My Last Words To My Father Before He Died.

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

I am convinced that my earthly father & I will spend eternity together with the Lord. That every wound will be healed, every tear forgotten. 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 This was not our last go at love. Ps: my Dads birthday is August 30th, that may explain why he’s weighing on my heart so heavily. ❤️

[@lisacarnevale7232]

You are healed by sharing your story, so powerful. Life really has so many hard and painful moments. Losing my parents was so traumatic for me and I struggle to talk about it. Love your courage and strength Chynna.

[@kimecollinss]

I, too, struggled with abandonment issue my entire life..father left when I was 6…my mom was DEVASTATED!!!! I would hear her cry every night and I have a people-pleaser, co-dependent personality so I took on not only my pain but my moms pain as well. That’s when Satan got a foothold which progressed to a STRONGHOLD in my life. I’m 53, (much closer to 54 ; ) married for 22 years and let me tell you…my relationship/my marriage has struggled because of that father wound…the abandonment etc. But…BUT….having given my life over to Jesus about 20 years ago, that wounded heart …that hurting, wounded little girl that was still inside of me, finally found the only man, JESUS CHRIST, that could meet my every need….and over time I was able to allow The Holy Spirit to minister to my hurt, teach me how to forgive & love my father. He died 3 years ago & I am sooo very thankful that I had forgiven him years prior. I love what someone said about our parents not being angels, but humans…sinful humans! WHICH IS WHY EVERY HUMAN NEEDS JEEEEESSSSUS!!!!!!!!

[@Wheres_the_sunshine]

Thank you for sharing! My Dad also had a death bed conversion. I can relate to the thief on the cross. I believe that the Lord gave us that testimony for all of the brothers and sisters that meet HIM in their last moments. As well as for their family members. What a loving Father to give us that! As your Dad had a friend share Christ with him, my Dad told me that his nurse told him the same thing I had shared with him about Jesus and he was starting to believe it! Third party validation is powerful! I am so grateful for caregivers that are willing to share Jesus with their patients. 💝

[@rubycorman469]

Chynna no matter what happened he will always be your dad and no one can fault you for loving him . My parents split up before I was born and I was estranged from my dad in my teens . Thankfully we reconciled and had many years together before he passed . When he was in Hospice I asked the Chaplin if my dad had accepted Jesus . He assured me that he had and it gave me such peace . I was crying with you , I know this is so painful but praise Jesus your dad is with Him forever ! Thank you for sharing 🙏🙏🙏💕💕💕

[@lindamessmer4257]

You are right about your pops birthday,It brings back memories, good and bad. Thank you for sharing your memories 🌹🌹🌹🌹..Most emotional Cal Preach for me in quite awhile 😪❤️✝️

[@HettiedeKorteDiplomaat]

You know, you broke the cycle of alcoholism and drug abuse in your family. You changed the path for your children and next generations. That’s such a huge gift to mankind. You couldn’t save your father. I know how painful it is not having had the relationship you needed. But you learnt and changed the course of your family’s history. You already saved so many lives that way. That’s so amazing. It’s such a strong message.

[@deboralarson4273]

My mom and sister died recently and it was the hardest thing I've ever gone thru. LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING THEM AGAIN IN HEAVEN!

[@nymike06]

Very sorry for your losses. My condolences to you and family.

[@pamelab3891]

Your Dad was so talented, his music still stands today, he touched so many people. Unfortunately, he was his own worst enemy. May God have mercy on his soul. Know that he is now healed, his demons finally defeated. May he Rest In Peace and his memory be for a blessing. Talk to him, he can hear you.

[@davidroberts5577]

I left home at 12 years old, and I met your father back then. He was a kind soul and I've always remembered his kindness. It's been a long and difficult road I've traveled. When I worked as an RN I and the rest of those I worked with firmly believed that people in a coma could and did here everything said in their presence. Dear soul I know in my heart and soul, your father heard everything you said that day. I have no medical information that supports that. But I know it to be true. I've always believed it's a blessing that God provides 🙏🌼

[@davethorstry6700]

Two beautiful friends were high school sweethearts and for a couple of years after. He went into the military and served away. He gradually drifted apart from her and was involved with someone else. After some time she also became involved with someone else. All contact between them was lost forty seven years. After about forty years he having being my best friend form day one, lost his wife to a heart attack. Some months later he told me that he had never stopped thinking of his first love and wondered what had happened to her. I was quite good at finding old friends and he begged me to find her. After a week or two I found her and made contact. She had lost her husand a few years before. When I told her he was looking for her she was thrilled. I arranged for them to meet. He travelled from where he lived to her place a hunred or so miles away. The spent the weekend together. A little later he sold up and moved in with her. They enjoyed a blissful six months together when he became ill. He had a stroke and was admitted to hospital in a coma and was unresponsive. We visited regularily as he lingered. The doctors told her his passing was imminent. She sat holding his hand and told him that she had always loved him. Although he was totally unresponsive tears rolled down his cheeks. He died a few hours later. I now know and believe that they can hear you, so if you are in that situation talk to them.

[@BustasGirl1]

stop it, he abused his daughter, you are sick

[@lesley3609]

I know how you feel, Chynna. My dad was an alcoholic. I never had the relationship that I wish I had with my dad. He passed in 2013. It’s so true. You really do need both parents. It creates a lot of baggage, if you don’t. But thankfully, I have my Heavenly Father, that loves and cherishes me. ❤️

[@donnieglenellyn]

She is incredibly humble and yet prideful of her experiences and all she has accomplished despite parental dysfunction

[@colmjulian5257]

These videos are therapeutic listening to Michelle speak so calmly

[@jennifernelson7634]

This is my favorite episode. I love it when Chynna talks about her family and includes God. I’d love to hear more about her parents and all of her siblings. ❤

[@annesantos5104]

So happy to hear your father accepted Jesus Christ as his Lord and Savior before he died. So glorious to have that hope and assurance you will see him again! God bless you and comfort your heart, Chynna. 🙏🏻💕

[@addicted367]

I know that's awesome 🙌

[@ruthsturgeon4979]

Does Jesus punish young children who didn't except him or know learn of him ? I find it strange that you believe people are not forgiven sins and that you assume those who not born again are rejected by Jesus. We alone answer to him on judgement day . That's what the bible says There's alot of fake self righteous pompous Christians out in the world too far to many in my opinion .

[@ruthsturgeon4979]

@Dem Lizabeth Yes I know I believe that too

[@rogerphillips2063]

​@@ruthsturgeon4979sorry but God made the rules. Yes to us they sound weird but that is because we still have sin natures and want to run things We have to turn it over to Jesus and trust him. We still stumble and fall and not always good examples. We are human after all. False religions have no belief in anyone that took their place and died for them. Jesus is patiently waiting. Listen to the song "Softly and Tenderly" so moving

[@jphwife]

@@ruthsturgeon4979does Jesus punish young children who haven’t heard of him or don’t accept him? Are you serious? Have you read the Bible? That is 100% against who God is. Why would you think that? 😳

[@janellmartin7066]

This may be a lil long so please bare with me. My dad lost his father and a brother when he was in his 20's. My dad was not saved at that point. My dad received Christ when he was 37, and it was the first time he truly cried and grieved for his dad and brother, believing that they both died without Christ. Over 30 years later my dad's niece was visiting us. My dad was talking to her and said how painful it is to think that his brother and dad may be in hell. She looked at him and said, 'Uncle Chuck, my dad was saved." Before he died, they had moved next door to a Baptist preacher who led my Uncle to Jesus. My dad had no idea that 30 years earlier his brother went to Heaven. You never ever know who God brings into the path of a loved one. I believe that many of us will be so incredibly surprised and elated when we get to Heaven and see family that we thought were lost. So very happy about your daddy and that you will see him again. ❤️

[@jxyjayjxy]

Amen! Beautiful story! 🙏💝

[@NataliaRodriguez-nj6md]

Praise the Lord

[@ruthsturgeon4979]

How do you KNOW who went to heaven ? You do not so stop pretending you do .

[@mojavewolf1]

I’m scared because my youngest son is an alcoholic. I can’t talk to him , he gets mad. He has a spiked tongue. He is very hurtful . My son is 42 . He has always been slim but now he has a big belly . I was shocked . There is nothing I can do. 😰😰😭😭😢 Im sorry Chyna . I can’t handle the sadness your expressing . I’m afraid to loose my Son . I have an adult disabled son I care for , it’s so hard to be strong . I lost husband to suicide in 2007 🥺I feel for you . I know trauma . I don’t k ow how to get to my Son . I have no one to talk too. Love you Sweet girl . Your so Strong. I thought of sending my Son this video but it would anger him . He is not nice.He knows how to hurt me. He already told me when I die , he is not helping his disabled brother . He will put him in a institution. My Son that is disabled has schizophrenia. But is very sweet . I cried and told him all his life he has been with me and family he knows . It adds to my anxiety . I worry about dying and my son will end up being abused . I’m sorry , I hold so much in . I totally understand. I hope I live long enough to pay my house off . Then at least my Son will have a house 🏡 Then maybe my son will help him . Please pray for us.

[@queens6583]

Please seek some professional help in regard to alcoholic son but certainly in regard to your disable son. I have an adult disabled child and have gotten legal matters addressed for when my husband and I are no longer here. Your alcoholic son will not change without getting sober and you cannot count on him to have a change of heart when your gone. So sorry for your troubles.

[@jude1515]

Prayers.

[@diannedocherty3816]

You cannot reach your alcoholic son because his brain is not functioning properly…your best chance is accepting this fact and use this time to prepare a path for your disabled son to be cared for as you would want …having expectations that an alcoholic person will be able to meet this challenge is unrealistic. Try going to a Catholic Church or another organization that has experience in these complicated family dynamics…ask a doctor or a nurse or someone for resources to connect with. REALLY REACH OUT…someone is there to help ✌️❤️💪

[@deniseprettyman4801]

Praying for you sweet sister and your sons❤️

[@freshliving4199]

You know that hell that’s in you…the fear, anger, hatred, resentment , spite, insecurity, anxiety, etc Well it’s in your son too…and YOU put it there when you traumatized him as a child by imposing your will on him and created him in YOUR image. Your son is YOU in a mans body. He has the same spirit of anger that’s in you in him….x 100 A woman CANNOT make a man…only a male that’s an alcoholic drug depressed emotional mess. Call him and apologize, you did the best you knew how. Now for you to be free from the hell that’s in you, you need to drop your anger and unforgiveness. You need to forgive YOUR parents for doing the same thing to you. The second you forgive them then God will forgive you and change you in a twinkling of an eye. Ask God to show you who you really are. Be still and know. Any questions for me?

[@ChristinaFromFlint]

My father is an alcoholic and addict too. I wish that he finds recovery, but I pray that he finds Jesus. It's SO hard. Im praying for you, and for that little corner of every daughter's heart that will always just want her Daddy to love her. God bless you, Chynna 🥰💜

[@melissamadison8567]

Do not give up praying for his salvation! My Dad was an alcoholic and I prayed for his salvation for 7 years before he came to the Lord in a desperate drunken state. He did still relapse after that but he was a changed man. I’m forever grateful that I will see him again in heaven. Keep praying, God hears you! 💜🙏

[@ChristinaFromFlint]

@@melissamadison8567 Thank you for your kind words and encouragement. I will NEVER give up praying for his salvation! I will always hope he conquers his alcoholism, but the real battle is for his eternal soul and I will never ever stop praying! Thank you again... kind words mean a lot to me! 💔

[@joyecook5771]

All your prayers are heard...believe, and decree that your Dad will come to the cross and Jesus will be his salvation!

[@juliasharon5337]

i told my dad i loved him and he told me he loved me a million times more- will never forget his last words.

[@betsybabf748]

If anyone can add a 31 yr old woman to their prayers. She had a very premature baby girl last August. Right now her husband is in the hospital on oxygen for Covid, and yesterday Kim was med-flighted when the ventilator wasn't enought to a Boston hospital, put on last resort ECMO life support. Her baby girl needs her home, and her husband feels helpless stuck in another hospital not knowing if he will see her again. As a younger widow and mom, hoping with everything he never learns what I live. I appreciate any prayers. She is a very close family friend, whose mother physically held me up at my husband's funeral.

[@musicman6699]

Just said a prayer ♥️ God bless

[@darleneboots3661]

I will be praying for your dear friend and her child and husband. Blessings.

[@Carriedawayncaffinated]

Bless you and your friends

[@jesslyngeidel3997]

Hi Chynna, I too have a father who had issues with alcohol and became very angry when he drank. The way that my father dealt with the things he did was to walk away from all 5 of his children and not have anything to do with us. That was over 30 years ago. I ran into him in 2007 and said, “hi Dad” and he pretended he did not know me. After having bad relationships and realizing I found men who need fixing because I could not help my dad, I went to school to become a substance abuse counselor so I could better understand people with substance abuse issues. I now am a Clinical Substance Abuse Counselor and have forgiven my father even though he continues to have nothing to do with my siblings or myself. Thanks so much for posting this! I understand the way you feel.

[@ChristiWilkes]

When I hear your stories of your past, my heart weeps for you. That little girl deserved so much more, but she was failed at every turn by those she loved and trusted. Yet I rejoice at the same time because of the goodness of God. For keeping His hand on you, delivering you, and for breaking the cycle that could very easily have been repeated. Thank you, Lord, for the gift of Billy.

[@ruthsturgeon4979]

You sure jump to alot of assumptions. Most of us come from dysfunctional families I do not know anyone who lived a leave it beaver family life.

[@delilasloan8914]

@@ruthsturgeon4979 assumptions? Chynna has been through a lot, as have most of us. Listen to her chanel before attacking a well written and very true statement.

[@lindaclark9925]

You are loved, and part of a beautiful time of love ; you were destined into those lives; God bless you Chyna

[@albertsolorio777]

Yochanan is John in Hebrew and it means “Adonai The Lord is Gracious”. That’s a beautiful reminder for our Lord to use your dads gifting to bless so many of us.

[@Atheenah]

The loss of a parent is such a void that can never be filled. Both mine are gone for years and it still hurts. I can relate to how the loss of your dad 20 years later still is so raw.

[@ginnyrisner4083]

Through your voice I was able to see your dad in a different light. 🙌🏼 Peace of Christ, Chynna!

[@thomasmax4731]

That's so nice of you,,,,,,,I really appreciate your comment, hi 👋 how are you doing I hope you are having a wonderful day.

[@eileentheequeen]

This touched my heart..my father passed last year, and I can barely talk or think about his last moments.. you are so giving to share your last moments with him, that is so deeply personal, you are strong and I respect you so! ❤ What a blessing to have this woman deliver this message of your father receiving Jesus! 🙌 Thank you again for sharing 🙏

[@JaneSmith0709]

Your honesty and willingness to share your deepest thoughts and emotions with us is beyond endearing. I feel like I know you and love you so much as a sister in the Lord! Watching this made me want to give you a giant hug! You are teaching me how to open up. I am by nature a closed book. I've been judged my entire life and haven't had many friends because I don't let people in. I want to, but I think I've always felt like if people really knew me they wouldn't like me. Even tho I no longer care much what people think of me I still have the desire to be more open but I don't know how. So thank you for being the example for me. It's touching to hear the feelings you have for your father. The media only shows one side of people and they are so much more than the tabloid headlines portray. Thank you for giving us a glimpse into John Phillips the human being. I have much more compassion for him now. God bless and keep you, sister. And God bless CalPreach. I always pray for you. Love you.

[@lindareynolds2547]

You don’t have to like everything he did but you can love him . Never , ever care about what others think. They have not lived your life and he was your Dad. He was a sick man with his drug and alcohol use. They made him a different person but deep down he loved you and his other children. The sickness was stronger than him. So happy you had a chance to talk to him. Believe me he heard you. Prayers for you.

[@iamhis4ever7]

How awesome that our Lord made sure you were given “the desires of your heart” and now get to spend eternity with your dad where we will all be happy and whole..” ❤️

[@cathylee4234]

Crying with you . My dad was never around he moved 700 miles away and I saw him like 4 time my whole life . When he died in 2018 I cried everyday for a year or so just feeling the pain of what wasn't and never will be . Sounds like the Lord is healing your heart by bringing things to the surface .

[@maidenmarian1]

The story of your Dad and his acceptance of Christ is very reassuring. I feel happy to know he came to know Christ before he passed!!!! Thank you!!!

[@janetcarroll8863]

Hallelujah 🕊

[@BustasGirl1]

he was a disgusting human being

[@j-s-m-rasmr5292]

I love listening to you Chynna! The Lord ministers to me through you and I am so thankful!! You are such a beautiful soul and a blessing to me and many others 🥰

[@sanlo5404]

I’m so happy that our Heavenly Father has given you the assurance that your father is in heaven waiting for you. What a blessing!!!

[@TransparencyandMerit]

It took me losing my parents to make me realize we are raised by humans not angles

[@notable9]

Chynna my Dad died on the 1st of July this year at 91. We were not close and there was a lot of pain in our family but he was very kind to me in different ways. I prayed for him to meet the Lord and go to heaven, in fact I prayed for years. I sat by his bedside and sang Amazing Grace and prayed more He said few words but I did see his face light up a few times. He died peacefully and 3 people told me that day unbidden and in the days after that they had a peace that he went to heaven. Dad never went to church and never talked about God at all, I was the only believer in the family. Beautiful story of redemption you shared.. It can happen in the most seeming impossible circumstances..

[@shawnmcquillan3874]

PS I can t stop crying…. The expansive love of The Father, mercy and compassion he poured out on you dad that day…✝️✌️❤️Peace of Christ

[@djbrec]

This was so raw and beautiful. I know that through pain comes healing not only for those directly affected but the people who share and those who listen. Thank you for continuing to keep your heart open ❤️ God is good, even when we fall in an already fallen world, God is good. Your father may have seriously struggled on earth but in his final days hearing the gospel and being open to it, all Christians know exactly what that means and the grace of God is so good! Praying for your heart to continue helping others so freely as you have and continued healing in areas that continue to trouble you. May the devil not be able to sink his claws in your heart by holding you accountable to past sins and hurts that our Lord has already forgiven. Much love to you and your family ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@lalaser8160]

My daughter hD the same kind of relationship with her father. He was a stage technician and on the road alot. He ended up very sick in September 2019. She was always trying to talk to him about Jesus. She did get to talk with him on the telephone and ask him to please give his life to Jesus while he was in a coma. He was miles away and she couldn't reach his bedside on time. We're praying he heard her and listened. She sang for him at his memorial.

[@jillybear6007]

I had a very bittersweet relationship with my Mom as well, who passed 2 years ago. I wish we could have resolved things between us before she did pass, but 5-1/2 years before that, we had a moment where I thought we were headed in that direction, but then, Lewy bodies dementia struck very fast and hard, and the next 5-1/2 years, I honored the promise I made regarding o my Mom to my Dad that I made on his deathbed as well and I cared for her until she passed - it was hell on earth, that dementia. Then, last December, I lost my only sibling, my brother, to cancer very quickly - 7 weeks from diagnosis until death - and we, too, had a very troubled relationship, mainly due to his drug and alcohol abuse his entire life and all that addiction entails. Even with the heartache I endured with my Mom and brother, I still miss both my parents and my brother every single day. I am praying for you, Chyna - I once heard that our parents especially write on the DNA of who we will be as adults and some of us got some pretty screwed up DNA due to a parent or parents and even sometimes a sibling. But, I am thankful for God's grace and promises too.(August is a rough month for me because my brother's birthday and my Mom's birthday both were in the first week of August, two days apart - their birthdays bring back a huge flood of memories and I've been super-depressed.) My only regret - my parents were both Christians, so I know I will get that chance to resolve things with my Mom someday when I get to Heaven, but my brother.....died an atheist, believing that once you die, that's it, there's nothing else - and that is SO hard to accept.

[@musicman6699]

@jillybear, I truly believe your brother is in Heaven as well & all loved ones will be wonderfully reunited. God bless♥️

[@Kre8tif]

Awww, crying with you over your story. Thank you for being honest with your emotions.

[@MsLEducation]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. Sometimes people forget that celebrities are still people. We ALL have complicated lives & relationships. Though we walk through difficult situations in our lives, remember they make us stronger. Your father knew how much you loved him-despite his shortcomings & despite the distance. You have broken a potentially toxic cycle by choosing Billy and raising your children in a totally different way than you were raised. You are an amazing woman. Continue giving yourself grace and know that you are making a difference. You are not walking alone.💖

[@stessylynn5742]

No one has had a perfect human Father. Or mother. That’s why we are free to forgive, I know I’m not a perfect mom your so brave and beautiful Chynna!!!! God bless you 🌈

[@angiepayne9790]

Praise God your dad accepted the Saviour and received salvation....that's a peace for you! Such a huge relief and peace to know that! Glory to the Most High!🙏🙌💕

[@LoriMooreThompson]

The best ever video from you!! Every single time a celebrity passes away, my first thought is their eternal soul. I'm rejoicing with you for the gift you and your father have. We all have reason to need redemption. No apologies needed for the love and respect you have for.your dad or for sharing it! Praise the Lord, and may He bless you more each day, Chynna!

[@chaliceguard4575]

Chynna, the woman who turned your Dad to the Lord was a merciful gift from the Lord; she was sent to you with a message of love. We all go through life experiences that become life lessons and teaching moments -- testimonies that others benefit from hearing. It was obviously another gift from the Lord when he sent your stepdad, Bob, to you. Now, your experiences help you to be a better parent to your children, and an empathetic soul to others who are hurting. My father went to be with the Lord when I was just 6 yrs old (he died in a car accident just before Christmas, leaving my mother with 5 little children -- I am the oldest and the youngest were just 2 month-old twin girls -- they never got to know their father). We must look up and not back, thinking with happiness that one day we will be reunited with our heavenly families who are in paradise. God bless and comfort you.

[@thrlllckr6244]

Don’t get to hear to many heartfelt talks like this ... my father died the same way so I can relate... I’m so happy you’re dad made that choice.. and by Gods design amazingly made it to your ears ... I know about the world of addiction all to well ... Alcohol is a powerful drug too ... that has destroyed many a life just as opiates.... I had a broken family too as a result of my father’s addiction ... and as the cliche goes the children suffer the most ... I think Good people make unwise choices that can have horrible consequences ... you are a beautiful person God bless 😘🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@thaliajen]

I subscribed. This is a bit odd, but we’re facing my Dad’s dementia right now and possible cancer. I watch these because I was always a fan of your family. I saw your Dad & Sister perform in La Crosse, WI when I was 21, I think. I loved 60’s music & brought your Dad’s book to see if I could get it signed. It didn’t work out but the music was beautiful. Soul inspiring. I probably didn’t give it much thought until just now. We’re the same age & you lost your Dad so young. I’m sorry. I just realized how lucky I am that I had my Dad all these years. As his mind goes, he can be cruel, and I’ve stopped calling every week. But when I think of losing him as you lost your Dad, I think I need to spend whatever time I can forgiving him for things he said & did and just give him credit for being there. Thank you. 💜

[@rma3_3_3]

I was raised catholic, & went {8} years of school being taught by nun's- I tell you something, it wasn't the best years of my life by no stretch of the imagination- nevertheless, I tell you, being raised catholic prepared me for stuff in life in year's forward that I had no clue- My Beloved Mother departed tragically very young & very beautiful- { I don't think I've ever gotten over what happened to my mother, but, the grace of God is unimaginable } I remember distinctly my Mother saying to me just shortly before her leaving me: R, remember always, you can only get to God thru Jesus Christ- I didn't know what exactly she was saying to me at that time~ but I always pondered those words in my heart- once I became born from above many years later on my journey, ofcourse, Immediately I knew exactly what my mother was saying to me ♡♡♡

[@barbarakenney8288]

Wow. Wow, as a former Catholic I was touched by your mom's words

[@rma3_3_3]

@@barbarakenney8288 Romans 8:28

[@Godisgreat-777]

@@rma3_3_3 Thank you!! I know God needed me to read Romans 8:17-30. I was just asking Him last night why we must have long suffering being His children. He always answers our questions and prayers. We simply need to be paying attention. He just used you to speak directly to me. I needed to feel His love and presence. Thank you!! God please bless and heal you!🤗❤️🙏🏼

[@paigecat9104]

God is GOOD! God bless your tender ❤️.

[@pamb6590]

Our fathers are our fathers - good or bad, they are ours. God loves your love for your dad. I’m so glad you got the gift of knowing he accepted Christ and pray you have peace in the hope and comfort it gives. I lost my precious dad 9 months ago and get so excited for the glorious reunion we will one day have. Heaven is my home because Jesus is there and because my dad is there.

[@kathygildea2025]

Awwwe, Chynna, you again just touched my heart so deeply! I was not able to say goodbye to my father, he passed in his sleep at 63. My relationship was a lot like yours and your dads! I thought the world of my dad though his was not perfect, a very heavy drinker, often abusive. My mom and he divorced when I was 9 so I saw him occasionally, but he was always in my heart! Thankyou again for being so raw and open with your life! You are a beautiful sweet sister in Christ! Our journeys don’t end here! Perhaps we will one day stroll along the river of life just talking away some of our eternal hours! Our relationships will be beyond our wildest dreams in the presence of our Lord and our loved ones! Praise God your dad will be there, mine too!!!❤️🙏🏻✝️🦋

[@sheilalopez7498]

Oh Chynna! I was thinking, 'this is so sad'! Then it turned into the happiest story of redemption! Glory to God!

[@marymagdalene3004]

Chynna: Might also have mentioned that this is the month of your dad's birthday: August 30th. Helps to explain perhaps why you are feeling such closeness to him at this particular time of year.

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

Thank you for the reminder! That explains a lot… I put it in my pinned comment above. Peace of Christ Mary!

[@carolgarza2023]

Chynna. My older brother claimed to be an atheist for most of his adult life. I believe he was hurt and bitter. On his death bed (literally) I asked him if I could pray over him. He said YES. I did and then I asked him if he wanted to pray with me too. Again he said YES. So he followed my lead. He died 3 days later I am thrilled to learn h to our dad opened his heart to Jesus. Yippee!! Your precious momma too will lay her head on Jesus Bosom. He loves her and will rescue her too

[@lyndabishop5526]

@@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin this month is my dad's birthday month. He's been gone 4 years. Cancer. So much hurt in my heart. I miss him greatly. One more hug, one more talk, one more time hearing him call me his Little girl in his voice. Watching him fade away nearly killed me. I got everything you are expressing Chynna. My heart is with you. Heavy hearts. Daughters always need their daddies.💔

[@Chawncey777]

Your father was a creative and talented man. The songs your mom and dad sang. The other day I was singing along with a song out of the blue. " Go where you wanna go," do what you wanna do with whomever you want to do it with" What a Mantra Keep your head held high

[@locovaldezakarichardmccart843]

Rather difficult to view but was compelled by your bravely sharing all which brought back my memories of being with my Dad just before he died.

[@laurenshannon2703]

What a beautiful story of God's faithfulness in his covenant relationship with his people. Praise the Lord for such kindnesses to you, your father, and all of your family. He is good all the time. Blessings to you in Christ Jesus.

[@RickHawkDavison]

Your pain makes me love my children more... Don't cry.. It breaks my heart... I am nothing.. But I will love my babies more. Love ya Chy. All my heart.

[@sallysantos524]

You’re such a beautiful daughter. What a blessing that God saved him and then let you know!! God heals our abandonment issues❤️

[@reneeboronka]

Chynna, I am so happy that you were able to know that your father had accepted Christ before his passing. Regardless of the missteps, your father was still your father. Every child longs to have a relationship with their earthly mother and father. 💗 Big hugs Chynna girl 💗

[@kimfrank2417]

Glad to hear your dad excepted the lord

[@lg9373]

Beautiful story. Thank you for being so vulnerable and honest. Your message makes me think of my 7 year old granddaughter and her dad (my son). He is an addict, and been absent from her life for a few years. She has been emotionally traumatized by the abandonment she feels. I pray every day that my son gets his life together so he can be the father she needs and deserves. Thank you for sharing your story. God bless you ❤️

[@SharonsPix]

You are an Angel for loving the Lord as you do!!! SO thankful you got to hear he accepted Christ as his Savior, as God said we must! 🙌✝️🕊

[@loredanaschwertfeger3369]

Praise God for that back up singer and her bold faith! What a gift! Big hug to you at this time of sadness.Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted.

[@pw9859]

Talk about a happy ending! Praise God, and blessings on His faithful servant who lead your dad to the Lord! You will be able to make new memories and have many heartfelt talks with your father in our forever home with Jesus.

[@darleneboots3661]

@@21stcenturyshowgirl No, he won't have anything to answer for, the Blood of Jesus cleanses from ALL sin when we receive Jesus as Savior. His eternal rewards are up to the LORD.

[@CindyArchibaldBruni]

Heart-wrenching and bittersweet tribute to your father. He loved you as much as he was capable of but now you have an eternity together to make up for lost time! I too said my last words to my only sibling and sister at UCLA Medical Center the year that you were born. She was only 22 but was ready to meet her Savior and Lord face to face. I can't wait until I see Him and the circle will be unbroken to join Sharman and my parents in Glory!

[@smallfootprint2961]

You don't have to love your father. Knowing what he did to McKenzie, I wouldn't blame you if you didn't. I've put both my parents in a respectful reality of what really happened. Clarity and admitting reality are the most important thing. As we know through recovery, all you can do is clean up your side of the street, and let the other person be who they want to be. Doesn't mean it doesn't hurt, but living in reality takes some of the sting out of what happened.

[@todaymaybe9400]

Good thing your footprint is small and never to be followed. If God forgives why can’t we? To love is to forgive

[@belladonna5904]

Your footprint is even smaller. How people process their pain will be different for everyone. Jesus forgives, but that doesn't mean Chynna has to. That's between her dad and Jesus.

[@whitneywells7156]

This is incredibly hard to watch. So much trauma attached to this situation, but it must be so hard for her sister to hear her talk about her father as what she calls a magnificent human being.

[@Danielle-nz9tn]

@@todaymaybe9400What a BIZARRE comment you made here. 😂 So bizarre. Also, forgiving does not equal LOVE. You can forgive while acknowledging someone does not deserve your love. Especially if they never earned it and never did anything to resolve the hurt they caused.

[@kathyhanks2750]

It is wonderful that your dad found our savior. My father and mom divorced when I was 3 and he was only in my life occasionally even though we lived in the same town. Even when I got married and had children I had to contact him to ask about seeing him. He died in March of 1990 at 57 of cancer and I discovered when I sat at the hospital when he was dying that he also had found the lord. I wish he could have spoken to me but by the time I was told he was dying and got to the hospital he couldn’t speak because of lack of oxygen. I wish he could have told me at least one time that he loved me. Thank you for sharing your faith, spirit and life with us. We pray with you as we roll on our rocky road of life. God Bless 🙏🏻

[@barbaraerichsen2200]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. Sometimes people forget that celebrities are still people.

[@lillianrobinson2020]

Dear sweet Chynna. I’m so grateful for you and your channel. I felt everything you spoke. For years I’ve cried wondering if my mom was in heaven. My mom passed away while in a coma and I know that what you said was true, that hearing is the last thing to go and so I spoke to her! I asked her to please please turn to the Lord. What a blessing for you to know your dad accepted the Savior before it was too late! Thank you for your testimony and light! Peace in Christ always ❤️🙏🏻

[@lilactreehouse]

Chynna, thank you for sharing this very personal story. I think artists feel things more strongly and deeply and is sometimes why they suffer so much in this life. I was so saddened by your dad's story as the video progressed, but at the end, when you said he received Christ as his Savior, I was so over-joyed! Praise the Lord, you will see your dad again one day. This video was amazing!

[@jeanmarienadal7268]

Your son looks a lot like your fathers face.He really does barbie girl.You are so blessed Chynna, so very loved by all of us.Focus just in positive vibes for your health girl, you never get old, your family loves and cares for you.

[@cindyhorst8316]

You take my breath away with the depth of your honesty. I know that was hard to talk about.

[@garylarue3899]

The power of the Gospel is absolutely amazing! Thanks for sharing this powerful testimony Chynna.

[@karendash3274]

I only know of abuse from my father…I envy those women who have a loving relationship with their dad I thank God for the Holy Spirit who has brought me along to the point where I know I am deserving of love but more importantly that I can love myself because God made me and loves me❤️🙏

[@nanettesnyman2829]

THANK YOUR ENGOURENTS TO TELL YOUR STORY 🙏🙏It physical abuse happens with the Grandma &daughters....and tell anyone 🤐🗣

[@nannem9716]

I truly appreciate what a brave and honest person you are. I cannot imagine how difficult, if not impossible, it has been to reconcile the various aspects of the father you love. I deeply admire how you freely spoke the truth regarding what happened to your sister, when others tried to discredit her and sweep her truth under the rug. You are a champion and a blessing in this world, where so many opt to do the easy thing. Continued healing to you both. May God continue to bless and heal you both. You are in my prayers.

[@09penny1]

Thank you for sharing this, Chynna. What a wonderful gift of knowledge you were given about his acceptance of Jesus. I'm sure it brings comfort to a lot of people to know that. Peace of Christ.

[@Ofthegirl09]

That was real divine intervention. My father was an alcoholic and I grew up with my two older sisters in a very dysfunctional household. My father died 20 years ago and I had a "dream" several nights after his death. He came to me in a very nice suit and looked so handsome and healthy. He communicated to me, not in words, that he was presenting himself to me the way he had wanted to be when he was alive, and I felt so much love and peace for him in that moment. And I knew the earthly things that had plagued him were no longer attached to him in the afterlife. This has enabled me to remember him as the father I loved, and not to dwell on the agonizing moments from my childhood.

[@girlinterrupted9145]

What a beautiful story- we all struggle in this life, and no one goes without experiencing our own deep and mournful moments or seasons . I’m sure your father had those moments too, in the quiet of the night and the silence of his solitude , they would creep out from the corners of his mind , and he did the only thing he knew to do, chase them back . But , God is so good - there is joy in the morning !

[@hollyiannotti4929]

I love your Cal Preaching, and I too lave lost my dad 21 years ago this month from the after effects of being a life long smoker. He even was smoking in the hospital and thought nothing of it! I just hope that he has forgiven me for arguing with him the last time I saw him about taking a cab home instead of the bus. I was 29 and my nephew was 6 and we were the last people to visit him before he unexpectedly was taken from this world. He was almost 73 and I so needed him to stay around to see his 4 grandchildren and 2 great grandchildren grow up! I was daddy's little girl and he is truly missed on Sundays which were our days to enjoy! When it's my turn to go I hope he's waiting for me!!! Hope you feel better about your dad cause it takes time to heal just like me and be OK with everything, it's a work in progress with grief. One Day At A Time......

[@diannedocherty3816]

Your father was just part of the world where he was enabled…it’s not your shame darlin..✌️❤️🌎💪

[@sabrinadawn4112]

Thank you my sister in Christ for sharing your heart with us. I'm a firm believer that when we share our hurts with one another it always helps someone (or many) who have gone through a similar journey and reminds us to lift one another in prayer. Galatians 6:2 What an amazing platform God has given all of us to share the Gospel of Jesus Christ via the internet. I don't know if any of us unafraid/unashamed Christians realize just how many lives we are able to reach through this venue of communication. His kingdom truly is at hand, and what a blessing it is for us to be apart of that. Many blessings to you Chynna.

[@RickHawkDavison]

Love you Chy... More than ever.Christ is., hears, knows. God is. Pray for me as I swear to pray for you... Love ya, I truly do. I'm crying with you. I'm sorry for your pain.

[@michelemurphy3541]

Chynna, you are a sweet Angel. The world needs you because you tell your stories of your life, with loving kindness & a curiosity that is teaching others how to be okay in their own stories-how to accept and that is a gift Chynna, so thank you for being honest, brave and real-it has very much impacted me every single time-sometimes on a very deep spiritual atmosphere and sometimes a silly but every time, very very much appreciated. I adore you and I am so grateful to have heard this today. Again, thank you and amen for this platform and ability to share and your grace to share. ❤️

[@reillybab1]

Oh Chynna how beautiful this is ❤️🙏my heart ❤️ I am so grateful for this !! So grateful that Angel shared the gospel with your Dad ❤️🙏Thank You for sharing this journey with us❤️🙏

[@rhondalemley4898]

My Dad got saved at 70 years old I’m sorry your dad let you down through your years and I’m so happy that my dad was an amazing father He passed away 5 years ago and I just miss his voice sometimes ❤️ Love Chynna

[@deeanndickson6195]

Thank you for reminding everyone what is optimal for the child: a mother and a father. We need to focus on what is best for the child.

[@yellyman5483]

People change when they go on drugs.. It`s a terrible illness. My mother was an addict too, and that prevented me from having a close relationship to her. If i were you, i would remember him for the wonderful music he made, and for the good memories you and he had.

[@mu77]

I love how open your heart is to everything.

[@stormieseajewelrypauletto]

100%agree!!! What a blessing.. You'll see your Daddy in heaven!

[@josalmon4742]

Love you, Chynna. I feel your pain.You are such a beautiful person and your pain with your parents has made you an authentic and loving person on KZbin.

[@thomasmax4731]

That's so nice of you Jo,,,,,,hi 👋 how are you doing I hope you are having a wonderful day.

[@janetfedeles3964]

I was an ICU nurse for many years. I know your father heard you. I also know your pain; having a similar relationship with my father when he was dying. I always loved him so much but was very hurt by him. When he was dying, I realized how vulnerable he had been and I felt so badly for not being more understanding. I get so sad whenever I think of my father now.

[@judyfaul9186]

I'm weepy,but I'm happy your dad found what he was probably searching for his entire life through other means,as most of us did.What joy his music brought to all of us over the years.....but,one of his greatest works of art was YOU! 💗

[@shawnmcquillan3874]

@Judy, wow that was a beautiful message to Chy…’ one of his greatest works of art was you’. ❤️❤️🥰

[@aliwalker7667]

God bless you. My Father passed a year ago, due to covid I wasn't allowed to see him, he was a 6 hiur drive from me so there has never been closure, I have packed the pain away in a suitcase which is over packed as it is. I loved your Dad, ussed to sleep in the caravan at the back of his house in palm springs. A professional photographer took a lot photo's of your dad in a casino in palm springs, i have offered to send them you, taken in 98. Thanks for sharing your story helps me consider maybe I wrs better off not seeing my Dad so sick like you did. I felt like a part of me has been ripped away. I need prayer, God bless all the lonley & heart broken people x

[@murphysmommy]

Oh my sweet Chynna girl! Sending you big hugs. Your father heard every single word that you said. Have no doubt that he heard you. Despite the bumpy relationship that you two had, you gave him a precious gift at the end of his life......your presence! Thank you for sharing with us!

[@JuneLynn]

I really loved your story about your Dad....Like you I wish I could've spent more time with mine before he passed....My parents divorced when I was a baby and I only saw my Dad twice a week for short visits....he was never allowed to come in our house and I always had to wait for his car and run out of the house to see him....he died so suddenly of a heart attack in 1988 and no one told me how sick he was.....anyway I'm sorry to talk about me but I just wanted to thank you for telling your story, I'm crying now because I loved my Dad and miss him every day......growing up I loved the Mamas & Papas and your Dad always stood out, he was so tall and I loved that Russian hat he wore...lol...I have many of his records and I also bought a copy of his autobiography several years ago but never got around to reading it yet. I know your Dad would be so proud of you because you turned out so well thanks to your Mom and your faith in The Lord....you are an inspiration to me and so many others.....Thank you Chynna and God Bless you ~ 💜 🙏 : )))))

[@mrsfreelove157]

One of my favorite hymns (the forgotten real gospel music) is "On Christ the Solid Rock I Stand.... All Other Ground Is Sinking Sand, All Other Ground is Sinking Sand.... Please listen to that one for me. Thank you for being so real. I love your passion and zeal for Christ. You are one of the only people in the world ministering to me right now.

[@2legit2quit4u]

I had a fractured relationship with my father so I understand. So many things are left unsaid. You are such a blessing to me and to many many others. May God continue to bless you.

[@marthatomguglielmetti6720]

Heartwarming story from a daughter for her father . Happy he received the peace that surpasses all understanding on his death bed . Blessings Chyna girl.

[@emikosan8712]

I too lost my beautiful father at a young age. I grew up coparenting my siblings and an untrained therapist for my beautiful, honest, overworked mom who never drank or received any masculine assistance from 1956 on. That was a long time on deck. I am blessed with a super husband and one son who was severely harmed legally. The two grandchildren have been stolen emotionally by their selfish mother, our only grandchildren. The children are beautiful accoutrements to the low life people that worship her. My husband has had two strokes, a heart attack and a quadruple bypass. He comes home tomorrow. I hope my faith remains strong and we seize more joy as we all advance to the perfectly timed apocalypse. Any prayer most appreciated. Thank you and your husband for sharing your faith and encouragement as we stick close to our heavenly Father and Savior, the King 👑.

[@williamsgang4437]

I'm not crying, you're crying...thank you for sharing your heart...we are spiritually connected to our parents and their loss is a deep wound/void...God made us to live forever...this death experience goes against everything God desired for us and therefore it feels wrong and painful...yet, in His goodness, God has given us a path to eternal life.

[@moonlighteternal8024]

Thank you for your courage in sharing such a tender & precious memory with us, Chynna. My heart is hurting for your pain... & I must confess that I am crying too. The words you left your Father with were very beautiful & I am certain that he appreciated your acknowledgement of him as a Father. Bless him. xx

[@kathrynwoodroof894]

You are such an inspiration to me. Your attitude and outlook on everything makes me soften up about things in my own life. I am so grateful that I "accidentally" stumbled across your channel last year.

[@sandraochoa7842]

Dear Chynna, the Lord is using you in such a special way because of your willingness to be vunerable and share deep from your heart. May you find great comfort in knowing that you will see your father again in glory and nothing will ever take your joy away from you and yes every tear will be wiped dry and there will no more sorrow. All wounds will be healed❤ Much love and blessings to you in Christ💜

[@shawnmcquillan3874]

Oh Chy, we don’t choose our parents… he was your Dad and u honored him… in such a situation u did your best… u were only a child.., He s looking down on u Chy and someday he ll meet u at the gates❤️❤️❤️

[@AdairCty]

Thank you for sharing! I was with my Dad during his last weeks. It is tough to let them go from this earth. But heaven will be the reunion for us…and you with your father! ❤️

[@50hellkat2]

No matter how many troublesome past memories from one's family there are... there are always the good memories and that is what makes it so hard and bittersweet when it comes to loss. Very sorry Chynna.

[@allysonkho2017]

This video made my day! Soooooo happy to know that you got confirmation that your dad is saved and in Heaven. God bless you and your family. I pray your mom is saved, too.