Navigating a Breakup (Stage 01): Trying to stay afloat

[@dumplingglin]

Silently knew that something was up but I couldn’t imagine them without each other. I love them so much and their videos have inspired me.

[@pastelsnickel1165]

i know right? i felt something was off too but i respect her boundaries! this feels really upsetting for some reason maybe because i have watched them grow and navigate their relationship. i respect their decision and love her for taking such an important decision. i just feel really empty :(

[@dumplingglin]

@@pastelsnickel1165 yeah and i kinda related to her because i did the same thing with my ex lol. It must have been refreshing to start new from a new city.

[@mvuyiso_buyana]

Same

[@wang_xian]

Yeah… i guessed too. wishing them the best on their journeys :)

[@davinarobertson47]

does he have a youtube channel?

[@KaitiYoo]

i wish i could reach through the screen and give you the tightest hug. just like you probably learned SO much through this closing chapter of your life, this next era is going to challenge and catapult you into even bigger, brighter, and better things that you can't even fathom right now. the world is NOT ready!! rooting for you during this period of healing, leah. xo

[@leahsfieldnotes]

ilysm T-T thank you kaiti 🥺💐💓

[@amyblaine7624]

I broke up with a partner of 5 years around 3 months ago. We were in the same position as you where nobody did anything wrong, we just were at such different phases of personal growth and we just kind of outgrew each other. It’s really hard to end the relationship when nothing is obviously wrong. Because we still care about each other a lot and the love is still there. Like you, I’m also a serial monogamist and out of nowhere I ended up meeting this gorgeous guy at the bus stop at our university. I ended up having the most spontaneous, deepest conversation that I have ever had with a stranger. We are dating now. I probably needed more time to myself to just be single and collect my thoughts, but I guess life had other plans for me. Love is so strange and unpredictable, but there is so much to learn from it.

[@claire4212]

I’m just curious but what do you mean by “outgrew each other”?

[@littlemissyyy]

@@claire4212 my ex broke up with me a month ago saying this as well. I wasn’t brave enough to ask for what it meant. Do u mean u guys have lost the romantic feelings for each other? I’m still currently healing because i never once stopped loving him and I longed to grow with him. But I guess he has forced me to be by myself

[@amyblaine7624]

@@littlemissyyy I’m so sorry love💗 When I broke up with him, it was for many different reasons. It wasn’t necessarily that I didn’t love him. I still love him. He’s a beautiful soul. There just comes a time in some relationships where both partners need vastly different things to continue growing, and sometimes the relationship slows that growth down or gets people in a rut. For me, I was far too reliant on my partner for everything (which was absolutely not his fault). Especially in terms of my social life, I just clung to his friend group when in reality I didn’t actually like his friend group that much. I really needed to forge my own path and make my own friends and build my own life to achieve the growth I needed. And when we broke up, that’s exactly what happened. Did I get into a new relationship shortly after breaking up with my ex? Yes, but through that process I indeed branched out and made new friends (ones that I actually connect with). Relationships don’t have to end because somebody is cheating or the couple fights all the time. Relationships can end because it simply feels like it’s time to explore the world on your own now. It can really hurt initially, but if things are meant to be, they’re meant to be. Most of the time in those situations, it’s nothing personal. And if there is anything I have learned, it’s that life will really surprise you, and when you least expect it, the person and things you’ve been searching for tend to find you.

[@littlemissyyy]

@@amyblaine7624 hi, I really appreciate the long explanation and I guess what my ex is experiencing now is like what u said, u needed to branch out and yes, it hurts so bad to think that the other partner "doesn't want" to grow with me. I never wanted a breakup and I didn't feel the way he felt, and I guess that means I have to grow up now. Without him is a whole new world and I guess I have to learn. People growing apart is the most scary thing, especially both weren't on the same page.. I'm not sure about your situation at that time but I'm hurting so bad even though its been almost 2 months. I wish I can recover quick from this. May I ask,, what was the whole thought process in getting into a new relationship quite fast afterwards? Thought I might .. need to be mentally prepared if my partner did the same; no offense really I'm just really curious and .. I want to know more..

[@relaxcalmly1742]

@@amyblaine7624 Ngl, and I do not mean this in any way to offend you but everything you wanted can still be done with your original partner unless that was not an option. It only needed to be communicated, understood, respected, and planned for. There’s boundaries that can be set. With anyone, you will eventually get to the point of a different stage of the relationship where some new sets of values and reorganizing or planning needs to be set.

[@zuhairahhh6555]

never really prepared myself bout the fact you guys would break up. you guys always radiate such a positive vibe together and have helped look thru the world the nature in a more beautiful and meaningful way but i guess you can't never really believe what you see on cam right? influencers like you are still normal human being who go thru hard time and do have bad days where you feel sad. everything happen for a reason. so i'm sure there are something amazing waiting for you leah. thank you for being honest and transparent with us especially bout your personal life

[@chesvalen7418]

This is probably the saddest I’ve been for someone else’s breakup. Your approach on dating was really healthy, despite parting ways I still believe it really was even if I’m aware that these videos are just relatively small fragments of something bigger. I never met a guy who respected a women’s interest even those who are actually dating one, so watching how Andrew learned about your interests and tried to get into them felt surreal. None of us has the right to speak about your relationship because a relationship should always be about the people who are involved and there’s only two who knows it more than anyone else. Honestly knowing Andrew through this platform you created and gladly shared to us made me alter my intoxicated and generalized idea of what men are. And I feel bad that you thought this community would be disappointed at you, this is your life Leah, always remember that we are only watching what you love to share. Hope you both stay in good terms and meet again at some point because hey you drew Andrew on your vision board remember? The one in a cafe with chickens 🐓

[@leahsfieldnotes]

Haha awww that’s right I did draw that 🥺😭💓 I know he’ll always be in my heart, thank u for the sweet reminder. And I’m so glad that Andrew could be a role model in that. He’s the best

[@chesvalen7418]

@@leahsfieldnotes 🥲🥺😭 I love you❣️

[@NiceGameInc]

@@chesvalen7418 The fact of the matter is she is lesbian inside and therefore can't have a true relationship with a guy even if it was the best guy on the planet. Things like this happen again and again until one really finds out what they like. However, in case you really know what you like at an early stage, a lot of sadness can be prevented.

[@Ourelleetsy]

@@NiceGameInc i thought she's atleast bi?

[@Ourelleetsy]

I swear he's the only man i've seen, online and offline, that made me realize how good men can be, but where's the rest of him?? And i know what they shared, what she felt for him was genuine mutual care and love, even if im not sure its romantic love.

[@fmorley368]

This is the only couple I've seen break up on KZbin that actually makes me feel some type of way, I'm going to miss Andrew but I you need to stay true to yourself and your path, sending love to both of you💜

[@Leni-xu2qi]

the mom of a friend of mine is a color coach and artist - my friend is also going through heartbreak, she told her to wear pink and green as they are supposed to be soothing and healing for your heaartttt

[@leahsfieldnotes]

Awww thank u for the hot tip I will be sure to implement that hehe

[@lemurianfaerie1044]

Yes, the colours of the heart chakra 💚💖

[@khalilahd.]

My grandma always says the price of love is grief whether that means they passed away or moved on. It may not be something that heals over night but you will smile again. I wish everyone the best ❤️

[@gabrielaalves15]

i agree!!! jamie anderson, andew garfield and adrienne maree brown have said some really beautiful things about grief that are worth looking up

[@gabimaza780]

Wow. I’ve never heard that before. Thank you for sharing.

[@momonomay3011]

yes, love is beautiful but it can also be painful no matter what. we stick through though since hatred and isolation can hurt even more

[@eriswinterr]

I just never realized that there are various factors that can result in break-ups, and I have never thought so much reasons aside from ethical causes(cheating) but more just separation/distance/grown attach, and it is such a undermined reason to discuss or talk about.(Don't know if my point is made, english is not my first language😅) I think watching your video, it brought a shift in perspective, I have no relationship experience at all and I am glad that you are okay and coping and you have a good support system! Stay healthy, Leah! I love your videos as usual :)

[@corcormo]

thank u for showing me what a healthy relationship looks like. i will forever hope to find a love as pure as yours but i'll forevermore wish u guys nothing but joy and love. good luck to u both, on ur new beginnings!

[@moyamawhinney]

sending lots and lots of love leah 💞 you are such a pure soul and truly wishing you both the best for the future. hope you take all the time to heal and we'll always be here to support and love u from afar xx

[@kaziapacia4272]

This is really sad news but I know this decision must have been very hard. I wish you and Andrew healing and great opportunities to grow as you move forward in life. 🌸

[@madixxoo]

Oh Leah :( I wondered how things were going when you dropped the NYC vlog but I didn’t want to disrespect your boundaries by pressing. I’m actually so incredibly proud of you for the mindset you’ve managed to have in relation to the breakup: not holding on solely because you’ve been together for a while, recognizing that it was time to end things even though love is still there, acknowledging that neither of you are bad people for being ready to move on and away from the relationship, etc. It took me six years in a relationship before I figured out the things you’ve managed to and I love that for you. Being alone doesn’t mean you have to be lonely! You’re so right. Romantic relationships are only one type of love and partnership we have in our lives. I’m glad you’re finding that balance and embracing the other loves in your life. Finding where you fit in the world and focusing on growing and nurturing yourself is the best thing you can do, honestly. Romantic relationships are not everything. Sorry for the long message lol, I just hope you’re doing well despite this and I can say, from experience, you will come out of this and into the next chapter of your life stronger and happier and more balanced and more mature emotionally and it will all be okay 💛 Sending you so so so much love and good energy and… yeah! Take your time and be gentle with yourself and embrace all the feelings.

[@TilikaVispute]

THIISSS!! Omg you put it into words so beautifully!!! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 Sending love and light to everyone here 😭♥️🥰✨

[@777q]

same. i was very surprised when she dropped the nyc vlog and honestly i was wondering why andrew wasn’t really mentioned. now i know the reason why…i’ve loved them so much but it’s the best for them!

[@zoeunlimited]

I understand that it’s much harder than it looks and am SO PROUD of your mindset and attitude toward this new chapter. Sending you the best wishes for healing, love, and self discovery, Leah.🤍🌱✨

[@leahsfieldnotes]

thank u sweet angel 🥺💕

[@Chris-je5yz]

I went through a breakup this Fall after 3+ years, and it was similar/identical reasons to you. Nothing “inherently wrong,” but respecting the growing in different ways and realizing each other’s happiness may be best not together. Sending hugs 💛

[@ivonnerangel5324]

me too. It was in April but I hope we all get thru this 💛

[@ItsJustBleu]

Same here, 5 years. it's such a hard decision, but it makes you feel such love choosing to honour yourself that way. Sending love and care to us all 💚

[@jazminaguilar3468]

me too, three years and engaged to be married spring 2022. You're not alone.

[@najwakarina8126]

i never realized i am so attached to youtubers and their relationships until now. i feel like im a part of leah's life and leah's a part of mine. seeing her go through this saddens me. but i am so proud of you leaaahhh

[@raquelluz6585]

Break-ups aren't easy at all. One thing I try to remember, and this goes for any sort of hardship or pain, is that the feeling of peace and relief will come eventually, and it will feel so nice and cozy and make you a lot kinder and more compassionate with yourself. That thought really keeps me going. Sending lots of love and wishes of a kind healing process your way

[@adeline4043]

ended a relationship a week ago, and throughout the whole week i felt lost and stagnant, and i had no idea how to process everything. and of course, i’ve been thinking about him more lately. 90% of the time, my thoughts ended with me deciding to hate him, and dwell on what he’s done wrong in the relationship. but watching your video leah, gave me a realisation. seeing you wishing andrew well and choosing to continue your love for him feels surreal and a slap in the face. i didn’t know people can end a relationship but still remain loving for the other, and that made me further realised how i had completely missed the whole point of loving someone. ending a relationship doesn’t mean ending your love for someone, and choosing to still loving someone isn’t a sign of weakness, rather it means how powerful your love is. i’ve always been infused with the idea that breakups should end badly, and with lots of resentment, but you proved it wrong; you showed me a different version of love that prolongs your relationship with the person and contribute to your own personal growth. it’s something simple that’s presented in the video, but has opened a new door for me to move forward. thank you.

[@rigzinlhamo9566]

That really took me aback. Like I was attached to being them a couple. But also trying to respect their decision to move ahead and concentrate and improve the individuality in them. Best of luck guys. Love you.

[@yoongis.tangerine]

This made me tear up a little, i have learned a lot on being a better partner through you guys,and honestly this channel has been a big part on my relationship's growth. but i am sure this is for the best. proud of you, leah. wishing you happiness and peace everyday ☀️

[@haleyhunter9232]

I just ended an 8 year relationship at the end of november. neither of us did anything wrong but we realized we had just grown into very different people and we needed to grow on our own. i relate to this video so much. all i’ve done is surround myself with my friends and my hobbies since the breakup and this video just made me feel so understood and connected to you and i’m looking forward to both of our futures ♥️

[@magdeliarnstrom]

almost a year since I broke up with my ex and it was seriously the best desicion I ever made. it is so hard to really connect with yourself and fully allow yourself to grow and meet your full potential when you have a significant other. A sad truth (for me at least) but when you get to know yourself again it makes it all worth it. sending love and support

[@christinaflutter5411]

I learned a lot about the beauty that can come through a relationship from you two, but that doesn't mean you have to be together forever. Just because something is good doesn't mean it has to stay. Sometimes you need a change, and also we don't know your whole relationship. I also completely appreciate your reflection on wanting to share more love with friends and build those relationships up in new ways. Having hitomi share things about her sacred sisterhood really makes someone reflect. And sometimes when you move or have larger changes you recognize things you didn't know you needed or you forgot was a part of you or something you wanted to grow. Please take this breakup at your own pace and don't feel pressure to share things you don't want or aren't ready too. Glad to hear you have support in your life and that you and Andrew are on good terms ❤️❤️. Also sending love to you Andrew, this comment applies to you as well. Your reflections on growth and school and development really meant something to me when you and Leah did chatty videos. You have a lot of wisdom and I wish you the best ☀️

[@erina.arenaa]

I also want to mention that these videos really do help others going through the same situation, not knowing how to deal with it and the fact that you shared this means you want to help others and aren’t afraid to hide anything as it is a healthy situation. (ps: never feel pressure to post things too personal)

[@leahsfieldnotes]

Thank you 🥺💓

[@erina.arenaa]

@@leahsfieldnotes OMG YOU REPLIED OMG THANK YOU SM YOU MADE MY DAY!!! 🤍🤍😭😭

[@nadine4227]

I hope everything is fine with the both of you, I'm gonna miss this duo. : (

[@pakhiparashar9377]

I have always rooted for you and Andrew and this video left me teary. We haven’t met but even watching your videos makes me feel like you’re my friend. I know for a fact that you are the more encouraging, affectionate partner in a relationship, but you also ensure your self growth which is amazing. Breaking up doesn’t have to mean that everything’s over, in fact i’m sure the two of you had sooo much to learn from one another. Time will heal everything, eat well, sleep well :) love u 💗💗

[@leahsfieldnotes]

Thank you sweet angel 👼🏻

[@pastelsnickel1165]

hey leah! as someone who's watched your videos since a very long time i'd like to tell you that i am proud of how much you've grown as a person and i respect you so much! i am always there for you! take care and i hope things get better soon :) going to miss andrew a lot too!! sending love and hugs from the other side of the world!

[@yeobo]

I think we all had a little feeling and it’s a bit upsetting but it’s still so honourable seeing this transition in your life be documented, I am the worst at goodbyes but we will miss andrew so much !

[@cherrypie4486]

You won't believe me but I cried four times after watching this video. I feel so sad. Your relationship was beautiful and inspiring and you guys are my comfort duo during my mental roller-coaster days. But we will never know how things are going off-screens so I do respect your decision and note that I love you as always. Big hug and kisses. Always be happy Leah! YOU HAVE US♡

[@jazminaguilar3468]

literally going through the same thing right now. Just broke up with my partner of three years. We were engaged and were supposed to get married in spring of next year. I realized that I really wasnt ready and really need to grow. He felt the same. We both decided that it was best to end things completely, in order to have a new start individually. The hardest part was walking away when I still love him (and neither of us did anything wrong). I also was someone who jumped from relationship to relationship and never allowed myself to live as a single person. This is my first time single as an adult. It's also the first time I've just sat with my feelings over a break up, instead of move on extremely quick like I use to. I miss him and our relationship, but this really is a time for me to learn to truly be comfortable on my own and be happy with. where I am, who I am, and those I have around me. It's only been two months, yet it's also somehow already been two months. Sorry for oversharing on the internet unprovoked hahah, but I just felt so seen and related to with this video. Know that you're not the only one going through this Leah (or if you're another random person on the internet reading this too (: ).

[@sandycao6176]

A couple days ago I also seperated from someone I dated for 3 years and I relate to a lot of the feelings you had during this video. I too want to spend more time with myself and love the space I create for myself to grow as an individual. It's hard to shift into that mindset after being used to giving so much energy for one person, but it is possible to spread that love to myself and my friends who have supported me my whole life as well. This video was extremely comforting (as are all your videos) so i just wanted to say thanks for letting us hear your story and find comfort in it.

[@AlliVera]

Love u sooo much! I’m excited for this next chapter for you, you truly did the right thing & what’s meant to be yours always will be 💗

[@rosar.4293]

Went through a break up earlier this year and I’ve grown so much since then. It was my first break up and I felt so bad but I later realized how toxic the relationship was so that’s helped me get over any residual feelings. I can’t imagine what it’s like to break up on good/amicable terms though. It’s strange realizing that the relationship I was in wasn’t healthy months AFTER it ended. It’s made dealing with the breakup complicated and I haven’t seen any advice forums or videos on the subject either. I suddenly had a lot of unresolved feelings and late anger with nowhere to direct it to. I eventually made my peace and am really looking forward to what the future has in store for me. :) I’m just rambling now but thank you for uploading this video! Seeing you be so open and vulnerable with us is uplifting.

[@thatstrueblue]

I can see in the comments we all felt something's off. Not with Andrew or Leah but she had so many changes with her hair (cliché, but at first I was like eh), and then finding a separate space for work, which I can relate to but it still felt like she wanted more freedom even though this isn't Andrew's or anyone's fault, really. I'm also sad bc breakups can be hard even if you were on good terms, but I hope both Leah and Andrew will be okay bc they both were so funny together and supportive of each other. I'll miss that energy in a sense Andrew had very good advice as well and the comedic duo was awesome and giving me some hope hahah. But yeah, thanks for telling us and I hope Andrew navigates through this okay, as well 💙 I'm glad you're surrounded with great ppl

[@caszmos]

edit: i can feel this is going to be a bittersweet vlog

[@mushfemme]

coming back to this series after an unexpected four year breakup. leah, thank you so much for putting this on the internet. your mindset is so inspiring and beautiful.

[@sophia5849]

so proud of you leah !! i wish my past self chose herself and broke up without feeling so much guilt about it. my ex didn't take it well so the break up was extra hard for me and so after 2 years i still feel like a bad person & can't move on, although it was the best decision i have ever made in my life. if anyone else is struggling with this as well, choosing yourself will never be a wrong choice. only good things will come from it. sending you so much love leah

[@ItsJustBleu]

Thank you for this! Going thru a brake up similar rn and appreciate your perspective

[@sophia5849]

@@ItsJustBleu you’ve got this

[@genesisg8403]

Leah, I’ve been dealing with possible undiagnosed ADHD and diagnosed major depressive disorder. My life always feels so bleak and hopeless. I constantly feel incredibly down. But your videos are so helpful at making me realize there are ways I can improve my life and change my irrational behavior and thoughts. It has been extremely therapeutic to watch your videos, they have helped me in so many ways you couldn’t imagine. It’s like actually having a friend since I don’t have the support of friendship. I know you will continue to grow even through this hardship and come out the other end even stronger. Thank you for your videos and your ability to be so open. It honestly is mind changing for me and puts me in such a better place.

[@deliatran224]

My brilliant friend has got to be my favorite book ever....it details really well the complexities of female friendship and love and family and growing up and changing. I love the internal dialogue of all the characters. Sending you so much love on this new journey Leah

[@hakhdo]

no matter what, I hope that you and Andrew both stay well

[@nurtbmtv]

:( im gonna miss Andrew. Hope all is well.

[@milagrosb]

same :(

[@dilekpuder794]

Same😢😢

[@nurtbmtv]

@@carikintsugi not everyone wants to vlog, some just wanna live a normal life

[@malihahyasmin3138]

Same :(

[@saradc4863]

This breaks my heart but… you are your own priority and I can’t wait what the universe is holding for you. Sending love❤️

[@sareema8308]

Girl, I feel like we are living sister lives. I grew up in Toronto and recently moved back home after leaving a shared flat in CDN post-breakup. Props to you for having the courage to post this, and also slowly but surely you will find you have an abundance of energy for your friends and they will fill you up in ways your relationship never could. It's been two months and I'm realizing love, safety and community surround me, even amidst the hustle culture of Toronto. Love is everywhere and you'll find the things you are missing tenfold once the grief has left you and made space

[@fashionteaparty]

heartbreak is hard, so sending you both love, peace and growth! it will all be good in the right time! xx

[@hibayakkaoui2107]

you don't know how much i needed this , i feel like im not alone ,not the only one going through hard times thanks leah !

[@callisto4779]

i started watching you when i was in a relationship with someone, and i used to always have wanted what you showed in your videos. and my break-up was recent, and it timed with this video. we broke up for similar reasons as you, and well, i needed this, thank you so much. i am always wishing the best for the both of you.

[@raquelsg13]

I saw this coming and yes, people change, some grow, some don’t. Time to go on. You both are really and genuinely nice people, wish you the best.

[@allyeska8823]

I broke up with someone at the start of new years and I remember trying to stay afloat. I avoided the stages of grief because I just didn't want to feel those emotions. But I remember when I was coping in the beginning of the year I watched your videos and I loved how it made me want to appreciate these emotions. You have to feel to heal. It is the last month of the year and I am very proud of myself for everything. It made me sad to hear about this breakup but I believe you guys outgrew one another. You have your own beautiful journeys and the future will reveal that when the time is right. allow yourself to feel anything you have to feel. You are creative and beautiful inside and out Leah! Good luck on your journey! I wish you the best

[@idcidk4700]

Hey, just got broken up with today and my heart is completely shattered, I'll watch this in the hopes of staying afloat as well. Thank you for sharing🌻💚

[@jossieyan7480]

I’ve also gone through a break up recently and this really resonates hard. It was harder than I thought it would be as it was mutual and due to circumstances outside of our power. This was my first serious relationship that I truly loved and saw a potential future with, so my world crumbled more than I expected it to. I’m doing a lot better after weeks of just trying to survive. I’m giving myself time and space so I can feel whole without him again. In the end I know I’ll be okay, but in the moments of vulnerability I’m a complete mess.

[@nadiarambles]

Parting ways (even momentarily) with someone you deeply care for is hard and requires a lot of strength. Thank you for being vulnerable about this chapter of your life Leah, I’m wishing you all the self discovery, friend connection and adventure that you desire. 💜✨ rooting for you, always!!

[@shannayaanayak7063]

rather than disappointed I am grateful for you. you practice and promote a very healthy way to deal with the ups and downs of life, showing the real struggles, letting emotions pass instead of resisting them, listening to yourself and following your true calling, and spreading love and light. thank you. take care leah I love you

[@leafy2324]

This is so crazy because I myself am going through a break up right now and your videos are helping me so much. I've been in a relationship for 2 years and Its hard to "find yourself" once you're alone again. Its weirdly comforting to see that others are going through the same experience in life. I'm not feeling alone anymore. Thank you

[@CalliBadger]

It’s a little sad to see because you guys had such a healthy relationship, but I relate to you so much on this decision. I broke up with my longest boyfriend and most healthy relationship, but we both care about each other so much and we remained friends. In fact, he’s one of my best friends. I hope you and Andrew can remain friends and help each other grow in that sense 💕

[@hannah-elea]

oh no, i'm two minutes in and i'm already crying. i recently ended a 2-year relationship and i didn't really let myself process it just because i felt it was over for quite a while before officially ending it. and hearing you talk just...ah, i can relate to this a lot. my situation was similar, neither of us did anything inherently wrong. it just stopped working due to changing circumstances. wishing you and andrew the best!!

[@ioanapetrescu1823]

so sorry to hear this Leah, hope you are doing okay!!! we love you and Andrew :)

[@jessicashropshire7740]

Also navigating a really difficult break up. This has been especially hard for me during the holiday season and all the pressure I feel to make this time extra joyful and special. Thank you for your vulnerability and allowing us access to this part of your life. And for all the wisdom you provide in this video. I love knowing I’m not alone and seeing you have the strength to put yourself first and practice radical self care inspires me to continue on my journey too ❤️❤️. Sending love and support. Yay for sacred sisterhood

[@kyannareeves]

You explaining why you're dissuaded from starting new things is something that I can relate to so well as someone who also bases part of (more than I would like to admit) my value on my academics. I saw a poem the other day that summed up your message pretty nicely part of it goes: "...the reality of our humanity is that we are all a little bit average at a lot of things/ the truth is that we're all not that good/ so stop holding yourself back from enjoying the things that you love because you're not a prodigy at everything..." (btw the poet is Whitney Hanson)

[@YunaMoon_93]

Dear Leah, We all know that pain and can feel with you. Take your time to heal. We all love you and will support you. I of course like Andrew too, he is such a nice guy. Wish you two just the best! Much Love

[@georginathegiraffe]

I think there's something so beautiful about you both knowing yourselves so deeply that you know this is what's best for you. separating is always so hard but I'm proud of you both and can't wait to see where you go next

[@kloodledoodle]

haven't finished through the whole video yet but i just wanna say i love you, leah!! :) it's definitely hard to let go and we've seen you guys grow together in your videos and how great of a match you and andrew are (even i am sad). but that's life and there are things that you really need to do by yourself and for yourself firsr. wishing you all the best as you navigate through this phase. you are always loved and loved so much, leah.

[@arelysjournal]

sending loads of love leah

[@laurinewbu4080]

you're not disappointing or bothering anyone !! we love you and support you no matter what

[@chickpea8131]

Hi Leah, I just wanted to say that I've been a supporter of yours for a long time now and your videos has always been my comfort zone. I've recently been going through a lot of changes in my life in terms of school environment and social-wise. However, seeing that you acknowledged change can very different, but may not be a bad thing has made me feel very much comforted in a different way. I feel as if we're going through this together, but in a very accepting and humble nature. I would like to say thank you so much Leah for always seeing the positive in things, and that I hope you will continue to grow in the future. Love u Leah

[@cheeesetoast]

There’s a huge part of you that is so excited for the future and life in the present. It’s amazing to see where your relationship has catapulted you! Honour it, thank it, continue the gratitude and move forward with the light you carry

[@Jessica-wt2sm]

Break-ups are hard but there's comfort in knowing it's a human condition and something almost everyone goes through at least once in their lifetime. Know that you're not alone and you're gonna get through this just like you've gotten through everything else in your life. You got this Leah, take it one day at a time. Sending lots of love, acceptance, and healing energy your way 💛✨💫

[@louisegoffin557]

I'm trying to sleep, but I've been crying over this for the past hour. I feel so strongly for your situation. Whilst crying I decided to share my support for u. You are so loved, thank you for sharing your growth, your love and the lessons you're learning. You and Andrew have been such role models for me and I will forever thank you for sharing with the world how a loving relationship looks like. It helped me a lot! Just like that is this also part of a loving relationship, where you need to let each other go, which must be so hard. Thank you for being honest with your audience and yourself. I am looking forward to all your next adventures, life lessons and growth. I hope you surround yourself with all the love you deserve, but I'm sure you'll be just fine

[@emelineavignon1891]

watched this when you first released it and rewatching it now going through my own experience of this similar situation. feeling alone and heavy and sad, thank you for sharing this space.

[@nayomi2109]

consensual hugs to the two of you

[@finnfawnn]

I recently ended a 3 year relationship as well it’s hard but ultimately we’ll be better people at the end💗 manifesting love n happiness for your days ahead Leah! I hope u receive all the good vibes u continuously put out for us💗💗

[@나리-x4e]

Dear Leah, Thank you so much for sharing, Leah. You made me realize such an important thing: self-growth. I think I have been trying so hard to find my "other half", but now I think the word "other half" is a wrong expression (at least for me). I am me, I am whole, and I want to put my energy into my growth, not finding "the one" and the need for attention. It is so empowering to see how you decide where to put your energy towards and how you are building up your life and shining in your youth. -Love, Nari

[@_vincentvangrowing_5469]

Seeing you as an individual, expressing who you are without that relationship, to me made me suspect something was going on, and that was most certainly growth, watching you branch out of something so comforting and familiar was so admiring and heartwarming, so proud of you for sitting down, listening to your self. I promise you'll be okay, I always imagine break-ups as seasons, when you need to grow and you make that choice, you shake off those old leaves, allowing for so many new opportunities. I can't wait to watch you blossom on your own. 🌷💕💕 I love you, sending a big ol fluffy hug your way. ☁️

[@lostmycatinspace4935]

Hey Lea, I've never commented on your videos till now. I discovered your channel in the beginning of this year. You inspired me to go vegan and helped me cope with my daily anxiety. I've always felt light and warm watching your vlogs. Your reality made me forget my own heaviness for a moment and I am really grateful for that :) But after watching this video I didn't feel light, I didn't forget about my troubles. When I saw you being vulnerable and opening up, I just cried. It was like looking into a mirror and seeing myself for the first time. I have a hard time opening up to people, I never feel safe with my friends and always carry a lonliness with me, that I find comfort in. But seeing you taking responsibility for your spiritual growth and trying your best to be gentle and open, really gives me courage to do the same. I've been struggling with depression for years and have never been brave enough to act on it. After watching this video I conquered my fear and made an appointment with a therapist. I would not been able to do it without this video. So thank you for being honest and real :) I really love that side of you, it feels genuine and makes you even more beautiful

[@taneshnaorlova2797]

Lеah, you're a huge good girl. the fact that you feel respect and gratitude for your relationship with a young man is an excellent indicator of a healthy attitude to life. this stage is time-consuming, but gives a great impetus to the development of yourself as a person. Thank you, I also recently experienced similar feelings and therefore thank you for sharing your experience with us.🥺💓

[@tanniasembiring1226]

I feel the hurt o m g I feel like I'm the one having the break up!!!! Leah and Andrew I hope the very best for u both good, loving people!!

[@ألاءعبدالله-ز6ج]

You needn't feel the hurt. It's the natural consequence of their devious ways. Besides it is very " empowering " , and it is one of the most common vidioes on YT.

[@nazilik1786]

I hope you have a wondeful journey and please know that this community is always here to support. I am also so happy to see so many lovely people around you

[@tararia2708]

i recently had my first breakup, and nothing really went wrong but we needed to move on and grow and we couldn't do that together. but for the longest time, after going on social media and seeing friends who were dating since high school still together, i just kept thinking why couldn't that be me? why was i subjected to this loneliness? but reading the comments here makes me feel like i am not alone. i am so sorry leah, and i am sending you healing and love and good luck for all future endevours.

[@777q]

honestly i knew something was happening behind cameras. I had strong feelings that they were going through something. i just couldn’t imagine this day would come. I’ve watched your for only a few months but i adored you and andrews relationship. y’all were the couple for me. i’ll miss the videos of y’all together…i hope you feel better soon

[@momonomay3011]

I wish the best for both you and Andrew. I’ve never felt anything towards an online person’s relationship but this really hit for some reason, maybe perhaps since you’ve created such a nice family-like community. I’m so glad you have been able to split with no bad blood, I hope your futures are full of healthy growth.

[@gabrielaalves15]

thank u for being so brave and vulnerable and sharing with us!!! loving friends and good food are definitely things that help carry us through in these times - i always think of the scene in ghibli's spirited away when haku takes chihiro to the flower maze, hands out some yummy riceballs and says "eat it, I put a spell on it to give you strength" and she eats and starts crying and can't stop, and just holds her. yeah. friendship, food, tears, strength!

[@Ninjaaaahh]

I've also been going through a breakup and I cannot relate more to not only what you're saying about ending a chapter in your life but also finding support from friends. I've been amazed by how incredible my friends are and extremely thankful that I have them in my life. So thank you for sharing this, I know it's tough but I hope you'll find peace, love, growth and greatness in your life

[@javs-]

i was shocked when i read the title of the video, both of you always gave such good vibes, calm and help based on your experiences that it was impossible not to love you guys 🫂 i wish you all the best in this new chapter of your life, hoping that you will keep good terms with Andrew and that if life brings you together again, you feel the warmth of endless good memories

[@superfr3akk]

i’m also transitioning into a new phase of my life and seeing this video was just what i needed. your thoughts and insights really inspire me. thank you for sharing a slice of your existence with us the way you do. sending so much love your way ♡

[@julialinhares4369]

I'm currently going through a breakup with someone I was with for almost 4 years. its been really hard, especially not having my close friends around me for support. Watching your videos have always lifted my moods and now its helped more than you'd think. When you said that you are not alone because other people are going through the same thing it brought me such comfort. I wish I could bask in the love and support you have in your circle with you and give you a big hug. Your videos have helped me so much and knowing you and I are on the same journey makes me look forward for the videos to come. Thank you for opening up with us and sharing your experiences, I know its helped many people like myself. ❤❤❤

[@bene7216]

I don't usually comment on vids but I just wanted to say that however a big part Andrew was of this channel, we will always be here for you and to cheer you on. the fact that I feel so saddened by these news made me realize how much I love both of you and how much both of you (independently) have made me realize so many things about who I want to be for others and myself. so even though it's sad to see the both of you part, I'm also grateful that you're doing it with love between the two of you still. love you Leah, sending you healing energy

[@vanessachun1024]

Aw, I'm relatively new here so I don't know much about your relationship history but...congratulations! You did a brave thing. I too recently got out of a relationship (8 yrs!) and I can promise you it gets better (and worse, and then better again!). Stay strong and stay excited for this new chapter 😁

[@leahsfieldnotes]

haha thank u, I’m buckling myself in for the roller coaster

[@shefalisweety572]

@@leahsfieldnotes love you Leah 🥰 Stay strong as you are😇

[@Camila-ud7pj]

went thru a really similar breakup earlier this year. it’s been 8 months and i think we both know this was the best decision. :’( i know it hurts so much to let go but you guys will be able to grow so much. and become so much closer to your friends! be kind and patient with yourself, sending u lots of love

[@abbypierce4196]

My partner (I guess ex partner) and I are going through this exact thing. We moved in really soon, and then COVID hit. We’re both in our early twenties and I just feel like we need to grow separately as people before/if we could ever be together again. We were making each other really unhappy in the last few months. The pain, sadness and fear I feel is like no other, but I also feel a tremendous amount of freedom, possibility, and newfound interest in myself as an individual. Thank you so, so much for sharing this journey. It truly makes me feel less alone. Leaving a partner who you still love and respect is fucking hard, but if it makes you both better - it IS worth it.

[@cathygagner5284]

Taking a step back and realizing that you can no longer grow in an environment takes a lot of self reflexion and maturity ❤️ wish you both the best

[@leahsfieldnotes]

Thank you 🙏🫂

[@bakerybythepier]

as much as breakups suck this one feels very natural and free from bitterness. it really speaks to the high vibration and overall maturity of both leah and andrew 💗

[@laurence44444]

my heart is crushed, my favorite couple ever. you two inspired me so much, i'm sending you all my love xxx

[@AgnesCarmela]

This is heartbreaking 💔 and courageous to talk about it in a vlog. We are not disappointed, Leah. Your authenticity is your strength and that’s why I honestly keep coming here in your channel. I don’t know but I have a feeling that you both will get back together at some point.. but maybe not very soon. In the meantime, keep taking care of your self and keep growing and finding love and light. You are not alone, indeed 🫂🫂🫂

[@reeseinpeace2442]

This breaks my heart so much. I know I'm late to the new video but honestly I have been feeling that vibe that you guys might have broken up or a in a complicated situation because I just feel it through your videos and I was lowkey waiting for a video where you open it up and as a fan or you can say friend of yours, even though we haven't actually met, thank you for opening this up to us. I have gone through break ups myself as well, and all I can say is that no matter how cliche people say this but it's true that "it gets better" and sometimes you have to go through good and bad stuff to be better. And I know you'll get through this one. It breaks my heart seeing both of you break up because I really loved watching you two and ofcourse sometimes people need to grow separately to be BETTER. We're all here for you. Just like you were to me when I was going through my break up. We love you.

[@srriiss]

I literally went through a breakup myself. A three year relationship ended so quick and I have been a mess ever since. I still am bc it’s hardly been a month. I know I need to grow on my own and probably for the best but it’s been very tough especially because I don’t have friends that I can share my feelings with or friends that will really be empathetic of what I’m going through. Life just is as such. Sending you so much love, Leah. You’re strong and beautiful inside out. You got this ❤️ Here’s to new beginnings and healing ✨

[@amiborabee]

I am glad that you've done the right decision for both of you, i know it takes courage to part ways, especially when you can't rationalize it with anger or guilt. I'm excited for your new journey, and i definitely resonate with your desire for sisterhood. Lately I've also been partying ways with a very important friend i had. I realized i also have this monogamous tendency manifesting in certain friendships. I'm still working on not rationalizing it by blaming either of us, and instead try to look ahead of all the beauty that awaits me in life. Thank you for this video. And lots of love 💗

[@kyliesears6212]

hi Leah. thank you for being so raw and vulnerable. I am also a serial monogamist, and spent the first year or so after march 2020 learning to be on my own. my first partner and I just broke up after about 6 months together, and it feels a lot like how you're describing. obviously yours is more intense given the longevity of your relationship. its just comforting to hear someone else talking about how hard it can be to respectfully part ways in your romantic life if you and your partner are no longer on the same journey. thank you. looking forward to this series as it f eels like having a friend knowing exactly what I'm going through

[@blue______]

I am very happy to know that you have wonderful people in your life Leah. Everything will be fine. You grew a lot in the pandemic, and we all know that you made the right decision. You and Andrew are going to grow up and learn from this, and maybe (as you said) one day your paths will cross again. And if not, that's fine too. We love you Leah, you can always share with us and with your friends in real life. I send you a lot of love and support from Argentina !!

[@nadialeeabu]

Leah!! it is break up season. Just ended my 3 year relationship. So many of my friends have ended their relationship this month as well. Thanks for sharing, so looking forward to feeling supported by you while you go through this

[@emm8378]

It's okay to be single, as long as we gave supportive and loving environment, been here for a year watching you two,we love you leah... hope you can find the best path of your life 🙂❤

[@JellyK]

My boyfriend just broke up with me today so this video definitely came at a good time. I wish you the best Leah and Andrew! both of you are amazing people