First Time Hearing Elastic Heart by Sia | Suicide Survivor Reacts

[@MentalAmanda]

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[@brentgrady8562]

Try listening to Amity Affliction- Like Love. Its a very tough one to hear

[@marcop.7434]

Thank you for your break down, this helped me understand a few aspects of healing I have to continue working!

[@ireallyreallyhategoogle]

The song is nice, but the video is great. I usually don't like interpretive dancing, because i usually don't get the point, but this video makes it very clear. You see it as the inside of a human mind, i saw it as a parent child relationship, but either way the point is once you are mature, you can't go back to innocence. It's like in the Logical Song.

[@Emiley-aviation]

Just started getting over severe anxiety from bullying in school.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@Emiley-aviation Happy to hear that you are healing!

[@lovers_cult]

The 'sweet' fight between the messed up adult and the pure inner child. The adult can be free but doesn't realize that being blinded and kept in the cage of his own limitations, fears, traumas. Sia brought subtility and deepth in pop world - she's a genius. Thank you for reacting to this vid and for the accurate interpretation!

[@texasnewt]

Very insightful reaction. Thank you Mental Amanda for sharing your analysis.👍

[@josepool9561]

Wow! Honestly all I can say is thank you for your response and your personal point of view!

[@seelenwinter6662]

pop is pop... mainstream sht... listen metal and you will find thousands song with a deep meaning...

[@OliveWhisperingEye]

FULLY CONCUR

[@bronwyndeegan1022]

This is why the arts, dance and music are so important. This song is a perfect example of how we interpret differently versions within our lives. It is powerful and universal. Thank you.

[@chrisf1202]

Still watching this video what 12 years later😅 He is being sued for sexual abuse in 2023 now. So sad.

[@hobbyoftheday4017]

After deep diving into this music video the best explanation for it is this... it's sia and her dad in the cage of mental health problems and their struggles with it, she is able to escape the cage of mental health problems but her father was not despite efforts on her part. After watching the music video with that in mind I literally started crying during the long silence at the end. It's almost a perfect example of interpretive dance when the first time I saw it I was like that was weird but upon re watching it several times and understanding the back story I can more deeply understand Sia's struggles better than if she told me about them person, figuratively speaking of course.

[@WoundedWarrior2012]

Conversation my horse and I had many of times getting ready for the rodeo.😂

[@allthatjazzreacts]

This song is so relatable for WAY too many people..... like the line, 'I've got thick skin and an elastic heart, BUT YOUR BLADE IT MIGHT BE TOO SHARP.' There are few people that can break you as much as a parent... I wish everyone who has those feelings can overcome them. ❤ They weigh in you so, SO heavily, no matter how old you get, and that inner struggle is well portrayed in the video. Very beautifully done. 👏 (I know the video is controversial, but maybe that's a manner of perspective I think.)

[@cleonmagabeefy8473]

Sia has actually changed my life haha... Just found her a few months ago and she has completely blown me away (forgot what being happy was).. She so awesome live too!!!

[@catschorus4684]

I think the final silent seconds of this video are possibly some of the most profound piece of unspoken acting ever captured on film.

[@manna6618]

It honestly explains my life, at least... :/

[@chadbrown4918]

The beauty of the video is that it can be interpreted in a bunch of ways. Everyone sees something that relates to them, I see this is a father playing interacting with his daughter and he eventually has to let her leave and it hurts him but he has to.

[@SCharlesDennicon]

Still one of the best music videos ever made. The choreography, the chemistry, the symbolism, and jeez, Maddie. I know Shia LaBeouf is known to be a dick, but I'll always like him for this.

[@anonapop2614]

Same, I really can't stand the guy but this was a phenomenal performance

[@TheOnlyGhxst]

@@anonapop2614 You don't even know the guy personally, only things you've seen or heard about him, kinda hard to judge based on that, no?

[@TheOnlyGhxst]

@Ks You’re still only a third party observer, and don’t even know for a fact that those allegations are true. Not saying they aren’t, but we can’t judge everyone just based on rumors and hearsay, need factual information and evidence. Just look at at the Amber Heard and Johnny Depp situation, it’s sad to say, but it’s been proven that some women lie in order to ruin someone else’s reputation. At the end of the day second or third hand knowledge can’t ever compare to first person experience.

[@indigocrayon520]

I separate art from the artist, it's why I can enjoy watching Kevin Spacey films and enjoy Chris Brown's music... My friend is a survivor of Spacey and I'm a survivor of domestic violence, can still separate it.

[@chelankaufman9705]

I always saw Maddy as courage and willingness to step out of her comfort zone. He represents fear to me. He can’t see that he can get out of that cage either. For me it’s the fight between fear and giving up and continuing on and fighting in the face of fears. This is a really cool way to see it too.

[@hughshugdevlin6192]

Great analysis Amanda, thanks. I've seen this video many times and it makes me cry every time. Years long. The music, the lyrics and the dance together tell a story that touches us all. Powerful..

[@TheNakedWombat]

If you haven't already, I recommend to you to read Sia's explanation of Elastic Hearts and the visual images in this video following a loud hysterical protest against this music video claiming it was paedophilia. Sia talks about her father who was trapped in mental illness when she was a child.

[@ExarchGaming]

People who try to label any interaction between an adult and a child as pedophilia is extremely ignorant. I remember an incident around 10 or so years ago, where a dad was walking and holding his daughter's hand. She was upset about something and was crying and making some commotion, and a bunch of bystanders actually attacked this dad claiming he was a pedophile. Because he was holding his daughter's hand while she threw a tantrum as 5 year olds are prone to doing. My sister is a dancer, and we watched this music video together, and I explained some of the backlash Sia and Shia were getting over the track, and it straight up pissed her off. Because there was nothing inappropriate about this choreography.

[@TheNakedWombat]

@@ExarchGaming Exactly.

[@TheOnlyGhxst]

@@ExarchGaming Everyone these days wants something to whine about or be angry about, they want to force people to be "victims" and turn others into criminals because it makes them feel important, like they're doing some great "service" for the world. They also have no idea how to separate art from reality. People always search for the bad messages, never the good ones. It's sad, and I can only see it getting worse.

[@qwertyuiop5363]

Your interpretation is impressive.. The genius in this vid is that everyone makes out his own meaning of this beautiful song. I really haven't seen something more emotional and with that much motives as in here, so fricking amazing ! Sia's creativeness is unlimited

[@usmcfly]

Amanda, just want to tell you, I've been watching a lot of your videos, and I'm glad that you're doing what you're doing, facing your demons and showing people that life is worth fighting for. That it doesn't magically get better just because you're not gone, because the fight continues to survive, to matter, to exist, but still you fight because there is good in the world that you can bring to others. I definitely feel this song pretty hard, feeling like I need to be there for others, and yet it feels like I have virtually no one. It hurts having not even a handful of friends, and feeling as if I'm completely forgotten by everyone until I'm needed for something, and once I've helped, I'm consigned back to oblivion. 70 hour workweeks, homeschooling my 5 kids (I have primary custody, divorce finalized 9/9 this year after 15 years of being unhappy), and spending the rest of my time doing what I can so that I'm too busy or distracted to think and wallow in grief, in self-hatred, in feelings of worthlessness, and most days, I succeed. Most days. Not most nights. Keep doing what you're doing, and know that you have support in many places. I would be happy to be a return voice of non-judgment and a safe space should you ever want a new friend to talk to. Also, if you haven't heard it, "Listen Before I Go" by Billie Eilish is an insanely powerful glimpse into that feeling of utter helplessness and hopelessness. It's oddly soothing (but then again, I've always liked depressing songs), though I will tell you now that it would trigger you pretty hard, and moreso the more times you listen to it and fully take it what all is being said. But perhaps it might also be a puissant way of reaching people to help them understand what people who suffer from an extreme depression feel, what they go through, the thoughts that go through one's head, even if (especially if) they seem unreasonable. Might be a really compelling reaction video to do. I wish you good mental health and friendship and laughter in your future!

[@christianslater2736]

I know this is an old vid, but love the break down, thanks for sharing your story and mental health awareness. Amazing insight on maturity vs innocence, its like they say you cant put the genie back in the bottle, once you know you cant unknow, and I think many of us miss that freedom of youthful innocence.

[@esclover2620]

Chandelier, Elastic heart and big girls cry is the trillogy. Breathe me is probably yen years older and from another album. Love the reactionsvideoes from Sia music videoes. Maybe you could make a interview with Sia about your and hers mental Health struggles. Keep going!!💛

[@tim4228]

Did you read the cliff notes on this before watching?! Haha kidding. I've watched this video so many times and was never able to interpret it. Thanks for your interpretation of it, makes a lot of sense!

[@MentalAmanda]

If those even exist, that's news to me! HAHA

[@aryastark772]

I think the song and the video are masterpieces. There’s something so captivating about them

[@thebenderfityogi4314]

Thank you for your analysis. I love sia and her struggle and you've put to words what I could only feel through her music and my own struggles.

[@tombstonevulturecommand]

As a man the metaphor of the ending happened for me and many men in our late teens early 20's. Hurts so much to think people can see the feelings of hopelessness. My cage has curtains now, with tiny slots.... Hope remains, but only as a fond memory.

[@MentalAmanda]

I hope one day you find the spark that will burn those curtains to the ground!

[@woosherdooser357]

You have done a great job elaborating this portrayal of Sia"s song... Enjoyed your reaction very much.. 👌

[@mickluchsinger486]

Like how you see and interpret these songs. Watched that video a bunch of times but seems like a whole new video now.

[@josepool9561]

You’re point of view is just poetic! Love watching you watch the video and hearing your take on this! Subscribed and liked!

[@Josh-Stewart]

This is my first video of yours.. I absolutely love this song.. as a suicide survivor myself I’m subscribing and checking out your channel.. thank you so much! 💚🎉

[@kylemiller4091]

Not my style of music, but she has a neat voice. I will have to watch the video a couple more times to get a feel for it. One thing I do know, everyone breaks. Everyone. Some big, some small. Putting it back together is how you grow. Not sure if it is better to break small a bunch of times or big a few times or a bit of both. Tests are ongoing.

[@WelshAmethystGirl087]

This is one of the most stunning video/songs ever made

[@breakdancinfool]

This dance is such a beautiful representation of the inner conflict of ego vs. id

[@Meccarox]

I love your Sia reactions. I subscribed.

[@Bryan_Master_Blaster]

Though not normally big on "artsy" videos, I liked this in that it reminds me of the challenges raising a grandchild with autism, who used to have some epic meltdowns. I bear quite a lot of scars on my arms and shoulders where he literally bit chunks of flesh out of me, as I tried to restrain him from hurting himself. Me a 280-pound guy grappling with a 60-pound little boy. However, when he would eventually calm down he was a totally different kid. When he saw me bleeding he would become extremely remorseful. He'd wipe the blood off me, then blow on my wound and kiss me. Years of ABA therapy, and we started to learn sign language to help him communicate, and he's much better now. Still excitable (the ADHD), but affectionate. I learned a long time ago not to take his violent attacks personal ... he didn't give me the scars on my body. His condition did.

[@MentalAmanda]

Having a Shadow myself that can be REAL nasty when I have an episode, it always warms my heart to hear people understand that the behavior isn't always the person. I would've given everything to have one person understand this when I was struggling! You're a good grandma 💗

[@Bryan_Master_Blaster]

@@MentalAmanda Grandpa - my grandkids call me "papaw." A while back somebody of facebook put out a question "If you switch places with somebody else for one day, who would it be?" I'd switch places with my grandson. I'd love to see and better understand what and how he sees the world.

[@Meccarox]

Your analysis is perfect and always insightful.

[@valentinv5773]

You HAVE to do The Greatest MV by Sia it’s a tribute to the victims of the Orlando Pulse Nightclub shooting and it’s honestly very heartbreaking

[@cindaann8101]

You are a sweetheart you keep fighting and helping others.. I watch you with my 11 year old daughter who told me a few weeks ago that she did not want to live. I was terrified we have an appointment with a psychologist and I’m scared they are going to give her pills. I’m very grateful she came to me first but the helpless feeling you have as a parent. She did tell me she started her monthly I’m hoping a chemical imbalances. I will let you know.❤️

[@MentalAmanda]

As a parent, I was also terrified when I took my 11 (at the time 10) year old son to a professional. I am not anti-medication when it is actually necessary, but it is GRAVELY overprescribed. I was very upfront that medication was a last resort. A good professional will respect that. They mentioned it here and there and I always asked a lot of questions when it came up. It never ended up being necessary, though I know many professionals would have pushed it for his behavioral struggles. We use CBD and that has helped. If you would like to try some, I can send you and her a free bottle of CBD gummies. I am assuming this is her first cycle and you are correct in assuming that it can throw off hormones and lead to emotional instability. The best thing you can do is keep the line of communication open, validate her feelings and ask if there is anything specifically that is making her feel that way. Please keep me updated.

[@JamieCleaton1]

The context breaks hearts. Maddie is Sia, Shia is her father and the cage is alcoholism…

[@andreaspedersen3952]

Makes sense since her hairstyle matches Sias.

[@ExarchGaming]

@@andreaspedersen3952 she stars in several of sia's music videos, she is always used as an allegory for sia herself in the videos.

[@shlokedutta5166]

Such a lovely reaction, Love Sia Love you❤

[@whistlerwade]

I watched this before and was creeped out. Then watched it with my eight year old daughter because she likes Sia and I felt i needed to explain a mostly naked man. I didnt have to say anything and didn't get the same creeped feeling, seeing her enjoy the dancing with a song she already knew. She said "its like when we dance and play". Then she asked, "Why doesn't he escape? He can fit through the bars," I said "well it a metaphor, he's doesn't see the escape that she see's, its a cage of his own making. So he can't escape because his trauma makes him blind to what is obvious to her.....holding back tears. It all made sense it that moment, and we'll always share love of this video.

[@dvluis6190]

Lo ha explicado tan genial que hasta me hizo llorar

[@albert0F]

I think Shia Lebeouf is just trapped in some demons, but we have to realize he is trying not to hurt anyone, and at the end of the day I think considering what he has gone through he is gonna be one amazing actor again, and win awards, and he is gonna have earned them just by not hurting anyone else, even if he has some issues, but they will go away. Maddie, Sia, and Shia was a genius combo.

[@Im2stoned4ya]

im 41 years of age and ive have depression since the age of 12 i can count my scars on how many times i tried to end my life but for the past 6 years ive found cannabis to help but now im fighting to get off that its a hard struggle but we will all one day win the war we fight here in Australia

[@MentalAmanda]

I am so glad you found something to get you through the hardest part. I know how hard it can be to let go of that vice (I've quit weed, coke, pills and cigarettes. I know this is from New Zealand, but this website has a lot of resources you can use: www.pothelp.org.nz/ You have already overcome so much. You got this!

[@WoundedWarrior2012]

As a cowgirl who used to be a barrel racer in rodeos THIS SONG HAS A WHOLE DIFFERENT MEANING TO ME. This is my inner spirit and my horse having a conversation.😂😂

[@wor1dconquerer170]

Sia's Elastic Heart and Bette Midler's Wind Beneath My Wings are my 2 most listened to songs.

[@skylergoldstein715]

To me; the video speaks to the balance of a Father Daughter relationship.

[@p_x3l]

"I'm like a rubber band until you pull too hard. I may snap and I move fast."

[@francomuscellini1744]

I had forgotten how sad this video ends. Good comments from you!

[@MysterD.]

I see two different sides of the same brain, an internal struggle.

[@grudzz7049]

He's fookin' built..in this.

[@djrsound3476]

Sia is one legend ♥️

[@Telepathy-cn2bj]

Excellent Analysis! Bravo!

[@matthewwilliams8339]

This video and song are simply amazing. Have you ever heard my love by sia? It is simply stunning.

[@shlokedutta5166]

Hi Elastic Heart ft. WEEKND AND DIPLO is from Hunger Games Elastic Heart solo version which you heard is from her album 1000 forms of fear. The trilogy is not chandelier, Breathe Me and Elastic Heart. The trilogy is of Chandelier, Big Girls Cry, Elastic heart❤

[@Ellinore6]

Crying while watching this 👍🏻

[@1babyjames1]

Sia - Reaper!!! It's incredible!

[@babette5918]

Sia - "breathe me" performed at the bat bar, before she was famous, is really on theme for your channel... if you haven't already checked it out.

[@santoshsharma483]

You should watch the cover version by Written By Wolves. The words makes more sense coming from them.

[@emmatagu-ed5xp]

I was holding my tears

[@miguel-ib9lg8kt3h]

Maturity is accept the fact that no matter how much it hurts someone walked away because love is gone. Let's move on because this is not the end is just the beguinning for something better

[@AfterthoughtTV]

I have been in a constant state of dissociation for most of my life. You might describe me as very outgoing and good socially if you knew me but if you really knew me you'd know that I am a mess. I have not dated (or been intimate with anyone) since middle school because of fear of my heart being broken like it was then. This song I relate to a lot. The only difference is that my heart feels eternally broken unlike Sia's hardened Elastic Heart.

[@MentalAmanda]

It's only natural that we don't want to experience a painful feeling again. I did the SAME thing and shut off for so long. Now I am in a happy and healthy relationship because I realized that a ship in the harbor might be safe, but that's not what ships are made for. Neither are we. 💗

[@АнжеликаСолдатова-л5к]

О Боже…Я вижу русский язык…браво… балдею от ее песен…👍🏽😁🥂

[@brianadams429]

@Mental Amanda 311 beyond the greyskies Waiting for this reaction..........

[@christianandal6303]

..the Dance says it All in this... She buildt a cage around her, and He got caught in his own cage, bec of her...

[@emmatagu-ed5xp]

I cried when watching this

[@louiegutierrez9042]

Sia's dad was an alcoholic and no matter what she did she couldn't save him just like he knows he can easily fit through the cage but he chooses to stay in because he really wants to stay in cuz it gives him more Comfort than his own family I know I'm there right now

[@ssilversgs]

The third song in the trilogy was "Big Girls Cry", not "Grieve Me". kzbin.info/www/bejne/an_LfIqQpdCqZ7M

[@BenTonyWinchester]

So cool that Shia LaBeouf is in this👌🏻😊

[@BenTonyWinchester]

At the end,,I think it's more that he is conflicted, it's save in the cage and scary outside

[@lovers_cult]

Please react to Free Me by Sia - the video with Zoe Saldana - so emotional!!

[@BenTonyWinchester]

You really need to check out Shia LaBeouf Real Ones with Jon Bernthal on KZbin,,,amazing interview

[@PaulaCollins-pz5rd]

You did not break me.. im still here ..

[@MentalAmanda]

We are happy you light still shines.

[@ItsSmurfyLee]

Any chance of any Citizen Soldier songs coming up?

[@MentalAmanda]

They are on my list, but my non-Patreon list is getting quite long!

[@ItsSmurfyLee]

@@MentalAmanda Sweet can't wait to see the reaction to them from you they are a very emotionally driven band and quite a few of their songs deal with mental health

[@deathlyhallows2088]

Love you 💓 Please react to sia : dressed in black

[@andyb8501]

Hi Amanda, nice reaction. Role models for coping with-mental health issues. Check out Tom macdonald and nova. Castles. Withdrawals.I don’t drink,fake woke etc Also. Tyson fury’s life . Love Zia and maddie

[@urlastchance1]

You see this song and video almost exactly like I do. Lol Eventually you will perish but your soul will live on forever *Maddie outside the cage.*

[@Meccarox]

Maybe you can react to Little Black Sandals by Sia.

[@lady4191]

For some of us this is a scary glimpse of why I'm glad I didn't pursue Hollywood

[@Tigerfeuer]

Very good Music. Grettings from Germany. Tiger

[@rickyshaw4759]

Hi I'm Ricky. Me and Dobey luv u.❤❤❤

[@TriXJester]

I'm kinda surprised you've never covered any Twenty One Pilots songs, since they're big on mental health in their music

[@HeyLiam.]

SIAs the Michael Jordan of singers

[@nunya7319]

If you're not busy this weekend....MARRY ME ♥♥

[@MentalAmanda]

My boyfriend might fight you on that!

[@nunya7319]

@@MentalAmanda LOL, Had to try !! ♥

[@ahmedzaky3071]

React to "the greatest" by Sia please 🥺❤️

[@chrisblack6331]

She said in an interview that he smelled really bad.

[@peterbuck9209]

Stay true

[@narjiicday-burns6944]

🖤💛❤️

[@kylemiller4091]

And your headphones are driving me nuts.

[@MentalAmanda]

They still work fine, but the band broke!

[@kylemiller4091]

@@MentalAmanda I know. And I know you are getting new ones. I just think it is kinda cute that somebody broken and healing has headphones that represent the same journey. 😁

[@kylemiller4091]

And please don't take the "cute" thing as some insult. The world is upside down to me these days.

[@toyota420xp]

Shia is the best actr ever

[@jeffreyheidstra74]

fot me i am just waiting for my end and i hope it comes soon mow i am to be 54 years old but i am scared for hugs and men touching me incl ladues. Sint that a laugh i tried suicide 2 times cauze i am so fake for my direct suroundings play a clown just so poeple think i am ok which i am not

[@MentalAmanda]

It sounds like you have had some trauma in your past. You deserve to heal. And it is possible. I have seen people in their fifties and even older find healing and peace. Please reach out to a professional that can help you process the trauma. As a sexual assault and emotional abuse survivor, it really does help.

[@11Virgo11]

Waterworks. every time..

[@MentalAmanda]

But you know, only one in probably 25 videos do I cry. Perhaps retake elementary percentages.

[@ryanstockley9495]

U need to listen to some of NF’s music Amanda

[@SotonSam]

Linkin Park sticker!

[@boodoofett4192]

😢 😭

[@АнжеликаСолдатова-л5к]

Если возможно, делайте перевод на русском, хочу быть в курсе всего..🙏🇷🇺😁

[@jeffreyheidstra74]

hi Amanda y have got planty ot mental issues some i have overcomelots i st : ill have big issues with. Starting by : I have been sexuual neen abuded fot 9 years by a family member . at age 15 my father found out i told some one so i got beating with hus belt and got told never to do that again, Oh well cant choose famelies right. nut that is when i got scared for how got looked if others saw me as like i sot a sign that i am damaged goods if you want more let me know cause i am scred all ready i told to much jeff

[@MentalAmanda]

You are safe here to tell as much as you feel comfortable with. And if you need help getting to safety, please reach out and we will find you resources. You don't deserve the abuse.

[@jeffreyheidstra74]

hi to me this song is about like opening your heart being scared to open your heart because you are opening your heart for wanting be loved and scared to love and scareed to to be left alone adain because after finding put have still bagage from your past that you can not nring up for losing love adain

[@christianandal6303]

Microdosing.......

[@melaniewilliams6740]

We should keep in mind that your "interpretation" skills are nil. I so hoped that you would redeem yourself in the commentary- but YOU have NO idea what they are saying. How offensive that you think that without experiencing anything- you could possibly understand anything.. You are a blight on those being 100% (real). SERIOUSLY, tho- folks exactly you have become the reason that we need to hide.

[@MentalAmanda]

What criteria did you use for your blanket assumption that I "haven't experienced anything"? Abuse, sexual assault, abandonment, death of my family, addiction, suicide attempts, pregnancy loss.....those don't qualify as "anything" in the mental health world? It's having complete strangers assert that they know your history, struggles and intent that makes people feel the need to hide in fear of being judged.

[@cryan8373]

Speaking of personas you forgot to mention the money grabbing persona, you know the one, the one that just can't stop using suicide to make a living. It makes me very sad and very uncomfortable to see and hear something using such a sad thing for profit. I am worried that people who do not have an intimate understanding of the darkness are going to see these videos and just assume its someone trying to make a buck off of the suffering of others. You may have survived it but what about those of us who are stilling trying to survive? We already have a hard enough time getting most of the world to even believe and understand all the many complications of very poor mental health. And sadly plenty of people still feel that way today, they don't understand, might not even believe its real, and not to mention you just KNOW when someone you are talking to someone, and cant help but notice somewhere in the back of their mind they are wondering if ppl are faking it for attention, or in this case money. You are a survivor and so maybe you have forgotten how hard it can be to talk about mental health and get the help needed, maybe you have forgotten what the fear feels like when you're wanting so badly to say something or anything to someone or anyone, but are scared of the judgement that almost comes immediately after. Please don't make it hard for people who are still fighting the battle. It's just very upsetting to see someone who is a survivor who looks back and instead of holding the door open tell you all the ways you can easily give them your money. And I know this is not going to be a very popular opinion but I am truly afraid that things like this only make it even harder for everyone else.

[@MentalAmanda]

The majority of my videos aren't monetized due to copyright. I do what I do to raise awareness and encourage conversation. If you scroll through the comments of any video here, you will see that this channel gives people a safe place to open up, reach out and keep fighting 💖 If it isn't for you, I understand and genuinely hope that you find peace and healing. You deserve it.

[@cryan8373]

@@MentalAmanda I just don’t know of any safe places which only adds to the struggle of doing right by myself and trying to find the help I know I need. I just can’t survive opening up again to anyone and risk being taken advantage of. It seems to always end in one of two ways, having to pay for something and never knowing if it will even be worth it, or just indirectly being used in someone’s campaign to generate an income. There just isn’t a way to tell who is genuine and trustworthy these days and there’s so many different ways ppls information can be used as a type of content to be monetized and so nothing seems genuine to me. I used to be one of the lost emotionally intuitive people I’ve ever know of but this has been a long time coming because over the years pieces of me have just broken off and floated away to never been again and so I can’t even understand myself anymore but idk who I am.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@cryan8373 I reply to my comments here and my emails and never charge a dime for those things. Yes, here are paid resources as well, but there are not a necessity to post here and interact with myself and the community

[@jumper-km7hg]

as michael j fox would say try not to confuse me 😁