Regarding The Awful Etika News

My head is a little scattered but I wanted to make sure we talked about this. And if you are struggling mentally, please speak with someone. You aren't weak for seeking help.
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[@RobertoBlake]

“Drowning in a crowded room” that struck a cord. I’m not sure how many more tragedies we will have to see to make people realize that we are all just people who all have our own struggles and success doesn’t eliminate your humanity.

[@Jefferson-xi8tu]

Nice to see you here Roberto Blake. Yes this is a terrible tragedy. Its a dark time for the KZbin and gaming community. Lets stay strong

[@KaneK1234]

Damn, heavy shit.

[@covathetech]

100% Facts

[@myu5617]

@lucky pawn so?

[@irusuferal3834]

Hey dude, I hope your doing okay, and I hope you have a great day

[@adamemac]

"A spotlight doesn't hug back." Well said, Phil. A very sad situation, indeed.

[@liam_2803]

It's the thing that has taken many of the greats.

[@Kallium]

what does this quote mean \

[@sage7296]

MoistToes millions of fans can’t come and help you when you need it the most.

[@adamemac]

@@Kallium It means just because someone is a celebrity-type person, doesn't mean they're doing well emotionally. People can have a huge audience/following, but may not have any close friends or family they can talk to if they're upset/depressed. Hope that helps.

[@dibblr]

that's gonna stick with me. very well said.

[@GaryMcSnail]

"A spotlight doesn't hug back." Wisest words of the day

[@vexings8017]

lucky pawn how dare you use someone’s passing as a way to gain views to benefit your own channel. you should be ashamed of yourself for advertising a topic like this. i’ve seen you on multiple of these videos and it’s sickening. please stop

[@fearlessfly7774]

vexings Etika is still alive kzbin.info/www/bejne/i6a0mImdrM6Sbac

[@wa_ters]

“A spotlight doesn’t hug back” True words man, could not have been said better That hits hard

[@Thawhid]

That answers my question, it makes sense now

[@Kyoto_2013]

lucky pawn Shut up, stop being so disrespectful

[@cooperbradley110]

“Drowning in a crowd” “A spotlight can’t hug back” You said it perfectly. He had a damn good one. Rest Well, Etika.

[@donimmortal7692]

The best one is "Drowning in a river" XD

[@namis6925]

Don Immortal not cool dude

[@donimmortal7692]

@@namis6925 I never try to be.

[@namis6925]

Don Immortal I can see that but I just think it’s in poor taste to say something like that especially on a video like this.

[@Darkfaderalert]

Don Immortal you’re dark man but I ain’t hating

[@jamesplatt6738]

Rest in peace, Desmond. We’ll always remember you, and we already miss you.

[@winningfalcon1189]

dont lie most of us wont even miss him most people really dont care personally i loved him and will miss him but we cant speak for the masses

[@sourgreendolly7685]

Winning Falcon Hey I understand this must be hard but there’s no reason to be dismissing other fans rn They’re talking about the people this applies to, that’s implicit.

[@yoshikagekira4471]

SiberianPineapple I’m really going to miss his streams. He was a really interesting guy, and enjoyable to watch most of the time.

[@suyanatsuri3982]

@@winningfalcon1189 please don't gatekeep around a KZbinrs death,dude.

[@Noodleay]

SiberianPineapple did he kill himself :(

[@siennabuster1060]

1:35 "A spotlight doesn't hug back"

[@DarkstarArchangel]

- Philip Defranco in Memory of Desmond "Etika" Amofah

[@gentlejello]

Holy shit, sage words

[@malibubarbie1964]

That was a good message. So sad!

[@lizziem4869]

That part hit me too

[@Kallium]

Can u explain this quote to me

[@malirk]

*If you're feeling down, call a friend or family member. If you don't have someone to call, post on this video and talk to people here.* Thanks Phil. We all need each other.

[@carolyndetemple]

We really do need each other

[@scrumps101]

❤️ This is the best comment that could possibly be posted. Thank you for having a heart. I’ll be here if anyone needs some love or an ear.

[@JayStryerTheDeadWizard]

@Asspargass S what is the point in discouraging people from getting help?

[@nadiaface]

If anybody is feeling lonely and don't have anyone to speak to DM me. Whatever it is. I will listen.

[@dimo6994]

Rip desmond.... Every year every summer i Will remember him.... #joyconboysforever

[@Jireninyourrecommendations]

RIP Etika, you'll be forever missed. -The JoyConFamily

[@craigr7977]

Blue Man why would you say something like that without knowing him, as much controversy he has made in the recent year, he was a good man. He loved his viewers and family, please do not disrespect him by saying he did nothing for humanity, he made millions smile including myself. So a kind way of telling you is to fuck off if you don’t have respect to give to this legend.

[@zangetsu1597]

@@craigr7977 Why are you replying to an edge troll?

[@Youngpr0viders]

Damn this fools a dork lmao don't pay attention to him

[@carelixacosta5601]

@@zangetsu1597 People who are trolling on this video need to stfu and have some damn respect! They're just morons and losers with no heart!

[@conradkorbol]

Blue Man I still remember jewarrio and he was almost irrelevant compared to Etika Online deaths are real as fuck People still aren’t over many celebrity deaths. Especially suicides You are dumb as fuck

[@LifeofLuxury]

Totally agree with you on the statement you made about the 'spotlight' not 'hugging' back. So many people struggle to understand that KZbin popularity, money, viewers, etc. are *not* the key to happiness. A spotlight is not going to provide any sort of comfort for one going through a mental war. If anything, it can make things worse.

[@mikec2845]

thank you for treating this so gently, while still taking the time to acknowledge it. love your face, too, Phil.

[@myu5617]

@lucky pawn so?

[@lexielynn03]

@@myu5617 spooki, take a deep breath with me.. inhale... exhale... choose kindness. Always choose kindness.

[@myu5617]

@@lexielynn03 Regardless, he has spammed this comment everywhere for attention, yeah I don't see how i can choose kindness to a knobhead who uses a dead man for views.

[@poosydestroyer6545]

@lucky pawn dude this guy died and your trying to promote your channel. i know this comment will bite me in the ass but it's not letting people know the video exists or anything, its not spreading the word, it is promoting your own channel. just tell people it exists or something.

[@CuhShark]

"a spotlight doesn't hug back" that really got me. I haven't cried since this whole thing started but like Etika said, the tears are coming.

[@philhossley8385]

Scruffy Yeah, cause telling SOMEONE ELSE to die is what anyone should be saying right now. Like Jesus Christ, be better then that smh

[@deputyschrute4504]

Phil Hossley No u

[@carelixacosta5601]

@@philhossley8385 He was replying to lucky pawn's stupid ass comment. But yeah he shouldn't have said to go die. I told lucky pawn to go fuck himself earlier.

[@Azura201]

@@carelixacosta5601 why is that a bad comment? Not to sound horrible but it's pretty important for his family/friends/authorities to know as much about his last hours before the tragedy

[@carelixacosta5601]

@@Azura201 But he's replying to almost every other comment on this video with the same thing. Why couldn't he just make his own comment on the video instead of reply to every other person who's saying their condolences? Also, he seems a little disingenuous in his message. He could've at least added R.I.P. Etika or something like that to show at least some decency. He honestly looks like he wants attention.

[@LadyElvan]

People need to remember... How "on top of the world" was Robin Williams? The face you show everyone doesn't mean anything.

[@erikt3162]

Yes agreed

[@ZombieSlayerTakashi]

Yeah... it didn't help that he was also suffering from a lot of health problems and once he started to show early signs of Parkinson's, It was the straw that broke the camel's back.

[@wallera09]

I wouldn't have said that Robin Williams was 'on top of the world' as he was struggling financially and getting work as well as being diagnosed with Lewy Bodies Dementia where I personally see his suicide as him making a choice while he had the cognitive function to go out before he became a prisoner in his own body. Do agree with you regarding the face that we show doesn't mean anything. Life and societal expectations are a labyrinth to navigate and staying strong for the benefit of others or not appear weak or even considered like we're 'attention seeking' is an added pressure.

[@JennHayden]

like you ladyelvan? a faceless photo. sounds like you are really talking about yourself. get help.

[@ryankeith4078]

@@JennHayden WTF are you smoking?

[@Thrashky]

The problem was that Etika DID go to a mental hospital. TWICE. THEY DISCHARGED HIM BOTH TIMES THE DAY OF. People tried to get him help, but those places failed him. And now we're all sitting here wondering what could've been....

[@daveyognaut6132]

Those places didn't fail him. He chose to leave and they legally can't keep him there

[@AmbiambiSinistrous]

@@daveyognaut6132 I don't know what the laws are in Etika's jurisdiction, but in Ontario/Canada where I'm from, if someone is at risk of harming themselves or others, they can legally be involuntarily admitted to a mental health facility I'm pretty sure. Just a matter of detecting that state of mind...

[@TheMentalLizard]

@@daveyognaut6132 That's 100% bullshit I admitted myself to a hospital twice and was held against my will for much longer than needed both times. Mental hospitals fail people all the time and more often than not cause MORE problems than they solve.

[@Vagabond671]

@@TheMentalLizard Hear me out as this is just a hypothetical question and I am genuinely curious, but if you admitted yourself to that hospital, then didn't you basically give up your right to leave whenever you felt like? Wouldn't it then be up to them to determine that you were fit to leave as you were not in a proper state of mind at the time of your admission and could still pose a threat to yourself or others ? Anyyways I know what it feels like to come back from such a deep depression like that so I can empathize with Etika even if I'm not familiar with his videos.

[@TheMentalLizard]

@@Vagabond671 You missed the fucking point. The person I was talking to siad they couldn't legally keep him there when they absolutely can. Go fuck your victim blaming self. I was coerced into going to a hospital because my therapist wouldn't talk to me about my gender issues if I didn't.

[@annn5700]

“A person who drowned in a crowded room.” Damn I felt that

[@aesthetictrash8291]

0:59; “This was a person who drowned in a crowded room.” That honestly made me cry.

[@Lonech]

@lucky pawn ok but why do you need to tell us that

[@poosydestroyer6545]

@@Lonech he said this on almost every comment on this video to promote his channel

[@infxmous8003]

@lucky pawn wow good for you, I feel alot better

[@Lonech]

@@poosydestroyer6545 Well that makes it a lot easier to flag his channel lol

[@sola9219]

@lucky pawn I've been seeing this comment everywhere. Pls stop, respect the dead.

[@jessiejh85]

I never heard of Etika, but I'm devastated he's gone. Another young man filled with potential lost to this illness. I'm so sad for his friends and family.

[@Ruleof2Review]

Jessie Hendrixson he was a really solid and great dude. It’s a humongous tragedy. 😥

[@aliceangel7644]

Same here it's a dark day when a youtuber passes away

[@Sindycate1]

@@Lady_Crispr When did he do that? Never seen that

[@delrizzle838]

@@Lady_Crispr you haven't watched his streams?

[@psychedelicc]

@@Lady_Crispr what videos were you watching? i dont know him well, but every video ive seen of him was him sitting in his room reacting to different things.

[@justiny.2250]

May Etika rest in Peace now, may he never be forgotten his Content was and always will be Entertaining.

[@gecototodile]

Asking for serious help is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of honesty. Hope is not a sign of foolishness, it is a sign of optimism. Please be strong, not everything needs to be done perfectly. Accept and give kindness whenever possible. The world is better with you in it. Do what you can.

[@wonder777warrior6]

Geco Toto you are all great. Keep your head up. That goes for you to geco. Hope all is well.

[@ahmedelambri207]

Keep preaching brother

[@kyrstenmarie]

Geco Toto ♥️

[@letsparchmentitupyo7566]

thank you

[@gecototodile]

@@wonder777warrior6 all is well on my end. I've been through some tough times and have seen my friends go through their own. Life is tough sometimes. But we do what we can.

[@RayMak]

When you are up there, people will always assume you are OK and happy

[@Wackaz]

Hello Ray :) This is so true, I can't express how accurate this sadly is.

[@Patterrz]

Really awful news, Etika had an incredibly positive influence on so many lives. Very genuine guy in person and online, R.I.P

[@ominous450]

lucky pawn clout chaser

[@TheKewlPerson]

lucky pawn Screw you for advertising your channel at a time like this.

[@Wackaz]

I can't express how much I miss this man. Ever since 2015, he has been a staple of my life, and still is. I love you Etika, so damn much, I always will. And I still miss you immensely to this day, I always will. I love you man, I hope you're resting happily and peacefully in heaven, you deserve it after all. You saved my life multiple times and for that, I will always be greatful. I love you man, forever. JOYCON MEN, forever.

[@_myst_4267]

Etika was the person who got me into competitive smash and Fire Emblem. I'm so heartbroken he's gone. I don't think we take the mental health of KZbinrs and streamers seriously enough. Thanks for making this video, Phil.

[@damiancalderon6327]

Ditto

[@Booze714]

_Myst_ same thing bro

[@KevSB07]

I can't stop thinking about his excitement to finally play Animal Crossing.

[@blu3rice611]

_Myst_ Now I will never get to see Etika play the new Fire Emblem game. Now I’m even sadder than before... 😔

[@Blearcord]

Off-White-Rice you could play it yourself?

[@jaime779]

RIP Etika, forever in our memory.

[@genri3325]

I didn't watch him but I still feel so sad hearing about this . Rip Etika hope he enjoyed his life

[@myu5617]

@lucky pawn so?

[@fate0180]

RIP Etika... he'll be forgotten in a week... 3 weeks max.

[@akzebraminer]

Nexus That won’t happen since there were many people who loved him through his content. But of coarse uploads about him will stop.

[@badbanana0]

@@fate0180 the KZbin/streaming community will remember him forever #JoyconBoyz

[@ElNeekoo]

A lot of people messed with Etika throughout his KZbin career. His address was given out and people screwed with his finances as well. There’s a lot more to the story, and I hope that more of it comes to light so that it can be an example of what happens to people in the public eye.

[@danai6579]

ElNeekoo really? i had no idea this happened

[@chocolatemadeyoufat8707]

@@danai6579 yeah etika was fucked with all the time. I remember someone used a bot to spam his bussiness E-mail and people who donated on his streams would take it back which resulted in his paypal being fucked over

[@sarthakarora3212]

@@danai6579 He died because of his "fans". Those that followed him and kept giving him shit, lead to his dead and those people are still doing it.

[@Janedoesasmr1]

A lot of people really are trash aren't they. I hope they feel horrible about themselves right now.

[@sploinkbob]

sarthak arora every famous person has toxic fans it’s just that a lot of people think it was for publicity until he actually went to the hospital a lot of people who get attention and money are moneyhungry scumbags so it’s hard to tell if it’s real or not all the shit with the James Charles drama was just some random ass guy lying for fame and money social media is so fucked that when people are really going through shit and really need help people go with the popular opinion that “they’re faking it for money” which is very fucking common

[@rebeccazapf]

Thank you for talking about him, he deserved recognition and mental health needs to become a more conversed about topic in this industry in my opinion. I wish I could go back to when I first started watching Etika when he was playing Pokémon X and Y

I wish i had a chance to stop him. Etikas last video is just heartbreaking

[@samsee_ca]

“A spotlight doesn’t hug back.” Powerful words for us to remember from this whole thing going forward. Thanks, Phil. As always, I hope you’re doing well.

[@joshuaw3157]

@@Limakk he is. He has posted that comment on every video about etika

[@unfinishedsentenc5308]

People don't understand how powerful mental illness really is. I've been in that situation myself.

[@Tbro2303]

Same here.people saying they are with you doesnt help at all...

[@kayleighhorwood8459]

I think the thing that kinda goes with this all is that he was a young guy and there's a massive stigma around guys seeking help for mental health issues that needs to be removed. Guys who need that help are seen as weak to some people, and it's only afterwards that those people say "why didn't they seek help". Its a tragic case, and while I wasn't a fan myself, I do understand the difficulties that people face

[@peterpetterson8907]

Me too, I searched help when i was feeling suicidal and i got really good help. I felt really embarrassed when i talked too my therapist but they are really there too help you. RIP Etika :(

[@zyrethz5409]

nice make this about yourself

[@lunacouer]

@@broccoliandlettuce5209 Ask them directly if they wish they weren't here, and then listen without judgment or argument. Call the number that Phil put up, and ask them what you can do. Offer a ride to the doctor and/or therapist. Call 911 if you have to, or take them to the ER. Depression saps the will to do anything out of you, so folks need help to get to the help they need.

[@MiszzMiszz]

thank you for saying that *people SHOULDNT watch the video if they are in a bad state of mind themselves* . believe me it will mess you up. you dont want it, you dont need it. *stay away.*

[@yourfairyGodgod]

I disagree. Watching it was kind of like a wake up call. To get help & start making changes before it’s too late & you don’t even recognize or “accept” what your life has become anymore.

[@Petrichorus-]

@@yourfairyGodgod that can be true, but if someone agrees with the other stuff he said in the video about the world being better off without him, then...

[@TheMagiciansLoveX]

I used to be suicidal and still suffer from depression & social anxiety but watching his video brought me back. I remembered what it was like and how I was before, how I am now-- miraculously moved on from wanting to die. I agree for the most part not to watch his video if you're at a low point. But to me that helped although it was sad as fuck.... I never watched his videos or ever heard of him but I hope that somehow Etika would know that at least 1 person got something out of that video... even if it was in a strange way

[@clayton8009]

I agree. I've gone through a dark state of mind before (I'm currently recovered!) and I know that this is true. It will mess you up if you see it while being unstable. Though there are some people that say that this helps bc it's like a wake up call, which can also be true. R.I.P Etika

[@the_crazy_gamer8893]

I saw a short clip an hour ago and can't stop crying. I didn't watch his videos that often but the times I did they brought me joy. Rip Etika

[@brucenatelee]

Only about a year or 2 ago, I started to watch his reactions to Nintendo videos, Smash reveals, and dark web/anime reactions. I was growing to being a fan of his. Hearing about this, *_fucking wow_* I'm in shock. My condolences to his family. RIP.

[@shelbyb9965]

"a spotlight doesn't hug back" That line was really powerful and it really succinctly reminds us that celebrities are dynamic people with lives as complex as our own. Just because we don't always see them struggle doesn't mean that they don't. Thank you for posting this video Phil, I think it's a really important topic and that you handled it very gracefully.

[@Joshyboy225]

Rest easy Etika, Desmond, Iceman, you were known by many things. Whatever you go by, you’ll be in our hearts. At least he’s finally with his brother again.

[@ominous450]

lucky pawn clout chaser

[@Sweeeetpeaches69]

@lucky pawn you shithead

[@tallflipkick]

@lucky pawn That's not something you should be proudly sharing you asshole.

[@grass2769]

lucky pawn disrespectful to self promote on a topic where someone DIED you are a horrible human being if you truly think that exploiting human sadness is right

[@afellowhuman8944]

@lucky pawn you shouldn't be proud of what you just said there You should be ashamed for promoting your channel by taking advantage of his death Shame on you

[@Leechiraku]

Asking for help is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of knowing your own limits and knowing when you need a friend to be by your side. It is a sign of strength!!!

[@rubinchavarria622]

No

[@TheRealDawny]

@TubNub It's a good thing we aren't living 500 years ago then

[@mochabearry]

TubNub Good thing we don't live 500 years ago then, huh? What was even the point of that statement?

[@BreannaBaozi]

Priestitute owo because that comment doesn’t mean anything. 500 years ago was 500 years ago. What’s the point?

[@FutileGrief]

Please pin this comment. Asking for help is everything. It takes balls, it will smash your ego and it will save your life

[@NinAmuro57]

We lost our brother today. Rest in peace, Etika. #JoyconBoyzForever 🖤

[@madhatteredgir____6827]

NinAmuro57 We lost our king 👑 We lost our legend 🐉 #JoyconBoyzForever 🖤

[@NinAmuro57]

@@madhatteredgir____6827 Amen, brother.

[@madhatteredgir____6827]

NinAmuro57 I’m listening to our anthem to make myself feel better 💔🖤

[@madhatteredgir____6827]

KveldeCraft ✊🏽😞

[@dayrbenzie339]

“A spotlight doesn’t hug back” Powerful words that speak so much truth.

[@odenstyle7490]

You grew up a man, And died a Joycon boy May you rest peacefully in your archives

[@Kyoto_2013]

lucky pawn dumbass

[@navivaldez6240]

@@l0Like0It0Like0That Nah. I think we should keep it at a JoyConBoy. JoyConGod was what in the end Etika regretted. He didn't like what he had become, and had ended his life over it. I believe we live in as JoyConBoyz, the good days.

[@frgwyn3760]

odenstyle#0003 there’s ads on this video

[@ego__]

RIP Etika, such a happy guy in the outside.. but not in the inside, im sorry for his friends and family.

[@janidoe4561]

@lucky pawn ok

[@freyst1299]

@lucky pawn Dude plugging your video, on a video about a dead man not cool.

[@8andimpala]

I feel dirty "liking" this video, bit its a very important message. :'(

[@mahraba874]

Liking it is respecting Phil for covering this story well, respect too.

[@fetB]

why? You're liking the content, which is speaking in sympathy for the victim.

[@didoragab1217]

Rich Ferrante I feel dirty liking your comment but as you said, an important message.

[@aramhalamech4204]

same😐

[@kellym9190]

Rich Ferrante Agreed, bro.

[@brittnigregory3181]

A spotlight doesn’t hug back.... That shit got me man. 😢

[@mimsycookiiess]

lucky pawn go away.

[@gozzilla177]

@lucky pawn good way to get you account ban.... Just don't ....

[@9alt0]

@lucky pawn look at you being edgy

[@Aidan.]

@@Inyxtheangeldragon who hurt you

[@altarec123]

I've been dealing with depression my whole life. I started having panic attacks at night when i was only 8. My parents taught it was only bad dreams, but i knew there was something more. I fought my ass off to get answers when i was a teenager but never really did. I finally got diagnos with chronic depression, anxiety dissorder and borderline personnality dissorder. That package deal is pretty hard to deal with. I had the ''chance'' to almost die because of a car accident (broke my spine and a bunch of other bones, i can still walk tho) so i know what it's like to say ''goodbye world'' in your head and I never want to feel that ever. I think it's even worse, because death isn't an answer for me, so i have no confort in anything, not in life, not in death. I feel stuck, i feel trapped in a life and a body I don't want but can't escape. I feel lonely, i feel sad, I never show who I am or what i feel because i dont wanna be a nuisance in others life. I cope with exessive amout of alcohol every time i have the chance or the money. I have nowhere to go or no one to see. My life is meaningless but i would never kill myself. I'm bound to suffer without taking the easy route. I'm a failure.

[@wonder777warrior6]

altarec find something bigger than yourself if you feel like you can stack up? volunteer, there are plenty of people who need an open hand and open heart. Or whether it be walking down the street or helping an elderly person, it goes a long way. Your presence here means something. we need more hearts🙂. We need more love. all the best to you and everyone on here.

[@EpicAntos]

Etika was one of a kind. You really couldn’t find anyone else like him

[@ADHDkid321]

What makes me so angry is that the red flags were so damn big. He was BEGGING for help everybody could see it. And what did he get? Clown photos. Memes. Hateful comments. We NEED to learn to take mental health seriously.

[@TB4000]

We can never tell who needs help and who is just doing stupid shit for their fanbase anymore

[@crome2021]

Zyzz Acting like a clown.

[@ADHDkid321]

@Zyzz They were saying he was "acting like a clown". Basically making fun of him for his decisions, completely ignoring the obvious truth that he wasn't mentally well

[@ADHDkid321]

@@TB4000 When people do shit like that, even for attention, they DO need some kind of help.

[@thesquishedelf1301]

ADHDkid321 Honestly anybody and everybody who engaged in that shit is a monster IMO. Dude was CLEARLY losing his marbles and these folks were, to continue the metaphor, kicking those marbles under things. Like, why? Why would you do something like that?

[@FlareBlitzBanana]

Thanks for putting this out there. #JOYCONBOIZFOREVER

[@poosydestroyer6545]

@@matterking1 his background doesn't matter. he is being fucking sickening, though. he's promoting his video about a dead person. a video taken right before his suicide. he's making views off of a dead human. it's fucking awful how far some people will go to get views

[@jimoys]

@@poosydestroyer6545 People haven't seen Etika's last words yet so they reupload the video. Also, he isn't making a cent from that video. He doesn't have any ads on it, at least for now.

[@treelest3806]

@lucky pawn you've said this in other videos also. stop milking this situation for "clout".

[@vinthebriarpatch4973]

I've been where Etika is and it DOES get better. I don't consider doing anything permanent to myself anymore, please hold on long enough to see how much better it gets! EDIT: I want to make it clear this isn't some mindless platitude, I wasn't someone who was fine most of my life then had a bout of depression that went away (although if that is you I have immense sympathy with you as well, depression is a bitch). I was born with moderate to severe OCD that has always effected me, (OCD is among the most debilitating mental illnesses), when I hit a certain age it got a lot worse than it always had been, my plan was to do something very permanent to myself, for years that was my plan. And due to how bad it was I developed depression as well (my counselor's words). I eventually began to research to understand what was going on with me, and sought professional help. Even that didn't magically fix things, my OCD resists medical treatment (one of my parent's also has it and their's has also resisted treatment, but counseling can make a difference, it did for me). That being said, I still ended up feeling better, I have hope for life now. Treatment and communication with the people around you can make a huge difference, but sometimes, time is all that will fully help. But you have to GIVE life that time, maybe a long time, but the light is there, I still struggle, but I KNOW the struggles are temporary, I know the good days are still there, and there's a lot of them.

[@BlackbirdSJ]

YES. THIS.

[@squeegeemcgee]

it’s hard for some people, when they might not be willing to help themselves. nothing to be done with Etika now aside from showing respect and care to his friends and family. RIP

[@mess9121]

@lucky pawn Stop trying to fish for views by posting this everywhere, have some godamn dignity. Enough dignity to not use a dead man's name. Disgusting.

[@reinhartdagr8108]

It’s not that simple for mentally ill people who aren’t seeking/getting the help they need to be better mentally.

[@TAEchelon]

I have MDD and statements like this really frustrate me. I understand the intent behind it but I also know that my depression will ALWAYS be there, lurking in every dark corner, just waiting to pounce. Every day is and has been an uphill battle for over a decade now. It doesn't always get better, It's just more manageable at times than others. It's not a temporary problem, it's one that will span my lifetime (unless they somehow miraculously find a cure). I know it's a mantra meant to inspire hope, but for some of us, it's further proof that no one understands what we're going through. I don't mean to come off as an asshole here. It's just something I see Everytime something like this lands in the news and it really saddens me.

[@Ashley__Rose]

Came here right after watching his final goodbye video. Wtf man. Thanks for this, it helped some. So many prayers for his family, his poor parents now having lost 2 sons. 💔

[@PikaPetey]

I can talk from experience. When you do something for fun. (Like react to videos) and grow your audience its fun to watch. Its fun and exciting to see growth.... But Then comes a certain tipping point where your audience starts controlling you. You cannot control how people percieve you anymore. You cannot "have a moment" anymore because people expect you to be at your best 24/7. That is overwhelming, stressful, and absolutely terrifying. It's easy to become trapped and feel there is no way out. Your once method of escape and therapy has become your own personal Hell. And knowing you have to continue to "apease your audience" death feels like the only escape. Most big youtubers that are smart dont manage their own audiences and social media. If one does try to manage it, they tend to go down a path of self destruction.... Because you cannot turn it off.. Ever...

[@forestmanzpedia]

Thanks for the comment. I wish and hope you are in a good condition. I don't know much to say, because I'm fighting depression for many years (traumatic experiences), but I'm still very strong I'm an artist myself. I simply love this world, because we humans are beautifull. Please take care for yourself, think always positive and don't let the internet control you. You can always pause or change the direction.

[@ExemplarKyle]

Etika’s reaction videos brought me an untold amount of laughter, joy, and pure hype. He’ll be greatly missed by all.

[@overrated2975]

I've watched so much of his stuff, like his undertale playthrough, and lots more. This is incredibly sad news and hope he's happy wherever he is.

[@jordaki03]

@lucky pawn BRO YOU NEED TO STOP NOW YOU SICKO you make me soo sickk.

[@carelixacosta5601]

@@ryanabrams9762 Dude seriously? Did you know this guy and his life? Come on. Have some damn respect.

[@capnjackdaniels3663]

@@ryanabrams9762 eh... heaven's overrated. Also both places are fictional.

[@roz067]

Cody Panton says who

[@yourfairyGodgod]

GoSubTo ChiefBangz at least he wasn’t as delusional as you, believing in a fictional place that religious humans made up to prevent apostasy & Heresy.

[@dlgarner]

Thank you for the disclaimer about watching the Sorry video if you are in a weak spot; definitely messed with my head as well.

[@wonder777warrior6]

Wakandan Spy keep on rolling my dude.. I don’t know you, but I can’t tell you have heart. we still need you here. we lack warm hearts. more the merrier to thaw out these cold hearts. it’s a sad day for me but my journey isn’t over with. Let’s all keep pushing. Take it easy ok?:)

[@thelastgalvanizer]

Same here, I haven't been watching Etika for a long while now, but seeing that video really hit me hard. This whole situation is darn depressing.

[@crunchy_crop]

Same that video really, really messed with me amd had me questioning humanity. Like if things as terrible and cruel as this can happen, what's the point of living

[@xllYumellxChan]

Etika was a family member to all of us. Regardless if you watched his videos or not, he was a member of the KZbin community. My condolences to his friends and family. I wish him happiness and peace wherever he is.

[@sculptureofsound2]

I got into JoJo’s because of Etika. I’m gutted to hear this. So sorry he suffered so much. My thoughts are with his family 😞

[@dubstepforever99]

His Last tweet is about how amazing the last episode of attack on titan is :(

[@Roach_Dogg_JR]

Maybe jojo will help us deal with the loss, there is lots of death in jojo, but all the characters find ways to overcome the loss.

[@falerob1]

It saddens me that he will never be able to finish Jojo's

[@tinybbyk]

There were way too many signs of this coming and I’m disappointed he never received the help he truly needed. Please, if you see anyone around you struggling. Help them. Even if they really didn’t need it in the end. At least you were there and you tried.

[@roughjuff]

He did receive help from friends and family, but the problem was Etika pushed them away

[@tinybbyk]

RoughJuff Well I’m glad he had people around him who loved and supported him. My heart goes out to them.

[@tinybbyk]

RoughJuff As someone who’s been in his position mentally I can understand why he pushed away people who were trying to help. It sucks. Im sad it ended this way.

[@roughjuff]

@@tinybbyk yea, what I'm sad about is that he realized he pushed people away but didnt want to try going back to them like "sorry I pushed you away before but can you help me now?"

[@NyxDiscordia33]

Thank you, Phil, for doing this. You handled this situation so responsibly and with so much tact.

[@margotmango4656]

For those who don’t know: *This* is the time to send wishes and prayers. *Not* when you’re in a position of power after a disaster that you can remedy.

[@cheesecakelasagna]

This! I'm not even remotely religious but I agree.

[@margotmango4656]

CheesecakeLasagna yeah me either

[@RobsWorld]

Well said Phil, much respect to you and my thoughts go out to Desmond, his family and loved ones and everyone out there in the world who is even remotely sad or in a depressed state. Because harming yourself isn’t the answer.

[@Tangent_Frank]

*"Drowned in a crowded room"* Oof, and i mean it, rip.

[@brittanyb905]

It’s a tragedy and I hope that moving forward more people will be allowed to show their struggle and be helped and supported.

[@smilla3557]

"a spotlight doesn't hug back" & "we're all different kinds of broken (& we all have varying levels of how well we shield it) " Are two quotes that will always stick with me i already know that now. I personally had never heard of Etika before and I'm not in a good enough state of mind to watch that video rn, but I still feel heartbroken knowing he's not alive anymore. For everyone who cares about him fans, friends and family I'm so sorry for what they're going through and I understand that no amount of words will ever make it right. So to them and to everyone going through a though time (eventhough this will probably get lost in a sea of comments): take a deep breath & stay strong, and don't be afraid to reach out for help if you need it. Reaching out will always be a strength rather than a weakness. You've got this

[@breakingrad1344]

Watching that "I am sorry" video by Etika was just heart breaking. R.I.P. Etika will be missed.

[@DEADisBEAUTIFUL]

Some of us who struggle with issues such as those that Etika dealt with find it nearly impossible to reach out in our times of need. Fears of incredulity, being turned away, being a burden, having someone judging, not being good enough, being deemed as weak or even called a liar scream in our minds. We feel like we cannot reach out or shouldn’t. There certainly exists a stigma around mental health issues. Looked down on. Told to “get over it”. And statements of “but aren’t I enough to make you happy?” It is sometimes enough to silence a person and keep the issues hidden. And some of us are quite skilled in faking it till we make it.....or more so until we just crack, break, shatter. I withdraw more and more each day from those around me. I haven’t had friends in quite a long time. My family lives next door to me and they no longer wish to speak to me. And I understand why these people didn’t care to be around me anymore. I’ve mostly come to terms with who I am, and who I will never be. I’ve always felt I am seemingly the most beautiful gift (not that I am personally anything to look at) at the party. When the paper and bows and ribbons have been removed, I am ultimately the least liked gift. Then tossed aside for something far more wanted. It’s a difficult life. Made nearly impossible for those who do not have the access or the income to pay for treatment. I seek no sympathy for myself with this post. What I want to impart is that if you see signs of depression, anxiety issues, mental health issues of any kind, please reach out to that person. You may be the one person who cares enough to help. A kind word can truly make a world of difference.

[@SK-sx7xe]

Thank you In my own hand times recently this has helped me even just a small bit to feel a little alright to be broken. Thanks for always being there Phil

[@rezme3186]

lucky pawn You just won’t respect someone’s death hm?

[@Tr3nchAn0n]

It's time for a T-shirt to raise for charity "a spotlight does not hug back "

[@brooklynnbravesong3006]

whirlwind Definitely!!

[@NotTzu]

lucky pawn Can you stop saying that in every comment...

[@mahraba874]

lucky pawn wow, you’re trying to get views off of this sad situation, how is it your first video linked is a PSN giveaway? Flee.

[@timberd1513]

*R2D2 beeping agressively* I’ve reported him. Serves the cold blooded lizard right.

[@zolo2036]

stan culture in one sentence

[@cloutfisher7714]

Never thought I’d ever hear Phil mention Etika’s name. This whole situation still feels so unreal...

[@lostmybag]

I've never heard of Etika but I'm so sorry to hear what happened and my thoughts and prayers are with his family. Rest In Peace Etika 🙏😭

[@jreverie7018]

“Drowned in a crowded room” :( so well said Phillip

[@Thesurveillance]

Thank you for covering this Phill. RIP Etika you will be missed.

[@validname4328]

For only 2 weeks

[@UNKNOWNUNKNOWN-tw2iz]

Doctor phill has hair ?

[@validname4328]

@@UNKNOWNUNKNOWN-tw2iz HAH

[@notscarce9112]

Rip I started watching him when he played Doki Doki Lit Club, good times.

[@katyalupochev9589]

This is dumb but I remember watching his DokiDoki playthrough and being struck by how perceptive and caring he was RE Sayori’s depression. It actually made me cry at the time how succinctly he summed up the thought process that would’ve led to her death, because I suffer from depression and it made sense to me. Stupidly, he seemed so enthusiastic and outgoing that I thought he was just empathetic: he couldn’t possibly have personal experience with mental illness right? Guess I was wrong. You never know. RIP Desmond. Everybody go hug your buddies.

[@cabbagemerchant2980]

@lucky pawn will you go to hell man you're just looking for clout off another man's death do you feel good you piece of human living shit!?!?

[@weriolol]

@lucky pawn wtf is wrong with you

[@honeyboy7627]

@lucky pawn Not cool dude

[@afellowhuman8944]

@lucky pawn for fuck's sake stop spamming the same comment, this really shows your greed of views likes, and subscriptions

[@robocu4]

This news genuinely made me choke up and cry. I stopped following him months ago because it got hard to watch. This is the worst possible outcome for him. :(

[@ga1actic561]

Rest in peace Etika, my favorite streamer 🖤 I was looking forward to seeing your next Smash DLC overreaction RIP Desmond Amofah 1990-2019

[@rcjames4]

My mom committed suicide 2 and a half years ago and seeing his vid made me feel what he felt and what my mom must've felt. But he was a bright kid and hopefully his message can prevent others from going too far and not being able to go back. I am no professional but being the son of someone who took their own life, I can honestly say, I'd rather you ask for help bc any feelings of disappointment, hopelessness or depression is temporary and friends and family will not judge you for being honest about yourself and how you feel. Please reach out, even if its something minor, you are not an inconvenience or weak, in fact, you realize your need for help and like anything thing that involves asking for help, you are willing to work to be better at it and there's strength in that. Moral of the story, RIP Des and reach out for help if you need it and help those who are in need of help.

[@KiddKoalaz]

Rest in peace Etika.. I'll be sure to take care of myself and have a damn good one :'(

[@froggy4665]

KiddKoalaz he’s in hell 😂 no resting in peace my guy 😈

[@eridanustly]

FROGGY What’s wrong with you? Show some respect

[@sislord]

Hey man thanks for talking about him. I really like etika. he was always in such a good mood and always hadso much energy. This is heartbreaking

[@Pawndan]

Just watched the "I'm sorry" video and now I don't know how to feel. Just a couple of months ago, that was me. It's so scary listening to his words, knowing what happened and knowing that just a couple of months ago I was saying the exact same things, motivating my death in the exact same way. I felt his words and they cut deep. I barely made it out alive, but I'm here, still breathing. Just wishing I could have met him and told him to just hold on, that no matter what it gets better. Rest in peace Etika ❤

[@willy5847]

Your a god among men defranco thank you for making the internet a better place it needs all the attention we can give

[@schrodingeroberscharfuhrer7115]

I have been watching him since 2015 when he reacted to fnaf 3 trailer i to this day still miss this man. R.I.P Etika May 12 1990-June 25 2019. Its about to be three years since you died.🖤

[@jorddalord5400]

Tutorial on how to be there for a person dealing with mental health issues: 1) Be a good friend and just listen That's the end of the tutorial!

[@Bulls-eye4795]

Exactly, I had a friend the other day tell me that's the reason they get so emotional when they tell me things that upset them. Because I don't constantly say I'm sorry throughout them talking, I listen and let them finish and then tell them that I know that's hard and be there for them.

[@capybirda]

This hurts so much to see this. I loved watching his streams and brought so many great moments. Rip Etika, a great man who brought joy into others lives.

[@cupojoe3078]

RIP Etika, I always loved watching him getting hyped for all the new smash characters and his streams were very fun to watch, thank you Desmond

[@LizzBald]

He struggled silently for so long, Rest in Paradise Etika, your videos and laughter made my days better and I hope you can finally rest. Wherever you are I hope you’re finally happy, you deserve it.

[@BBYANERZ]

It’s so crazy how he had so much hate that he died with, but now that he’s passed so many people love him. We as humans need to love people while they *ARE HERE* and not after they have suffered.

[@ihaveanuncletoo2359]

We might of lost of streamer and KZbinr, but heaven has gained a legend.

[@souravvv6S9]

I don't know if there's a heaven. But I feel he's in a. Better place.

[@soulsemblance3163]

The most ironic thing of this is I was planning to do something similar and after seeing the impact it had on people I decided to patch things up wird my family

[@kristophermanzo]

Soul Semblance aww THATS GREAT BUDDY, that actually makes me very very VERY happy :)

[@commonbroadcaster]

That's great man! You're not alone and things will get better, I've been in so many situations where I wanted to give up, but you're loved and appreciated, even if it's by a stranger such as myself ♥️

[@jenellyolivera6966]

Thank you for staying... that was a brave move. Please stay well, keep your loved ones with you. Brighter days will always come. The dark days just make us appreciate them even more.

[@evangelionaddict8212]

Thank you for working on these things and trying to not go down that route. If you havent seen Etika's last video (as Philip says, dont watch it if you're not in a great place rn) he does mention that he hopes others at least learn from what happened to him. That you can get help, that you arent pushing people away and you can embrace them if you are. I hope things turn out well for you :)

[@Sara2016a]

Soul Semblance That’s so great to hear! I lost my brother 7 years ago and it destroyed my life completely😭 I loved him more than anything in this world, he was only 19. I wish he knew how much we loved him, my family, his friends. We never knew that he was depressed. So please be strong, ask for help wherever you can get it, know that there are people who love you, care about you, and they are ready to help you if you ever feel lonely and sad. Everything will get better. You are so brave and I am so proud of you. You made all these people here (who read it) happy with your comment. Be strong ❤️❤️ I wish you happiness and joy 🤗

[@yeswhat4448]

Suicide is a very tragic thing and I feel for his family and friends. RIP Etika

[@Oly1y]

@Blue Man thanks captain obvious

[@MasonOcker]

@@Oly1y Don't respond to the troll

[@yeswhat4448]

Blue Man just because someone chooses to take their own life doesn’t make it any less tragic. Etika was obviously in a dark place and he felt this is the only way out.

[@uberchris792]

This is why I respect this man so much more than any other channel that covers this stuff because he's always serious about these types of things without any jokes and doesn't want to make money off of these types of videos

[@lewangg]

"A spotlight doesn't hug back".... this hit me so hard... I thank you for continuing to educate and generate conversation and learning in ways that only the Defranco team can. Thank you Phil. I appreciate your strength, honesty and growth so much.

[@AliFinNoble]

God damn this is hard to watch. My best friend died of a drug overdose yesterday leaving behind a one-month-old and a four-year-old and a wife who is lost. I don’t think I have given myself a moment to grieve but seeing this video sent me over the edge

[@marialopes3510]

I'm not the best with comforting but I wish you, the wife and the kids the best of luck. I hope you get the support you need and want you to know that you have support from those who love you.

[@nowisee8309]

sending strength and my love. 💜

[@shadowcattt]

I hope you're OK, or at least that things get better. People are there for you. If you need to talk to someone about your friend, please get a therapist. Thoughts are with you

[@SyncJr]

I saw Dan Bell call it “Creator mental illness” and I couldnt agree more. This website can be a cesspool sometimes. Not just the comments. You need to have a tough personality to be on this website. It’s one of the reasons I dont do it altough I would love to make money on KZbin.

[@Princess.Mousie]

R.i.p Etika, Thank you for your coverage of the games i wanted, you were a great man ❤

[@samanthahunter6493]

I feel the same way as he did.. everything can be going just fine in my life and I still feel like I’m nothing. I’m trying to get help right now and I’ll can say about Etika is I’m sorry that you felt you had no one. The world will miss you

[@niko31]

As someone who went through major depression, who attempted suicide 3 times, and who was in a mental hospital 5 times, let me tell you that it gets better. It really, truly does. Everything in life takes time. The number one thing that helped me was asking for help. I let others know how I felt because I was so scared of myself. I received therapy, medicine, and support from my family. Hang in there. If you’re going through hell, just keep on going.

[@KC-fw9qq]

Damn I've been watching tons of etika. So sad that he's gone would never of expected him to do this. Let's hope Deji isn't next.

[@ye-xf5mw]

Eugeo X Kirito I don’t think Deji will but we really can’t be sure anymore 😢😢🙏🏼😔❤️ rip Desmond aka Etika

[@KC-fw9qq]

@@ye-xf5mw Yea rip etika hope his family are doing well.

[@zthreetwo9874]

Holy shit I've been thinking about deji yesterday. I hope he's good.

[@moon8983]

@@ye-xf5mw deji? What?

[@kazumahazeuzumaki]

Wellll, I mean, if we're lucky...

[@sample.text.]

Please seek help even if you don't think you deserve it. Be receptive to your loved ones offering to help you out. Any conversation about mental health is a good conversation.

[@cameron5465]

Rip Etika :( Also rip this channel being the happy upbeat random channel

[@cameron5465]

Well this is the channel he uploaded the interview with Trey to and he said it was just going to be a random channel for stuff like that

[@magemystic]

Thank you for that reminder Phil . I needed to hear that reminder today. I just called my therapists office for an emergency appointment to get my mind together.

[@Kylarro]

Hey Phil. Thank you. It's amazing how at the lowest part of my life when I've never felt more alone this video was posted. You will never know how moving it was to hear what you said. You gave me hope and something to focus on when I felt like I was drowning. Just thank you.

[@Snakebite420]

Rip Etika :( mental health is really an issue. Get help. Seriously.

[@Alexandriusx]

Why does someone have to die to be noticed and talked about

[@mr.timestamp1754]

Rest in Peace Etika. JOYCON BOYZ 4 LIFE!!!

[@Wackaz]

I can't express how much I miss this man. Ever since 2015, he has been a staple of my life, and still is. I love you Etika, so damn much, I always will. And I still miss you immensely to this day, I always will. I love you man, I hope you're resting happily and peacefully in heaven, you deserve it after all. You saved my life multiple times and for that, I will always be greatful. I love you man, forever. JOYCON MEN, forever.

[@joyurizzzz]

the guy still had his whole life ahead of him. could’ve done some bigger things. mental illness is serious, etika didn’t deserve any of this. i hope that wherever he is, he’s happy, healthy, and playing smash with iwata.

[@fey0217]

"a spotlight doesn't hug back." damn. thanks for this phil. rip etika.