Non-Linearity... a Conversation with Melanie Keller

Melanie: melaniekeller.bandcamp.com/
Insta: @meloniousk

[@JohnDoeBand1]

Wasn't sure if it was worth writing this but just following my intuition. I use a unique modality that I use as my sole practise for growth and discovery. I call it Free Drawing - scribble on a page, as you're scribbling - take the view that the lines you see are EXACTLY the lines you need to see and detailed pictures will start to appear. When the page starts to look "tasty" (interesting/engaging) you will be able to go about your business with the understanding that you can use exactly what you have in front of you and nothing needs to change. Hopefully someone will get some benefit out of this!

[@renko9067]

I hope one day I am worthy of an interview with you, Angelo, otherwise my extensive puppet collection will continue to collect dust 😂

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Puppets???? Well why didn’t you say so??

[@joshuahutt]

The description of the childhood experience at 9:10 really helps me contextualize my own experience. Being convinced that you're responsible for other people's internal states (either causing a negative one, or, in my case, needing to cause a good one) can create a lifetime preoccupation that supersedes most other experience. It's like a high-priority program that we unwittingly run. Dismantling this, or allowing it to fall apart, is my current focus. Thanks.

[@ravenwild5184]

As someone who has spent almost 50 years believing this same thing and believing I was so "good" I applaud you for seeing this and facing it now. At 69 I'm having to deal with all these years of Spiritual Bypassing and am so grateful for people like Angelo who can aid others before years and years have gone by. Blessings on your journey 🙏💖 Just realized I made an assumption your physical being is much younger. Whatever your physical age it's good for us both. 💞

[@joshuahutt]

@@ravenwild5184 thank you for sharing. I’m 35 now. So, while it does feel like “I should have learned this earlier,” I’m grateful to go through it now. May you continue to be a blessing to others on your journey as well!

[@Dispeh]

i see that "i" am just happening and that's really scary, jesus... there's no one behind the curtain of thoughts and that's becoming clearer each "day", it really is all just happening, holy shit man.

[@mikeyfinn2]

like Angelo says (paraphrasing): it's fine, you're fine, no need to check back and see how you're doing. Or, it might feel like endless falling, but the good news is there's no ground

[@renko9067]

When I first began to be aware of this it was so subtle, yet so obvious. ❤

[@tspack1]

“My mind just tries to kick my ass every day” Yeah…

[@prueevans8558]

So resonating with all of this testimony. And what's wrong with everyone - as a child , like deep down, all the adults were insane, lying, hypocrites. And other children were scary. Did not get how to be, trying to fit in was hard, rebelling was trouble, thankfully discovered drink and drugs 😂 that helped a lot then. Clean now. And it's like it all had to be as it was.

[@kebobscat]

Wow. This was refreshing in such a different way than your other interviews. Thank you❤️

[@chinchilla_462]

felt like listening to a live shadow work session, Melanie just guiding right into it 🤜🤛 appreciated. It's refreshing to have all this humanized a bit from time to time.

[@ravenwild5184]

LOL about the use of exact words. I find myself getting hung up on words in different non dual teachings constantly. Recently there has been a reaction to hearing people talk about the ego/identity as if it's a sentient being with it's own abilities to choose and direct us (ex: "the mind doesn't like...") and at the same time told it's an illusion, it's not real and this over analytical mind gets so caught in the dichotomies. At the same time there is such a strong recognition that words mean absolutely nothing in truth and this clinging to correct language is crazy making. And love hearing about the watching about crime and suffering. I had avoided this forever, for years was Ms. Love n Light. Lately there has been this seeming need to watch crime shows and believe I can understand the dark in others. And there has been huge judgement and shame even about this. So grateful it was brought up here. That and the effect of unpredictable people. Here it was a childhood of walking on eggshells and trying so hard to predict the unpredictable which became a lifetime of being a control freak. Thank you Melanie, I resonate so much with your experience shared here. 🙏 Love the interviews as they clearly illustrate the truth of "many paths taking us to and ending in the same place". Bless us all to awaken.

[@just_me_melanie]

thank you!

[@yvonne_unger]

Wow, so much resonance! I appreciate that you spoke about childhood awakening as I totally relate to what both of you shared. I remember how as a child I would not get what everyone is doing here and that everyone seemed to really believe that any of this is true. I also remember that I would freely share what I saw and that that wasn't what people wanted to hear. So at one point combined with ongoing traumatic and abusive experiences it seemed safer to not say anything and hide behind spiritual arrogance and full on 24/7 dissociation. Looking back now it is pure grace that I'm not just still here but also back to that innocent and pure state of being. Still in awe that what once seemed not just layers but insuperable walls of suffering, trauma and stories turned out to be the gate to THIS NOW. So much love and gratitude for everyone on this journey 🙏💗

[@soma-soma-soma-soma]

Thanks for this conversation. "In a way it doesn't matter, and it's confusing to me. So do I have to work on my childhood or not?... Maybe I don't have to fix myself?" I resonate with this so much and all that Melanie expressed re childhood trauma. I'm standing right at that edge too.

[@Ryan-Dempsey]

Innocence comes to mind. Very refreshing :)

[@Roland-0-0]

I am a structure built of symbols, A vessel for ideas unseen. I shape your thoughts and your world, But I am born from what lies within. What am I? … Language

[@ww9519]

The fact that there is this consciousness in all of us that is non-judgemental and untouched by the aging process & always present to whatever is happening - this is so great!

[@road.1]

Great conversation!! You mentioned Paul Hedderman, he's awesome. It would be really cool to see you two talking someday. :)

[@Pamela_Sinai]

I got so much out of this. Thank you both very much.

[@just_me_melanie]

🌷

[@AlisonWalker-vh5gt]

Non linear, but very relatable. And Melanie, I checked out your music, it’s beautiful!

[@just_me_melanie]

thank you! 🧚‍♀️

[@LiliBoloney]

Thank you so much for this Video. I'm grateful, that you made and published it the way it is. I feel touched by so many aspects of it. Very inspiring!

[@tosvarsan5727]

It is funny sometimes lately when Angelo talks about awakening, it triggers a sort of rage and disgust in me. Something to look there for sure. I enjoyed this interview so much so relatable even without understanding. BTW I love you, Angelo ;)

[@TB-jg2oq]

Thank you for sharing.

[@GraceCoolBreeze]

✨ sPaRkS ✨ beautiful sparks flying all over you two 💛💛

[@donnaholmes2522]

Iv come to understand ADHD is the result of us feeling overwhelmed by the construct..the systems the way we are expected to live, all the distractions the working 9to 5 the stress piled on stress the paper work the rushing around its all the false things we are expected to keep up, we know deep inside its not all ok it isn't how it's supposed to be, we are sensitive to it all so we struggle to be in it, but ultimately that struggle should push you to tire and surrender, I would love to talk to you one day, thankyou for your channel and all you share, you and others have helped me so much❤

[@indef93]

I see what you mean. I was diagnosed and the construct was revealed not to be society or anything "external" but my identity that was full of doubt. Self acceptance is powerful and, for me, has completely changed my experience of attention and much much more. Take great care ❤❤❤. There is nothing wrong with you. 😊

[@PaulKininmonth]

Homophones: words that sound alike but are different in meaning and spelling. Homonym: words having the same spelling or pronunciation but different meanings. (A not so discreet reply.)

[@lindadeakin]

Beautiful clarity in this. Yes the emotion body of this lovely young woman wants to express itself sooo much. So wants to feel the emotions. Thanks for sharing.

[@just_me_melanie]

it's true! really wants to express ☺️😅

[@333taniata]

The work ..makes me think of my day yesterday..was really heavy ..could hardly move..maybe getting ready for the intensive next week..at the same time just finished my 5th round with "The Presence Process" by Michel Brown and my intention of this round was to be able to see the good in people (my "story " or life has been so rock and roll) so I'm very drawn to real life doc's and movies and this one I watched yesserday on netflix called "Why did you kill me" ..a story of violence and revenge to understandment..can't really say forgiveness but at least understandment and compassion.I've had a project of writing a book on my life now for many years ..started a couple of times but scraped it because it just seemed like a big complaint and that is not what I want, I want it to contain something to help people that have or are still in hell...but lately , this book is taking form in my mind in a way that I feel satisfied that that is what I want to convey.

[@alphonsewilliams9878]

I resonate with this interview. Especially the part about the mind’s mechanism that keeps suffering going. This mechanism has been operating in me all my life but somehow, I didn’t quite see it until recently. In a nutshell it starts with an inner voice or prompting telling me that I’m bad (in error, made a mistake, have done something wrong, about to be punished, and so on). This immediately activates fear that in turn activates a self-protection mechanism that directs me to hide. Hiding with its cousin denial, says the mind, will keep me safe. From this directive comes a chain of thoughts that in the past have sought to justify my actions (in case I have to explain myself). Beneath this level of thought I see my mind trying to rework the past to make it conform to my justifications. There’s more to this mechanism’s operations, of course, but I just wanted to share some of what goes into creating suffering in the event it may help others. You may wonder why I’d let this go on for so long. In part it’s due to the conditioning happening so fast that I couldn’t see what I was doing. I had to slow it down and that took time. Also, I was completely identified with it. Once I started to slow the process down and it became more “seeable” the process of dis-identification started all by itself. More and more these days I can watch my thoughts and not fall into the trap of trying to protect myself from what is only a voice in my head saying I’m bad and in danger. There’s still a lot of emotion to process though.

[@Pamela_Sinai]

I realized at an Ayahuasca retreat that my core beliefs / fears are: I'm not real and I don't matter. Turns out, that's simply true. But not in the way I thought. Not in a personal way. There's no "I" to matter or be real, or to abuse or dismiss or exile or anything. Whatever this is that is perceive as "I", it's simply folded into the universal batter. Which never bothers to turn into cookies. Or something 🤣 The universe as raw cookie dough. I always thought it was better than the cookies. Kind of like the anticipation of Christmas morning is better than Christmas morning. I guess we can live in that state. Unformed, unsure, but knowing something exciting is coming, at every moment. Knowing something is taking care of it and taking care of you.

[@just_me_melanie]

I love Christmas morning! 😊

[@sarahjabbour9648]

Beautiful

[@333taniata]

I would really like to know where to see the doc? "The Work".

[@KaiLilliZakaria-dw8me]

This documentary can be rented on KZbin.

[@tonyt1551]

Its on Amazon , free if you have a prime account

[@iancurzon255]

oh man, this is so good. What a beautiful share Thank you both ❤

[@Aidataba]

Watching her talk made me clearly see lots of patterns in me. I was not following much of what she talked about because something else was communicated by her. She's just a beautiful, crystal-clear being. Thank you Melanie and Angelo for this communication.

[@just_me_melanie]

wow, thank you 🙏 I just love that word, crystal 💎😊

[@alfreddifeo9642]

Speaking unspeakable knowing yes. Gratitude for sharing this, may the power of love, grace, and understanding happen to all.

[@ebrueren7980]

Coupl you please add turkish subtitles option to your videos if it is on your hand❤

[@joychurney8253]

I’m finding this conversation profoundly helpful. And wondering if maybe I’m further along than I thought. Not that I imagine I’m super far. I think I’ve had shifts but there’s a process to this also. I’ve lost literally years of my life to rumination. Hearing that someone awakened can get angry or react defensively helps me feel like it’s not out of reach for me. The host (don’t know his name) has talked about shadow work after waking up. I thought waking up eliminated the need for shadow work. It doesn’t. It might make it easier, because you don’t identify with the narrative you have about it. Thank you for this.

[@aetherexplorer9834]

I would LOVE to see an interview between Angelo and Shinzen Young. I think their teachings complement each other and both are deeply realized.

[@Nover_Music]

I can very much relate to Melanie in regards to awakening and finding your own sound in music making. Only after awakening I have become capable of trusting my creative intuition fully and through this trust I have been able to make music that I truly want to make from my heart. Before I was always up in my head and thinking everything though. I have listened to Projection Of Stars and it's a great song, especially considering that you've made that track in the same year you started learning digital music production!

[@just_me_melanie]

thank you for listening! I treasure the song so much. felt like a dream come true to be able to take this sound in my head and make it real.

[@Nover_Music]

@@just_me_melanie my pleasure! I wish you all the best on your path :)

[@Mayan.Embodiment]

The term is "homophone"; @30:44, like feat and feet.

[@Pamela_Sinai]

For an embarrassingly long time, I thought "feat." was an incredibly prolific and eclectic hip hop artist.

[@Mayan.Embodiment]

@@Pamela_Sinai He's frickin EVERYWHERE!

[@soma-soma-soma-soma]

You said, "I could notice how dense her energy was". What does this mean exactly? Is it the same as low vibration or high vibration? What do both of these mean? Why is it uncomfortable?

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

@@soma-soma-soma-soma don’t know what low vibration or high vibration means. I was referring more to something in the emotion spectrum

[@ravenwild5184]

Have you ever experienced someone whose energy can feel heavy, or emotionally dark? Where it's uncomfortable to be with them? It can even feel that being with them brings you down energetically? This is dense energy and I'm guessing what you would call lower vibrations.

[@tom_see]

loved the rwanda part and when you talked about how the addiction works, really interesting

[@JordynLaRee]

Ever since I watched “Awake” a few days ago I have been hyper aware of this “oneness”. I suppose that’s a good first step.

[@dethtrain]

Homophone!

[@SimplyAlwaysAwake]

Yes that’s right. Thanks for providing 😃

[@RiikkaVuorijarvi-ni4rp]

This discussion was triggering and heartbreaking, but the feeling in my chest was lighter afterwards. Something resonated and felt uncomfortable, but in a good way, I guess.

[@karlbooklover]

Thank you for interviewing this beautiful person, and Melanie, since you mentioned still feeling this energy from your past, I want you to know about a technique called revision. It is a technique popularized by Neville Goddard, and it works wonders to overcome past situations/energies we no longer want in our lives. Wish you the best

[@just_me_melanie]

thanks!

[@Ruslanbalvan]

What's that documentary he was talking about?

[@TPot1222]

It’s called “the work”

[@truilt]

'i made a song likeallmyself' 'i call myself?'

[@just_me_melanie]

yup, those were the misheard words. so funny 😄

[@simonedenouveau6365]

The word you were looking for is "homonym" :)

[@darfish5040]

Nothing is everything.

[@simonedenouveau6365]

Or "homophone" ? :)

[@Mayan.Embodiment]

OK, dood, i gotta say something here. As i mentioned the other day, i only found you 1 week ago, and have been watching a few videos each day since then. What i have noticed is this: You have a penchant for violence. I forget what video it was, natch, but it was one of the "Double Barrel" ones, and firstly, that only means shotgun, so, you've chosen a violent name for that series, and then, the man sitting in his car, red hair, commented that your favorite movie is "Revolver", an extremely violent movie. Then, today you are using the example of the tribal murders in Africa, which you made a point of being over-explanatorilly descriptive about the machetes, just to make an example of how certain thoughts can be addictive. And then there's "The Work" by Inner Circle, doing spectacular work yes, but in the most voilent portion of American society... Please take a closer look at yourself. Please consider changing the "Double Barrelled" approach to life. You are doing great work, but your ego has a blind spot for it's love of violence. Feel free to delete this quote if you wish. Crispy