Feeling like Death and not wanting to Live anymore (Kundalini Dark Night Q+A)

[@basicbase749]

I have been through this phase during my dark night, Dark night has been the most painful experience ever, yet the most transformative. Whoever is going through it, just know dear ones, you will get through it, yes it's extremely painful to feel lost, homeless, like you're hanging by a thread in a void, no hope, no desire, no goal, no clue. But it will all end one day and you will discover your real self which is so powerful and beautiful! You will become so very connected with your inner guidance system, your vortex, the universe, higher energies. It will change your view and your life. Take all this as a healing procedure, which is gonna hurt at first but is gonna make your healthier, stronger and better,

[@shree.245]

Thankyou so much. It is really hard because there is no one we can talk with and who can truly understand. Sometimes it is like we are going backward in life. I hope everything gets better.

[@tanyatymo]

Thank you. I hope so 🙏

[@freedomtownn]

Oh god, needed this so bad... Feeling exactly the same.

[@mattpallett1]

I’m glad that these videos are meeting you where you’re at 🙏

[@Z444Z]

I’m glad I found your channel man. I’ve been in this dark place for about 5 months :(

[@carolpridgeon9387]

Zhyan, I thank you for sharing and I hope you are experiencing more light today. Namaste'

[@gaznawiali]

I'm 35 and for the past few years I have been going through an existential crises, (been depressed for 15 years) but last year I lost faith in Islam and became agnostic. Deep in my heart I felt frustrated with religion and especially islam because it seemed irrational and it was hard work always trying to justify to myself but last year I finally had enough and walked away from it. But now, though I am free and liberated, I feel hopeless. I am thinking of ending my life now. I have never been close to my family or had great friends or had a decent career or ever loved anyone. I just don't believe in hope or love or positivity anymore. It feels like the world is just a random place and I would rather not be a part of it. I just don't want to exist anymore.

[@Devi_JK_11]

I am going through the same thing you went through.

[@carolpridgeon9387]

Gosh, honey, that is where I am right now. I came here looking for ....wanting to commit suicide while in kundalini....and found your video. The best lessons come from hell....when you can have the direct experience of freedom when you are in a hell rhelm...how indestructable you are....

[@larsstougaard7097]

Super important for us to hear about this difficult and painful proces Matt, many love & light people out there doesn't wanna see or integrate their own darkness. Many run away, which is very understandable 😊. I have been sick for 20 years and have done all from A-Z, without any real change, now I just accept what is. So Im in the same boat kind of. Much love 😊🙏♥️🕊

[@mattpallett1]

Aw Lars, I'm sorry to hear that you've been unwell for so long, I hope for you to start feeling better soon❤

[@larsstougaard7097]

@@mattpallett1 Thank you Matt, it has been a big mystery to me why Im still sick after I have been to very powerful healers, tried many spiritual and practical systems, I eat super healthy, do meditation and inner work every day. But in the end I was told by a clairvoyant that I have been poisoned in past lives and my system is damaged. Nobody can help me, so my path is to go forward alone now and do the work myself. Hold and shift whatever comes up, hold more light. We all have our own unique journey, some need to dive deep into pain and darkness. Thats why I love your videos so much, its a great help and inspiration. Have a great sunday in Berlin.

[@Rob3r7Ss]

Great timing and relatable message now, fighting against death is futile. Many blessings

[@MountainRain1111]

I came back to add my life changing experience in hopes it helps others. Thank you for your light Matthew.💖🙏💖 Former self...I can relate. My whole identity took a crash during this dark night of the Soul. The grieving process was excruciating and so painful. . I am not my former self, that self died and the real self was born out of that process. I embrace death, I love death....not in a morbid way but in a transformative way. I faced my most deepest fears in those darkest hours and survived. My soul survived....not my physical mind, not my ego but the essence at its core. The beloved that is me. The soul can never be extinguished through any of these deep dark depths of painful feelings and hell. That is the greatest deception of this realm, to even believe these dark moments are empacting our eternal soul....that’s so not true. Once we embrace death as a part of our soul we discover the extreme life it offers us as a tool to rip down the veil and look into the eyes of God. Our essence IS God....fully, completely, no if ands or buts. We ARE God. When the God that is I, me, you looks death in it’s face for what it is a whole new universal realm opens up inside us. There is nothing that is impossible. In this place we can TRULY Live. Even now I am still embracing that part of myself....it’s so powerful.....I never knew My true essence was so powerful. The power I’m speaking of is the knowing I am in my essence untouchable by the extreme darkness I chose to delve into to bring about my Souls awakening on this realm. I chose it in many lifetimes but chose to take myself out because I couldn’t take the pain. As difficult as this realm is we all chose our life and it’s obstacles. There’s no wrong way of doing it. This is a challenge for our soul....we’ll do it again and again until we get it right. Time is no obstacle really, when we enter back into those realms we will discover we never even left, we only closed our eyes for a brief moment to experience a journey. I am so Thankful for you Matthew. I have been with you from the beginning of your journey....seems we are on the same path. Love and light always.💖🙏💖

[@mattpallett1]

Lovely depth and beautifully spoken❤ thank you for sharing, you're truly inspiring :)

[@basicbase749]

I wanna congratulate you for your awakening and just wanna say that I get everything you wrote because I feel the same after my dark night. Yes, our true essence is so powerful and as miraculous as the universe.

[@Lullabybabyzzz]

Thank you

[@carolpridgeon9387]

I only hope I have the courage that you share about yourself. Yes my mind is suffering this hell that I am enduring. Thanks for your share MountainRain.

[@NovalisNoah]

Its such a liberation to realize that the darkness is actually a growth catalyst - and therefore we dont have to fight it or get out of it. Really well said, your videos are always spot on and really help me to trust my Intuition and insights. Thanks alot!

[@mattpallett1]

Thank you🙏❤

[@Star112692]

Thank you for this Matthew, I can totally relate. Your words comfort me and make me feel less alone. Love and blessings to you. 💚🙏🏻

[@mattpallett1]

You're welcome❤ wonderful to hear from you :)

[@Star112692]

@@mattpallett1 So happy that you’re back on KZbin! Safe traveling in Europe. 🙏🏻💚

[@carolpridgeon9387]

You are right. You can not use your eogic self to distract yourself from this pain. Don't judge what you are experiencing in the moment....It's not that your cursed, it's actually that you are chosen to bring. you into your fullest self. I so love you Matthew....I will find some relief when I can let go and surrender. Thanks for being yourself. Namaste'

[@sally50291]

Your words are so inspiring and encouraging. It always bring me some hope when watching your videos. Dark night of the soul it’s like a very painful rebirth… thank you for sharing your story to guide me through 🙏.

[@jeno9801]

Spiritual awakening brought lots of pains in my body from back pain, fatigue, loss of appetite, anxiety and depression. The dark night of the soul was terrifying...felt suicidal and lonely not fitting in and wanted to go home ! I experienced Kundalini rush of energy on my back accompanied with insomnia..

[@Lullabybabyzzz]

Did it improve for you eventually?

[@carolpridgeon9387]

Wow, I notice that fear arrises at the idea of total darkness......so much fear....I am afraid of the experience you speak about...... and yet. I trust your words. The Devine Mother....thank you Dear One.

[@carolpridgeon9387]

I so love you Matthew.....you are so honest...thanks so much for sharing your story....it gives me hope. You are a treasure.. Namaste'

[@sofierunbergersen]

“Darkness empties you out” Mind blowing!!! This is the inspiration I’ve been seeking. Thank you 🙏🏼 “best lessons comes from hell, because it forces you to surrender”. A little bit of comfort in the pain makes it’s so much easier. Thanks for being so raw.

[@callumdale5820]

Great teacher

[@ryanvoss14]

great video, keep em coming...thanks

[@rebecca_stone]

This is so true. Resistance is futile. I got lost in the weeds of these feelings because they were all too familiar - more familiar than the bliss and connectedness. It's why I thought "something's gone wrong, look at you - you're so dysfunctional you've even managed to wreck your own Kundalini awakening! You were given this amazing gift and you screwed it up!". But surrender is the point. Realising you're connected to God even in this despair is the point. It sounds mega simple I know - but there's a huge difference between saying it and actually living it. The K-bomb don't lie, lol.

[@GinaHardyYoga]

Brilliant thank you. Had a succession of dark nights of the soul since 2020. Resonate with ALL of your experiences. Still think I haven’t done the death thing 😢🤔 Been mentored spiritually for two years now which has been life changing. Death and the fear of it is still here although I would say I am in a good place 🤔🥰

[@MountainRain1111]

Grateful.💖🙏💖

[@skaur1178]

I am also experiencing intense hormonal activity and energy moving through my body making it feel fatigued...the mind feels dull as in I am it able to think actively or read productively..I also am feeling very worried about the future and scared..is this normal? Thanks matt 🙏🙏

[@mattpallett1]

Yes very normal, going from a logical to an intuitive mind can be very confusing and difficult to surrender to for awhile, all is well, try to stay relaxed and open and trusting, maybe ill make a video on this

[@oumaelbakali1453]

When you pray the divine mother, do you call on spirit , God, the universe ?

[@mattpallett1]

All of the above 🙏

[@gulshan6759]

Ones the energy got in tunned inwid me but now because of weed it wend again into head

[@JAdam301]

Thanks for sharing

[@saroga1360]

❤️

[@gulshan6759]

Dude I too am in this

[@sylmaron5859]

Thank you for bringing this to us. I am sensitive to crystals and I feel they can help people out with this as well. Both Nuummite and Covellite help with delving into the deepest corners of the psyche and will help you getting out back to the light as well. Just make sure you buy the real stuff, most Nuummite is fake. You can get the real stones though. Just wanted to leave this as a suggestion.

[@mattpallett1]

Thank you for sharing! ❤

[@stone8man]

I recommend the song blue sky, allman brothers band ^^

[@permangaming7560]

its ure depression comelete fade away or u still not fell happy or enjoy the music like u feel before go in depression?

[@mattpallett1]

For awhile I didnt enjoy music at all, but now I enjoy it very deeply once again

[@Jojoyou628]

i am not dead and I am not alive. and it is hell...

[@loriditri8897]

Jesus Christ is the Way the Truth and the Life.

[@Rowens556]

Me right now 😔

[@mattpallett1]

Hope you feel better soon 🙏