My Pill Journey

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[@chrystall8216]

"Jesus, what is the price of happiness" GOD that hit me hard for whatever reason

[@headempty9112]

i felt the same way

[@livinlifeasbuckshot9409]

Now I see a comment that's making me think, now I'm crying.

[@sarisolbajoelsol]

Same

I've always questioned if God was real because of my extreme bad luck. It does make sad that all of this bad luck happens to me but I still always wonder if Gods real

[@starbai410]

+Chrystall WentzUrieAllen Have you ever noticed that children are always happy? its because the don't dwell in the past or worry about the future, easier said than done though growing up. But we should try to live in the moment.

[@paulinemoreaux3923]

See, Buzzfeed?... This is a good video. When the message is so important, sad, powerful, there's no need to drown it in exaggerated acting or melodrama. The message here stroke me so hard, cause Kelsey kept such a level, monotone voice. A level examination of her own life. Her tone and the way she talks about the pills make it work so much.

[@lilysm6382]

agreed

[@vexedin-7091]

Yes exsactly I am going threw the same thing

[@soph6028]

Exactly

[@yerikay4702]

"Jesus this is getting expensive, what is the price for happiness?!" That hit me in a way I can't describe

[@ebbietee98]

I know :/. This made me think of Leona Lewis's Happy.

[@JamesV84]

I've never seen this side of *Kelsey*... I already _loved_ Kelsey. but I now _love_ her even *more* and have so much *respect* for her. I wish so much that I could give her a _hug_...

[@opocelots3223]

same, she really pushes the drunk girl with no care vibe but this just made me see a side of Kelsey that I didn't even know existed :(

[@JamesV84]

OP Ocelots I know she was bipolar and on medication, but I never expected this amazing story by her...

[@opocelots3223]

Graphic Design Guy Yeah, I didn't know her bipolar disorder drove her to such extents. Amazing how the happiest people are or were slowly dying on the inside.

[@JamesV84]

OP Ocelots I'm just in love with how many sides that she clearly has to her. Someone that I can just relate to on so many levels... and I don't even know her personally...

[@veragutie2725]

Same! I really really love her and now I feel like she is such an inspiration to me❤️

[@46yasha]

Kelsey is just so amazing and beautiful and strong.

[@SamandRie]

Can't tell if sarcastic.

[@jnmars1]

Who is Kelsey

[@aloe.wera.]

+John Mars she was narrating in this video

[@surafeld]

which one is she?

[@makarovfawkes4609]

surafeld her name is FEDORA FUCKER 69

[@yasminmohamed9274]

'I thought getting a diagnosis would come with a fix but I didn't feel fixed' brooo I felt thatt

[@solcezz]

' the scariest thing is when something depressing happens to a person with depression ' hit me harder then it was suppose to .

[@shiwanivanyzendoorn5092]

this is kelsey's voice right

[@meganc7930]

yep

[@vanessawhite6786]

Every time I watch this and hear "what is the price of happiness?!" I burst into tears

[@radiokitten385]

You guys should really do more videos on people that suffer from addiction.

[@jess38501]

Yes!

[@hollyaubry6390]

I've watched this video over 100 times. It's therapeutic.

[@sannaeriksson8648]

Holly Aubry me too 😂 and "living with depression"

[@bronteking115]

You know you watch buzz feed to much when you know it's Kelsey speaking!

[@anamatilde2838]

Who is Kelsey. Any video I can see her?

[@bronteking115]

+Ana Matilde search up 'I'm bipolar, but I'm not..." She's the girl with blonde hair and white t shirt.

[@anamatilde2838]

Bronte King Thank you

[@twinkletopsable]

"the threat of unpredictability is the scariest part when something depressing happens to someone with depression." wow

[@Ficlover13]

I come back to this video every time my meds get changed. I'm struggling with the side effects of the new pills now and honestly I feel like crap but I hope the chemicals of my body adjust to them in a couple of weeks. Be strong everyone. We'll get through this!

[@shandellleid6576]

Anna Cifer same!!! I’ve watched this video so much that I know it like the back of my hand. ☹️

[@sreyavannappagari8925]

This mental health week is great. It's awesome how Buzzfeed is raising awareness, and educating people about these issues.

[@rakchityonzan2806]

i wish buzzfeed would make beautiful videos like this nowaday

[@goosecouscous7658]

I didn't realize how much I needed this video. I'm not crying, there's something in my eye.

[@HotDog-pk9bn]

If you are reading this comment you are beautiful and amazing. Have an amazing day and KEEP SMILING 😇😇😇👍🏼

[@Houssambennokro]

+Hot Dog dud you must have so much free time to just spread love like this , im just saying that if someone with a busy day programme sort the things that he will do during the day by priority u probebly will find "spreading love" in the 20th page with 30 elemnts in each , and thanks have a good day as well .

[@dentonmaclean5614]

+Hot Dog thanks man its nice to see someone being nice over the internet and not just seeing a bunch of trolls being mean to anyone who will let them

[@mariavictoria2231]

This comment made my day 😊

[@OhyeahKandJyea]

+Hot Dog Thank you. I needed this right now.

[@dite6s9mora]

+Hot Dog I wish you the same! :))

[@michaelflores86]

Wow. Very Powerful. "But I can hold myself accountable for the strength of trying" Struggling to find the strength. Thank you for sharing.

[@kitari3655]

I've watched this I don't know how many times, and I cry every time. It's beautiful and raw and says so many things I've thought but never voiced.

[@userrrr4338]

I love Kelsey, she's funny, loving, and loves to talk about the more important facts a ton. She's amazing and I love her story with her mental health. It inspired me with my mental health to, I love how she explained why and what she says that matters.

[@Vivian-ir4sk]

the line "what is the price of happiness?" Is so powerful. love this video so much

[@adhorsegirl]

My favorite buzzfeed video of all time

[@gabriellasecontine4334]

Me too

[@mariacristiana7780]

same

[@floraclemency5642]

Same

[@ciaraingram181]

Same

[@charlottebeaudoin2179]

Same

[@meghank6236]

As an artist and musician, I can say that taking medicines for my schizophrenia and depression has completely dulled my creativity. Although the pills help the illness at hand, I suffer in other ways.

[@Eeveeswhimsicalwonders]

I feel you.

[@Jobe-13]

Same

[@fangirl5744]

i feel like creative people mentally struggle the most.

[@kiapen3072]

+Fangirl that is actually very true

[@Eeveeswhimsicalwonders]

Fangirl I swear, it's like doctors just want us to lose our sense of creativity and have us be like everyone else...

[@crystalinchen]

"good days bad days really bad days" on those really really bad days I always go back to this video. it helps, thanks

[@MrSensitiveNipples]

This was the best video I've seen on this channel. It seemed like I was watching the begging or end voice over of a movie.

[@MrSensitiveNipples]

I mean beginning or end. Typo.

[@user-lm5sb5vl9s]

+ilhwa jung it's not a disease. and these pills do help, they balance out the chemicals in the brain causing mental illnesses and disorders in the first place. finding the right ones is hard, but they do help.

[@enbees222]

+ilhwa jung And pills certainly aren't just "hope." Hope doesn't give you side effects. Hope doesn't make you gain weight or lose it, etc. Hope won't make a difference in a mental illness.

[@excorsistunicorn2506]

+ilhwa jung we rely on pills because sometimes they are the only things we have to kling onto and I don't just rely on pills I do t rely on anything I've learned not to do that because of people like you telling my that I feel like I'm dying and it's my fault.

[@chloew.2861]

+ilhwa jung I have ADHD, Insomnia, depression, and anxiety. Ever since I was six, I couldn't concentrate without my pill and I couldn't sleep without my other one, so clearly they work. However, I'm still looking for an antidepressant/anxiety medication that will work well for me but the point is that the right medicines do work, you just have to find them.

[@missrebeccay]

Just got put onto medication today, and it’s scary but I will “hold myself accountable for the strength of trying”. ❤️

[@amy8144]

I come back to this video very often. I feel it so hard.

[@AM-dh9ep]

I think this is one of the best videos Buzzfeed has ever made.

[@peterbaird5312]

This is such a powerful video, probably because there's no way of knowing that someone you know or love could be experiencing this same thing

[@PaulaPsychopathic]

When people hear about my mental disorders, they don't believe me. "You can't possibly have anxiety disorder, Pure O, Borderline and Depression." And when I list of all the medication I've been on while only being 20 years old they think I do it for fun. I'm on three different medications right now, I've already tried eight others. I suffered through withdrawels from Ativan and if that's peoples definition of fun then they are the fucked up ones. People often think that medication will "change who you are" and yeah they do, for me they changed me to someone who can be happy instead of constantly thinking about suicide. Thank you for sharing your story with us Kelsey ♥

[@originalname28]

Finn Nathan well i mean...unless it’s your family or trusted friends you shouldn’t be telling this to anyone otherwise you sound whiny trust me i know how it feels to be called that

[@rennievlogs565]

I am not a big fan of BuzzFeed's videos but I LOVE their mental health videos. They are so honest and true.

[@BrianDWong]

Hey. Thanks for this video. This really touched home. I dealt with suicidal thoughts and depression for a few years and was always afraid of the stigma of telling people I was depressed. I barely took anti-depressants because I was afraid of admitting that I needed help from a substance than to rely on myself to get better. When I finally agreed to take anti-depressants I kept crying in front of the pharmacist who kept giving me this look of judgement. Nobody told me, not my psychiatrist nor the pharmacist, that my depression would get worse before it gets better on the medication. I began taking anti-depressants on a class trip in Shanghai and I wanted to throw myself out the window and kept breaking down in my hotel room. I never felt so lonely, probably because I was half way around the world. I stopped taking anti-depressants because I got scared of the come down but a year later the chemistry in my head got better. I haven't been depressed since but I know it could come back. Thank you for telling your story. Your journey inspires me and I will use it for strength should my depression return.

[@cadenfarley5674]

“What is the price of happiness?” That really hit me...

[@kenzi8302]

in my experience, too expensive

[@cassidyfritsch9166]

“Hope” what a misleading drug in itself. Wow that hits differently 🥺

[@cezza180]

"The threat of unpredictability is the scariest part when something depressing happens to someone with depression" This quote has stuck with me 6 years later. JFC Kelsey, you are amazing!

[@lisashaw9737]

That hit me too! 😩

[@shep689]

this video hit way close to home. good for you, disembodied voice, for never giving up and giving strength to others to also persevere. you are amazing.

[@agapeeternal]

I love her even more now. This process is so frustrating, and it's so great to see this video, I can't express it.

[@ChickenNugget_655]

I'm on over 500 mg of medications to balance my mental state at 16. This is possibly the best video I have ever seen on buzzfeed, I connect to it so much. Especially with the lamictal that is exactly what happened to me, and the feeling I got. This video was like having somebody else tell my experience aloud.

[@khanhfident]

As the independent and very stubborn person that I am, I spent eight or so years of my life suffering in silence because I kept telling myself I could handle it on my own. Truth is, I never could and I just liked the idea of being able to. So eight years went by and one day, I just had enough of the silent suffering and being alone. I started going on Zoloft for my anxiety back in July and it's got to be one of the best decisions I ever made. Sometimes you have to take a step back from your ego and pride, and take a step forward to ask for help and start your recovery.

[@MissEmsiee]

17 years old with m.e, cfs, fibro, bipolar, adhd, ptsd, severe depression and severe anxiety. including panic attacks. I always go back to this video to remind myself that I'm trying to get my self better and all the medication I'm taking is for a reason.

[@jenlight7944]

Love kelseys voice

[@nishkatalwar3464]

Doesn't she sound like Hazel Grace from the fault in our Stars

[@sarisolbajoelsol]

That was my first thought but I knew who it was in the back of my head

[@julio-dh6st]

omg I thought that too!!

[@siapaaku2251]

omg i just realized

[@molly3391]

Omg

[@lornalawliet114]

its Kelsey

[@TheTamorres]

I cry every time i watch this video. It resonates with me so much. i just cant help it. thank you Kelsey for making this video. youre a hero

[@cristinarusso2950]

I almost cried when I saw this because about September of 2017 , I've gone through really bad anxiety. I was continuely having lot of panic , and a lots of anxiety attacks and I first went to a hospital where I stayed for 10 days, there they gave me the contact whit a therapist that wouldn't work whit me , meanwhile I was also going to a psychologist and she was helping me a lot . After I quitted my therapist to see another one, (that I went to see for the last time October 2018 ) my mental health started to get better. Now I'm really improved and I was only 11 years old when I went throught all of this , so PLEASE don't say that teens haven't got throught a lot, because It's not always true. So...It took me a long time to figure all of this out, but It's just in your head , you can either decide to let it win or let it take control over you . Trust me , I did it, others people did it , YOU CAN do it ❤️

[@breannamarieish]

Current meds: Prozac, Klonapin, Busbar, & Nortriptyline. Recently weened off Welbutrin for making my memory so bad, most of the beginning of this year is a total blur. I was cleaning my kitchen, totally fine, until I clicked this video, & now I sit sobbing on the floor, not because I feel alone, but because I wish I was alone, bc I would never wish the mental health issues I have on anyone. "how much does it cost to be happy?" That hit home hard. Thank you for you & your courage to be strong.

[@lolzorgfykys]

i've watched this 3 times in a row and i realize that it's kelsey... hang in there

[@carolinekanwan5624]

I suffer from BPD, and depression. I have been diagnosed with BPD but I never told anyone about my depression. Faking that I was fine everyday made me sick, mentally and physically. No one ever paid attention to my BPD , I always thought that no one , not ever my therapist , thought the BPD was that serious. Then it came. I got anxiety . I got panic attacks frequently , but never told any body . Next month I will be trying to find help for my depression .

[@supersizemcfly6860]

Caroline Kanwan you are not alone❤️

[@kelsihuff5208]

This made me cry. I had the same the journey. It is terrible and depressing. This is half the reason I'm in school to become a psychologist. No one should have to suffer like that. I understand there are worse things in the world, but who do have to run to when have no one, not even yourself, because you are worst enemy.

[@kevinmcconkey9468]

I love you. Turn to god !

[@jennawhitaker2471]

this video helped me get help for the depression I have had for years. thank you Kelsey and buzzfeed for mental health awareness week.

[@genna9885]

My older sister is on a similar journey. Lately, she's been losing hope. She said at least once a week to my family "your lives would be so much easier without me" Then she saw this video. She has hope again. She started fighting again. Thank you

[@RuneSigrid]

This is so inspirational. Made me tear up. If you read this, I don't care how cliché it sounds, it's something that I really needed to realize just now that I want to tell everyone who needs to hear it: you never are alone.

[@foamsoap41]

Just started meds a few days ago for OCD and depression. After 22 years of managing it somehow I decided enough was enough. We will all get through these struggles

[@M1lo207]

I’m on lemectal too... it didn’t work for me and i went to the ER and tried to commit sucide 3 times. I’m still trying to make my medications okay. Your gonna be okay it will be okay 💛 this is an update from 4 weeks from this comment: I’ve gotten off of lemectal and i’m so much happier and i never thought i would be this happy ever. i’m on a cocktail of medication but i’m okay with it. i have the diagnosis now. Generalized Anxiety, Severe Major Depessive, and AdHD, and rapid cycling (like bipolar but less severe). now that i have these i can get better treatment. for the people who are still struggling to find everything, it will be okay, it will get better, i know it might not feel like it because i’ve been told this and i didn’t believe it and here i am. it got better. you will be okay 💛

[@brookemartinez3354]

this video describes it perfectly. i have been on medication my entire like for ADHD and then depression set in and then came another pill. i can't explain to anyone how i feel my therapists thinks im fine, like im on meds so i must be fine right? no one can tell you if you are and something you can't even know yourself. this video put it into words that i wish i could. thanks, y'all helped me so much in life.

[@Brina9xoxo]

I relate to this so much, I couldn't even begin to tell you how many times I've watched this video since it came out. Thank you BuzzFeed, I needed this.

[@gaiaeastley2546]

I've watched this 10 times and idk why

[@cokeheadbenny]

are you kinda fat? this may be why.

[@allygrint-potter6550]

Jazzmen Aker Oh wow, same thing with me. I've watched this way too many times. 😮

[@d.p.2720]

Oh my God Kelsey. Thank you I needed this. I haven't got the guts to go to a doctor. I didn't know you have such a journey I always admired you because of your personality well after this video, I salute you Kelsey!

[@cheyennerowlands6817]

I have Bipolar disorder. it's the worst feeling in the world to be happy, then sad. then realize your overreacting, then overreact because you're overreacting. I'm 14, but I'm making it. it's hard. but I know I can make it through. if you're going through this things please be good to yourself and realize its not your fault, and surround yourself with a support system that understands you (: Much love from the U.S.

[@karolinamoravcova8199]

cheyenne rowlands same here. bipolar disorder and anxiety attacks.41 pills a day. xanax addiction. it sucks

[@RiverValleyAcres]

cheyenne rowlands you are way too young to be experiencing a bad life. Life gets way harder after school is over so make the best of what you have. Make and meet new friends. Love your family. Create goals that you want to achieve and achieve them. Find a new hobby like working out or something you find interesting. But don't ever rely on drugs. They will ruin your life and make life not worth living. I am a former drug addict that started with prescription pills and ended with iv heroin. It ruined 10 years of my life. But I am clean without anything and I ever felt better.

[@addiez1352]

I can't stop rewatching this

[@samantharose8943]

+Addie Z me too, its my 900th time

[@lilysm6382]

+Samantha Grado make it 9010

[@taisha6270]

Is that Kelsey?　 Her voice kind of sounds like Jennifer Lawrence's voice

[@satsukikiryuin8033]

Yep that's kelsey

[@manuelprieto7402]

it does.

[@yuvuki]

This video is so beautiful and powerful, it really makes you think.

[@kaitlynprestwood6290]

@Kelsey....I’ve watched this video at least thirty times. It gives me hope. Thank you.

[@kevinmcconkey9468]

As well! I love you keep fighting!

[@emilyjan227]

This is incredible and we need more of it, because too many people think that after being one prescription all of their mental problems will be magically cured--they give up when it doesn't work. However, the pill journey never ends because our bodies are ever-changing. Wonderful message!

[@emilyartful]

Love that they talked about suboxone 💙

[@lem91460]

It's almost mental health week again

[@SaraSilva-id8js]

and they haven't done a video :\ I'm so unhappy with this

[@taylorsinclair5640]

This made me cry... I have gone to the lowest of lows with mental illness. Finally getting better and thinking wow that sucked I'm better now though and then all of a sudden it comes crashing down and your thoughts don't add up. You feel like you're losing your mind and it's not that you no longer want to live but your brain won't let you and you've tried so hard but you get beaten down in ways that confuse you and provoke the question, "why me?" And then you sit down with yourself, after pretty much isolating yourself for days and unknowingly self sabotaging the things that mean something to you because you don't want to ruin them since you've convinced yourself you're responsible for ruining yourself, and you tell yourself to try. THINK happy, meditate, DO something you love and you ask yourself is it that easy? And it's not. It is hard to maintain your mental health when your body's chemistry has put it on the back burner. But, when you do sit and tell yourself, it's just a thought, WHAT I'm scared of hasn't happened and may not even come true, The things I love are still here and if one day they aren't, thats fine too: you find yourself a little more able to breathe and every day after that. It gets easier.

[@rociopunzumaran4088]

Kelsey inspires me a lot, I identify a lot with her.

[@Piflorina]

I cried like a little baby watching this.

[@SkyeSong777]

"There are no rights and wrongs when it comes to feeling and mood. They just exist. We just feel. It's the choices we make on how to constructively deal with those feelings that define us." I wish I'd learned this years ago, I only started figuring it out in the past year or so. Thank you for making this.

[@kalumcrawford3420]

I saw this video years ago when I was first starting to question my mental state (and promptly ignore it). It’s about 7 years later, I’ve finally addressed, acknowledged, and recognized my mental health problems. And...I’m ready to start making things better. I’m about to start my pill journey tomorrow. Here’s to feeling “normal” again someday.

[@jonathansantiago792]

How did it work out? I ask... because I'm about to start that journey in a week or so and I'm lowkey terrified

[@kalumcrawford3420]

@@jonathansantiago792 Well, it’s been about a year. I’ve noticed far more positives than negatives. The adjustment period was a little rough (as expected) I was suddenly aware of my body in ways I’d not been before and had some trouble eating cause I felt nauseous all the time. I’m more stable now though. My depression episodes and meltdowns are less severe and I’m able to pull myself out of them faster. My moods are more consistent and I’m able to communicate my feelings and what’s happening inside to my family better. Much like the video “mode good days, less bad days, and even less REALLY bad days.” My ability to live life, care for myself, enjoy things, and take charge of my well-being is greatly improved. I’m talking to my doctor soon about hopefully continuing the medication long term. When he prescribed it, how hope was to wean me off after a year. However I feel that the benefits in my life that have come from my medication are too wonderful to take it away. I actually fear for what would happen if I was weaned off. To summarize: the right medication has brought life saving changes to my ability to function. If that’s a treatment route you’re interested in then go for it. Nerves are valid and understandable, but don’t let them hold you back from giving it a go. I really hope things improve for you aswell, in whatever way in happens.

[@DenerWerb]

@@kalumcrawford3420 more updates? Thank you for sharing this!

[@kalumcrawford3420]

@@DenerWerb Certainly!! I did convince my doctor to keep me on my medication for the foreseeable future. He had no issues with continuing the prescription. I’ve also been going to therapy for the last year which has made a huge improvement on top of my medication. I can recognize my emotions and mental state faster and respond to it appropriately for the situation. I’m able to communicate those thoughts and feelings to people much more easily. Most importantly I’ve found things that “spark joy” for me. I got into the aquarium hobby recently and have found that tending to the plants, fish, and mini ecosystems gives me a sense of purpose. I purchased slime last month once I got over the idea that it was “just for kids” and I’ve found it’s an amazing tool for reducing stress. I started a full time job in January that provides excellent benefits and wages. I AM EATING VEGETABLES BECAUSE I LIKE THEM. To summarize, my meds are amazing. The stability and clarity they’ve given me has allowed me to start taking charge of my life. No regrets.

[@DenerWerb]

@@kalumcrawford3420 I think you sold me haha. I’m gonna talk to my psychologist about it.

[@sophiaa1471]

I love this video so much, I have honestly watched it over 50 times.

[@marleneariz9853]

Mental illness is exhausting, draining, debilitating and isolating. The cons crush the pros. The only silver lining I see in my experience is being absolutely clear that my life will be in my control. There are so many of us struggling out there. They don't yet know how they will be able to treat all of us, so a lot of us are left to our own devises to sort out our mental illnesses. But we are. We are finding small techniques that make our lives a little bit better. We are swapping ideas and supporting each other. I hope that the next generation gets the adequate professional help to combat their mental illness but I'm proud of those now who are surviving this without professional help.

[@SopeSuds]

My happy little pill Take me away Dry my eyes Bring color to my skies My sweet little pill Tame my hunger Lie within Numb my skin

[@Petchickensrule1]

Hahaha! made my day!😂

[@evieb6321]

TROYE ❤️👏🏼

[@jasmineahn3884]

Troye Sivan

[@tamarahhoughton4483]

[@smilesparkleshine20]

I can relate so much to this im close to tears

[@Zoe_the_Introverted]

+Hannah Lou Close? I creating a small puddle on my floor haha

[@smilesparkleshine20]

+Zoe Richard haha i have terrible anxiety and ocd ive been on every medication possible this hit me so hard

[@Zoe_the_Introverted]

Hannah Lou I deal with major depression. I can't afford medication, so I can imagine how that bouncing from one pill to the next really feels. I'm sorry you have to live with mental illness as well. I hope you can gain strength from it as time goes on.

[@anxietycure8436]

+Hannah Lou If you are looking to get over your anxiety, panic attacks or depersonalisation and other mental disorders - WATCH MY VIDEO! Have a great day and keep smiling :)

[@Andresfin]

I am doing this right now. I have been on 5 different types of pills, 6 different diagnosis, 4 different physiatrists, and 3 different therapists. I am 18 and I am not going to give up on this! I will feel better!!! we can do this. 😊

[@marvink.9369]

We moved to Canada 12 years ago with my family. I was only turning 16 at the time. Everything was perfect. I have a place to go home to, I was just about to finish high school. I go home, do my homework, eat dinner when it's ready. I never had any worries. The future was crystal clear to me. Never had to think about rent, groceries, college and money. Suddenly out of nowhere, my dad was diagnosed with cancer and a month later my mother was got pneumonia. My dad seemed like he was strong and healthy and mom felt like it will be just like a normal flu that will go away. My assumption was wrong. My mom passed away one month after and my dad followed a few weeks. In less than 2 months, I lost both of them. My twin brother and I was left alone here in Canada. We suddenly lost everything and for some reason I couldn't cry at the funeral nor cried at all. It didn't feel real at the time. I think they've passed away too sudden that it left me cold. Now I don't know if I'm depressed or having some kind of PTSD. I just don't feel like myself anymore.

[@aspenparker5855]

I reccomend seeking help. I have PTSD and didnt expect I did, but once i was diagnosed and perscribed medication to go along with the anxiety and depression it gave me, it was a huge help. I'm sorry for your loss and I hope you can soon feel like yourself ❤❤

[@joelvaladez6905]

A really good movie that could potentially help is Coco, is about life after physical death. It’s a Disney movie, but it touches on a real subject. Highly recommend.

[@ellimcelhannon4077]

everything happens for a reason

[@megan4191]

Marvin K. I feel for you, on a smaller level. My father passed away from pancreatic cancer a year ago and my family hasn’t been the same since. But just because the world around you seems to be falling apart doesnt mean you have to. You have an entire life ahead of you and while it wont be easy you can do something beautiful and amazing as long as you dont give up hope. Please be strong

[@Mia-me4uy]

I am praying for you anyone who went through that kind of trauma would need time to process and heal. Don't be scared to go seek help. May you be blessed and find your way to peace and understanding.

[@allie6500]

it’s been years, and i’ve just begun my medication journey. this was what I needed today

[@glitchy_blu9820]

So emotional, I cannot believe how strong you are. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

[@fernbarton1892]

this hits so so close to home. ive taken nearly every ssri, been inpatient, outpatient, and residential. i take pills day to day and hope it works for a while. and im only 17.

[@rowanbriese3542]

This made me, cry it's nice to know that I'm not the only one.

[@izzier9395]

I haven’t ever had the guts to go to a doctor/therapist and I admire you for being strong through all of your stress and struggles

[@nugg3tb0i11]

BUZZFEEED YOU NEED TO MAKE MORE VIDEOS LIKE THIS

[@lesismore49]

When you're struggling with mental illness sometimes it's hard to believe someone out there is going through the same thing, but this video is very close to my journey. Including misdiagnosis, over a half dozen different medications to try, and now taking three medications.

[@xxx-qx5fe]

I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and severe depression. I was on several pills, new every month. Eventually my mother stopped me from taking them which made me turn to cutting but 2 weeks ago i got a kitten named Neko and for once i have a friend and comforter. I feel normal again, maybe not happy but normal

[@sylvias677]

Tiffany Mathers I agree animals work miracles, they have for me when I had depression in high school and we got a dog and Sadie was the one who brought me out of my room and made me able to communicate and relate to family. Than I moved out into my boyfriends moms house and she got me a kitten who I keep with me now. My boyfriend mom also got him a kitten who he had for around four years and the kitten also made him less depressed.

[@xxx-qx5fe]

Sylvia S I'm so glad to hear that you've been doing better! They really do help us more than most have realized ♡

[@xxx-qx5fe]

Altar of Deceit I'm so sorry to hear that, it must be awful, i've had a brother go through the same thing and i couldn't imagine what it would've been like. Respect

[@andierussell7442]

I started Prozac at 10, I started on 10 mg, I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety and I was so scared to take pills and now it’s a part of every day life, I was then diagnosed with PANDAS and was put on a pill for 2 years. It was huge I hated it I didn’t take it I would throw it down the toilet. By the time I was 11 I was on 20 mg I was but on another pill for Bipolar disorder and that’s just where it starts. I’m older now and I’ve learned how to balance things, when to take my pills, even how I live makes things better. I’m now currently on 30mg of Prozac and I’m getting taken off soon. Just know if you ever feel alone , you’re not there’s always something to do or someone to talk to. Stay strong ❤️

[@annikajohnson9176]

This video is the best one on buzfeed. It gives me hope that one day my mental illness will end and I can soon be happy and content with my life

[@wtfrnchtost2190]

Remember when buzzfeed was like this

[@phoebethegreat6253]

As someone with mental health issues, I feel lucky to live in the UK with the NHS because I will never go without medication or treatment I need because I can't afford it.

[@squid7592]

Thank you for this video. For someone who has suffered with depression and being diagnosed with almost every other disorder, I appreciate this video. The journey is long and won't stop until you're 6 feet in the ground. You have to fight. You have to hold on. You have to make the best of it. It's unfortunate for those who suffer, our journey in life hits a lot of speed bumps. Surround yourself with good and share good. Just because you suffer doesn't mean others should, be strong.Best of luck to everyone and their journey.

[@HannahBowling]

"What is the price of happiness?"

[@ChinaDragonGirl]

This. Video. The more I watch this, the more I feel like talking about myself. I've watched this dozen times for days. The more I watch this, the more I want to be able to talk by myself.

[@jmeramos]

I love this video. I come back and watch it almost every year. It's a great reminder to those trying to find their path. 🤗

[@vallianantha5215]

Hope - What a misleading drug in it self.... This made me Cry.. I love Kelsey's voice in this.

[@bbiyao]

my mom suffers from bipolar disorder and chronic major depression, and this video is so nice to watch. Even though I am not the one suffering, my mom's various reactions to dosages and problems with medication, and pill cabinets filled with 30 different medications... it's just nice to see she's not the only one :) thanks

[@AC-qv3rq]

So beautiful. Thank You Kelsey.

[@terderp]

This video makes me cry every time I watch it. -sighs-

[@samantharausch6842]

this whole video describes what I've gone through for a decade medication wise other than that I've had anxiety my whole life and depression and ADD since I was a teenager

[@mackenziecrichton307]

I've had anxiety since I was a child. i worried about everything and I couldn't sleep because I was anxious. When I missed events or going out because I was anxious it would make me feel guilty and more anxious. I never talked about my anxiety with anyone, even my mom who also has anxiety, because it would make me more anxious. The worst part is that I thought it was normal. I thought I was just going to be that way for my whole life. I didn't know that there was medication anxiety. It wasn't until I had a panic in my doctor's office that he put me on 10 mg of cipralex the same medication my mom was on for her anxiety. Everything changed. I could sleep. I could talk to people. The medication was making me better, but... the next time I went to my doctor for a refill he said i should be stronger...he told me church was a good way to deal with anxiety...I got my refill and left and never went back. Now I'm at a doctor who know me and helps me deal with my anxiety and accepts that a mixture of breathing techniques and medication are whats best for me. No one should have to feel ashamed to get help with anxiety. It may take a little work and it may be hard...but it's worth it.

[@allgoodnamesaretaken2762]

"What is the price of happiness?" That line actually made me cry.