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@gc17543 күн бұрын
Everyone needs an ego death. At 25 I dared myself to drop 5 tabs whilst in a bad mood to see if I could handle a bad trip all alone and it was the single most terrifying experience of my life. Needless to say when I finally embraced the sensation of 'death' it was like being reborn and I was full of joy and bewilderment over why I didn't give into it sooner. At the time I had no idea that I had just experienced an ego death and only realised what it was when researching the lyrics of Tomorrow Never Knows when the song had suddenly made complete sense to me.
@mimszanadunstedt441Күн бұрын
Naw some can get ptsd from that.
@CalebFrezzaКүн бұрын
@@mimszanadunstedt441it is quite interesting isn’t it? Every other trauma victim would hate what caused their trauma, somehow psychedelic users still tend to have a positive view and love the compound even if it sent them to hell and back. I’ve only had a bad trip once and it was on shrooms, I personally did not get any positive benefit from it, psychadelics can be fun but should be used with extreme caution
@Tonzoffun042011 сағат бұрын
It's not for everybody, but you have to learn to let go and you can ger something out of it. Some of best trips were not fun happy trips. They were dark and intense where I had to face something.
@user-xq2ij4ze3j5 күн бұрын
During my first trip, shrooms healed my mind and I was able to escape the grips of depression and anxiety. During my second trip, shrooms completely broke my mind and I developed a severe form of anxiety called paranoid schizophrenia. It’s been five years since my second trip and I finally feel like I’m coming back to reality again.
@josephdillon96984 күн бұрын
I’m glad someone says it like it is it can take you both ways.
@denisdelinger326516 сағат бұрын
@@josephdillon9698Looks like they abused the substance It’s to be respected and there’s no gamble where it’ll take you then.
@JohnMcintosh-dm1gn4 күн бұрын
I took these when I was younger and experienced ego death and unification with the universe. This changed my life forever and now in my mid 50's the lessons I learned are still as relevant today. Those who have been there know and those who have not cannot possibly comprehend.
@Masi.Capone6 күн бұрын
I've had a trip where I thought I died and was totally ok with it. Had another trip where I thought I might die and not even realize it...and yet I keep going back for more and enjoy it every time. Once you sink in, existing almost feels orgasmically euphoric lol. These were under 2 gram doses. I'm scared to take a heroic dose. I remember pacing around my apartment, sitting/standing, not knowing what to do with myself when it was kicking in. It felt like my own consciousness was trying to jump out of my body. It's beautiful. The danger is thinking that mushrooms ARE spirituality. I went through that, and when I almost decided not to take them again, it made me question everything I believed about myself while sinking into it. If I never took them again, that would be totally fine. They can provide a spiritual boost, but you don't need them. I recommend every one try them at least once on a small dose to understand how vibrationally sensitive we are. If I know something would bother me on shrooms, I stay away from it when sober. Things like gory horror movies. Never again. I remember sinking into it at a friend's house while watching a horror show involving sleep paralysis. Took over the whole freaking room. Lmao, I was so stupid. It's ok. I learned.
@bertington31815 күн бұрын
you're 100% right, i died and was fine with it, i also had a small spiritual boost from mushrooms, but relying on them is stupid, they are somewhat dangerous only good thing i got was a bitter tab where i almost died at the age of 14 and realized how actually stupid i was and i basically quit everything bad including drugs and even coca cola lmao
@fettychow76484 күн бұрын
I completely agree with the "If I know something would bother me on shrooms I stay away from it when sober" part. my last few trips I constantly have thought about insecurities in myself and other people and how much it just ruins myself and others' lives, so I've slowly been trying to overcome my own insecurities and break small but negative habits that I have. When I'm on psychedelics all the small but negative innuendos in peoples speech, as well as my own make me feel like it's all so trivial
@FringeWizard23 күн бұрын
I did 8 grams golden teachers the first time. I can never stay indoors or stay still on shrooms. I also never had a bad experience despite doing so many different doses. Only downside ever has been nausea after taking natalensis.
@bertington3181Күн бұрын
@@FringeWizard2 I had no idea i was in a state of psychosis before i ego deathed on synthetic fake LSD, like bro the downside might already be there and u wont know it yet no reason for you to do so many grams so many times anyways if u were fine
@FringeWizard2Күн бұрын
@@bertington3181 Can't be so bad if I don’t know I am in it...
@dollarstorememes6 күн бұрын
i will eat a whole cliff bar without making any crumbs if the algorithm doesn't boost this
@xilef83225 күн бұрын
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@alexanderthegreat-mx5zu5 күн бұрын
@@dollarstorememesYou are weird
@dollarstorememes5 күн бұрын
@@alexanderthegreat-mx5zu does that make me your problem
@alexanderthegreat-mx5zu5 күн бұрын
@@dollarstorememes No
@dollarstorememes5 күн бұрын
@@alexanderthegreat-mx5zu understandable
@trip_s1mulat0rКүн бұрын
Though individuals can experience post-traumatic growth independently, one does not have to gain post-traumatic growth alone if/when they are the sole experiencer of trauma; if it can be well-communicated, the trauma one experiences alone can lead to post-traumatic growth in both an individual and their audience.
@Dick-m4uКүн бұрын
If you do not have a break through experience , you didn't take enough.
@bertington31815 күн бұрын
based opinion they arent a miracle drug nor a terrible thing by itself, it has very intensely varying results, and its absolutely not worth risking your entire mental health to do them especially at a young age but they can be somewhat good.
@roberto1259195 күн бұрын
lmfao so like life you cannot control them....
@bertington31815 күн бұрын
@@roberto125919 Ye pretty much, a 2nd chance at ur mental health if u so desire
@elijahwilson142212 сағат бұрын
Also guys and gals, please don't turn into one of those old Acid heads that took too much and literally burned themselves out. Your Serotonin is important and you only have one Brain and on that note be careful and good luck exploring.
@Max_Snellink5 күн бұрын
Mushrooms helped me quit smoking. ❤
@cameronhuff5170Күн бұрын
Bro has good music taste
@tuxlife98466 сағат бұрын
trueeeeeee
@MurasakiMurasaki-fo6qq6 күн бұрын
For me it was the start of my depression now my mind is stuck on the negative I wish I never tried them but what can I do but keep going forward
@matze8746 күн бұрын
Try getting professional help
@BeyondGrey6 күн бұрын
@@MurasakiMurasaki-fo6qq I'm sorry to hear that, hopefully things get better for you. Certainly talking to someone you trust might be able to help
@MurasakiMurasaki-fo6qq6 күн бұрын
@@matze874 on it
@MurasakiMurasaki-fo6qq6 күн бұрын
@zachavila3624 that's the fucked up part my mind started to mistrust and I don't truly believe I can't trust people but somewhere in there I do I'm actively challenging this belief and almost forcing myself to open up to people and that helps but it's hard to just not be in fight or fight mode all the time
@johnbeton40585 күн бұрын
Why what have you experienced? Egodeath, everything is an illusion, there is no one,...?Did you do a research before? And what did you take?
@GuavaLogic22 сағат бұрын
The day after an intense psychedelic experience, I realized I needed to seek help for my c-PTSD and unresolved ADHD. I stepped into a mental health clinic and found a team of specialist with lived experiences who I can relate to and feel safe. Although some days are rough, I am only at the start of my mental health recovery and can now imagine the light in my future where there had only been darkness.
@petespencer881312 сағат бұрын
I have experienced ego death many times. It is a powerful experience. I LOVE it.
@auroratranceaudio7465Сағат бұрын
Psychedelics are not to be messed with. I think people need to be honest with the damage these can do. Not everyone grows from trauma. I had an insanely terrifying trip a few years ago which set off a slew of mental health problems which I've only recently fully recovered from...and even then I have anxieties and problems I can no deal with but would have never had without the psychedelics.
@RodrigoarraeS5 күн бұрын
Acting as if how you come out after a trip is a choice is absolutely stupid. Did shrooms twice, first time it was a great experience, second time it made me experience depersonalization for 2 weeks. Fortunately I overcame it quite quickly, but many never do. I was in a great mental space both times, and had never had any mental illnesses at that point nor depression. Psychedelics aren't safe at all, stop acting like they are.
@Ze-sr5ov2 күн бұрын
Some people are weak doesn’t take a way the depths of this world that the drug can show you. I crashed out from these drugs never went light on them people aren’t always responsible, they need to be free not covered up or you’ll never move pass criminal use of nature’s drugs
@Ze-sr5ov2 күн бұрын
I didn’t hurt nobody crashed out financially I’m 20 so I’m good
@denisdelinger326516 сағат бұрын
They are perfectly safe when not abused..just like most things. Looks like you abused them.
@aidanteall71863 минут бұрын
@@denisdelinger3265 jesus man. this is why ppl don't like the psychedelics community. victim blaming someone for getting depersonalization disorder off a highly variable drug is insane.
@random_user83454 күн бұрын
Psychedelics are scary!! 😱😱😱 All jokes aside, psychedelics have been amazing for my mental health. I’ve been able to look past all of my self imposed walls and past trauma that was done to me. But like anything else, you need to do it in a safe way. Don’t let the fear mongers get to you.
@dfgffdvfvvf790922 сағат бұрын
Salvia and deliriants are the real scary ones
@loz68155 күн бұрын
commenting for algorithm because this is a BANGER
@Max_Snellink5 күн бұрын
Mr Al Gorithm loves a reply.
@alexanderthegreat-mx5zu5 күн бұрын
Ms algorithm loves my huge coca cola.
@joseph030i8Күн бұрын
Same
@christopherpenny62169 сағат бұрын
Psilocybin has helped in ways 30 years of therapy and medication couldn't.
@SOLIDSNAKE.5 күн бұрын
I am still recovering from a heroic dose by accident of pshychadelics almost 2 years ago and ten subsequent trips
@Pengisman1234 күн бұрын
This is another thing people don't realize. The effects of the trip don't immediately go away. I took around 500ug and had a manic episode where I was 1000% convinced I was living in a simulation of my wife's design and the only purpose of it was to cause me pain. I grappled with this up to a year after the trip, and another year later and I'm barely able to start dissecting what the trip actually meant to me (I had attempted to take my life prior and realized I was holding a lot of guilt for what I put everyone through, and my guilt was manifesting as the punishment I "deserved" to go through). For that first year tho I wasn't as close to my wife/family because of the PTSD of the trip. Again, these drugs have very real world consequences and need to be respected. Stay safe everyone ✌🏼
@SOLIDSNAKE.4 күн бұрын
@@Pengisman123 exactly, I disrespected and underestimated the power of these substances to the point that I still haven't came back. I am struggling to function in everyday life and on the verge of collapse, although if I could I would still like to take more trips. Unfortunately a heroic dose done right is litteraly opening Pandora's box. I would say I regret it, but I don't, it is not for everyone. Not one minute goes by that I am not thinking about where" I" went what "I" saw
@Dovahkiin0117Күн бұрын
@@Pengisman123respect is the key can’t just be taking these things absent minded or as a mere escape like many do
@bzenga59817 күн бұрын
first time viewer & i love ur editing style & nuanced look at the subject using the facts at hand instead of relying on shock or fearmongering. cannot wait to see you take off!!!
@BeyondGrey7 күн бұрын
@@bzenga5981 Thank you so much! That means a lot, I hope to bring better and better content for all😁
@aloha675803 күн бұрын
Psychedelics, deliriants, dissociatives, cannabinoids, unclassified hallucinogens mind altering substances are fun
@floppknopp2 күн бұрын
deliriants are NOT fun edit: well idk all i know is dph is terrible but i've never done any other deliriants
@aloha67580Күн бұрын
@@floppknopp can be sometimes
@Dovahkiin0117Күн бұрын
@@floppknoppyou just ain’t got that dawg in you 😂 But no lie some of those stories kinda interest me too much 😅
@floppknoppКүн бұрын
@@Dovahkiin0117 it is interesting to see what fucked up shit the mind will make up when it's removed from reality like that
@jorjaysmith55718 сағат бұрын
Never had or heard of an experience lasting less than eight hours, weird how he said two to five.
@cleava9596 күн бұрын
Recommendations reached! 😁
@irjohnston3518 сағат бұрын
I will state that i had an insanely life changing ego death experience from lsd. And i would say it also changed my life for the better, but i would also say it came at a cost. About 2 weeks to a month after i had tripped i got psychosis very badly. I couldnt tell what was real or fake. I had no clue what was happening to me when it happened. I figured out i had hppd. My vision is permanently altered and perception of life is also permanently altered. But im certainly a much better person than i once was and i see life in ways that has helped me greatly. Just know if youre considering taking it, dont do it while young and know it could come with a cost. Even though very rare it is very real.
@Lonerstonez15 сағат бұрын
Intro Background song is my favorite bro. That’s crazy
@krejziks33985 күн бұрын
the secret and miracle of psychedelics is in the bad trips, not the good ones.
@derekprice72294 күн бұрын
Yes. This is why I don't really believe in bad or good trips. All trips are journeys that last a lifetime.
@krejziks33984 күн бұрын
@@derekprice7229 yes, i also always looked at the psychedelics as a roadmap.
@elijahwilson142213 сағат бұрын
Took five grams yesterday with green tea for the MAOi properties and it made me have a crises of conscience a few times among other feelings.
@stoicfreediver3 күн бұрын
Good content, but we didn’t need that fake guru guy explaining challenging experiences to us. Just seeing his face was enough, we don’t need to give him a microphone. Hamilton Morris, yes ✅ but not toxic, new ager, wannabe prophets, thanks.
@hunterishomophobic5 күн бұрын
Bro I ate 8 suspicious mystery blend mushroom gummies and shit was crazyyy. For context, I had experience with a different brand of gummy’s that were amanita and blue lotus blend. They really helped with my depression cause I have treatment resistant depression with genuine suicidal thoughts at least twice a day. When I bought that different brand with the mystery blend to try out tho, yeah sure, the visuals where a little different, but it was fucking awesomeee except I couldn’t think and felt like I was genuinely going insane. Flash forward to 8pm. I’m dissasociating hard, breathing is growing shallow, I’m scared. I lie down on my bed. I see a white light then I quickly snap out of it. I had stopped breathing entirely for probably about a minute. I’m genuinely convinced I died that day it was scary as fuck. Someone came in to check on me then ykyky it turned out I was actually having a REALLLYYYY Bad panic attack. Now I have panic disorder and wake up in the middle of the night in a panic attack broooo so moral of the story don’t eat sketchy mushrooms or you die
@awake-not-woke2 күн бұрын
The mystery blend in the gummies is 4-aco-dmt which is a synthetic drug made in a lab that mimics psilocybin found in shrooms. Since it is synthetic it may have unknown side effects. Sounds like you have the unknown side effects.
@gfreks13541 минут бұрын
@awake-not-woke 4acobis safe . They were having panic attack which are something mentally
@fnorgen9 сағат бұрын
Eh. I found them overrated. They're far from useless, but I keep hearing psychedelics touted as borderline miracle drugs against depression and that just isn't my experience. I accidentally did a ridiculous dose of psilocybin at one point when I was alone, and naturally it was the most horrifying experience of my life by a colossal margin. No ego death though. I was just convinced that I had gone permanently insane. It felt like I was out for weeks, unable to form any coherent thoughts or make sense of my environment, or even the sensation of my own body. Just a continuing onslaught of pure insanity and uncontrollable emotions! In the end it just left me mildly traumatized, with spooky after effects that took a year to fully fade away. Ghostly figures in my peripheral vision, barely audible mysterious noises, grainy vision and the like. About 2 weeks after that trip a car parked in an empty parking lot honked at me. It startled me so good I physically jumped. Yet the car was cold, empty and locked, and I saw nobody around. It may have been a weird prank, but it appears to have been an exceptionally vivid hallucination. Something that vivid only happened once, but it was still very unnerving since I had no certain way to tell if it was real or not. Against depression I saw much greater benefit from small doses with subtle effects, mostly as an aid to kickstart certain healthy habits. Those made me restless, more impulsive and unable to ignore problems, but I could still think clearly enough to actually get up and do sensible things, like cleaning and such, and doing so put me in a good mood. It suddenly made it really satisfying to fix my problems. Trouble is that I found these mood benefits quickly went away if I took the stuff too often, requiring ever higher doses until my mind got too scrambled to actually accomplish anything useful. I've done some medium-high doses for funzies, and those were challenging and sometimes very fun, but once I learned what to expect and how to keep it together it all just felt like a complete waste of time. And even in strict moderation I've only experienced meaningful mood benefits at times of year that I tend to be doing better anyway. The only profound profound experience I ever had on mushroom was from my very first tiny little baby dose, which gave me a sudden urge to go for a walk. I was awestruck by the beauty of the flowers, and the trees, and the sunset sky, and the sweet smell in the air, and the gentle wind on my face. Yet I could not put my finger on how any of it was any different from usual. It all put me in a properly good mood, the likes of which I had not experienced for years. It reminded me of the beauty of nature, and I never again forgot. I was on SSRIs for a period too, 10 years ago. I found the side effects rather overrated. They made me feel a little uncomfortable the first 2 weeks when I first got on them, and again when I went off them, but in between I felt completely normal. Though my dose was apparently pretty modest. I've heard the side effects really start to pile up at higher doses. Honestly I have no idea if those antidepressants did anything for me one way or the other. I did get better while I was on them, but I later learned that I always get better at that time of year regardless. Winter always destroys me, and summer always builds me back up. There's precious little beauty to be found in the winter. Everything is cold, dark, grey and dead. It makes the world very uninviting. I never got rid of my depression. Over the years I just learned how to live with it in the strict sense of the word. The psilocybin definitely helped, but it has hardly been a miracle drug. Just a situationally useful aid. I can't attest for other psychedelics. Maybe they're way better, but I never cared to try them. The giga trip left me a rather gun shy about drugs I don't understand. My sanity is extremely precious to me. I don't want to overstrain it again.
@serendipitylovejoy47244 күн бұрын
I saw pretty colours & geometric patterns, I also met Ganesha, that was DMT though, mushrooms frighten me as the effects last too long.
@theCommentDevil4 күн бұрын
They are truly amazing drugs. They've made my life so much more. Of course there will always be certain people who probably shouldn't take them.
@marshalt02017 сағат бұрын
Last year I ate 2g of penis envy shrooms, I was told that it would take half an hour to kick in but I started to see the effects in 10 minutes and then it was very emotionally intense and I spent about 7 or 8 hours curled into a ball in bed just uncontrollably crying, mostly because I had made the mistake of thinking of my passed grandfather and started to grieve just as it kicked in
@nilsgutenberg3133 күн бұрын
Just try it and you know for yourself. I did... and it was great. LSD, Mushrooms are great!
@fernandocelere5 күн бұрын
Through the wire is the song, the record is called the college dropout
@gleb.sherstyukov18 сағат бұрын
please tell me the name of the song in the background from 0:28-0:48
@sunavariice79092 күн бұрын
What amusement park ride is that in the beginning??
@mobstalobsta356320 сағат бұрын
I’m so fucking gone rn idek what this video is about
@oozie79586 күн бұрын
Amazing work
@Fetchdafish5 күн бұрын
It’s definitely not a sure thing. Thousands of dollars of ketamine infusions were a good time and very fascinating but didn’t help with depression much. And I’m pretty sure I never had generalized anxiety until after I started experimenting with shrooms. They’re both great at helping you cope in the short term though, if you can afford them. These days I have much better luck managing depression with Kratom
@LIVEMETRIX1872 күн бұрын
well my ketamine treatment which is daily helps me heavily so. everyone has a med that doesn’t work for them.
@FringeWizard23 күн бұрын
It is not literally eternally I knowthe state and this guy is fearmongering.
@Erroneoustempo6 күн бұрын
Great vid! drink water before you make vids! helps with lip and tongue smacking. no shade haha, everything else was great
@BeyondGrey6 күн бұрын
@@Erroneoustempo lol noted, I appreciate you giving honest feedback in a polite way😁 I'll be chugging water before the next video😂
@Augus.t985 күн бұрын
Its better to drink warm water not cold and not coffee or tea@@BeyondGrey
@spamyboi42745 күн бұрын
Interesting video, we should push this content and message
@spamyboi42745 күн бұрын
Interesting video, we should push this content and messafe
@darktooth3475 күн бұрын
Nice tame impala poster buddy
@aviko95606 күн бұрын
nice vid :)
@BeyondGrey6 күн бұрын
Thanks so much for the support!
@MothyOnes1113 күн бұрын
I think I ate 20,000 mg, I realized I was God etc good time..
@MothyOnes1113 күн бұрын
I had bad PTSD I'm good now
@MothyOnes1113 күн бұрын
I have probably had 150,000 mg of just mushrooms
@MothyOnes1113 күн бұрын
The 20,000 mg only lasted like ten hours.. I have since really began to enjoy life it's awesome fr
@MothyOnes1113 күн бұрын
I ate a whole bag of 20,000 mg amanita an a half 0 of cubensis with ibogaine vitamins I reached enlightenment
@MothyOnes1113 күн бұрын
Not scurd I'm a Shaman
@TVBOY14 күн бұрын
Fire video❤
@BeyondGrey2 күн бұрын
Thank you for the support!!
@breachbase5 күн бұрын
10/10 video
@AntimatterCreations200613 сағат бұрын
nice vid
@squid17125 күн бұрын
Bröther what is this video 💀
@elijahwilson142213 сағат бұрын
Hmmm
@Revenantprzych5 күн бұрын
Comment for algorithm
@NeverParty4 күн бұрын
W video
@BeyondGrey2 күн бұрын
I appreciate the positive comment!
@NeverParty2 күн бұрын
@zachavila3624 your welcome. This video was very entertaining
@sebkuo5 күн бұрын
great video!
@alexcusmir85102 сағат бұрын
Not a very good video for someone informed in the topic.
@aeixo25335 күн бұрын
A friend of a friend took acid once and thought he was a glass of orange juice and everyone was trying to drink him. Be careful.
@roberto1259195 күн бұрын
thats such a classic BS story that is told by people who do not take LSD...
@kevinhill15755 күн бұрын
@@roberto125919 Basically this. People really misjudge how these things work.
@patientboi4 күн бұрын
was this by chance in memphis tenessee? @aeixo2533
@markop.19944 күн бұрын
Lol this is a hilarious and very not true urban legend.
@Bryce_C.4 күн бұрын
These drugs open doors for demons to enter
@markop.19944 күн бұрын
Lol no. Your thinking of cocaine and alcohol. But to give you credit, saying something like that to someone whos tripping might scare them.
@OpenUp.4 күн бұрын
You just unvail what's hidden in your own mind. Calling anything demons is already limiting in and of itself. These beings carry the same potential to awaking and light as much as you and me do. After all we share the same consciousness but from a million different view point, which is all the universe itself. Trying to understand itself from these point and experiences. Don't want it to sound like a lecture 😅 But common man, these beings are already living in the so called "hell". They don't even know that they are in the deepest sense light beings totally covered by the universal deception that we call ego here
@OpenUp.4 күн бұрын
Anything you name basically becomes more real. Try it with simple things but do realize you don't know what you actually look at. Or do you think that the sounds you make to describe something is more true than a horses fart? Both are sounds from nature 😂
@ByteMe90818 сағат бұрын
PSYCHEDELICS CAN BE DANGEROUS?!?! WOOOOOAH WOW DUDE THAT WAS REALLY JUST SUUUPER HIDDEN THANK GOD U SAVED ME :0000
@cabudagavin38966 күн бұрын
Eternity is a funny thing
@bertington31815 күн бұрын
my experience with a bitter tab egodeathing didnt feel like eternity but it felt like i was taking in so much information (that i forgot) that it felt like it lasted a good 10x longer than what it actually was