Looking back after ten years

[@CamillaHolm]

I am one of the very lonely with hardly any support from family. And here I am five years later, looking at KZbin-videos when the pain is overwhelming. It does help, and I am grateful that you shared. Thank you.

[@barbaradw9969]

I am sorry that you have had to deal with this. I pray that you have had some counseling to help you with this “new” path that you are on. I totally understand what you are dealing with. Although, I myself have not lost a Child to Suicide, I am a 3x Survivir. My eldest Brother, took his own life, one of my nephews took his own life at the age of 21. Mental Illness runs in my family, unfortunately. I have been hospitalized 4 times and have been in Counseling most of my life. I am 64+ years of age. My brother was 48 when he left us. We have a close family friend that just took his life in March, he was 37. Although it is hard for those that are still here, this world is so depressing that those that were lucky enough to have succeeded, are no longer in pain, nor do they have to deal with this crazy life we are trying to live. Some days, I feel as though, what is the purpose, eat, work, sleep, pay utilities, taxes, rent or mortgage and do it all again the next day.