Pregnancy Loss Memory Box: 41 week Stillborn baby

[@sarahgriffith67]

Oh mamas, my heart aches for you right now. I lost my twins at birth at 38 weeks, it was due to medical negligence and malpractice. My son was considered a still birth because he passed before they got him out, my daughter was considered born alive, was worked on for 45 mins, and resuscitated, lived on support for 36 mins. However i was hemorrhaging and was unable to hold her while she was alive. I fully understand the denial of just knowing that they would magically wake up and be alive. The silence of their birth was deafening. Waiting to hear cries that never came, to feel their chest rise and fall when i held them- all of the things that you expect to happen. The should be's will forever haunt me. I only had a few hours with them before they took them away and i was completely alone during their birth. Not due to covid it was Feb 7th 2018 - i had just gone to labor and delivery due to pain and bleeding 2 days before my scheduled c-section. Once they finally saw me everything happened so fast i didnt have time to make calls- i had a placental abruption which caused most of the issues - however they should have rushed and done and emergency c-section instead of having me birth them vaginally. Their names are Jenisis and Josiah, they should be here. And so should your beautiful girl. Their 3rd birthday just passed. The first year is so hard especially the days and months after with all the planning and inital shock of it all. I will grieve my babies everyday they were supposed to live - outlive me× please know you are not alone - no matter how isolating it feels. If you ever need anyone to talk to please feel free tk reach out. No one should have to go thru this. Im so sorry you did. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for sharing your experience. 💜💜

[@ataviaskai]

I am so sorry! How traumatic. I definitely know what you mean about not hearing the cries you always anticipated on hearing on what was supposed to be one of the best days ever... I for so long was so hurt over the fact that I was never ever able to see my baby gaze into my eyes and know that I am her mommy. It hurt me so much for quite sometime that we never locked eyes 💔 Speaking Jenisis and Josiah's names and honoring their beautiful lives. I am also here for you! I try my best to read and reply to every comment but if you ever need to, please reach out to me on instagram @ ataviaskai. 💜 Thank you for listening.

[@christyS.898]

Oh my goodness, your situation is so much like mine, placenta abruption, could have been prevented, my baby boy passed while in labor, they chose to save me instead of my baby, I feel they could have saved him too, I also was Hemorrhaging, the worst Horrifying feeling holding your breath waiting to hear that first little cry and when they lay him in your arms and you long to see his little chest move to breathe, so unfair, I didn’t handle the loss of my baby, I let bitterness set in and resented other mothers that got to have there babies, my sister had her baby 2 days later and I couldn’t hold my own niece for a month after she was born and I made myself do it then, I resented that innocent baby for awhile and I know that was so wrong of me but my heart was broken and I just knew no other way to deal with the pain, I have since gotten stronger and I guess have healed and closer to my niece now. I hate to see any mother go through this now and my heart just aches for them because I know exactly what they are going through. What’s really hard is to see these mothers that will take drugs while they are carrying there innocent baby and that baby live but have to suffer from withdrawals because of there selfish mother or mothers like us that do everything right and loose our baby and these drug addicted mothers have there baby and born completely healthy, don’t get me wrong, thank god they did but it’s not fair and I know god has a reason for everything we don’t understand but like I said, bitterness set in and I had so many questions as why??? I read your comment to this sweet momma that lost her angel and my heart just hurt for you as well, bless your heart and you lost both of yours, I pray you are healing over your loss, you are so right, that first year is the hardest, if you can get through that first year it seems you start your journey to healing after that, the pain never gets easy, you just learn to some how deal with it. Prayers for all the mom and dads that have to go through this, our hearts are forever missing that sweet loss of our angel baby or babies in your case💔🙏

[@jessicasosa7313]

I’m so sorry for all of your losses. May God grant you peace in this storm. I’m so sorry. They’re with God. Rest in knowing you’ll see them again.

[@putuporshutup342]

❤️

[@christyS.898]

Hope your getting stronger everyday❤️

[@BrandyH-eh9up]

Your daughter is so blessed that you are her mother. You are strong and beautiful.

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜

[@shiannekrushe8658]

Her angel wrote her name in the book of life, closed it, and whispered, "too beautiful for earth". Much love momma ❤ you're so strong

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you 💜

[@Phoenixcomplexx]

My dad only had 3 days with my older brother. Now there’s me, my younger sisters (twins) , and youngest brother. This video has brought me so much peace. While we were never able to meet here, I know he is with me. Baby girl is definitely loving all over you all right now.

[@ataviaskai]

Yes! They are definitely loving on us still. I will make sure to continue to honor my daughter so her siblings will feel her love like you do with your brother. That is very special 💜

[@MsHoseinS]

Thank you for sharing this. I lost my baby boy at 22 weeks and I was also given a memory box. It took me months to look into it and then an entire year to even look at the photos. I have been searching for videos about memory boxes to help me through. You are incredible and I really admire your strength. Your angel will be there with you always!

[@ataviaskai]

I am so sorry for your loss. It is terribly hard navigating the loss of your precious, innocent baby. I have to remind myself to take things one day at a time and do what is best for me. Do whatever feels right! I think when I am finally ready, I will make a shadow box to have on display some place in the house. Your angel is always with you! Thank you for sharing. 💜

[@bradleysmith8132]

Idk even know you, or how I ran across this video. But you’re so strong, it’s ok to cry do not apologize for feeling your emotions girl ! 🖤 keep yalls head up! Yall are in my prayers ! God bless !

[@ataviaskai]

💜 💜 💜 thank you so much!

[@Willowtree82]

It's okay to cry, momma

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you. 💜 I’m such a cryer.

[@annastumpf7904]

Momma we are crying with you.

[@sarahdooley6164]

It has been 8 years since I lost my baby. I'm still struggling with the loss. You give me hope that I will smile again.

[@kiwib8646]

Beautiful 💕💕💕👼🏾👼🏾🕊🕊😢 I’m so emotional thinking of my daughter. It definitely makes me sad when I look in the box and smell her blankie 😢🥺🥺. Praying for you daily sis .

[@ataviaskai]

I do that too! I ended up editing that part out. This video was harder for me to record than talking about my L&D! I am also praying for you! 💜 Do you have Instagram?

[@kiwib8646]

@@ataviaskai you did great . Yes ma’am I added you “Kiwi850”

[@ataviaskai]

Just made my page public & trying to keep up. I just followed you back. 😊

[@JOHANNA-qd6iz]

Here in the UK there are groups of women I being one of them that knit hats, booties blankets we also make tiny outfits for babies born too soon people donate their wedding dresses and we make the outfit from them. It's a wonderful cause to be apart of. You and your husband are remarkable parents God Bless you both

[@ataviaskai]

That is absolutely beautiful! Thank you for doing that. I am sure it means so much to families. 💜 you have an amazing heart.

[@Willowtree82]

What thoughtful gifts, the person who puts these together at the hospital is extremely thoughtful. I would love to make kits like these for mothers who have been through this. You are still a mother. You will go on to have more children, you should definitely consider, it will not erase your daughter but it will bring you comfort and joy

[@ataviaskai]

💜thank you! I truly appreciate you for affirming that. It really means a lot. You could definitely contribute by volunteering & donating items at your local hospitals. It would mean so much to families! I know it does for us.😊

[@libny2929]

Your daughter will watch over you❤️you are strong and beautiful

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you 💜

[@czam1630]

Thank you again Atavia - your beauty and grace shine through your grief. God Bless you.

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you 💜

[@maggieej4655]

I know your pain oooo soooo well may of 2018 I lost my twins . I was 20 weeks . From one Angel mom to another I am praying for you . If you ever need someone to talk to who understands I am always here . 🙌

[@ifitaintonethingitsanother]

Greetings. Thank you so much for sharing with us. Woman you are so beautiful inside and out, that you could never have an ugly cry. May God truly bless you and your husband. Both of you are in my thoughts and prayers. ❤🙏🙂

[@msbuggs]

As you went through Atavia's memory box I could no keep the tears from flowing (I'm such an empath). I don't know why or how I came across your channel, but thank you for sharing the love you have for your precious angel. I pray that God grants you and your husband peace and comfort, that you two are surrounded by loving family and friends and support systems to help you through the days that seem the hardest, and that God restores.

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much for your support and kindness. It goes such a long way 💜

[@Sheli-_-]

Thank you so much for sharing your sweet memory box. Those momentos are beautiful but she will always and forever be in your heart. 💞

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you! 💜

[@AE-yv3ni]

Awed by your strength. We lost our first child, our daughter, 31 years ago. They didn’t do such things like photo shoots and memory boxes and oh how I wish they had! I’m sorry that you both are part of this terrible club now and just send you all my love. ❤️

[@ataviaskai]

I am terribly sorry for the loss of your daughter. No one should belong to this club, but I am also glad we have one another to lean on. I am very grateful that with times changing, hospitals have gotten so much better with making sure that the catastrophic experience is memorable in beautiful ways as well. 💜

[@aleesharenea8565]

I'm so sorry about your daughter 😞 I hope you know she is your Guardian Angel and will be waiting to reunite with you in Heaven 💜💜💜💜💜

[@ataviaskai]

💜💜💜 thank you

[@damonsworld281]

Rest assured that we never die, your baby is very much alive and you will be united with her again

[@helenjm7558]

Sorry for your loss. I know how you feel everything in both videos. I remember every second of my stillbirth of my daughter 7 years ago. 😢❤️❤️❤️

[@ataviaskai]

I am so sorry for your loss 💔. Thank you for your support! 💜

[@laurakellam1599]

Atavia I just want you to know that you are an inspiration to me I’ve never experienced what you have and what a lot of other mother and fathers went through but I just want you to know that I’m so freaking proud of you and you’re an amazing gorgeous human being inside and out God bless you and your husband and family

[@ataviaskai]

I seriously can’t figure out the best words to respond. I want to make sure I’m expressing the level of gratitude & appreciation I have for your support. But, I probably won’t. I’ve never had anyone I didn’t know 1. be so understanding & 2. Tell me that I am an inspiration! You’re a beautiful person! You’ve brought enough light in your one comment to carry me for quite a while! Thank you! 💜💜💜💜

[@mellokitty3807]

When you started to speak on the affirmations, there was a translucent colored orb on the wall. You’re beautiful and extremely strong, from a complete stranger, I love you and will pray for God to continue to comfort you and you’re family. Your beautiful babygirl is with you everyday and she’s always with you 💜

[@ataviaskai]

A few people have told me this in different points of the video! 😊 my girl is always with me 💜 thank you so much!! I love you back!

[@mochaglamourdoll]

Watching this I am literally trying to fight back the tears. Just so sad but inspiring at the same time on how you are handling it.

[@ataviaskai]

💜Thank you so much

[@maxine1437]

I came across your stillbirth story a fee weeks ago and i must say im sorry for your lost .and its will never gets harder it will only gets better with time you are a strong woman and i pray god richly blessing upon you and your family.thanks for sharing your story.and its ok to ugly cry. God bless you my dear. 🙏 🙏

[@nicolerain4331]

You are doing great! May GOD bless you and tour husband 🕊🙏🏾🕊💝🕊🙏🏾

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much! 💜

[@lisacates]

Her ultrasound photos will fade out so make sure you laminate first!!!! God bless you and your family and know your angel is in an amazing place. I; myself have suffered a loss and I totally understand how hard it is to share, but if it helps just 1 person may it give you some peace!❤️

[@ataviaskai]

It absolutely does. 💜 Thank you so much for letting me know that. I did forget that the text told us they could fade. It's almost been a year so I better get on it before that happens.

[@MillieQuirke]

please don’t laminate! get them scanned onto a computer and re develop them on normal photo paper. i’ve seen people laminate them and the heat completely turn the pictures black due to the photo paper they use

[@ataviaskai]

@@MillieQuirke noted! 🥰thank you!

[@emilyjehu486]

At 18 minutes 34 seconds on the wall a beautiful orb appears. Please use this as comfort that your little angel is always with you 💗 you’re amazing mamma 💗

[@ataviaskai]

💜💜 she’s always with me & her presence is very noticeable when I need her the most 😊

[@tammygouletschrader8785]

I am so glad that you have this box of memories of your baby girl. I wish I could reach through the screen and hug you. Your in my prayers

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you for your prayers! I am receiving your hugs 🤗 🤗💜

[@cbush6939]

Take comfort in knowing you have a special Guardian Angel to watch over you and your family. May God Bless you and continue to strengthen you..

[@ataviaskai]

I remind myself of this on those heavier days! 💜 thank you!

[@zahiya1]

Amazing share... You are so strong to be able to so this! Thank you for sharing this beautiful memory box and your sweet little Angel Atavia 😇 💗 💕

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you 💜💜💜💜

[@daniellefrazier2322]

You are such a lovely woman.I am praying for you to find a sense of peace and know your Beautiful Baby Girl is shining down on you and one day you will be with her in heaven as I am a Mom of 6.5 on earth and my baby boy who is in heaven with your little girl.I know how hard it is I was so afraid to have more children after him but I did and thr Good Lord blessed me with 5 and now I have 12 beautiful grandchildren.Not a day goes by that my baby Jonathan does not cross my mind.Sending all my love and Prayers to you💝

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much for sharing with me! I’m inspired. Navigating a pregnancy after loss is so hard. Much harder than I could’ve imagined. But, I know it will be so rewarding! 💜💜 Receiving your love & grateful for your prayers.

[@meagancarner4672]

11:30 you see something flutter by, might have been your angel baby❤️ sending my condolences for your loss

[@ataviaskai]

You guys are seeing her all throughout this video! Lol I love it! 🥰 thank you!

[@aldnd69]

You are so strong. Thank you for sharing your precious things. Stay strong beautiful lady 💕

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much! 💜

[@mochaglamourdoll]

You are such a strong and beautiful woman. I can only imagine how heartbreaking this for you. Your daughter is looking down smiling just seeing how much you love her. I am currently 23 weeks and I pray everyday for a safe and health pregnancy and delivery like my last 4 children, but sometimes things are just out of our control.

[@ataviaskai]

This made me cry 💜 Thank you so much! You are right. Sometimes, things just are and I have to remind myself of that. You are right behind us! We are expecting again and super excited, although it is pretty scary sometimes. Congratulations! We will definitely have healthy babies and pregnancies! 😊

[@mochaglamourdoll]

@@ataviaskai little momma sent you guys her rainbow sibling. I am so happy for you hun, and I will pray everyday for the both of us that we have safe and healthy pregnancies and deliveries, and when is your due date. I was given the 28th of june the first 2 times and then the 5th of July.

[@ataviaskai]

@@mochaglamourdoll So sweet! we were given June 29th originally! But, we are being induced sooner. Thank you so much for your prayers! 😊

[@mochaglamourdoll]

@@ataviaskai It is no problem hun. I could only imagine how nerve wracking it could be worrying about the unknown. Although being induced is a pain, I am glad that they are doing it for the safety of the baby and yourself. Good Luck momma. Will be waiting around for updates. 💗💗💗🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🤰🏾

[@MelodysMakeOvers]

That baby went from a newborn to a young beautiful adult to a wise woman all in one moment...and all phases of her life are with you. She will be there for all of your phases of life from here on out until the day you can hold her again. It will be that moment that she will show you everything you THOUGHT you missed but were actually right there for❤️🌹❤️ hugs to you and yours hun! Xoxox

[@ataviaskai]

This is absolutely beautiful! You're so thoughtful! 💜 Thank you so much!

[@harrymccallum1226]

Bless you both 🙏 ❤ you are beautiful parents your little princess angel is watching over you ❤

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you 💜

[@amyburwell5005]

I wish I could say something to make your pain go away all I can say is that I will keep you in my prayers

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜

[@deborahfloyd7459]

So sorry for your loss thank you for sharing her memory box with us you are a strong queen and she was blessed to have you as her mother I know you would of been an amazing mother to her God blessed you queen I will continue to 🙏 pray 🙏 for your strength

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you 💜

[@UnderneathHerSkin]

May God continue to give you and husband strength to cope through this difficult time. I too lost my son who was still born at 35 weeks. I still have my hospital bag in my closet just the way it came home. I also have a keepsake bag and I have not gotten the courage to go through it as yet. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. I share my story on my channel and have been watching others like yourself. I often wonder how we as mothers who have lost a child is doing at different stages and time after our loss.

[@TheMissJJ]

My deepest condolences to you and your husband on the loss of your sweet baby girl Atavia. May you continue to have strength as you honor and love her. And, never apologize if you need to do “the ugly” cry Grief is all too raw and real when one loses a baby. Special blessings to you, your husband and your daughter Atavia.

[@ataviaskai]

💜💜thank you so much.

[@lindseylindberg6287]

You have the sweetest little guardian Angel now, God bless you and your family ❤️

[@ataviaskai]

You are so kind 💜

[@cheerribomb]

Sharing your grief is very noble

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜

[@maniworld6779]

I recently lost my son at 20 weeks 👼🏽I wish he was here feb 6 2021 it still feels so unreal but I am glad I got to hold him and get to be able to see him

[@ataviaskai]

I am so sorry for your loss, Mani 💔 you are in my thoughts and I'm sending you lots of healing, peaceful, and positive thoughts! If you don't mind sharing, were you given a reason for the loss of your son? No pressure mama 💜

[@Katsandkatsandkats]

Your video was recommended to me today, May 20, 2021. When you said her birthday I realized today is her first birthday in Heaven. Happy first birthday to your sweet angel Atavia ❤️ Your strength and love for your little girl is so apparent and beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story. Much love to you and your family and may you continue to find healing and peace.

[@ataviaskai]

We did celebrate her 1st birthday yesterday! 💜 It's so surreal still! I'm so grateful for all of the support we've received! Thank you!

[@JosePadilla-ci6jr]

You're lil angel will always be with you always. Bless you and your family and my condolences

[@ataviaskai]

I truly believe that! Thank you so much 💜

[@davinaowen9918]

What a strong beautiful human being you are! Through your loss I know that you have helped so many people.❤

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜

[@estheryefanov676]

So sorry for your loss! I’m also a mother and I cannot imagine the amount of pain having to go through this nightmare. Stay strong Beautiful!

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you 💜

[@ebonywilliams-dillard4550]

I cried with you..sending you hugs prayer and healing.

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜

[@ebonywilliams-dillard4550]

you're more than welcome thank you for being so transparent 💖🙏

[@monicalklein]

My heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry for your loss. Many prayers for you and your family.

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you 💜

[@tesha22]

Hi Beautiful i listen to your videos. Your voice and humility captivated me. Am so sorry for your loss. And i know how losing someone you love deeply hurts. Whenever you have to cry . Just cry. I admire your strength. God made you numb for a reason. So you wouldn't lose yourself. Thats how i felt when my dad pass. I cried and sometimes felt numb. You spoke of your baby so beautifully 😍💕. Keep your head up and praying for you.

[@ataviaskai]

I am terribly sorry for the loss of your dad. It's so important for me to just cry it out sometimes. I agree! I definitely feel like that is why I had that feeling of an out of body experience too. Thank you so much! 💜 I appreciate your prayers. I've since had another beautiful baby girl who is now 5 months old! 😊

[@cherylcampbell8149]

Oh I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t begin to know what you went through. You go ahead and cry ...it’ll let out some pain. Sending hugs

[@ataviaskai]

🤗 thank you 💜

[@ResilientIzShe]

I literally just broke down and cried, this hurts my heart. I cannot imagine. My prayers are with you.

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you for your sympathy. It means a lot having others cry with me. 💜

[@salliewashington2119]

My heart aches for you... she is a baby angel that will always watch over you, Always...💕💕💕🙏

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜

[@dellawilliams3809]

Sending you a big hug you are in my prayers are with you and your family God bless you and continue giving you strength and comfort a and piece in your heart I love you

[@ataviaskai]

💜💜 I love you back! Thank you!

[@tamishajordan8311]

So cute I'm in tears I still have some of my baby things

[@ataviaskai]

😭 so good to keep things that physically help you honor your baby's memory.

[@tracymckinney7935]

I am so sorry for loss of your beautiful daughter. Sending hugs, love, and prayers to you and the family.

[@ataviaskai]

💜💜 thank you so much!

[@PersonallyBCB]

I simply can’t tune into the entire video. Very touchy and I’m currently pregnant. I wanted to take the time and say I’m sorry for your loss. This is very unfortunate. You’re so strong for doing this 💕 I love your hair Queen.

[@ataviaskai]

Totally understandable! I appreciate your support & empathy. 💜 Congrats on your baby🥰 Thank you!! 😊 one day I’ll get back to hair videos lol

[@PersonallyBCB]

@@ataviaskai I admire your strength. 😍 Thank you very much.

[@dadecountess305]

I don’t even know how I ended up here but I’m so sorry for your loss . You are so strong , god bless you ❤️

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you 💜💜

[@CeceliaRH]

You are so beautiful and sweet❤️ so graceful and elegant.. praying for your heart mama 💖 I had an ectopic pregnancy at 15 but was told it could have been a ruptured cyst and they gave me an option to keep or abort the baby.. I chose to keep but when I awoke I was told the baby was almost 7 weeks and in my tube. I only knew I was a mother for about 10 minutes my heart sympathizes with you because you carried your beautiful baby girl even beyond the due date and felt her grow.. I’ve brought in 4 more babies since but I still tear up thinking about the life that didn’t get a chance to blossom into it’s fullness... much prayers 💖

[@CeceliaRH]

Girl my bday is May 20th 1996 😭😭😭 ugh so much love to you

[@ataviaskai]

I am so sorry. I couldn't imagine being that young having to process and make decisions like that. My heart goes out to you. Thank you so much for sharing. I completely understand still grieving the loss of your baby! I am so happy to hear that you have had more beautiful babies! Gives us hope. 💜

[@anatsc69]

My condolences to you and your husband on the loss of your daughter. I had a tubal pregnancy 27 years ago that blew up in December of 94 but didn't know it was a tubal. The baby kept growing in the scar tissue till February 95 when the doctor found out cause I kept bleeding on and off the whole time. There is not a day that goes by that I dont think of the child I would of had. My love a support to you always.

[@ataviaskai]

I know even after 27+ years it still hurts. Sending love & peace! Thank you for listening to me share my story. 💜💜

[@lifewithlacy7190]

So sorry for the loss of your precious baby girl. Prayers and hugs to you, your husband and family. No response needed from one mother to another🙏🏻♥️🙏🏻

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you 💜

[@mosoglam]

You are so strong!!! You and your husband is forever in my heart.. Baby Atavia is smiling down on her mommy and daddy!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@ataviaskai]

My heart! 💜💜💜 thank you! We appreciate you.

[@tamekapatrick9500]

Trust and believe me....u never forget it but it does get easier...I went through the same thing at 37 weeks in 2015 and I still cry frm time to time.

[@ataviaskai]

I am terribly sorry for your loss. I know that it will always hurt not having our babies here with us. Sometimes I cry in pure disbelief that she really isn't physically here... It is so hard some day, but I am hopeful that the pain becomes less piercing. Sending love 💜

[@roseyd14]

You are very strong woman 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ God bless you and your heart

[@ataviaskai]

💜 thank you

[@valeriehill6382]

Thank you so much for sharing your story - I had a 39 week stillbirth, mine was many years ago now but still I feel her loss. You sharing you story brought back many sad memories but in a good healthy cathartic way and I thank you with all my heart - take good care of each other and know that the love you have for your beautiful baby will never diminish - sending love and healing hugs to you and your family 🙏🙏🌹

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much for sharing that with me. I am so sorry that you too know this pain. It is so unfortunate, but I am glad that we have platforms like this to connect and lean on one another! 💜 Sending love and light your way as well.

[@johannaengland79]

You are so very precious and so strong. This long night will end and you will feel the sun again on your face. But for now, remember that it’s okay to cry and cry and cry until one day, you don’t need to as often. Big hugs to you.

[@ataviaskai]

🤗 Thank you so much 💜

[@A_lady_alwyz]

Listening to your journey, has helped me mentally prepare for the one I'm about to embark on. Thank you for sharing and I am sorry that you went through this as I am.

[@ataviaskai]

I am so sorry 🥺 if you ever want to talk, please reach out. Sending love & light 💜

[@A_lady_alwyz]

@@ataviaskai Thank you. It's been a little over a week and still feels surreal.

[@ataviaskai]

@@A_lady_alwyz it’s almost been 2 years for me & I still feel like that. Wish we were only having a horrible dream! I’m so sorry it’s reality sis.

[@A_lady_alwyz]

@@ataviaskai I know. I'm just going to push forward as hard as it may be...grieve when necessary. Nothing will ever fill the void, not even another baby.

[@ataviaskai]

@@A_lady_alwyz I’m living proof of that. It’s very tough even with rainbow babies. Wouldn’t wish it on a soul! I’m sorry again. Do whatever you feel is necessary. 💜

[@DonnaDiane74]

Good to see you again, sis. I "love" your hair. Lol It's so cute. I wish no mom ever had to make videos like this, but it shows you that you're really not alone. I hope that helps a little. Continued blessings and healing to you and your family.

[@ataviaskai]

🥰🥰 thank you so much!

[@lovelydae9563]

You are strong you are brave you are loved and so much more it’s okay to scream and cry your soul is reaching oh so high your heart is big this you know God said my child your journey is long don’t give up continue to push your daughter is smiling and cheering for you!!! 💕 My condolences to you and your family I can’t imagine the pain and hurt that you’re feeling I won’t pretend that I know what you’re going through cause I don’t know. I pray for your peace and healing through your healing journey no one can tell you how to heal or grieve because everyone is different. No days are the same some are good and some not so much.

[@ataviaskai]

You are absolutely right. Doing my best to grieve how it feels right to me. Suffering terribly close losses of my sister and daughter is very hard. But glad I have a tremendous amount of support. Thank you 💜

[@TeamDreamFitness]

You are strength!!! You are an inspiration. My love to your family

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜

[@tarrabedell8909]

Happy Heavenly Birthday Lil Angel Baby Girl your Mommy & Daddy sure love you just watch over them and let them know you are watching.. Love & Prayers your way Momma I know it's not easy at all I'm thinking of your family as it's coming up on her 1st birthday..

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much! 💜 She will be 1 in just a few short days. We appreciate your thoughtfulness!

[@tarrabedell8909]

@@ataviaskai oh no problem I lost my son Justin at 12weeks July 14, 2014 & still 😢 I understand loss of a baby it saddens me prayers your way

[@classical421]

Thank you for sharing the memory box of your beautiful baby girl. I am thinking of you and your family 💜

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜

[@jordenford4530]

You are so beautiful. And so strong ❤️

[@ataviaskai]

💜 thank you!

[@cynthianeville4452]

Sending lots of love and prayers to you and your husband. ❤

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much! 💜 💜

[@teatimehoney3256]

You are strong God bless you and your family God will restore and give you double 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 trust and believe. My heart pours out to you

[@ataviaskai]

💜thank you

[@herhairconfessions4334]

My heart goes out to you and your husband. You are very strong and lucky to have been able to have the experiences you did with your precious Angel. You all will continuously be in my prayers 🙏🏾

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much for your continuous prayers! You are appreciated more than you know sis. It means so much to me having your love and support. 💜

[@kizgreen332]

Its okay to cry. You such a blessing and strong woman for doing this video. I pray you and husband be strong from this. .

[@ataviaskai]

💜💜💜 Thank you so much

[@kizgreen332]

@@ataviaskai my mom told me she had a stillborn before she got pregnant with me. I didn't remember till now. It was a quick conversation often. My oldest daughter name is Skai.

[@ataviaskai]

@@kizgreen332 💜💜 Thank you for sharing. So sorry for your family’s loss. I love the name Skai 😊

[@nettiebark6792]

I'm so sorry for you and your husband's loss of your precious baby girl.🙏💕

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜

[@laurawright510]

sorry for yr sad news i don't know how it feels and i never want to know i have 2 wonderful kids of my own and goodness only knows what u been through on yr journey heartbreaking stay strong sending love x

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜

[@lindamoss7338]

So very sorry for your loss , you are beautiful and strong and thank you for sharing your heart with us

[@ataviaskai]

💜thank you 💜 I appreciate your support

[@irisalvarez2949]

God bless you and your husband. You are such of a strong woman. God will give you the strength to give you relieve at this time you need him so much. So sorry for your loss. It has to be such a painful experience and time you going through loosing your baby. God will be with you and husband. God bless you.🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@ataviaskai]

thank you so much!! 💜 💜

[@AzulMariecreations]

Thank you for sharing your story with all of us. I’m so sorry for your loss mama. I went through it too I lost my baby girl 10 years ago I was 5 months along when I lost her and I was so heart broken, I felt lost too, she was super tiny and cute and her name was G'ianna.

[@ataviaskai]

Aw, mama! I am so sorry for your loss as well. Speaking baby G'ianna's name and honoring her today 💜

[@AzulMariecreations]

@@ataviaskai yes! Thank you hun. I tell my two other girls that they have an older sister in heaven and I always tell them her name and how cute she was.

[@corettawhite1670]

That memory box is perfect. Sending prayers.

[@ataviaskai]

💜💜thank you

[@laurachristine1115]

Ur unbelievably strong and beautiful soul and ur beautiful lil lady is lucky to have u and its happened for a reason but omg ur doing perfect iam so sorry again but ur gona help so many people and jus want to say thank you 💙💚❤️🙏

[@ataviaskai]

Thanks! 💜

[@ericat4877]

🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 for you Atavia and your husband ... you are EXTREMELY STRONG 💪🏽 and please know that God is with you every step of the way and baby girl 👼🏽 is with you as well... I’m praying for you & that you use your babies Strength to help you stay Strong!!! Much ❤️

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜 💜 I appreciate it more than you know.

[@iAmNaomiTamar144k]

You did really good strong & beautiful this is sooo sad 🖤 stay strong . That hospital was sooo thoughtful

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜 I think so too! I’m so glad to have all of this.

[@maryjames4781]

God bless you. Thank you for sharing. You are helping my heart heal as well.

[@ataviaskai]

Sending you extra love and light. God bless you 💜

[@jacquelinerobinson9292]

May the lord continue to bless you and dad stay bless an remember to hang on each other be BLESSED 🙌

[@ataviaskai]

Absolutely! 💜 Thank you!

[@zhanecorlew8552]

You are an amazing women! I will continue to pray for you and your family❤️ so strong and amazing I love you

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much!! I appreciate you more than you know! I love you sis 💜

[@zhanecorlew8552]

@@ataviaskai ❤️❤️

[@samanthaquinones9054]

Praying you and your husband, you guys are so absolutely strong. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@ataviaskai]

💜💜💜 thank you so much.

[@AnaOrtiz-co2hc]

I’m really sorry for your loss. I gave birth to my precious Angelle on 9/24/2016. My baby girl was stillborn. I was really hoping to see a picture of your sweet Angel. But I respect if your not quite ready for that.

[@ataviaskai]

I am so sorry for your loss. I am sorry you are very familiar with this pain. I have wanted to share photos of my baby girl for quite some time but they are pretty graphic since we waited so long to have them taken. Maybe I'll share the edited versions soon :)

[@nicole6816]

I’m so sorry for the loss of your baby girl. I just went through this two weeks ago losing my sweet son Sheldon. You’re very strong take your time to grieve and get through this time. Praying for you 🙏🏾💪🏾💕!

[@ataviaskai]

I am terribly sorry for your loss! 💔 I am sure Sheldon is so loved and missed. The first few weeks were the hardest for me! You are in my thoughts. I hope you have the support you need right now. 💜 Please reach out whenever you want!

[@nicole6816]

@@ataviaskai thank you sooooo much I really appreciate it. Yes the first few weeks have been hard especially having to be admitted a week after my delivery for preeclampsia. I’m doing good now very thankful for my support system. I pray our angels are playing in the beautiful grass fields above 💕💕.

[@ataviaskai]

@@nicole6816 I am also glad you are well & have amazing support! 💜 I won’t believe any other way. We have one another & so do they ☺️

[@luvfunnyflix]

Sending you SO MUCH LOVE!!! I know this hasn’t been easy I’m praying for you!!

[@ataviaskai]

Not by far. But, the support and prayers are so helpful. 💜 Thank you!

[@nicolepinkham8642]

Im so sorry mama❤ my hear is with you

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you 💜

[@mariperry7251]

Stay strong. You are an amazing mom.

[@ataviaskai]

I appreciate you 💜

[@ewinleti9895]

New Subscriber. Thank you for sharing. You are great Parents. She will always be with you. You are stronger than you think. I dont know you personally but I am so proud of you. Blessings to you and your family always. Baby Girl Atavia Monet fly high and always be by your Parents side. You are truly loved👑💛

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you! 💜💜 I appreciate your support, affirmation, & kind words.

[@ewinleti9895]

@@ataviaskai Your beauty and strength through it all will be seen by many and it will help those that really needed to hear your story. Atavia Monet is already helping others through you. Her life and purpose was and is devine. It was the perfect timing and experience to allow you to grow and spread your truth. She will never be forgotten. I am so blessed to have found you. May the two of you continue to get stronger with each passing day. Love is always the answer. Thank you for sharing and caring enough to allow us into your sacred space. This has helped my friend so much. As it will help many in days and years to come. Blessings abunduntly💛

[@ataviaskai]

@@ewinleti9895 💜💜💜💜💜 I can’t thank you enough! You are so appreciated.

[@ewinleti9895]

@@ataviaskai Thanks for all that you do. 👑💛

[@dellawatson1669]

This one was tough, but beautiful 😢🙏🏽♥️

[@ataviaskai]

Thank you so much 💜

[@danni5055]

im sorry for your loss 🥺 I just lost my baby at 26 weeks with preclampsia just 2 weeks ago... So far i cry everyday..

[@ataviaskai]

Crying is very cleansing and necessary for me. I totally get it! I am terribly sorry for your loss. I am always here if you ever want to talk. Reach out to me on instagram, if you have it. Also, Rachel's Gift has some awesome support groups that meet virtually! Sending love 💜

[@cardboardhomesInc]

❤️ ❤️ God's blessing on you and your family💔😔♥️♥️

[@ataviaskai]

💜💜💜 thank you