood trauma and substance abuse we’re not alone

[@CallmeCalypso]

"An exaggerated form of self protection" used to describe BPD is so accurate. I've lived this. You really hit the nail on the head.

[@yunabrooks]

I really needed to listen to her story today. because I have bpd too and am in the depressed phase right now. in which I can't see any improvement and I don't believe it when others tell me that things are getting better. hearing her tell her story and hearing her say, that she's bpd free with her medication, makes me so much hope!

[@emilyloerakker1257]

i was diagnosed at 21, i am 27 now and after yrs of hurting i feel genuinely happy and powerful in the presence of pain. medication free for 3 yrs now and no self-harm for 4. its hard but i swear it does get better.

[@yunabrooks]

thank you so much for your response. It's really validating to hear. I wish you all the best!!

[@karinadoshi3950]

it can get better if your willing to change and grow, i know 2 ppl with bpd one does the work to help herself the other doesn’t and i had to drop her bc she was putting me in danger. i really do believe if you put in the work and try you can learn to mange your emotions, you just have to accept you need to grow, we all do, just some more than others. no need or feel shame for it.

[@yunabrooks]

you're absolutley right!

[@Julia-yj9qk]

Survived living in a residential treatment facility for 14 months, about an hour from St. George. These “troubled teen” facilities are ALL OVER Utah and there is absolutely no oversight

[@thisismerying111]

YES. Thank you dev, when I watched the past podcast of living with a mother with BPD it was tough but it also was clear that the mother’s voice wasn’t necessarily being heard and neither were her emotions. I’m so glad that someone actively living with BPD and experiencing firsthand everything that comes with it was able to come on the podcast and share her experiences!!

[@kaitlynguzman7279]

This really made me feel less alone because I struggle with ocd and I come from a Mexican household too so it made me feel less alone. Thank you !!

[@fakiriayoub8087]

I suffered severe depression several years ago. I could remember several years ago after divorce with my husband which brought me into my disastrous journey on Alcohol and cigarettes. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.

[@arnoldidierariza3450]

Microdosing helped me get out of the pit of my worst depressive episode, a three year long episodeenough to start working on my mental health

[@BestOffer-ii9ny]

Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Germany. Really need

[@ToniMonteroroman]

Yes, dr.porassss . I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

[@AlfredBrown-rk8se]

The shroom experience stands as my most remarkable journey, an awe-inspiring encounter that left an indelible mark of amazement.

[@Vuitton-uj1hz]

Is he on instagram?

[@karmaMatters123]

What a strong, smart and self aware woman. I cried for her for all of her struggles and all she went through but I cried harder for all she overcame. You are going to change the world…even if you help 10 people, 100 people or 1,000,000 people…you will help change the world of/for those people! Thank you for sharing your story Priscilla! ❤

[@bbadwolff]

Honestly this episode is incredibly moving. I don't have anyone in my life currently who has BPD besides myself. Its nice to have a video representing such a difficult disorder💜

[@1212kamilla]

I recently got diagnosed with bipolar, and I'm 21 years old. I've went through my adolescence untreated, but I always knew I was different from my peers. My emotions and relationships were always more intense and unpredictable than others. Borderline is an entirely separate disorder, but I find many of the symptoms overlap. I am now finally getting treatment from a therapist that works for me, after negative experiences from mental health professionals from the past. This video was so insightful, and I felt myself relating to so much she was saying. One of the most well-spoken guests so far. Her story is very inspirational knowing that I am on the path of getting better in my own way. I hope she continues pursuing what she loves and helping others feel less alone :)

[@abbyk36]

Priscilla you are so eloquent and your intelligence just shines in all your words and thoughts. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences, and I especially loved what you said about not being trapped by cultural stereotypes.

[@alexisdaponte9534]

as a teen with BPD and was diagnosed as a teen thank you for seeing light on the disorder. there are so many people with stigmas that we are crazy killers with no hope and people who plead insanity in court to try and get away with their crimes or if they don't have a disorder (because BPD is seen as a catch-all diagnosis sometimes, horrible stigma) they use BPD as an excuse. It is so refreshing to see a more normal/common and realistic depiction of BPD I wouldn't wish anyone to have BPD, it's exhausting, and it sucks... I get seen immediately as an evil drama queen a lot... I just have trauma and was hurt when I was young. I just have trouble regulating the intensity of my emotions, doesn't mean I'm feeling the wrong emotion for the situation... I have triggers that didn't just show up for no reason. we are not scary evil drama queens... BPD isn't an excuse its an explanation BPD is the explanation for 95% of my issues. “In order to be heard I had to take it to an extreme” is basically what it is. this disorder sucks but not unhelpable. I am living with it and I'm proud... it takes work and dedication but I did it and living so much better healthily and happier

[@paige8956]

as someone struggling with bpd this video meant a lot

[@pennysakai4223]

Living with a grandmother with BPD. It's not easy, but I love her.

[@Soaring_Seajay]

MIL for me. Same

[@Atypicalkid88]

Thank you for loving her and being compassionate❤

[@emilydean4309]

I really appreciated this episode. Something that I was observant of is that in response to almost every single question that Dev asked, the guest responded by starting the sentence with “no” and then offering clarification. At first I found myself really curious about how this must have been for Dev as the interviewer, but more importantly, I felt happy for the guest, because what this demonstrates to me is that she is wanting to be really intentional and clear about what she’s saying, and is making an effort to ensure that she is understood. I loved llistening to this guest describe the person that she has evolved into and her thoroughness, ability to articulate herself and her experiences, and intentionality within her speech, really scratched the surface of the work that she has done. Proud of her for taking her mental health seriously despite sometimes experiencing therapist that weren’t super professional and prioritizing getting better. What a great convo!

[@catiesmith645]

To Priscilla: thank you so much for sharing your story. You are so strong for sharing this with the world. As someone who is struggling with borderline as well this has impacted me greatly. To hear someone express such deep and similar emotions to me was so validating. I have never related to anybody more in my life. Please know you are helping people by sharing your story, no matter how hard it is. This was very healing for me; to see somebody who processes emotions and has experienced such similar traumas and behaviors as me. I don’t know you, but I am so proud of you. I wish you the best life and for you to find peace, you deserve it 💗

[@celestejones-vd8vq]

She’s the first person who describes bpd accurately for me

[@tullanna2000]

her vocabulary is amazing omg

[@OchioChan1325]

Wasn’t diagnosed with bpd till I was 21. I held in my assault till I was 21 and it happened when I was around 4. When I finally was diagnosed it was a sigh of relief to have something to name and not just feel insane. Its been a rough road but I’m so glad I’m able to understand myself better now and I’m sober almost two years and have a career and life going for me. It sucks that there isn’t more accurate awareness about bpd and we go almost our whole childhood just thinking we’re crazy.

[@shelbytrammell1234]

I couldnt relate more. When i was 4 i was assaulted by my bio dad. It wasnt until I was 20 ish that I spoke about it. I was then diagnosed too, its helped knowing that their is a name to it like you said. I think its helped my mom understand me a lot more too. Just holding everything in and thinking your crazy like you said, it feels good to know people can relate. I hope you have healed and glad your on a good route!!!

[@Clear_Night4]

I was incredibly excited to watch this episode! I work in mental health and BPD is highly stigmatized by the feild. It's almost like a scary campfire story with how it is described and many providers never want to have a patient who carries its diagnosis. It's a shame but stories like Priscilla's are needed for even professionals to better understand the disorder and not stereoptype it! I'm glad Priscilla explained BPD exists on a spectrum, I think everyone, including professionals only imagine someone with BPD presenting a certain way! I'm also glad healthcare and mental healthcare professionals were called out in this episode. It's indescribable how I feel when I hear about the failings of ppl I'm supposed to call colleagues! Best aspect of Priscilla's story is how much hope it instills. Ppl think things can never improve, they're a lost cause, or they have too many issues to ever live a good life and that's not true at all! It can take A LOT but ppl can acheive a better quality of life if they want it.

[@dressypanda]

I really appreciate Priscilla coming on the show and sharing. I live with Borderline and usually steer clear away from any media coverage on the subject because I am so tired of the hurtful stereotypes and kitschy messages that usually come with it. Her perspective means a lot and I'm so glad people can hear from her on this and maybe learn a little more about our experience.

[@Lizzy7700]

I’m crying on my way home listening to this. I needed this. I have so many similar pieces to my story as Pricilla. Molested at a young age by a family member, invalidated by my family, abandoned by my parents emotionally. I went through eating disorder, depression, thoughts of suicide and so much. I’m pretty sure I have personality disorder. I’m just happy I’m at a place where I’m safe in my life and on my journey to heal these triggers and pains that hold me. Thank you pricilla for sharing! I really love seeing someone winning after so much. It gives me hope that I will be okay one day too! Thank for you for this video and sharing.

[@CarlsCozyCorner]

Please interview a DID system next! I am fascinated and heartbroken by that condition and I'd be super interested to hear about how a system works.

[@jordyswaffleblanket]

She already did one

[@jennm911]

@@jordyswaffleblanketdo you know the name of the episode? I can’t seem to find it for some reason. Thanks

[@Silly-kh2kj]

It’s “surviving incest”

[@AnneLien1987]

Amazing interview. I have bpd too and it’s very hard to live with and extremely misunderstood

[@cambeesly]

wow. i resonate with priscilla on so many levels. it is actually frightening. thank you so much for telling your story

[@Viviann258]

Priscilla is amazing and so well spoken. this interview opened my eyes and mind, thank you to Priscilla for sharing and Devorah for having her on the podcast! ❤

[@jayzepickle6637]

Having BPD is like living in hell sometimes. Im too scared to get into relationships now because of how much they impact me. My last breakup I had a panic attack for a week straight because I didnt know how to breathe without this other person in my life. Its awful.

[@jacquelinegutierrez4542]

Priscilla, we appreciate you coming on here and speaking on these very sensitive topics! Such a great speaker!

[@batbox_]

I’m 18 and grappling with my BPD on the daily. Therapy really helps but it’s a lot of work and patience and self control that you feel goes into behaving like one thinks other could naturally. Thank you for this one

[@cassiopeia7017]

Thank you for sharing 🙏 I resonate a lot with your story. You should be so proud of your growth, self-healing and vulnerability ❤

[@uchiesbtch]

i remember having a party phase it was reckless it never stopped i was always in the worst situations its really crazy to look back on now that ik why i did all of it

[@edbrown5956]

Today's generation is really blessed. In the old days it was electroshock therapy, locked up in an asylum where who knows what would happen to the women specifically, or maybe lithium were you could OD easily. Now there is online talk groups and support so you don't feel so alone. There is DBT therapy. And for some that need something right away more med options. Plus there are parents more open to therapy to try and pass down as little as possible on the next generation. (For those who have the means and realize it)

[@bf423]

"if I cud do it, anyone can" That one really hit home for me. Hearing your story with all the craziness involved, then hearing how you've completely turned your life around...it's the first time I've felt real hope in a long time. I'll take that line with me! Thank you so much, such an inspiring episode in so many ways!

[@Northpolenoir]

This is super relatable to me as a fellow borderline Gemini thank you for the honest story’s. Wish you the best in life

[@hummingbirdenthusiast1481]

Really great interview. Thanks for sharing your story. I have a family member with us and well I wish she’d get better. She’s in those crazy years and has block dog contact. It’s so hard it was nice hearing someone on that side she may have your same zodiac sign also. I just appreciate how eloquently you were able to share and helped me understand a lot about myself and my loved one. Thank you again.

[@barbaranaiman9783]

Priscilla this was so fascinating hearing your story thank you for sharing I’m sure you’re helping a lot of people watching this. Devorah another great interview your amazing 👌❤️👍

[@Happy_Joey_co]

THIS IS AMAZING!! So real, so raw and really makes me put into perspective a lot of the reckless behavior I have due to childhood trauma. Thank you so much for speaking, and being vulnerable! ❤

[@bbghoul_x]

Thank you for being so brave to share. So much of it was so relateable. Except I never went to that torture camp. Im so happy youre doing better now. Youre such an inspiration ♡

[@kaysjourney5388]

Wow wow wow ❤ when she said “Kind generous. That’s really me. Even when I was out here wilin’ But the unhealed trauma had me under the influence, that was the gateway drug, That I was consuming. All that pain. That transformed me into someone I wasn’t proud of” what an amazing young woman I’m in literal awe 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@maliekfuller7138]

This was such a great story. I feel she is a prime example of not letting something define you. Priscilla has thrived and achieved great things while dealing with BPD and multiple traumas that the average person would fear of even thinking. Thank you so much for sharing and wishing the best for you and your family!!!

[@soullooker]

I like discussions like these because not only does it maybe help people realize they might have mental health issue. It can also help people who dont have it be more understanding. Humans just need to learn how to communicate with one another by learning about different personality types and what not

[@valerieslatest6842]

They way I BEEN wanting this episode! Manifested it fr 🙏 thank you so much from this I can 10000% relate to her feels good to hear it from someone else W vid

[@angelabowie1271]

I struggled with BPD for a decade. I’ve overcome it (mostly) and I do have my ups and downs but you can undo most of what’s been done. I hope anyone reading this finds healing. Gratitude, book, mindfulness, and nature helps.

[@Nirr100]

Thank you so much for this episode! I have bpd and i live in a very underdeveloped country so this video is gonna help me so much, especially with explaining certain aspects of bpd! ❤

[@Adriana12256]

Just wow. The way this helps understand myself and my reactions to being invalidate and how triggering the smallest form of it can be … just wow 🥺

[@babybunni2385]

thank you for helping to clear the stigma 🥰😍💕 it means so much to hear another's experience.

[@masterofcoin1211]

I’ve known so many people w/ addiction/trauma/BPD due to my own struggles with addiction, and rarely do I see someone with so much intelligence and introspection. It’s to the point no offense to people but that you are “normal”. Like that you can fit into society and hold a position of status in the workplace and speak elegantly. It’s so unfamiliar to me to see someone who presents in this way with the addiction or mental health issues they’ve had. It’s very impressive.

[@kylieroth2326]

Thank you for speaking. For my own drinking issues I had learned through another person on this platform that I actually had some issues myself. For me it was a deep dive into the concept of addicts make rules for themselves on their substance then break those rules. My rule was I don’t black out in front of people. Broke that rule. Quit for a while. I don’t black out in my mothers home. Broke that rule too. That was my major turning point. This video is also making me realize I should maybe look into being evaluated for BPD. So thank you for speaking!

[@Barbara-pn5rd]

I was diagnosed with BPD about 3 years ago, I just want to say thank you so much for sharing your story. This disorder is so misunderstood, and it felt super validating to hear her story and journey. I still feel very lost when it comes to having a handle on my mental illnesses if I'm being honest and I'm just kinda scared for myself and my future

[@leslieanne1671]

It’s so crazy how much this reminds me of how I feel. I’ve had no idea how to explain it.

[@Teez395]

Great episode and thank you for this beautiful lady for sharing her story. I can relate to this as this was most of my young life. It all stems from childhood trauma. But BPD is something that can be worked on with therapy and inner work. It is not a diagnosis for a mental disorder more so a personality disorder that can be healed.

[@cammjonas]

such an amazing women. i am going through a lot of healing and trauma and figuring/unpacking soo much, this gives me so much hope

[@christinel4569]

I loved hearing her speak very self aware and articulate .

[@TheLionkidd]

I don't even know where to start. There are so many experiences I've had that mirror her exact issues, I'm only diagnosed bipolar type 2 and have yet to be rediagnosed since I've had an idea for years towards this disorder so I can receive proper care. I'm just glad she's gotten this far! ❤ I would love to hear more about this lady I hope she returns to this platform I want to hear more about her life

[@boulderbigsly]

Tbh, this video made me feel like I might have some sort of BPD. My sister has it, my father exhibited symptoms of it, and while I've been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and adhd, I absolutely wasn't as honest with my doctors as she was. A lot of what she says that she felt and experienced, I remember feeling and doing when I was younger and have struggled with my entire life. I stopped sharing my thoughts and feelings with most other people because I always felt like they would throw me in the looney bin, which they probably would lol. Her stories and experiences have been some of the only ones that I've ever really felt like I've experienced too, and that's super humbling to me. I had to deal with a lot and correct a lot of my behavior and thinking patterns on my own, and with this video, I feel like I'm able to seek help for my other issues that I'm still working through on my own, without feeling like I'm crazy and while having a starting place for seeking help. That's awesome! Thank you so much for sharing your experiences and thank you for giving her a platform to share them with us!! 😊 Take care!

[@raincoathaveli]

Fantastic interview and the guest was really great.

[@kimskrackin]

the first time i tried getting help for my issues i went with the first psychiatrist that was available, within 10 min of talking she diagnosed me with bipolar and gave me SSRIS, which change the chemistry in your brain. this messed me up so bad that i stopped everything & didnt get help again. i feel for her & im glad she was able to move forward from people not really listening to her. if you are unsure of your mental health professional you are probably right because you know yourself the most & you should seek out better ones ❤

[@free-the-whales]

Great interview, thank you of sharing. I listened to the entirety. I especially liked the bit on faith as well. God bless.

[@e30ollie]

her intelligence just radiates. i love her

[@alissamccreight3447]

It has been a long time since i have had someone i could genuinely say i admire and look up to. I am 23 now and for as long as i can remember i loved to read and write. Some of my esrliest memorys are of my mom reading to ke ajd my sisters early in the morning as we all lay in her bed before school. She was very animated and i honestly believe she is a HUGE part in the reasoning behind why i grew up loving books and why i still do. Anyways- Priscilla is so, so, so, sooooo, well spoken and as much as i love to read and write and as many people tell me that i am good at it when they read what i write, unfortunately i am not as good at talking, espefially without having it writen down. I tend to stumble on my words and backtrack, i lost some of my hearing when i was in a coma at 22 due to an overdose snd my heart stopping. So even though i struggled with a lisp and the volume i spoke at al my life, now i struggle even more forgetting that even though i can hear and understand ehat im saying most likely im speaking too low and too fast for everyone else. Well i dont really leave comments but she deserves one, i want to get back into writing as i stopped a little after my mom died

[@dianagaies]

I have never met anybody who’s story and battles have been almost identical to mine when it comes to ways of coping with trauma. Borderliner and Gemini as well. I feel heard, seen, understood. The mirroring is insane! Thank you for sharing this! 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@psulux]

I understand exactly where you're at. My former girlfriend has the same. She is a great loving lovely person. But in an episode motivated by alcohol she would become dangerously manic. Still love and miss her.

[@Camiiila23]

I have bpd and the topic matter, especially when talking about her first relationship hit so close to home... it's hard to leave abusers when they're remorseful. It really perpetuates the cycle

[@Zoe_Gl]

I love that you let the guests talk for so long

[@urbanrealism237]

Being a Gemini Borderline Personality I understood so much of this

[@indesomniac]

I relate to a lot of these experiences; there have been times I've wondered if I'm Borderline or not, but I do have OCD and autism which combined can manifest in a similar way.

[@LunaBear-dz6mb]

Have almost all of the symptoms and even brought it up to my therapist my concerns but am yet to be diagnosed. I feel feelings too much and to the point of hurting myself to relieve the pain. I always thought my carefree way of living life was a positive thing but I can see how it can be dangerous bc a healthy fear of situations and violence is needed and possibly that is blocked with borderline making it an exciting thing or just part of our life but that is not normal I am learning. Thank you for sharing this it really helps to be able to compare experiences

[@Mrsmorganrose]

Thank you Priscilla for helping me feel seen today ♥️

[@KickingZebra]

As per bulimia, always be careful. I had anorexia from 9yrs old till 16/17 when I mixed it with bulimia. For months in between inwoikd just binge & purge, even after seeing a friend bleed from it. I quit doing it by age 33 & dealing with traumas it slipped itself back in at age 47! I be careful w/ ED'S. There is no recovery- only remission.

[@user-yu9hn8yx4m]

“in order to be heard, i had to take it to an extreme” i felt this way to much as a person who also has bpd.

[@jessicaunderwood4005]

"the unhealed trauma we went through was the gateway drug." Holy. Shit.

[@slylover123]

She didnt reveal that much but she was still so brave

[@user-lt6vj4gq4l]

Your parents sound to have provided such strong love & support ❕ Well done for surviving & helping others ❕⭐️

[@eddiesland93]

Besides any disorder we're all human.❤️

[@arisdanielle0032]

I am going through my own healing journey, now 24 years old. I also was molested by my grandfather .. this is making me reflect more and dig deeper. Thank you for speaking your truth and helping us strangers.

[@junemarieweaver974]

I just want to let people know that if you’re eating extremely large amounts of food after a lengthy time of restriction, you’re not binge eating!! It’s called extreme hunger and it’s your body’s way of overriding your brain to save you from starving to death. You’re body is saving you. You aren’t doing anything wrong. Your body needs the calories. Binge eating happens when you have enough calorie storage and have not restricted, but are eating for emotional fulfillment or self-harm without restriction beforehand. ❤

[@esteehanvey5647]

excited to watch this episode 💕