My story of depression & generalised anxiety disorder as a med student - relapses & how to tell uni

[@shamslilo5996]

We are not crazy or weird people we are a sensitive people

[@pjard7464]

Great quote for my life now. Yes be sensitive and be proud. We will make the world a better place if we overcome our suffery

[@pri5748]

HSP

[@Steven-gl4cw]

GAD has a lot to offer !!! the symptoms are wide ranging and suicidal thoughts are a big part of it and they can range from fleeting to cronic. I used alcohol as a guise for 29 years and that didnt work out to great 😂. The only gift from my epic decline with alcohol and anxiety was finally getting diagnosed 29 years after first going to a doctor about my anxiety, then in turn having the most amazing support from A.A meetings. I wouldnt technically declare half the people in A.A as alcoholic the truth is most fell down the rabbit hole using substances to block their feelings. A new and common thing now is dual diagnosis in the A.A rooms where a mental illness leads to a addiction. For me the GP's were a epic fail they just dont have the first clue about treatment for mental health, i know this to be true as i lived in 19 different areas in my life and not once was i sent for a mental health assessment it was actually a specialist addictions centre that wrote a letter to my GP demanding a assessment and only then was i diagnosed after the assessor asked for my life worth of doctors notes. I asked my assessor if it was a easy diagnosis , she said yes, very easy. From that day 6 years ago i never drank again , never got arrested again, was never violent again and now have solid like minded people around me. On the rare occasion i visit a local GP i am still dumbfounded by their negligence and lack of giving a shit. I get better advice and help for absolutely free than from the doctors who get 150,k a year, go figure!!!!.mental health needs to be specialized . GPs are for burst appendix and hernias not mental health, they just dont have the time available and for the most part couldnt understand why people feel the way they feel. Example - They usually have very good upbringings and generally good mental health comes with good jobs and good wealth, whereas specialist centres are training ex addicts or recovering addicts to treat menral health which is brilliant as they totally get the issue. We have a saying in A.A " Dont expect earthlings to understand alien problems". This may not always be true but predominantly it is. Anyway im still mad as a box of frogs so alcohol wasnt the biggest part of my issue, my issue was me . I have to change me to fit into life because others wont change to suit my needs. This is called spirituality and for people with poor mental health its the very essence of what they need in their life , for their life to be managable. Its not wrong to believe in a power greater than ourselves when all other avenues are exhausted , tried and failed.

[@Steven-gl4cw]

Speak for yourself . Im all three 😂😂😂

[@aditicuteful]

First of all, I am super super proud of you. I can relate to you a lot. I’ve suffered from anxiety since I was 15 and I felt guilty about it , about how I must be a burden to people to deal with. I bottle up emotions a lot and it led me to have panic attacks 2 months ago which felt like I was dying. My aunt passed away due to covid, my father passed away 6 years ago due to brain tumour and because of suppressing grief, I sort of developed health anxiety. For the first time I was on meds and then I decided to take control of myself for good. I went off meds, my panic attacks stopped ( it took some time though), fixed my sleep schedule, ate better food and even though I still feel anxious sometimes, I acknowledge the growth I’ve made. I’m also moving to uni in a few days to a different city, I’m also seeing a counsellor there. I’m very scared but I just assure myself that all of this is not life threatening, but is only my suppressed emotions. I just want to say, it’s very hard sometimes but just know that you’ll get through this, atleast that’s what I tell myself. Sending you lots of hugs and love❤️❤️❤️

[@millier9658]

Bless 💗

[@sqshq1337]

As a med student I feel like dying before and during exam period because eventhough i am one of the best student regarding the results i have a very low self esteem and i dont know how to enjoy success and love myself, still am on antidepressant and xanax for a year soon. I think it is linked due to my parent traumatic divorce in my early teens. It sucks and I wish I could enjoy and be happy forever. Thanks for you story it was very relatable and I think you're a strong and brillant girl which deserve so much

[@DrTashBinnie]

You are so much stronger thank you even know! You deserve happiness and to be proud of yourself. Please reach out for support if you need it x

[@sqshq1337]

@@DrTashBinnie Thank you so much for your time, have a great weekend!

[@nabibibae4561]

@@sqshq1337how are you now? hope you’re doing well 💕

[@victoriadeoliveiraleite2685]

Thank you a lot for sharing your history. It helps a lot knowing that what I felt and feel,it’s not something that affects just me,you know? Thank you again,Tash!

[@DrTashBinnie]

I'm so glad! Mental illness sadly affects so many of us x

[@bubba283]

@@DrTashBinnie I deal with depression a lot I think mostly because I'm a gay guy I'm embarrassed by it.

[@amyhill3895]

This video has helped me so much! I have struggled really badly with GAD and Panic disorder ever since breaking my leg in October 2020. Your video really made me feel like I wasn't alone, so thank you!! Thank you for also talking about taking Anti-depressants, I have been prescribed but am fearful of taking them (Health anxiety isn't fun) but your experience has made me feel a bit better about taking them now xx

[@DrTashBinnie]

What a lovely comment and thank you for sharing your story with me too. Sending lots of love xx

[@Baillie.]

I’ve recently been diagnosed with GAD and depression, it’s really scary, the tablets ive just started taking have made me not want to leave my bed, my appetite completely went a few weeks ago and still struggling to eat anything,the suicidal thoughts are so bad I really hope I get better, very happy that you doing better

[@rushvrdn2828]

If u want we talk/connect

[@amandahernandez6117]

You probably need to change your medication. You should talk to your doctor. Your message was a month ago, I hope you’re feeling better now.

[@Axmed-wali]

How are you feeling now😊

[@disneyfan9134]

YOU’RE NOT ALONE!!!!! We’re all human and it’s perfectly okay to feel anxious sometimes. A very wise mall Santa that I met, back in 2018, once told me that “even on the cloudiest day the sun STILL shines behind those clouds meaning that no matter how dark it looks, the sun is STILL there and the joy and happiness is there for you as well”. No matter how scary or how uncomfortable things get for you, just know that everything’s going to be okay because you deserve to feel safe, loved, comforted, encouraged and for those who loved you and who really want to help u and be there for you and stay by your side either way. Whether from friends, family or anyone you trust and feel safe with. I maybe an autistic women whose probably may or may not have had a lot of panic attacks but I can honestly tell u. I’ve had anxiety attacks due to my fear of failure in school or at work and not being good enough as a person and losing my job and I’ve also struggled with anxiety and depression for quite a long time so I do understand perfectly well the feelings of worthlessness, lack of self esteem, anxiety, depression, self hatred, loneliness, feeling trapped, frustration, remorsefulness, insecurity and the feeling of wanting to get try to better yourself but always coming out as a failure. Plus having been through Covid and being forced to follow Covid safety protocols like many others, myself, has been deeply traumatizing and extremely difficult for me as well socially, mentally, physically and emotionally. The point is, your anxieties, your depression and everything mental health related DOES NOT define u for who you are, it’s what’s inside your heart and all the things we’ve accomplished in life and the kind of person u REALLY are in your heart that truly defines u for who u are. Some people are not gonna always understand what you’re going through and maybe they never will but as long as you have the people in your life who loved and cared about you or that special someone whom deeply loves u and genuinely cares about u and will do anything in the world to help u to overcome this, you’re gonna come out even stronger and more courageous than ever and before you’ll know it, you’re gonna surprise people by how far you’ve come in the end. The fact that you had the courage to make this video and open up about your inner struggles and your vulnerability REALLY MAKES U A MUCH STRONGER AND BRAVER PERSON IN MY BOOK. Give yourself a pat on the back. U did an amazing job!! 😊😊 Stay strong, have courage, be kind to yourself, take heart and NEVER EVER give up hope because you ARE beautiful and practically perfect just the way you are in every way . ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@user-mp9xz8yg4j]

Creating the feelings of love is what has taken me out of my depression. It can work for you too.

[@TheGatewayProductions]

Huge thanks for this video! Anxiety is terrible but we can crush it!

[@DrTashBinnie]

Aw thank you so much and ABSOLUTELY!

[@shamslilo5996]

Can you tell me how can I crush it

[@As-is4iq]

I'm so sorry to hear about your experience. I hope your mental state and health improves. Take care.

[@charlottewenban2931]

Thank you so so much from a struggling F2 with a very similar story xx

[@DrTashBinnie]

You're so welcome! Hope you are well lovely x

[@kylestevenson5600]

An incredibly honest account Tash, you should be so proud that you had the guts to be able to make this video, it takes allot to put it all out there. 😊 I also have depression managed by SSRI’s, however before I got help by going to the doctors when I was feeling suicidal, I recognise allot of the symptoms that you felt. The message in essence was really just to say you’re not alone and to say thanks for your video it’s greatly appreciated. 😊

[@DrTashBinnie]

Aw what a lovely comment! Thank you so much :)

[@kylestevenson5600]

@@DrTashBinnie You’re welcome 😊 Thanks again for the video

[@georgeskate78]

These videos are very great and eye opening. Very brave for coming out

[@DrTashBinnie]

I appreciate that so much! Thank you lovely x

[@indrakamalyadav2921]

I am a med student as well. I have anxiety and depression

[@787aida-rivers.a]

You can do this BUT if affects you so much studying with the condition take a break bc your health comes first

[@konskaporcja3889]

Thank you so much for this video. It has just made me feel a bit better.

[@harrieta6961]

I'm in tears 😢

[@DrTashBinnie]

Aw I'm sorry haha!

[@pjard7464]

Your amazing. Thanks so much for your story. I have gad and it's hell. Never ending it seems but thank for HOPE

[@Emmz_22]

You are so strong gurl! Keep going xx

[@DrTashBinnie]

Thank you so much!! Lots of love xxx

[@JifiJoo]

you are such an angel

[@BEACHDUDE71]

I believe it will be better in two years

[@waelissa7154]

Thanks for sharing I love you so muchhh , I am 21 years old and I am suffering the same story as u , I was so happy in my life until the panic attacks disorder and GAD entered my life , I was diagnosed two months ago Now I am trying to calm down my overthinking thoughts , trying to stay grateful for everything, knowing that it is still going around at sometimes but I am trying my best to deal with it , surround myself with positive people and keep pushing at my university, but the question I want to ask my dr said that my treatment needs the Cognitive behavioral therapy and a little bit of medication “paraxonat” the thing that till now I didn’t start yet in the medicine cz Im afraid a bit most of people and specifically here in middle east region they’re saying no its bad you’re still young and so on … what do you thing should I start trying at first the cbt ? Or start taking the med ? Thanks and sorry about my bad English , wael from lebanon

[@amandahernandez6117]

I’m studying to become a nurse and might even go to medical school in the future. I also have anxiety and depression. It’s really hard to live like this but I’m not giving up.

[@DrTashBinnie]

Never give up! But don't suffer alone - make sure you reach out for professional support!

[@DontAssume123]

Look at you you're such a sweetheart people suck

[@Aesthetic_leen]

Hi did u have physical symptoms like chest pain, lump in the throat sensation, tingling, breathing issues and stomach issues?.... I was dealing with them since 3 months.. It was in the beginning of this month that the lump in my throat sensation got worse and was not going for weeks... I was dying everyday.... I'm on SSRI since 12 days and I feel really really good already.. I'm coming back to living and I'll take them if I need them .... I'm no more ashamed of taking them

[@DrTashBinnie]

I'm so glad to hear you are getting the treatment and support that you deserve x

[@MysTicSouL-wr1nm]

can you please make a video on things one can do to get out of depression... or if can reply..thts also fine...its been 5 years...still trying to figure out how everyone gt out of it

[@pneumonoultramicroscopicsi4065]

Well, seeing the title i thought you were like me, but I study medecine as well, and started becoming a hypochondriac, and then I got more and more anxiety, panic attacks, i feel palpitations, i can't sleep it's horrible, even though i went to cardiologists who told me you have nothing, I'm still not sure if my problems are organic or psychological, albeit everyone is telling me that it's just psychological.

[@nabibibae4561]

how are you now? i hope you’re doing better now 💕

[@pneumonoultramicroscopicsi4065]

@@nabibibae4561 I'm doing much better now, ever since i finished my studies and i started working, my symptoms disappeared, it turns out they were related to my old dysfunctional lifestyle

[@munishqureshi7285]

Find the most suitable meds for you. Take them. You'll be okay. Whole psychiatry shrinks down to this. And it's true.

[@kattyude8256]

Did these experiences have any impact on your grades, I’m in a similar position and this is my concern?

[@hayatelmernessi3737]

With me yes, sadly , in 1 week i have final exams of junior year and i don’t know if I’ll pass them.. :(

[@hasos5577]

Inspirational♥️♥️

[@harrieta6961]

Do u have a supportive family 👪

[@DrTashBinnie]

Very supportive but they didn't really understand the benefits of taking medication for your mental health which made things challenging!

[@Drfatmachowdhury]

You look like Emma Watson 🤔🤔

[@Steven-gl4cw]

Nothing wrong with taking antidepressants the hard part is finding one thst works and also one that works long term. I tried every ssris and snri over 3-4 year period i was either a zombie or manic. Then i changed doctor he put me on mirtazapine as it was taking me 4-6 hours to fall to sleep. My original doctor told me mirtapine would make me groogy all the next day but that proved not to be the case. I take at 8.30pm go to be at 12 asleep by 1a.m up by 7a.m no groginess at all. The downside is that it does little in the day for anxiety and isnt great on depession but it does subdue the worst of the symptoms( suicidal thoughts, less tears, can laugh at impractical jokers , which is the litmus test on wellbeing for me. If i can laugh occasionally then i know im not as bad as i feel i am. Recovery with GAD hss never happened for me its been worse year on year even with the masses of help i have. Its a case of different horses different courses with anxiety disorders my respite is in meditation or talking to like minded people not from watching the news and the mass brainwashing that people with mental health illnesses are liability to society, this is what the goverment are doing, purposely and its making things worse not better. They talk about getting the begging bowl out before sny mention of getting people help. Did i accuse thd goverment of begging me for money for the 28 years i worked!!! And i was a high earner before GAD hit me with cognitive &, emotional and physical issues.