Overcoming Loss: Pursuing Art Full-Time at 30

[@art4anj]

Thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement and sharing your stories. 🙏🥹❤️ When I uploaded this video I thought “pls don’t get too much views” because I felt vulnerable in it but after reading your comments I remember why I made it in the first place, it’s to share & hopefully inspire in any way 😌 Here’s what I learned so far: ♡ Give yourself the chance to TRY, you won’t know how much you really love/want to do it until you do. ♡ Don’t go all in with no savings to support you a few months as you get started. The anxiety of finances can affect your health, motivation & creativity. ♡ It’s perfectly OKAY to do art part time & have a stable job. This also helped me find the courage to go for it. ♡ There’s an element of LUCK in it as well. I consistently post & share what I do online to increase that. As my dad taught me, “help them FIND YOU” ♡ Continuous practice & being open to new knowledge is important as it adds to your skillset, like editing videos too!

[@Noa-g1ex]

This video literally came at the right time in my life atm, i relate a lot to the “being scared of failing” part..and also dealing with the loss of loved ones. I’m older now and I want to be brave like you, to pursuit art with no regret. Sending virtue hugs to you for having to deal with heartbreaks and grief. I thank you for giving us courage and inspiration through the story you shared! You’re an amazing artist btw 🫶🏻🌷new subbie here

[@rone097]

What is the name of the anime you watch?

[@evanslawrence88]

I feel sorry for the loss of your mother and your father. I pray that you will continue to be strong and achieve your dreams!

[@nickgarter7389]

So stoked to find a lot of you fellow 30 somethings chasing or already living their art career dreams. While I also decided to go all in as an artist in 2022 at the age of 30, life happened and it's only now that I have more time and financial leeway to go back to my real passion. I still have a none art full time job but I am constantly working on my skills and portfolio on the side. I still have some ways to go but just like everyone here, I am not giving up yet.

[@art4anj]

@@nickgarter7389 It’s ok to have a job that gives you an opportunity to develop your art dreams slowly. I don’t recommend going all in without having a financial backup because it’ll affect focus & drive due to anxiety

[@DustyTeachesArt]

In my 20's and eirly 30's I was a graphic designer and freelance illustrator. I was just about go full time in illustration but my mom was diagnosed with Parkinsons, At 35 I had to completely drop my career and take care of her fullltime. No regrets. I wanted to make sure her last few years where as painless and stress free as possible. She passed away last year. So I am now 46 and jumping back in, Remember its never too late.

[@elangeleelangele204]

Well done ❤ wish you all the luck health and blessings❤

[@kahelkenkai]

I'm sorry for your loss. You're a good man, and I hope you get the happy life you deserve. I'm also currently my grandma's caretaker, and while she's still strong, I can't focus on art full-time because of it. Sometimes, it hurts not being able to draw. However, seeing people like you, who have cared for their loved ones and still managed to return to their art after fulfilling their familial duties, helps me feel better about my situation. So thank you for continuing to pursue your passion.

[@northernbliss8577]

When I read your comment, I realized that it's not too late for me. I was also a graphic designer. I was having a hard time going back to my art career ever since I became a mom. I struggled getting started thinking it's too late for me. By the way I'm almost 40😂.

[@marieandthemoonbeams]

I’m 28. I’ll be 29 at the end of the year. Your story hits close to home. I have people even right now telling me they don’t believe in my art journey. And it’s taken me this long to realize I don’t need anyone’s support or permission to create the art I want to make. Thank you for sharing your story love. This was the sign I needed to keep going.

[@shawtazz]

I’m the same age as you, turning 29 in November and also have people who don’t understand, or don’t encourage me to want to do any of the stuff I find interesting. I’ve hopped around so many crafts and hobbies because I enjoy creating. It’s hard enough to have self doubt and people around you being unsupportive 😢 goodluck to you! I’m going to change my mindset and keep going as well

[@misaandcoart]

I believe in you. Make it happen! ♥

[@JohnHill]

wow, crying in a coffee shop, thanks for sharing! I've been nervous to pursue art full time for a very long time, sooooo i'm a get to it. Thank you!

[@art4anj]

@@JohnHill Go for it! 🔥 Also, I love watching Sara’s and your videos, so cool and fun 😊

[@JohnHill]

@@art4anj oh woah that's awesome! Sara is the best 💛

[@JaneDominguez-p7q]

John hill? 😲

[@MissOsaka]

I nearly burst into tears hearing that you lost your mom and shortly after your father. Your positivity, hope, faith, and dedication is commendable. I know for a fact that your parents would be so incredibly proud of you. Keep it up!

[@art4anj]

Thank you so much! It means a lot to me as they are now my biggest source of motivation and inspiration in art and life! 🥹❤🙏

[@kuyawaffsdraws]

Finally, someone that I am totally related. Since my parents were both working in government but what they earn were not enough to send us to college. It is true in the Philippines during our time they think that taking nursing as the profession is the most practical choice. However, my dad didn't stop me pursing animation in college, financial constraint is the reason why I didn't finish my study in college. My bread in butter is actually by working in BPO, as much as I loved to pursue jobs related to arts it still stops me from attaining my aspiration to pursuing arts. I do also graphic designing as for job. Now that I am in my 30's I feel like it's time for me to start investing in Arts.

[@art4anj]

It’s definitely a challenge being an artist in the PH as well, art is undervalued in different areas. This is why I encourage sharing online to widen our scope of opportunities. Also, I find animation artists so cool! I’m a fan of the craft, at the moment I do keyframe animation as I’ve learned when I worked as a graphic designer 😊

[@kuyawaffsdraws]

@@art4anj your animation are impressive, to be honest I'm actually catching up with all the new software made available to us. Back in our time when I was studying animation, Flash & Toon Boom draw were the common software used for animation but now if you own an iPad. Procreate is your top choice. I also plan to invest owning an iPad someday. My younger siblings whom I also influence to arts are able to invest on their equipment of their choice. All of them are making money out of arts. My parents didn't realize the potential of earning money out of it. One of my younger siblings were forced to take an engineering course and got depressed during pandemic out of pressure. He wanted to pursue arts, and he was able to convince my parent to let him take new course in college related to his passion when he was able to show him how much he was earning out of it. With the support from them I am inspired to return and pursue arts which I am now investing. I am moved and inspired by your content to be honest your story is very relatable.

[@kchuen]

I'm restarting art at 40 years old. My parents were the polar opposite of yours. My mother repeatedly told me if I followed me dreams, I would be a beggar for life and I would make nothing out of it. I still wanted to go to art school but every time I brought it up, I would face extreme anger from my mother as if I was taking her dreams away from her. Anyway after all these years, I have finally got rid of the belief that doing what I want would lead me to failure. I'm just learning all the fundamentals and also enjoying creating and painting again. It's great to jsut immerse ourselves into what we enjoy. Let's see where this journey would take us! All the best.

[@Artemis-athena]

Well you’re late. But not too late. Do it now because you’re older than most artists with more experience than you.

[@olivialovesdesign]

If only you did research before you spoke your silly words

[@olivialovesdesign]

That’s was such a sad thing to read Athena whatver your name is. Do some research

[@Artemis-athena]

@@olivialovesdesign Cry some more. You're old and almost too late. That's a reality you need to accept.

[@Artemis-athena]

@@olivialovesdesign You're old. Bye.

[@meaganveronica94]

Just turned 30 last month. I am a pharmacist but I honestly don't want to do this for the rest of my life. I love being creative not just drawing but sewing and embroidery. I decided to try this year to take my art seriously. I also did a graphic design course, Rn I just want to build my skills in both art and editing and eventually start a KZbin and small business. I really wanna quit lol but trying not to jump the gun

[@CheggArt]

Are you me? I feel i relate to you so badly - Im a 30 yr old pharmacist with a billion creative hobbies and interests (piano/music, art, crochet, knitting,sewing) and i do NOT want to be (only) a pharmacist for the rest of my life. Right now im doing part time/casual shifts and trying to expand my crochet/art skills at the same time… but i often daydream of a world where creative careers were just a bit more lucrative and viable to follow long term without so many barriers (low salary or pay, hard to break into, AI etcetc) Right now, im spending all my free time crocheting to build my skills, and will try to juggle art with that as well. I also want to create an online presence just to find others to share my passions with - any money i make if any is just a secondary bonus. I want to keep the creative passion and trades alive - in myself and in others. Anyway sorry for the essay reply, i guess i just want to let you know that im really am rooting for you (and all other ppl/creatives in a similar position). Wishing you great luck and all the best.

[@BRIkkuP]

Your story inspired me so much!! I'm pursuing art as a career but it seems like a pointless battle rn, your story certainly helped me see that if I keep fighting I'll make it! :,) I'm so sorry for your losses, I'm glad you were so strong to keep going despite that!! I'll subscribe and go binge watch your videos now akfjdkfsd

[@art4anj]

Thank you so much ❤🙏 I can relate to the journey feeling like a battle but I’m sure it’s not pointless. The thing is, I also felt the same even when art wasn’t my career because I wasn’t sure what I wanted in the future, I still felt lost. Just remember to understand your needs as well. I also encourage fellow artists who do art part time because it helps lessen the pressure. I’m sure you will find yours in your journey just KEEP GOING and TAKE BREAKS, just don’t quit!

[@killerraison]

im a full time artist (tattooer) and have been for around 12 years, im 30 now and lost my mum aswell this year, its been a real struggle but slowly finding the drive to keep going. so sorry to hear about your parents, the loss is horrific and to see you doing well is inspiring, lots of love from uk!

[@PixelHachi]

I just turned 30 this year and I can definitely relate. I lately just decided to pursue art seriously, even though I was a nursing graduate 🤣 I was doing art on the side when I was in my 20s, just like you. But now having an adorable 2-yo, I want to be able to work at home while being there for him. Let's all do our best! 💙

[@art4anj]

I’m cheering you too on your journey! 💙 Art is also a beautiful way to bond with your baby, it’s fun for me when I draw with my 5yr old niece! 🫶

[@yvelnir8480]

I lost my best friend last year, and art was what kept me just above rock bottom. I´m also over 30, and while I´ve been always dreaming, I always neglected my hobby. I chose a carreer in finance over art school, since it was "the right thing to do" and always gave up when I thought I could never be good enough anyways. Ever since last year, since I´ve realized that even if I never were to be successful, it´s what I want to do and it is what keeps me sane. I of course still work my fulltime job, but I am no longer willing of not at least trying. In the end, I make art for myself, it´s therapy in some sense. And if I can be good enough one day to be successful with it and have a career, the better. Thank you for your video. It was inspiring and I am sure you gave hope to a lot of us. It´s also somehow very comforting in a way, to see a lot of people my age feeling the same and starting to live their dreams and passion, no matter what we´ve been told in the past.

[@LewisCoxIII]

Thanks for sharing your story and my condolences. I'm in my 50's doing graphics and chasing anime illustration!

[@HaleyJoAnna89]

So inspiring! Being 35 I get frustrated and lost a lot. Thank you for shining this light.

[@malurus_]

hi anj, we are the same age. i also had the opportunity to start art in my twenties but i was just so embarassed and shy that i never tried outside of posting dragon age fan art on tumblr. i didn't even tell my friends that i would draw often. as i got older i felt more confident this year my health got worse and i got made redundant from my job so i'm taking this opportunity to pursue an art career now. realistically i am just too sick to work a regular job i applied for hundreds of jobs and only one ever got back to me; no one wants to employ someone with a history of being sick. right now i'm just coming back to art and trying to enjoy it before taking the next steps. i'm sorry for your losses :( i can't begin to imagine how hard it was to lose both of your parents. i think the thing with life is, no matter how hard and sad it can get there can always be something good that can come out of it.

[@art4anj]

Hi Malurus, thank you for sharing yours! I can relate with hiding my art or even drawing skills at school. I can’t deny I felt the pressure of fitting in, specially being in an all-girls school, and scared of getting bullied (still did though) 😩 So I went along with interests that were deemed “cool.” I pray for your health to improve and most of all for art to be a part of it. Art is actually my therapy, as I’m not the type to write in a journal I usually express myself through creating art, just like when I was grieving both my parents I drew A LOT. The animation at 22:01 of the video was also made at the peak of me being sad and missing them.

[@cheriet8944]

The screenshot of your dad's messages of support to you is so sweet. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. Keep doing what you enjoy. I'm 36 and just starting to experiment with art and seeing how it goes. Art to me is a form of self-discovery and deep connection with the Universe.

[@Lynnroseeee]

As a young 17y/o artist, who’s only about to enter college, this was VERY inspiring and I felt like this video found me at the right time. Your parents are so sweet, and I think them occupying a large portion of this video speaks a lot on how much they meant to you. After hearing about what happened, I had to stop what I was doing and also teared up a little. No one should ever have to experience the loss of a parent, MUCH LESS both. I am also looking to pursue illustration full-time, I know I want to, but there’s still that fear of "what if I can’t find a job?" "what if I can’t earn a self-sustaining income?". It’s scary. And the constant pressure from others and family members make me even more scared. Especially since I’m also Filipino and in our culture grown-ups always tell us we should pursue certain paths, all the way from a young age. I used to think I was going to be a doctor for sure, until these past few years. I know, like you said, that it comes from good intentions but I still can’t help but think about the fear of disappointment. Most of my family members are either in the medical field, engineers, or working in the government. I’m pretty sure I’m the first to be an artist… no, actually I think I’m the first to even be in a creatives field. I know I’m still young and I probably shouldn’t even be thinking about such things this early… as it might hinder my ability to create, but I like to be prepared. Especially since my dream is to live off my art, and have the freedom to create. I think your video is very insightful, and thank you for sharing your experience. I know not every artist’s journey will be the same, but your courage is very inspiring. I really appreciate your transparency about taking calculated risks, since I’m trying to learn more about what it takes to pursue art full-time. Knowing these things, and hearing about other’s experiences, makes me a little less scared and gives me a bit more confidence. I love art !!

[@Gabgoody]

I’m 28 and always loved and wanted to pursue art, I was always afraid too. I unfortunately lost both of my parents as well. Most recently my mom in 2021. It made me realize how important it is to do the things you love! The things you said in your video really resonated with me. I’ll be following you to keep up with your art journey. Best of luck!

[@Chillin_Gnome]

Nice to see more 30's years old artists starting their careers. I'm glad you were able to heal and pursue your dream. I'm also trying to grow as an artist in my 30's. I liked to draw when I was young and also had art teachers who say I should try to became an artist. Like other, I heard of the starving artist stereotype and try to be a vet. That didn't work out and I drop the major and decided to be an artist. It been on and off last 10 years because of life but I am still trying.

[@HermitFanimations]

I’m in tears. 🥺 Your art is so gorgeous and brims with passion. Your story is so beautiful and filled with love, love which replaced the emptiness once left by loss. I hope when you reunite with your parents one day, they’ll finally be able to tell you how proud they are of you, and till then, that you live your life with a full and happy heart. 🫂💕

[@Kikooart]

I'm in my 30s too and my dream is to become a fulltime artist. Thank you for sharing your story it gives me hope and inspiration to just keep going. :)

[@art4anj]

I feel that we all need an artistic side in our life, no matter what kind it is(art, music, books) because it adds such life in our & other people’s lives! ❤

[@candyheartsart]

We are the same ^_^ im 34. Just started pursuing my art again now. I started about 6 years ago and had mental breakdowns due to my childhood trauma. I'm finally starting to be in a better place so I'm starting again.

[@mollipop_art]

i'm so sorry to hear about your loss, your parents sound like such amazing people. best of luck to you on your art journey 💖

[@art4anj]

Thank you so much 🙏♥️

[@pragmaticbeaver1555]

Only the best for you and your siblings! Heartfelt story and very inspiring. Thank you soooooo fricking much for sharing! Keep on rocking along! Cheers from germany!

[@art4anj]

Thank you so much ❤️🙏🥹

[@DarylL-gi7hz]

I too am 33 (well I will be 33 in a few days) and I started pursuing freelancing as a graphic designer in 2020. Boy it is one hell of a ride. But I’m learning lots of great things and I am excited to keep going. I enjoyed listening to your story. Very warm and heartfelt. Brave of you ❤️

[@uyumiscribbles]

Thank you for sharing your story. Your parents must be proud of you as they have always been. ❤️ This is inspiring. Im in my 30s too and wanted to start art again. Your video popping in feed is just right on time. Thank you

[@art4anj]

Thank you so much ♥️ cheering you on your Artventure! 🤗

[@yen-8680]

Why am i tearing up 🥹 im in tht time&place too , one thing that made me want to start art again was when my mom had back surgery and i was taking care of her for 6 months. It made me think about life, aging, love & fear, about future… maybe even death. I hope to be able to live without regrets and give myself a chance to express myself in art again. Thank you, your video is beautiful and inspiring! ❤

[@kamishy_Art]

hi! this video just spawned on my home screen, and i relate to your story to heart, because i too lost my dad (last year) and i'm incredible terrified of pursuing art now that my biggest fan passed (i'm a daddy's girl too!) , i'm 26 right now and i didn't even went to my graduation (i graduated in animation) because my dad won't be there, i don't know you but i feel proud of you, your story is very inspiring and it brought me so much reassurance for the future, you are very brave, and i know your dad is proud of you, just like mine is, wherever they are right now, i'm sorry for your loss, and thank you for sharing your story

[@art4anj]

This made me cry 🥲Firstly, I’m so sorry for your loss and I’m sure that your dad will be cheering you on forever! ❤ Thank you for your sweet words Kamishy 🙏 I’m excited and looking forward to your journey in animation!! WE CAN DO THIS, our biggest fans got our backs 🫂❤

[@waybackvideos6566]

I'm 39 and you are so relatable to me as an artist. Thank you❤

[@bl2938]

i'm so sorry for your loss 🙏🙏💔💔!! i'm sure your parents would be so supportive and proud of you! i did not expect this video to be very emotional ToT but it was incredibly inspiring for me and hopefully others as well( your artstyle is very adorable by the way qwq )

[@art4anj]

Thank you so much 🙏❤️ I actually rarely tell my personal life experiences online but I wanted to share how and why I struggled constantly quitting and going back to art. I was initially hesitant because I felt that the video might be saddening to watch but I know that it’s that very reason why I was able to become braver in finally pursuing my love for art. The purpose of this video is for me to reach fellow artists like you, who can get inspired or gain some courage in your journey thru my story. 😌

[@NobleHusky]

I'm 29, and it's shocking to realize how similar events are for you and even comments from this video! 2018-2021 had me losing my Granny, dog, cat, and then my Mom, and then I got the 2021 Dallas Freeze as a parting gift from life that broke alot of expensive things in my parent's home. Even still, us artists are still here trying to make our aspirations into a reality.

[@RandomnesExpirience]

woah, seriously thank you for sharing your story

[@sunsyndria5076]

I'm 27 and this gives me hope so much in my illustrator journey. This is very inspiring for me to the point I cried :( , because I am too a graphic designer ever since I graduated. But back then ever since in college I really wanted to be more on the studio art side, painting and illustrating. Though my parents got worried for me that if I were to pursue studio arts I might be financially unstable. So I got pressured on pursuing Graphic Design instead (it's also because most of my friends/classmates are in the Graphic Design and I was unsure with Studio arts even though I wanted to pursue that path). Up until now I'm still struggling with my career path and I've cried a lot. Before my father died he told me that he was worried for my future because it looks like I've been really unsure in my career. Then your video came across my feed and I got inspired and hopeful. So thank you for sharing your story!

[@BigSisPlays]

I also experienced the same thing as you. My parents wanted me to be a doctor or nurse but I couldn't handle seeing blood. I didn't know what I wanted to do but then I took a class called web and social media design back in high school. I was having fun learning about the adobe softwares and I kinda liked it but I still didn't know what I wanted to be. When I was on my senior year, I decided to take an art class even though I wasn't good on my art yet. My parents have been asking me a lot of what I wanted to be and I said graphic designer so they could stop asking me. I still feel scared right now but hopefully my art will improve! Right now, I am going to college and taking classes for my major. Also, love your art!

[@sushih3302]

Aww, thank you for making this video! I’m in a similar position to you with the struggles and doubts, choosing to pick the stable option first and find joy in that but it is a struggle.

[@shortie.artshop]

You’re lucky that you have supportive parents. 😊 we’re almost the same age, when I mentioned going to fine arts, my mom immediately rejected the idea. Thank you for sharing your story, I hope soon I can take the same path. Right now, I’m balancing corporate job and taking in commission arts. I wish I could do art full time. Please continue to share your story. ❤

[@art4anj]

You can do it! ❤️ I’m really grateful even though I didn’t get to do it when they were still here. I actually went into corporate/publishing job and took in commissions too whenever I can. What I didn’t do then that I would advice to you is SHARE your works online! I didn’t do that at the time and it’s one of the things I look back on that I wish I did.

[@moec1133]

I am so sorry for you losses! I can’t imagine going through that kind of grief! I think that your pursuit with art again is really admirable! I recently lost my grandfather unexpectedly in July. That grief has been really hard and I have my days where I struggle, so I can’t even imagine it being my parents. Thank you for sharing so much with us and I look forward to seeing where your journey takes you.

[@Danijjay121]

Aww… this is a beautiful video. I really like the message behind it. I’m also a fellow artist myself. I’m making art everyday. I wish you the best on your journey. The best is yet to come for you. Keep up the good work.

[@cupokat5998]

I'm almost 30 also a graphic designer and been on and off with pursuing my art, I really relate with your self doubt and fears but now I'm pushing myself to really try this time, to feel the fear and do it anyway, hopefully, it'll lead to something good and new connections. I'm so sorry about your parents too :( sending virtual hugs

[@yuyanainz]

This vid literally put me in tears and at the same time it gives me the light, the hope, to still pursue my dream as an illustrator!! Thanks ate for this motivating vid and condolences about your family

[@art4anj]

It can be a rocky road but there's something deeply fulfilling when you know you love what you do

[@55melmel]

A very authentic beautiful soul. I talk to spirit, but I stlll miss my passed over loved ones. Some days it can be crippling. You’re amazing to heal others with your true heart felt story. Your parents are so thrilled you’ve made them so proud. They are like screaming your name over and over with party horns, hats and confetti. I can see your dad holding up in the air when you where just a tiny tot and it’s adorable! Keep on making that magic, I know divine source Is with you!!! 🙏💜🧚‍♀️👍😊

[@EarlyMorrow3D]

I knew it! I thought maybe you are also from the Philippines when I heard your voice haha! I'm happy for you that you found yourself and endured through the hard times in life. I'm also in this lifelong pursuit of art and I have a lot more to go through and its not easy, but I know this is the thing that I've stuck through all this time no matter how challenging it becomes.

[@sharlenequintos4659]

Thank you for sharing and making this video anj 🥰inspiring and encouraging us to have faith and pursue what we love and want in life. This is truely remarkable and we're also lucky we have you in this community.

[@art4anj]

Thank you Shar! I’m happy when it gives hope and comfort in any way ❤

[@UbePancake]

Thank you for sharing your story 🙏🏻💜It's encouraging and makes you think.

[@BirdieHatchling]

A warm big hug ate! I’m starting my own art journey from scratch. Thank you for your story. It made me brave to face my own battle in life. By the way I subscribed. Good luck to us! 🐥💛

[@hiroibwah]

I'm a guy, but I gotta say I love that little handle for the coffee cup. It's so cute. But anyway, good on you for choosing your love for art as your living! There's so many avenues where artists can thrive while also pursuing what they love. I work as a 3D artist in the commercial industry. It might not pay as much as a nurse or engineer, of course, but it provides enough - and it's such a perfect life to me.

[@aizakkukun4985]

Thanks to the algorithm for recommending this video of yours to me, it's very timely and extremely relatable since I am a Filipino myself who chose an art career to pursue. I'm still in college in my 3rd year and I took animation as a major and I also got those comments from my parents about rethinking my career path to a more stable one like engineering, architecture, anything that is STEM related but I sticked to my guts and pursued animation. My whole family's career choices are always the practical ones so hearing them talk about getting a board exam, which companies they will work, it got me thinking on my choice as well and I started to doubt whether I chose the right career path. Its gotten worse where I also hear people where they say to just keep the art related careers as a hobby and seeing the state of the art industry as well I keep thinking if whether this career path would even put food on my table. Hearing your story reassured me of why I chose this path. It will not be easy but I'll happily pursue it. I don't have the privilege of having 100% supportive parents and them telling me to not worry about finances but I'll still do my best to thrive and make this career path work. Thank you for this video it is very timely for me as I have been going through extreme self doubt.

[@kanchansingh7893]

I'm so happy for you You finally have something that you are happy about it it's very inspiring for me to start something that love to do❤❤

[@nemily33]

Thank you for being so vulnerable your story is very powerful ❤❤ I just wanted to say that I struggle a lot with the fears of failure in art and making a living/career but I know it’s all I’ve ever wanted to do. I currently chose the safe option of working in healthcare but I feel inspired by you that all steps no matter how small, are still moving in the right direction 😊 we’ve got this

[@AimiRoseArts]

Thank you so much for this! I'm 31 and sometimes I feel like I have missed the mark to be a successful artist. I am currently on my journey to get where I want to be and I'm also a mother which for me comes first. This gave me so much relief to know an artist I admire start when they were 30 as well. Thank you. I'm sorry for the loss of your parents, you come so far and what you do is stunning and you have created something beautiful that is loved by many 🥰💗🌻✨

[@art4anj]

I have such strong admiration for mothers who pursue their dream as an artist! 🥹 It’s actually my dream to be one in the future and share that love with my future little one 💖 You can do it! 🤗

[@AimiRoseArts]

Aw thank you so much that made me smile a lot. Being a mother is so special. My little girl is also super interested in art which makes me so proud. ​@@art4anj

[@qillalaland]

I’ve been following you on Insta for a while, and I never felt so relatable to anyone else before… I also started University in 2008, lost my Mom in 2018 though my Dad is still around, and got laid off multiple times since 2019. I’m trying to pursue art full time too, but still doing freelance graphic design gig on the side. You’re such a role model, I really hope whatever you’re doing right now gives you fulfillment in life (and also cash lol). Keep up the good work! 🌻

[@Troygdesign]

Remarkable video. I dont think i can put into words why I think this video is so good. I like many others are at a loss for words overall. All i can say is that you are an inspiration. and are the real deal. all the best to you.

[@marteme2273]

Thank you for sharing your story. And lovely drawing. So sorry for your losses❤‍🩹

[@SamSam.94]

Thank you so much for making this video 🥰. I honestly related so much to it from growing up having varied interests, having the chance to do art full time at my 20s but never did, having supportive parents, to the fear of failing on my career path. I’m also in my 30s and still determined to pursuit my passion in art (even though there are times when I struggle a bit, but it is what it is) I’m very sorry for the loss of your parents. To be honest with you, I’m not ready to miss my parents (no one’s ready for that tho), but I know it’s a part of life and just hope I can make them feel reassured that I’ll be okay and safe when their time comes to pass to a better place Wishing you many blessings for yourself and here’s to a better future ahead for us on our journey 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[@MomoDearestt]

Your story had me balling my eyes out at my desk. This touched my soul. I am so happy you are perusing art. You are amazing and I can’t wait to see you and your channel grow. Side note: I relate to your story. I lost my Mom in 2018 as well. She was my biggest cheerleader and my greatest fear was losing her. She put me through art school, knowing it was expensive. I owe it to her to peruse art. She believed in me. I need to believe in myself and be more confident in myself. So I’m taking notes from you.

[@Hyruleangela]

Thank you so much for sharing this 💕 I cried when I heard the part about your parents, but I am glad that it made you braver and led you on your journey to art full-time. Sending you a virtual hug! Thanks for sharing your wisdom on pursuing art

[@sergie2822]

Thank you for sharing your experience. I have worked 20+ doing 3D and design... but ended up being laid off, with no motivation or passion to pursue art again. I enjoy listening to others pursuing Art. In hope, that I may regain motivation again.

[@eirsenna007]

Thank you for sharing your story. I'm sorry for your loss. My story in drawing started in my late 20s. I tried to start drawing when I was early 20s, but didn't have the will to continue; back then I was kinda drifting in life. Then when Covid-19 hit, wanted to draw. Because something I have done since I was in high school was write stories. Naturally I wanted to see my own characters, so this was one of my motives to start the journey. And it has been quite a ride. Four years later, there have been improvements, yet there is still too much to learn. And it never gets boring.

[@heywatchmeunfold8457]

This video was recommended for me, then, I'll tell my story. I'm in the same path that you were when you decided to follow art. I was working in an laboratory, but the time spend in there and the stress I was getting made me quit.... Now I'm trying from zero to start an art career, but I feel fear, insecurity... I was always told that art can't be a job, maybe this got stuck in my subconscious self... I really want to make art for a living but I have 29 years of age and don't know how to start 😅

[@Cutiiepaii]

I cried so much when I watched the whole video. Ate I feel what you feel. I can relate to everything you are saying. I'm 30 y/o in December and I am where u are starting. Thank you for sharing your story. I means a loads to me.

[@art4anj]

Thank you 🙏 I wish you an amazing journey in art! 💖

[@erlkive]

Thank you for this video. I'm turning 32 in a few days. I'm trying to think seriously what I want to do in life right now and your video is so inspiring, I cried my eyes out.

[@sweethellstudio]

The way I literally just bought the domain to my website and am starting to sell stickers again :') I just turned 30 too! I'm so inspired to truly begin my career as an artist.

[@jenniezhu7905]

Hi, I stumbled across this video. Firstly I'm very sorry for yours and your family's loss, may them rest in peace. Thank you for having the courage on sharing this, I'm also near my 30s and kind of on the same boat as you were in the beginning. I also pursued a career in Graphic Design but drawing and art has always been what I wanted to do; but with the current market I can't find neither Graphic design or art commissions. I'm just lost and currently really struggling to find employment in general. However, I'm very happy everything worked out for you in the end, hope good things keep coming your way, fighting!

[@art4anj]

It’s still a roller coaster for me at times, freelancing has its peak and slow month/s. What my dad taught me is to always keep sending/applying because it only takes ONE to change the situation. He told me “help them find you by putting yourself and what your capable of out there” If I can suggest one thing, it would be to share in social media, take inspiration from those who make content about being a graphic designer, their process & works. I still do this with artists I look up to 😊

[@jenniezhu7905]

@@art4anj thank you, will think about it. I've been hesitating to since my socials are explicitly for art and illustrations, I will probably just have a link of it regardless.

[@cosyville]

This brought me to tears! This video has shown a lot of your love for your family, your art, the courage to take risks and face your fears. So inspiring! Thank you for sharing

[@smeemer]

Thank you so much for making this video. I know it had to be so difficult to do. My dad passed away suddenly in 2021 and my mom passed last February and I have had such a hard time functioning after my mom passed. Art has always been my dream but like you I’ve struggled with starting because of fear. But I’d rather try, even if I fail, knowing that I did what makes me happy. My mom was my biggest cheerleader when it came to my art and I just stopped drawing after she passed but have been trying to get back to creating. It’s so difficult to move on when it feels like your whole world has disappeared. Thank you again for the video. I’ve felt really lost and this just randomly showed up on my home page. It felt like my mom saying, please don’t give up on what makes you happy.

[@kitakittykat]

My soul needed this video 🩷🥹⭐️

[@art4anj]

I’m glad if it helps or inspires in any way 🥹

[@jacksonconnell]

26 and this story came close to home. I’m not an artist in drawing, but in writing since I was 13 and I plan to become an author one day. It took a long time for me to reach here with staying in the comfort zone, fear of change and such, and personally just been going through a mindset that has me dependent on people than towards myself. But things started to change when my mom, the breadwinner, quit her job, and that made a switch come on in my head and have me go at it. I still have a job for the past four years, but I’m preparing myself now than ever on making my writing full time. I also find it ironic how I was just thinking how I didn’t want to finish this WIP (a fanfiction, really) but seeing this video and how committed you are to your beautiful work just changed my mind. Like any unpublished original stories, fanfiction holds an importance to my development in skills and creativity, and giving up on it now seems hurtful to my own art. I’m glad KZbin showed me this video out of randomness. Reminders are always nice to get not just from loved ones, but from people who can relate to your position in life 🥰❤

[@mathieul4303]

I didn’t expect that video. We are on the same age range (slightly younger) and I was feeling unmotivated to continue due to various factors (health related). I never gave my all into art yet. I might try hard now. Thanks for sharing your story

[@grumblekin]

I am a STEM professor but love art as a hobby to relieve stress and capture the satisfaction of creation. I am glad to not have it as a full-time job (I couldn't handle the pressure I think), but I am kind of jealous of those who take that leap and pursue it. Big respect!

[@ruthxk7844]

Thank you for sharing 🥲 truly touching and motivating😊🙏❤

[@MintyMido]

Cried a lot watching this - thank you for sharing your story, your art is beautiful!

[@EastToWestStudio]

Just saw your video. So sorry for your loss and I guess no amount of words can overcome griefing and it's a very personal thing which everyone overcomes differently. I didn't realized that was coming up as I was just randomly clicking on videos to have it played while working. I went through a similar situation when I was really young when my godmother passed away and I reconsidered what I actually wanted to do for my entire life. This particular video must have been difficult to make and your sharing will encouraged a lot more people to take a step forward in their life pursuing what they might consider a huge risk and unknown. Thanks for making this video and great channel you have here.

[@q.edwards4891]

Thanks for sharing this. I'm older, but had a terrible loss and am starting over. I hope I can get to where you are. Best of luck.

[@mostracefalo5814]

Turned 31 in July and just began making watercolors again recently, after years of denying myself to pursue watercolor because I'm scared. Listening to your video made me feel a little less alone, so thank you 💖

[@andreaambrosini9711]

I’ve felt very emotional listening to your story, you’re awesome and you’re doing great! I love this chibi style illustration! I guess that such impactful experiences put you in a totally different perspective and all the old habits, the old fears just turn into empty shells and when you stress them a bit they just collapse and you can move on. I should try, at 36, to be an illustrator…part time at least, but I keep get in and out as you did! If you need to chat with someone please write me! ❤

[@stickwithstel]

your story is really inspiring. thanks so much for sharing, it's full of love and heartbreak, yet i see so much hope in it ❤️ i hope that you continue to pursue the path you feel called to, and there are so many people cheering you on. i know your mom and dad are too, and i hope you continue to find peace with everything even when it's hard. ❤️❤️ congrats on taking this big step, love your art and hope you continue to share it!

[@samlgm1]

Wow yr childhood dynamics are pretty similar to mine, im trying to pursue arts in my late 30’s and yr story inspires me to keep pushing.

[@commonindianpeople513]

I have no words, but if you r happy with what you are doing than I am sure your Parents will definitely happy Looking you from above, take care dear and enjoy your life to the BEST.

[@art4anj]

Thank you 🥹❤

[@GGeofreed]

Your story has been inspiring as someone who is also trying to pursue my art dreams at late age. Thank you so much for sharing

[@angelavanart7138]

I'm so sorry to hear about your parents. I know how heartbreaking it is because I lost my mom 😢 I'm glad you found your joy because what else do we have.

[@donnationgco]

I love this. Thanks for sharing your journey 😊

[@mariabogas]

I decided to really start pursuing art at 41. It was after the breakout with the person I was living with and I decided to end that part of my live and instead of wasting time chasing romantic interests, spending time in chasing my long delayed dream of learning to draw and painting at 41. Now, after 7 years I am very happy to where I was able to progress. It isn’t my work, I have a full time job, but it is a significant part of my free time and I do try to use all my ideas in doing one more painting … one more drawing … one more project ...

[@walkingdistances-y1j]

Hi Anj, I've actually been a follower on your Instagram since 2020! I've seen your art styles evolve and am so proud to see your growth. We were in the same freelance group and I see you're still a mutual on my art account even though I stopped posting years ago 🥺 I've remained a silent follower all these years but your story really inspires me. I'm unable to pursue my art at the moment due to my mental health but your tiktoks always pop up on my feed and it gives me hope that I can chase my creative dreams too. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your story, you have no idea that for the past four years, your growth as an artist has been a fire kindling the artistic spirit in me and not letting it die out. I will continue cheering you on for the next years to come and maybe one day, I will be able to walk the same path as you again ❤

[@art4anj]

Thank you so much for continuing to be here in my journey! 🥹 I pray that you find your path as an artist too! Mental health definitely tests us a lot in the creative field and I’m glad my art & journey is able to cheer you on in any way ❤ I know you’ll find the artistic journey that works best & most importantly healthily for you, don’t give up! ❤

[@slastenushkaslast3402]

I'm so sorry for your loss. You are a very brave woman!!!

[@ezzy1151]

Wow your channel came up as a recommended and I teared up for the passing of your parents. My parents were the opposite of yours. I was inspired to draw because of my mother. I am a graduate of Graphic Design and I am feeling like you had in this video and afraid to persue but this inspired me more. I was not the daddy's girl but my dad passed in 2012 and still hurt for my sister and I but we understood he did great to push us for better. Thank you for this video.

[@thesimscafe7548]

i'm almost in my 30's, and I also have this love and hate relationship with art. I don't have much of an experience since It's a self taught and I'm also working in BPO industry. Now, I want to make a change, I want to pursue art. I can't wait till I get better at it and hopefully, it'll be the start of my career. Also, I'm really sorry for you loss. Seeing the conversation of you and your dad reminds me of my dad as well. He's still very supportive even though I'm almost at the age of 30. When I mention I want to pursue arts, he bought me a better ipad for it. I'm sure your parents are very proud of you! I can't wait for your next video!

[@Andorah]

I'm 31 and knowing your story it makes me tear up. I worked illustrating for a company long ago, and what I won was burnout myself. It killed my love with art and I was years trying to recover doing something else, finally I'm lately starting to touch the stylus again, sometimes I wished art was only a hobby so my love for art wouldn't die like that, I felt so empty seeing art as an obligation instead of a passion that every time I grabbed the stylus it made me cry and couldn't continue but thankfully I'm starting to draw again slowly. IT WAS A SIGN your company let you go so you can enjoy art and pursue it as how you pleased, I don't wish art burnout to NO ONE and that company could kill your love for art eventually, keep doing what you love in the pace you want, when you mentioned it I'm still missing those days that I was excited to get up and continue drawing happily. Please Keep drawing and making your dreams come true, your parents are proud of you in heaven!. ❤

[@YumiritaPhyria]

I am sorry for your loss... Everything I do in life, I include plans for my family. I think it also affected my decision to pursue a diff course in college... Funnily enough, while it wasn't my plan at all, I ended up fulfilling those plans with them while doing what I really have-- art. Fear is valid, future is uncertain after all. I am always scared, still thinking of the future... but all we can do wait and see haha. Thank you for the video!!

[@RuRuVictoria]

Anj, thank you for sharing your personal story with us. I know how you felt missing your parents. I too miss my Dad.❤ I wanted to pursue art as my profession but it seems impossible atm. I love your art and the lifestyle that you’re creating. You inspired me, and maybe just maybe I can try harder one more time. Making something worthy.

[@art4anj]

You’ve seen on my IG what I go through on my current journey Ruru. I’m sure our dads are both watching over us! Regarding pursuing art full time, don’t pressure yourself, start slow and build up to it. Just don’t give up or quit like I did specially when you know deep down that it’s gonna keep calling out to you ❤

[@lucinaa.5407]

Your story is so inspiring! (And your art is really beautiful!!) I also had a lot of interests growing up so it nice to hear that someone else say that they had an on and off relationship with their passions as well. I've always loved singing but I also really want to learn how to write my own music! I only figured out recently that music creation is something I would like to pursue but I am still a novice at it so I am planning on pursing a degree in something in the meantime to be financially stable. Sometimes it feels like I am taking too many detours at times and it makes me a little sad, but I hope to use the time to level up my skills so that I can one day make my creative passion my job like yours 😊

[@artbyinky]

This makes me so happy to see this video and that you’re pursuing art! While I never got the opportunity to pursue my own thing in my 20s (I was too scared to and needed stability), I do work in a creative field, however, I want to do my own thing now. I’m 31 and it can be tough to do it, but I have my own Etsy shop and just got into my first convention!

[@saintnikz]

This was beautiful and encouraging to watch. Thank you for sharing these things with us. May your parents' memory be a blessing

[@FabbInRedd]

I can totally relate with your experiences, except my mom didn't supported my desire to pursue a career in arts, but that's life I guess. Also sorry for your loss, know that you are truly blessed for having them in your life. I'm happy that you are able to live your own dream. More power to you, kababayan!

[@captiveprgaming]

Wow… amazing video definitely took a tear out of me. Your parents would be super proud. 🎉

[@nm8458]

I didn't prepare to be crying. Thank you for sharing your story. I want to be full time artist. It seems hard in this industry but I won't give up

[@henrysia7522]

Hello fellow PH artist! I'm also in my 30s now, have tried all sorts of job that graphic designing can be connected like in the events industry and digital ads. So in my 20s I've been always on job hopping because I get bored easily and if I don't learn anything new in my previous company I would search for a new job. Now on my 30s I'm very thankful for my boss because I learned a lot. I get to practice/learn other things such as video editing and 3d animation. so from graphic designer, now I'm an art director. Ganbatte to all designers! Trust the process! :)

[@stef-ruvx]

Sorry for your losses and I hope the best for your future. You will succeed and your parents would be proud!

[@raythelog]

I honestly wish I didn't take so long either, your video has been in my recommended section and I finally decided to watch it. I have been jumping in and out of art and finally dumped myself completely into it. Growing up all I did was doodle, my notebooks in class, drawing Kingdom hearts characters, and I ended up doing graphic design as well. One day I seen a bunch of twitch streams during covid however and seen people doing their art, and now I want to do it in my future. I may be already 26 but I'm glad even when I feel like I've started doing this late, I won't ever regret my decision. My illustrations may be bad, but I practice everyday and I love the progression I've done, as well as the friends I've made along the way.

[@art4anj]

@@raythelog Art streamers during the pandemic are also one of the reasons why I got inspired to face my fear of drawing w/ someone watching. I believe that we all have our own journey of finding our way back to art if it constantly calls out to us 😌

[@annikapark9909]

Hi ate Anj! Thank you for sharing your vulnerable self to us. I'm sobbing because i'm going throught the same thing you experienced. I'm still scared of the uncertainties and frustrated with my progress.. it's been 3 years since i graduated but i still find it hard finding the right job for me. Time's passing and i feel horrible for the time i wasted. Kasi panganay po ako, i want to give back but i feel like time is taking my parents away from me. Your story just made me realize that I'm not the only one who knows this kind of pain. You made me more motivated to finally pick up my pen and just do it. I'm glad i found your channel! Thank you po ulit ate! 😭💕