Loneliness

[@_BatCountry]

I'm sorry if you notice a few glitches on this video, that's been happening since I switched to MacOS from Windows about 6 months ago, and I can't seem to get to the bottom of it. I figured it's not distracting enough to refilm it. Hope it doesn't bother anyone too much.

[@NilsExp]

It just gives it character 🥰 happy holidays 🎁

[@ShadesOClarity]

Unsubbed. A little Coleridge, eh? How about this: I hate the world that I think hates me Punch holes in the wall you know that hurts me Feel dark and cold alone it burns me Wish someone would come and touch me Walkin' alone in the prison yard Seein' eyes that seem to see me so hard Crawlin' like a snake right back in to my room Feelin' like a dead man rolling around in my tomb - Henry Rollins

[@ZackaryHayward]

It's the brutal honest content that matters!

[@weemikeyd]

Fk the glitches lol, the content was excellent as usual. Crazy amount of identification yet again. Keep putting the vids out and the youtube algorithim will pick it up properly at some point. Easily the best videos on alcoholism and recovery out there

[@_BatCountry]

@@ShadesOClarity "Unnervingly polite, and capably violent." - Henry Rollins. A rule I live by.

[@jacobdalton6868]

I got left for another man 3 days before christmas this year. Still sober, still pushing, 140 days down and forever counting. Go through your loneliness sober. Dig deep. You are exactly where you need to be. With love (heavy heartedly at the moment), dedication and prosperity. - Jacob from Boston

[@martymusselwhite7423]

Congratulations on your sobriety! Just whatever, don't drink today!!

[@lpsglitterpaws8536]

I’m proud of you Jacob. You will make it through and you deserve better

[@_BatCountry]

Sorry to hear about your hardships - I happen to know the holiday season is the biggest time for break ups. But your advice is great. I'm sure you are already, but just so it's said: make sure you follow that advice yourself. Dig deep mate.

[@jonathanturkmusic]

I got dumped this year too buddy, don't let it cause a relapse like I did, I ended up on a 2 month heartbreak bender. All the best.

[@thegafferlives]

She did you a favour. Being single is awesome.

[@McDanger1]

Brutal honesty as always, that connected massively with me. I drank because I was lonely, and I was lonely because I drank. ODAAT

[@shakinghell1318]

Man, I’ve missed these videos. I’m feeling really secure in my sobriety right now and this has just inspired me further. Thank you, Batcountry. Best wishes for 2025 and beyond ❤

[@_BatCountry]

I'm delighted to hear that, I'm feeling pretty secure too. Onwards and upwards.

[@GeneHartMusic]

I needed this video. I made it through Christmas and just found out I’m getting divorced. Still hanging on after seven years, but I know how easy it would be to have that one drink that ruins everything. Sobriety is even more important than my kid, because without it I don’t have him and he won’t have me. Edit: “The truth was I hated myself.” Yes. Why would anyone want to be around someone like me? That hit home.

[@_BatCountry]

Congratulations on your long sobriety, if I haven't said it before. Even after seven years, you only have to get through today, and then do the same tomorrow.

[@GeneHartMusic]

@ Thanks Stu. I really appreciate the response. Your videos and those of the broader YT sobriety community remind me of where I was that last day. Now it’s time to start hitting the rooms again.

[@eric-jr2nf]

I relapsed right before xmas, but thankfully it lasted just a day and a night and I was sober again since.

[@wotruannwah5678]

Hey, that sounds like progress, congrats

[@Mid-TierBrad]

Man... so did I. Feels like lots of lost progress. But all you can do is make sure it doesn't happen on New Years Eve

[@CMoore8539]

Sometimes relapse happens. The fact that you got right back up is the Only Thing that counts!😊💞

[@eric-jr2nf]

​@@Mid-TierBrad I thought also it was lost progress two days later, but now about a week later fully sober it feels like I never relapsed.

[@Khaospice10]

7 days going ! Focusing day by day nothing else can do

[@brandonotto6076]

so relatable with wanting to be left alone but then the pain from isolating just makes things worse. Sober for almost a year now and the loneliness is real

[@Tommie.ManicGK]

It was my 46th birthday on Saturday and I relapsed. But I'm sober today. Here's to starting the new year sober! Have a good one man!

[@JamesTopham-t4y]

Hey keep going, no matter what don't drink today

[@Tommie.ManicGK]

@JamesTopham-t4y Hey, thanks for the word's. It's 6:15 AM 1/1/2025 here in Sydney and I got through NYE sober. So I'm starting the new year with a win. Taking it an hour at a time for now.

[@flangecorp9789]

Well done brother. 42 here, relapsed New Year’s Day whilst alone. Staying sober, but obsessed over getting some weed to help me sleep. Hanging in there, much like you. Stay strong brother. 2025 will be better 🙏

[@heikoreinhard]

You really are a gifted storyteller, thank you for these insights! Abandoned places also attract me and in my drinking days I often found myself leaving the party early just to sit down for the rest of the night on my couch "finishing" my intoxication with beers and sentimental and nostalgic thoughts on my own... All the best for 2025!

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you! That's very kind. Happy new year, and good luck with your progress.

[@JakeOfLordran]

That part about the wanting a lodge with a lake view, the story about the fair.. I relate exactly to that. That idea was my entire last year, except the plan was Alaska, and the fair was the shopping center across the street. Ended up with me in the hospital twice and the worst DT’s and withdrawals I’d ever experienced. Was almost dead. I was drinking 9 pints of vodka a day at 1 point. Been sober now for over a month and your channel has been a HUGE part of that, so thanks man for all this you do, I can’t imagine how many folks like me you’ve helped get sober. I think genetics may have saved my life ( I’m originally from Belarus) and come from an entire family like this. I’m done with it

[@tompearce6312]

Now I think about it my drinking first became a problem when I started doing it on my own. When you drink with friends it can be excessive, but then you stop because you've all stopped and maybe you suffer through the hangover together. Once you start drinking on your own you have the option to make every single evening a "nice" one. Nice with zero effort required, switch off the anxious thoughts, get a gentle transition into sleep. So many nights I sat up drinking wine in bed alone because I knew it would get me off to sleep. Took me so long to accept and understand you always pay it back with interest when you use alcohol.

[@_BatCountry]

Oh man that's so true. Alcohol is a false economy in so many ways.

[@bellyOfaTiger]

My father was a chronic alcoholic. To the point that if he went more than 6 hours without a drink, he'd fall into a seizure. I ended up cutting contact with him and didn't see or speak to him for 6 years. I saw him literally the day before he passed. He couldn't talk, he was in a diaper, and he looked like a ghoul. Even the hospice nurses gave him a shot of whiskey every 4 hours to ease his pain. I swore I'd never be like him, but I ended up hanging around a group of "friends" who disregarded that and I ended up wasting the majority of my 20s in a drunken haze. Not to mention growing up in extreme poverty, being bullied in school and getting in abusive relationships certainly didn't help either. I know what I did was stupid, and the shame kept me drinking. I haven't been around those guys for almost 10 years and yet somehow they still had a hold on me through my drinking habits because I just couldn't stop. It's still a vicious cycle of shame knowing they got a hold on me. I haven't drank in over 6 months because I said some horrible things to my wife. She left the house for a week, but during that time I poured out all the alcohol down the kitchen sink and haven't had a drop since. I still have urges and drink an unhealthy amount of Sprite on my late weekend nights and after I get home from work, but I make sure to drink at least half a gallon of water per day, exercise, and sit down with my guitars and basses and write music again. Shame doesn't have to define me, and even when I almost breakdown after a bad day and go to the liquor store, I pull over, reprioritize my thoughts, and go back home.

[@Matt-s7r6h]

Your level of honesty and truth is something i haven't found from many people. I can not describe in words how much your channel means to me as well as many other people...dont ever stop my friend! One of my biggest flaws is feeling like i have to battle my problems alone, i dont and nor does anybody else! Good luck to you all out there struggling!

[@caroline1991ct]

Yaaaay new Bat Country vid ❤ Thanks for sharing Stu. Appreciate you.

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you for the continued support!

[@Markyard77]

You're right. This longform format of video is much better than the daily shorts. BTW, you should do a video on coffee.. What kinds of coffee, and how you brew, etc. Wishing you life's best

[@_BatCountry]

I agree mate, I much prefer this format. It was an interesting experiment, but a failed one. And wow that's such a good idea, I might take you up on that!

[@inkstainedpanda501]

I am currently battling my way out of yet another relapse, it is so f-ing hard and your videos are so soothing - so thank you from the bottom of my heart, my man ❤

[@_BatCountry]

Good luck with it mate. It'll stick when you're ready to let it.

[@j2626-u2g]

poignant video/ great timing ~~ happy new year!!!!~~~

[@kellyarnold1521]

Bat country!!! I love you man, I’m a terrible, awful alcoholic too. I found your page a bit ago and am 63 days today after several years of trying and 10-15 relapses. Been feelin lonely lately because I had to cut so many people off…I’m so glad this is the topic you picked! I need it today, wow, much love!!!

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks for watching, and congrats on your sober time. It starts to get a little easier at the 3 month mark, so keep at it, and stay vigilant.

[@waffles418]

I have an unofficially adopted son who is an alcoholic. He was abused, has a couple of mental illness diagnoses, and has been drinking heavily since he was a teenager. He's currently serving some time in prison for attempted arson and domestic violence. I watch your videos so I can get a better understanding of what his life is and has been like.

[@LHM-fj7cj]

Gifted story teller Bat. You are helping a lot of people with your gift. I’m just a non drinker from Idaho who appreciates your content and the pay forwardness of so many of these sobriety channels. It is lemonade out of the lemon. ❤️

[@Shedly81]

Love your content man, most of us have stories as crazy as yours in one shape or form - keep it going!

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you so much! One day at a time.

[@positivelivingmusic5497]

I'm an alcoholic who goes through several month periods of sobriety before a horrific three to four day binge. I'm impressed by your boozy narrative. It's like you're a British Charles Bukowski.

[@NickFlood-p5n]

Thanks for these videos, they seem to appear with perfect timing. I can relate so much to your accounts of not so sweet oblivion. Stay well. 🙏

[@_BatCountry]

Stay well brother. One day at a time.

[@NickFlood-p5n]

@@_BatCountry you too 👍

[@NickEnnis-km1ik]

You are brilliant. Highly articulate, honest and engaging. I appreciate the time you spend making the videos. They cheer me up. Thank you 🙏

[@_BatCountry]

I'm glad to hear that mate. Thanks for watching and for the support!

[@davidlafond8327]

You really do have a gift for storytelling! I'm hanging on your every word in this video, especially when you describe the loneliness of alcoholism which I can relate to! You're also one of the only youtubers that has the ability to make me laugh, cry, get angry, and self-reflect all in one video, and I love it! You along with other content creators in this niche such as LD and Slayer-Sober have been very helpful to me in my recovery! Instead of running away from all these emotions that I've carried inside me for years, I'm learning to embrace them and deal with them head on, without alcohol. Thank you so much!! ❤

[@LiamCostelloe-f3m]

Thank you so much for this video. It makes so much sense how heavy drinking we try to hide.but when you can't walk straight. Oh no see those look down and you are down! Wishing everyone love to stay sober ❤

[@Jpg700]

Every sentence hit harder than the last. That describes it exactly, even from a teenager it's attempted suicide where you want someone to stop you but at the same time you don't. The dark room disgusts you, but you don't want to be anywhere else. I'm great, but I'm not simultaneously.

[@_BatCountry]

Absolutely. Alcohol is a writhing mass of mutually exclusive contradictions all at once.

[@aimeefox9745]

I’m sat here drunk jow, watching this and all you other episodes, and feel so terrible for how my drinking affects those others I want a connection with, they help me for a time and then I relapse, bu regardless, they help, thankyou

[@_BatCountry]

Get it beat, and all that negativity will dissolve away. One day at a time.

[@stevekozle7247]

Excellent message. I felt all of what you said. I am the same kind of isolating, suffering in silence drinker. Glad I’m not the only one.

[@ananda_miaoyin]

The hardest part of all of this: You know "The Answer" the whole time.

[@_BatCountry]

Yeah! And then after you've got some sobriety under your belt, you kick yourself for not getting it together earlier.

[@ananda_miaoyin]

@@_BatCountry Never look back - only forward!

[@hanginlaundry360]

Gripping video. Worth a second listen. I'm not an alcoholic, but have known a few. You have a remarkable story!

[@barclaycalvert]

I love these Romantisized storys,doom and gloom with excitement x

[@AlexanderAndreassen123]

Your story resonates strongly. I never had a brain injury, but I topped off three rounds aggressive chemo with beers and then quickly moved to vodka. Went from a problem drinker to withdrawals in record time. The lonely doomscrolling, the thankfulness for the cessation of any kind of contact, the loneliness that you both seek and hate is all very relatable. I’m sober now (16 days), and the instinct is still there. I’ve had a bottle of wine I got for Christmas in my room, and barely thought about it, so at least it doesn’t seem like the alcohol has a hold of me anymore. For now at least.

[@Ironboots123]

I’m grateful to begin 2025 sober. Day number 77 on my sobriety journey. One of my favorite songs was “I drink alone” by George T

[@ronaldmodrall8206]

I wanted to thank you brother. Our drinking history is very similar and your stories are horrific reminders of what I never want to experience again! Keep up the great work.

[@mattkenyon212]

Good to see you back pal. I’m exactly the same. Good times triggers just as powerful as bad. I remember in the summer I’d convinced the long suffering best thing that’s ever happened to me to give us a chance. We went out. She stayed the night and I dropped her at the train station in the morning. I was in such a high I decided to get 3 big bottles of lager and sit in the early morning sun in the garden. This led to a full on two week binge and she left for good. That was 5 months ago 😢

[@_BatCountry]

It happens so fast doesn't it?

[@mariadaly4673]

I think the scariest thing is always being on the cusp never knowing like you said good times or bad it doesn't matter it's like the grim reaper it sits next to you watching and waiting

[@_BatCountry]

Exactly. I feel it's breath on my neck all the time.

[@Nicethingsnotdrinking]

Your definition of loneliness is the most accurate and poetic thing I have ever read

[@gilesparker2369]

Very timely video given the struggles many have at this time of year. Good to have the longer entries to look forward to from Bat Country. Happy New Year to all those souls listening to these soothing words.

[@cragbolman]

Thank you Mr Bat Country. I did the same. I switched my bargain booze shops because I was embarrassed about going to the same one near me because she'd think I was an alcoholic. Never been diagnosed as one but I know I am. After taking early retirement from work its got worse. I'm done after new year eve, and hopefully can be strong enough. Thanks for your videos, I haven't been a single day without vodka for over 20yrs. Don't get blind drunk just tend to drink it slowly through the day. But looking at my money calendar it's about 19 litres a month. I will hopefully succeed in quitting.

[@_BatCountry]

I wish you the very best mate. You've already done the hardest part: recognising it as a problem. It's onwards and upwards from here.

[@Misthema]

Silent whispers in the night, shadows dance beyond the light. The world turns, but here I stay, alone to face another day. A fragile heart, a weary soul, the void within, it takes its toll. Yet stars still shine, a fleeting guide, in the emptiness where dreams collide. Each sip, a story, each drop, a flame, a moment to forget the name. Not escape, but company, a fleeting sense of harmony. In this stillness, I see the end - Loneliness is my friend, but alcohol is not my enemy.

[@Dan99664]

Great video Stu! I remember it took give or take a week of a binge before I would stop going to pubs or attempting to socialise with the shopkeeper. The sounds of the outside world in particular became almost physically painful and would make me cringe in bed.

[@ryanpotter9685]

I've been trying to get sober for several months, and I'm currently coming out of a relapse. I find your videos incredibly useful, because my own experiences and beliefs regarding alcohol have some similarities to yours. Thank you for what you are doing.

[@lncasterw1ls0n68]

Been looking forward to another long video. Thanks for the good shit. Keep doin what your doin

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks mate, I hope you're doing good today.

[@christopherarmbruster6241]

It’s good to have your videos agin. It means a lot to me Just talk n talk I miss it when u don’t. Your a help in me staying sober. Thank u.

[@biomassmoth]

i envy your journey. My alcoholism isn't like that. I was never popular with girls, i was never travelling, hell i lived in extreme poverty most of my life, i just wanted the drink to make the pain of existence disappear. I never even left my country, never. The problems with money, lack of education and severe depression has sealed my fate as a lonely, alcoholic incel. But i guess the destination is the same for all of us.

[@_BatCountry]

Where are you from?

[@biomassmoth]

@_BatCountry Poland

[@pattiNBerkeley]

Another great one, Stu - thank you. I can heavily relate to your brand of dysfunction. Thank you for sharing your great gifts of language (british, right?), imagery, turn of phrase, yes great charm, etc. I'm hoping that our enjoyment, and inevitable expectations, of what you give us does not create a sense of responsibility, resulting in obligation, then stress, etc. But that would be part of MY brand, which I am projecting. Anyway, my great and good comraaaaaade, you could read the phone book and make it sound fascinating. Presto, I've just dated myself (someone's got to!). PS, for you young persons, a "phone book" was a publication that folks used, back in the day, to facilitate connecting to one another. You can google it for a chuckle.

[@_BatCountry]

Yep, British. And yes, I actually do feel some obligation and stress over this stuff sometimes, now that you mention it. But I'm better at handling stress today than I used to be, if you know what I mean. Thanks for the continuing support!

[@snipersareusful]

Been sober this last month and really enjoyed being alone over the holidays to reflect and chill out. It’s been great not going to work every day and travelling all the time . Just peace and quiet. That cabin in the forest sounds good. I’ve been thinking about a small house on a remote beach in Australia where I live. Beautiful place with sun and places to walk and fish. Hope you’re well bro.

[@NilsExp]

I'm on and off but not getting too wasted, I plan to go sober after new years, I'm surrounded by drinking and holiday parties right now so it would be pretty difficult to not drink with everyone. The sober/relapse cycle is coming to an end, I'm learning to cope without booze, practice practice. Best sober wishes to everyone for 2025 🫶

[@ananda_miaoyin]

Dry January....

[@expowe57]

Your content hits to close to home. I’ve said for years I don’t care if I wake up tomorrow. So I drink that liter or two of vodka before bed so I don’t know what’s coming. And I realized the alcohol isn’t really the problem it’s me. And alcohol had been my only friend and lover for some years now. Thank you for your content

[@CMoore8539]

Thumbs Up 👍 and Shared Out Stu. Sobriety is Tough but the consequences of drinking is far Worse. It’s just that simple.

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you as ever. Happy New Year to you and yours!

[@harrypeterson3689]

2 months sober, thank you for all the videos has helped me heaps

[@ButteryRagdoll]

Thank you for posting this. It helped me come to terms with parts of myself

[@Angl0sax0nknight]

I never thought I had a problem with alcohol even though when I drank I couldn’t stop and would blackout. I’m also a have a problem with narcotics. Was addicted to painkillers for 15+ years. I got clean from the pills but then alcohol took it’s place. Sober for 4 days.

[@weemikeyd]

Same story as myself although it was the brown powder first then the booze. Different potions, same illness

[@_BatCountry]

Good luck with it mate. If you beat the pills, you can beat this too.

[@linsy2827]

Such a good video. I've been in AA for over 7 years, but it's still necessary for me to be reminded of what is possible if I don't stay vigilant ❤ ty

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks for watching, and congratulations on your progress. 7 years is pretty inspirational, you should be very proud!

[@benlopez8661]

Thank you so much for your videos man, you've helped me in a major way, and I'm sure a lot of others aswel

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks mate, that means a lot.

[@lisagreene1458]

My Mom recently passed, I fell off the wagon. Hopefully I'll jump back on tomorrow 😢 but we know how tomorrow goes. I been strong before. I can do it again!

[@_BatCountry]

The death of a parent is one of the hardest tests we can face in sobriety. I throws a lot of us off the wagon. Don't beat yourself up for too long about it, all you're doing as adding to your sadness. Like you said, you've been strong before. You can do it again.

[@lisagreene1458]

@_BatCountry thank you for the advice!

[@thething00]

Glad to see a new video. Was worried when i realised i hadnt seen your advent calendar videos for a while.

[@juniormint68]

The background was helpful. Big fan. 😊

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you for the support!

[@123ashiqajith]

Mate, your a gem in this land. Your honesty is something thats rare in these days. In all honesty, ever since i found alcohol, I realised how beautiful life can be if you can numb the voice. My sober baseline was of miserable pit, alcohol bought me to a level where life was worth living, and i wonderd to myself, is this how normal peope feel? Nevertheless, i fell into the pit and my own family are almost done with me, Im a semi high functioning alcoholic, but even i know myself the days are numbered. I just don't want to be sober because i cannot be in my own skin and live as me, it is as if i am alien who controls a body. Alcohol is the only thing thing that sets me in, even to my own determint. I dont really have any answers, bit glad as fuck your speaking for us. Your a voice for the voice less.

[@harrybaker9044]

Another awesome, soothing, insightful video. Thank you Stu, you are appreciated.

[@robbdrums]

Love it though and appreciate you putting it out there being honest and vulnerable, top stuff

[@js1mom]

We, as humans, have terrible tendencies to forget...

[@_BatCountry]

That's so true. Pain is quickly forgotten.

[@Mittens23]

Completely agree x

[@adycolligan]

I applaud 👏 your honesty 👏 🙌 Stu.I can relate to this .Thank you

[@_BatCountry]

Thanks for watching and for the support mate.

[@twistedassisted3474]

Hey Stu, hope you had a good xmas mate. Longform or shortform both equally good content. A compelling meditation on loneliness.

[@_BatCountry]

Oh mate you just reminded me, one of the Christmas videos I didn't publish featured the token you had made for me. I take it everywhere. I'll make sure I get it in the next video. I want to grab a knife too for the new year, so I'm sure my name will pop up in your orders soon.

[@bonniechick]

It's good to see you. I was wondering where you've been.

[@jamesewanchook2276]

A boozy life is tough. From a 64 year old musician three quarters through a a lonesome 26er on New Year's Eve. God bless you, me, and the world. Cheers from Vancouver.

[@timheavyable]

I was introduced to alcohol at 11 by my sexual abuser. The abuse stopped when I was 14 but I was already alcoholic. Did my first detox at 17. I'm now 47 and lost decades to heroin and alcohol. I can go months without booze but will slip and drink a bottle of gin. I come from a family that has both my sets of grandparents were alcoholics. Many uncles were alcoholics. I also have BPD. I can barely function at times.. I am off the heroin 11 years but am on methadone. I am very lonely. I never had kids,never had a girl friend as I find intimacy impossible due to my childhood rape. I have spent a lot of time in psych wards. I have no real friends. All i feel is depression and social isolation. I love your channel

[@flangecorp9789]

I’m so sorry to hear that, I have had a nightmare 2024 which involved an alcohol related arrest. Months of solo isolated drinking commenced. Relapsed New Year’s Day but remaining sober for the moment. The nights seem the most lonely. I hope you are doing ok and wish you a better 2025. Don’t beat yourself up if you relapse. My counsellors constantly tell me this. Stay strong brother.

[@maciejmandus]

Thanks for your videos brother. Great channel. One day at a time

[@_BatCountry]

One day at a time mate. Thanks for watching, and for the support.

[@wanderingwanderer7559]

I appreciate your videos. I have unpackaged my addiction over a decade and landed on the fact that I am transgender and was unwilling to live until I confronted this within myself. So 10 years of addiction self pity and hurting everyone around me because I was to scared to look inward. Been sober since transitioning. Anyway I hope it stays that way and just wanted to add my story to the pile and just wanted to say thanks for your role in keeping me on the straight and narrow.

[@_BatCountry]

Oh wow, congratulations! I'd love to see more stories like yours in the spotlight, rather than rich straight white man stuff like mine. Have you talked about it in detail anywhere?

[@wanderingwanderer7559]

Thank you! I haven’t yet but have started writing a bit about it so maybe Il film something and put it up here.

[@Kingp456]

23:08 lol 😂😂😂 true. Appreciate the video mate, fantastic as always

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you mate, and I'm glad you agree!

[@Kazwell111]

love the set lighting

[@chrisedwards5753]

One of your best yet Bat. Poetic Yours in sobriety.

[@_BatCountry]

Oh thank you so much!

[@redpilledsimp_5010]

I"m celebrating second year of not smoking. I'll drink 1 to that! A coffee that is....

[@jamesgorden5072]

congrats man!

[@wotruannwah5678]

I like the backlighting, very cyberpunk

[@_BatCountry]

I'm glad you said that, because the I think the lighting's a mess in this one. I almost re-filmed it. I appreciate the support.

[@robbdrums]

Wow, that's so true. I visit 3 different mini-supermarkets to avoid the idea of being seen frequently even though it's London and noone probably even realises. I understand that empty feeling of people not looking at you too, that is sheer loneliness

[@nickjohnson4923]

Great work Stu, love the music and vibe complete. Kudos, best for 2025 in Bat Country.

[@_BatCountry]

Happy New Year mate!

[@johng.gaydos3868]

Thank you for sharing helps me feel not alone

[@richardturner769]

I can relate to the role that loneliness plays in alcohol abuse. That’s why community and connection to others is so vital a part of recovery

[@_BatCountry]

Yeah I agree. Sobriety sometimes requires an entire personality change, you have to force yourself to learn to accept friends.

[@dirtypatwalsh]

Great video Stu! Always so good! At 13:29 I know 💯percent what you likely were feeling. Great content…if I could like it twice I would 👍👍

[@Rick_Cleland]

I've failed after thirteen weeks. My entire existence is characterized by profound suffering, depicted by deep despair and marked by a constant sense of anguish, filled with overwhelming distress and relentless misery.

[@eric-jr2nf]

@@Rick_Cleland You are not alone, man. It's for me also the reason I became a drinker. I was a teetotaler before without ever getting tempted.

[@Rick_Cleland]

@eric-jr2nf thank you for writing back, thanks I'm really not well right now, forgive me.

[@mickrozycki451]

Your feelings of hopelessness and anguish are understandable. It's that pain that leads you to numbing agents. I see it in many people. I hope you have friends or family to reach out to for help. If not.. then you must try to contact a AA group for support. Talking about your struggles with them might help.

[@jmcc7886]

another great video, many thanks from Jenny

[@CJMS1983]

Happy New Year Stu! Once again thanks mate for sharing your personal story and helping a lot of people. God bless us. Deus vult

[@_BatCountry]

Happy New Year to you and yours mate.

[@CJMS1983]

Many thanks mate. Peace ✌️

[@ashleyfowler1776]

Wow. I mentioned before that we are the same kind of drinkers and we’re about the same age and have the same drinking timeline too. I haven’t drank in over 3 years. Half of my life has been shame riddled… keeps me sober. Loneliness. Feeling bad. All the same. Let’s keep going sober.

[@_BatCountry]

3 years is huge. Congratulations. And yeah, some people tell me I shouldn't, but shame and negativity are great motivators for me.

[@anacharsis93]

I'm also drawn to abandoned places. Makes you feel like you're the only one that keeps them in existence. I'd go to to them drunk sometimes, but not always. But I don't have any abandoned places to go to now, which is slightly depressing. I have a family now, which is amazing! But I still kinda want a place...

[@soulstorm_music]

I had to lol when you mentioned what we want; I've said for years now, that I just want to be in middle of nowhere rural Italy with an acre to work, and Starlink broadband 😂❤

[@lpsglitterpaws8536]

I was planning on doing dry January but I didn’t feel the need to wait until 1/1/2025, so I started on 12/21/2024. Today is New Year’s Day and I’m 12 days sober. I never want to go back to that poison!☠️

[@Chubnubcharlez]

You’re a great storyteller brother

[@David-hh7og]

So spot on. There's always a reason to drink. People who don't get it will never understand. They say just don't drink, which is like saying to an anorexic to just eat that steak and chips.

[@_BatCountry]

Yeah exactly. It's just not like that in practice is it?

[@sagedandy123]

Fav person to listen to on yt

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you, that's very kind. I hope you're doing good.

[@TorillaTortilla]

My main problem that led me to consume too much alcohol for view years now, has been a struggle with my autism/adhd & small developmental disability. It just kind of feels like life threw me a free gift of misery. Can't relate to others because of those things.

[@justananon9392]

I’m here because I’m alone and cold. God bless you all struggling with this.

[@Romanov3579]

Great video ❤❤❤❤

[@TheCowardStrikesBack]

Great video and topic. Thank you.

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you mate!

[@mikhailpaggao253]

Febuary was supposed to be my 1 year mark of sobriety. Right now I'm in almost a month of relapse. Constantly drinking brandy 24/7. At least when I'm not passed out. And I can't stop. I know I can stop. I just don't know when. I've done it countless times, either if I'm in the hospital, out of money or my body just rejects the toxins too much.

[@sagedandy123]

How I relate to this is crazed. Not as bad but almost. Jeeze you get it. 😮

[@Tommie.ManicGK]

Oh Stu another day in paradise before hell again tonight. I've tried so hard....

[@jonmintz37]

2nd time I listened to it. Thanks.

[@lynntalley1524]

First time watching..like what you say..the music is something to get used to..thank you .

[@johng.gaydos3868]

Wow that was deep thank you for sharing

[@_BatCountry]

Thank you for watching mate, and for your comments.

what's the song playing in the background in the intro? it's beautiful