My Dad Committed Suicide, But God Has Been My Father

[@LisaMarie-ln1vp]

Thank you for sharing!! I lost my father too. I was 8 years old when my parents divorced. For some reason my mother wouldn’t allow me to see my dad and she never told me the reason why. Fast forward 7 years I felt a yearning to talk to my dad but I had no idea where he was. For 30 days I asked my mother for his number and for 30 days she said she didn’t know what it was. On the 31st day I got a message at school that my father was dead. That pain is still with me.

[@bornagain2121]

My father commiting suicide is what led me to my heavenly father. And the verses that say He is a father to the fatherless are where I find strength and comfort.

[@halihorror]

Thank you so much for sharing your story, Jilliana; it really touched my heart. My dad left after I was born and never came back. You helped remind me that God is and wants to be our father. God bless you. ♥️

[@JonathanJilliana]

Praise God ❤️🙏🏻 He loves you and loves us like no one else ever can. Bless you

[@vidasteele9624]

So beautifully put, it's incredible now that I'm 64 years old, and I thought I was past the pains of my childhood and young adulthood regarding my relationship with my father, who passed away when I was in my late thirties. Your sharing showed me that I still carried unresolved emotions, angry and unforgiveness, for my dad. I'm ready and beyond ready for the Lord to guide me to wholeness. Thank you so much. God's Blessings to you and your husband.

[@melanieb7053]

I know this is old, but I have been struggling so much the past couple days with my own dad's suicide and seeing how it has influenced my view of God. Then this video popped up as the first one on my KZbin home page. I wasn't even subscribed to your channel (now I am!). I'm so sorry that you had to deal with this too. But thank you for sharing how the Lord helped you heal. We have such a good Father.

[@JonathanJilliana]

Wow, I am so so sorry for your loss😭 my prayer is that you are able to see/experience God for who HE is, and not how your Father may have poorly represented Him🤍

[@vanessa2d898]

You are not alone sister in christ My dad passed away when I was 5 but God has always been my father

[@julianneross5528]

I lost my dad when I was 3, thank you for this. It makes me feel less alone. God is definitely a Father to the fatherless. ❤️

[@brodierookhuyzen108]

Jill, you and your testimony are so inspiring! God is an amazing father and an amazing friend, and I can see that He has His hand on you! May God bless you, your marriage, and your family! Thank you!

[@JonathanJilliana]

Wow thank you so much😭🙌🏼

[@natashasproles4608]

I love love this story because I can relate 100%....my relationship with my human dad has always been strange not fulfilling but I do love him....and throughout my life I could never really rely on my parents at different times throughout my life but God has always always done things for me that they both lacked...my relationship with God is my relationship with my dad literally...he is my dad. Never have second guessed that not one day. His ways are amazing and he is full of surprises with different ways to communicate with me all throughout my life. I love him dearly and I really wish people understand truly how much he cares for us all. All the times I have ever felt grieved or lost he has always picked me back up and got me back on track....if I ever have a question or stuck on something he is always there....I go to him vs anyone else. God comes first and if everyone did that this world would be a whole lot brighter.

[@bornagain2121]

I also had these feeling of unforgivness and hurt for all the times I wanted my dad to be there. But I thank God for giving me peace, understanding, healing, and the strength to share with others what I was one so broken and ashamed of. Thanks again for sharing, I've never met anyone who had such a similar exsprience. Your testimony really blessed me.

[@JonathanJilliana]

Wow that's amazing, that is almost the same story😲 I'm so glad you felt understood, encouraged and also have a confirmed understanding of "God the Father" in your life🙋🏼‍♀️

[@Angel77_7]

I’m newly orphaned. My mom died three years ago, my dad three weeks ago. I’ve been reminding myself that I have a new Heavenly Father now & that I’m not or will ever be alone. Tonite came across this video. Thank you Father.

[@JonathanJilliana]

My heart mourns with you, I'm so sorry for that Loss. I promise, God WILL show up as the father to the fatherless. You WILL experience supernatural forms of provision that you've not experienced before. He loves you and cares for you so much

[@Angel77_7]

@@JonathanJilliana THANK You so very much for your kindness in encouraging words. Since my earthly Father left to his eternal rest, I have not felt alone. I never imagined that would be the case. I feel & more importantly, Know by God’s word which is Truth, that He IS with me & for me now. It hasn’t been an easy road as there is family chaos before & after his passing. I will appreciate any prayers. God bless all.

[@LandonHasbrouck]

You have the strongest messages I hear. God bless you. You are blessed by God. I see a big future up the road for you and a vision for you. Amen

[@JonathanJilliana]

Thanks Landon, I see the same for you brother. Bless you!

[@simonconnelly4911]

Bless you.i myself have been fatherless but God is my father.amen.

[@donjessop8103]

The Lord used you tonight 😭 I also have been without a father figure, but the Lord in His tender mercies holds us in the palm of His hands. I pray for you and Jonathan. He alone can bind up our broken hearts. Jesus is the Prince of Peace.

[@thomaspardhe4314]

So real its feels when you talk sister,....its real amazing Love of God

[@bornagain2121]

My parents got a divorce when I was 11 almost 12 and 2 years later my father committed suicide. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@barneycserepka7234]

Beautiful thank you

[@carollittleraindrop5748]

Thank you for sharing, what a beautiful ending of your journey.

[@jodypeterson8823]

Jilliana, thank you for sharing so beautifully ♥️

[@zhlasaratsini5629]

Thank you so much my Sister GOD bless you and your family. HALLELUJAH. Thank you JESUS.

[@JonathanJilliana]

Bless you and thank you 🥰 Bless the Lord and the family He has made of us all. All the love in Christ Jesus!

[@MsButterfly1179]

I could not get through that without 😭

[@JonathanJilliana]

Me either😭

[@maria-jg9mx]

What a beautiful journey you've had in discovering the Heavenly Father!! Thank you for sharing with us🕊💖🙏 God you are love and love alone… May we rejoice always in your mercyful love. 💓♥️✝🙏🙌

[@joanavosayaco]

Thank you . To God be the Glory forever.

[@zhlasaratsini5629]

I am your sister IN CHRIST GOD bless you and your family. GOD bless all IN JESUS NAME

[@zhlasaratsini5629]

I love you my Sister in CHRIST. I love you so much thank you so much

[@jwicks7612]

May God continue to Bless You and keep you close to him always!!! You story Blessed me in such a powerful way .... I totally related to your testimony in more ways than one!!!! Thank you for sharing!!! Soon very soon WE will be in The Fathers arms for eternity!!!! Hallelujah... to The Great I Am!!!!

[@JonathanJilliana]

Amen😭❤️🙏🏻 thank you for your encouragement. Very soon and forever! 👑

[@gzusrocks6482]

Amen Sister!! JESUS is The Best Daddy EVER!!

[@xerxesrubio1396]

thank you for this =(

[@SkyShines]

#Powerful #Testify #GloryToGod

[@JonathanJilliana]

Thank you🙏🏼 God is so redeeming

[@SkyShines]

@@JonathanJilliana Amen. My dad was a Monster in my life of strife. But once hated beyond measure, God used the fire within me and flipped it in it's Ugly Head! By way of a new set of Eyes and a Change of Heart, before his end. Now? I use that and many stories of my dark wilderness too bring to Light GODS LOVE in that darkness. Your story had me in my own pool of tears. But giving praise for Gods ears. For your heart and mine opened by Divine Intervention! Amen! Glory to GOD IN OUR STORIES!

[@SkyShines]

@@JonathanJilliana I would LOVE to swap stories for GODS GLORIES! After all? We are ALL apart of GODS STORY. AMEM! 🥰🤚🙏🙌👂🕊️😉🌟🕊️🕊️🕊️🕊️🙏🙏🙏🙌🙌🙌

[@meysaelee2736]

God's blessed you and with You Praise God ❤🙏🎶🎼🎵🎶

[@colinwee9981]

How can u believe god is even real,a so called loving n merciful father would allow people to commit suicide without helping to stop it..what kind of father would allow this?

[@JonathanJilliana]

Free will

[@digitalsumanraj9891]

Amen 🙏

[@lonia.5283]

💝💝💝