Metal Dude & Wifey (REACTION) - Ren Ft. Bibi - Crutch - *Wow* We Got PERSONAL With This One - Deep!

Metal Dude & Wifey (REACTION) - Ren Ft. Bibi - Crutch - Wow We Got PERSONAL With This One - Deep!
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• Ren Ft. Bibi - Crutch
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[@patrickquinlan3056]

Apparently Bibi left him to preserve her own sanity but came back to do this video with Ren.

[@MalcolmMXTaylor]

And it was also bibi who started the first GoFundMe for Ren some years ago, as I understand she was integral to helping him find the help he needed and keep him motivated and focussed to keep searching

[@patrickquinlan3056]

@@MalcolmMXTaylor Thanks for that, mate.

[@BemusingBill]

Amazing. Just amazing

[@danielleboulanger7857]

@@MalcolmMXTaylor He's standing at the end of the video

[@christelsegbars1630]

Hi beautiful humans, hi Nancy, what a treat to see a face after all the loving things your hubbie said about you. Warm hug from a stranger from the Netherlands ❤

[@twpsy634]

May I add one from an old lady in Wales. Your genuine warmth radiates through the screen Every blessing to you both.

[@BemusingBill]

There are no strangers here! Only family! On the same journey together. We both really appreciate you! All our love and hugs to you❤❤

[@BemusingBill]

@@twpsy634 Thank you my sweet you may surely add one! And we warmly give two back! Much love to you!!❤❤

[@JoRiceRenegade4Eva]

And another warm & friendly hug from Australia 🇦🇺😊 Wonderful to see you both xxx Look at those subscriber numbers growing Woohoo!! 👏👏❤️

[@shireeni8665]

Bibi and Ren were in a relationship when this was shot.......this video always makes me bawl like a baby .....it is intensely personal and heart-breaking!

[@CristyB66]

Yep 🥺

[@BemusingBill]

Wow!

[@joannewilson2395]

I love this one. I think the first half is the romantic idea of supporting someone through a mental health crisis and the second half is the grinding reality.

[@BemusingBill]

The struggle is real. So many people go through that. So very sad told in such an intimate and beautiful way. Thank you! Much love❤❤

[@amandacollins2854]

Ren has said that he sent her away . They were so young and he had been diagnosed with chronic bipolar syndrome and he saw his future, then quite differently than he dose now . I too have P.O.T.S, only reciently diagnosed, and have had a long lifetime of misdiagnosis and can testify to how that can screw you around . I too hear myself in Rens words . They say misery , loves company ,well it might be true , I have found brilliant company among the Ren fans , I hope the Renagades will always be such beautiful people , they dont really care about the trivial stuff like age or wealth or what country you are from . It is a group of people who if they judge at all, seem to judge on empathy and kindness more than anything elce . We are the the misunderstood and pain wracked who have heard Ren ,sing out ,in our darkest nights ,like a clarion call ,and have emassed to support him . We are very glad to meet you both , you seem like our kind of people , natural born Renagades. Thank you for a beautiful reaction ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@matildafishes9931]

My heart goes out to you, Amanda. Thank you for your vulnerability. It means a lot! Prayers and much love! 🙏 🩷

[@BemusingBill]

I love our RENagade family!!! Like you said so many kind ,warm hearted and amazing people you would ever come across. Really does give us hope for humanity! With this kind of love , we could change the world ❤❤Ren has already changed the world and our lives we thank the universe for him!!! Natural born Renagades ASSEMBLE ! .... I am truly sorry to hear you also have POTS among other things... recent diagnosed wow.. so horrible ... we know how hard this is for you personally and for everyone around you .... we both send you love, big hugs, strength and prayers for you to just fight to get through one day , one moment at a time .... you are in our thoughts and hearts ... much love to you my family ❤🙏

[@dawnpatterson8708]

So happy to see you BOTH this morning. This is a rough one. I don't watch too many reactions to it. It hurts my heart to see him like that. The worst part is seeing him cry. The only thing that makes it ok, is knowing he is on the other side. My thought and prayers are with you BOTH.

[@BemusingBill]

It is rough to get through. But good to know where he is now. Our thoughts and prayers are with you Dawn as well as a boatload of hugs and love ❤❤

[@kennethriddle433]

He's not out of the woods yet, but at least he's found the path.

[@sharis9095]

There's so many ways to interpret this... was she ever there? Was she one of his delusions? If I lose my mind will you stay.. could mean you're only here when my mind is lost so if I give in and stop trying will you be with me all the time. It could mean she left. Or it could mean what Ren said about it... that this was his fear, that no one would be able to handle his illness and he would basically be alone.

[@BemusingBill]

Ren wrote it with his fear in mind. It's his artistry that opens up interpretation. Either way, it's so damn sad. Thank you! Much love and peace to you!

[@danielleboulanger7857]

she left but he was standing in the end, it's sad but it's not hopeless

[@nightshade7240]

Losing yourself, as someone who lives with mental and physical illness, is probably the scariest aspect. There are many cliches that people trot out when talking about mental health and physical wellness, so I will simply say to your wife, as someone who deals with chronic illness, may you have more good days than bad and may your bad days not be your worst days. They can't do anything for my conditions either and that trapped in a prison of your own flesh thing is very real. It's either a prison of the mind or a prison of the body but there is no escape.

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you for such kind words and such wisdom. She says, as one warrior to another I wish you strength and hopes for better days and moments for you as well. It's a small thought, but gives great comfort to know we have each other and that we are not alone in this. It's the little things in life that matter most. Peace, love and blessings to you❤❤🙏🙏

[@MalcolmMXTaylor]

What a great couple you 2 are!! And to react to this one together is perfect especially as Nancy has been pulled through the ringer as well. Glad to see you on an upward trajectory Nancy, can see Bill is there for you 110% so you got a good human beside you to help. More reactions with the both of you!! Dont just do the sad songs, do some of the fun ones as well!!!

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so much for such kind words! You are so awesome! No matter her trajectory, I'll be right by her side the whole way! Let's hope the upward trajectory keeps going in that direction, thank you. Fun songs? YOU GOT IT! Much love to ya ❤

[@Skittenmeow]

OMG Nancy if we didn't have mental illness before invisible disabilty, we'd certainly be guaranteed it after so many years of misdiagnosis. It was over 25 years between my initial emergency event and diagnosis, and even now following diagnosis I still run into the occasional doctor who sees an obvious scan of an EDS symptom (eg last week or was a pneumothorax) and still think I've somehow made up EDS and somehow conjured up diagnostic imaging to match my imaginary diagnosis

[@BemusingBill]

Oh my God, right?!? How horrible. I get panic attacks being alone but because of my tachy/brady syndrome a panic attack can actually cause a heart attack in me where anyone else it would just be a panic attack! That messes with your mental stability. It took me 10 years before I was diagnosed with dysautonomia and that was 30 yrs ago. And to this day I still fight with doctors! They want me to see a cardiologist and then I do and they say I only have a heart murmur and nothing to worry about so then they send me to a shrink because they think it's 'in my head'. True story: BP and heart rate crashing (BP 80/40, HR about 42bpm) doc says I must be having a panic attack. I say, a panic attack lowers your heart rate and blood pressure? Silence. How ridiculous the way we are treated. Like you conjured up that diagnostic image smh! Big hugs to my warrior sister and all my love. ❤❤

[@Plague073]

This one is tough, only the second time I have watched this video. I am pretty sure while Ren is a great actor, I saw in one of his interviews that alot of this didn't require acting at the time. Great to see Nancy on a bit of an upswing, I hope it lasts, I wish for you both it could last forever. Thanks for sharing such personal aspects of your lives. Edit to add: Pretty sure this was Ren around 25 or 26ish as it was the worst of his battle.

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so much! I hope your wish come true! Much love❤

[@CristyB66]

This song makes me cry every time I hear it. But at the end there is not one song of Ren that doesn’t touch me in one way or another. I would so like to see your wife again, I love listening to her 💕🩷

[@BemusingBill]

Impossible not to cry! So many Ren songs do that but this one has such a punch. Thank goodness he lightens things up with other songs that make us laugh and dance! I'll try to get her back on. I think another microphone is in order, first. I would love to have her on as often as she would like. Thank you!❤❤

[@MrFlob85]

I’m glad you two reacted to this. It’s probably the song that touches me most of his. Not many people are covering it. I appreciate your personal connection. I have one too. I’m wishing you both the best. Genuinely. 💜

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so knidly! Much love from the both of us❤❤

[@salishseamermaid]

Nice to meet you, Nancy. ❤ As a nurse, i absolutely love seeing how Ren's music touches people who've been given more to carry than any human should have to bear.

[@BemusingBill]

She says... Hello, very lovely to meet you as well ❤️.... Since you are a REN fan, I know without a doubt you are a fantastic caring nurse and person! God bless you and your profession 🙏 (I wish you could show all your patients his music, and the doctors lol) Ren has been a saving grace, hope and healing for many, many people. I truly thank God for him in doing that, and that we found him.... and the community of people/family that comes with and from him. Like my wife too many suffer with things like you said, " no human should have to bear." But together as one, It makes it a little easier to bare .... Thank you so much for this comment, means a lot to us! Much love and blessings to you ❤️

[@tinymusikcodottv-Musikverse99]

Get you VIT D. everyone needs it. spread the word!!!!!!

[@adrienne1958l]

Hello Nancy and Bill , so wonderful to see you both. Nancy I completely understand everything the two of you are saying. My brother was my health support, he also was dealing with cronic illness so we were able to support each other , he was my best friend. I lost him in 2020 . Finding Ren has definitely helped me survive, and heal .

[@BemusingBill]

Hello there ❤️ It is wonderful to see you here also! We are both so sorry to hear of your brother/best friends passing 🙏 Truly heartbreaking! I am glad you had each other for as long as you did ( that was a very special thing to have) ... but now being alone is so gut wrenching to hear ..... Thank God you found Ren is right! And I am so glad he can bring you some joy and hope. He has a special way of doing that for so many people. We both send you our love, prayers and strength and big big hugs to keep fighting the fight .... ❤️🙏 We and the Renagades are here for you❤️

[@adrienne1958l]

@@BemusingBill , Thank you ❤️

[@francesdoll4039]

Ren wad 25 here and dealing with the psychosis he encountered in his worst days. The same time as clawing the kitchen floor. It was before he knew he had Lyme disease. So glad to see you guys doing this journey togethet. Thank you for sharing with us.

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you for watching and for the info. Much appreciated. All our love to you my friend❤❤

[@CristyB66]

Hi dear wife!!! Happy to see you 💕💕💕💕

[@BemusingBill]

Hello my sweetheart!👋 Much love to you❤❤

[@ginam3849]

It is so nice to see you both. This song hits hard. My husband has been with me through all my health problems. This song makes me cry every time. It takes a special person to watch someone you love go through hell and decide to stay and help them through it. And I agree with you. It is nice seeing humanity in all the comments. ❤

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so much! Bless your husband! A man of great character! Bless you as well, and hope you have way more good days than bad and with him at your side your bad days are more bearable. Hugs and love to you both❤❤

[@sicmuvva11]

Your wife is gorgeous! Thanks for sharing, you are a lucky duck Bil!

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you! I tell her that every day! And I do feel like a lucky duckbill😉🤣🤣❤

[@sharoncarlisle9453]

I'm so happy you watched this one. She leaves at the end of the video, because the song was written about Ren's fear that he would lose her. Part of me loves this because it is done so beautifully, but it's the only Ren video that is really hard for me to watch. That's because it's so real. It takes me right back to the time before any diagnosis, when I was too exhausted to move, and in very severe constant pain. I couldn't walk or even stand for more than a few seconds, I couldn't put my own shoes on, hold a cup, squeeze the toothpaste, or even lift the blanket off myself to turn over in bed. I didn't know what was wrong, or if it would ever get any better. Watching this really makes me feel that time again so vividly, so it's difficult. But at the same time, it's incredibly beautiful. I don't relate to it in terms of a romantic relationship, but I did have a son taking care of me at the time, and similar fears about the impact on him and whether he would be able to do it all. I'm glad the two of you have each other. I can see a lot of love there, and I'm sure it really helps you to navigate all of this.

[@BemusingBill]

I'm happy I watched it with Nancy, that's for sure. I can see why it would be hard for you to watch because of the connection. And yet it is beautiful. It's art the way art is supposed to be- stimulating, thought provoking, emotional and very human. Nancy fears being left alone in case something happens which I can't blame her. Our youngest son would stay with her after school until I got home from work. He didn't really understand and it would be hard on him sometimes. He looks back with regret about feeling that way now(he's an adult now)) but as a kid what do you expect. I'm glad you had your son to help you. I feel for those that have no one. That's heartbreaking. I hope you are feeling better with many good days! Thank you, Sharon, for sharing and being a part of this family. You are so greatly appreciated and loved. Thank you❤❤

[@sharoncarlisle9453]

@@BemusingBill Thank you. I am doing much better now. I still have RA, and a lot of joint damage, but it is all much more manageable now. I really enjoy your reactions and I'm happy to be part of this community. ❤️

[@Lou-xq9br]

❤ #Ren this song makes my heart so sad for Ren with all he was going through when he was at his worst 😭 Great reaction and nice to meet the wifey! I hope you continue to go from strength to strength health wise, sending love from Scotland 💙

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so much! Yeah, I found a little back story on that and it is so very sad. We send our love back to Scotland❤❤

[@susanwearn2617]

Hi peeps my hubby and I have been together for 45 yrs and my hubby has mental health probs due to being in the forces got shot in the head. But like you two could never leave him. Even through tough times. Happy your support for each other. Bless you both.❤

[@BemusingBill]

Our hearts go out to you my dear. and your husband. So horrible to hear. He is truly blessed to have you by his side and blessed just to be alive! We send you our hugs, love and prayers ❤🙏

[@lisayoung4987]

So great to see you both. Ren gives the Gift of Understanding and That Speaks Volumes. This song we can relate to sad to say yet Ren Knows We are Not Alone ❤❤

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you! Yes, I agree completely. Ren is amazing at bringing people together like bringing you to us. Much love to you from us both❤❤

[@debrashrider4062]

Bibi and him had broken up, but she returned to do this video with him when he asked. If i remember correctly she is a tattoo artist by trade.

[@BemusingBill]

Very interesting, and honestly sad.... my gut wrenches for him going through all of this (at the time) and losing her on top of all that! Thank you so much for this comment and back story information, I really appreciate that. Much love and blessings to you ❤️🙏

[@deaniegarcia5694]

I love REN like you do! I am a caregiver for my husband of 32 years So nice to meet you Nancy! Keep up these great reactions ☺️

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so much! Your strength is inspiring! Prayers and all our love to you and your husband. nancy says, Hi!❤❤

[@PChuu22]

I like to interpret it as she stayed with him until he was able to stand on his own two feet again (no longer needing his crutch) and then she left for her own health and well-being. She saw him through until he was stable. But that's just my interpretation, as a lupus patient (with lots of other flavorful issues).

[@BemusingBill]

I can definitely see that as an interpretation , that is one of the many , things I love about REN's songs is the so many different views and how each person can relate on so many different personal levels... That is just mind blowing! My prayers and love are with you for your conditions and life situation , my you find peace, strength, and healing ❤🙏

[@KittyInTheGarden]

Nice to meet you, Nancy.

[@BemusingBill]

The pleasure is all mine😁Thanks for watching! Much love❤❤

[@williamkeith8740]

Welcome to the RENiverse Nancy

[@BemusingBill]

Thanks!! Wonderful place to be! Much love to you ❤

[@cultivatinggrace]

Wifey is such a sweetheart! Kind of love that you two connected. Thanks for being my favorite uncle to introduce me to amazing records.

[@cultivatinggrace]

Also, is she the one who crocheted or knitted the Prince blanket behind you?? I’ve asked about this already but I’m still eager for an answer! It’s gorgeous work.

[@BemusingBill]

She sure is I agree with you lol ❤️🤣...You are so very welcome!!! Uncle Bill loves to show people awesome music , you are now my favorite niece !!! ❤️.... Thank you for the kind words ,comment and support ... means a lot to us both ... The Prince blanket in the background was made by my sister Lisa whom is a master of the art !!! Here is her Facebook link facebook.com/LisaQuiggCreations I am going to ask her to make a Sick Boi blanket for Nancy for Christmas lol Shhhhhh 😉❤️ sending you tons of love and big big hugs ❤️

[@SkaterWillsy]

Ren has a huge crutch! Legend has it that it's in the shape of a toblerone! 😂 Great to see to lovely people reacting to this very emotional song. My wife has auto immune issues and I feel this song speak about her as well as thousands of other people

[@BemusingBill]

🤣🤣😁😁 Legends are truth !!!! Thank you for your kind words! Yes this song hits hard and sooo many countless people can relate. Ren has changed us all ( the world) for the better! My prayers and love go out to you and your beautiful wife, to stay strong and to weather the depths of hell together .... Much love to you both my friend ❤🙏

[@boxicuk1620]

Great reaction i cant help shed a tear every time i hear this track ,keep up the good work,much love and respect from the UK 👌🏼

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so much! Much love from across the pond!❤

[@Skittenmeow]

Big love from a fellow dysautonomia warrior, of the more extreme variety (although I long for the "mild" dysautonomia I had in my 20s)

[@BemusingBill]

I'm in the extreme percentage, too. I long for just moments of mildness. i would love to just be able to lie on my left side or my back for just a couple of hours, that would be so great. My BP crashes and I feel like I'm slipping into death. I understand your struggle my sister. It's real and it's hard but you and I have the strength to try to make it through one more day at a time. So thankful for people like you! Makes me feel like I'm not alone and you're not alone either. peace, love, blessings, and BIG hugs to you❤❤🙏🙏

[@achebwahs1111]

Nice one folks. Love the reaction. This one hits then hits again. Just signed up on your Patreon. Interested in the Esoteric as well

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so much. And thanks for being a Patreon!! Really appreciate that. Let me know what you would like to see or perhaps I can find something to intrigue you. Much love❤❤❤❤

[@achebwahs1111]

@@BemusingBill Happy to go with the flow for now. May pop in with a request at some stage but for now happy to be chilling with the vibes. Much love and love much

[@DuelerDog55555]

Prayers Nancy and Bill ❤

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you! Much love and blessings to you❤

[@denisebulgariu964]

Great reaction!

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you❤❤

[@yonahwardgrossman]

Your wife is utterly charming. You're a very lucky man. I wish you both continued health and happiness.

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so much. I certainly am a lucky man! We wish you all the best my friend

[@GeriStorm]

Hi Nancy thank you for suggesting Ren! 🙏👏👏

[@BemusingBill]

Hi!👋It was my pleasure! Much love to ya ❤

[@shazza175]

Hi Nancy! Nice to put a face to the legend! 🥰This song is such a tough one. It clearly came from such a place of darkness. I'm glad Ren's health has improved since these dark days.

[@BemusingBill]

She says Hello ❤️ and nice to meet ya! She is my Legend and Hero that's for sure ! Yea this song hits hard! We have traveled through the same darkness of Hell that Ren has been.... To come out on the other side as he has is a miracle! I continue to pray for his health so we can be blessed with more and more of his music. Thank you for your kind words and this comment. We both send you tons and tons of love and big big hugs!!!! ❤️❤️

[@NoCanDu]

Oh, wow! Seeing you two, in this similar situation, reacting to this intense, heartbreaking video was truly moving. 🥺 You guys are strong and beautiful! Keep on keeping on. ❤

[@BemusingBill]

Yes, I also felt it was like a mirror of our situation , the only difference is , my love for her is so powerful I would literally walk through the depths of hell with her. And believe me we have in fact been there way too many times!!! Thank you for your kind words and encouragement ... much peace, love and hugs to ya ❤

[@VelouriaLaRue]

(Crutch)is always hard to for me watch. Thank you for sharing with us Nancy! What a lovely couple. My wish is that you continue to feel better each & every day❣️

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you! From your lips to God's ears! You touched our hearts. Much love to you and many blessings to you❤

[@Clarkchapin]

Great to get to meet Nancy! Potts is horrible. I once lived in the basement of an old TB sanitarium in Asheville NC. The most haunted place I’ve ever lived - and I’m an atheist saying that. I mean, I could ride a ten speed in circles in 10th gear in the apartment - it was huge, but there were no other apartments in the basement and the iron door across the vast room outside my front door stood before the sanitarium’s stone-shelved morgue. I cannot imagine the suffering that accompanied a stay back in the day. And I know that Potts is a significantly different variant of TB, but I’ll let my past hauntings inform me how absolutely devastating it must be endure. You guys are great. This is a tough song for me. Peace and love to you both.

[@BemusingBill]

Wow, I can't imagine the stories you must have living in that place. We were thinking of doing paranormal reactions as a matter of fact. We actually were ghost hunters once upon a time and have quite a few amazing stories. Maybe you would like to share some of your stories with us? Thank you my friend.Peace and love to you as well❤❤

[@Clarkchapin]

I've only a handful of stories that are at all compelling, and the most compelling story from the Albemarle TB sanatarium likely involved a victim from the 1970s as opposed to the 1870s, but I'd be happy to share my knee-knockers with you,@@BemusingBill, in a manner of speaking of course.

[@nenasadie]

So great to see you, Nancy, another fellow renegade 🙂

[@BemusingBill]

Hi, fellow renegade 👋❤Love and hugs!

[@pom-pom]

Hi Nancy your exposure to this video is truly beautiful. So glad you were here today. It makes it so more powerful. Uour husband is a god. But you are a true angel. Much love from Italy 🇮🇹 😎❤️

[@BemusingBill]

Grazie! Molto grazie! No god here, just a dude with a beard, my friend. But I agree with you about my wife- a true angel sent from heaven❤❤tutto il nostro amore!❤❤

[@stevecody9878]

Great reaction guys ❤️ Did you know... Chinchilla was on The Voice uk at the weekend?

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you! No, I hadn't heard that. As a competitor? I'll have to find that, thanks!

[@stevecody9878]

@@BemusingBill yes 👍 hopefully, it'll gain her more recognition her talent deserves 🤞

[@MissMeKate]

Lovely to meet you, Nancy! It was perfect that you reacted to this together. ❤

[@BemusingBill]

She says... awe thank you , very lovely to meet you as well ❤ And we both thank you for your kind words.... much love and hugs to you ❤

[@helenjarvis7755]

Good to meet Nancy and hear her story and position as technical support! I can relate although I'm doing okay atm Loving your channel 💖 Will pray for your health Ren is my favourite musician he is 🎶🔥

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you! She says Hi!👋We appreciate you! Glad you are doing well atm. I pray that lasts forever. Much love and hugs from us both!

[@jacks9624]

So nice to meet you, Nancy, great reaction from both! Thanks! Will be praying for both of you beautiful people

[@BemusingBill]

She says... Awe thank you so much and it is very lovely to meet you as well ❤.... Thank you so much for the prayers and kind words! Means a lot to us! And we send you back prayers and blessings and tons of love ❤

[@therabbits168]

A large part of the stigma around mental health comes from religion and folk story. The mentally ill were seen as being possessed by demons or evil spirits or dark humours. People would shun them from fear of the malignant spirit infecting them. Sadly this belief persists even in "modern" societies, particularly amongst the excessively religious. Feeding the fear is the fact that there are usually no external signs or bodily injuries like "real" medical conditions.

[@BemusingBill]

Sadly, most of the people we've encountered who think it's in her head are not religious at all or even spiritual, but I know what you mean. Thank you for your comment. Much love❤❤

[@NixyRose72]

Biggest fear is that my bf will be gone. He's my crutch and my support. He's stayed when I broke and we were only together for 6 months when I got sick. Unending, grinding daily pain and mental health rapid decline. Me becoming jobless and bed-bound and housebound and agoraphobic. Fighting for SSDI and sanity. And a decade of this and he's still here. This song is my biggest fear. That I will lose him. That I'm going to become so unbearable that even his love can't hold him here. If I lose him, i lose myself. This song crushes me every time. I'm sobbing as we speak. Sorry if this is garbled, I'm in a bit of a fog at the moment. Rough day. Thank you guys for being wonderful. 🌻💜

[@BemusingBill]

Yea this song crushes us ... and especially my wife. I truly believe if your BF has been with you that long, I think he has already shown he is in it for the long haul 😉... That is good character ! I hope you can get the SSDI that you need ( God knows how hard it is to beat the system) And I pray you stay strong in your body and your mind... as I tell my wife everyday... it is one moment and one second at a time and if one moment or second is a good one then to be thankful for that second.... because most of the time it is not okay.. the struggles are real and hard for you both... and you are both in our hearts and prayers..... thank you for sharing and much much love to you both ❤

[@NixyRose72]

@BemusingBill oh we finally did win the battle for SSDI, but I had to have a lawyer and a hearing after several failed applications. The judge took a deep sigh after my stuttery teary explanation(I burst into tears lol (I didn't know anyone in the room, not even the lawyer that was the local representative of the group. They were all strange men, and I just started crying. It was embarrassing, lol)) he'd already gone over my papers and just hauled out this thick notebook and started going through each job listing out loud. He kept saying 'nope' after each one, and it took a few minutes, but at the end, he said I'd hear a final decision within the week. My lawyer said that he'd decided before he opened the notebook. Even so, it's a far cry from what I was earning before. It's definitely a struggle, but we are managing. Thank you so much and y'all are in our prayers and thoughts as well. 💜🌻❤️

[@Jadedxx]

Hi Nancy!

[@BemusingBill]

Hi Jade!👋 Much love to you❤❤

[@iamsquatty]

I loved this so much 💜 I'm so happy seeing Nancy on for a reaction, and thank you both for sharing some of your story with us 💜💜 would love to see Nancy back on when she's able, even if she's already seen or heard the song 🤗💜💜

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so much from us both! I'll get her to come back on, promise! Much love from us both❤❤

[@DonnaPoynton.]

Great to see you Nancy 🖐🏼I Hope and Prayer you have many many more good days,your husband is Amazing,Thank you ❤❤

[@BemusingBill]

She says Hello and great to see you also ❤ And she said Thank you so very much for the prayers and love... means the world to her! And thank you for your kind words , you are the amazing one ... sending you much love and peace ❤

[@leahuds5308]

So happy you guys have found Ren. He is needed in this world.

[@BemusingBill]

Found Ren? It's because of Ren this channel exists in the first place! I have a huge playlist on my channel and will always support him and The Big Push as well as Ren's friends (Romaine, Gorran, Chinny, etc). Yes indeed- he is very much needed!

[@andquin1476]

good song, i know it can have many meanings to many people , its about the feelings that medications have on people that soon dissapear and leave you feeling empty and alone when it wears off .

[@BemusingBill]

Wow, the metaphoric angle. Very interesting. And leave to Ren to have layers of meaning in his songs that hit everyone in different ways. Thanks for watching!

[@andquin1476]

check out his song blindeyed live with sam thompson, thats one of my favourite ren songs

[@seagull01-cp8pb]

What a beautiful reaction. There is a theory that she is just a figment of his imagination.💕👍🦇

[@BemusingBill]

Yeah, right? That's what I was wondering. Thank you! ❤️

[@robertturner6530]

this hit hard when i lost my mind my wife left me after 28 years , i don't blame her

[@mixy5179]

😢 Sending (((hugs))) from ON, Canada. ❤

[@BemusingBill]

Can't imagine the heartbreak, my friend. So sorry to hear that. all our love and prayers to you! Keep up the good fight my brother. ❤

[@heatherhobbit2931]

Thank you, both of you. ❤

[@BemusingBill]

❤❤❤

[@matildafishes9931]

Nancy, You are a beautiful person and I see your spirit of love. I'm so glad that you were able to be with Bemusing Bill today. Its wonderful to see you happy together. You're in my prayers! Take care and much love!!

[@BemusingBill]

She says... Awe thank you so much for saying that, means the world to me! I do love people and what we have found is the renagades are the best people on earth!!! I was happy to be having a good enough day to join him, thank you for your prayers and love, touches my heart deeply! I send love and prayers of blessing right back to ya with a big hug also ❤🙏

[@elisabethstermo9396]

Can you please react to Ren's LOSING IT. It's the best and fastest rapping I've ever heard in my entire life. And it's funny to. 👍 Best regards from Norway 🇳🇴

[@BemusingBill]

Takk skal du ha! I will do it. Much love to you from NY!❤

[@elisabethstermo9396]

@@BemusingBill Bare hyggelig. Takk for at du svarte meg. 🇳🇴💯👍

[@samanthadove8346]

Hi Nancy 👋❤

[@BemusingBill]

Hi!👋Much love ❤

[@ryanzeigler9763]

she didn't leave, he imagined her in his psychosis and the end is a moment of clarity.

[@BemusingBill]

So sad , such a powerful piece, and his pain was way to real for him at the time... thank goodness he is much better now and I pray it stays that way for him.... thank you for your comment and much love to ya ❤

[@RonnieMachielsen]

Such a beautiful song! Thanks for the great reaction

[@Lulabee2024]

As soon as I saw Nancy's face I started welling up with tears lol... I knew this would be worth the watch 😚. I believe he's so good at "acting" in his videos because HE'S LIVED IT. I enjoyed this very much ( Nancy needs to speak up tho lol) Love you guys 🤗

[@BemusingBill]

Awe, that is so sweet to say (passes the tissues to you) (Big Hugs) 🤗... Yes, truly and sadly he has lived it, it is all too real for him, and this really shows his pain, gut wrenching! .... Thank you so very much for this sweet, sweet comment, it means a lot to the both of us ❤️I am working on getting another Mic for her and others to come on the show. Nancy and I send you tons and tons of love and big, big hugs! ❤️❤️🤗🤗

[@BeccaleemarieBleu]

❤You guys are so lovely, I’m so happy I found your channel. Ren has given hope and acceptance to those of us that suffer. Thank you for sharing what you’ve been going through, it means a lot❤

[@BemusingBill]

You mean a lot to us! Being here on this journey with us makes it so much better. All our love and hugs ❤❤

[@bradbair1405]

❤🙏❤

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you!❤❤

[@80summerrae]

It is so refreshing watching you and your beautiful ❤ wife react to such a heartbreaking and powerful song. I hope to see you both react together in the future. I know life hasn’t been easy for her. But you can see through your heart and soul that she is your soulmate and you are hers. It’s so beautiful watching you both together. We love you and hope you both are well and look forward to future reactions from you both together ❤❤❤❤

[@80summerrae]

I was already following your page as you are such a kind and loving soul to watch. I have now rang the bell and absolutely look forward to you both working together in the future ❤️❤️

[@BemusingBill]

@@80summerrae Thank you so much for the kind words!!! We truly thank you so much for the bell ring and for the loyal support, means the world to us!!!! Bless you and sending you tons of love, peace and hugs ❤🙏

[@BemusingBill]

It was a joy to do this one with her and a blessing she was feeling okay enough to do so! I hope to have her on many more times. Life has delt her a pretty shitty hand but she somehow always try's to smile... she is my hero and warrior! Total soulmates! Thank you so much for your kind words and support , truly means the world to us both... and we both send you tons of love and big big hugs ❤❤

[@the1972bulldog]

Its VERY POWERFUL that's for sure 🤘😎✌️

[@BemusingBill]

Agreed again ! It truly is ❤️

[@carolmillins9199]

What a beautiful heartfelt reaction. Sending love and prayers to you both ❤

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so much. Really means a lot to us. We send our love and prayers to you ❤❤

[@matildafishes9931]

Thanks!

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so much Matilda! You're the best! Nancy and I appreciate that from the bottom of our hearts. ❤️❤️❤️❤much love , peace and hugs to ya ❤

[@marithibaut7868]

Nancy is great ❤ but she needs a own mic for your next reaction. We want to hear her comments 🥰

[@BemusingBill]

I agree she is great! I am a lucky man! 😁 .... Yea we have noticed the sound was bad after we uploaded it.... I definitely need to get another Mic for her or anyone that comes on the channel. Thank you for your comment, kind words and support. Much love and blessings to ya ❤️

[@stevejarvis4174]

Wow your Mrs is well cool and defo a ren fan , good to see you together reviewing the best geez in music ..plz do dominoes vid bill with ya lady

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you for this comment! She is way cool lol 😎 she is my everything ! And she is Defo bigO fan of Ren !!!! The man truly gives her joy and healing! As well he does for me. I will do that song for sure and hope to have her back on if she can do it. Much love and blessing to you my friend ❤️🙏

[@MikeyPea72]

Great to see Nancy. Thank you both for being so honest and open, I am sure that you have helped and inspired others by your story and courage.

[@BemusingBill]

Awe, Thank you for your kind words to say that... I hope in some small way we can help someone, to me that would be a Marical if we can help or inspire anyone who suffers ... my heart breaks for those who do and I pray for them all! Again thank you so much for the comment and support my friend and We both send you tons of love ❤️

[@cherylwitter5038]

Big hugs to you both!

[@BemusingBill]

Awe we thank you very much, means a lot to us! And we send big big hugs and tons of love right back to ya ❤️

[@lowwatthalo1654]

Coping with anothers' severe illness is such a huge ask - no blame can attach whatever you decide, if it's not in you, then it's not. Especially tough for young people who have the world at their feet, IMO....

[@BemusingBill]

I agree it is much harder if someone is young... your right it's not for everyone... but the way I love her , I have a choice and I will always chose to stay, Thats just me ... but I would not or could not blame anyone who would not.... it's a hard hand to handle that is for sure

[@oniebaloney]

I am stuck in bed today due to pain (the morphine is not touching it) from my chronic illness so i have been spending the day with you and your beautiful wife watching Ren, its so comforting knowing that i am not alone in my pain x

[@BemusingBill]

You are not alone my dear friend. We'll both be praying for you for some relief. All our love❤️❤️

[@dannythedoodle]

Great reaction 💗 BIG Tool fan from Manchester 🇬🇧

[@peterveste6976]

thank you for continuing to react to my favourite artist ever, so glad your wife is on with you ,beautiful couple ❤❤ always love your genuine reactions sending big love to you and your family from the UK ❤❤

[@BemusingBill]

A big thanks to you for continuing to support us and to be here for us ❤️And thank you also for such kind words, means a lot to us both! We both send you tons and tons of love and blessing to you and your family , from across the pond. ❤️❤️🙏🙏

[@dosdan]

Another interpretation of the "empty hands" aspect is that his "crutch" was never really there. It was his tormented/demented mind imagining her presence to provide the support and loving care that he craved and needed. But he was going through this pain and anguish all alone. So his crutch was a psychological coping mechanism.

[@BemusingBill]

I like this interpretation! Very sad to think of it that way. So deep! That is one of the many things I love about Ren is how it can hit so many people on a personal level and to identify with people on different aspects of their lives ... I have never seen a human that can make so many grown men cry lol .... Hats off to Ren ❤️ Thank you for this comment and your thoughts. Much love to ya my friend

[@the1972bulldog]

Ten minutes in, get the tissues ready and this, I've had chronic pain 14yrs. Life aint easy 🤘😎👌 Great to see the Brains behind all this lol. Just kidding Dude. Glad she's up and on screen. I feel for anyone that goes through anything like it or anything that resembles it. It's Absolutely Horrible 🙏💙✌️💜🌟❤️ ÆNEMA, I put The Charismatic Voice on to Stinkfist so I hope she's actually checked it it. Lots of Love from Down Under here in Australia Brother and to thewife. Honestly good to see you on screen 🤘😎✌️

[@BemusingBill]

I need to remember the tissues and carry around pocket tissues for everyone else when it comes to REN lol 🤣No joking she really is the brains to everything ... I am just a guy with a beard blabbing away lmao 🤣I was just happy she was having a good enough day/swing to be able to do it and hopefully many many more . What she and I have gone through nobody could possibly imagine, my heart truly breaks for her and anyone like you said going through anything like this or close to it . On the good note ,I really love that channel , Elizabeth is awesome!!!! I hope and cross my fingers she will do that!!! Thank for that !!! And thank you so much for the fun comment and very kind words and support! We both send you tons and tons of love and big big hugs ❤️❤️

[@markjones6747]

As a Tool fan, I 100% get you with the mantra Bill.

[@sharoncarlisle9453]

Also a Tool fan.

[@BemusingBill]

🤣🤘❤

[@BemusingBill]

@@sharoncarlisle9453 🤘❤

[@kalenaquinones7963]

It fills my heart to see you together! ❤ thank you for your great reaction.

[@BemusingBill]

Awe, very sweet of you to say that! ❤️Thank you so much for this comment, it fills our hearts for sure! Much love and blessings to you ❤️

[@lisamayreed6399]

Hi Bill and Nancy ❤ so happy you reacted to one of my favs. ❤ ty both so much for sharing....I live with chronic pain and bipolar depression. I listen to reactions most of the day and love ren. I really enjoy his pieces which are artistry. Big hugs from Pennsylvania ❤ please react to praise you from the big push for your wife. 😊

[@BemusingBill]

We both say hello there, lovely to meet you ❤️Thank you for your very kind words, means a lot to both of us! I am so sorry to hear about your illnesses .... so hard to go through and live like that .. I pray for your healing and strength to get through one day/ one moment at a time . The struggle is real and it is hard! we love him also, so thankful for all he has done for us and so many people around the world! .... By the way Nancy is from PA originally also .... Bucks County PA right outside from Philly.... is that close to you ? I will do that song and try to get her back on if she feels up for it .... Sending tons and tons of love to ya ... thanks again for the comment and support ❤️

[@laynestj]

Welcome, Nancy! I'm glad you're here.

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you! Happy to be here!❤❤

[@BorisMinkov]

Thank you for your time and efforts and your raw emotions! 😊❤

[@BemusingBill]

❤️🙏.... Thank you for watching and your comment... it was a hard one to get through for sure...much love to ya ❤️

[@mary.e645]

❤❤❤🙏❤❤❤

[@BemusingBill]

❤❤🙏🙏❤❤

[@MsCheesemonster13]

Lovely to see Mrs BemusingBill 😊

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you!❤️😁

[@shelleybond7202]

This is one of my favorites..and the hardest to watch..its a hard one.. But thank you for your open honesty from both sides..oxo much love. Subbed!!

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you and thanks for the sub. We really aprreciate that. Yeah, real hard to get through. You don't see that kind of vulnerability in music very much if at all. Much love❤️

[@jenneper]

I also have POTS. I was just hospitalized again in July.. prayers up to your wife!

[@BemusingBill]

I am so truly sorry to hear that 😔.... It is such a huge demon to live with ... totally wrecks your whole life and everyone around you . my heart breaks for you! We both send our love and prayers for you to have strength to get through this .. day by day and moment to moment... I hope you are feeling a little bit better since your hospital visit ? I also pray you have better days and moments that are good verse bad ... Thank you so much for the prayers, they mean a lot to us! Sending you tons of love and big big hugs ❤️🙏

[@jenneper]

@BemusingBill thank you so much! It really does affect EVERYTHING. I can't get hot, can't stand up too fast, can't hike, have neurologic issues and weakness. HOWEVER, I'm really great at advocating for myself and others. I am doing a Psychology degree.. from bed. I refuse to give in to my Lupus and POTS..we just have to work around it.

[@jenneper]

Also, I'm currently writing a paper about music and death and of course I'm using How to be me.. lol

[@docdurdin]

Blessings to both of you.. My wifey saw me through open heart last year even ater just having a head on collision that damaged her and now I'm taking care of my wifey through her 3rd surgery, so we all have our trials and tribulations, right? We take care of each other so we are blessed. This is a hard one because I'm not sure Bibi was really there to begin with, a psychotic illusion. Ren said he got so bad he took off all his clothes and lay in the middle of the road at one point because he thought he was possessed by a demon. Bibi was his real girlfriend and I am almost sure this all became too much to take for such a young girl.

[@BemusingBill]

Oh my God... that is so terrible! To go through both of those things in such a short amount of time, wow!!! I can not even imagine how hard it has been for you both my friend ... my honest prayers go out to you both big time... so heartbreaking ! I pray to give you both strength and happy to know you have each other ... that really does help a lot! Yea Ren's story is also a heartbreak ... but so extremely happy to have him come through the other side and do so so well ... I continue to pray for him also ... we need a lot more music from him that's for sure ! Sending you much love and prayers to you and your wife my brother ❤️🙏

[@annettesturgess5400]

Not watched yet , just know this will be lovely.

[@BemusingBill]

So very sweet. thank you❤❤

[@julielong8714]

Yaaaaay NANCY!!! I’m so happy to see and meet you! We L❤VE you and are sooo pleased you agreed to join in! We look forward to seeing you many times in the future.🫶 Ps. I have bipolar 1 disorder and the line “if I lose my mind, tell me would you still be there for me?” hits home for me. Hard. When you have a mental illness there’s only so much one can do to ward off the mental demons, and it’s a terrifying thought that if I were to have a really bad spell she wouldn’t stick around.

[@BemusingBill]

She says... Awe thank you so much and it is very lovely to meet you as well... And she says and me also , love you ton and tons back !!! ❤️❤️I will try to get her back on the show from time to time as she can.( her biggest fear is to left alone also , so this hits hard) And of course I would never leave her! I would walk to the depths of hell itself ... as a matter of fact we have..... We are both so very sorry to hear of your struggles with health and mental issues ... truly demons straight from hell to fight everyday and every moment ... so hard to live with... but just know you are not alone and we and many many renagades of wonderful people are here for you. And I pray that your good moments increase more and more while your bad ones decrease . Much love and prayers of strength and big big hugs to ya from both of us ❤️🙏

[@julielong8714]

@@BemusingBill Thank you for your very kind reply. I’m sure your lives are very busy but the fact that you took the time to write such a nice personal message to me made me feel very seen. I appreciate you both🫶 I’ve been thinking of you and the Mrs. today and wanted to suggest two songs to you which have probably not been requested before. They’re a little more obscure and older, one titled Patience by Ren and the other titled It’s Alright, by The Big Push. I’m including the links because there are various versions and they’re a little bit buried. I wanted to make it easier for you to find and bookmark, should you decide to do reactions. I thought you both might like watching these together and recording a reaction, then you can decide if you want to publish them. One speaks to dealing with difficult stuff and is more emotional (and beautiful) and the TBP song I love and play on repeat because it’s a feel-good, easy going boost when I need one. IMO, people dealing with chronic illness, either physical or mental, just need a feel good boost once in a while. I hope you enjoy them and if you decide to publish reactions I’m sure everyone would love to share in the emotions of them. Ren - Patience (Studio Version) kzbin.info/www/bejne/g2mpm4CFpK94ebssi=zF2VqCeM48wcw199 TBP - It’s Alright kzbin.info/www/bejne/eWa9aXalgMilh8Usi=EPVPoWgnTSGA9sDX All my l🫶ve from Illinois

[@Charlee1776]

I just commented on another video earlier today about how I related to you both and this video has really sealed that deal! Wow! I'm so sorry to hear that you have been going through that for so long. I myself have been having very similar issues recently but with some stomach and vascular issues mixed in and when you described how it feels, I couldn't help but cry because it was spot on. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers (my agnostic version of them anyway). 🤗 Also, I think you mentioned that you live in the Northeast and I do as well. I have POTS and other autonomic dysfunctions as well as Stickler Syndrome (a connective tissue disorder similar to EDS which I believe you may also have mentioned?) and if you ever want to compare notes on doctors or other resources that may be available. Let me know and I will be happy to have a private chat with you.

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you!❤️

[@Beanstalks314]

Thank you, both, SO MUCH, for this reaction-it…in a way…validates how I’m feeling. I have severe EDS III & POTS (and the wonderful companions of depression and anxiety) and it just…feels…______IDK to have people who understand. So, thank you for your vulnerability-and thank you for being a crutch. ••• Also, just so you know, REN and Bibi split, but she did A LOT to raise money so that he could go to CA for his first treatments-as far as I know, they didn’t part on bad terms. Of course, I don’t know for sure. ••• Be well and take care.

[@BemusingBill]

Thank you so much for your kind words, my friend! From what people have told me, Bibi and Ren are still very good friends. A very dear friend of mine from high school suffers from EDS III like you. It breaks my heart when she cries out for help because of the pain and debilitation. Of course I had to introduce her to Ren. I'm with you in spirit! All my thoughts and prayers to you. ❤️❤️

[@TashkaGrace]

You are both beautiful ❤

[@BemusingBill]

You're beautiful!! and she's beautiful. Me, I'm just a lucky guy.😁

[@cherrybomb1386]

This song always hits me hard my ex has MS his diagnosis came 8 yrs into our relationship we went from a normal healthy fun relationship we both worked and supported eachother to him stuck in bed misusing meds and me being his sole caregiver we lasted 17 yrs total he is still my good friends/and he is no longer abusing meds but i couldnt do it anymore

[@BemusingBill]

Wow, that is hard. I don't blame you for not doing it anymore- 17 years!! God bless! Much love to you, my friend!

[@aixmhros]

this song is Ren's favorite. he said it on a twitch stream, a few months ago.

[@BemusingBill]

That's surprising with so many great songs and videos. But, it is a work of art and something deeply connected to him in that period of his life. Thank you for that!

[@maurylehane5059]

Not a very religious person, but you two have my prayers anyhow.

[@BemusingBill]

That being said , truly means a lot to us, wow !!!! Thank you so much for the love and prayers! And we both send love, peace and big hugs to you ( this really touched Nancy's heart to hear this ) ❤

[@praja108]

Kia Ora Bill and Nancy, warm greeting from New Zealand. Lovely to meet you Nancy. This was a great reaction to share with Bill. I am of your generation, moreover I've studied alternative health models over many years. Orthodox medicine is called Symptomatic medicine. It is actually primitive in that it is built entirely around symptoms. Prevention or Cure should be the foundations but they are not. We can take our health into our own hands armed with a bit of knowledge and some insights into the concept of the Whole person, ie, Body, Mind, Spirit. Wholesome nutritious food is medicine for the body. Removal of parasites is highly recommended, as they absorb so much of our nutrition. Spring water, preferably in glass bottles, or at least water passed through an activated charcoal filter. Mind nutrition is what we share here, visceral music accompanied by open talk on ones condition of body and mind. We all are playing roles in this life to each other, it is our spirit that serves, Soul food is consumed by our service to each other and humanity. The human spirit is the only enduring part of us in this entire human odyssey. Learning to walk our talk is important. That is the spirit taking it's part. When all 3 work in harmony and purpose, then we become Whole once more. We make room for miracles, where the incurable simply heals. Much love to you both. Praja.

[@BemusingBill]

My dear friend, I could not agree with you more on every single thing you have just said! Very wise and good advice... but more than that, it is truth! We are all here for one big purpose... and that is to live happy and healthy, to learn about everything and love one another unconditionally and help each other. Thank you so much for this comment and your input! And your kind words. Nancy says Hello and very nice to meet you also.... and we both give you very warm greetings and tons of love .... bless you ! ❤️🙏

[@lisac243]

I have dysautonomia as well since 2020, lost everything, clawing my way back to some resemblance of a life

[@BemusingBill]

I am so very sorry to hear that😔 to lose everything and to fight the demons of the actual sickness is just to much to handle! ... We have realized through the years now , just how many people have this! It's crazy and so sad. It absolutely destroys your life and the people around you. .... Both of our hearts break for you and we hope that you have some good moments of some good days... If your like my wife , it comes and goes at free will with no rhythm or reason ... so we learned to live minute by minute and to be thankful for even just a good hour. Just know you are not alone in your fight and despair , we are here with you and all of the Renagades .... tons and tons of love , prayers and big big hugs to you ❤️🙏