Medical Trauma & Growing up Sick

[@MorganSolo]

Today I wanna talk about something I never realized I was carrying: Medical Trauma. I always just chalked anything Cystic Fibrosis related up to: "Oh, I was just born this way and I'm tough and this is fine!" but what I didn't realize at that time was I was just setting the trauma aside and tricking myself into believing I was alright. Through EMDR therapy, I've started to uncover this, and I want to share my journey so far and some useful words for anyone who has grown up sick or in extraordinary circumstances and have just been expected to be "Be Tough" or "Be Brave" when all we ever wanted was to just be kids.

[@lorij9649]

One more thing Morgan. Consider Doing a TedTalk. They pay expenses. You are so incredibly clear and articulate that you can help Millions of people because what you have endured and survived is miraculous and very out of the ordinary. love

[@MorganSolo]

I would love to do something like that, but honestly no clue where to start. haha

[@heather4180]

She’s right, Morgan. You’d be fantastic. I bet If you reached out to, Justin Baldoni (spelled his last name wrong) he’d get you going in the correct direction! Just a thought. Great Vlog. I hope you’re doing well.

[@jmbtrain1]

John CF'ER Years of the same kind of trauma as a kid and an adult. Over a hundred deaths of association's and friends with CF. Being at the side during two of the deaths to let them know it was okay. I have also been a pallbearer at 6 funerals of CF friends. I have also been clinically dead twice from procedures or surgeries. You are encouraging me to finally see a therapist, to help me move past some of the experiences in my life. Thank you so much for having this great channel.

[@btheyogininurse3961]

Omg you dissociated. That is so horrible. I am a peds nurse. I always wondered how it affected kids after the fact. Having been on the other end of that procedure. I always demand pain medication prior to procedures, but sometimes I’m off getting the med, and the surgeon has already removed the line, or the tube...rendering me speechless. I know that I have trauma from working so long with kids, I could never imagine how difficult it is to psychologically process this as a child. Thank you for this post. I will not reinforce how tough my patient is, I will validate how shitty it is what they have to endure and ask them how I can support them instead.

[@tamberjune]

More of that type of understanding would have been amazing when I was growing up and still should be!

[@Kirsty01773]

I'm only 9 minutes in, but I stopped to type, my son is 9 and also refuses to be held down and HAS to watch what's being done and has since he was around 1. We've had to argue this to nurses who said "it's not procedure" to not hold him, they always tried to distract him or hide what they were doing and it caused some big trauma and it was so distressing to see so I can't imagine how awful it was for him to experience. Gonna get back to watching now but thanks in advance for these videos, as a parent of 2 young ones who have CF it's invaluable to me 🙏

[@allisondombroski312]

I am a trauma informed body worker. This was very insightful toward understanding people's experience with medical trauma. Thank you for sharing your struggle. I work with stored trauma in the nervous system, respiration, and deep core muscles (psoas, diaphragm). Body work is also a great way to feel safe in your body again and regain autonomy. Again, thank you for sharing

[@sxcredjones4034]

This video got me on a different level I went through almost everything you’ve explained in this thanks for this video!

[@Kirsty01773]

Thank you, having your insight and perspective means a lot. I've had therapy myself, my 2 eldest talk to a well being advisor as they struggled coming out of lockdown and I'll definitely encourage our younger kids to do so when they're older. Watching our 2 who have CF go through treatments and trauma is heartbreaking, all I can do is tell them how proud I am and how it sucks they're having to go through this while offering cuddles. I can't imagine what it feels like carrying the weight of these traumatic experiences around, I hope one day I can help in whatever way is needed to make it feel a little lighter for our kiddos. I'm so glad you've found something that helps

[@allens-place]

Powerful, thanks for sharing!

[@kingcharizardakaCX]

I don’t have CF and wasn’t born with it but I’ve had to go into the hospital quite often as a kid because of different medical issues and I definitely heard the phrase “you’re a strong tough kid because you grew up going to the hospital a lot”

[@jenmatx]

I don't have cystic fibrosis but I have other medical issues from being born premature and stuff so I spent a lot of my childhood until I was like 18 in the hospital and I've never related to something more. I struggle with alot of medical trauma and it's very validating to hear you say it and your story about it and know that I'm not crazy lol

[@jenmatx]

I also have never commented on someone's KZbin vid before this video just resonated with me too much to not

[@lorij9649]

Jennifer, you must be stronger than alot of people from the stamina of going through the struggles.

[@Brandi.65]

Love you Morgan. I pray you find a good woman that will have your back. Through good or hard times. Love your videos 🤗💞

[@jeanniesherman3591]

I know, i was so angry when tiff bailed

[@bobbob4883]

I'm struggling with a chronic rare lung disease for the past 12 years. This really helped me.

[@lukeswain1752]

Holy cow. I almost jumped when you said trikafta...not thinking you have CF as well...i love you. Thank you for doing this video. 10:00 yup. Relate to that!

[@Hannah-hx5sp]

i spent half my life being dismissed and half being pitied. It's definitely a psychological struggle. I have so much medical trauma, i developed disociative disorder to survive.

[@lorij9649]

Much love to you Hannah. I'm so sad you had to deal with all of that. Hug

[@Hannah-hx5sp]

@@lorij9649 Its great that people can share and not feel alone in all of this, thank you, love to you also

[@jenmatx]

I have medical trauma as well and have also gotten dissociative disorder that I haven't released until recently how much its affecting me it's nice to be able to relate to others on this level that no one talks about 💜

[@lorij9649]

@@jenmatx Hope you feel supported here!

[@rwelch540]

EMDR has helped me so much too with my own childhood trauma. Not a lot of medical trauma in my background but I’m married to a CFer and have heard his stories and experienced some of it with him as well.

[@thelittlesucculent8335]

I was hesitant to watch this because I have medical PTSD, but I am glad I did. I became chronically ill around 14. I relate excessivly to this.

[@dr_psychy_onInstagram]

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[@KAC2689]

EMDR was one of the only ways for me to get past a lot of trauma. It’s incredible

[@catloverKD]

Not medical trauma, but lifelong anxiety, an undiagnosed invisible disability, and suicidal depression that hit at puberty. I was always told the opposite. If something became too much and I freaked out, or broke down, it was "suck it up", and "grow up". If I tried to explain that something felt wrong beyond the typical struggles of learning something, it was "try harder" and "stop playing the victim." Like this is just life, get used to it. In case you're wondering, that's not better, and it just made me suicidal instead. Because if that was how it was going to be for the next 70+ years, then there was no point in putting myself through it just to die anyway. Yes, that put me in therapy, ad it might be time to go back. My anxiety was obvious, but my parents were never great with mental health. There is ZERO shame in therapy.

[@lorij9649]

Dear Morgan, do you realize how incredibly strong you are? With a mind like yours to not flinch and lay stiff as a corpse, you can Accomplish Anything you Want. Are you signing up for the next Ultra Marathon! Love you and so happy to see you.

[@A_H_V]

I walk around with medical trauma i cannot even go to a therapist outside of the hospital due to my one of my conditions i recently relapsed on my one of my illnesses and medication seems not to be working it caused a reborn off my medical ptsd i also collected allot of new chronic conditions i hope i can get mental help soon even if that has to go trough to a hospital to

[@sadie4me2]

Smarter than you know.👏

[@jeanniesherman3591]

Hello sweetie , been wondering what ur up to, lately. Keep up the great work...i need to hold on to something....kinda in the same boat as you , wishing us both.....HAPPY DAYS AGAIN ✋✌👌👍💟💟💟💟💟💟