Memories of Better Days

[@clayepigeon]

Your absence has left a hole in me.

[@Hell.0itsMe]

Please stay strong

[@randiplays1980]

The day before I found out, I decided to download twitch again, and see where all my favorite streamers were at. I found it odd that she didn’t have any recent vids, and no schedule. I noticed u were LIVE on twitch at the time. The next day, I noticed a KZbin video about her passing, while my sister 2as talking to me about something else. Suddenly I looked up at my sister and started tearing up and she asked if i was okay. I said I don’t know, and told her what happened. I’m so very sorry for ur loss. I watched her videos for years, over and over. I can tell uncared about her so much. I like that u go to the same places still, in her memory. Man, this hurts. She treated us fans as if we were like her friends. She will be greatly missed. 😢

[@ohcontraire1915]

I'm so sorry Claye. I know there's nothing I can say to soften the pain of a loss like this, just know there are thousands of us who's lives she touched, who loved her, who share your loss in some small way and who will miss her deeply 💜

[@lisajackson3742]

My deepest condolences to you and all of those who truly loved her.

[@Piggelin1]

Im so sorry for you loss of a beautiful friend🕊️ I loved her chanel❤

[@OrientalPearl]

I watched almost every single one of Alex’s videos. I can’t believe she’s gone.

[@Plumbella]

This was beautiful ❤

[@clayepigeon]

It hurt a lot to make, but it's the best I can do.

[@Plumbella]

You can feel the love you had for each other through the screen. I’m glad you got to share those memories with each other, and I’m so sorry you didn’t get the chance to make more. My deepest condolences, I have been thinking about you a lot. ❤

[@FairyNymph12]

I kept looking for a tribute. She’s the second person on my list on instagram, so I see her face daily. Though I didn’t know her personally, I wished I’d had the chance. Cherish those sweet memories, Claye. I’m sorry for your loss. ❤️

[@bunnylover2164]

Now this made me cry and was beautifully done. Her passing was such a shock which made it even harder to understand. But you guys were perfect together and you made her last time on earth a happy one. You helped turn her life around and was destined to meet, even if it was cruelly cut short , and you was there for her when she needed a friend. I lost my partner in 2021 and the pain is real but it helps to keep the memories alive until you meet again. Alex was amazing and so are you. Sending much love from the UK. ❤️🙏

[@DonnaBoo-d4h]

Im so glad alex managed to turn her story around, just remember you helped heal her broken heart, you helped show her she could be strong and happy, RIP alex fly high ❤

[@ohcontraire1915]

To call her my favourite youtuber doesn't do her any justice. I watched her for many years, not because I had any interest in clothing hauls or pastels, but because I liked her. She was a shining light and her videos felt like hanging out with a friend. She taught me to love birds (even pigeons!) and encouraged me to get diagnosed, she made me feel less alone. It feels strange to miss someone you never really knew irl and I can't compare my loss to yours, but I truly will miss her. We love you Alex.

[@lauryniti1807]

I second and third this wholeheartedly 🫶🏼

[@TinasArtPage]

Same…. I can’t even think of her name without bawling ever since the announcement…. I can’t even fathom how hard it is for those who were actually close with her and especially those who love her irl…. If just through this internet this hurts so much to lose a “friend”…. Their pain must be so much more 😢

[@marsymelo]

I've just found out this terrible, unbelievable news... I'm so sorry! Sending you my condolences all the way from Brazil

[@ElizabethSotiria]

Thank you for being a true friend to her Claye, you never turned your back on her and you allowed her to be unapologetically herself… 💔 We miss her too, this was a beautiful tribute and I hope you’re taking care of yourself I know this is incredibly hard for you.

[@sj26843]

The last clip of Alex really had me 😭 I’m truly sorry you lost your best mate, I grew up watching as a silent watcher of Alex. Related with her of her love for animals. I can’t believe she’s gone.

[@terriandlola]

It seemed you was the only one that stood by her through her dark days, figuring out who she was. It looked like she absolutely treasured your friendship ❤️💔

[@sarah_kocsis]

I’ve never cried over someone that I didn’t personally know, until Alex passed. I have been watching her videos non-stop since I found out and I just can’t believe she’s gone. She was such a beautiful soul. I’m so sorry for your loss. This video had me crying my eyes out. Fly high with your birbs, Alex.

[@EeeekkkkWaffles69]

Thank you for being with her in her last few years. She was such a light in a dark world.

[@billywilson8134]

Man my heart actually breaks to know she’s gone from so many good people’s lives, whatever happened I hope she’s at peace in pastel heaven. Genuinely cannot fathom her being gone, I cannot imagine how it must be for the people who were so close to her

[@sherrygoberdhan3480]

Thank you for sharing this. I can’t imagine the pain you’re feeling losing Alex. I watched Alex silently for years and seeing that post broke my heart for her, for her family and friends. I don’t know why it hit me so hard not having known her in person. I keep coming back hoping it’s not true. I wish you well!!

[@riannonwhitford5883]

So beautiful thank you clay for sharing this I’m still in shock of Alex’s passing 🙏like I’m sure you are and all her loved ones. I’m sending you lots of love and strength as grief like this is overwhelming 🙏 I hope you’re looking after yourself the best you can while you’re in the early days of this loss. ❤

[@nanai7596]

This broke my heart even more :( there is no words of comfort in this situation! Stay strong and know you were there for her ! She was a lovely girl with a beautiful heart ! I watched her with my kids for a few years , I still haven’t told them of her passing as I don’t even want to accept this myself! It’s so hard we don’t know the person yet get attached, and love their little clips and what they show us ! You are lucky you got to meet her :) and be her friend ! Wishing you only the best , stay strong and keep going!

[@honeylavender6832]

I watched Alex for years and her earlier style helped me form and find my own style as well. It’s heartbreaking that she left so suddenly.

[@CroneFingrCraft]

I wasn't ready for the empty chairs and Alex at the end. I'm ugly crying for you Claye❤ Christ I am so sorry!

[@HumanimalChannel]

Ok well this DID make me cry. So glad you made this. You really showed the hole she has left. All that quiet ans all that empty space

[@GloomyRaccoon_]

Claye this was absolutely beautiful in the most heart breaking way and you were so strong to have been able to make it. I am so, so sorry for your loss. Alex was a beautiful soul that will leave a hole in the world 🤍

[@Mothstradamus]

You captured the feeling so perfectly. I wish you healing and peace.

[@FeAngel98]

So sorry for your loss Claye 🕊️ I’m sat here with tears running down my face, I only found out today. May Alex rest in peace. This was beautifully edited, you did a wonderful job. Thinking of you xx

[@babe1035]

This is beautiful Claye. Thank you for taking care of her. I know she loved you. I think about her every day.

[@OverwhelmedMushroom]

I'm so sorry. It's heartbreaking to lose someone so special, especially so young. 💔

[@ItsAndie]

If this hurt all of us, I can't imagine how you must feel. I loved her vibes. I always had nothing but nice words to her. I watched every single video from both of her channels. She was a safe space during the pandemic and my cancer journey. I love Japan more than never because of Alex and I promise I'll visit the wonderful places she showed in her videos, specially Gōtokuji temple, where she left a small maneki neko. I'll find it and I'll take a picture of it, so I can have a piece of who she was. Stay strong, and remember all the good moments you shared with her ❤

[@badlittlebliim]

This was beautiful Claye. I am so sorry for your loss. It was lovely getting to see your friendship and the glimpses of the life she built it Tassie in her videos and streams. It is strange to feel I miss someone I have never met and I can only imagine how hard it must be for you, her friends and family. I feel so fortunate to have had that glimpse into her world and I am sorry she is gone.

[@alyssaapoc]

And we will never forget her, either. Rest in peace, Alex.

[@kymaoxNeko]

Got teary from the start , but the end made me cry so much 😭 I know im only a stranger on the internet that followed alex for a few years but hearing her voice and how excited she got to hold a bird 😭😭 She will be missed so much and i'm terribly sorry for her family,friends and pets that she left behind so suddenly 😓 May she forever have found her peace of mind and watch over all she cared from heaven 😓😭 R.I.P Alex 😭😭

[@CHTHONIA]

Thank you so much for your courage in making this beautiful tribute to a beautiful girl. The final clip perfectly captures Alex's spirit, so bright, empathic, compassionate and gentle - the animals always know. I know that wherever she is now, there are birds of all kinds, and she herself has gained her wings. Sending you a lot of love.

[@jadenmarie6173]

Wasn’t expecting to hear her voice and see her at the end. Truly brought me to tears. I’m so sorry for your loss. Beautiful video Claye, hope you are doing okay.

[@loveyourselfplease6842]

A few weeks ago Alex popped into my brain & I got this horrible sinking feeling in my stomach but I brushed aside because I'd left her comments of concern before & she was always ok. I'm not on Instagram & I don't have Twitch I always looked for any updates on her old channel or Side quest. I jumped on the old channel & saw she posted two months ago & for a moment I was relieved until I read the comments. Claye I'm so sorry, she really was such a gem & a bright spot in this world.

[@christinaotter]

Its really hard for me to come to terms with the fact that she is no longer here. That was well done i know how hard that was for you to make. So good for you! I know Alex would be proud. She will be deeply missed

[@mouseheadstudios]

Thank you for keeping her alive. This was so beautiful. ♥ I hope she knows how much she was loved by us all.

[@crownedoll]

so sorry for your loss, this is a beautiful video

[@baby.ribz.]

Thank u for being her friend when she needed it most 🕊️🪽

[@fundehulster6273]

Its a beautiful Tribute for a exceptional beautiful person. I didnt know her personal but she made such a impact on me🥹😞🥀

[@bookworm8306]

I'm very sorry for your loss. She was a very special person. It was a beautiful memorial.

[@TheFutureOverlord]

Nothing fills the hole they leave when they go, but we learn to grow around it and take them with us where they go. Your memories made together will always be with you, continue to create new ones to share when you can see them again. No one else matters rn more than yourself and your healing at your pace. Take care of yourself.

[@mildredidk97]

This is beautiful, you're doing the things she loved...made me cry so much, I miss you Alex. RIP sweet soul ❤

[@cecea.590]

Heart. Broken.

[@antonea808]

This was a beautiful tribute. I needed to see this. Thank you

[@soniathompson3828]

Beautiful tribute ❤️ she will be missed.

[@TinasArtPage]

I don’t even know if I have the words…. First I’m so sorry for your loss…. Second the reach Alex has had just being her unique, quirky and loving self…. It feels like those of us who followed along with her KZbin journey were friends even though she never knew us…. I had such a sinking feeling the week she left the world I kept looking to see if she had posted anything all the while praying my bad feeling was wrong…. I had commented from my personal page on her IG saying I hoped she was doing okay and that she had just gotten busy again but that we missed her and couldn’t wait to see what she’s been up to…. Only to find out the worst news almost a week after posting…. My first thought aside from Alex was you and her parents and her sweet birds…. I could see how much she loved and appreciated you - it was written in her eyes and her smile she didn’t have to say a word…. I could tell how much you cherished her in return…. I hope and pray that the pain of her loss is one that with time eases a little in your heart…. I know it won’t ever fully go away… but I hope it will become more tolerable…. Thinking of you and everyone else who had the blessing to have Alex in their lives and her love and friendship in return…. I know it can’t be easy by any means at all to lose such a light in your lives sending lots of love 💗💗💗💗💗 & (((((hugs))))) to you 🕊️🦜🦆🐦🪿

[@missdann]

I lost my best friend to herself 4 years ago now and the waves of grief still wash over so hard sometimes ❤ grief is hard but you’re so strong for walking though it I hope your heart feels lighter soon

[@Cinicole]

Bawling. This was beautifully made. She's loved by so many

[@katechan93]

I’m so sorry that you lost her, but so glad that you got to know her 😢

[@cynthiapayne971]

Im so sorry for your loss. She'll be missed all over the world, much love from Canada.

[@Gingersnaappp]

I didn’t know what to expect (respectfully)…but I’m a wreck now after watching.

[@LunaWoulfeGaming]

This is beautiful. I'm sorry for your loss Claye. We are all grieving with you ❤ she will always live on in our hearts 🕊️

[@jessyo7425]

This is both heartwarming and heartbreaking at the same time. Thank you for sharing this tribute, it’s beautiful ❤ I am so sorry for your loss Claye and hope you have supports around you during this time, the world has lost someone so special and I hope you keep sharing your memories so her legacy can continue 💜

[@blitsycakes]

Cying so much right now, I miss her so much.. Sending you lots of hugs Claye! Her memory lives on in all of us ❤💜💗

[@jadambi]

I cant. I followed her for so many years 😭im broken.

[@acciokitties1362]

My heart breaks for you. I may not have known Alex personally, but I adored her very much. I cannot imagine the heartache her loved ones are feeling. The world truly lost an amazing, kind, and beautiful soul. So unfair. Ahe had so much life to live. Reat peacefully, Alex.🖤

[@Hell.0itsMe]

I BAWLED SEEING THE OP SHOP

[@Beth-sk5cn]

This is beautiful. I am so deeply sorry for your loss, and to all her family and friends. RIP Alex 🕊️

[@OliTheEgg]

Sat here weeping. Sending you the biggest hugs 💙 rest in peace sweet beautiful one 😭

[@runbyjunglered]

I'm so sorry for your loss Claye. I hope it's a comfort to you knowing you made Alex's world a better place and she obviously loved you very dearly too. Thank you for sharing this precious video with everyone, it's a beautiful tribute to a very special lady.

[@Amsayy]

I can't imagine your pain and loss. I was a fan of Alex for many years. I'm sorry.

[@schlocketmonster3096]

Oh it hasn't even started properly and I know I'm going to cry. I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what you're feeling but I feel for you.

[@idou]

thank you for this ♥️ that last clip of her made me sad all over again, yet it’s so comforting to see anything new of her so i appreciate this very much she seemed to have a great time with you and i’m so sorry you had to lose your dear friend. she’s really left a mark on so many people around the globe and i’ve cried over her several times despite not even knowing her. sending lots of love from Norway. grief is slow but meaningful and it will make a difference in some way shape or form whatever type of afterlife there might or might not be, i’m sure Alex’s involves birds. 🕊️🕊️🕊️

[@catherinefarrell5]

I’m sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing. She will be missed.

[@juniperfloraclarke9816]

This is beautiful. I lived Alex from a far. You were so lucky to have her. It must be devastating to have her taken away.

[@HumanimalChannel]

A beautiful tribute, Claye. RIP Alex❤

[@Ariesfairy2]

This brought a tear to my eyes, it was such a beautiful send off to her! So sad that a beautiful soul has left this world but I'm sure she has moved to a better place - whatever that may be. RIP Alex you were a ray of sunshine in this ever darkening world

[@Josherson]

She was so lovely…the world lost a wonderful, genuine, kind and loving human. I think about her everyday since….all the positivity she has put out into the world. She is in peace ❤

[@Mirily]

This is such a beautiful tribute Claye. Her loss is being felt all over the world, sending love from the UK 💜

[@jaye2997]

This is a lovely video ❤ I am so sorry for your loss, and I want you to know that I am thinking about you ❤️

[@AssassinsInventory]

I'm sorry for your loss. I wish Alex was here to see how loved she was. Hope there's light for you claye

[@Aqua.Tofarah]

This video is beautiful, I watched her for years during dark times and good times she was a pure soul just misunderstood. I’m so sorry for everyone who knew her loss this are me 😢

[@mrsschnatz]

Hi Claye, I just saw that you posted this. I cried during the whole video. I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Alex and you helped me during a really dark period in my life. Without you I don't know if I would've made it. My heart broke when I heard about Alex passing, she was such an inspiring light and such a beautiful soul ❤ there are no words that could ease your pain, but I hope you will find the light in all these little things the both of you cherished ❤ sending you a hug, if you want, hope it helps during this dark time.

[@ozmum09]

So very sorry for your loss Claye, she was a special lady xx

[@afoxesdream6444]

Thank you for being there for her. I never met her, but o miss her so much. ❤

[@Tashanagillies]

every time I thrift I see something I know she’d love, every day I see a birb on my walk to work, and imagine she’d want to photograph it, and my heart hurts, but continue to thrift and love birbs we must!! I hope this was cathartic to make and that the days gets easier I miss Alex so much, thanks for sharing that precious clip of her with us at end 💚

[@allibobs666]

Thankyou for being her friend, you sir are a real gent x

[@tayt_]

Super touching video, man. Take care if yourself through all this, I can’t even begin to imagine.

[@VTangy]

I was a fan of Alex since 2019. You've made a beautiful tribute video, wishing you so much healing.

[@ShannonIonaFaith]

I miss Alex and I didn't even know her. Lovely tribute, sorry for your loss.

[@Sifelia]

And here goes my tears, running down :'( I still can't believe she's gone.

[@Sophia-rq6oo]

I‘ve followed Alex for years, when she opened up about her mental health on her second channel I could really relate. I really cheered for her and hoped she would be able to build a new, happy & long life in Tasmania. This is absolutely devastating. Thank you for finding her and being a true friend, my deepest condolences to you, her family & remaining friends. I‘m sending you light and strength. I hope her soul flies high and light with the birds. 🤍

[@kitiara23]

I am so sorry for your loss. As much as we all loved her, I cannot imagine the pain and void you must be feeling now. She loved you beyond words, I’m sure of that ❤

[@ashleighrolfe7113]

This was so raw and beautiful, thank you so much for making this claye. I can’t imagine how difficult it was to do. I’ve watched Alex from when she first started her channel. She is such a beam of light that got me through many dark times, her impact on thousands of peoples lives will truly live on, I will forever be grateful to her for just being herself. Speaking to her on her twitch streams I will always cherish. This tribute has helped me more than you’ll know, my whole heart is with you 💚

[@FrauJessJess]

It's so unfair, she was taken from us all too soon. I keep thinking about her and rediscovering she's gone. This is a beautiful tribute and I miss her so much. I'm so sorry for your loss, Claye.

[@squishduck8618]

I cant imagine ur pain , this was beautifully done , i still shook and still cant believe shes gone 💔

[@skyes6151]

I'm so sorry Claye 💔 We don't know the circumstances but please be kind to yourself. Thank you for sharing this and continuing going to your favourite places, I can't imagine how hard it would be. As a fellow Tasmanian I will think of any opshop I go to, wildlife area etc I hope one day we can have a tribute place for her to visit and reflect. She was special She was kind She was hilarious And she was loved, now painfully missed x

[@YouILuv1]

Hearing her voice at the end made me SOB

[@rasilverstorm]

This was beautiful. I cannot imagine the pain you are going through, but a huge hug from an internet stranger and may the good memories always cheer you up.

[@anitaokey3073]

Sending massive hugs hun I carnt believe it. Alex lives on in your memories. Xx

[@faithaliciouslove]

Thank you for being there for her ❤

[@TheCoracat]

All the virtual hugs to you

[@vanorascape]

I didn't see the pieces with Alex's camera with you during the live stream from the timey wimey business. It's so heartbreaking and you did beautifuly with taking that piece of her and her hobbies in expressing yourself with this, Claye. I feel like we all can feel the loss you experienced. When ever you are ready to come back to being online we'll show up.

[@robinsongrl]

This was absolutely beautiful and. Wonderful tribute to Alex. Thank you for loving her. I'm so sorry for your loss ❤

[@LARvonCL]

I'm so sorry for your loss, she was a wonderful person ♡ this was a beautiful video, thank you

[@TheOneWifNoUsername]

You video is beautiful. I’m totally bawling. I’ve been so in a rut lately and I was thinking about Alex and you this morning. About everyone. Too much pain in this world. It’s not fair. You lovely human being you. But we can only keep doing our best eh? All the love Claye.

[@MeganMcIntosh]

RIP Alex. Thanks for making a lovely tribute. Very sorry for your loss. 💔

[@flawedpeanut]

It's just so devastating. It's hard not knowing, not being able to put a story to it (but I guess a part of me does know, even though I hope I'm wrong). Selfishly, it makes it harder to carry on. I can only imagine that you meant a lot to her.

[@kattastrophic]

This video breaks my heart even more. It's so tragically beautiful. Thank you for sharing this. We all miss her, so much.

[@lokiofasgard4626]

This was beautiful Claye. Sending love to you ❤❤❤❤

[@nadialottering6844]

My prayers are with you. I will be thinking of her every time I have Boerewors or biltong. 😢

[@annalyk]

So sorry for your loss Claye.