My Horror Stalker Story.

[@thedullahan5977]

You don't owe anyone an entertaining, flashy, and detailed video about your situation. Your story alone matters just as much as you do. Don't push yourself to linger on your trauma that way

[@sourgreendolly7685]

Well said!

[@pogpurin]

Exactly! She will just continue to hurt herself by reliving the trauma over and over for a video. Its not worth it and id rather she heal

[@katiekaliber]

She might just be working through it like this, seems like she wants to talk about it otherwise she wouldn't make it a 2h video about it i think. I of course hope that's the case, wouldn't want her to stress out for the audience but she went offline before so i don't think she does that if she needs to back off for her own good.

[@ResidentMilf]

For some people, reliving your trauma in a safe space is helpful to healing.

[@pogpurin]

@@ResidentMilf you and katie are right honestly yeah!

[@CancelledBeans]

I think this is a good time to remind everyone that using humor and being flippant is actually a very common way that folks deal with even the most terrible trauma they’ve been through, and it can be an extremely helpful coping mechanism. I just wanted to write that because I know some people like to say ignorant things like “oh this person is laughing and making clown jokes so it must’ve not been that bad of a situation or must be fake.” My siblings and I have been through very bad things and we have always made jokes about it. At the end of the day, it doesn’t make our trauma any less horrific. You deal how you deal.

[@rookideetrainer1635]

Also like when some people say "Funny thing is" when the thing is just not funny at all and rather sad... That's something I know that I do, and try to correct so I don't end up downplaying what happened as heavily

[@justanotheryoutubeaccount2270]

Agreed. On a lighter note I'd like to add the "animation" was really funny!

[@chocobro3198]

Very glad to see someone point this out. I do the exact same thing. I can make people laugh when I tell them about the worst most traumatic things I've been through. I do it, because, it's how I cope, but also because I don't like to make other people feel bad for me. I prefer to make people laugh, doesn't matter even if it's at my own expense in a way. That said, I also laughed at how Mörgaes worded some things, like when she talked about the stalker's eyes being the biggest in the universe, but that doesn't take away from understanding the severity of what she's been through and how much I truly empathize with her.

[@pembrokelove]

I have a friend who calls my wife and I "The Trauma Twins" - I'm a school shooting survivor and she was kidnapped as a child - and the shit we say to each other, people would not believe. I, like a disproportionate number of my classmates, went into healthcare and f became an ARNP and nurses are notorious for what we call "gallows humor" because it's the only way to survive when you're in certain fields where you routinely see abused children, victims, death, and horror. You are kind and caring and the consummate professional while providing care... but you eventually have to decompress and talk about this like it's just a thing that happened. Trauma warps your brain.

[@Bjorksbackyard]

@@pembrokelove lol I was in a therapy group we affectionately called “trauma club”, meanwhile we were delving into horrific experiences in our meetings. I had an awkward incident with a friend who thought it all wasn’t as bad as it was because of the name WE thought was funny…people just don’t really get it until they’ve been there themselves.

[@beethimbles8801]

Darling girl, you don’t need to re-traumatise yourself just for a video. You’ve been through hell. You don’t owe us anything. We just love you, support you, we only want you healthy. Safe and happy. Please see a counsellor or therapist. If you can’t afford it we will contribute again. You have a community here. ❤❤❤❤

[@Nakia11798]

She literally said she's been going through this to try to figure it all out, and she's said previously that she's seeing a therapist.

[@pedro-pascals-armpit]

"can't afford therapy" is really not a thing in europe but i share the sentiment

[@salome0265]

@@pedro-pascals-armpit it definitely is in Iceland.. An appointment with a psychologist for an adult is 20.000isk, definitely not something the regular person can afford on a regular basis

[@pedro-pascals-armpit]

@@salome0265 there is several NGO's like Hugarafl who provide psychotherapy at no cost for the patient. i can't find anything that says you must pay a lot of money to access therapy.

[@Bjorksbackyard]

@@pedro-pascals-armpit in my experience the most accessible therapists aren’t always the most specialized for trauma, sometimes even just not that good with anything beyond “everyday stress”. Sometimes the best treatments or therapists cost above what’s covered by the government. Not sure if that’s also the case where Morges is now/will live in future.

[@CharlieFosterOffdenson]

I just want to say it’s not hard to believe - my downstairs neighbour in my last building had a mental breakdown and told me I was a witch and threatened to hurt my boyfriend and I. No one really understands what we had to go through for 6 months and what it was like basically being held hostage in that place. I believe you.

[@A_Ducky]

Did he get no medical care for that breakdown? Or it just didn't help (to prevent his stalking ways)?

[@InTheNameOfLife1]

I have such an eerily similar experience! Our neighbor directly across from our unit had a manic breakdown, thought we were demons along with the landlord and attempted to set the building on fire 🙃 he was evicted (and I only hope was hospitalized but idk). It’s so unsettling and even months later I worry he may come back. Sorry you know that fear too!

[@sourgreendolly7685]

My landlord/roommate seems to think every misunderstanding is disrespecting him. It's not nearly as bad as what you're saying but I can understand how awful that must be. If I have to stay with my grandparents for a few weeks while figuring out some health stuff because of his absurdity, I can imagine how much more difficult even just having a cold could be in that situation. Glad you're saying it in past tense though!

[@CharlieFosterOffdenson]

@@A_Ducky soooo it’s kinda complicated but he would be admitted to the hospital for a couple weeks, get back into his place, be silent for a few days, and then he would go off again. My suspicion is that he wasn’t taking the medication he prescribed. He lived on his own and you could always hear him tearing up his apartment in the middle of the night. Police were called all the time but he would never answer the door. My old landlord texted me about a year back telling me he FINALLY was kicked from the building but it took like a year of similar incidents before hand.

[@CharlieFosterOffdenson]

@@InTheNameOfLife1 I’m really sorry for your experience! Least he was evicted but also it’s really hard to deal with that. It’s really scary!

[@jaylahpennau7327]

Mörgaes, As a therapist trained in trauma and someone who has gone through trauma treatment personally, it is refreshing to hear that you are letting yourself heal and seeking help to process this. No one should have to feel unsafe in the place they call their home. Also to answer your question, yes trauma work is exhausting. I always tell clients to take the rest of the day off and make sure they rest if we processed some difficult things in session.

[@gimmealargesalad]

You sound like an amazing therapist. Wish there were more like you.

[@HistoryRogue95]

Thank you for coming back and letting us know you're doing well. This was a horrible trauma. Your mental health is far more important than answering out questions. Take care of you. Take as many breaks as you need to. Talk to someone you trust. You deserve to feel safe again. It's good to see you back.

[@taraaawhatt]

Being a woman is so scary sometimes. Its not fair that so many of us have to be traumatized like this. So sorry Morgaes. Glad you got out of there.

[@MCKevin289]

I have two little sisters(well they’re now young women lol) and I always worry about them going through this being their older brother. Especially now since one is going to live in a different country.

[@spooders8424]

I’m a man and have experienced similar situations

[@nomi_M]

@@spooders8424 There's always one person like you, who just HAS to shoehorn that in. It happens to girls/women INFINITELY more, and very often with deadly results. Women DIE every day because of this shit all over the world. It's a systematic issue, since the beginning of time. Not that YOU give a shit, you're just here to derail.

[@MadMax-dp2bb]

​@Jumping Spooders I don't think she was saying it doesnt happen to men. Just that is happens more frequently to women.

[@spooders8424]

@@MadMax-dp2bb no it doesn’t. It just means women tell about this more. Because women share everything always

[@MicoHunter]

It upsets me so much that because women are conditioned to think we are “dramatic” that you keep saying you were paranoid. When in actual fact, that “paranoia” was instinct. Im so relieved you are in a better place. All women need to learn from this to trust our instincts. I do encourage you to let the authorities know about all of this so that if you ever need their help they are informed on the situation. This could have ended so badly and that chills me to the bone. You are a very special person with unique humour and content and I adore you. ❤

[@MicoHunter]

I’ve got to the end I’m so glad you contacted the police xx

[@calestaiezu214]

It’s normal to have ptsd from something like this. You may be going through this, which is why you have this heavy feeling when you think about it. You don’t have to force yourself to relive a traumatic event for content for us. I want you to be happy, healthy and safe. ❤️

[@kazza6078]

Not recognizing the signs at first that you saw later - that is not your fault. You were not trained (and no one should be but some dangerous places necessitate it) to look for danger everywhere and constantly defend yourself from the possibility of MAYBE being harassed like this. This just tells me you have grown up in safety and have faith in the community that takes care of you and I'm so sorry that faith has been cracked or broken. I hope more people get to feel the safety you once did and I hope you can get back to that feeling.

[@Bjorksbackyard]

It’s hard to even educate people on this, harder still to put some of the signs into words, but still so important for those able to talk about it to share what we experienced. All those little aspects like someone’s body language, “the way they looked at me”, just tiny things that to anyone else sound like nothing - Anyone who’s been traumatized by a person (or event) knows how in hindsight you add all the little things up. We have to talk about the red flags, encourage trusting your gut if you feel off.

[@LM-MMM]

Morges, I'm so happy to see you smiling. Your last few videos were very scary and I can't even imagine the pain you have gone through. I am hoping that you are in a better place, feeling safe and just able to breathe.

[@cbnh239]

Seeing all the names on this video makes me so incredibly happy, I’m so glad we were able to help and support you 🥰

[@trainsonplanes709]

I just commented the exact same thing. Im really proud that we all came out to help her. It just makes me happy

[@whatthehelliot]

thats what i was thinking!! im glad she has got so much financial support, she absolutely deserves to treat herself :)

[@SnowMexican96]

I know, it was heartwarming. I didn't see my name, though, which makes me a little sad. Did my money actually get to her? How many people did she miss? I just hope she got my donation 😥

[@ellaova]

@Tasha Tennant Wow, those names were scrolling for the first 51 minutes and she didn't even include them all.🤷

[@dizzynarutofan100]

This video is extremely impressive. It's hard to talk about this stuff to a therapist, let alone sharing your story with the world.

[@Arakai13]

I'm so glad you're okay. Having 7 people share one bathroom and one washing machine while living in a tiny room sounds like hell, and having some clown torment you the whole time must be just unimaginable torture. Thank you for having the strength to share your story, and I'm sure I'm not alone in saying I'm glad you're taking time to process and heal. Don't feel pressured to rush back and entertain us again- take care of yourself first! I hope you're never put in this situation again, and I hope you'll be able to feel safe in your own house again ♥

[@darkenvy1901]

The animation and the 'lalalala' when you're indicating walking is adorable. I'm so glad you're okay.

[@sanghamitradas9437]

You are not alone in this. This video found me at the right time. My stalker of three years recently contacted me again, through my place of work. When I was finally forgetting about that piece of crap, he had to resurface. I am having nightmares every night since, and I can't get myself to finsih my police report because reliving it DRAINS me. I hear you, I see you. You are amazing and strong. You've given me the strength to complete my witness report. Thank you so much! I am not alone in this, you are not alone in this.

[@PanicattheDiscourse]

Can you invite the local biker gang for a nice bbq & beer?

[@sanghamitradas9437]

@@PanicattheDiscourse hahaha gurl I wish I could. I wish somebody else dealt with the crazy mofo for me.

[@themysterylady842]

A word of advice never say "my stalker" because they get a kick out of that. Always say "the stalker" or "the guy that stalks me"

[@thiefqueenftw]

@@themysterylady842 please don’t police people on how they refer to their own trauma. The whole point of dealing with trauma is that the victim takes back agency from their story, who gives a fuck what the perpetrator thinks as long as it’s helpful to the victim. The point is that the person violating someone’s agency isn’t the one who should have to be catered to, the victim is entitled to use whatever language they want to heal.

[@themysterylady842]

@@thiefqueenftw not policing, and it's certainly not meant to be that way, it's just advice, they do not have to take my advice. I don't know the type of stalker they have but I do know that from experience, there are stalkers that can get more obsessed and more crazy if you refer to them as "my stalker", which can increase their activity or worse. But again I don't know what kind of stalker they have so I just figured a general word of advice would help. Especially if it's not just IRL stalking but online stalking to. I'm trying to help in some way and if it doesn't help then oh well, I tried. But that's certainly not what I meant when I made the comment.

[@bronwynericksen]

The whole time I just kept thinking, ‘isn’t it sad that women feel like they need to go into this much detail for people to believe they are a victim’.

[@bnemel5]

To be honest rather than that I think this is just her way of processing what happened

[@virgofairy88]

I was just thinking of you the other day-thanks for keeping us all updated on how you’re doing and I hope you continue to get the help you need to stay safe. ❤

[@BlondieGurl1129]

Who writes something like that to a person they’ve never even had a conversation with… and expects you to be flattered by it??

[@c.karnstein3299]

A sadistic freak 👊

[@nukaghoula]

Someone who really, really, really needs to see a psych that's for sure

[@chrisitl]

A psychopath

[@backwardsbandit8094]

Our brains are hardwired to sense being stalked because we spent thousands of years evolving to be able to sense predators both human and animal. Things we take for granted as normal, the vibrations on the ground when people walk near us, spacial awareness of other entities, the sounds of other people breathing and walking. It feels like the air changes and becomes more still when there are unseen eyes on us. Time feels like its slowing down and you become hyperaware of every second that passes. The repeated sense of danger over a period of time will inevitably heighten our nervous system and cause it to adjust for sensing danger. This is how we get PTSD just from being stalked but not necessarily attacked. Sometimes it can be just as severe and/or long lasting effects, sometimes even more severe than being spontaneously attacked one time. What a lot of stalking victims struggle with is feelings of second-guessing, thinking they're going insane, confusion and eventually insecurity in your ability to evaluate your surroundings. It's very difficult to explain how you've developed such severe mental health issues when you havent physically been attacked or even confronted in a lot of cases. It only makes sense when you understand how we get PTSD in the first place: our brain adjusts to be hyper aware of danger over a period of time. Its psychological torture. We see this utilized in the horror genre for a reason. Games like slenderman, PT and resident evil intentionally have NPC's who's main purpose is to linger and watch you. They're not always visible, but the game is designed to make you feel watched. We've all seen someone who is a bit suspicious lingering around us and it's made us feel uncomfortable. When this becomes your life, especially in a place that you live in, the uncomfortability becomes unbearable. You're extremely brave to be able to talk about this and then post the video. I know that you cope with humour, but this is essentially a therapy session made public. I hope that speaking about this publicly helps you in your recovery. Just know that you're not delusional and youre not overreacting. You're experiencing a very normal human response to the behaviour of someone who is clearly an extremely unwell man. I'm really glad to hear that you're doing better and readjusting to an environment of safety.

[@andrearupe8094]

I totally understand the "I can't trust myself anymore" feeling. I had horrible anxiety problems for over 10 years, and then met an amazing person and got my life together....every once in a while I'll feel "THAT" feeling again, and I never know if it's a genuine gut worry, or just an anxiety reverb. Very sucky what trauma does.

[@informitas0117]

As a schizophrenic, your mental state living at the old place sounds exactly like how I was feeling when my schizophrenia started to develop - I'm NOT saying you were developing it, I'm just noting how paranoia seems to be the same way no matter the source. It eats you from the inside. Awful. Losing the ability to trust your own senses is life ruining.

[@nmc5657]

do you take niacin?

[@informitas0117]

@@nmc5657 been taking all the vitamins for years, what does that have to do with paranoia or schizophrenia?

[@nmc5657]

​@@informitas0117 niacin (the real, flushing kind) is good for schizophrenia, paranoia, alcohol withdrawal hallucinations, etc. glad you take it if you do.

[@mandy_lue_cookie]

1:58:01 the look on your face when you were all done explaining the trauma you’ve been through. You look so free! You never have to bring it up ever again. We will all respect you, right everyone!? Yes!! Much much love!! ❤🎉

[@Punkrockpenguin2]

Totally

[@gothiccastle1681]

I was stalked by a previous highschool friend and neighbour.. I relate to so much of what you’re saying: the rationalization, the creeping around windows, the denial of intuition, the close proximity, the stalkers mental health problems, the paranoia, the taunting. It’s really scary. You made it. You’re so much stronger than you know. So proud of you. I still keep my blinds closed, have nightmares, check for his truck when I’m driving, but even so, it’s better than it used to be.

[@FMOLETTE]

Glad to finally see you back. I know how hard it can be to come back with such crazy scary shit happening, so it’s great to see you healing and back in action.

[@A_Ducky]

Honest to God, I couldn't do half the stuff this girl does. I've had stalkers (2) in 2021 and this year.. but I'd never have the courage to ask for help, nor to tell it to the world! She's an amazing person all around, who still manages to include so many funnies into what's a nightmare of a story to live through. I admire this little fighter so much. I only hope that she doesn't start mistrusting everyone because of one bad apple (tho we should be cautious always). That's what finally ended up happening to me, after the most recent attack by the stalker in January. Now I feel I can't trust ANY new person, especially male. Le sigh...

[@hauntedstorm]

We’ve missed you Mörges! I’m so glad to see you’re safe. I just hope making this video wasn’t too draining for you though, as reliving and recalling trauma can be very emotionally (and sometimes physically) draining. Stay safe, please! ❤️

[@foo9877]

I’m glad you’re ok, it’s so nice to hear that this is done with

[@nicolasnamed]

You’re so strong for enduring this, let alone talking about it publicly. I hope things are better by now, and that you can soon move onto new projects and continue your youtube career! Looking forward to seeing you thrive! ❤

[@goosiesmoosies]

God what a nightmare. It's hard enough to live in a shared space just being ANXIOUS about people noticing your personal life, let alone when it turns out there is actually a stalker. We haven't got any money to spare these days, but I will be here watching your videos to support. You always made me laugh and I am so sorry the clown stole your comfort and safety and made your life so much harder.

[@solaireofastora417]

Stalking is no joke. I never really thought about it but I had to throw my whole high school career away because I was being stalked. It takes away your sense of security. It's been 11ish years and I still look over my shoulder when I'm out by myself

[@teratoph]

It feels sooooo good to see your sense of humor again after everything that happened. I wish you all the best!!

[@aurorarockets]

There's certain light-hearted moments and jokes in here, with you showcasing your hilarious nature whilst talking about something so messed up, but I can hear the pain and fear in your voice and how you're holding back. It breaks my heart and I'm so glad you can start to heal from this. Thank you for sharing. You are so strong and this video will help so many people.

[@s4di.3]

As others have expressed, it's very brave and strong of you to even tell your story at all, let alone try to turn it into a production. I'm sure we're all grateful that you are even willing to share the story with us at all. I'm glad you seem to be in a better place now, mentally and physically. Remember to continue to put yourself first when it comes to this sensitive subject - you don't owe anybody anything! And I entirely understand how hard it is to tell a story about trauma. Your brain doesn't want to relive it, so it's almost like your ability to think entirely dissipates when you want to tell the story. I believe that this is very normal. I experience the same feeling when having to address my own experiences

[@Evan_L_Rodriguez]

“Sorry, I’m gonna roast him a little bit” GIRL ROAST HIM MORE.

[@crowdemon_archives]

Char him lmao

[@jamniczeqq]

The pizza story was hilarious, but also it breaks my heart hearing that you couldn't eat your own food like a normal human being and even fearing coming back to your OWN car.... It's scary as hell, I can't imagine the anxiety

[@jaylaalle5827]

i remember the stalker videos when they came out, i’m glad that you’re safe and okay mörgaes, hoping for more videos soon! ❤️

[@crazy_old_bat]

I now understand why you felt so confused, paranoid and unsafe…and why you had to GET OUT OF THERE without any type of plan in place. It’s wonderful to see you moving forward and doing better, although I am sure it will take time to work through the trauma of it all. Thank you for sharing your story with us. 💐

[@selenmolla9926]

I love the side actors.The abused water bottle,the innocent plant and the comfort cheetos ;)

[@MrPiotrV]

The fact that you can talk about this and still make jokes is amazing and proof of your strength.

[@eclipsedbadger]

I won't lie, the presentation killed me. I did not expect it, and it's hilarious but the subject is so HORRIBLE 😭 The clown fits him, perfect animation I am so glad you are doing well and are safe, got really worried for a second but I guessed maybe you deleted or privated the videos if you started some legal proceeding.

[@NiceTrySai]

my heart sink listening to you describing all of the horrible situations you're in, like. i cant even laugh at some jokes that were made, everything about this is just straight up creepy and disgusting. no ONE should be in this situation!. Morges i hope you're secure now, i hope everything when well, i hope this creep leave you alone forever! stay safe morges

[@ladybirdg5658]

When you said that you're not afraid of your stalker and that the most annoying thing about all this is how your body reacts to things now, I felt that in my *bones*. I'm also a trauma survivor, and after being diagnosed with PTSD, my problem had less to do with what had happened and more to do with me having ptsd symptoms and triggers. (The way you described reliving your trauma while you were in the backrooms Airbnb oof.) But at the same time, it does get easier. You're recovering, you're finding ways to soothe and empower yourself, which is the backbone of healing from trauma. Hearing you talk about how much better you felt when you were camping made me so happy for you because you were feeling better! That means the world after being in such a bad place mentally. Healing from trauma is messy and weird. You don't owe THIS video to anyone; you don't have to relive your trauma unless you want to, or you feel like it would help you heal. Similarly, you don't owe it to anyone to act like you're okay when you're not. Do what you have to do, heal at your own pace, and just know that after what you've been through, you're doing great. The relief and joy in your voice and in your face at the end of the video when you went "I'm done!" will probably stick with me for a while. I'm glad you're doing better, and I hope posting this video helped

[@cuckoophendula8211]

Wow, so glad to see Morges again! And coming back swinging as I have a guilty pleasure listening to horrible stalker stories :O EDIT: Omg, I really appreciate all of the hi tech comedic visual effects (i.e. penguin morges! "lalalalalalala") all despite this being a really terrible situation

[@pembrokelove]

I think I get too focused on the captions. I missed the penguin and the video she references. I thought she meant she was going to make a video but decided to explain it instead (the captions aren't great) and somehow completely missed the animations people are talking about. Damn. 😂😂😂

[@styrofoampony]

I'm so impressed by this video. You explained such a horrific, terrifying and confusing situation in a way that made so much sense. Now your previous videos don't seem so confusing anymore. So glad you're safe and beginning to heal from the situation. Thank you for making this video and the tremendous amount of effort it must have taken to not only explain it to us, but to edit, rewatch, and essentially relive the situation. And the little penguin animation thing in the beginning was so entertaining and really gave me a good understanding of the building. Wishing you the best and I'm so so sorry you had to go through this. You're incredibly brave for putting your story out to the world.

[@moysauce788]

Thank you for telling your story, it's a cautionary warning for others to not ignore that feeling of being watched and what habits to look out for in others around them. When I saw that a wonderful person like you was struggling so much with this situation I donated because I have been there and it is so eerily terrifying and it is very difficult to get assistance in catching creeps like this, the law rarely takes it seriously

[@albonthegoat]

You have a bunch of us who have followed you for many years and we just miss you. I'm so glad that you were pretty much just working though some stuff recently and weren't in danger. You're going to be working through things for awhile, but I do hope you take time to do some things for you to get that spark back. You deserve it. He deserves to be forgotten.

[@stew.enjoyer]

It hurts my heart to think about someone spending hours and hours of their time hyperfocusing on their traumas, drawing and animating their triggers, and re-traumatizing themselves every day for the sake of my viewing experience. It can be really hard enough to open up about these things in a professional setting such as therapy. You owe no one your blood, sweat, tears. Talking about horrible stuff involves going back there in your mind and that can be very emotionally, physically, mentally exhausting. :( All this to say that I hope you're doing okay. Your fans care about your mental health. This must have been terrifying to experience. Thank you for your bravery.

[@pianocorpse8565]

By telling this story, u really showed me how important it is to listen to your gut feeling when smth feels wrong. I'm so proud of you, that you made it through this immensely difficult time. Just hearing how extremely your body reacted to those events made it pretty clear, that you've been through literal hell., We all will keep supporting you and don't shy away from asking for financial help. I wish nothing but the best for you!!

[@bingbong6066]

Living in the same building as a convicted stalker, the stare is very relatable. He gives me the creepiest non human vines with that stare that never seems to reveal any humanity. Iv'e seen things that confirm very clearly he is a stalker. I'm glad he is under supervision.

[@SuperDuckyWho]

You are an absolute GEM of a human being and it makes me so mad someone made you feel like this :( I've had a stalker as well in college and it is TERRIFYING! Luckily I have the kind of blunt temperament that made him as uncomfortable as he made me as well as a LOT of friends around me on either side but even so you never know what they're going to do. Mine stared at me too and it's just enraging... like could you PLEASE?!?!?

[@SuperDuckyWho]

And also... no you're not crazy, you're not over reacting, and it's also not your fault for trying to rationalize or try to assume/hope you were dealing with a normal human being. Guy was seriously a creep. You also don't owe anyone an explanation but if you needed to just get it all out for yourself then I know most of your followers are happy to listen and try to support any way they can cause you are just that awesome.

[@twoheadedkitten]

the difference in you between this video and your last few is so strong. i was so so scared for you when you posted the tent video. i can't imagine how hard healing from this has been and will be, but seeing you joke around and get some confidence back makes me so happy

[@JustLilGecko]

I can't believe you manage to have this fun an editing style while talking about something so grim. Hope you're doing better in general, this is a F*ed up situation

[@thelastholdout]

Honestly I was just as riveted listening to you explain this as if you'd gone and made a big time edited documentary with animation and such. You're a wonderful and entertaining presence all on your own, Morges. Despite myself I chuckled at your rough Photoshop representation of your apartment building, and it did its job of helping me visualize what you went through. I hope you continue to be safe and in a stable living situation. I look forward to seeing more videos from you on different topics. Keep being you. And remember: some days, continuing to exist IS the victory.

[@noobnoob8782]

im really happy you are ok now, honestly your whole channel just has been a nostalgy mine for me and i always wished you well and im glad that you kinda are now. I really hope that your creepy stalker will get what he deserves and you will be able to feel more safe then but just in case stay vigilant and watch out for any new potential ones, i wish you will suceed in regaining the grasp of your life and that you will, at least, feel more safer in the near future thank you for all the CP streams and stay safe !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@Batonaleash]

If all of us who donated to you only donated 1-5€, this is a huge amount and im so happy we did. you needed it. I am SO GLAD to see you alive and well. This was on the back of my head all the time.

[@yourmum69_420]

I'm broke as fck and donated 30 quid, so I bet theres people with money who gave more, so yeah it adds up

[@DaisyZest]

It’s so good to see that you’re safe! I’m sorry that you had to experience this, and I hope you know that you’re very strong

[@_letstartariot]

I love seeing your quirky self back with us. I wasn’t able to donate, I just had a baby. But seeing the amount of people who helped you warms my heart. You guys rock!

[@Dangdrangus]

Jesus, Morgaes. Just seeing you in a nice surrounding and looking fresh faced makes me happy! I’ve been checking and waiting. As someone else in their late 20’s who has had everything and worked so hard to achieve things like you. My mental health now stops me from doing pretty much anything and a 4 year Resume break in this society blank means it’s all for naught. Your a fantastic person and I wish you love and health, hopefully in long day stretches ♥️ they say the happiest people cry the hardest tears, you’ve always seemed so happy. Being forward and showing that being “the great pretender” is a thing gives others validation. Sending you all the love.

[@StraightOuttaPocket7]

Omg!!!! I’ve missed you! I’m so glad you’re posting again! I’m so sorry it’s under these circumstances, but I’m glad you’re back! But I’m so sorry that this has happened to you. I had a stalker and it’s such mental torment. I’m so sorry honey. I hope you’re doing ok and staying safe. We all care about you and want the best for you!

[@StraightOuttaPocket7]

You’re such a strong woman. Seriously. I hope you are ok! If you ever need an ear, from someone who had a stalker for over 10 years, my inbox is always open. Please, we all care and want the best for you!

[@your_uncle_barry_6700]

Our bodies and natural reactions can be our own worst enemy. I have quite bad anxiety and an anxiety attack whilst I have them are totally crazy to me. Glad your safe and thankyou for taking 3 weeks out of your life to make this video to explain everything

[@baileytaylor203]

Im so sorry this happened to you. I was stalked as a kid with my mom. Her ex boyfriend was an ex military sniper and he used to write us scary letters with poetry about how he was god and my mom was the devil. He would tell my mom what outfits I was wearing at my bus stop and I was constantly afraid he was somewhere planning to kill me. No one deserves to feel unsafe in everyday life. Sending you love

[@thegoblinspeaks]

i've been stalked for 7 years by someone who groomed me and refuses to leave me alone. it is seriously scary. not the only person stalking me either. the world is full of predators.

[@addicted2mako]

It's really cool that you planned to make a documentary-style video explaining what happened, and it's ok that you didn't feel ready to make that or the storytime version. Go at the pace that best works for you and is the most healing for you. We're all just glad that you're safe and hope you continue to be

[@emiwarble]

Man, HUGE props to the human body and brain. Despite you believing you were interpreting things that weren't there and thinking you were the problem, your body still entered prptective mode and had you keeping an eye out for the creepy dude. Your brain was looking out for you girl :) Even though you felt horrible in the process (and I'm sorry you had to go through that, damn)

[@Punkrockpenguin2]

Yeah that's insane to me how that works

[@bc8796]

I'm only about 40 minutes and so I don't know how this is all going to unfold but I did think that it was weird when you said that you would see this man all the time. When you were explaining the layout of the rooms and everything you had mentioned that you would see your neighbor off and on sometimes but then you were saying how you would see him like all the time. And obviously you would think that maybe it's just coincidence you know I'm a busy person he's a busy person but I did think it was really odd. And I'm happy that you're coming back around to this point and saying how you would see him all the freaking time. I do strongly believe that there is something in our nature that is primal that is in our gut and if something doesn't feel right you should just listen to it but we've been taught to be polite and not to hurt people's feelings and all this junk. It's very obvious and understandable why you would make me six uses because you don't want to be the "rude" person. I'm glad you seem like you're in a better place I have been thinking about you for months and I'm very upset at myself that I'm just now seeing that you uploaded this video but I'm happy you seem like you're in a better place I hope you're still doing better. The last video you upload it was about four months ago it says so I hope that you are continuing to do better and healing. Thank you for sharing all of this with us but as many people said before please don't feel free to do any of this for our sake. This is your healing journey so I'm not going to judge how you do it or anything like that but if it is too hard to talk about or anything like that just please feel free to not talk about it ever again if you want. Much love to you

[@keks1krvmel]

i had a phase recently too where after i became aware of how abusive my family is/was when i was growing up (bc as you said, you rationalize a lot, and even though i haven't lived with them in 10 years now, it took me this much time to see things clearly...and i'm still not done realizing and working through it i think) i slept soooo much. i was tired all the time and needed sooo much sleep, it was weird. it's crazy how much our psyche influences our physical body. and i also relate to emotionally and physically reliving those past events when you think and/or talk about them, it can be really intense and make me feel like i'm a child in the same situation again. so there are definitely other people experiencing the things you do. i know this video is months old by now, so i hope you've been doing well and can continue to heal.

[@infamisrascel]

I've been watching your videos since the time you fearlessly camped in a cave overnight in the winter! Even watching you go through all this 🤡 stuff, you have been fearless in your videos sharing your story. I hope you all the best in your healing, you are an inspiration to at least one timid girly

[@girlygoth180]

You got ptsd from this. How your body is reacting is how i feel with my trauma. Talk to a therapist to get some help with coping with it. This situation is scary and will definitely play on your mental health. Meditation and surrounding yourself with things you love helps. remind yourself to ground yourself and to not panic when the "episodes'" come. focus on what you can control instead of what you cant. Thank you for being brave to tell us about this.

[@The_Slammy_Jammy]

talking about trauma can be just as terrifying to your mind as the real experience in the past. happy you have taken your time to make this video instead of forcing yourself through such pain.

[@liaavv_4959]

girl I am so sorry🫶🏻 I know the scary feeling u felt and I’m heartbroken u had to experience this.. so scary I hope u heal from this someday

[@Solanin0803]

I missed you and your beautiful braid and accent ✨ Thank you for sharing your feelings about this. Stay safe and *please* put yourself and your mental health first! 👏🏻

[@carolinegranados5682]

I like how structured you are in the way you tell the story

[@phantasmicmasque]

You don’t have to share your story at all, but the fact that you are means so much to your community so we know you are alive and well. It’s also such a brave step in your healing journey, much love!

[@TriforceOfWisdom86]

I’m so glad you’re safe!! Please take care of yourself however you can, pet a catarooni, and be as patient with yourself as you can. Recovering from a trauma is never a linear process and you deserve to take the time and space you need to get your mental health where you want it to be. Sending good thoughts and lots of care your way ❤

[@alyssabice9421]

Honestly, as someone who went thru a minor stalking issue prior to my aexual assault in college: your feelings and questions and mental changes are so fucking valid. I do agree w others tho abt not forcing yourself to relive trauma since it is still so recent. Please continue to put yourself first and take care of yourself. You are so wonderful and I also agree that you ABSOLUTELY deserve to feel safe and comfortable in your new situation. Also, I'm very proud of you for taking breaks throughout the video. ❤

[@ilovefish9458]

I hope you are safe and well! It's so good to see you!!!! Lots of love!

[@KreeZafi]

Oh gosh that sounds so horrifying, I'm glad you're doing better now! This is a note to anyone watching this: BETTER SAFE THAN SORRY!!! It's tempting to rationalize things and ignore red flags, but it's SO much better to sometimes overreact to a "silly coinkidink" than to miss something genuinely dangerous. I also think that some people, especially women, can get rather nonconfrontational and don't want to act on suspicions for fear of appearing rude or even being offensive. Please never let that stop you from being safe. If something feels wrong, don't ignore it. Stay safe everyone ❤

[@kimberlykulkovit6433]

I think that a big reason why some women wouldn’t confront or appear rude to an aggressor is out of fear that the person would escalate the situation. We don’t know if this person is dangerous and would do something else (especially if you are already picking up vibes that the person may be unstable) but I agree that it is important to walk with caution and be more vigilant around said person.

[@KreeZafi]

@@kimberlykulkovit6433 Oh yeah for sure, I would very rarely advise direct personal confrontation in those situations. I meant more that one could act on it by for example letting someone know about it (like a boss/manager if it's in a workplace, for instance), or possibly moving away from the situation - I've never rented a room so idk how that works but perhaps there is someone responsible who you can make aware that a resident is making you uncomfortable. Whatever the reaction may be, I think you should do what makes you feel safer and not tell yourself that it's just silly and try to rationalize it. Even if you take more drastic measures, such as pack up and move or alert the police, it's better to do that over a silly coincidence than to NOT do that and end up having something horrible happen to you.

[@kimberlykulkovit6433]

@@KreeZafi Then 100% agree, better safe than sorry.

[@bitesized_beetles]

It's a lot for the mind to process when you experience something as traumatic as this, especially when you don't even realize until after it has come to the worst point. I had an experience similar to this, where I didn't realize I had been groomed as a teenager until after the situation had long ended - I still struggle to think and talk about it years later. Even though this situation might follow you and hurt you for a long time, you are a strong person, and you WILL get through it. Your life is YOURS, and this feeling will not rule you forever. It's so impressive that you were able to talk about this so in-depth, but you do not owe that to anyone. I'm glad that you are safe, and doing better - your body and mind need that rest, as inconvenient as it is!

[@skyelovesphan]

The "I'm done. .... I'm done!" at the end made me so emotional

[@cityseabird]

Love seeing how many names there were on that list. You are so loved, and what a great community you have cultivated. Xx

[@breetoldyouso]

You are such a sweet person. I’m so sorry this happened to you. Giving people the benefit of the doubt is not a flaw, and you’re not stupid. This is one of those outlier situations where the rational explanation isn’t correct, but being rational when strange things are happening is a strength. If you had realized what was going on during the experience, you probably would have had an even worse time.

[@headmelter]

I had a sudden urge to check up on you about three months ago after not consuming your content for over two years (at that point) and it was all comments speculating if you were okay, I’m so so glad to see you’re doing better babe x

[@kellyalves756]

I literally was just wondering a couple days ago about whatever happened to the FBI hat woman and here she is on my home page!

[@eruditeidiot]

What a journey! I'm so happy that you're okay!! And when you said "I'm done!" it was a big relief just for me to hear, so I hope it was even bigger relief for you to say it. Because you ARE done. I hope you can move on and live free forever now. And if you can't sleep some night, thinking about all this craziness, remember that forcing negative thoughts away can make things worse. So just tell yourself that the video is done, and just let those memories float where they want and fade away into nothing. The less attention you give them, the less they'll stick around.

[@HoodyPisDed]

I'm glad to see you back in your positive nature, and all I can say is that stay strong and may your future be brighter ahead!

[@laynie7459]

i think your story is a good reminder how real human instincts are. you felt something was off right away which is incredible. i'm so glad you are feeling somewhat better. do whatever you need to heal ❤

[@frostyghosts7817]

So glad to see you happier and healthier and out of that horrifying situation. You don't owe us anything grand or flashy, It's great to see you're okay and hear your sense of humour again. I for one will be eagerly awaiting your animation Oscar Nomination.

[@steamvyrus6249]

i turned my adblocker off once i heard you mention the ads and watched every one. you've been through some scary stuff and im so happy to see you feeling safer. you shouldn't feel pressured to share details that are too uncomfortable to deal with, your mental health is more important.

[@laurewinkelmans9501]

I'm so sorry this happened to you. I was in a similar situation with an abusive person, so I can relate. Please know that you are loved and have support. You have a great personality and you have often made my mental health a little better with your witty content.

[@dameonyoung8218]

I'm so happy you're doing good. I've missed your videos so much, you've been my favorite youtuber for over 5 years. I hope it only gets better from here.

[@an.opossum]

What you're describing when you feel like you're being watched at the AirBnB, is PTSD. You have PTSD; the AirBnB gave you PTSD flashbacks and retraumatized you, in case you don't already know. I hope you can find a therapist for the condition; if nothing else, I hope putting a name to it will give you a direction to look.

[@lakeofkayge]

It’s insane to see a video of yours pop up in my sub section. It’s been so long that I’m literally a whole different person. Got into the gym and really started looking after to myself, so to see this video was like seeing a small remnant of the past. I remember getting into this channel because of my hatred for the onion man and just fell in love with your edit style and story telling. I’m glad you’re doing well and I’m actually excited to see what you’re going to cook up next. GET A TWITTER. (Idk if you already have one lmao) Edit: I just finished the video and it was such a wild ride bro. Remembering you when you first uploaded then hearing all of that bs you had to go through was heartbreaking. It was so wonderful seeing your reaction to being done with the video at the end. You could really see how much you’re excited to create more videos that don’t involve such a situation. Super glad you’re back, ice lady.

[@pembrokelove]

I couldn't get through all of this the other day because KZbin hadn't allowed the captions yet. So now there's something I wanted to add, stalking survivor to stalking survivor: I understand intimately the desire and drive to look back over and over, trying to figure out what signs you might have missed. I went through that, too, but ultimately I learned in my victim support group how I was become so obsessive and feeling badly about myself because I kept saying to myself "how could I miss this? Why didn't I see that?" and I was beating myself up about it all the time. We pretty much all go through that phase, and it doesn't help anyone feel or objectively be safer - it just makes you feel foolish and paranoid. You already know the warning signs, and you know how to keep yourself safe. Lesson learned - listen to yourself if things don't feel right and keep talking to the people who have your best interest at heart. Isolating yourself is how they get away with it.

[@AelitaaaLioko]

you think you are important enough to be stalker? 😂

[@kass_G59]

@@AelitaaaLiokoWhat?

[@notacatnt]

@@AelitaaaLioko It's not about importance. It's about the entitlement of a stalker.

[@morpho_portis]

Just a while ago I was wondering if you were alright. It's so good to see, you are safe and feeling better! Thank you for this video (and as many have said it: you don't owe us anything!), I can only imagine how much it must have drained you mentally and physically. Wishing you a lot of strength and energy on your healing journey!

[@foo9877]

You should get something flat like a piece of wood to place on top of that wire shelf. That way it’s easier to place things on it without stuff falling

[@eddapoetica]

You’re so SO brave for making this video, you’re basically my hero for doing this because it takes a lot of guts to be able to put your story out there. You’re extraordinarily strong and capable, and I hope you never forget that no matter what this Walmart vampire put you through

[@alolanraichu9034]

Even feeling scared or unsafe now isn't being "paranoid." Your mind and body were on maximum alert for months keeping track of a real threat (whether he was a danger or just a super creep). Though your conscious mind knows that you're away from that situation now, it will take longer for your instincts to get the message that the threat is no longer in your life. The continuing feelings may make it harder for you to return to normal, but be gentle with yourself. This guy and what he did to you caused your (completely reasonable) feelings. It isn't paranoia when the fear comes from something real. I hope you are doing better, regardless. You are amazing!! I know it's such a cliche thing to say, but you are so incredibly strong for making it through this. Take care of yourself.

[@FramedThief]

I'm so sorry this happened, mörges :( This is so traumatic and awful, please stay safe!!! It was wonderful to see you uploading again, and I hope your life returns to and stays in some form of normalcy.

[@rebeccajones6719]

Oh my gosh you poor darling. I'm only 30 minutes in and it's so frightening. I'm so sorry you went through this. I had a similar situation when I was a teenager and it took a lot of time to get over. Big hugs to you xx

[@shachino9389]

For me the pizza incident is so scary, Like holy crap. It's anxiety inducing Either way morges, I hope your healing process goes well. Take your time before you get back on making videos ps. also watched the ads without skipping, y'all should watch them ads in full length to actually support morges financially (Edited out some parts, since I deadass forgot I shouldn't recall a traumatic event)

[@herzen9857]

Sleeping a lot after going through something like that is completely normal. I slept a lot as well when i finally caught a break and so did other people i know. Your mental health can affect you physically as well