Missing with dissociative fugue: Hannah Upp's mystery disappearance

After the 32-year-old teacher survived a three week disappearance in New York that she had no memory of, she vanished again in the U.S. Virgin Islands 9 years later - and never came home.

[@pamelamagdanz7132]

After going through many years of erased memory, I was diagnosed. it's real and scary as hell, it's because of early childhood trauma and subsequent traumas as an adult that trigger it in my case, It's heart wrenching because you have no recollection of huge chunks of your life. This is no joke and no laughing matter. May it never snare you in its grip. It's a by product of PTSD.

[@ssgearmyveteranforever3025]

I'm so sorry for you. No one should have to experience what you go through. I'll keep you in my thoughts & prayers.

[@banditthegermanshepherd6406]

I am sending you lots of love and positivity. It sucks you have this horrible illness and I am hoping for you that you can be well. You are right, it’s no laughing matter. Much respect to you for your transparency and your honesty. You are brave and strong...bless you. ❤️

[@peggyhiggins6923]

Ditto, it is scary as hell!

[@Witchygirl22]

After my 2 children died I lost YEARS of memories. I don't have this disease Hannah has but I have horrible trauma and from that I have extreme memory loss. It's crazy. I have to ask my family to help me remember stuff. It sucks.

[@pamelamagdanz7132]

@@Witchygirl22, I am so sorry for your loss, how horrible it is to lose 2 children, I'm so sad for you. Hugs and prayers for you... You have the same symptoms, you might want to check with a therapist to rule it our, besides, therapy really helps, it's so underrated.

[@rapitup45]

If something the size of a plane can disappear it is really easy to disappear a person.

[@grneyz90]

Wtf disappeared that was size of a plane?

[@rapitup45]

@@grneyz90 MH370

[@Chrisjones-uh1xm]

Cute girl, so sad she's troubled hope she's alive and well.

[@kdizzle901]

@@grneyz90 a plane lol

[@panasonic_youth]

​@@grneyz90 a plane

[@deandresinclair]

I hope she's ok and well

[@vickiejohnson110]

I know this young woman, her brother and am close friends with her mother from way before this happened. Hannah is full of life and a wonder to know. Barbara has been stalwart in her faith about findung Hannah though of course there are struggles. I pray and wish the best for all of them

[@susiefairfield7218]

They should make a movie about her Starring Drew Barrymore

[@ingridarlington5745]

Ohh, good idea. Maybe they can have Adam Sandler as her love interest. I'd definitely watch it.

[@jasmineekusai1441]

Tbh, it’s very rare for me to ever meet or hear of people with the same issue which is why I just choose to quietly live it. Mine is not as severe as hers is described to be thankfully but I do definitely believe that the circumstances assumed about her disappearance aren’t at all far fetched. Mine can last a few seconds to a few days- usually when it lasts a few days- I’m drifting in and out of a present mind- never a full day consistently in that state. I do know who I am but I feel so detached from my life that it’s almost uncomfortable for me to consider the things around me that remind me of who I am- I force myself to do it because I don’t like being in that state- it makes me panic and gets my vision blurry but I do understand why Hannah would avoid things that remind her of her true identity because I have to force myself NOT to do that when I get into that state. To picture the feeling- it’s like awkward, uncomfortable feeling you get going over to someone’s house for the first time and al of their family is there- at first you feel a sense of not belonging- that’s what it’s like for me- like I shouldn’t be where I am, like I am an alien to things around me.

[@SneedyKetler]

Jasmine Ekusai I think you summed it up best, explaining how uncomfortable it was to see stuff that reminded you of who you were

[@may6762]

this sounds more like derealisation than fugue

[@biaanibeu4471]

Family looking at photo albums would point out a picture of a girl and say, oh look, who's that? Mmm mm... cousin so&so? Nou, it's you silly! I have lost one full day and have placed pictures of myself all over the house because I sometimes wake up and wonder who's house I'm in. Many times even that doesn't work because I don't recognize myself in the picture. It's true, it's all true and i know no one with experiences like mine, even though I have been tu numerous psyc hospitals. It's funny when I'm there the other patients ask gazillion questions about "multiple personalities", it feels more like a memory problem to me, i always thought I had dementia. I'd like to chat with you if you would like. My email is [e-mail] As you so I do my therapy and live life as quietly as i can.

[@chandracox6814]

@@biaanibeu4471 wow I can relate entirely and I never knew what to call it before now. I have huge portions of my childhood and early adult life just missing or sometimes a vision will come back and I can't tell if it was a memory coming back or a lucid dream so I have a hard time deciphering a past memory as being real. It's scary and yes I've had many, many traumas in life but much better now that I'm an adult and run my own life.

[@psychvision101]

You should consider getting assessed for epilepsy

[@ericasuzannedavis]

During Hurricane Katrina my husbands grandma (who suffered from Dementia) left Florida and got on a greyhound to New Orleans. Nobody knows why. Maybe it was all the news coverage. But she was missing for over a day before the people at Greyhound called us to let us know she fell on the bus. I believe Hurricanes and other major events like that can trigger people with mental illnesses

[@Syclone0044]

4:30 "Many people in her life believe she was looking for a way to escape her past." (and she subsequently moves to a Caribbean island) 5:25 "She was a young woman who *definitely* loved her life." Huh??

[@ottomatic7997]

Yeah, none of this makes any sense. I smell bullshit

[@BabyGirlRaven]

Sometimes people simply want to disappear. I know I have thought about it when things were going rough

[@bettyboopwolfe9471]

Me too. Hang in there tho lady. This too shall pass. We sometimes have to outlast our crazy .

[@squarehammer4619]

I thought I was weird for thinking that.

[@ladyk2018]

@@squarehammer4619 me too but than I thought about the pain it would cause my family sometimes life makes you have weird thoughts .

[@ssgearmyveteranforever3025]

I keep telling my family I'm going to change my name & move where no one can find me after my husband passes away because I'm tired of all of their drama & narcissistic behavior.

[@ladyk2018]

@Mike Smith Amen

[@Janko_Zivanovic_94]

Whos watching this after Mr Ballen video about Hannah?

[@eligebrown8998]

Sad deal. Feel sorry for the mother. Only hope she didn't have another episode and was swept out to sea or something.

[@missmsmrs.7309]

IKR

[@blizzyyt2281]

I’m starting to think she didn’t want to be found

[@Presca1]

So sad and rather strange. But isn't it possible to give her a tracking device if she is found again? Or microchip? I know it sounds a bit inhuman, but if it means your daughter can find her family and herself again - it could be an answer that her family goes to her.

[@admiralbirdcrap661]

She followed the white rabbit and left the matrix.

[@tiqvis6812]

To me, it sounds suspicious because she's went missing 3 times and third time still hasn't been found its like she just wanted to leave.

[@YawehthedragondogofEL]

Found face down in the New York Bay.....alive. Think about that. They just happened to pull her out of the water after she had passed out in the bay but before she drowned. Then she disappears into the sea. She might be a mermaid.

[@MahmoodAli-xx4ok]

Wishing for her safe return. I hope she's safe and well Xx

[@squarehammer4619]

Breaking bad was right after all. This is horrible. I hope she turns up soon. That has to be so scary

[@littlepeky]

So she didnt remember who she was but she was trying to login to her Apple account?

[@goatlps]

Well, the #DissociativeFugue 'expert' who tried to explain her behaviour after the event, claims her logging in to her Google email account (at an Apple store) and attending her gym using her name is unconscious second nature behaviour. Which is obviously BS. I often have to use 'Forgot Password?' and I certainly don't #sleepwalk to the gym. She was using the gym to shower. Dissociative mental disorders are real, but this is clearly a case of deliberately choosing to dissociate. She'd also joined a #Freeganism movement, which further suggests an #ExistentialCrisis.

[@SuperVendetta9]

@@goatlps , ABSOLUTELY. She was there to shower. When you're out there on a limb, you think of creative was to keep clean and stay cool.

[@t.j.7789]

@anders daminI understood it like she is able to store that information in her brain but she doesn't connect it to who she is!

[@noriii]

@@goatlps and you’re a doctor

[@angelikacalangi5820]

@@goatlps Bro it literally says that people with dissociative fugue can function normally. She may have lost her autobiographical memory but she knew how to use the gym and log in her account

[@alexisgordon2759]

Must be nice to have such a loving mother. My mother threw me to the wolves at 16, and chose to be a neglectful parent along side her narcissistic evil boyfriend

[@t.j.7789]

EXACTLY!!! I've declared the woman who adopted me dead. Can't call her mother because she never was, maybe I can call her a mother Fkr haha!

[@Stonktradomus]

I'm not saying it's aliens But it's aliens

[@raytang76]

Yes....I was thinking somewhat the same thing!!! 😂🤣😂🤣

[@barbram8001]

Could be.

[@lovingmayberry307]

Fugue states lasting up to 4 years??? Try 30+ in the case of Benjaman Kyle!

[@sweetBARKH]

Missing for two years. Something happened.

[@elisabeth8708]

I have so many more questions. What did she act like at the service station and gym? Was she working out or wandering around? Was she dirty or clean? Where did she get money/food?

[@charliea3363]

With her condition you would think that someone would be her caretaker

[@dreababy8020]

How sad. You would hope people that have this would tell at least one person that's around them so at least someone is looking out for them. But then again that would be unfair to have to expose your medical condition. I pray she's okay.

[@joelalexander5338]

What her mother is dealing with, to this day, is so sad. I hate to hear of this type of sadness.

[@PittBoi724]

MrBallen brought me here

[@einc70]

Memento: Hannah.

[@ritaturner9906]

I don’t understand after her diagnosis and it happened twice in the past and they knew it could happen again, when she moved to the Virgin Islands, why didn’t she let anyone know (close friends/her boss). And especially the time of year it happens. Especially with a hurricane going on. If the director of the Montessori had known, especially the time of year, another hurricane coming, when Hannah seemed different , it would have been a red flag. I hope she’s alive and I hope she’s found.

[@lmnopopsicle]

so wait, while she was gone for 3 weeks, where did she stay? Where did she eat? Did she work? Where did she get money? No one saw her as a homeless?

[@therealilnelly]

I watched the whole thing on A&E

[@guuuu666]

After hurricane Irma's, many affected people from the antilles were sent to Puerto Rico's refugees as disaster victims. Maybe she's in the big Island or maybe she doesn't want to be found.

[@kahlodiego5299]

I've lost years.

[@Sai299]

Hannah is missing

[@unropednope4644]

Jesus was it a stretch of this girls family and friends minds to make her wear location beacon bracelet after her first two "disappearances "? Alot of resources looking for her could have been saved and she would probably be alive right now. Totally irresponsible.

[@djchaiwallah]

Secret agent needed to escape?

[@uchibauki2515]

I’m so sorry she vanished just like that but this world is huge No body even knows what happened to a beautiful actress Fan Bing Bing !! She disappeared after Chinese government found out about her false income tax report !! I don’t hear anything about her anymore!!

[@accountclosed8569]

That Park is not very big compared to the ones on the mainland I think she faked her own death

[@josephdurkin8180]

Why is some reporter acting like she knew Hannah personally like she was this reporters daughter?

[@adinahwithkaden]

I don't understand why so much of this is Elizabeth Vargas and Juju Chang talking

[@agoroyagoroy517]

Where s she now

[@brycecheng193]

Maybe she just got lost because she was looking for her uncle Tommy who was lost in the woods and then maybe like sometimes you find the elves or maybe sometimes the Bigfoot monster and when you find the Bigfoot monster that is when you will sometimes not be found anymore.

[@bigman4407]

....yeah

[@vickiejohnson110]

I know the family personally. This is noa fantasy or movie. It is very real. I knew Hannah.

[@barbietheegod9452]

Gone girl mixed with twilight Zone

[@sleuthchipperson7415]

dissociative fugue has nothing to do with jason bourne

[@sonicHometeam]

Its weird because wat do they do during the time wat are they thinking how why was she in the water.............

[@Saffron-sugar]

But, how do they remember pin numbers and not phone numbers? How do they log in to a computer without their email? If she didn't have her wallet, how was she buying coffee? If she used her gym pass to get into her gym, why were the police not made aware?

[@angelikacalangi5820]

They lose their autobiographical memory but otherwise they function well

[@davybrazell5895]

She's very beautiful.

[@Nahulanham]

Real good points on the presence of alternates.

[@Protantagonist]

This sounds like a script for the next hollywood film...

[@hankterreros223]

Dr Saltz looks like Howard the Stern?

[@jdefeo9841]

She’s long gone- Dead..

[@speteydog2260]

Teaching in a NY public school and a verocious hurricane sound like triggers to me. To a nice single girl, (I’m no psychiatrist), but they would do it for me.

[@beatrixbrennan1545]

It was a private school, but yeah

[@chazchillings3019]

Ummm jason borne is also a novel. You know? A book. Pick one up in a while. It might be good for you.

[@randiphoenix1326]

Man that woman looks old enough to be her grandma

[@justinedse8435]

How old do you expect her Mom to be? Probably 60s or 70s

[@MrErichonda30]

Like Walter White

[@jason4275]

*This is the type of person that shouldn't be traveling and have back ups notes and reminders that she's suffering from Schizophrenia if she cant remember who she is, plus what happen to background checks in the U.S. Virgin Island, no parent would want a teacher suffering from Schizophrenia anywhere around their kids.*

[@melissaharris3890]

schizophrenics are far less likely to commit a crime than be a victim of one.

[@vickiejohnson110]

I know this family personally. Dissociative Fugue has nothing to do with schizophrenia and neither make one dangerous around children. I am an LCSW

[@niioli]

This is not a disease is a spirit tormenting her

[@Forestcityflygirl]

No it's not. It's a dissociative disorder cause by a life threatening trauma.

[@Bunty_parade]

Did they ever find Hannah Upp?

[@vickiejohnson110]

I know the family personally and as of today, no, they have not.

[@ednure]

She seems to seek out water. Hopefully she is safe or the mother gets closure soon

[@skepticaldopefeind5464]

Was she depressed and try to kill her self? Maybe she didn't have another episode and was just tired... to many possibilities

[@Nahulanham]

Not that I'm suggesting you are, but many people experience temporary fugue states, so to speak, from doing too many psychedelics and smoking marijuana a lot.

[@zurgboy07]

I remember breaking bad lol

[@1.4142]

Also might have happened to Agatha Christie

[@kidyalexo350]

May be she has mental health problem. Hope she is alive

[@frenchvanilla7109]

It's says her diagnosis in the title

[@spilledfeed]

yea, under the circumstances..... she went swimming with the fishy's

[@MrErichonda30]

Basically brain running Microsoft windows 🤯

[@mclovin9578]

Still missing, hey? Hmmmmm....she went to the beach during a hurricane. 🤔

[@hood_TheJoker]

maybe she is a secret operative for some clandestine organization like Jason was.. either way it's gotta be disconcerting for her family..

[@bananahammock117]

Could very well be. MK Ultra.

[@jallen1931]

The drug is called scopolamine, but more commonly referred to as Devil's Breath, is made from the seeds of the borrachero tree . It is mainly produced in Colombia, where it is used to make victims carry out sexual assaults and robberies

[@Ana-ty8sl]

What does that drug and this story of mental illness even compare?

[@jallen1931]

@@Ana-ty8sl maybe you should Look Into It...

[@zack256300]

Here in East Africa we called it " lion Nail" 😀 If you chew the seed of the Borrachero tree 🌲 you'll get some phychedilic effect..

[@barbram8001]

Jallen... Hospital's used to use scopolamine, for labor, and delivery.

[@lidiapenavalladares4733]

Jason Blahino maybe educate yourself a bit before calling someone and idiot this is very true and even though we use it in modern medicine some People use it for bad to place people in a zombie like state

[@vigouroso]

LOL. I don’t think she has this ‘dissociative fugue’. I think that 10 years ago she simply got really high and that’s how she ended up in the harbour. The more recent time I think she just was sick and tired of having to be ‘professional’ and perfect all the time and it made her crack and possibly fake her disappearance.

[@skepticaldopefeind5464]

Definitely a great cover up for a nice vacation away from your regular life

[@vickiejohnson110]

I know this family personally and can assure you this is not the case

[@mikeymike7738]

Aliens

[@rustyshakleford5230]

Am I the only addict that "says this is normal"? Drugs are a hell of a drug.

[@DonattiCastaneda]

Making all the this shit up

[@vickiejohnson110]

I know this family personally, Hannah and her mother. No, this is not made up. It is very real. This cindition exists. I am an LCSW. Hannah and her mother were very close

[@Aka47xxx]

Npc state

[@cuntpuncherino]

why are we supposed to care, again?

[@cuntpuncherino]

no.

[@vickiejohnson110]

Because supposedly that is what human beings do, care about another's misfortune. I know this family personally and their pain is real. This condition could and does happen to anyone

[@mesmerizineyez]

This woman has everyone fooled. She disappears on her on for whatever reason ( I believe attention and it's a game to her to see if she can out smart everyone) she had better stop playing because one of these times could be the real deal and nobody will look because she can't be taken serious. They should have arrested her the second time she did this, put her in jail and made her pay a fine for all the hours police were investigating her fake disappearance

[@vickiejohnson110]

I know this family personally and can assure you this is no joke. I knew Hannah. She was warm and funny. I am very close with her mother. She remains devastated almost beyond repair. They were very close.