Pure OCD is Emotionally Difficult

[@gabrielsimbachosenboxing6734]

Living with this is like hell, everywhere I go, all the people i see trigger these thoughts. It's like i cant enjoy life anymore. It all stems from the past and things I've seen and been through. All these are fears that i hate but dominate my thinking. You guys aren't alone. God please help us

[@farrah5190]

I completely understand feeling like you can't enjoy life. The thoughts can be so consuming and seem to override/hijack everything good in life. I'm trying my best to do ERP/not feed into the thoughts. Wishing you the best in your recovery.

[@gabrielsimbachosenboxing6734]

@@farrah5190 thank you God Bless

[@skyeeve1698]

hope you’re doing better now bro

[@gabrielsimbachosenboxing6734]

@@skyeeve1698 thanks bro. I'm learning to manage it. I've been a lot better. Everyday is a fight but God helps me get through.

[@Ma-tu2jd]

Have you heard of erp

[@freedomgirl1542]

These damn thoughts make you feel like your on an emotional rollercoaster.

[@goodfella9867]

I am only 17 and those thoughts make me want to give up on life and just cry until I die. This video feels like a hug, thank you.

[@harunrazak7764]

I feel you, it's so horrible. I almost felt suicidal, not to mention the levels of anxiety. It worse when going to sleep as that was when these thoughts were the most active.

[@goodfella9867]

@@harunrazak7764 sleep has been something ive been craving for years. In the night istg it's like my mind chooses to torture me then the most. I fall into a deep hole of sadness and self doubt and just wish i would disappear 😔

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

There is treatment that can help through Exposure Response Prevention therapy. It really can help!

[@goodfella9867]

@@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate the thing is, I can't find a psychiatrist that can do those types of things. I kind of have a bad experience with one of them, and also the country I live in (greece) i think is significantly behind other countries when it comes to mental health. I am just kind of lost. Also, i want to thank you for your videos, they're like a guide of how to survive this mess and the work you're doing is very important so thank you!

[@HamsterKey]

@@goodfella9867 same in Hungary! I went to a pscyholohist and a psychiatrist and they didn't have a clue what I was talking about. I experienced a lot in ocd so I can probably help you. Add me on Skype if you wanna! v.akos98

[@lauraobrien6014]

Chrissie: I suffered from Pure O from roughly 2001-2009 in so much isolation, panic, and hopelessness, I could not trust my perception of reality and questioned every second of my movements in triggering environments. Your courage is astounding and people like you and Rose Bretecher are literally changing the world. Even ten years ago, no one was talking about this, and even now that i'm better now it has been so healing and therapeutic for me. I just got your book and can't wait to read it. I actually just finished a small, self-published book of my own, touching on ocd, depression, and life with all that. Thanks again, you are a gamechanger and a warrior and an angel all in one

[@renakmans3521]

Explaining the feeling of OCD to someone without it is like trying explain what surfing feels like. Just not possible.

[@thaguf]

Every so often I will have a relapse and I fall into that rabbit hole you talk about. I understand my pocd but sometimes still there are thoughts that make me feel extremely guilty and sad.

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

I slide down that rabbit hole at times as well. Just gotta recognize when we do and reboot!

[@thomasswords6837]

“Take the word ‘should’ out of your vocabulary.” THANK YOU!

[@SuperHappyNotMerry]

16:37 I think how you described it as "honor that suffering" is the perfect way to put it. No matter how hard I try to explain, I just know that people who aren't going through what I'm going through just don't get it. It feels very lonely to be out with friends or family and have a moment where someone looks at you in an almost inquisitive way. And you think, "they finally got it. I'm in pain and they finally see it." Only for the illusion to be shattered when they show no sign of understanding what is going on in your brain. It's hard and lonely and I think some days I understand that it is okay that they don't know. But other days I just wish I got a little credit for still being alive despite this illness. Like you said, on those days I just wish my suffering was honored. This video was so helpful and touching. OCD sucks and I wouldn't wish it on my worse enemy.

[@magz7284]

I'm still grieving over my college years when I was suffering from undiagnosed OCD and Bipolar Disorder; the lost time, the total shift in me during what were, so far, the best years of my life. I spent my college graduation and the weeks leading up to it in the peak of my illness -- all-day intrusive thoughts, total fear and awful magical thinking. I even sought out a counselor. She gave me play-dough and I buckled up and gritted my teeth through the ceremony. It's one of the worst days of my life. The stages of grief are real with mental illness and they operate on their own timeline. And I find that there's a lot of things I don't think to grieve about until they pop up. As time goes on I spend less time grieving and more time learning to accept myself but it's tough, for sure.

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

The grief stages were almost as tough for me as the actual symptoms! Acceptance has been helpful for me too, but it sure did take a long time.

[@bd-ps1gn]

A year ago i learned i have OCD thanks to you. Before i was so afraid and ashamed that i didnt even search these thoughts. I didnt want to see that i was my thoughts. 7 years of my life i hated myself and was suicidal and no one knew how much i was suffering. After watching your videos i finally got the answer was crying as i was listening you, because i was finally not alone. I never knew there were other suffering from the same thing. You are life saver and a hero. Thanks for all your help. Im really grateful for your videos. Have a great life ! 💙

[@oheyniyle]

❤❤

[@paulSmith-te8gq]

She had done that for so many of us

[@moulee7448]

❤

[@jadoredecor14]

I'm a new mother and my OCD was 10/10 when he was first born...and I'm still struggling with it today. I feel like I've been robbed. Thank you for posting this...it felt like the hug I needed today

[@nimrahh8836]

How are you now did you take any medicine during pregnancy please tell your experience??

[@lesliemartinez1446]

Had my first OCD relapse recently and started my medication 3 days ago. I've been suffering for as long as I can remember. I don't know myself anymore, but this video helped. Thank you with all of my heart

[@farrah5190]

If you don't mind me asking, how has your experience been with medication for OCD?

[@renakmans3521]

You remind me of the fact that I’m not the only one who has had 100’s of experiences hijacked by OCD! I keep thinking it’s not really OCD but this reminds me it is! Blessings...

[@Mary-NY]

I'm new here. I'm trying to encourage my son who suffers from Pure OCD to watch your videos. I'm his mother and I watch your videos to help me understand and cope. It also helps me to help him. I feel like I'm learning things that I was not aware of. Thank You so much.

[@101Weasley]

Chrissie, I'm so grateful for you.

[@martinfrost9749]

This is a great vid...sums up living with the aftermath of OCD recovery, the regrets and sadness...

[@DarleneW1989]

Thank You so much!!! You make me realize I’m not the only one with this stupid OCD!!! Love you

[@lizaestevez6928]

Where is google

[@rebzeb5814]

Thank you Chrissie for your video. You really hit the nail on the head. Sending you and everyone watching this all the love in the world. Thank you for being so open about it - it really does help and makes a huge difference. You legend!!!

[@MariNoita]

I never had realised that my negative Thoughts are part of my OCD. That video really opened my eyes. Thank you❤. You are the real life savior！😊

[@c.k.1958]

If anyone needs to talk I'm happy to help x

[@linakeshishian3823]

Candy kaur I’d love to

[@c.k.1958]

@@linakeshishian3823 are you struggling today?

[@linakeshishian3823]

Candy kaur thanks for replying, I’ve had schizophrenia OCD for like 6 months it went away and it was replaced with POCD, HOCD and INCEST OCD. I still have intrusive thoughts on a daily but it doesn’t bother me that much until yesterday I was on my phone and I made a video on Snapchat I swiped because I wanted a lighter filter. When I did that out of nowhere my video turned a little bit purple on and of like disco lights like I was tripping. I swiped back and it was gone. Now I’m scared that I was hallucinating or it was just a filter. I don’t know. I’m sooooo scared i don’t wanna turn schizophrenic. I’ve got so much empathy for people who got schizophrenia. I just wanna live my life and have kids and a future. What triggers me the most is that schizophrenia most likely appears around the age of 20 and mid 30s. I’m 19 ☹️. I saw an interview with an schizophrenic guy who had schizophrenia for like 2 years. Before it hit he was totally “normal” so there where no symptoms back then. That means that everyone can have Schizophrenia out of the blue? Sorry for my English I’m from the Netherlands! and thank you so much for replying! Therapists in the Netherlands don’t understand this. It’s nice to talk to someone who knows what OCD is.

[@c.k.1958]

@@linakeshishian3823 hi thank you for your message I completely understand how you are feeling, but this is all part of OCD. OCD plays on what you fear the most and yours is to have schizophrenia so that will be your OCD one recommendation is type in KZbin Ali Greymond and she had really good video's start listening to them they have helped me. Let me know what you think

[@c.k.1958]

You need disregard anything to do with your theme because that's all part of OCD and direct your attention somewhere else so this and it's hard at first it's hard but then it start to slowly lighten your OCD, check Ali greymond on KZbin let me know what you think

[@tommyboy41588]

I’m literally dying. This HOCD is killing me. I’m so scared of losing the next few years of my life never being able to have a wife and child like I’ve always wanted.

[@GatoradeFan23]

Same man same

[@99sillysausages]

I wish I found and looked for these talks years ago. 28 years with pure o ocd and I'm just starting to deal with it all. I'm taking this monster and tackling it with all the ammunition I can get! Thank you for this video. Its a good one to show family to get them to understand. X

[@lauraobrien6014]

you are a warrior for hanging in there so long. no one knows how hard it is.

[@consultantx4258]

Hi how are you not? I wonder if you get over with instrutive thoughts and recover from ocd

[@coffeebreath5615]

This is so validating, thank you so much for posting this. Your absolutely right about how regular people just cannot understand even if they try their hardest too understand.

[@niallkquinn4458]

OCD is so god damn random sometimes, for me it always sticks to the same themes but in the weirdest ways that don’t make any sense.

[@harunrazak7764]

My POCD has vanished nearly but I still have habit POCD. Staring into corners and ends of things.

[@harunrazak7764]

It varies by time. Sometimes, I forgot completely about it by watching videos on KZbin that I like or going on OCD forums that made me feel a bit better.

[@harunrazak7764]

@Shadows Prevail Yes it will get better. Mine only takes a few weeks and 1 month maximum to get back to normal life. In fact, I did not even think about POCD until I stumbled on this video. In my experience, I forget it completely and live on comfortably.

[@harunrazak7764]

@Shadows Prevail It's cool,

[@sweet_nerds73]

I’m glad I’m not alone on this. I get triggered with my hocd when I see girl and my mind trying to convince me that I’m bi/lesbian I have the urge of bursting out in tears because I don’t understand why it’s happening to me! Lately I have heard this song on tv called “lonely”. I really felt that kick in the gut. I wanted to start crying infront of my little sister cause she doesn’t understand how scared I am of everything that’s going on in my mind.

[@chloef5115]

Love how this video came out days before I needed something like this

[@19MadMatt72]

Wish I’d seen this 27 years ago. Never talked to a dr. till I was 47. Only then because I had to be hospitalized. Your stories are so similar to mine. It is nice to find I am not alone. Thank you.

[@gavinduggan199]

This resonates with me so much. Thank you for addressing this as very few do.

[@ishanstuff]

I'm not diagnosed with OCD yet but the symptoms occur every single day. I beat myself up everyday. When I do something nice, my brain tells me I'm doing it to upgrade my ego and not actually help the person. My brain keeps telling I actually don't care about anyone and I'm just a narcissist. That's my fear, I'm afraid of being that. I don't treat people badly. I feel like if I don't fight my brain then that might make me okay with it. I don't wanna be okay with thoughts. I hate my thoughts. They are disturbing and disgusting things I would never do.

[@forrestjudd5542]

Some of the most helpful and clear things I've heard. Thank you.

[@zaltanameyer1322]

I'm also diagnosised with BPD scizoaffective bipolar type and autism depression and anxiety I feel so ashamed I hate myself I have pure ocd about being a narcissist and racist I missed out on everything 14-19 because of this

[@andrebrai9999]

Chrissie thank you for being here we needed you

[@robhoffmann3434]

Hi Chrissie, you are beautiful inside and out and thanks for the videos - subscribed. Here's a specific issue. Sorry it's a longer read, especially on your phone. I don't know if this is a version of the Obsessive thoughts part, I guess some people call it Pure O? I'm obessessed with what my doctors say is GAD, but have this fear/repetitive thought that I'm developing something more serious - either going into a state of psychosis and more specifically schizophrenia. I'll explain: I have 2 main reasons (I believe) why I can't shake this fear of going into a state of psychosis, possibly developing schizophrenia. 1) Around the age of 24 or so (I'm now 41), I smoked some weed with a couple co-workers in my apartment and went into this paranoid fear and had to run into my room. Spent about an hour with the most scariest moment of my life, absolutely terrifying. It felt my mind was melting, perhaps having a stroke, felt like it was burning, hallucinations started (my cat brushed against my arm and become the spider from Lord of the Rings!), noises, sites, sounds, it was absolutely terrifying. 2) One of my 3 older brothers was diagnosed with Schizophrenia when he was in early 20's. He's now 49. My doctors have repeatedly told me I'm not slowly developing a state of psychosis or my brother's condition, that I'm past the point of it developing, even though it runs in the family etc. I need to mention, I have what my doctor's say is GAD, and a health anxiety of having or developing a greater mental illness like mentioned above. Having said all of this, I wake up, start feeling nervous, spend my whole day doing normal everyday things, and little amounts of stress cause my head to start going through some symptoms ie: dull headache that builds with each "issue", whether small or big problems. Start getting dizzy, lightheaded, weak in the legs, feel more nervous in public, and a host of other feelings. I feel anxious, on edge and it's all day or almost until bed. Even sitting at dinner table, playing sports, doing pleasant things like listening to music. When in this state, I'm HIGHLY sensitive to smell, sounds, everything bothers me. As the tension in my head builds, I literally get the feeling my head is going to go into that state 15 years ago in my apartment, and I'm going to lose my mind, waking up in mental institute. Part of me believes this is absolutely ridiculous, but the moment my head feels this way and it builds, I start to believe it. Has ANYBODY ever gone through this? Has anybody had a sibling with a major mental illness like schizophrenia, develop an anxiety disorder and start to fear they're going down the same path because of the scary feelings they have. Please note my psychologist have literally gone through all the lists through the DSM book of psychosis, bipolar, schizophrenia etc to show me I'm not in those states but my fear is that I'm going to go there..... Much love- Mike, 41 from Canada

[@iambobby9177]

Chrissie i need some help so everytime i say i dont want to turn gay n feel good there will be afeeling saying 'no i want to ' then i start worrying then i get scared

[@c.k.1958]

This is all OCD making you doubt just disregard any thoughts to do with your theme x

[@TheLiverage]

Thank you for all this cideos Chrissie, you are really helpful. Kisses from Spain

[@SmokeySteveAndMarc]

Hi! I'm a certified peer specialist in the state of Pennsylvania. I just stumbled onto your channel. Half of my recovery story is pretty much on my channel. Looking forward to browsing your content. Subbed! - Steve

[@NikkiCCoop]

I like that hair cut a lot !

[@ughkook]

I noticed the hat in the beginning and was going to comment on it then you mentioned it! It made me laugh, it’s cute. As always though, I love what you’re doing and love your videos so I thank you.

[@chrissanchez9510]

I deal with POCD and usually I can deal with the thoughts but my trigger is being alone with a baby or kid because when these thoughts come in a stick like “Did I touch that child or baby inappropriately while I was playing with them“ And then the OCD makes you want to go get reassurance but then you can’t because you were alone with the child or baby so you have to live with that thought. This is a big reason why I leave the room or won’t go into a room with a child or baby alone.😔

[@stephentreanor5044]

I love your videos so much, thank you for your help so much Chrissie. Xxxx

[@c.k.1958]

Thank you for this video

[@anushsaghatelyan2955]

The thing that I am sure is All of us OCD sufferers are good persons and God knows that we will manage it

[@Joejoe-fd4ic]

Why is it every thing that I'd good and I look forward too my o s d events to ruin it even birthdays and hollidays

[@oheyniyle]

I hope so ❤

[@bigs3161]

Hello chrissie amazing video could you please speak on staring ocd

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

Hey Stella, I'm not sure what you mean by staring ocd?

[@bigs3161]

Well my ocd had gotten worse since the last time we spoke over the phone I had pocd which triggered my staring ocd involuntarily eye movement to peoples Private parts I never knew ocd could get any worse but it has there are Facebook groups on it too I thought it was me but it was ocd

[@bigs3161]

Please read some of this when you have time www.ocdaction.org.uk/forum/obsessive-compulsive-disorder-ocd/involuntarily-eye-movement-peoples-private-partsnot-cool

[@HinataElyonToph]

OCD is a lot like that part from “History of Japan”. Where the OCD goes “how ‘bout I do anyway~”

[@SaritaSingh-gp7ll]

Great video from great great Chrissie thank

[@mstringer90]

love your videos Chrissie.

[@stephentreanor5044]

Feeling low today and my ocd seems to be a bit higher than usual. I’ve been training harder than usual recently because I’ve got a fight coming up but fuck I feel emotional 😭

[@christinaakin2825]

I dont know if there is a way to contact you or another OCD expert, would be really interested in talking to someone.what i have been experiencing for the last 20 years has been finally identified as intrusive thoughts, and i just want to know how to overcome it. God bless you for your videos.totally helpful.

[@saritatomer9486]

Hi Chrissie ifeel great relief thank u

[@markferraro5250]

great points CH read your book excellent keep up the good work

[@NikkiCCoop]

Ocd Sucks You can’t go back ugh

[@stephensanders7660]

Great!!!-very helpful🙂

[@gabriellecarrier676]

Question, if avoidance is an compulsion, what is an example of an obsession? Just wondering because I think I avoid things a lot but not sure how to recognize the obsession fueling that compulsion.

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

An obsession is the fear. For example if the fear is hurting someone, a person would start avoiding knives/violent tv shows/etc.

[@sudharsanh9073]

Normally, compulsions follow obsessions. It is easier to recognise obsessions. But difficult to understand the compulsions you are doing, in case of Pure O.

[@jessicamontes510]

Really wish i could talk to you all the therapist i talk to havent been able to help me

[@kristina_kalinka]

Yes, you understand me!

[@zaltanameyer1322]

Last year I had a vaginal infections for 4 months and I thought I had had a extremely contagious STD but it was just a really bad case of yeast infection and bacterial vaginsos and I soaked my hand and every thing I touched with has sanitizer and myskin is dry

[@eternalchange5496]

How do I grieve the past 3 years of relationship OCD and countless fruitless attempts at curing it?

[@djshaggy234]

Hello Der I'm really sorry to hear that hope you will come out of it just don't give up

[@purplefire5]

But when I’ve overcome pure o themes I feel like I was better/stronger than the person I was when ocd hit. My ocd revolves around loosing qualities of character and after the ocd symptoms subsided I felt like I “regained” those “lost” qualities (I put those two words in quotation marks because I never lost the qualities to begin with it was always ocd messing with and paralyzing my mind) so I feel like you can actually be better than the person you were before ocd hit once you go through therapy and ERP (I did ERP on my own without realizing it using my faith) I’m sorry if what I’m saying isn’t correct in regards to ocd recovery this has just been my experience (also I’ve had ocd since I was 12 but I haven’t been formally diagnosed so take what I say with a grain of salt) SO my question is: I’m hoping that even if OCD ruins important moments for you initially, can you go on to enjoy those moments fully as you begin to recover???? I’m asking this because watching this video was really touching but I also got a bit scared, there’s hope to enjoy experiences in life even with ocd right? Sorry for the insanely long and disorganized comment and thank you for all the work you do in regards to OCD you make all of us feel understood, much less alone and there’s great comfort in that THANK YOU

[@Heartbrokenforever1978]

this all came on me 2yrs ago. I am in so in shock still and have not been diagnosed. I search for the reason the thing i did. the thing indid that caused all of this. I dont deserve to be him mom anymore and incant ve who they need me to ve. I deserve to die bc o fhtis

[@Senacesn]

Can we talk in private? Your situation seems likely to mine.

[@saritatomer9486]

U r so so so sweet 🤗

[@drineg1454]

Thank you....

[@MultiMagnumforce]

Very true...Thanks.

[@kristinadieleman4516]

Chrissie i really want you to be my therapist. Would that be possible

[@tommyrah8541]

Ur awesome

[@kristinadieleman4516]

may i ask what the cost is for the therapy.

[@yellow6100]

Is it common that i have disgust thoughts about people going to toilet and such things that it causes drop of my motivation to meet women cause i imagine them having to use toilet and such things? In that case how to overcome that and get motivation? (maybe im depleted by addictions to have less motivation in first place) Science now knows that disgust can be almost as big as anxiety in ocd.

[@ilolroflandlmao]

Its the same. Ocd includes false thoughts, false feelings and false urges. disgust is just one more theme

[@cycolburn99]

The guy that formed the phrase Pure O said clearly it has no scientific or medical basis. It is just another way of saying nonritualized associations or in one word, obsession. This is very important to know.

[@ChrissieHodgesPureOCDAdvocate]

Pure OCD is a nickname for the community of people who live with unwanted, intrusive thoughts with mental rituals. The term was created to make those who lived with it feel less alone and more hopeful.

[@sudharsanh9073]

Pure O initially meant to indicate, the person has obsessions but no compulsions. But later on, it is found that those persons are doing lot of mental rituals or compulsions, which aren’t visible outside.

[@cycolburn99]

sudharsan h Yes, however it is clearly defined by the author as nonritualized associations. If one were to say they now have rituals then they are referring to some other condition.

[@TS-xv3jn]

is that picture crooked

[@freiheit5593]

Not sure if this is a symptom of Pure OCD: I have recently come up with the idea that I may have the urge to harass someone at my sight in an inappropriate manner. Whenever this idea occurs, i feel that I am about to harass someone, and I feel that my heartbeat is raised, which may be a physical symptom, and I put my hands in the pockets of my coat when this thought occurs to me, for the fear that I cannot control my hands. Despite that, however, I have not taken any real offensive actions in my life, although inevitably I feel guilty of having this thought.

[@cybertraveler14]

i had this for years, it's pure o. i even questioned if my hands had stayed in my pockets. you're not alone. hang in there, be kind to yourself

[@freiheit5593]

@@cybertraveler14 thanks a lot

[@hw2050]

So true. :(

[@morgan6332]

My gosh my HOCD is awful utterly awful I want to like this boy and date him but my HOCD doesn’t want me too

[@KyndalSarah]

morgan pierson good erp would be to text him or ask him out

[@saritatomer9486]

How can I get help from u I have severe. Ocd

[@saritatomer9486]

Pls help me

[@aqebrax]

@@saritatomer9486 u alive?

[@chamarachamara9898]

Do you get medication

[@stevesanders6855]

Gtreat!!!