MIZKIF RESPONDS TO RECKFUL DEATH (very emotional)

MIZKIF RESPONDS TO RECKFUL DEATH (very emotional)
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► I'm so sorry for reckful and his family and friends and for everyone that ever cared about him. I personally didn't watch him that much, but I'm still super sad about this and yeah
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Reckful, reckful dead, reckful RIP, reckful mizkif, mizkif reckful
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[@vincmoke]

I personally didn't watch Reckful that much, but hearing he committed suicide pains me deeply

[@vincmoke]

Rest in peace Reckful, I hope you're in a happier place now

[@soulstice6890]

Same, his impact on all of twitch is so big its so hard to truly feel his impact fully until he had fully left. I didnt watch him but I cried because he is more than just an entertainer.

[@rexnoct5810]

me too. i only really watched his highlights from a while ago and just seeing and being apart of the memorials in WoW made me feel something.

[@snowy2619]

same after hearing everyone sharing their experiences

[@SuicidalClout]

Same

[@tdsm99]

I cant believe Miz saw the body before anyone else...I can relate to seeing a loved one dying/dead in front of you. Its always the what ifs man...i hope he stays strong

[@jackmiddleton2080]

It's kind of ironic since Reckful constantly berated and accused Miz of never coming to see him. And it wasn't clear at all that Reckful was going to do it. He was just clearly going through his dangerous manic phase and I guess Miz knew him well enough to know he was in danger.

[@jarradgallagher2046]

[@dekarmeryalmar8774]

Stfu

[@doublestuffed8859]

# Yoda_drug_addict yooooo chill

[@Magpy93]

@@dekarmeryalmar8774 not now man, chill out

[@tzurieljoshia2406]

As a survivor of depression and failed suicide ,pls to anyone that has suicidal thoughts and depression, talk to someone, dont keep it all to yourself...

[@ecco2ks]

This is true as hell I tried to kill myself via jumping from a building but I survived and as soon as I jumped i regretted that shit so hard

[@maksitaxi]

Goro Majima jesus fucking christ are you ok and happy now?

[@TheYoungonex]

idk i dont keep it to myself but what does that change

[@freddylocz_NSX]

I almost shot my self and I had my finger on the trigger then I stopped my dad stopped me RIP dad RIP rekful

[@aldousrein5941]

I hope you guys are okay

[@ArclightHD4K]

I just didnt like what they did to XQC, his chat was spamming for him to react to it, not understanding that alot of people grief but don't show it so pls don't spam for your streamers to react to a death

[@RakMuk]

I've said it before, and I'll say it again, XQC's chat/community is the worst on twitch

[@richfitzgerald833]

I love xqc but his community is terrible.

[@RakMuk]

@@richfitzgerald833 absolutely, same here

[@KrazyKarambit]

Bro even I watch a lot of xqc but I m not like the others in the community I am so sad seeing miz crying 😢 but one thing u need to change in that comment it's not the community but a part of it cuz even if people like us are less in xqcs community we r there and r a part of it and again I m deeply sad with reckfuls passing away...😢

[@sebastian8030]

@@richfitzgerald833 A lot of fuckers are there just to get reactions for lsf. Yesterday he also had like double his normal viewers I think because of drops and shit which made it a lot worse. People who aren't there normally see some retards spamming for him to react to it and they start doing it. Not saying there isn't a lot of dogshit in his community

[@swiftkd9144]

Reckful was the kind of person that if you felt alone and you watched his stream you felt like you belonged somewhere. He was so kind and unique we shall miss you R.I.P

[@gooblord9006]

He helped me feel not so alone years ago when i was going through some dark times. I learned a lot from watching too. Not just about the games he was playing but about things in general. He was sooo incredibly smart

[@aarongutierrez7705]

He was so open on his streams and he felt like a friend because he shared EVERYTHING. Related and empathized with the guy and watched him since early hearthstone days. First time I cried over someone I have never met, ever. I miss you Byron

[@jam3syboy]

Amen

[@eilif8962]

Damn, his brother commited suicide when he was younger too.

[@vlazurah789]

Now there’s only one brother left.. I feel so sad for his poor family. Reckful’s parents were broken after Guy died and now this

[@andreyz94]

@@vlazurah789 Guy, not Gary.

[@vlazurah789]

Ryuukai right, it must’ve autocorrected my bad

[@sasuke1212naruto]

People who have had siblings commit suicide are more likely to do it themselves, statistically.

[@Vestige98]

If you search back far enough Reckful was always hurting from his brother's death and even spoke about the toxicity of the KYS phrase on his streams and others.

[@dillonv5345]

RIP. shoutouts to everyone struggling out there. shit is rough. bipolar here. do your best, love your people.

[@jairoalexisperez1868]

Shoutout to you too, home slice

[@Sebrosan]

How Reckful died? he shot himself or what?

[@milosherino]

I'm trying.., you guys stay strong too! Much love!

[@GabrieleirbaGabrieleirbag]

Love you too brother stay strong stay loved

[@r4mpy]

sucks being bipolar amiright, i got diagnosed a couple months ago

[@reyalexandro]

What's insane was I randomly thought about him just Monday. So I looked him up and I watched a bunch of videos of him talking about his new game. He seemed so happy and excited about his game. You never know what people are going thru behind the smile. Rip.

[@ninjakiller39]

Bro I feel like I almost have a 6th sense. I did the same exact thing two night ago

[@charliegreen1697]

The first thing I thought about was his game ever land and how he’ll never be able too see it finished

[@riu204]

just some minutes before the news came out reckfuls twitter was recommended for me and i followed him, its so heartbreaking man

[@lukeoneill2426]

I did exactly the same thing

[@Solomon-ob4qg]

I did the exact same things 2 nights ago crazy.

[@jabbaryu5399]

I remember watching Dr K's Interview with reckful and I related to him a lot. So sad to see this happen to him. Rest In Peace Reckful.

[@LozTimmoz]

I watched them too. Not a lot of streams of Reckful. I understood his pain. It feels so heavy. R.I.P. from Germany

[@SameWindowDifferentVisual]

Dr. K's response to this whole situation is heartbreaking.

[@ULTRABRULTRA]

When someone suicidal seem happy, its most likely because they're ready to go... Im speaking from experience.

[@jacpeche9920]

Normal people have to hide up their real emotions for things. Someone could seem the happiest person ever but in reality they are extremely depressed. I know this from experience too. I know how you feel. It is the saddest event when someone commits suicide because this can be prevented. RIP Reckful

[@Proger-sj8cj]

Jac Peche *What you just said , is honestly terrifying* Dammit 2020

[@YJ-uo5hs]

That is true, sadly i know this feeling. Its the coldest form of happiness but it seems normal on the outside. That's why it's often confounded with having a better phase. It's a weird kind of happiness because u are kinda happy indeed because u don't have to care about bad things anymore, but at the same time it feels so much more empty than ever before. It was so damn cold.

[@westfield90]

Ultrahorizon you are exactly correct

[@DarkThagan]

@@YJ-uo5hs For me it was not cold or euphoric or anything like that. I was just normal and relaxed. No burden or worries or anything else negative. Sadly, after I failed it all reverted to the regular crap lol It was nice while it lasted, I guess.

[@Coooastal]

I don’t watch reckful really, but I watched his Japan streams on KZbin and watched every single one of them. Throughout it all I’ve just loved the way he interacted with strangers and other people. The friends he made along the journey was one of the best things to watch develop. And although I didnt watch him often especially now, I can’t help but cry and be so sad. Especially seeing the people that I do watch daily react to his death and break down, it’s really painful.

[@metalhead4404]

Honestly, when someone is overly happy with major depressive disorder, it's never good. You have to watch these people more than anyone else because 9/10 they are happy cause they know that they're about to leave this world. They have a plan and know the time is right and because of this, they are the happiest they've ever been. It's like you just found out about a surprise trip to paradise, you couldn't be happier.

[@mirawenya]

That’s my thought too. Most people are unaware of this however.

[@diiizzy1313]

Also the extreme highs and lows that come with the disorder. An all-time high can easily transition into an all-time low in a second. Overall extremely unpredictable and saddening to watch.

[@pinguselen6771]

I wouldnt use "overly happy" tho. Its much more of calm, at peace demenaor. Not very energetic and overly happy. And this usually only happens right before the suicide, as most people dont plan far ahead when deciding to do it (1 day into the future is probably the most common). And way more common signs is them talking about suicide, social isolation, drugs/alcohol and loss of interest.

[@amazeinrunar]

RED GATOR you’re a sick piece of shit

[@MomoBeci]

That’s a scary thought damn.

[@gamingwithbean7961]

I feel Mizkif's pain 100%, I lost my girlfriend 5/8/20 when she last her battle to depression and took abused her sleeping meds and ended up dying in her sleep..... The pain, feeling and shock of waking up next to your dead girlfriend will never leave me head, we tried so much to make her happy and help her out but the depression was just too much..... Please always check on your friends and family, you need to remind them that they MEAN something to alot of people...... RIP Ash

[@masonclark3847]

Damn man I’m so sorry. I could only imagine the pain, I hope you’re doing better nowadays

[@DanieIQP]

[@Flutturby]

I'm so sorry this has happened to you. I hope that you can get through this and keep the good memories with you

[@rayo8190]

I'm so sorry bro....

[@ShadyGengar]

I'm sorry to hear that man 😢 I hope you're doing well Thoughts and prayers go out to y'all 🙏

[@squidbrains]

No more suffering... R.i.p.. Love you Byron... Thank you Mizkif ... Love you... And thank you for setting it straight when you didn't have to.. Take care of yourself.. My heart goes out to Byron's family... Change must start here..

[@derppotat488]

What he said about how everything will return to normal in a few days is so sad because you know it's true. RipReck

[@RandomVideoGuy26]

Yeah truh... i almost forgot about etika Last year

[@gomary09]

Thats just life.... It always keeps going, no matter whats happening... In 200 Years everyone currently existing will be forgotten, it will be like we never been here...

[@szandor4705]

@@gomary09 I'd disagree about the use of the term "everyone" there are thousands of people remembered 200+ years ago today. Right?

[@gomary09]

@@szandor4705 I mean the average person. Ofcourse there are ways to be remembered longer then 200years... But still then, everything will be forgotten one day if we get wiped out. History will be gone... Thats why its so important to make the next logical step into colonizing other planets, currently we so fragile on just 1 planet... Can get wiped out so easy... But thats a thing for the upcoming generations, im talking about next 1000years...We will see first humans on Mars, if we lucky but thats about it... Sadly, we still in Space Travel Stoneage...

[@betdude]

Thx for sharing this. It means alot to hear someone close to him talk about it in this way! RIP reckful and we will always remember you!

[@onezeywitch]

He was such a genuine person I feel like it's a bad nightmare.... I didn't know him personally but you can see it

[@kushmasterswaglord69mlgzuc17]

I feel really bad for reckfuls brother and family, people really treat streamers like trash while they are also human. Rip

[@subzone7730]

I know so many people say this but 2020 is truly a horrible year

[@trash1397]

Mr.subzone every damn second it's getting worse and worse

[@mee091000]

Some Guy Are you kidding right now?

[@morrau3324]

@@tw6428 How is racism bad except for the racism

[@popeyeschicken3535]

Some Guy Look up the word Empathy. It’ll help you grow as a person.

[@HamRW]

Some Guy were not asking for your kneel what we do ask for is your respect please. were grieving he was some of our best friend eventhough he didn’t know us. your opinion matters please don’t let you be known as a bad one ❤️

[@eshqa]

Thank you for sharing. 💖💖💖

[@alianoanderviaro4878]

Rip to the king of rogues and my deepest apologies to ur loss man im sure that he was more amazing in life then hes streams

[@mike0rr]

I'm so, so... so sorry. I'm hurting and I only knew him through a screen for a few years. This just... sucks.

[@nutsachey]

the way mizkif still cracks a joke near the end shows how strong he is as a person trying to make others laugh despite how much he is holding back. Rest in peace Reckful.

[@jakmak94]

I have a friend who attempted suicide and even that got me crying. I can’t imagine what it would be like to lose a close friend to suicide. It sucks. Rip

[@PropheticShadeZ]

Yea, learning a friend tried that is traumatising. I cant imagine what it felt like to have someone actually pass on is horrifying

[@yournan7249]

Lmao

[@noahbritton-davies4447]

Your Nan bruh u fucked in the head

[@yournan7249]

@@noahbritton-davies4447 it's funny

[@Xomatik123]

@@yournan7249 you're trying too hard to be edgy, get off the internet

[@nowthisisepic7428]

I can’t believe this, this doesn’t seem real

[@crowmaster9652]

Yea his reaction feels off

[@KazukiFN]

@@crowmaster9652 Because its probably his fire time reacting to something like this and hes probably still shocked

[@maksitaxi]

Kazuki Mizkif is just a vert good person when it comes to handling his emotions you never expect the passing of a loved one, it will never feel comfortable. I remember when Etika passed, it was unreal.

[@jestergnome4717]

Crowmaster Mat doesn't react like the norm to emotional things. Trust he is hurting really bad.

[@KazukiFN]

@@maksitaxi Yeah

[@blaze60997]

They always take the good ones, rip Reckful we already miss you 😔

[@JEsterCW]

The good ones take themselves, and they can't keep them here :)

[@patrickkk7799]

cant say i blame him as someone who fights demons everyday if my family wasnt here id be gone already that pain is a long battle we cant win it seems

[@maksitaxi]

im here for you bro whats going on

[@patrickkk7799]

Maksitaxi life just crumbles

[@HamRW]

Maksitaxi alot of people can say that but get annoyed after they tell you everything. i know from past experiences its really hard to break someone to talk to you stay up aLiEnS i love you believe it or fucking not we enjoy something we both have this in common whatever your going through brother you will get through it let it all out both of you

[@BikesKomsCRO]

@@patrickkk7799 pick up the crambles, and keep going!!

[@Breadbored.]

@@patrickkk7799 You might lose the battle, but you damn well fight to the very end. You deserve happiness as much as anybody else. This might sound stupid coming from a stranger, but I care about you. Don't ever give up.

[@xzoddy]

man, i used to watch the hell out of reckfuls japan streams. when he was there he was always smiling and im gonna regret never really tuning in on the streams, he is in a better place now. RIP RECKFUL he deserved a global emote

[@hover6862]

I have never actually watched Rekful before. Just watching this video alone, still got me very emotional to the point where i started crying. I hope that everyone recovers from the pain that might have happend from loosing someone that you knew very closely. R.I.P.

[@asianboyinahood]

Reckful was a legend and I wish I could’ve gotten to know him more. Many must realize words can have a huge impact, especially to those who stand alone.

[@AceSfx]

look at that guy Miz man...wow he has such a unique way of speaking. Hats off to you Miz you are a composed man and very humble. Rest in peace Byron.

[@jalapenopixar]

The fact that Reckful was happy on the last few days of his life meaning that he was accepting his fate and his illness. That is a common emotion that people with depression and suicidal thoughts have when they reach their final decision. When the thought of being dead out weight everything else is very hard to bring people back from it. The amount of pill and drug they need to take to get out of that mindset is monumental. Let this be a reminder that when your friend is openly talking about depression and suicidal or even you know about them hiding it, the sign of them being happy is something you shouldn't take as face value. You always have to think about if that happiness is real or just acceptation of fate. I'm sorry for everyone that effected by Reckful's death and hope people will pay more attention to their loved ones.

[@1378Mrbubbles]

Agreed 1000% When you have someone who wakes up every day feeling emotion pain and when you feel that there is no end in sight, it takes a monumental amount of effort and careful intervention; not just by the individual, but friends family and any support net that they have, to keep them from spiraling. Like you said, once that pro and con discussion with yourself starts to go into the positives in terms of suicide, from personal experience, it is almost impossible to “convince” someone who is in severe emotional distress that the answer that they have worked themselves up to (suicide) is not worth it. It fucking sucks and I hope that all his friends and especially his family are being cared and looked after during this time. The mind is a beautiful thing, but it also can be one of the worst prisons.

[@garre1760]

Rest in peace:(

[@timewellspent8137]

While I never knew the man, never spent much time watching his streams, I hope he found his peace. I'm not one for solemn speeches, all I can offer is my sincere condolences to his dear friends, his family, and all who knew him. Reckful, I hope that in the end, you were able to escape yourself. Rest in peace.

[@snowy2619]

I didn’t watch Reckful but after I read everyone’s tweet saying how good of a person and friend he was and how massively he impacted the community made me extremely upset. Rest easy Byron “Reckful” 💜

[@Matty94]

i never ever met him nor talked with him, but I feel like I lost a best friend from my childhood, Depression is no joke and a silent killer. RIP bro :( :(

[@Dmoskians]

Man, Reckful's been a big name the last like 10 years or so, i started wow in vanilla and i remember his name cause i used to watch swifty and athene back in 09-2013ish. I never really followed him, but i have seen him featured in other's media quite a bit. I too have struggled with depression since my teen years, and seeing someone like me, coming from the same games i played as well. It's really sad and i was actually really upset upon hearing the news. I want to also comment to show my support and send my condolences to fans of his who see this. RIP Byron "Reckful" Bernstein

[@aidengrosskaus2414]

feel ya man i hope u get better

[@zavri8543]

I watched him from the beginning. Felt like I knew him. RIP in peace, Reckful you are missed and loved.

[@geckgoes6719]

It hurts seeing a twitch idol die because he impacted many lives and seeing him gone pains me and others. Rip to reckful and you’re gonna be alright, keep your chin up

[@KittyPikaChu]

When he said check on your friends but check on yourself too :(

[@genius-kj8zz]

this gave me chills, much love out to everyone

[@elijahbuscho7715]

I found videos of reckful on youtube, and he exposed me to twitch and hearthstone, and he was there for me in a time where I felt so alone. Without him I wouldn't know Dr. K, and Dr. K has changed my life. He's had such a positive impact on my life, and I had so much hope for him in the future. This is heartbreaking. We love you Byron; rest in peace

[@sonnygraham2829]

Rest easy Byron, you did so much & will be remembered forever

[@idkrookie]

Ive had issues overthinking and being trapped in my own head for a long time and watching this is really helps me feel like I'm not alone.

[@xboxmoonpartingty104]

How are you doing now? I hope better :)

[@Lidders99]

I didn’t think this would hurt me as much as it does, relates to a lot of us with how open he was with issues and goes through very similar situations a lot of us, ours may not be the same but it’s similar

[@prosketch95]

Sucks when you try to imagine the things that were going through his head in his last moments. Rip Byron

[@boobyblasterboy]

Unimaginable. Must’ve been so scary and painful to go through. May he Rest In Peace in a much better place then this earth.

[@DarkThagan]

@@boobyblasterboy Not necessarily. Before the attempt I had the best morning I had in about 10-15 years before it and all this time after. I hope it was the same for him so that he got at least a bit of relief at the end.

[@Jace11s]

Rest in peace Reckful, you‘ll never be forgotten!

[@willemv6501]

My grandmother commited suicide 3 years ago and as someone who has gone through something like this, you will always have that feeling of guilt or think stuff like i could have done more or why wasn't i there to stop it. Reckful you were and are an amazing guy and from the bottom of my heart I hope you're at rest now Thank you for having entertained us for years

[@Triqkshot]

It’s eye opening to see how deep his problems truly went with suicidal depression. Genuinely makes you wonder what pushed him over the edge after so many years of struggling.

[@emslifelol6670]

Love you bro hope your ok we all will help you get through this x

[@Empire_Earth]

something very sad and very confusing about suicidal people is that when they start being happier its most probably be because they have decided that they are going to end it soon, it is possible that he knew he was going to do it and that gave him relief and happiness, very very sad truth... i dont know if this was his case but... it happens...

[@fredrikaKH]

As someone who has been diagnosed with severe depression (I’m okay now) I knew suicide wasn’t a good option and that I could get better but when you’re in that state you feel so shit that you feel like it’s the only option left to make you feel better. It sucks but the pain from depression is unimaginable, it can even be physical but the emotional pain I had while depressed is something I can never fully explain. It’s horrible. I’m so glad I’m not depressed anymore but I have my lows and I still get panic attacks. But you can always get better. May he rest in peace ❤️.

[@joshthehawk746]

Rest in peace Byron..

[@ShanDogz]

You made him happy Miz. You and Slick. He's proud of you mate.

[@hoodiethegreat7426]

Rest in peace, this hurts me to see this happen, this is so unfair, who in their right mind would drive someone to the point that this would happen.

[@Strip4Dreezy]

The thing that’s sucks is people are gonna hear and read others saying reckful was this millionaire,a multi million anything on the line of being wealthy or extremely wealthy they’re gonna say “what did he have to be sad about he had all this money” and when your financially stable money is no longer the root of your problems. Your problems then are about relationships with friends family bfs gfs , how your treated irl and online, your problems are now personal, physiological, and emotional problems that can’t be solve because you have money

[@PhungNalle]

Having that much money probably made it worse, less purpose in life

[@Breadbored.]

@@PhungNalle That and being constantly confronted with a life that should be making you happy... but it's not. Sad =(

[@Nokin92]

there's that saying that money doesn't buy happiness, it defs applies here if anything it makes you feel more alone imho.

[@Strip4Dreezy]

Matthew Bidinger yea that saying is somewhat a more personal preference bc some ppl would be happy if they got some money but what I say is money does buy happiness because with money you can buy something to make you happy but ofc in reckfuls case money isn’t anything he need it was something more

[@nadavch]

I can relate to the part you mentioned when you didn't know him, it really feels like losing a friend

[@bubbagaming7498]

I didn’t know he existed before he died and now that I watch mizkif today and hearing and listening to miz it is so sad to see him cry

[@anitsu5031]

R.I.P

[@affect333]

Rest in peace Byron, I hope everyone stays strong xqcL

[@hvpeless]

I can understand what it feels like seeing the one you loved just... gone 😔

[@jaysnapped]

i had a friend who i never knew was going through depression. we had a little picnic during one time and there was this sudden urge that i just needed to hug him. it was a feeling that i needed to hug him, nothing else to it, just to hug him out of nowhere. and so i did and he cried so hard as we hugged because it felt like no matter if i knew or not about what he was going through, there is always light in such a dark place. just that one hug changed his view at that current time. now he's one of my bestest friends and is the happiest guy i've ever known. please. if you know someone or have a feeling like someone is going through the toughest times, do something to help. whether its talking or just one simple hug. it can change a life no matter how you view it. i wasn't a viewer of Reckful but i do feel for him, i wish i knew him to give him that same hug i did to my friend and may he rest in peace.

[@havnt3782]

its an unbelievably mature take to tell the people who told him to kill himself not to feel responsible. for real

[@nicoaisrensen183]

learn from this people! Rip reckful you absolute legend!

[@ghrimsy]

This reminds me a lot of when Robert Williams passed. People who are hurting the most always try to be the most caring to those around them. It's like since they know how low you can go that they don't want others to feel that way and try to lift them up. It's just sad to see that they ultimately aren't able to lift themselves up as well. RIP Reckful

[@tiggerdyret]

Beautifully put... Thanks.

[@based..]

As someone who has been through depression, and suicide attempts, please, don’t be afraid to talk out to someone. People care about you more than you think. Rest in Peace, Byron.

[@jerod5636]

A lot of times when someone who seems to be suicidal suddenly appears to be doing much it’s because they have made up their mind and are feeling relief. It’s just something to keep in mind if you’re dealing with someone going through this.

[@sonsy125]

Man i can't believe this, i'm fucking heart broken, i never even knew i could feel this way with someone i haven't met personally. Byron got me through the hardest of times. I wish i could just give this man a hug.... RIP Byron, you're a legend.

[@storiez4dayz890]

27:07 powerful message.. at the end of the day, all you really have is yourself 🥺 learn how to depend on *you.* LOVE *you.* Enjoy spending time with *you.* I’ve done a lot of work on myself over the last eight or so years. After my last toxic relationship.. I moved 2,000 miles away from everything I knew. At the time, I didn’t trust myself. I always jumped into a new relationship within WEEKS of a breakup. Knew I couldn’t stay away from my ex.. or a previous ex.. or a completely new person. I knew it. So I forced it on myself. Told myself I’ll give it one full year of being completely single. No hookups, flirting, relationships.. _nothing._ Well.. ended up loving being alone so much that one year turned to five. Now I’ve been single for eight years and I’m my own best friend. Now my issues is forcing myself to be social 😂 which is so crazy because I absolutely DESPISED being alone. Now I fkn love it. I notice that the only times I ever fall into a really deep depression is when I depend on others too much.. and they let me down. It crushes me. But not for long! Not enough to take my life. You know why? Cause I know *I* got me. I know there’s always someone who will never let me down.. that I can always depend on. And that’s *me.* People suck man. People will hurt you, let you down, break your heart. You gotta learn how to lean on yourself and depend on _you._ Great advice my guy ♥️ the whole “check on your friends” thing is great. But really.. if they’re gonna do it, they’re gonna do it. You can’t stop it. Can’t help someone who isn’t gonna help their self 🥺

[@goodness9752]

Just when I thought this year couldn't get any worse

[@sonatuh]

I didn't even know this guy existed till now but I can tell he had a positive effect on so many people. And his brother losing both his siblings is just so fucked. Mental health needs to be focused on more then anything right now.

[@Sidnfjdkdndfbd]

I never knew about Reckful, but I hope he is resting easy. God bless his soul ❤️

[@wido3471]

This caught everyone off guard.. rest in peace reckful. I didn't know him well but I hope everyone that was close to him is strong throughout this.

[@nuggystan9128]

he fought so hard

[@lprophit]

i totally empathize with your friends death my best wow friend just died this month and its very hard, i don't know if you were joking but man you have a vain veiw of the world when streams equals worth.

[@ryanmelton3985]

So sorry for the loss of your friend. Rip.

[@iwillpunchyouruglyass]

If only everyone can be so lucky as to survive, rest in peace to anyone that fell victim to the horror of depression, and goodluck to those who are suffering.

[@RadicalGaming1000]

I never heard of Reckful, but this is sad. Rest in peace Reckful

[@giosuevanya4595]

Sometimes you really need to talk to someone you know when you feel down.

[@djdeej8265]

"When WoW died he died" man when Miz said that i broke down

[@Niklas-tp4bw]

I cant stop crying! This is just to sad.... we will miss you reckful

[@dimi7055]

Damn man stay strong! rip Reckful man why you had to go that route man damn ??

[@theboythathasacat3040]

R.I.P Reckful 😔✊🏻 2019: Etika 2020: Reckful let’s hope next year no streamer/ youtubers dies

[@cole4832]

Yea another youtuber named iceycat took his life this week as well, it fucking sucks man

[@waka2c593]

Dolphin Reverse iceycat was awsome man atleast they are in a better place.

[@Proger-sj8cj]

*It will only get WORSER due to people becoming shitter*

[@Raygone-Talion]

2020 is not good year...

[@barcan8371]

Dolphin Reverse WHAT???

[@matthewhines9088]

It's... It's rough when people commit suicide... My great grandfather overdosed on purpose... You eventually get over it mostly but that small feeling of guilt... I'm sorry.. You'll have it forever

[@matt9421]

this made me cry.

[@insanegamenrd8661]

Sorry y’all guys have to go through this, I didn’t really watch reckful, but I’ve been there when Etika passed and I just wanna say, don’t blame yourself. You didn’t have anything to do with it. We couldn’t have stopped it. I’m sorry y’all have to experience this. I am here to say it gets better, I’m really am sorry you have to go through this. I’ve felt the same way y’all have. We’ll get through this together.

[@Dontgankmeplx]

You don't know what personal battles/struggles someone is going through, be kind to everyone.

[@gert3945]

Personally I never watched reckful but man this hits hard 🖤

[@katzicael]

I'm so sorry for your loss dude.

[@Eaglebrace]

It feels like i lost a best friend, RIP Reckful 💔

[@twisterrrrr]

10:07 he's talking about tyler1's stream/video on this if anyone is wondering

[@marklion315]

he was just on his alt and said he hadn't seen tyler's take, he watched it on stream and didnt like it

[@ervin6270]

@@marklion315 what is his fucking alt

[@PropheticShadeZ]

Alt account

[@ervin6270]

@@PropheticShadeZ yes, what is it, what's it's name

[@aurelius672]

@@ervin6270 yes, I want to know that too

[@matipoltorak]

I've just run some AI text generation scripts for my work while watching this. After the video ended, I checked the results and the last generated sentence was "i propose that we celebrate how much the folks in town love you ."

[@JimiBegbaaji]

🤗

[@lime7056]

I just cant Believe that this is reality. I have watched reckful for almost 3 years now and i never knew this abut him. Thank you for sharing this Miz and may byron reast in peace.....

[@kaya9503]

I didn’t watch his streams but I followed his socials and some videos like him on typeracer destroying t1 but that moment where you browsed that just chatting section and every chat filled with Purple Hearts

[@viktorviktor332]

“ When WOW died he died” that game was hes escape from reality obv

[@NikoBelack]

i wish i had friends like this. i literally tell everyone about my depression but people just stoppied talking to me responding to me and just get annoyed that im always depressed.

[@NikoBelack]

i understand the pain reckful is going through. dying seems like the only escape. i hope hes in a better place now

[@splittergmod]

It’ll get better❤️

[@tothemax3884]

If you have can, you should really try reaching out to a therapist for help. You don’t have to go through that alone

[@NikoBelack]

@@tothemax3884 ive done therapy meds everything. sometimes you just hate life and the only way to get throught it is find something to distract you for the day and as i said all my friends kinda gave up. they dont jknow how to help me and i cant blame them

[@PhoeniixHeart]

Vicious suh PhoenixCamille#0695 Talk to me

[@tomekhome]

I'm just a twitch viewer, but I feel like a lost a real friend. RIP my man, hope you're happier out there.

[@petrescuework-difficultcas6581]

"Get off the internet and do something with your life"... and hearing that from a streamer. He's so right.