Maddie Zahm - You Might Not Like Her (Official Music Video)

"You Might Not Like Her" by Maddie Zahm from her debut EP 'You Might Not Like Her', out now via AWAL.
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LYRICS
If you would’ve told me
I’d throw away my purity ring
In the middle of an airport
My younger self would laugh
Would never believe that
It’s against everything that we stood for
She’d hate that I've smoke weed
And cuss frequently
And she’d try to convert
Everyone I call a bestie
You’ll throw shots in the dark
Then blackout at a bar
There will be good and there will be bad parts
Someday you’ll kiss a girl and you’ll panic
Some guy will break your heart and you’ll feel manic
Then You’ll learn to let people have their opinions
And talk about your traumas and like the body you live in
Someday you’ll learn to keep your own secrets
Say you’re doing okay and really mean it
You’ll lose your faith a bit
And question if she’s you
And for awhile you might not like her
But I do
Somedays feel like whiplash
One eighties and you’ll hate that
You’ll label yourself just to take it back
Convince yourself you’re not bi
Cause you’re way too into guys
And the first time you have sex you’ll cry
You’ll sometimes skip meals
And numb how you feel
And you’ll miss the old you but here’s the deal
The good girl you were was really fucking bad at being real
Someday you’ll think you disappoint your parents
But they’ll love you not despite but regardless
Then you’ll learn to let people have shitty opinions
And talk about your traumas and like the body you live in
Someday you’ll learn to keep your own secrets
Say you’re doing okay and really mean it
You’ll lose your faith a bit and question if shes you
And for awhile you might not like her but I do
CREDITS
DIRECTOR: Gus Black
PRODUCERS: Kelly Norris Sarno, Ashley Whelan, Gus Black
DIRECTOR OF PHOTOGRAPHY: Tim Toda
1ST AC: Jorge Olortegui
STEADICAM: Garet Lee Jatsek
2nd AC: Kody Newton
1ST ASSISTANT DIRECTOR: McKena Vigilant
2nd ASSISTANT DIRECTOR: Ashley Whelan
PRODUCTION MANAGER | ASSOCIATE PRODUCER: Jacob Brumfield
PRODUCTION COORDINATOR: Tashia Yeates-Brumfield
GAFFER: Pat Metzler
BEST BOY: George Hysmith
KEY GRIP: Bill Zuehl
GRIP: Dan Misner
PRODUCTION DESIGNER: Nichole Stull
SET DRESSER: Coral Clark
WARDROBE: Amanda (Mariko) Hipperson
ASSISTANT WARDROBE: Amanda Fitch
KEY HAIR & MAKE UP: Carolina Ballesteros
ASSISTANT HMU: Amanda Woods
STILLS ASSISTANT: Lauren Withrow
PA’s: Toni Hagan, Dre Denise, Nate Hardy
CASTING: Lynn Pattnosh, Catrine McGregor & Madalyn VanValkenburgh
BTS: Elizabeth Findley
LABEL: AWAL
VIDEO COMMISSIONER: Bianca Bhagat
SENIOR DIRECTOR, PRODUCT MANAGEMENT: Sarah Goodman
ARTIST MANAGEMENT: Christian Stavros and Heather Kolker
CAST
5 YR OLD MADDIE: Wynter Woods
12 YR OLD MADDIE: Jillian Anderson
19 YR OLD MADDIE: Laney Olson
MOM/DAD: Elicia & Robert Zahm
BOY IN CAR: Isaac Flake
THERAPIST: Shana Tavares
BULLY 1: Zion Gomes
BULLY 2: Jaxon Katseanes
BULLY 3: Rex Adams
KID IN POOL 1: Dutchin Stull
KID IN POOL 2: Nyah Woods
KID IN POOL 3: Olivia Woods
KID IN POOL 4 : Ozzy Marlatt
FREAK ALLY GIRL: McKenna Esteb
YOU MIGHT NOT LIKE HER
WRITTEN BY: Maddie Zahm, Carlee Chappe, Rabbit, Adam Yaron
PRODUCTION: Adam Yaron, Maddie Zahm
MIX ENGINEER: Matt Huber
MASTERED BY: Joe LaPorta
MASTERED AT: Sterling Sound
RECORDING ENGINEER: Adam Yaron
CELLO: Tiger Darrow
VIOLIN: Chase Potter
#maddiezahm #youmightnotlikeher #pride

[@MaddieZahm]

I honestly have very few words to describe how I feel right now. My coming out story was pretty messy as it normally is even coming from a very progressive home. When we began filming my classic, Northwestern, Patagonia loving, attention hating dad asked if id cast he and my mom as themselves to give him the chance to respond the way he wish he could've and wanted to. That moment between my parents and I is a one take, real coming out and I am so honored and grateful to have had that moment with them. I will cherish this video forever because of that. I don't know how long I get to do this artist thing, but I will never stop waking up in awe that a soon to be teacher from Idaho found herself through music. I love you all.

[@jazlynjohnson4330]

You have created an absolute masterpiece. I’m so glad I found you on TikTok! You have inspired me and so many others with your music, Maddie. THANK YOU💓

[@Brennamae349]

I think you're amazing Maddie. Thank you for sharing real feelings and real moments with us. You're so brave 💕

[@janinehebert4023]

THANK YOU. 🥰

[@susanlorenz8648]

You are amazing, Maddie! This song is everything 🥹

[@astridraider1143]

Thank you for sharing this with us it means a lot.

[@Appypiieelyrics]

I'm leaving this comment here so after a month or a year when someone likes it, I get reminded of this song ❤

[@lamarjackson7405]

It's a year later

[@sukanyagilling]

@@lamarjackson7405 lol nw 2yr

[@violetbizzara]

Body issues,questioning your sexuality,and religious guilt and misogyny.This song is so true it hurts.

[@Dre1nonly103]

facts

[@gracepatrick-ck6nl]

Same girl as a lesbian girl this song hit hard

[@Jemilylover]

Facts

[@donnahernandez9414]

My daughter sent this to me … she’s a lesbian and never been with a guy… she had a purity ring (I had it made personally for her.) this song hit me like a ton of bricks. As parents, we need to be better! Maddie thank you for sharing your story. I love you 💕

[@Emily-gx6dd]

Hearing you say this with so much humility, gentility, grace, and LOVE for your child, and compassion for yourself, feels incredibly healing to me and it seems that you and your daughter have a relationship of love. I pray strength and humility for you both and thank you for operating out of love!

[@brucealmighty7288]

❤❤❤

[@stellalegolasnevolous4666]

Thank you ❤

[@reade4322]

The minute she started running with her younger self, bye. I absolutely lost it & started sobbing. The little girl was smiling the whole time, & the adult you was more serious. And that analogy just hit me like a truck. I’ve never had a song\music video affect Me the way this one does. Absolutely beautiful. ❤️

[@queenwilliams20]

Yup that's when I lost it as well. This was really deep and beautiful.

[@sherib1625]

Jesus loves her, and I do too. ❤️

[@SacredSoulPractice]

Yes!!!

[@haleighv6193]

Yes! Instant tears with that part

[@randl7423]

Yup, big sobs!!! Glad I was alone in the house, lol! 😭😭😭

[@teriavron7287]

This made me sob. The scene where she’s crying eating cut me deep and “you’ll say you’re doing ok and really mean it”. I don’t think you understand how many of us are realizing we aren’t the only ones who dealt with these things because of your song. Thank you, from my younger self who needed this, just thank you.

[@lucilliefaith3128]

honestly SAMMMMEEE😇

[@dylanjudy5621]

I want to say the same thing, but change "my younger self" to "my current self" because I just discovered last year that I'm bi, and my parents still don't know, they will never accept it... however I still don't like myself, and I know I will hate alot of the stuff my future self will do, but I came to terms with it I guess... for now

[@madisonmccarty2637]

Me too at the same part

[@redhorse97-tk7ie]

It's taken me so long to be okay with the way I look or how I act. I've just started saying "Im okay" instead of "Im fine"

[@barefootsummer]

Just think of all the young kids that are gonna hear this song and realize that it’s okay to love themselves, just the way they are. Maddie, you are the person that younger you needed. And you’re the person that a bunch of younger people need. Thank you for sharing your story. This video is beautiful.

[@sheilabliss6810]

I have 3 daughters. 1 is 2 so she doesn't understand yet. But my 6 & 8yr old learned the words to this song right a long with me! & now we play it on repeat in the car & sing it at the top of our lungs! It gave me & my younger self sooo much validation & it's teaching my littles that being urself is 100% ok & amazing!

[@barefootsummer]

@@sheilabliss6810 aww that’s awesome! I’m so glad you’re able to help them learn this at a young age!

[@starlenemartinez1249]

She’s the person my inner child needs.

[@bekiwachob]

I've never "counted down" to a single release before. This song is everything I didn't even know that I needed to hear. So validating... I'm not alone. Today's plan is to listen to this on repeat and cry ALL of the tears, for the most beautiful form of therapy

[@bethiemama]

SAME!!! counting down a release of a song has never been so important to me

[@jenniferdurio420]

SAME! Crying all the tears!

[@gemmafillman7884]

What she said 👆🏻😻 i am obsessed and have to start my day watching this and sobbing. Thank you from the bottom of my heart ♥️

[@amandafrisk4176]

Same here. I literally had a calendar event!

[@libertas-goddessofliberty5664]

gey pro pa gan da.

[@makenziejay1681]

Every single time I hear “you’ll kiss a girl and you’ll panic” I start bawling my eyes out. Definitely a comfort song

[@kistielendra337]

I'm not even bi or lesbian but i'm bawling my eyes out in the middle of the night watching this video. I think it's a very beautiful song that everyone can relate to even though they're not in the same position as Maddie. I can feel every kind of emotions that she's trying to convey through this song. A very very beautiful art❤️

[@KChantelle92]

Same here! I’ve seen the lyric video of this song, but the video is just 😭🥺😭🥺

[@abigailgarland1951]

Same here I’m not a part of the LGBTQ+ community but I’m a huge supporter and as someone who has struggles with self esteem and body image it’s relatable to me.

[@BrookeKnight561]

Same. Sobbing wishing I could tell my young self it’ll be okay… 40 years later. 😢

[@parellano100]

​@@BrookeKnight561Practice, practice, practice! As you are practicing you are also training your brain to make new neuron connections.

[@emilyferguson893]

I’m an ally and although I’m straight, I still resonate so deeply with this song. Being your authentic self after being raised with religious trauma is SO freeing and healing. Thank you :)

[@OuchingTigerLimpingDragon]

I hadn't really thought about the religious experiences I was raised with as being "trauma", but... I've been searching for a phrase to describe my experience and "religious trauma" sums it up perfectly. Thank you for this puzzle piece.

[@daelynsantos3095]

This is exactly what I’ve been feeling. I cry almost every time I hear this song because I relate so deeply to certain parts of it. It’s nice to know others are finding comfort and healing in this song 💕

[@melanin_queen22]

💜💜

[@Ashesinferno28]

Religious trauma is a crazy trip, I’m glad your healing❤️❤️❤️

[@IExpectedBSJustNotThisMuchBS]

@@OuchingTigerLimpingDragon If you’re not part of a deconstruction group, there are a number online. Religious trauma is often a theme.

[@ShayleeOfficial]

This song is a gift. This music video is impossible not to cry to. I think a lot of us relate to it, even if our stories aren’t the same. It’s incredibly powerful. THANK YOU! ❤️❤️😭

[@clinkedylinkedy1]

Exactly. I’m non-binary trans but most of it feels so similar.

[@jennifermcfarland4527]

I feel like this song shows many of us relate to it well at some point or all points of it. She is an amazing singer and storyteller and I am a huge fan now

[@montanastout9936]

“Someday you think you disappoint your parents, but they love you not despite but regardless” this particular line really stood out to me and tied this whole song together. I came out as bisexual to my mom a few months before she passed away. I’m so glad that I had the chance to share that part of myself before it was too late. Thank you for accepting me mom. And thank you for this song you are amazing Maddie Zahm.

[@SaraSongbird]

I cried through the whole thing but the pinned comment about the parents absolutely crushed me. This hit me right in the core. Thank you for sharing this, you’re singing for all of us so we’re a litte less alone ❤️

[@btg643]

said the robot to the humans

[@mldag1678]

Yeah same, sobbed the entire video - and the parents part got me too😭 Edit: insåg efter jag svarat att det var SaraSongBird som kommentera - älskar dina videor och din musik❤️❤️ (följer dig på insta också☺️)

[@kimemerson8728]

Okay, I was scrolling through the comments and liking ALL of them. My heart swells with joy that so many women are hearing this song and taking joy in who they are. You're a gift to the world, Maddie.

[@Exxo6075]

"My younger self would laugh" "Would never believe that" "Its against everything that we stood for" These words really touched my heart, I know for sure that my younger self would really feel ashamed to know this is who I turned out to be. But I'm also really proud of myself, at least I don't lie, I keep my promises and I try to keep it exciting. So thank you for this song Maddie. Great job my love, I'm so proud of you! And we all here for you gurl!!! 🤗✨🦋🌸

[@SubjectRaps]

lyrics for the song kzbin.info/www/bejne/eGSpZp6sjsShms0

[@dragons4946]

Same 🤕

[@madiejones129]

This song is so healing in a way I can’t even put into words. I just played this on repeat and sobbed for my younger self. It’s like you wrote this song specifically for me. I’m not fully out yet but this is my first pride month I’m celebrating. Thank you for this song💛🏳️‍🌈

[@SubjectRaps]

lyrics for the song kzbin.info/www/bejne/eGSpZp6sjsShms0

[@princessmanitari4993]

May you have an absolutely wonderful pride. I still remember mine from some years ago, it was chaotic and hyper and i wanted everything and nothing. I hope you may experience just that. A chaotic but wonderful pride experience. (:

[@madiejones129]

@@princessmanitari4993 thank you :)

[@sa5mm592]

CONGRATULATIONS!! welcome to the family 💕🏳️‍🌈

[@Samwiseangie]

When little Maddie came out i sobbed for my childhood self

[@jameymichelle2776]

My therapist had me write a letter to my younger self to address how I had felt about how "she" let us go through so much. All I could say was how proud I was for how strong "she" had been. And how sorry I was that I had been so mean to "her". I feel like this song showcases those feelings of "you can't see it now but I can promise it gets better"

[@sobersurvivor5900]

As someone who's struggled with my weight, sexually and mental health it was absolutely amazing that a song could resonate with me at 36, openly pansexual and my 19 year old panromantic asexual son so much. We absolutely love it. ❤️

[@aprilinbloom21]

Former Mormon kid here. I can’t thank you enough for this song. ❤️ I’ve had it on repeat for like an hour now. Cathartic would be an understatement.

[@Emily-gx6dd]

💛💛💛💛💛

[@AChickandaDuck]

Former Mormon hugs 🥰

[@MissMomo777]

Ex-mo digital hugs! 💜 Hope this comment brings you back to listen again... This is powerful for so many reasons - sending love your way too. 💜

[@ClaraUnleashed]

Havent bawled at a music video like this in years.. truly the anthem for “healing your inner child”

[@SubjectRaps]

lyrics for the song kzbin.info/www/bejne/eGSpZp6sjsShms0

[@dianakern9652]

This song is a gift to every person that grew up in a religious home. I needed this song in 1983. Also Maddie, this song will save lives. Blessings to everyone person who relates to this song. Let us cry and smile and sing the words LOUD with you Maddie.

[@allisoncastle]

I’m sorry you didn’t get what you needed back then:(

[@aldrichugo2884]

Hi Diana 👋 How’re you doing?

[@IExpectedBSJustNotThisMuchBS]

I needed this song in 1970, but not because I was in a religious home but because I was in a society that only whispered about homosexuality and the only representations in the movies were coded and tragic, leading one to believe that loving someone of the same sex was entirely taboo, something not to be revealed, and a life sentence of being closeted and miserable. (Public discourse did not get really ugly until 1977 with Anita Bryant and her Save the Children campaign.)

[@BangersOnly]

This is an absolute masterpiece song and this video... wow, literal chills. This song is going to help so many people out there Maddie. I can't imagine what it's like trying to navigate those waters, as if growing up isn't hard enough already. But this is going to get so many people to see a light at the end of the tunnel. This is SPECIAL, you are special. Thank you for this masterpiece

[@BangersOnly]

the fact that you had your parents in this video is so touching as well, cannot get over this video

[@libertas-goddessofliberty5664]

gay propaganda.

[@XoXbeachbabeOxO]

@@libertas-goddessofliberty5664 “goddess of liberty”. I guess not liberty to be who you are and be true to yourself? Get out of here, troll

[@libertas-goddessofliberty5664]

@@XoXbeachbabeOxO doesn't change the fact that it's propaganda. calling me a troll doesn't make this bs less propagandistic.

[@celesteworldbuilding]

@@libertas-goddessofliberty5664 May I ask how exactly it's propaganda other than allowing people to be who they are without the fear of being stoned to death for being who they are?

[@AmyCaliforniaBaby]

This makes me want to come out to my parents. Raised Christian, parents still are both devout, I’ve dropped hints but they have made it clear they don’t accept gay or bi. Scared but I’ll keep replaying this in hopes to get some courage

[@chloemorrison-clarke8500]

You've got this beautiful.

[@YodaBomb]

When I came out my parents did not react well but now years later they love me and tell me they are proud of me. They love my girlfriend and are there for me the best they know how. It hasn't been easy but never give up hope. They might just surprise you. *hugs*

[@allthingsnn1955]

quite late, but i did wanna say this - if you aren't ready, you aren't ready. and that's totally ok !! everyone and their environments are different. you don't ever have to tell them if you don't wanna. just stay safe luv

[@tortugagirl65]

I'm sorry you haven't been able to come out to your parents. I cannot imagine the internal struggle you face each day. My husband and I were raised in a very strict Pentecostal church that preached against LGBTQ+. They preached hell, fire, and brimstone. It was hard to hear and to understand as they also told us our God was a loving God. Our son came out to us at age 14. It was difficult for us as a family because everything we were ever taught about the Bible and LGBTQ+ mean that our son wasn't going to heaven. We knew our son wasn't evil. We knew he was a child of God. He was such a sweet young man. God created him! He was born the way that God created him as well. We could NOT accept that our son was going to hell, according to the church. We knew we LOVED our son with ALL of our heart regardless of what we were taught. He was and still is a child of God! It hurts my heart trying to imagine what he went through before coming out to us. I am so proud of him that he felt he could come to us. I pray that you will be able to come out to your parents. Perhaps you have a close friend or relative that will be with you when you tell them. I heard a saying once that really resonates with me since our son came out. I'm certain it will with your parents as well. "Be careful who you hate. It just might be someone you love." That hit me right in the heart! It really humbled me and made me feel ashamed for the years that I believed what was taught to me. It is so easy for us to condemn someone and say we disagree or dislike their lifestyle, but when you have to live it, it's an eye opener! We ended up leaving that church and supporting our son. We've never looked back. When you come out, I pray that your parents will realize that nothing has really changed. You are STILL their loving daughter. You've simply decided to trust that their love for you will not change because of your honesty.

[@jas.per.25]

@@tortugagirl65 tl;dr thanks for being an amazing person

[@haileeornataliekristynwalk82]

This song brings me to tears. I can’t even imagine how many kids, teens and adults needed to hear this. This world can be so cruel, it’s people like you that we NEED

[@NicMac219]

My daughter is 13 and she’s never had to come out because it’s just always been known and accepted, by me, at least. For all those struggling out there, you are perfect just the way you are. I could never imagine my daughter for one second not feeling accepted for who she was. It’s heartbreaking to even think about. Sending everyone who’s scared or hurting right now a huge, comforting hug. Happy Pride 🌈❤️

[@poppysedge]

Amazing mamma...❤️ that's how it should be . I'd hate to think my kids couldn't tell me anything ...as a parent all you want is your child to be happy, safe,loved

[@bethany.l9175]

@Nicole MacDonald Thank you so much for that. I'm also 13 and queer but my parents aren't really accepting of me but it makes me happy to know that there are parents out there who are. Your daughter is very lucky and Happy Pride!

[@libertas-goddessofliberty5664]

what if she's just straight u nutbag.

[@aldrichugo2884]

@@poppysedge Hi Lisa 👋 How’re you today?

[@mrthomasenglish]

I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR YOU SHARING YOUR GIFT WITH THE WORLD! ❤️🙌🏻

[@NikiNguyen-rc1pl]

❤️

[@elizabethhogan189]

This song hits so different because it’s the first time I’ve been able to truly sing a song and fully relate as a lesbian. This kind of song would have inspired me to come out, it’s the kind of music I wish I had when I was younger, it’s pure magic. What’s even more magical is the raw vulnerability Maddie had to have in order for the world to now have this incredible music. I will be forever indebted to you, Maddie, because the world didn’t just want this song, we NEEDED this song…to heal from what we put ourselves through to find who we truly are. The sleepless nights when I was younger, beating myself up over not being pretty enough, and wondering if I was bi, or gay, or just scarred from childhood trauma or too fat to be likeable to men so women was a better alternative. I wouldn’t wish that on anyone, but those nights and that little younger me’s perseverance is why I am still here, why Maddie is too. This song is so emotional, and will always hold a very, very, very special place in my heart. Thank you, Maddie. ❤️

[@SubjectRaps]

lyrics for the song kzbin.info/www/bejne/eGSpZp6sjsShms0

[@IExpectedBSJustNotThisMuchBS]

As someone who also identifies as a lesbian and wondered if I was bi, I totally concur that songs like this one would have helped me come out if available in my youth. Instead, thinking I was bi, but suspecting I was a lesbian, had me taking the “lifeline” my boyfriend offered (the only person I’d come out to at a time when no one was out). It wasn’t a lifeline; he was seen as the perfect man to the world around him and would rage at home, and yet, I’d come to love him as one does with a trauma bond and stayed way too long. If only I’d felt free to date women and discover that while I’m bi-sexual, I’m not bi-romantic, and being sexual with men (even kissing them), though it can be great, also feels off, while being with women feels like all is right in my universe. I now understand lesbians who sometimes have sex with men, not that I’m interested (because I’m not). Being attracted to men, liking men as people, enjoying looking at attractive men, even enjoying having sex with them doesn’t make me bi. It makes my pheromones bi. lol We all need representation and the time and space to explore who we are and who we want to be in the world.

[@lbnrobloxstudio4711]

Gosh, I just really love this song. It's so inspirational.

[@OuchingTigerLimpingDragon]

The transition in tone from Fat Funny Friend to this song is so clear and heartfelt. A lot of self reflection, struggle, and progress happened between the two, and it gives me encouragement.

[@amberraedawntollenaar3513]

I started crying immediately the first time you said, "someday you'll kiss a girl and you'll panic". It was all an emotional landslide after that. I hated myself for so long because of my body and the fact that I liked girls as much as I liked boys. By the end of your song I was bawling in my car in the driveway just blown away that someone put into words something that I hadn't yet been able to. Thank for this❤️

[@cassiewalker7132]

I have NEVER resignated with a song like this in my life. The lyrics. The music video. The entire story. Thank you for making my inner child feels so seen and so validated. I know this song was healing for you but I hope you know how healing it is and will continue to be for millions of people.

[@aldrichugo2884]

Hi Cassie 👋 How’re you doing?

[@bmaaax]

She running with her little self smiling makes me incredibly happy and I can't explain why

[@SubjectRaps]

lyrics for this song kzbin.info/www/bejne/eGSpZp6sjsShms0

[@JanelleC]

I just got done tearing up over "Fat Funny Friend" and then this song came on and now I'm just sitting here sobbing. This is ME. This is what I'm struggling to express to my new therapist without running over time in sessions. My parents sadly are still at the "loving me despite" stage and I'm working on 'radical acceptance' that I'll never get the acceptance I want from them. And my past self would've tried to convert my current self and everyone I value. I also left toxic purity culture, and so much more in this song. Girl, THANK YOU. 😭

[@Emily-gx6dd]

Show the therapist these songs? I’ve heard of therapists reacting well to media in sessions when it concisely expresses the client. Good luck! 💛💛💛

[@Chiquitahananah]

@@Emily-gx6ddAgreed! as a therapist, I have shared Maddie’s songs to my clients 🤍

[@brynncess2228]

The line "you'll learn to talk about your traumas" hits VERY close to home. I mean the entire song does but especially that line

[@thegirldevon]

I’m straight, but this song has me bawling. I was always the big kid so I related to that aspect so much. (And being a non-Mormon in Utah so I was always the “deviant.”) Wasn’t til I hit 30 that I became comfortable in my skin. This song will help so many people, not matter what they’re going through. God, the idea of being able to hug younger me is making me feel all the feels. 😭 Thank you for your bravery and your art.

[@ERROR-uc1ws]

I hate being a bi non mormon in utah, so many kids just hate you for it

[@mhare8024]

"One day you'll learn to keep your own secrets..." I have never sobbed listening to a song before but this line cut right through my soul.

[@SubjectRaps]

lyrics video for maddie zahm kzbin.info/www/bejne/eGSpZp6sjsShms0

[@Ally-kd6xl]

I was a bit confused by this lyric could you explain the meaning? The part right before this “Then you'll learn to let people have their opinions And talk about your traumas And like the body you live in” is a list of positive changes but then “Someday, you'll learn to keep your own secrets” seems like a negative/sad thing, growing up and having to keep secrets/hide things about yourself. It goes right back to positive after that with “Say you're doing okay and really mean it” so I wasn’t sure if it’s supposed to be positive and I’m misinterpreting it, or it’s supposed to be ups and downs, or something else . Would love to hear your thoughts since it resonated with you so much! If you’re open to sharing :)

[@flowerpower8488]

This song made me cry so bad in the best way possible. Where was this gem hidden till now? How can we make it viral, so everyone could accept themselves

[@erinfarnes3084]

All the shots with her past "selves" geez! Where are the tissues?! Maddie you're so amazing, brave, and such a beautiful soul! The artistry and storytelling help so much to heal from my own traumas. Thank you!

[@simonavigodner154]

This is honestly one of the most incredible songs I’ve heard in a long time. Never felt so understood.

[@Pureheart_gentlesoul]

Hello Simona..

[@btg643]

lol you 100% have to be a bot.

[@SolarCrush48]

I relate so much with the line “some day you’ll kiss a girl, and you’ll panic.” I hated myself for years because of who I was, and it’s sad to me that the world makes people feel this way. I hope some day, by the time my kids are that age, they won’t panic and feel terrible about who they are if they realize they’re not straight, and I’m glad people are slowly moving closer to acceptance. Teenagers have enough to worry about without feeling like the world hates them for who they are. I love this song and hope it helps more people love everyone for who they are.

[@krysp5764]

How healing. For me. For my younger self. Healing for my young daughter. And for the woman she'll grow in to. Generational healing sung by a beautiful soul. Wow.

[@neelimamurad3229]

This song is honestly the most relatable song I’ve ever heard and for once I feel proud of who I am and not ashamed. This song will constantly be on repeat for an eternity. Thank you Maddie

[@SubjectRaps]

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[@fearoftears8]

I feel the same....

[@amanda_unfiltered]

I’m literally in my therapist’s waiting room trying not to SOB. This was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your life. It’s going to help so many people and I’m so excited to hear what you release next.💕

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[@aldrichugo2884]

Hi 👋 Amanda, How’re you today?

[@k.strause7011]

The way I broke down screaming when you started running through life with your child self. I never heard this song like I did today when I watched the video. Thank you for reminding me that I need to do the work that I've been avoiding.

[@hansika.]

as a teen who is struggling with body image , constantly thinking that im disappointing my parents... this song gives me so much comfort that things will get better

[@bianka2958]

This is gonna be the song of the summer 💜 congratulations on your comming out Maddie , thank you for sharing such great and relatable songs with us 💜💗💙💚💛🧡❤ happy Pride

[@libertas-goddessofliberty5664]

propagandist.

[@arielmcdonald2175]

It already is 🌈😍❤️

[@G23417]

I feel like your gonna rock the world with this song. The fact you are able to talk about these raw and unspoken emotions you ,and so many others, felt as a child in such a beautiful way is astounding. The lyrics from the snippet describe how much I wish I could apologise to my younger self, I put her through hell, i now realise that once I had left the people who bullied me, I became my own bully, and I wish I could give my younger self another chance to see the world in a happier way. And I wish I didn’t put her through what happened, she was just a child, so innocent yet her mind was so corrupted all because she didn’t look like the others girls and she didn’t act like the other girls. I hope your song can bring me a sense of closure on that painful time in my life and hopefully help me to open up a new chapter, I can’t change the past but the future is mine to decide, and I’m never going to waste that choice again. Thankyou Maddie for having the bravery to write this song, I can’t wait. 💜

[@AmberKateD1995]

I thought I was prepared to watch this but I was NOT. I’m crying like a baby over here. I love the thought of comforting my past self and letting her know she will get through everything we’ve been through…😭💜

[@amberflavia]

Same. I really wasn't prepared 🤣 I spent at least 30 minutes replaying and sobbing while staring at my photos of when I was young & talking with her while all the intense sobbing continued. I already do inner child healing that's why they are out to see easily, but this was next level!

[@carmillabadenhorst201]

This song described my whole life in 3 minutes. I sob my heart out everytime I hear it, because it really hurts, but at the same time I'm so happy to hear it cause I know there's people who understand this completely..

[@Audrey.2027]

I love how she references her old songs in the video it just shows how connected she is with her music love your music it made me love me for who i am

[@alyciabrun7372]

I think Elyse Myers expressed this sentiment better than I ever could, but you truly have no idea how much this song and this message is going to affect a generation of people who need it. You are truly a gift to this world and I can’t thank you enough for delivering this song.

[@kalistabaze7448]

This literally had me go from crying about how much I could relate, to sobbing happy tears for you. I love this and felt it resonate in my soul. Just like Fat Funny Friend did for both my brother and I. 🥺❤️ We love you so much. If nothing else, you will always have all of us standing behind you to support you.

[@lorimay3044]

You have saved lives with this song, Maddie. Thank you from all of us who have needed this song for years before you were inspired to write it. I hope that it speaks to countless people who needed it.

[@luvemily309]

I just came out as bi and this song is just comforting to me!!!!! You are such an inspiration I hope you know that!!!! 🤍

[@All_things_lissa]

On repeat and I’m crying. This song is deeply healing, it’s literally like an energetic shower and instant alignment with our highest selves.

[@SummerEnchanted]

I don’t know how to convey how much this song means to so many people, in the past 4 days I’ve had over 7 people point this song out to me and say this lyric or this lyric means something. But the truth for me is, it means so much, every word hits and as a lesbian growing up in the Catholic Church I had so much fear, and when I came out I was met with nothing but support from my family, despite having the fear in me. Thank you for expressing what so many other have tried, so easily. Thank you Maddie. I can’t wait to see what other genius you come up with

[@SubjectRaps]

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[@bethsanford9076]

How did she put so much healing and therapy into a song.

[@Krillerisms]

"Thank you" doesn't feel adequate enough. But Thank you for writing and performing this song, it means everything.

[@starlenemartinez1249]

Maddie! 2.4 million views! I’m in tears for you. Thank you for your music.

[@meganboule650]

I came out to my parents today. Your music is doing so much more than you realize for so so so many people.

[@crybabybyheart1262]

I didn't think I'd cry so much listening to this song, thank you so much Maddie for writing and releasing this beautiful song! I love you and your music

[@tifacorn3522]

I'm so proud of you. You have written something that has touched the hearts of so many. What a beautiful anthem for pride and what a healing gift for all of us.

[@amberudey6186]

This song hits everything for me. I can't come out, I can't be me around family because I love them and I know if I do I will lose them. It all hurts so bad.

[@ijustdontknow2389]

😭 sending virtual hug

[@Twinkletoesss27]

Exactly the same. Unfortunately I’d rather live without them knowing than lose them….

[@Chicken-Al-fredo]

That part when she runs with her younger self is so beautiful!! The music, the scene, the vocals, they all go together to create such A powerful moment. Its amazing to me how so many emotions can be evoked through music.

[@digitalcrybaby3356]

the impact your art has had on me is unreal, i thought fat funny friend broke me but THIS! ugh my heart strings are broken. i’ve never felt more seen and more loved from a song before, im glad but also not that other people have experienced this that i and many others can relate to and feel as if they are not alone. from one closeted bi, thank you 💕

[@SubjectRaps]

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[@raeeggz9868]

​Dear young Maddie WE LOVE HER!!! I can't believe this is finally out!😭💗 Thank you, thank you, thank you so much, for being so strong and so vulnerable, to be able to release this song, that so many of us needed. As a pansexual struggling with Christian guilt, this song speaks to my soul and hugs my inner child. You give me hope that one day I'll get over the shame, 'and for a while, I might not like her' but one day I'll be able to say "I do!!! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜" Here's to the biggest self-love anthem to comfort and heal generations!

[@hunterhandzus1749]

This is the only song that caused me to start sobbing in my car. I never thought a song could encompass the battles that I have been dealing with since I was 15. Thank you for creating something so vulnerable and inspiring. This is beautiful.

[@SubjectRaps]

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[@Spctre-de2xp]

I didn’t know how much I needed this song. My coming out was messy and premature and I mourn for my younger me because she never got to be who she wanted to be. And I wish I could sing this to her and tell her everything is going to be ok

[@Highkey-Loki]

1:45 "I've drawn out in sharpie where I'd take the scissors." I can't tell you how many times I've listened to both of these songs and never noticed that she included the visual of another songs lyrics in this video. Absolutely breathtaking storytelling.

[@NightsDarkSky]

This song is so moving and really touches the heart of a sad little girl that’s been lost deep inside. I started crying before the video even started, and continued all the way through. Thank you for gifting us with this song that expresses so much of the pain from the past, the hope for the future, and all the times in between . Thank you.

[@RobertJPyron8354]

Maddie Zahm go in soo hard on this right here, straight up BANGER! He aint like all them goofies and trappers who just be usin that *AUTH* *ENTI* *CVI* *E* *WS* dawwwt cawwwm jawwwn to get they hits up to go HAM... SMH seem like anyone can go big these days..

[@hi-jj5pc]

I’m so ready for this songggg

[@ML-uu5ik]

1 year later and I still get chills watching this ❤️

[@DexterBritain]

This song sings to me on so many levels. I don't think I've ever liked who I am, but I draw strength from these artists every day.

[@hannah2343]

As an exvangelical, thank you. A large part of leaving is learning who you are outside of their mold for you, and accepting who you really are, no matter how hard it is. I like to refer to it as finally becoming human instead of a perfect doll of the church. Sometimes, it's hard for us to enter the world. We struggle, as humans do. It is tempting to fall back on the evangelical manipulation, that we will do nothing but suffer without them when times get tough. There is always a tiny whisper in our mind that asks, "what if they were right." You, through this song, help humanize the experience of struggling. That helps us see struggles as normal instead of a righteous divine punishment . You also encourage us, reminding us that our lives will be whole and good. You are the kind friend reminding us that yes, it is hard being ourselves, but the freedom is worth it all. Thank you so much for that. 💙🏳️‍🌈

[@SubjectRaps]

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[@gracehallie564]

I can't wait!!!

[@XoXbeachbabeOxO]

Maddie… this song, these lyrics, your voice, I don’t have words. So impactful. So important. So valuable. Thank you for sharing this with us

[@libertas-goddessofliberty5664]

See a psychologist. Insane asylums have plenty of openings nowadays.

[@savannahbrown9669]

This song changed my life. I had been crushed by my faith for a long time and was only too afraid to leave. This song stopped me from telling myself I was unclean and unworthy anymore. Now idk where my faith is but I am finally at peace for the first time in my life

[@sheilabonus6232]

I can't tell you how often I sing this at the top of my lungs. I am so proud of us. Thank you for this masterpiece.

[@emmasf824]

Can’t wait

[@emmasf824]

I literally streamed this on repeat all afternoon

[@FatFunnyFriend225]

I stayed up for the release of the song and I waited for the video release and I can't explain enough that it was worth it. I didn't think a song would ever make me feel the release and acceptance from within like this song has. Thank you so much for making so many people feel the feelings that it's ok to be gay or you or how ever you identify. I don't think I can say it enough but this is my lifeline right now.

[@TheNinnyfee]

I haven't been this excited for something in a very long time. For me it's about masking in another way to fit in and constantly failing at it, the TikTok reels already set me free. Thank you for writing this song and saving lives, Maddie!

[@poet2681]

I cried when I heard this song. It really spoke to me . Especially the line " talk about your trauma's and like the body you live in" I am learning to do that and this song I've adopted as an anthem. Thank you for writing it! ❤

[@Zorupix]

I'm sobbing very hard whenever I hear this song. It's so healing for my inner child in a way I can't even express with words. I was so hard with this little kid, and I still am sometimes. But I'm getting better at being nice to myself.

[@aideenm4198]

This song is the most relatable song I’ve ever heard and is the definition of the frase music heals. I’m sobbing from how relatable and raw it is. You are truly inspiring and I’m so glad you decided you release the song. I hope I can grow to be as brave as you and learn too heal and be myself without feeling the need to fake who I am to please someone else. Thank you so much for releasing the song it it truly beautiful🫶🏼

[@JacobHarlow]

I have never cried to a video like this. Maddie, this song is going to change people’s lives and most importantly save them. If I could go back and tell my younger-self these things, I would have found my voice a lot earlier. You are blessed 🤍

[@SubjectRaps]

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[@officialhannahforcier]

The subtitles messed up and went blank during half the song unfortunately but loved every second of the music video! Fortunate to be seeing it the first day of KZbin release!! I’ve been waiting for this one 😁

[@christianbarlas5755]

I'm a guy, but I cried the first time I watched this inside a crowded mall.

[@kels_878]

I've listened to this absolute masterpiece of a song a million times and each time I come back thinking, "maybe this will be the time I can listen to it all the way through _without bawling my eyes out,_ " but I'm wrong every single time. I don't know what this song is speaking to in me, but it is being received _loud and clear_

[@wyndlechairgarden]

I’m so excited to finally hear this beautiful song! It’s going to help so many people. Happy pride!

[@katiegreenwood3119]

this makes me happy in a way i can describe

[@lizhedesh4683]

On repeat. I was counting down the days until this was released. This did not disappoint! Thank you so much for writing this song that embodies how I feel ❤️🥹🏳️‍🌈

[@SubjectRaps]

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[@AmandaYancy]

Sobbing. This is so beautiful. Thank you.

[@passionanderson7065]

At 41s I completely broke, started sobbing and couldn’t stop till I finished the whole video! For the last 2months I wasn’t ready to watch this video but I’d listened to the song multiple times. Today I decided I was ready to bc your song popped randomly into my head. I feel so free after watching your video! Thank you and please never stop creating! You’re healing to me and many others! Your music is healing!

[@MarcusTheAdventurer]

Just heard about this song on TikTok. I'm so excited to blast this through my speakers in the car.❤

[@SubjectRaps]

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[@sarahkirk5304]

I can only hope this envelopes the hearts of those who experienced these HUGE feelings. The validity in the words spoken. The validity in themselves. The healing to come and the healing that has already happened. I know I’ll be screaming this one everyday for 5ever. So much love to you Maddie. I wish you all of the happiness, fulfillment, and peace in your ongoing journey. Thank you for sharing the most vulnerable parts of yourself and the growth that you’ve had. 💓💕

[@toggandjogg515]

Literal chills throughout the video. Even with being straight, I could still take something from this song which hits home. It’s amazing

[@SubjectRaps]

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[@user-yd2ss4hn6r]

I’ve never full on sobbed because of a song and mv before, but I relate to this so much and it’s just so beautiful to see. Beyond words how much this means to me.

[@jessicaohlson3906]

This makes me cry every single time. No matter how many times I listen/watch it. 😭😭😭 Talk about speaking from the heart and to your people! This is just perfect.❤️ Thank you!

[@alexscythe6619]

Im crying so hard, this is absolutely beautiful in so many different ways. Thank you for deciding to release this song because its going to mean so much to so many different people.

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