does CBD really work for me? what happens when you go to A&E for self harm?

[@cloud.observations]

Sometimes I feel like a part of me doesn’t want to recover, I guess I am fearful of the unknown or the uncomfortable 💔

[@Laura-xn2uh]

perfettamentee completely relate to this, it’s scary not knowing what you’re actually like without mental illness when you’ve struggled with it for so long

[@lisamueller1512]

Omg same :(

[@zennynjau3111]

I relate to this so much! Recovery is not an easy road but trying little by little is important.💕

[@sarahjo5570]

really feeling this lately. It's like I've built so many things around my issues that I forgot to build up myself too. A coping skill I've heard for dealing with this is to try to detach yourself from it so it's not part of your identity. So list out the things you are and enjoy and do and the more you add the more you realize your illness is just a small piece of the pie and if you recover and lose that piece it's not going to change your identity so much. Easier said than done but I hope that helps some

[@meganwatson9623]

perfettamentee I was like that, but then I realised that it’s time to start living again. Living is scaring but as much as it’s scary it’s beautiful. Take the leap, you chose to keep going or to go back 💓

[@ayybibi]

when u hugged the camera i literally gave my phone the biggest hug back i look like an idiot rn

[@elliemariexo]

needed that hug tbh

[@caitlinedwards7145]

elliemariexo me too! Sending hugs your way x

[@rachaelsteele9177]

This is exactly what I needed today. My depression has made me unable to leave the house for 3 days now. So thanks for the hugs ❤❤❤

[@hopebashford2645]

Rachael Steele I hope your okay x

[@rachaelsteele9177]

@@hopebashford2645 aww thank you x

[@sarahjo5570]

Take it one day at a time

[@rachaelsteele9177]

@@sarahjo5570 thanks for the support

[@sarahjo5570]

@@rachaelsteele9177 💕💕

[@mabelhorn1289]

I’m 100 days clean today!!! Thank you Marie! 💖

[@aminah8442]

congrats!! keep going 💘

[@mabelhorn1289]

aminah thank you!!! 💖

[@samarabelletty9934]

Yessss congratulations I'm so proud of you sending soooo much loveeee💕💕💕💕💕

[@susiemelirosa7182]

mabel horn I am proud to say that I am a month clean🥳🥳

[@cescagrace6457]

your hair looks so pretty like that omgg xxx

[@sarahhussain2581]

In a psych hospital for fourth time this year , the place I started the year and will now be ending but thankfully I will be discharged next week. I really want to fight against my bpd like so badly I don’t know how long the fight is going to last the past week I’ve been super motivated but hopefully it’s not just the effect of bpd. But this video has answered so many questions I had and I’m actually going to try cbd oil thanks for the voucher code.

[@caitparker1603]

omg Marie, the part you mentioned about 'not knowing who you are' is one of the most relatable things you've ever said that I really felt that. It was so confusing and so overwhelming at the time and its a symptom/effect of mental health that I don't think is mentioned enough. I think it's a matter of time taking and like you said starting from the basic objectives you want and starting from there to slowly break everything down. so glad you mentioned it, from the bottom of my heart,I LOVE what you do Xx

[@amiy2252]

The last time i went to a and e for my mental health I was very distressed in reception, i banged my head on the wall, fell to the floor and was screaming. A nurse told me to to stop being silly and showed me the way out. Luckily i wasn't suicidal that day, but if i was then I don't think I would be here today

[@jamesfennell4224]

I'm dong really well. In the last eight months I've gone from being suicidal to being able to find a teaching assistant course with a placement in a primary school. Its been the best thing I've ever done :D

[@thehoundhedgehoghippie7346]

James fennell that’s amazing, you deserve it! x

[@susiemelirosa7182]

Like two weeks ago I was wearing long sleeves and my mom asked me if I was cutting again I am trying my hardest not to I have been feeling empty and having mental breakdowns almost everyday these past weeks but I am proud to say that I am a month clean and my therapist said that if I don’t do what he says I will be put in a psychiatric hospital so I have to tell my mom every time my mood drops or I feel anxious I have to tell my mom and I try and find a trigger but the thing is is that it’s hard for me to find a trigger because my trauma is when I was born I was born three months early and I died more than once meaning my heart stopped I had to be attached to a bunch of machines and I was taken away from my bio mom so that’s the reason why I am but I am trying I fight the suicidal thoughts so I am trying😊

[@caitlynquinn1152]

Marie you truly don't understand how much your videos help. They make me feel like not such an outcast, it's so hard to find someone to talk to that truly listens and understands. Even though I can't talk to you, I feel comfort through the screen. You are a beautiful person inside and out!!

[@ashleighknowles3879]

Hey guys. I’ve recently been diagnosed with severe PTSD and anxiety disorder and depression. It’s been a hard time cause I’m really struggling with self harm n attempts n I’m too scared to go to the hospital about it. I’m really struggling and I don’t ever comment but I love how much support I feel from the comments and videos so I just want to say thanks for all the encouragement n love 😭❤️

[@lauriewalker843]

Do you have any idea how many people you have helped? You are so funny too yet so open. Thank you.

[@hopebashford2645]

I died when you couldn’t think of that word 😂 it’s TREATED Marie ahhaaaaaa😜 your so funny, ily ❤️

[@briannaparkin]

what you said about going back to school reminds me of something i heard from a speaker recently. she said “just because something is hard for you doesn’t mean it isn’t right for you” and that’s helped me a lot with school

[@marieroseeee]

i love that ☝🏻

[@xxtoxicnoob1511]

NEVER clicked so fast... Hehe I feel special😇😇

[@DaughterOfChrist1997]

your content calms me down and makes me feel like I'm not alone

[@maddyboorman]

i watched this video last night when i was in a really bad headspace & i honestly felt so much better, i was distracted, what i was feeling didnt hurt as much. thank you marie🧡

[@zennynjau3111]

Last weekend I went to ER for self harm.. and I got sent to a psychiatric hospital for 1 night. I got advice for getting my life back together.. It's not going to be a easy road but I'm going to try

[@zoenoble6627]

This came at a strangely coincidental time - went to A&E last night for the first time for self harm, it wasn't even that bad but my anxiety kicked in and I was so scared of it getting infected. It was fine in the end, the doctors were understanding and encouraged me to get help - but it was scary as I had to tell my parents, and my brother found out. Loved this video Marie, thanks for being such a bright light. Your videos help so much xx

[@cwalton5545]

I completely get the not knowing who you are, I've lost myself now. I'm not doing well at the minute, I've been going through crisis after crisis, and I've been in hospital again ☹ Sending love to those who need it 💗

[@anya3300]

Big hugs❤ please don't give up on hope that it will get better, you'll find yourself again xx

[@thehoundhedgehoghippie7346]

Anya sending love & positive thoughts your way, hope things start to get a lot better for you x

[@sugapie4567]

that intro was so cute and u look stunning in this video !!

[@cm6225]

Marie, thank you thank you for saying to do the opposite of what your illness is telling you and that you are now doing things that you could only dream of when you were in hospital. That gave me so much hope. I think someday I will see that persisting was worth it all the while. Sometimes having the energy to move past the old ways is very hard, but I have hope that some day the change I am striving for will yield such a better life than carrying on the way I have been. Sending so much love ❤️

[@lisamueller1512]

Best antidepressants are your vids ❤️ I‘ve just one question, is there a reason for your hands shaking like this? xx

[@sarahjo5570]

It's a common side effect from psych meds. And it can sometimes last even after you stop taking the one that caused it. Also potentially anxiety because she said she was nervous

[@lisamueller1512]

Oh okay, thanks :)

[@sucre5797]

For anybody suffering mental illness/depression. Meditate, practice positive affirmations, express what you’re grateful for everyday, even if it’s something minor. Also practice the law of attraction! I promise you’ll feel better.

[@kaitomomotaluminaryofthest8258]

i think i hug at the start of the video is necessary because it feels like we are a family and makes me feel wanted and appreciated. i love you marie you give me such inspiration. cant wait to meet you one day 💜💜💜💜

[@kathi8707]

you are such an inspiration ! - i am really struggling right know i’m barely getting out of bed, i relapsed after being one month clean from self harm and i stayed inside for a week now (i still have to go to school so skipping so many classes is a problem for me) and i just feel like i’m hitting rock bottom right know. you really give me hope & i’m so proud of you 💖

[@rebeccagriffin2515]

Just sending you lots of love and hugs xx

[@dpiswife]

So glad to see you doing well Marie!! :') It's been coming up on a year since I was really ill, and I feel like I have just very recently started emerging back into life. There's a quote from my therapy program that I keep thinking about, which is basically "After something traumatic happens/being ill, you have to retrain your brain and relearn how to have fun and be silly." And this has really stuck with me as I try not to be so hard on myself, because we are literally relearning from scratch!!

[@melh7033]

I found your channel a few weeks back and I can’t even tell you how much it’s helping me right now. I’m currently going through an episode of psychosis, which I started medication for last Friday, it’s literally the worst thing I could ever imagine to be going through, it’s petrifying. But it’s so nice to know I’m not the only person to experience this, although it very much feels like it right now. It’s all come off the back of depression, an eating disorder, self harm etc so things are definitely difficult at the min. I just wanted to thank you for the effort and time you put into tour channel and your videos ❤️ xxx

[@jordanatheresa]

love how u only answer a few questions but go super in depth!!! loved this video man also u look like a pretty forest fairy 🧚‍♂️

[@marieroseeee]

i love uuuu !!!

[@elliemaedouglas1998]

Marie,, i love you so so much and I'm so proud of you!! your honestly so inspiring, amazing and just generally perfect, your the best person on this earth in my opinion, you have helped me overcome so many obstacles in my life that i never thought I would overcome. Thankyou for being one of the reasons I chose to live. Your perfect never change for anyone! - mariesinspire🌺💘x

[@sarawatkins1086]

So good to see you back Marie. Missed you loads. Literally so happy when I saw you posted a video 🥰

[@katyb3833]

Thank you for just making these videos. It makes me feel so much less alone where I’m struggling with self harm and my counselling isn’t working. xx

[@sarahjo5570]

I feel this, my therapy isn't going super well either and it's a struggle. Keep trying though

[@jasminec4636]

I’ve been going to CAHMs for soo long now.. I don’t feel like it helps me at all. I really want medication because I feel like I need it and I’ve tried everything else but they aren’t listening to me.. :(

[@Gbdoj]

I couldnt watch this because of my own experience of going to A&E about self harm, and I didn't want to be reminded of the experience, but I do adore your content and i have no doubt that this video will help thousands xx

[@marieroseeee]

that’s so responsible of you. i’m really proud of you for doing that. i’m sending so much love and totally understand where you’re coming from. lots of love 💓

[@Gbdoj]

@@marieroseeee ❤🖤

[@emilyovereem9974]

your answers are always so well put-together i don't understand how you're so intelligent, gorgeous, funny, inspiring, and entertaining at the same time??? like how. i love you and your videos so much, my heart honestly skipped a beat when i saw that you uploaded! hope you have a wonderful week babes x

[@tistamukhopadhyay5026]

love this- recently got diagnosed with what they think is clinical depression. really needed to have something to ground me and remind me that I'm not some anomaly :)

[@ellamadison2178]

This came at the perfect time. i’m going through some stuff and i really needed this. you’re so amazing Marie and i’m so happy i found your channel. you also look stunning! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@signepablaka904]

OMG I SAW YOUR VID PU AND JUST STARTED SMILING. INSANELY. YOU MAKE ME SO HAPPY. SO SO HAPPY :))))

[@cjtaylor1977]

Love the word bubbles. When I went (2:30 am doesn't have a shorter waiting time...) the joke "I slipped and fell on my knife" didn't get the laugh I had hoped for though :-)

[@TheMsYessYess]

The progress with CBD we love to see it

[@sophiebuesnel4898]

Also that intro made me happy🥰

[@jessrecoveryjourney]

Made my day as always, love you more than anything I can’t describe how proud I am you’re so so strong and genuinely an angel!!💗💗

[@idrinkpisswater2245]

hey:) please do a room tour i love the blue 🥺💗😂

[@lucyadams8354]

Have you thought about doing an access course instead of A-Levels? Xx

[@nataliebruvik3355]

It's my birthday today and I've felt horrible all day long for relapsing...so I really needed this! thank you, marie xxx

[@marieroseeee]

i’m sending you so much love. Happy Birthday!! they can be a very tricky time, but it’s over soon! big hugs 💗

[@nataliebruvik3355]

@@marieroseeee ❤❤❤

[@mattg7952]

BPD is a mother. 10 years with my undiagnosed wife. It was rough.

[@alexandraannl]

Marieeeee you seem so happy and bubbly in this video, I hope it sticks with you! I'm really stressed bc next semester I am taking off of classes (not my choice) and I am terrified bc I get so bored and in my head when I have nothing to focus on, so wish me luck 😭

[@jasminmller1010]

Alexandra Laudenbach good luck, you can do it!😃

[@thealinderborg]

I´m 2 weeks clean today!! And thank you Marie, you are such an inspiration

[@cwalton5545]

Well done on 2 weeks clean 💗

[@crumpmeg]

I’m also 2 weeks clean today! Well done ⭐️

[@what_am_i1468]

Omg I love you I went to hospital for self harm Was your experience scary

[@hopebashford2645]

Ayyy Marie’s back with another Mental Health Monday’s, I’ve missed you girl ❤️ Plus i really needed that hug today, cause things haven’t been great lately but I’m gonna push through. I love you Marie x thank you for this video, it’s so helpful and I’m so grateful for you- your my forever inspiration 😍x

[@rubymwatsonx]

Wow. What a babe. My inspiration ❤️🥰 Love youuu

[@marieroseeee]

love you!

[@Andys-wu2vp]

Your such an inspiration for me and I'm sure there's many others. I'm so grateful for the videos. If it wasn't for you and some other mental health KZbin channels who knows where my mind would be. I don't find it easy to talk to others so these channels are all I really have for support. Thank you so much.

[@marieroseeee]

💗💗💗💗

[@nataliaramirez9829]

your videos make me so happy

[@chelseacate7651]

Love love love the hug! I missed you! You look like you are doing well. I hope you are. I was starting to worry! But i love this video, very informative and helpful! You look amazing. For me, i have officially been diagnosed with BPD. And I’m trying to start my recovery but there are some things i find really difficult or i find myself pretending to be better. Its hard to know how i am actually doing because i feel like I’m faking it all. Its weird. I missed you! Hope you are doing well! I really hope to see you on Thursday!

[@spl0sh285]

I honestly love you. You’ve helped me so much and I’ve fallen in love with you and your channel. You are such a gorgeous, amazing individual and whatever you go through, people have to realize you’re still human with feelings. Keep on going and I hope for the best for you ❤️

[@rayamcallister9920]

im so earlyyy ily. such an insporation xx

[@1903chrisholden]

Thankyou Marie for being such an important role model and inspiration to others in the MH arena sending Best Wishes

[@BronteLila]

I so appreciate your vulnerability and honesty in your videos. You're doing such great work!

[@chloeeaston1280]

This video was very helpful!!! I’ve just had to leave my second job because of my mental health and I feel like I’m never going to be able to hold down a job. I’m not diagnosed with anything as referrals take so long so I feel people think I am making it up and being lazy.

[@jasminec4636]

Chloe Easton I totally understand that. Just remember that you know you and how you are feeling. I’m struggling with feeling like people don’t understand why I can’t get up and do or go to things, but if you need time off, take it.

[@chloeeaston1280]

Jasmine C yeah thank you I suppose I’m just getting used to other people knowing as I’ve only just opened up about things properly. Wish the best for you xxx

[@jasminec4636]

Chloe Easton I’m glad to here that. Thank you, and you xxx

[@useryouaxx]

So important!!!! Exactly what I needed to hear xx

[@Lillylm]

love u sm marie! your videos help me so much💗

[@marieroseeee]

thank you so much Lilly, sending big hugs

[@sarahjo5570]

I got like that with clonazepam. Benzos are super habit forming it really sucks

[@ConnorAPX]

Hey

[@victoriabarnett242]

What is your diagnosis my dear? It will help with my understanding of my symptoms.

[@mollymcgrath4515]

Please may you do a video about attachment?? Love you! Xx

[@ValeryPereiraa]

your smile omg :)

[@bethanydouglas123]

I really wish that was the way I got treated in A&E....I got blue lighted there a little over two weeks ago and got treated with so much disrespect, they refused to dress my wounds and left me in a corridor crying for hours without checking on me. Also left with the advise from the crisis team of “keep self harming if it helps you cope, there’s nothing I can do for you” 🙃

[@marieroseeee]

oh bethany i’m so sorry. that honestly sounds like the worst experience ever. i can’t even comprehend why professionals would act that way. just remember that they are ignorant and it is not a reflection of you in any way - you did nothing wrong. i’m sending so much love your way. please keep safe 💗

[@bethanydouglas123]

marieroseeee thank you so much for replying 😭❤️ honestly means the world, I hope you’re doing okay 💖

[@curtisbemis6640]

Self harm is truly an addiction no matter the day I ha e to do it I have no ontrol

[@isaidimahomosexualhavingap1489]

I don’t know how I’m doing I feel numb and I know that I’m just going to break down into tears especially because someone in my form is in hospital and it’s really serious (I don’t know them that well and there is a Language barrier but his smile lights up the room and makes everyone else smile back) I’m a day clean and I’m struggling to find myself but I’m working on it as best as I can

[@tiyo6195]

I’m three weeks clean but I’ve been feeling really down lately as I do, plus my moods tend to be all over the place which makes it hard to function and my friends say some of the things I say about how I feel scares them. I wish I could talk to someone but I stopped therapy because they think I’m fine. I guess I’ll wait till I turn 18. It’s only just less than 4 years anyway.

[@leahbennett5962]

Your so inspirational xx

[@sarahmathieson1579]

You look so much happier! So nice to see :))

[@1903chrisholden]

Best wishes Marie for your amazing happy future

[@marieroseeee]

thankyou so much chris 🥰

[@1903chrisholden]

@@marieroseeee your so so welcome sending Best Wishes

[@savannakipper9540]

i not doing well ATM i replaced last night and f eel the need to cut again

[@a.b4714]

Savanna McDonald think of it realistically what happens if you keep cutting. Not to your mental health but physical health.

[@hxpnxs]

You look incredible! Glowing 💖

[@marieroseeee]

awh thankyou so much 🥰🥺

[@enigmagermanotta5291]

I got so happy to see the notification on my phone that you posted ❤️

[@demilawriex2536]

Your such a lifesaver ilysm your videos help me through the dark times 💕✨

[@rebeccagriffin2515]

Great to see you back again, love you're video's, they make me feel like someone 'gets' me. Life's hit the skids, I feel myself falling into that hole but dragging myself back out is getting harder and harder, I wrote my goodbye note. I saw my psychiatrist and all he's done is add meds (which now makes 7) and referred me to PALS as he doesn't know what else to do. If he doesn't know how to help, how can I begin to help myself?

[@sarahjo5570]

I highly recommend going into inpatient if you can, it really helped me (granted I'm in the US so it's a different system sometimes so idk how much help you get there). And try to do some research on other therapy or doctors you can see because that's a lot of meds and I can't even begin to imagine how they're all mixing together. Remember that one psychiatrist is not the end all be all for mental health support. I've had probably over a dozen really awful doctors and therapists until I found one that is a genuine help. And I know how defeated it feels every time you gather up the energy to try to get help and then get shot down. I know. I've been there so many times. But eventually something has to go right, right? You'll get there someday I promise, you just gotta keep fighting til then

[@rebeccagriffin2515]

@@sarahjo5570 just thank you 🙏❤

[@TheNicolls]

Love all your videos so much!!

[@michelleschnaase]

Your skin looks so glowyy 💕💕

[@thehoundhedgehoghippie7346]

Love you, really nice to see you back 💙 I’m actually doing alright I think.

[@marieroseeee]

love you!! that’s so good to hear xxxx

[@thehoundhedgehoghippie7346]

Ah thank you! xxxx

[@pinkthunderstorm8392]

I just read my psychiatrists records yes all 208 pages and really wished i hadnt 😭 it has broken my last straw and i cant tell if im going depressed or snaped into mania (bipolar 1, bpd and apparently like 17 diagnosis)... And xmas sucks because im expected to spend it with my extended family one of which is one of my former sexual abusers...what do i do 😭

[@emmalouise3880]

Yay, missed you

[@marieroseeee]

missed uploading so much!

[@emeliefast6712]

Omg i love this video! Also love you sis! You always get me trough hard times so thank you❤

[@marieroseeee]

oh girl!! i love you!! 💗

[@casey.vlogsxx8775]

Hi u help me so much and ur so inspirational l live y xxx

[@TheMsYessYess]

I miss your documentary vids x

[@gracefulbubblesx1844]

Whoop whoop another videooooo ❤️❤️

[@sachalavis4675]

Love you sm Marie, good to see you back :)))

[@Maisiejayofficial.]

She backk🥰

[@s.kenahan2850]

I love youuu!! thank you for being here and helping me through hard times ✨💗

[@tiffanystudd6509]

How many Mg is the CBD oil you use??

[@gracee5332]

I actually adore you

[@evecreaser5553]

Thank you for this video💓

[@abby.v.t]

I'm really struggling. I have been put off going to A&E by a mental health nurse. I want to quit uni because of my mental health. I failed my first assessment. I can't do this anymore.

[@MeganLovesSinging]

Hahahah that intro was so funny I love it 😂

[@roman2204]

LOVE YOU SO MUCHHHHH

[@elizabethcummins1374]

I love u ur so amazing and inspiring x💕

[@rebekahwhittingham8031]

I am doing very badly atm.. am on so much medication but just getting worse and worse and am losing hope completely. has anyone here ever been a day patient at a hospital? As I have just been referred for this. what do you do and is it a good thing to do? xx