My Depression Story: Where I've Been & What I'm Feeling

I can't believe I'm uploading this.
Um. So. These are some things I just felt I needed to say.
It's okay not to be okay. I want you to know that. That you're not alone in all of this. Those feelings that you're feeling are valid, you are not wrong in your emotions. But you need to know that this is not a way of life, everyday should not be a bad one and every morning should not be a struggle. If you're feeling unexplainable sadness or having thoughts of harming yourself or others, TALK TO SOMEBODY. I cannot stress that enough. Cutting yourself will not fix your problems. Purging your dinner will not make today better. Those toxic coping mechanisms are causing bigger problems in themselves. I promise you that they will not make any of this go away. Reach out to your parents, friends, people you trust, scream on the top of rooftops until they hear you and listen that you NEED HELP. There is nothing weak or shameful about admitting that you can't do this on your own.
I love you.
I care about you.
You matter to ME.
If you ever hurt yourself it would hurt me.
My love is unconditional & I'm not going anywhere.
We're going to get through this together.
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Little things that have been making me feel better:
SLEEP- this is SO underrated, just by getting 8+ hours of sleep a day I feel like my mind is working so much sharper and more rational
Massages- Expensive, yes. Worth it? YES! They ease tension and have been proven to lighten the symptoms of depression. ( I'm told that acupuncture works wonders, but I'm a little freaked out by that one, but let me know if you recommend it!)
Talking- This sounds stupid I know. But just talking to someone about what you're feeling. A therapist, your parents, your friends, ANYONE- this time around I'm so glad I told my friends and family what I was feeling because now we can talk about it with no shame or embarrassment on my end.
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[@laura.mcfarlane]

“It feels like your drowning but you can see everyone around you breathing perfectly”

[@stephanieeads8005]

Laura xM and it seems so easy for them...why cant it ever be easy for me?

[@ripcap7028]

you’re like in middle school. live. im pretty sure you have it better than me, alot of people for a matter of fact.

[@brennaallen1969]

RiP Cap that’s not fair at all to say. No matter what age you are, no matter what grade you are in. Shit happens to everyone. You have no idea what’s going on.

[@torin6258]

RiP Cap Who asked? 100% agree that is unfair to say.

[@DonnelleGriffin]

@@brennaallen1969 I totally agree with this. I also am suffering from clinical depression right now and I am 43 y.o. 😭😭 I am working on a better me but it's a tough journey.

[@Toy_Rumbles]

The worst part is not knowing who to tell

[@raiinlife7159]

who can we tell. Everyone has their own perception and no one really comes forward to wipe anyone's tears.

[@wschraml18]

a trusted friend, a counselor and reach out to support groups. There are several on Facebook, but if you get into one that is constantly negative and doesn't educate and support … I would leave as it will only bring you down. I invite you to my page In the Eye of the Storm. I deal with depression, anxiety and agoraphobia..... I am also a psych nurse by trade so I try to add in questions for people to ponder and give educational things to help people. You are not alone and do not have to hold it in.

[@AV-bp3bc]

This is what exactly I was thinking

[@chillingpineapple9580]

George Vasquez I messaged one of my good friends and she just said “sad 😂 “ and that broke me, she didn’t take it seriously

[@laurenmyers2261]

The only person i could really tell anything to is gone now. He isnt at my school anymore, and i cannot text him. Everything has been a lot worse than when i was talking to him.

[@nikaselakovic815]

I started crying because that is exactly how I feel and when I tell my friends and family I have depression they laughed because they thought I was making it up and that I was just being a teenager.

[@ChloeLukasiakFan260]

*hugs you*

[@annaegb7655]

Same 😐 nobody believes me.

[@spookysoup9]

same except I haven't told anyone because I have no one to turn to..

[@hasnasegaff5742]

yeah same with me. start crying watching the video. and still the same, my friends laugh at me when I was trying to tell them that I depressed. they said I need to be grateful. it's not easy for me to live with depression in the country which treat physical and mental problem very different.

[@kiaramoser]

thats how its with me too 😔

[@axleroast2674]

Depression isn’t ‘just’ being sad, it’s like reliving a bad dream with no positive progression. Nothing makes you happy anymore and the thoughts just sit there with you like a cloud

[@ishapatel2302]

Dear readers, All the people who are going through depression, anxiety, anything just know that you are strong. Stronger than anyone I've ever talked to. You know why? Because when life gets hard you don't give up. You keep going, and for that you are the strongest people to me. You guys deserve a great life filled with happiness and love. I hope you know you're not alone. There will always be someone to lift you up no matter what you think. This is not just a meaningless message if that's what some of you think. It's the opposite. I'm sitting here in my room at 4:19 am for a reason. That reason is for all of you to know you're loved and that I believe in you. So if you actually read through all this and you're dealing with something just know that I'm proud of you for staying strong and never giving up. xx Sincerely, Me P.s. Feel free to hate on me haters because you think I'm stupid or dumb. I honestly don't give a crap. You're irrelevant in my life.

[@alysongoemaat2274]

I know that you are going to make a lot of people smile. I love being positive because I want to make the world a positive place to live in but there are really rough moments in everyone's life and I am going through one right now. I know I will make it through cause I have friends that cheer me up everyday and family that I can talk to. I am really inspired by your message and I totally agreed with you. People have probobly gone through worse but they go through it. If u keep your head up and have support even if it's from somebody you don't know then I know you can make it through. Glad that you are trying to make the world a positive place. Great message

[@reghanpalmer656]

Thank you for saying that.🙂

[@Broskiiiiiiiiiiii]

Thank you I really needed that :)

[@fiod8235]

Thank you. I am not well at the moment, but its the first time there is someone i love, who loves me back and i can actually believe it, even though its hard to not see this as an additional vulnerable spot. You reminded me, that I am and should be grateful for what i have now. I have trouble expressing myself even wwriting youtube comments, but i really wanted to tell you that your words touched me (*deletes half the comment because its full of stupid unnecessary apologies etc*) greetings from germany to everyone :)

[@nycsveryownspiderman1686]

you don't know me.you don't care about me.stop using an illness to get attention. it's people like you who make me feel even worse. screw you.

[@AwesomenessTV]

Meg, you are one of the nicest, kindest, and best people we know. You are 100% not alone. This takes a lot of courage and we respect you 10x more for having the courage to upload this. You always have a family at ATV and we love the heck out of you. We're here to support you with anything you need!

[@katielouisearter]

I love you!

[@andrearomero8886]

i love you Meg! Your the best! YOUR in inspirational person to everyone!

[@anandayates8371]

Thanks that helped me out a lot☺ your such a inspirational

[@ShannonLeighMusic]

Wow the support I am seeing from everybody is so amazing!!! 💗☺️ It makes me feel good to see everybody pitching in to help Meghan!

[@Kai-mc5qr]

Poor poor girl... WE ALL LOVE YOU, WE HOPE THAT YOU UNDERSTAND!!!! :)

[@lovelybugs1]

This video made me cry so much because its exactly what im going through now, my life isnt great at that moment but it could be worse yet i wake up and cry all the time! I always think about the negative, even though i dont want to its like a switch is going off in my mind and i cant control it! It might just be a bad week but ive never felt like this before:/

[@industrionic]

Hey you should look up Audreys guide to happiness by Benoliath, only a few paragraphs leaked out a few months ago on FB but no one cared or noticed I guess, I read them and I have completely forgotten about my Depression. here it is; facebook.com/audreysguidetohappiness

[@MXRiderFiftyTwo]

since you know what youve got,the only way to get better is to educate your self.Keep a diary of how you feel and what meds your on...and how the meds make you feel,and if and why you have to change.when i was 30yrs i had a really bad depression (2006)...i had to leave my job and go off work.Im now doing really well and i love life.i hope all changes for you. I hOpe this helps.

[@Rita226]

Same here ,just had a day / night last thursday where I could not stop crying ,it was horrible !

[@ladyred7378]

Paddyhere_5 it made me cry to because its the same thing with me and ive done whats she said you have to get rid of unhealthy relationships. but for me its hasnt gotten better in over 3 years i dont have friends because they whernt healthy and it still hasnt changed i work and sleep thats it! its so hard i cry all the time over nothing im just sad and tired.

[@Being.Living...]

AND TRUST ME, THE PEOPLE SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION, ARE BATTLING EACH DAY IN THEIR LIFE...

[@samjhanamishra8038]

💯

[@lasafrog]

I'm 41 and barely hanging on right now. Thank you. You made it easier today.

[@rickymontella6283]

I don't know u but I'm glad this video helped u

[@reneerobb7145]

Hope today is nicer to you! There are always people around that care even when it feels like you have nobody

[@rickymontella6283]

+Renee Robb 😉😉😉

[@kenzierowland4318]

I know I'm a month late, but keep hanging on. I promise things do get better and you're not alone

[@racheltalks9256]

Mark Drennan good for u

[@CantFindAUsername01]

This is so beautiful! and it made me feel much better. You really aren't attention seeking- i'm very pleased someone is so honest and helpful!

[@pxisenedpikachu3481]

💖-Farhan

[@CantFindAUsername01]

+Pxisened pikachu 😀😀😉

[@noralou1se250]

me too..ive been depressed for so long and its really nice to finally know that im not alone

[@oyasumi7492]

+Noralou1se where's your doctors note if you're depressed then ? I want to see it.

[@perryz.3062]

+Dad Please no one needs a doctor's note to prove that they have depression.In fact many people with depression don't even go to doctors.I urge you to be more sensitive with your words.

[@girlenchanted]

I can't believe the amount of hate comments I've seen on this video; bottom line is unless you yourself have been through depression, you can't understand how it feels like. Judge after you've walked a mile in their shoes. And no - I've never been depressed myself. But imagine uploading a video like this (that takes A LOT of courage to upload because they're scared of how it will be received) and seeing how many people post comments against you. It sucks. And especially in this situation; it does not help. There is a difference between hate and constructive criticism.

[@industrionic]

Hey you should look up Audreys guide to happiness by Benoliath, only a few paragraphs leaked out a few months ago on FB but no one cared or noticed I guess, I read them and I have completely forgotten about my Depression. here it is; facebook.com/audreysguidetohappiness

[@girlenchanted]

***** I'm so sorry you feel this way about yourself. But how does negativity help anyone? You are talking about a HUMAN here. A human being, just like yourself, with feelings. This girl is a daughter, sister and friend. If this was someone you cared about and knew, would you really be willing to say the things you told me just now to their face? Secondly, like I mentioned earlier, okay - physically she maybe hasn't been through as much hardship as you. But mentally? Maybe she felt like committing suicide. Maybe she felt like she wasn't worth it in this world. A precious human life could have been lost. How could you not say that's not a cause for concern? I hate it when people believe that somehow they are "better" than anyone because they have it worse. EVERYONE is different. Someone is worse off than you; does that give them the right to demean how you are feeling? NO. Everyone's feelings matter. No one is "better" or "worse". You're calling me a bitch? What did I do, exactly, that constitutes such a harsh response? Imagine I was depressed (I'm not) and I read this comment. Imagine I committed suicide. How would you feel? Proud that you said something so hurtful to someone? Maybe you'll say that they shouldn't have taken it to heart. But saying something so hurtful (which I'm not taking personally, but plenty of others may feel worthless reading your comment) has consequences. I am not a screen. I am a human. I am a person. Everyone is. I hope you feel better about yourself, and more positive. I'm sure you have plenty of amazing qualities you should be proud of. People love you. But please don't spread such negativity especially on such a sensitive topic. :)

[@mzjackofalltrades21]

GirlEnchanted I love you times infinity for this comment. Thanks for being compassionate, even towards the negative comment/commenter. God bless

[@puntinprincess7343]

GirlEnchanted honey, this video isn't your video is it? Not sure why you assume you are the one people are responding to when you have nothing to do with this video. Ebonics4everyone was obviously responding to the woman who is speaking in this video!!!!!!

[@robinrosa7040]

***** look just becuase u r in a depression as well dose not mean u need to be mean to someone eles u do not know is she feels the same way u guys r going through depression and u know how jt feels like and I am pretty sure if ur saying all of this stuff about ur self then u have been bulied ur self u need to stick with her becuase u guys r going throught the same this pointing stuff about ur self is nor healthy I am verey sorry u fell like this becuase I feel the same way but I stick with her beacause if we were to be friends she would understand insed of leaving hate leave a nice commet u know where she is comming from she is nlt deamanding respect but she is a human after all

[@trinitydunning8257]

Some how four years later this video pops into my recommended just when I needed it. I needed to hear someone who truly gets it.

[@poppiesstudios]

You have a lot of people supporting you and loving you, don't forget that.

[@JustinWilliams367]

Well said, March.

[@samantharose4461]

That is so sweet of you to say Hunter!

[@Huniuniverse]

Peach hunter preach 🙌 ( we are all there for you... dont feel so alone.😃 talk to us 😘👍👫👬👭

[@najlaalhusaini2605]

True we will all be by your side and helping you and supporting you trust me you will feel better XOXO LOVE YOU AND GOOD LUCK

[@may-yv1re]

Hunter you're amazing! Keep supporting her as a friend she needs all of the help she could get to feel safe ❤️

[@SurviveTheHorror1]

Your video made me cry. I feel like I am dying inside. I wake up everyday boxed in my room thinking I am the worst person to ever exist. I must figure out what is wrong because I can not move forward with my life!

[@laura-marie4887]

Stay strong, hny, you can get through this. It's hard, but possible xx

[@mikadayrit5099]

Victoria Powers I feel exactly the same for Years. you are not alone. I hope you'd feel better.

[@mackenzieverrall722]

Victoria Powers me too

[@ymeashluv3008]

Victoria Powers me too.. but i tried and tried to overcome this feelings .. dont give up.. we can make it

[@micgarn3331]

Victoria Powers I don't know who you are but you've helped me .

[@gracehaymond]

This was so hard to watch because you do not deserve this at all. Im so sorry for what youre going through. But at the end where you explained why and the passion you put into this video to tell as that we arent alone made such a big impact for me. I honestly dont know how to word this properly but the fact that you are being real with us and not putting on a fake "im happy everythings always perfect" face, made me gain so much more respect for you. Stay strong. We love you so much and i promise everything will be alright❤️

[@hayley2983]

Same here xx

[@poppypowers9893]

"I don't even care." That's where the emotion is. That's where not only her voice, but her face tells the truth.

[@xxmakeupiscoolxx]

I love you Meghan. I want you to know, you're not alone. I've been through this too, actually a bunch of us have. But you are a warrior, and this is a part of your journey, and you are a princess, and you will make it through this stronger than ever. Don't ever let your tiara fall baby. ☺️💕

[@maciemilee1965]

You are truly wonderful and we love you

[@33jazzygirl]

[@neondiys64]

I love you both so much omg 😭❤️ stay strong Meghan we love you

[@helloitstabi9549]

Love you Katherine Xx💕

[@Johnnywithay]

You know what the hardest part of being depressed. Getting told your feelings aren't valid and being ignored or seen differently like your some kind of ticking time bomb. Having to hide your emotions so people don't find out how you feel.

[@vazanere]

Hardest part about being depressed is watching videos where people are only sad for a short about of time while you've been diagnosed and suffering since you were a child. If this is real depression then I must have went through absolute torture. But since there's no word for it yet, then I don't get any sympathy and nobody cares.

[@lightersmiley]

+Obey Oe I hate these kind of bullshit videos. "oh, I was depressed for a few weeks in college" haha try feeling those same feelings every day of your life since before you were even a teenager.

[@Johnnywithay]

+Obey Oe the comment above goes for you too

[@vazanere]

Jackson Kettewell If you're trying to overplay being sad for a couple of weeks as serious "depression" and saying things that wouldn't help a single person with actual depression, then you're on KZbin trying to milk your viewers and "haters" for money. All she wants is money and she's getting it by doing shit like this. Welcome to reality.

[@28andlivingagain53]

It's true. I've been told how to feel since I was a child because no one wanted to take the time to hear what I had to say, because that it would be about them. Or they didn't want to own up to the part that they've played in my depression. (But this is not to point fingers or blame anyone) this is to say sometimes we cant depend on anyone to give us validation for the way we feel. We have to just take it a day at a time and pray that we find positive ways to find happiness. Be blessed!!!

[@IIBRIDGETII]

I cried during this because I'm really depressed and am struggling with eating disorders, but no one believes me because they say I can't be depressed because "I'm too young"

[@qpids.bow.]

It doesn't matter how old you are, if you're old enough to type you're old enough to be depressed. Even toddlers can be depressed! If you think you need help, please try to get it. It may be uncomfortable, but if no one else listens you can talk to your school guidance counselor. I'm young and very depressed. I'm going to confess to my mom soon, but i'm really scared. You basically described my worst fear about telling her. Regardless, something has to change because I feel like a dead battery, and it messes up everything. I hope you get the help you need, and I hope everything clears up. Good luck.

[@emilycrews3562]

My mom tells me this and she says I have nothing to be depressed about yet I think that too. I wish it would just stop 😔

[@critterlex3872]

+ღ☮Dıχıeđøøıšαωešøмe☮ღ Man young people have eating disorders and depression! Often it comes from not feeling like you have enough control over your life. What do you like to do? What did you want to be when you grew up when you were five? What is your favourite colour? When was the last time a friend gave you a hug?

[@critterlex3872]

+Emily Crews Your mom has no right to tell you how you feel. This world is getting colder and more violent by the day and so many people are depressed because they feel hopeless and they are bullied, not getting enough nutrients to nourish their brain (the soils have been depleted, etc). I know that for depression a ketogenic diet helps many people, but I would start with an omega 3 rich diet and limit carbs and especially sugar. Consider taking a magnesium supplement and also take vitamin D supplements of 5,000 IU a day if you don't get enough sun. If you live in a sunny area, please expose as much skin as you can to sunlight for 20-30 minutes a day to help your body create enough vitamin D. Be well! Things do get better and your feelings are valid. I made this page to cheer people up: facebook.com/Sunshiny-Day-1607086326244104/timeline/

[@critterlex3872]

+omer bereket Many people feel it, we live in a scary world. If you need a friend, I am here. Please consider taking a break from scary news on TV and in the newspapers and focus on kindness, like helping animals or others.

[@greentea8879]

I’ve been waiting for the brighter day of my life for almost 20 years. I’m happy for u to find the way out of those darknesses

[@nadsoos2212]

telling someone doesnt even help and now i feel worse than ever. its like either they dont get it or they dont want to care about the situation.

[@MissMMunther]

I've had the same problem to be honest. I've gone to many different counselors through the years and it actually made me feel worse after every session (mostly in the beginning) because I let myself feel all the bad feelings when I told them why I felt depressed. But I kept doing it for 3 years and sometimes were better than others och through my last year I found better counselors to talk to and they actually helpt me more then I expected. Depending on who you talk to it can feel like the person don't care or understand, I know that feeling. Some people don't understand (or want to), and some just don't know how to react. But the more you talk about it the less you will feel bad about it i'm sure of.

[@nadsoos2212]

Maria Munther​ thank you so much.

[@nadsoos2212]

*****​ hows that wprkin for you dude? Not so well for me :/

[@nadsoos2212]

victoria LoCicero i know that, but i also happen to be sort of.. unable, when it comes to talking about feelings and personal stuff like this. Especially since none of my family understands and ive been bottling everything up for the past years and dont know where to start and then their reaction to it i worry about too

[@countrystarkid]

PROcrastinator you sound a lot like me. Just start slow. Maybe reveal something small. I kept things bottled up for years and then at the drop of a hat I would explode. It has ruined some relationships in my life. It is hard and scary to unbottle everything so just do the smaller things first and take it slow. It'll take time for it to all come out but when you get there it is the place where you can start again. I had to get therapy to help me unbottle everything and to tell my family. It was difficult and emotional for everyone but it was worth it.

[@LilianTahmasian]

aw this made me tear up, but remember how strong you are and how much you inspire others!

[@mariefielden]

This is why I love KZbin over the tv.. You see the truth.. You see how genuine youtubers are ... You see real life and not people acting.. Thank you Meghan for that.. We all love you!

[@herhairhisglory]

yes!

[@blairgomez5414]

So true!

[@zyciewusatvbygosia8880]

yes exacly i not watch tv so much anymore as there all is fake and here is real life and i prefer truth then a lie, I not sure if i am depressed but i feel sad many times without reason, or feel anxies too, lately am sad cause my bf dumped me and that make me so sad, and depressed

[@mnddy1883]

exactly i stopped watching tv all the time all i watch are youtube videos. youtube videos came to me when i was at a low point and it helped me.

[@lexischlientz2099]

I’ve felt this, and it’s awful I can’t even explain it, literally doesn’t make sense or I didn’t even know where it was coming from. My whole body just felt weighted and down, and I woke up crying hysterically all the time for no reason. If you’re feeling like this you’re not alone and you will get through it I promise, it’s gonna be hard and upsetting, but just remember you’re gonna get through it because you’re strong and it’s just your mind playing tricks on you.

[@pitaa-breaddd]

thx u,i am going through the same time

[@mikaelaxoxoxo]

Being depressed is never a competition. Whether its been years or days it's a chemical imbalance in the brain and everyone deserves to feel happy. Thank you so much for making this Meghan this is inspirational.

[@hitnmiff]

Very sensible approach. Wish more people had this opinion!

[@jillgriggs3064]

I'm not going to sit here and lie to you by saying that I understand what you're going through because I don't. I haven't ever been depressed that deeply and I've never felt a strong urge to harm myself. But Meghan what I can tell you is that watching this video honestly broke my heart. It hurts me to see you hurting and I hope that somehow you can get through it. I know this video was hard for you to put up, but if you are feeling well enough in the future, I would love to hear an update on how you're doing. I'll be praying for you babe. Please don't do anything that you'll regret because every single one of your subscribers loves you and would be so so so upset if anything ever happened to you. ❤️

[@laurengrimm5648]

took the words right out of my mouth, thanks for this.

[@lit721]

My depression was kinda different. I felt sad for no reason. Every morning I was like how am I going to get through this day? I felt tired, I felt like my friends didn't care, even though they did. My life was great. I won states for swimming in my age group, tons of friends, good grades, but I felt like someone had a hold on my life and they wouldn't let me be happy. I am so happy, because now I am happy, I got depression the same time you posted this video and I am happy now.

[@quinnewing4588]

kazuo maeda but how did you get happy

[@mariamansour8445]

How are you happy now?

[@elliewolfbauer9353]

Hormones :( the same thing happened to me.

[@lelMusubi]

kazuo maeda you're too hot for loserish depression

[@PickleMaster1423]

+Subi How dare you. How DARE you. Get off youtube. Don't EVER say that about depression. You have no idea how awful it feels to not be able to get up in the morning. To physically and mentally not be able to function. You have no idea. So shut your mouth and go do something better with your life. NOW.

[@mahtazdin]

People usually don't get it. They just say go work out. Or something.

[@iamvintage13]

True

[@immnotaboutthatlife2086]

It does help but just for that moment. When it’s over, the thoughts and emotions come back.

[@cheriselovesmakeup96]

Megan I can't explain to you how emotional I got watching this video. It made me feel like I'm not alone. I was diagnosed with IBS 2 years ago and ever since then iv been depressed, some days I'm happy some days I'm sad and I don't know why. Having IBS has made my life fucking hell, it has given me so much anxiety over the years I stopped talking to my really close friends and I stopped doing stuff I loved except makeup and that's how I discovered your videos, and I remember when I met you in sf for your birthday, that day I woke up so happy, and I'll never forget it so thank you for that. I have explained to my friends my situation and they don't really take it as serious as I do. Iv been homeschooled since me junior year of high school and I'm now a senior.. My first 2 years of high school were hell, my grades were horrible and I wasn't happy.. Now I have good grades and really good things are gonna be happening next year but I'm still sad and wake up sad some days ... I feel so alone none of my friends get it, not even my best friend but you do, and I feel more connected to you now. I am talking to a phycologist and it's helping a little bit.. Thank you for making this video it makes me feel not so alone .. Love youuu

[@Mindlessgurly321]

Hey girl. I got teary reading your story. I hope after watching Meghan's video, you realized that you aren't alone! And in reality, as alone as you feel, you really aren't ever alone. I can't say I know exactly what you're going through but I can say that I know what depression is like. I too had it for a decent half year and it was the shittiest time of my life. Looking back on it, I feel like I became stronger because of it. I know that's so cliche to say but it's honestly the truth. I hope so bad for you that you can try to see the bright side of things; of life. It has it's ups and downs but it's how you trudge through it that's important. Stay strong baby!! Stay STRONG. The sun is always behind those dark thunder clouds, you'll eventually see it again. Xo

[@live2cheer93]

IBS = Irritable bowl syndrome? If that's the case, I can totally relate! I have IBD.

[@cheriselovesmakeup96]

yes it is ..

[@live2cheer93]

Like I said before, I can definitely relate. I have IBD (Crohn's disease to be specific) and I had my time dealing with depression. I was diagnosed as a child and I had to go on harsh medication to deal with my flare. My medication made me bloat horribly (prednisone) and I became severely depressed. I was teased really badly and became REALLY insecure. Plus, a lot of people couldn't relate to a chronic illness at such a young age. Anywho, I got out of my depression and live a totally normal life! I have my days, but it always gets better. I'm now in my senior year of college and am super healthy. I say all of this to say, it gets better. Makeup is one of my escapes too and watching videos like Megan's really helps. Take care :)

[@cheriselovesmakeup96]

you take care as well

[@ladygabrielle36]

I remember when I felt like that, except I felt really alone. Depression, panic attacks, random assed nervos breakdowns even in class, including on my BIRTHDAY! It was so terrible, gosh I'm breaking down again, anyway I'm kind of glad to see someone speaking out about it, to show that it's not fake, that it's real. What I've learned from the past to years going through depression is that although you feel like crap, just keep on chucking. Nowadays, it comes back slightly, but since I believe in God, I'm able to get though the day. I know for a fact that if I didn't, I would not be typing this, so Thank God. Have strength Meghan!

[@ladygabrielle36]

*pass 2 years

[@tatianat7110]

my best friend is the only one who knows i have depression but she kinda ignores it and changes the conversation to a happy one about her life, which makes me even more sad.. she keeps telling that she knows how it feels and that she's been there but i seriously don't see it. because of her i never want to talk about it to anyone, because nobody actually cares.

[@safaltashrestha]

people these days are just trying to be happy and the rush is so much that they'd do anything to keep themselves busy, trying to get everything they want and not caring or stopping by for people like you and I. stay strong

[@sierrawilson7363]

people will care, you just have to find the right person. talk to your parents or guidance councelor if your still in school. they will either help yoi or help you find someone that can. all you have to do is say something. there will always be someone there fir you and if not, at least someone on the internet will be able to connect with you and help uou through it.

[@gabyb9571]

ik feel the same way and its the same situation with me, and i end up feeling even more alone.

[@emsw4266]

hey,I KNOWN!!! everybody keep telling that ''have to find someone to Confession your satiation‘’ so yup~I follow this~did told this to my friends(Family part already did..sadly doesn't work..my mom she'll never trust me,she take this like ''so what ?what about other peoples?you just too boring,this's just drama going on ~" also I found out that..to me why i don't like to talk about this ,cuz afraid people just simply take this as ''ooh you just wanna get attention want everyone notice that your so poor so sad~'' but they really don't understand that it's not that simp..rather be a drama queen only because I feel happy..but no the true is that if you're depression you can't barely to feel other emotion..ever thing just grey..the world see through by our eyes there're color in of course...but covering by grey..just so dark... it actually is my whole world...even I fight with Depression for years...still so hard nearly impossible to get rid off it. and my friends they're actually just like yours ...so i get it..((be brave .)) but they're still few people ,not like they always asking how I feel or how's going.. ever time always me to reach them.but!the different is that, when I sharing the emotion I had right now..they listen and they give you some of there opinion or there life experiences,maybe not all can fit in our situation..but you know what ?this people they're simply just like us has something need to go through maybe some of them also suffering from depression... in this point do share the experience to the person. I found that it's a way to passthrough from the difficult moments came... and alos in the same time do please keep trying to find the right person.if you have found one of them are like ''please do contact me again before make up your mind decision you 're going to do this'' do believe they're one of those people who has gold heart ,please do cherish the person if you met,and feel welcome to share your emotion to the person as well. I always have the thought ..if I do end up myself ,I really almost sure that ..no one care.... but before that I want to keep trying ..won't given easily ... and at the same time,I realize that I don't want to over depend on my friends ...or the people who's close to me. cuz that,yes they do offer help,care.but I know that till the end it's all about ourselves.they might can Provide shelter or wake me up from the bed trying to provide cares ...but the rest of have to complete it by yourself. I don't want to drag this people with me in my life which is unfair even though they're your family still don't have right to take somebody's life just like that. they support you.which is great ,take a breath ,relax~then you have to move on . alos do use some internet net work,sometime it does help. and if you feel simply shit or want to cry out it's okay~ keep trying,and stay strong be brave,don't forget get some rest don't over push yourself :))))))))

[@Lolmonster777]

Ik this doesnt make it any better, but i understand where both of you are probably coming from. You probably feel like you need someone to talk to who will understand and who you can trust, so you confide in her even though it is really hard just to know how to begin. And you want some sort of support or something, anything. And she probably wants to help, but doesnt know how to address. Maybe she brings up happy stuff so you dont feel so sad. She is trying to cheer you up but its working in opposite ways. I know its hard to talk about it, but communication would make everything more clean. At least thats what happened with me and my friend

[@noamiwolf4782]

This is the realist video I've seen on KZbin. My parents are angry at me and say things like, "You're always miserable. You have an amazing life so you don't have a right to be upset." I don't know if I have depression. But I can't tell my friends because I'm worried that they'll say I'm just an attention whore. But why me? My parents are no help.

[@noelashaona2025]

Noami Wolf me too they think I'm disrespectful but is just that my brain make me live in a completely different world.

[@TheMicaww]

My family tells me that it will get better by ignoring it. Last time I checked ignoring problems nearly got my parents in a divorce. So much for caring. I can't speak a word about this issue of mine, yet I'm dying on the inside. Everyday, I'm just fading away. What was it all for? Why did I have to be so gifted and so cursed at the same time? Why? No damn reason. I've come to realize that my depression was inevitable from the beginning. I just can't stop regretting my life, both for my own flaws and for circumstances outside of my own control. No wonder why I don't have a honest connection with anyone. They would leave or belittle me. I can't cease these thoughts. I hope that life gets better for you guys, but I struggle to see it for myself anymore.

[@jennierollins412]

Noami Wolf I feel the same way

[@luzochoa4334]

i hope you are feeling better!

[@carolwhite7177]

That’s the same as me xx

[@carlarare]

Thank you so much for uploading this video, I mean it from the bottom of my heart. Two months ago one of my best friends was diagnosed with schizophrenia and paranoia and she has been in the hospital since then. I've had anxiety for the past three years and now that my friend is feeling this way, I feel like I'm drowning. I'll be honest here, watching this made me cry, but it also made me realize I can't live my life like this anymore, and I need to solve my own problems in order to help my friend. Thank you Meghan, you did help someone, and for that I'm truly grateful. This world is a better place because of you

[@brunafalaschi]

Stay strong

[@MsDingdong7]

sending my love xx

[@martadelavega6171]

Se fuerte cielo, no debe ser facil eso que dices.. pero conseguiras superarlo con el tiempo 💞

[@vistaazul6516]

***** Hello Maria! :) Don't worry about those little devils because they are just...LITTLE devils :) Love yourself and I hope You will live happy life too, no matter the circumstances.

[@maddieslifestyle]

Meghan! You are an inspiration and the fact that your parents are so supportive and actually took you to the doctor and saw something was wrong is just admirable. I know there are a lot of young women and girls, me included.. who think they might have issues like anxiety, paranoia or depression.. but when they mention it to people/their parents, they get laughed at or people just brush it off as 'you're just stressed with University' or 'don't be so silly, what have you got to be depressed about' - this has really opened my eyes and I'm sure it will help so many others. Thank you! I needed this :) xx

[@Delphinexoxo101]

Meghan, I know we don't know each other, but I feel like in a way we do. I was ripped away from florida 6 years ago to move about an hour north from where your parents live, because my mom had met a man. Keep in mind that in one day I found out that my parents were divorcing, my mom had cheated on my dad, and that we were moving to california 6 months later. Last month I found out that my mom and step dad were seperating, and it broke my heart. I already don't see my dad, and now my father figure won't be around either. I totally understand how you're feeling. I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, which means every day I get panic attacks for NO reason. That trauma that you experienced your sophomore year will always be in your mind. No matter how good you're doing now, at times those horrible memories will come up and make you feel as though life is a struggle. You have inspired me to make a video touching base on this as well. I look up to you as you are not only someone my age, but because I admire your willingness to reach out to us and have a voice. I appreciate watching youtubers like you who are always themselves, and I try to put that in my videos as well. Stay strong, we are here for you. I wish we could talk face to face because I feel as though we would talk for hours. We're all here for you

[@Sarahashley113]

I'm so terribly sorry for everything you've gone through/are going through. I hope that things get better real soon and you experience so much happiness (:

[@Delphinexoxo101]

That is so sweet of you to say thank you SO much! I didn't post this for sympathy at all, I just want meghan to know that even things in the past can come out and haunt you. We all juust need to be there for each other !

[@DaviannaShyanne]

this is so sweet , I hope that everything is okay , you seem like an amazing person . I hope meg is better . I pray for the both of you . 🙏 put it in gods hands . he'll take care of you .

[@izzyzagara5707]

re-watched this 6 years later today, you helped me then and shit did your words help me now. i love you oodles and oodles Meg. thank you for everything you do.

[@AmyHislopxo]

Meghan, this was so brave of you to upload this! You are amazing & beautiful

[@AmyHislopxo]

We love you Meghan

[@markcostello7099]

This video hit close to home for me because I've been battling major depression for 5 years and like you said, most days it's hard to get out of bed. I started crying because I understand the pain, that indescribable amount of pain that you can't even attribute to anything. Thank you so much Meghan, for sharing your story. I admire you so much in every way and this only makes me have infinitely more respect and love for you. Thank you for speaking up about something that so many people are made to feel ashamed of, for breaking the stigma, for helping me, and others feel less alone. I know it's hard to talk about but just know that we are all here for you and i know we will get through this together.

[@markcostello7099]

And your courage and bravery in spite of the circumstances inspire me to continue to fight my depression.

[@cozykitsune]

You are SO brave for making this video and I honestly wish I had your courage. I've thought about sharing my depression/anxiety story but I just cant bring myself to do it. kudos and soooo much love to you for this video.

[@maaniabderrahman7283]

simply_kenna Not certain about the points made but ,if anyone else is searching for natural depression remedy try Craffanty Depression Stopper Center (Have a quick look on google cant remember the place now ) ? Ive heard some unbelievable things about it and my mate got great success with it.

[@TomStockdale]

i love your honesty

[@arianhoque551]

big fan!

[@evelientx]

this made me tear up. i wish i could give you a big hug. know that we'll always be here. and if you need a longer break, take it. i love you. we all do

[@lilliblack3993]

I cried as well, i really love meghan and I know that she will get over this hurdle! Xxxx

[@charlenedecrease6722]

I know you receive probably a thousand comments a day on your videos, but I want you to know how much you touched me today. I was also diagnosed with severe clinical depression, but my Dad told me it was entirely in my head and to get over it. I tried the mind over matter approach and things got a little better. Then I lived with girls who bullied me too. Deciding to get out of that situation was the best decision I've made. My dad still sees it as all in my head though. I'm happier now that I'm out of the situation, but I have to see them often. I have my bad days and I have my good. I cannot tell you how much I appreciate you speaking out about your issues. You truly touched my heart today.

[@bangdone3616]

***** you're worth it!!!

[@zierrahocon5746]

www.jw.org

[@kyla182]

Zierrah O'Con I'm a Jehovah's witness

[@zierrahocon5746]

Kyla Young Awesome :)

[@camilaromerof]

I've been in your place. I was born without an arm, it hit me so hard so many times. But after a while I realised it was ok that I felt that way (and still do) sometimes. No one can be happy all the time. But I've learned to stand up again, and I'm so proud of you and uploading this, even tho you don't know me, I've been with you since forever. I know you probably won't read this, but you are so strong Meghan and I care as well, I understand. I hope it gets better and better. A lot of love from Ecuador

[@Halmooooo]

just a question... how did you take your prof pic if you have one arm, and you can see your hand in the photo?

[@forevertrampolining]

Halmooooo Watch her video & you can see she actually doesn't have an arm. You're beautiful btw! X

[@balejandra11]

You girls should of taken the time to click on her profile before talking shit! Take the time to educate yourself on bullying, you might be part of the problem.

[@heyitsanette7740]

Well if you would watch her videos you would know she is not lying!

[@camilaromerof]

Alexandra H Thankyou! :)

[@keepfearless]

Anyone else came to rewatch this after reading the depression chapter in Meghan's book?

[@gdog2001able]

I'm depressed right now😔 I'm constantly worrying about being being judged. Every time someone says I'm beautiful I feel like they don't mean it. I've been bullied ever since I was in kindergarten. All because I have ADHD. and so now I keep getting these thoughts like "nobody likes me" "I'm not important" "I should just die" "I wish I was dead" and I don't know how to deal with it. I can't go out without thinking that I don't belong 😭

[@tylerhill1505]

I'm so sorry I am here for you if you need me just email me @ [e-mail]

[@madisonc4299]

I feel the same way, you're not alone. The worst feeling in life is feeling unwanted and unneeded by the person who you need the most in your life😕

[@gdog2001able]

Madison Cardone Ikr😔

[@vafanapoli5396]

just don't get bullied. it's so easy

[@gdog2001able]

cakeman74 it's not that easy. People bully me for no damn reason

[@L0v32run]

You are absolutely amazing for uploading this. I freakin' love you. I'm 20 and have been through and am currently going through the same thing so it was so refreshing to watch this video.♡ Thanks Meghan, stay strong. We are here for you!

[@devinwalker4161]

Sorry to here this but have a good night stay blessed

[@crystalroebuck6886]

Megan thank you so much hun for coming out with videos like this I deal with depression, anxiety, and PTSD some days are just easier than others and then sometimes I don't feel like anyone understands

[@noemidlt09090]

"Drowning" That's is literally the only way I could ever describe my depression. I never knew how to tell my friends what was happening to me because I was the same, I had it so good awesome grades and friends and so much was so good but I was either so unhappy or just completely numb and emotionless. It hurt to do anything but whenever I told someone asking for help I got treated like I just told them I punched a baby, like there was something wrong with me. "Just get over it", "you're always laughing and smiling, how are you depressed?" I heard that so much and it hurt so much that no one believed me. I wore a mask for so long that it wasn't until my junior year of high school (it started 8th grade) that I admitted to myself what was happening to me and tried to breathe. I did so many stupid actions because of my depression that I lost all of my friends (at the time). It's now my senior year of high school and I'm about to graduate when I didn't even think I would be alive this long to walk that stage. I don't know anyone else that had depression and I'm so glad I watched your video because now I know that someone understands what I feel and not just because they googled it. I love you and thank you for sharing your story❤️

[@rachelreyes7662]

I completely understand! It's like you don't know what to do because you can't even explain why you're feeling numb or just plain sad...hope everything works out :)

[@floraljassie665]

That is the only word that I have ever agreed with about depression. It's like you're drowning and you can't get your head above water and your eyes are burning and it's hard to breathe and you're so deep under that no one can save you.

[@biancafangirl1589]

Honestly I'm not even depressed ... My parents just make feel super self conscious and bad about myself

[@pidgepidgey7041]

Then just look towards your friends and create a support system that treat you right, my family isn't super nice to me either but I can tell you friends can make a stronger family then blood. I've had some friends come and go sure but I wouldn't change a thing when they still helped me through the hardest times in my life while my family just sat back and watched. Stay positive 💜💜

[@Skirretic]

Bianca Fangirl same here 😔

[@cupcakecame8873]

Bianca Fangirl same but i feel like i'm stupid for over thinking of that.

[@ayajakisheva5402]

Crying. When you said "Talk to somebody" - I can't! I really can't ! It's so hard. I have so many trust issues because of how fucked up my family is. Though I tried to talk to one of my best friends. I finally felt like opening to someone. I told her how I feel like shit almost everyday and how I want to just stop trying. And her response was somewhere along the lines of "You don't know how it feels, just because you're having a bad day doesn't mean you're depressed. You are rich and you have everything so stop moaning about it" and it hurt. Hurt so much. Just because my parents have a bit more money than "normal" than that means I am not aloud to be sad? Or depressed? I'm not even sure if I'm depressed... This feeling just keeps coming back. It's like I'm happy when people are around (most of the time) but as soon as I'm in my house- I'm a completely different person. I have no idea why am I saying this . You don't have to understand but I just really needed to relief myself. Sorry for some spam I guess...

[@kirstiel0vesy0u]

go to 7cupsoftea.com and connect to a listener, there are people there 24/7, real people that are trained to listen to you. it really helped me when i needed it, its just a suggestion, cause i know what its like to not have someone to talk to :( or even if you do.. they dont ACTUALLY listen to you. im here also by the way... you can email me at [e-mail]:)

[@ayajakisheva5402]

Kirstie G Thank you so so so so much :( xx

[@bethelfranklin5824]

Exactly the same Except I'm not rich:(

[@heartshapedsoul]

I have trust issues, too. Telling people about it, was something I had to do, too. Just knowing you're loved and receiving support meant a lot to me. I only told my family and doctors. I wished I only told my family, cause my doctor started to link everything to my depression, even after I found a way to leave that part of my life behind and start over. (also the medication made it way worse and my doctor told me, my depression won't ever go away and will come back. Now that's some "great" news......You don't need people like that) The thing is, nobody truly knows what's going through your mind, unless they've been depressed themselves. I never understood how rich and famous people could feel depressed, now I do. I hope Kirstie's suggestion will help you out on that, when your family isn't an option. *hugs*

[@ayajakisheva5402]

You're so nice it's just... YOU'RE SO NICE. I'm really sorry about what happened to you and about your stupid doctor. I'm glad i found someone who understands me. It's just... knowing that somebody knows EVERYTHING about you is not my cup of tea... Just makes me so anxious. And about the "nobody truly knows what's going through your mind" statement is 100% true. Loads of boys in my class are always making fun of me and my other friends for being depressed and one of my guy "friends" even said "I hate depressed people because they are always negative. Like what can be that bad in life? They just need to calm down with their shit and be more positive" made me so sad and angry at the same time. Ugh...

[@jessicalynn9456]

i watch this particular video ever time i get to this state of mind. I’ve never felt more validated by my feelings and feel like i’m not alone or crazy i’ve happy that you decided to share this with us. it can get really tough talking about it and i get it. i just really appreciate you taking the time out of your day to make this a point to society. thank you much love

[@stethompson]

this is probably the most honest video i have ever seen and i almost cried. we are all here meghan and we all love you very much

[@NiaylaHairston]

This is real and I think people like this because it shows the truth in life, and how everything nots going to be full of sunshine and rainbows. The fact that you shared this showed how real you are.

[@shannonmahoney6413]

Is she and her boyfriend still dating

[@eibbedpadilla]

I'm really glad you uploaded this. You are so courageous and strong to us subscribers. I hope as the days pass, you'll feel better. Thank you for telling us what other youtubers don't say. You're the best. I love you Meghan, stay strong

[@NiaylaHairston]

Exactly.

[@tinalovedemi]

I am so thankful that you uploaded this video because 1 month ago I felt the same about the "switch about emotions". I was extremely good everything was okay and suddenly I got a lot of anxiety and depression. Till this day I still suffer a lot from depression and anxiety, I haven't gone to school in 5 weeks because I just can't get up without crying and feeling like if I go outside I will get worse. My mom doesn't really understand but tries to help me. But I feel like I am making my mom depressed too. It's really hard cause I try not to get depression and anxiety attacks so I don't harm anyone emotionally. The thing is I feel like shit. And I have never felt so bad before. But I am scared of going to a psychologist.

[@greccia3673]

I felt this exact way. I didn't go to school for a lot of my sophomore year. I was put on medication and it has helped me extremely! You should see a professional sweetheart! (: ❤️

[@disneyfan9134]

YOU’RE NOT ALONE!!!!! We’re all human and it’s perfectly okay to feel anxious sometimes. A very wise mall Santa that I met, back in 2018, once told me that “even on the cloudiest day the sun STILL shines behind those clouds meaning that no matter how dark it looks, the sun is STILL there and the joy and happiness is there for you as well”. No matter how scary or how uncomfortable things get for you, just know that everything’s going to be okay because you deserve to feel safe, loved, comforted, encouraged and for those who loved you and who really want to help u and be there for you and stay by your side either way. Whether from friends, family or anyone you trust and feel safe with. I maybe an autistic women whose probably may or may not have had a lot of panic attacks but I can honestly tell u. I’ve had anxiety attacks due to my fear of failure in school or at work and not being good enough as a person and losing my job and I’ve also struggled with anxiety and depression for quite a long time so I do understand perfectly well the feelings of worthlessness, lack of self esteem, anxiety, depression, self hatred, loneliness, feeling trapped, frustration, remorsefulness, insecurity and the feeling of wanting to get try to better yourself but always coming out as a failure. Plus having been through Covid and being forced to follow Covid safety protocols like many others, myself, has been deeply traumatizing and extremely difficult for me as well socially, mentally, physically and emotionally. The point is, your anxieties, your depression and everything mental health related DOES NOT define u for who you are, it’s what’s inside your heart and all the things we’ve accomplished in life and the kind of person u REALLY are in your heart that truly defines u for who u are. Some people are not gonna always understand what you’re going through and maybe they never will but as long as you have the people in your life who loved and cared about you or that special someone whom deeply loves u and genuinely cares about u and will do anything in the world to help u to overcome this, you’re gonna come out even stronger and more courageous than ever and before you’ll know it, you’re gonna surprise people by how far you’ve come in the end. The fact that you had the courage to make this video and open up about your inner struggles and your vulnerability REALLY MAKES U A MUCH STRONGER AND BRAVER PERSON IN MY BOOK. Give yourself a pat on the back. U did an amazing job!! 😊😊 Stay strong, have courage, be kind to yourself, take heart and NEVER EVER give up hope because you ARE beautiful and practically perfect just the way you are in every way . ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@LisaEmeraldEyes]

This is such a powerful video. I love when bigger KZbinrs are this honest and real

[@31msteresa]

*****

[@DenizeBongiovi]

It is ok not to be ok sometimes. Dear Meghan thank you so much for sharing. I have severe clinical depression for almost 20 years now (I am 45) and sometimes it comes and goes. But it is so important to know that we are not alone. And that even a person outstanding like you is human as well. Let's live one day at a time, and I am sure that things will turn out ok s2

[@industrionic]

Hey you should look up Audreys guide to happiness by Benoliath, only a few paragraphs leaked out a few months ago on FB but no one cared or noticed I guess, I read them and I have completely forgotten about my Depression. here it is; facebook.com/audreysguidetohappiness

[@DenizeBongiovi]

industrionic Thank you. I will look up =)

[@kha-linhluong3188]

feel better soon, many people love you never forget that

[@vicvickyvic]

I really cried so much. I am in the same situation. You have to keep in mind that you are not alone, you will always have friends and family, and even us, your subscribers. You are not alone in this world, remember. Remember that we all love you so much, and you don't have to pretend you feel awesome if you don't. As you said, "it's okay not to be okay".

[@vicvickyvic]

And even though I feel this way, if anyone wants help, or someone to talk to, or whatever, you can send me a dm on twitter. I will listen to you! Sometimes its better if a strange listens to you and wants to help you :)@/VFedorchuk

[@bbiedny]

From a 54 year old who has never seen your channel, Thank you, we are not Alone, I don't know you, but we are soldiers on the same battlefield.

[@Dewgirl5]

Sometimes we tell people how we feel and no one cares.

[@daricnd]

or they judge and gossip when u actually do tell them

[@gilbertgrape5705]

what a sad truth.

[@nuhaly]

or they act like they care and then they break you and complain how they think you want attention

[@SamiWamiFuscoAlamia1]

Or they don't believe us/think we're lying and say we don't know what we're talking about

[@liepakairyte767]

yesterday i told my mom and she said that i have no friends(which is not true) because nobody wants to see my sad face

[@morpheus6075]

For the first time in mankind's history we can Know the truth of life and it turned out to be better than anything we could have imagined. The truth reveals that no one is doing any better or any worse than anyone else, that it will all eventually balance out. The truth also reveals that you are not your mind or body, that your mind can be your best friend or worst enemy. It is your worst enemy until you learn the truth. You will know the truth of life and the truth will make you free. The truth is the exact opposite of what most people think, Google *_Truth Contest_* and read the top entry. This is truth you can and should check for yourself. This is truth the evidence suggests.

[@trippygiphy6127]

Reading that book really helped me stay on track.. Would recommend it definitely.

[@LunaAoii]

+Peny Willson Yeah right...there is an exception to every rule.

[@jackdulcesky5802]

+Morpheus Really interesting

[@MysterCannabis]

+Morpheus And you are the one who knows the truth beacause...?

[@raquellarios7565]

+Morpheus that was very deep.o.o

[@shannonsullivan]

I'm so proud of you for being brave and sharing your story!! I know how it feels to struggle with depression, I was in an abusive relationship in high school that broke me in so many ways and it took years to come out of it & sometimes it still tries to comes back. Thank you for being open with your viewers, it's videos like this that make a difference. :) Sending you lots of love!

[@jamesduffy7549]

one of the worst things is feeling like you have to justify feeling how you do, as a guy a major inspiration for me is a former football player called stan collymore who was one of the first famous men to talk about depression, all he got at the time(around the 1990s) was "how can you be depressed with this amazing career and blah blah blah", not going to lie this is the only video I've ever seen of yours but well done you for having the courage to put this out there, this is something I don't even feel I can talk to my friends or family about so I have so much respect for the bravery it took for you to put this out for the entire Internet to see- the most important message is that no one is alone and far more people also suffer from this than we all think, to anyone reading this there's nothing wrong about you feeling the way you do, it's called being a human being and I for one love all of you. thank you so much to the uploader for doing this video you've probably helped so many people more than you even know, you are wonderful

[@littlesleepybee]

This just made me break down and cry because I have depression, I struggle every single day. I am 25 years old and am supposed to be having the time of my life and here I am, not wanting to leave my bed, but pretending to be wonderful so I don't depress others. My depression is SO BAD right now, I feel like I'm losing my fucking mind. I feel for you, because I am living this hell too. My heart goes out to you and I will send all of the positive energy I can muster your way. Stay strong sweet heart.

[@michaelvillanueva233]

Thanks for sharing and I don't think of you as someone who wants attention. I wish I'm as strong as you. God bless you.

[@FuriousBuddha]

if she was like them. she would use crying thumbnail. but she didn't.

[@YThates]

I hate when people think that just cos they've been miserable longer or they've had worse problems that means they feel more pain. You cannot measure a person's pain in comparison with your own or anyone else's, they could have as much pain as you or any other person with worse issues for different reasons. That's the same as people telling you to suck it up or be strong about your problems when you can't. We're not the same and our strength comes from our experiences. Rather than defining pain by what it means to ourselves, it's best described as what it makes us want to do. Any painful experience that makes someone's life difficult to live is severe. Whether it's through bullying or having a leg blown off.

[@YThates]

Also, don't trust a lot of psychologists, they find diagnosis for every thing especially to prescribe drugs and make pharmacies money. Drugs that your body will become dependent on and you will lose your mind to.

[@katieatwellx]

Meghan! You have helped me through so much I got diagnosed with anxiety & depression and anything triggers it and when it comes to it I get down start crying but i don't tell anyone why I'm crying I distance myself from everyone because if I am honest I am scared. Scared what everyone will think, what they will do, and what the results will be of that. It is an awful feeling. The worst part is feeling like you are alone and feeling like you have no one to turn to and no one to talk to about it, which is exactly how I feel all the time with it. You are so strong for making the video and talking about it I defiantly think that it something that people need to talk about and needs attention bringing to. Love you Meghan & I will continue to support you throughout everything you do & every decision you make 💕💕

[@mysecretsketchbook865]

Same happened to me. Peace from England UK

[@mirelladerungs]

Hi dear person reading this comment :) I just wanted to let YOU know that you are beautiful! You deserve the best in your life! Please remember how much I love you Have a nice day :*

[@andreawursch2745]

Thank you, girl! You are beautiful too and you deserve the best too! ☺ We love you too and thank you for being so lovely and awesome! ♥ :*

[@andreawursch2745]

omg btw I've just read that you are Swiss/Brazilian and 17! That's awesome cause I'm 17 too and I'm Swiss and one of my best friend's moving to Brazil! :D haha dini videos sind übrigens top, mach witer so! :* Mirella Derungs

[@mirelladerungs]

Andrea Würsch jöses danke viel mol !! :)

[@ilanadavids8716]

THANK YOU SOO MUCH! !

[@ilanadavids8716]

+Mirella Derungs Thank you soo much! You literally just made day!!!

[@JackieWyers]

Glad to hear you speak out and hope you are doing okay :(

[@annacherryhomes477]

OMG Jackie I love you and your vids this video made me cry even though I have never been through the same things as her I still could feel the emotion

[@makeupbyynoraaa]

Hi Jackie, I love you

[@talkingtoalison]

I love your channel Jackie

[@DaNinjuh]

Meghan, thank you for making this video. Don't think you've done any bad by uploading it. I've also been struggling with depression this past year. You're right: the worst part of feeling this way is not knowing why. It's frustrating, and it feels like I will never get over it because I can't find a source or cause to get over. My life is great. I have a loving family, I have loving friends, I have a great life. So why feel this way? It doesn't make sense. Sometimes I'm happy for a period of time, I'll think everything's getting better, then I'll crash again randomly for an even longer period of time. It seems hopeless. Life seems pointless. I'm afraid of what I will do to myself, and most importantly what I will do to others because of this. I know it's best to tell people I trust, to reach out, but I just can't bring myself to do it yet. But watching this video, things don't seem as bad. Hearing from someone who's going through the same thing is comforting. HEARING that it's OKAY to feel sad even if my life is great or horrible, it's so powerful to hear it from someone else. There are people who feel the way you do! And you have reached out to all of us, made all off us, especially the ones who can't reach out to others themselves, feel not alone. You spoke the words a lot of us need to hear, because we would have never heard it from anyone else. Even our loved ones, most times, can't understand completely what we are going through. Thank you.

[@NikkiVegan]

DaNinjuh You're not alone! and it IS ok to be sad. It's not normal to be happy all the time and have every part of your life in order and functioning like a real-life pintrest board! It's tough! I get it! I'm with you. I do think you should talk to people about the way you're feeling and it's also important to try to find a way to express yourself. Find things that make you happy. Little things. And surround yourself with those things and people that lift you up instead of bring you down! That's made a big difference in my life. I hope you're feeling better! And seriously, you're not alone! I can tell from your comment that there is something very special in you xo Nicole

[@writerforlifeify]

There's an article by Anita Moorjani that I feel may uplift you; it is titled 'Four Myths That Keep You From Living Fully and Fearlessly'. It's a powerful message about the importance of loving ourselves. I follow Anita on facebook. Very inspiring lady. She's a cancer survivor, not a depression survivor but her insights deeply resonate with me. I don't believe most therapists are capable of getting to the ROOT of depression; drugs are bandaids that merely treat the symptoms of a cause that remains in the DARK (no pun intended). I know, I've been there...for 6 years. I then re-aligned with my True Self through a discovery of my heart's passion (writing fiction and lyrics). I returned to ME. If you go to facebook, type Lyndsay Robins, scroll down to the Oct 15 video 'My Depression Story', you'll hear my friend Lyndsay share her struggle with depression in about 7 minutes. She's preparing for her Oct 28 Suicide Prevention conference. Btw, those comments there from Milena....that's me!

[@johnwilkinson5910]

Thank you so much for this video. It was exactly what I needed to hear today. I really appreciate your openness and honesty. You strike me as a fine young lady. I have been battling depression since I was 18. And now I'm 54 and my struggles continue. Today was an especially bad day for me and I've had a number of bad days lately. Thank you again and good luck on your life's journey. I truly wish you all the best. John

[@laurensnyder]

wow. This video was AMAZING! meghan you are such an inspiration and you are always laughing and smiling. it hurts all of us to see you so sad and like this, I really really hope things get better for you, and that it all turns out like the life you had in the summer.

[@laurensnyder]

Stay strong, we all love you SO much meghan!

[@kelsiedoingdisney]

This is the truest and realist video ever. Thank you Meghan for saying that its okay not to be okay. It could not be more true, and being happy on KZbin all the time just isn't real, it's about time someone said it. I will be praying for you, myself and all others who are dealing with the horrible thing that is depression.

[@BeautyFashionGurus5]

I can see her restraining her tears while she is talking. Meg let it all out 😢 I want to give her a hug

[@kowens2001]

Meghan, I have not been in the best place right now. It is mainly just me feeling sad and like u say in ur video, it's like a switch. I am really glad to see that I am not in this alone. U r a role model to me, and this lets a little light through, and I just want to thank you for sharing your story because for me, it is hard, being 15, I don't want to admit it but recently I have realized I am depressed. I felt before I saw this video I was the only one, but also reading the comments has made me not give up on hope. I have many symptoms of Major Depression and it sucks, and people don't understand, so thank you so much Meghan, for showing me a little light.

[@StephanieBailey]

To post this when you know your not ok, was so brave. You are so beautiful inside and out Meghan and I know you can get through this! xxx

[@laughxxlovexx]

It's so sad and hurtful when people say things like "you're life is just fine you have no reason to feel depressed" because in situations like yours you can't help it.. You don't want to feel that way it's just the way it is... I hope you can recover soon

[@stephaniemarie9853]

Meghan. I've been battling depression since high school and I'm 22 now. I almost didn't pass high school, not because I was incapable but because I physically and mentally could not go to school - I was always in bed. I was prescribed antidepressants but would stop taking them when I felt better and the terrible cycle would begin again. I'm finally starting to learn and realize ways to cope and not let it ruin my work/school life, relationships, and success. I've also been continually taking my antidepressant. I am currently going to school for Health Education in hopes to someday work with depressed people through exercise :) Thank you SO much for sharing your story. I can't tell you how many times I felt like people were thinking "wow this girl is a big whiny, lazy baby!" when I would tell them why I hadn't been at school that day. However, the more we talk and get the word out about depression/anxiety, the quicker we can change people's view on mental [disorders

[@fatimae7837]

You're amazing, I hope you become successful in helping those who are depressed.

[@Pattykitty24]

I wanted to personally thank you. I have anxiety and I had a bad attack yesterday. I spent the night searching for videos to help me, and this was beautiful. I started crying halfway through, and I don't know how you didn't. You're very strong and brave to be able to say these words.

[@fayazkhanilyas5025]

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[@trivennapertiwi8978]

I have social anxiety. I also experience tremor when i'm in the middle of crowd. Feel so weird actually.... I usually feel so lonely like no one love to talk to me. Like i'm just a worthless person.. Hope things will get better someday

[@fayazkhanilyas5025]

14840 dont worry these are called waswas . the satan which name is in english devil do waswas in ur heart he talking to u that hey look u are in peaple u are lonely u scared bla bla bla . waswas is thinking inside ur mind and heart satan do these waswas to scare you . in one narration i read that when satan do waswas and man or woman become scared then he laughing and enjoying . my english is weak but olz search in google about waswas and satan you will be 100% ok in shaa Allah i guarranty you you will feel ok

[@fashionholicable]

Word of advice for all the mean people in this world: stop treating good people like they’re a piece of shit

[@clairedillon6168]

If only those people had a sense to listen to you.... The world would be a much better place

[@ZENnetwork]

As a nurse who has worked closely with clients suffering from various forms of depression. I want to say how PROUD I am of you for making this video. I wish I could give you a big hug. You have helped more people than you know from all walks of life, various ages & cultures. Everyday is a new day & if you ever want someone to listen I would be happy to. All the best to you.

[@BrookeMakenna]

I just want you to know how big of a difference you just made. Meghan, just by showing this side of you, you have shown a million girls that they are not alone in their struggles. I may not have depression but I do have anxiety and every day is a struggle for me as well. We can all get this through this together. To Meghan and anyone else reading, please do not give up on yourself. I'm rooting for all of you

[@user-mp9xz8yg4j]

The greatest tool that has worked for me in curing my depression is persistence. Do whatever you can think of to help your depression. Do that and it will pay off

[@juliasophia6832]

Stay strong, you put smiles on 1 million faces we all have ups and downs. Thank you for shareing this with us. we all love you you feel better

[@juliasophia6832]

we are all in this together

[@mariasmakeupxo]

You are so strong and amazing for making this video. I think it's so important that as a person with an audience, you're showing that life isn't always sunshine and rainbows. Also, telling us about your struggle with depression PROVES that it (or any mental illness) should not be glamorized to look "cool" by society. I love you so much, and I'm so sorry you have to deal with something like this.

[@taylorlynnexo]

I was diagnosed with depression when I was 12, and I am not 21 and I have officially been diagnosed with severe depression, general anxiety & social anxiety. I have been suicidal for over half my life, I've self harmed. I've been through so much & am still going through a shit ton of things, BUT I want you to know that things do get better. I am better then I was at 16-18 when I was at my very worse but its still an everyday battle to have a mental illness. Keep fighting. And get rid of negative people, you have no idea how much that helps,..even your best friends can be the people who bring you down. You need to sit down and think about each person and how they make you feel, and if the answer is less then good, cut them, no matter how close you are. Your health has to come first. xooxxoxox

[@taylorlynnexo]

i am *NOW 21

[@beautybyhaleyx]

You can and you will get through this. I'm so proud of you already, you are amazing :)

[@danitaylor2302]

This GMH

[@CMrifaa]

everytime someone asking me "why?" i wish i have the answer...

[@eRyL86]

I hope you are better now, girl. I've been in your shoes. And the fact is, depression never actually healed just with time. It can only be minimized with positive thinking and attitude, which is quite difficult to be maintained when you're not having much support like I do. I barely can talk with anyone, since most of them never had depression like mine, they can't understand why I did what I did. I even wished I was crazy just to have a real explanation on why I never get better. It's a lonely road for me. I'm stronger now but I get pulled down from time to time. Suicidal thinking is no joke in my part, sleep was my toughest time, but also my remedy coz I don't have to think when I finally sleep. And the result of it, I got irritated easily. Lol. Well, anyway, just wanna say that you are not alone! I'm happy, you have all the support you need, and I hope you'll always be the genuine you, Megan. Hugs

[@eRyL86]

Meghan*

[@edea_oblige]

you just wrote how I been feeling since 2years ago. Exactly the same...ty

[@fieryredhead23]

I commend you for posting this so others will (hopefully) understand that depression is common and that there is nothing wrong with those that suffer from it. I'm glad you sought safety with your loved ones and that you went to a professional for treatment. Hang in there! Things will get better and you have a truly bright future ahead of yourself. I wish you all the best. :)

[@eclectia3324]

This was a very nice comment ! :) x

[@BreanneVera]

Gurl I know its hard when you are constantly seen as a positive figure. People almost start to see you as a robot if you are happy all the time. But that don't mean you cant feel other wise Im so glad you are taking the steps you need. Take the time that you need. Thank you for validating people and their feelings. People often forget that it is alright to feel what you are feelings. But it is also so important to know yourself enough to know that that if not your healthiest state. To have a support system And to develop coping mechanism Thank you so much for sharing Sending you all the lovings

[@yoshitv7470]

My favorite comment. It's true I've always been the bubbly one And always been happy like Evan when I got bullied on a daily basis. It gets hard to act that way all the time And it's hard to quit cause that's what's expected from you

[@buckmesiter]

Thank you, you speak from the heart, one problem is that nobody can see what you are really going through, and for some reason we hide it from those close to us. It is really difficult to express exactly what is going on, but every set back or bad comment seems like a punch in the face, we take it very personally. Why does this world seem so harsh, when there are so many wonderful people in in ?

[@briannampnelson]

Couldn't help but cry while I watched this. Meghan, I can't tell you how much this video meant to me and how coincidental it was that you put it up today. I've been laying in my bed all day, because I've been feeling the exact same way you do. I've been watching your VLOGMAS video's just to get myself excited for the future, and you looked so happy in them, and all I could think about was how I wanted to be happy with my friends the way you were. I am currently a sophomore in college and am being bullied by my two suite mates and it has been all I think about lately. If it was helpful to me that you put this video up today as I was feeling a certain way, I can't imagine how many other people you have helped by putting this up. Nothing but love

[@briannampnelson]

Also, I have even more respect for you then I did before.

[@JenniferRokks]

How does a beautiful girl like you get bullied? (:

[@Anoukvs91]

Everyone feels depressed sometimes.. I've been there too! But you'll get through it. Don't give up. Don't label it so much. Everything we say becomes real so try to be positive en make the best of it. Be good to yourself by giving yourself the time you need. It's OKAY to feel the way you feel. It makes you human.

[@kcdubbb]

there's actually forms of depression that are chemical imbalances in the brain that create the sad feelings often experienced by those diagnosed with severe or major depressive disorder. there's more to it than just thought process. i know you mean well, but telling people that they can make it through by staying positive and thinking happy thoughts may actually discount the way they're feeling because bad thoughts isn't what caused the depression. sometimes labels can also help people to normalize their experiences and helps to feel like they're not alone and that there is treatment and help available to them.

[@kelseyhickey]

Honestly, this is like saying you're healthy when you really have the flu. You have to recognize something is wrong to fix it. I know you mean well but comments like this aren't helpful :/

[@Anoukvs91]

If she is really that depressed she wouldn't be able to put make up on or get out of bed for months! She wouldn't feel that much better so soon. Don't we all have weeks where we just feel sad and unhappy and have bad thoughts for no reason? Nowadays doctors label people really fast and I'm against that. Because with labels comes medicine which most people do not need. I'm not saying she doesn't need help but for a doctor to say something like that when she's feeling bad for 2 weeks is absurd. When you're feeling like she does it's time to take a look at yourself, your life and the people that surround you. And it sounds like she does just that. So I think we all can be very proud of her.

[@nicolelikopoulos510]

***** when you've been a psychiatrist for a very long time sometimes just talking to someone can help you diagnose them. She said she did countless blood tests. sometimes it's not that hard. this is just very inconsiderate..

[@liedy2]

***** depression is different for everybody, just cause she can get out of bed and put make-up on, doesn't mean she isn't..

[@sara-bp7bc]

Thank you so, so much for making this video, I feel the same way about vloggers who (maybe not intentionally, but still) make their lives seem perfect in every way. I don't think I'm depressed, because my "problem" hadn't lasted for a long period of time, but it appears more and more often. The thing is, either with vloggers or some of the kids from my school, I just happen to see they're having a great time (for example, they post photos of them spending their New years with friends abroad or something) and a lot of terrible, depressing thoughts come to my mind, I think something like "look what they're doing, they're living their life to the fullest and you sit at home the entire day browsing the Internet, and barely ever go outside, you're going to spend your life like this, you don't do anything worth mentioning, you're just a meaningless human that no one will remember". I know it's pretty dark, and it gets worse as I then start thinking about wasting my life on stupid things and the inevitability of death, and end up crying. This has happened to me four or five times already in the past week, and I'm scared it's not going to stop. This is going to sound incredibly cheesy, but I don't think I have any real friends, as everyone I used to call a friend betrayed me for "the popular kids", and I can't even imagine talking to my parents or any of my teachers about this. Right now I just want someone's shoulder to cry on :/

[@MissCandyCaitlinxx]

Hey there my names Caitlin and I'm going through a pretty strange period in my life right now and I just have no emotions, I noticed no one had replied to your comment so I thought I would, please if you ever want to chat I will talk to you, please remember your are not worthless, you have been given the gift of life so if you feel crap that's ok we will get over it, I hope. Please feel free to talk to me xx

[@sara-bp7bc]

THANK YOU so much, I am better now but I don't know if it will last long but thanks anyway. About what you said about yourself, is that a feeling you have constantly or it just, you know, comes and goes? how old are you by the way?

[@MissCandyCaitlinxx]

+Sara A I'm glad to hear your better :) uhmm no it's pretty much 24/7 I just don't care about anything anymore, emotionally I'm not upset about the way I am now as I am not a sad person but I'm not happy either which is strange because I used to be the happiest person, there's just nothing there and I know in my head that I need to get the old me back, did you do anything in particular to get better?

[@sara-bp7bc]

Not really , to me it's just a bad feeling that lasts 2-3 hours and then stops, though I found out that a great way to overcome it by myself is to write down how i feel, or just say it out loud. It doesn't seem like it, but really helps :) about you, the fact that you know that you need to get the old "you" back is a good sign & it means that you aren't completely uninterested. What I suggest you to do is to find something that made the old "you" happy. Whatever it is!! I also suggest searching the internet for people who feel the same way about you, and the responses they got from professionals. There is definitely a way out of this, and I want you to know that I'm here for you

[@sara-bp7bc]

people who feel the same way as you** I have no idea where "about" came from xD

[@DQINBETWEEN]

I opened this video with tears on my face before even watching it because I was struck by my sadness again, which was why I was seeking understanding for my self by searching others voices. And at some point during the video I lost it completely and felt so touched. I tried to talk to people all the time about how I felt. But almost none of their response worked for me. Hearing you speak Meghan I realized all that I was waiting for, is someone to tell me that “your feelings are valid, and your experiences are valid”. - This was where I lost it. not lost it in the devastating way that I usually have, but in a sense of love and compassion for myself. Of being touched. Finally. This is the first video I came across from you, Meghan. Thank you for your authenticity and bravery. Your feelings are valid. And your experiences are valid, too. You are heard.

[@lloydclement2152]

You just keep fighting the depression monster, keep fighting it and ask God to carry you. Depression is so unfair and why it exists is a human emotion that is misunderstood. But keep fighting it.

[@chloewallace02]

I had to come back to this video! As this is exactly how I feel right now! And my anxiety is so bad right now that I just want to stop everything and curl up into a ball and never move ever again! But we need to stay strong as life still goes on! 😑❤️

[@chloewallace02]

+cakeman74 that's disgusting! You really should think before telling someone to go kill them selfs! You don't know me you don't know what goes on in my life! So if u don't have anything nice to say fuck off and say nothing at all! Stupid Troll

[@davidnivia6900]

look for Jesus Christ. Read the Bible and pray to him. He will answer. He answered me when I was depressed and I no longer am. God Bless!

[@marinalopez-negrete3512]

Way to go girl💗

[@tange-lq5jg]

it gets better more good than bad days stay positive x

[@jenniferwaugh1436]

You can tell this is 100% from the heart. People close to me have depression and I know it's one of the toughest things to go through. We're all here for you! ❤️❤️

[@CleoCameleo]

honest, emotional, beautiful, true, I am in admiration. we will always support you because we know that you are a strong women and we need people like you in this world. love (from paris) Clémence

[@15Chirpy]

You're so strong. The most realistic account of depression I've watched on youtube.

[@TheMyshaaful]

I've gained so much respect for you after this video. Its hard to be vulnerable, and doing so on camera is even tougher. Depression is such a common mental illness yet the stigma associated with it is just as strong. Using the platform and voice that you have to spread awareness about depression is incredible. So many of my friends and family have suffered from clinical depression, and it is honestly one of the most debilitating feelings for everyone involved. I just want to thank you for sharing your experiences and raising awareness on this issue. x