Ren - Su!cIde (Official Music Video)

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Thankyou everyone so much for watching, this one was difficult to write, but im glad I got to share it with you. As always here are the lyrics and the link to stream found.ee/ren-suic-de Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've fallen through the cracks of the night sky A light goes out on the other side, suicide, suicide, suidice Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm treading on the tracks in the night time It never really felt like the right time suicide, suicide, suicide I'm so fucking lonely beneath this, narcisistic, cant keep a secret, miscount sheep, I can't sleep, a misfit Some say troubled, but some say sadistic, Bruises my brother, one time or the other, my skin felt counterfeit, silicone, rubber Bruises my sister, skin pop the blister dig deep resist the feeling when it hits you Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've fallen through the cracks of the night sky A light goes out on the other side, suicide, suicide, suidice Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm treding on the tracks in the night time It never really felt like the right time suicide, suicide, suicide [sample] Sick boi, sick boi, bitten by a tick boi I feel like its not me its the world thats sick I'm so fucking washed up and sea sick masochistic kid with a split lip six feet deep I can't eat im nervous won't stay down 'cause my body purges useless my mother, cant keep in my supper skin so pale 'cause my cheeks leak colour Truth is my father, you choose your karma draw for the sword then drive through the armour Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've fallen through the cracks of the night sky A light goes out on the other side, suicide, suicide, suidice Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm treding on the tracks in the night time It never really felt like the right time suicide, suicide, suicide Suicide suicide suicide Suicide suicide suicide Suicide suicide suicide Suicide suicide suicide It's hard to take off from the ground when your wings are cut, Your stomach burns when you're drinking from an empty cup, You know the entire ocean came from my tear ducts? I see the world through fibonacci sequences and Double Dutch I guess there’s some that’s born lucky, there’s some that’s not I tried to cut away my bitterness - hatchet job I locked my youth in a trunk inside a pick up truck Then dumped the whole thing over the same bridge the night you jumped I think about that sometimes , vividly What it felt like to look down and see tranquility One sudden movement in a world of possibility Only one movement to expose our fragility I fucking miss you and I miss myself I miss thinking that were indestructible as well I miss chilling by the pier cave and kicking back Wirth Callum, Hugo, Sagar, Justin, Stevie and the fuckin lads I miss missing that, I numbed myself to close the gap, I never even call em up the distance is my plaster cast, The truth is that the day you jumped my childhood jumped too, But I still can’t find the anger all I find is missing you Man I miss you, with all my rhymes I picture running 5 minutes quicker, I'm right on time I picture pulling you back over the edge and then were crying And holding you my brother and telling you that it's fine that’s not the way that I worked Coz I was late like a jerk There's not a day where I could find a way to break from the hurt Your body missing so we never got to wave to the hearse I hope your listening , I love you man, I miss you absurd Fuck

[@The_Ohio_Rizzler_]

Your best song yet!

[@ZInaNMooner]

Awesome m8

[@dank5439]

Thank you, Ren.

[@KeepingitSeels]

Incredible and fitting tribute to your friend. Love to you wherever you need it today Ren ❤

[@Mezzystar1]

Thank you, Ren ❤

[@RenMakesMusic]

Today I want to write something beautiful and eloquent but I’ve been staring at my computer screen for the past 10 minutes blankly. So I’ll just write. Today, the 1st of June is my friend Joe’s birthday. I first met Joe when I was 8 years old, my friend Josh said I had to meet this guy, so we both walked over to his, it took about 10 minutes from my house. I was greeted by this kid covered head to toe in freckles, he grinned at us, climbed onto the back of his sofa and screamed “Swanton Bomb!” then front flipped off the top and landed right onto his back on a stone floor. He lay still for a moment, twitched a few times, then got up, grinned at us, brushed himself off, and did it again. This was Joe. He’d do anything to make people laugh. He ended up becoming one of my best friends. He was there when we stole our first cigarettes out of his mums pack, way too young. He was there when I had my first kiss, with a girl twice my size on the back of the 42 bus. He was there when I first got so drunk I threw up in the woods after drinking as much white lightning Cider as we could. I was there when he did his first backflip on skates, and saw him do a 720 off of the pier cave, that moment became legendary. Joe was the funny one in our friend group, he’d make us laugh till it hurt. No one had a bad word to say about him. It was impossible not to like him. Usually we put celebrities, athletes and actors on pedestals, turn them into role models and admire them from a far. The person I admired was Joe. Him and Sagar knew every word to the songs id write, we’d get drunk at parties and they’d be singing along as loud as they could. It gave me a lot of confidence back then. On Christmas Eve 2010 I was sitting in a pub with Joe, he’d been feeling low after a couple of consecutive break ups. He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment. He turned to me and said that sometimes he wished he could just walk into the sea and keep walking. He said it in a kind of half joking throw away comment type of way, then took a sip of his drink, walked over to the juke box and put Dig by Incubus on. If I knew that was the last time I’d see Joe id have hugged him, told him how much I loved him, how much I looked up to him, how much we all loved him, and I wouldn’t have left that pub. I didn’t know that, so I finished my drink, said happy Christmas and left. Two nights after Christmas I got woken up by a phone call at 3am, it was my friend Ella. She told me Joe was on the Menai Bridge, a large suspension bridge connecting the main land to the isle of Anglesey where we lived. He’d been on the phone to her in tears saying goodbye. He told her to tell everyone he loved them. I pulled on my clothes as fast as I could and started running toward the bridge. It was up a hill. I lived about a ten minute walk away, I could run it in five. As I ran I started dialling then redialing his number. The line was busy, which was a good sign, it meant he was still on the phone to someone. As I got about halfway, the busy tone changed. It told me the line was out of service. I got a sinking feeling and picked up my speed. I arrived to the bridge minutes after I left my house. It was deafeningly quiet. I was the first person to arrive. I got there probably about 2 minutes too late. Joe’s body was never found. Initially we refused to believe he was gone. The coastguard came out that night, with boats, and helicopters. Me and my friends spent the next 10 days putting up missing posters everywhere we could, walking up and down beaches with flashlights, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. When you’re walking up and down a beach with a torch when its dark everything looks like a body. We still haven’t found Joe. As his birthday came around, I wrote a song, freckled angels, a song I dedicated to Joe which I sang in front of his friends and family. A charity football match was put on for him, raising money for the RNLI where I won two bottles of wine in a raffle, I drank them both as quickly as I could, naturally, turned to my friend and probably slurred something along the lines of “This is the last time I ever drink” That was 12 years ago, I haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since. My first ever album I named Freckled Angels in tribute of one of the best people I ever knew. Skip forward some years. I’d been sitting on this song I wrote a few years ago. It always felt a little incomplete. It was going to be my next release, but I was dreading it because of this feeling of incompletion. I decided, very last minute, to do something about it. I sat by my piano, and the rest of the song fell out of me. I hadn’t thought about Joe in a little while, and the song initially wasn’t going to be about him, but the words all fell out of me. I wrote and recorded a whole 2 minutes extra, recording each part as I wrote it. Tears spewing out of my eyes pretty much the whole time, and decided not to do my usual thing of perfecting each line, I just recorded every line as it came. During this campaign I will be raising money for the RNLI, the group of brave men and women who spent hours tirelessly looking for Joe after the night he went missing. I'll also be donating 50% of the profit on all copies of the 'Freckled Angels' album directly to Joes family as a nice surprise gift. I will include links to the RNLI donation page below where 100% of the money will go to support them, I will be travelling to the UK later this month to make a music video, and have carved out a couple of days where I will travel to my home town on the isle of Anglesey to present the royal national lifeboat institution with a cheque of all the money raised. Turn on notifications for the video here: kzbin.info/www/bejne/pGStf6ecnpmJmJI Raising money for RNLI : www.justgiving.com/page/ren-gill-1685546882254?Link&/ren-gill-1685546882254& Freckled Angels album: renmakesmerch.com/products/freckled-angels-cd Presave Suic*de: found.ee/ren-suic-de

[@derekkraft4658]

I already know this is gonna be so great and beautiful.❤️ I'm very sorry for your lost.😕💔

[@Jessica-lw2vq]

I’m sorry you had to go through this Ren, i cannot even begin to imagine what that pain must feel like, and my heart goes out to anyone who has been through similar situations or if anyone feels like your friend Joe did i hope they get help & know they are loved 😔 sending you big hugs, i just know this song is going to touch so many hearts. We all are with you RIP Joe 🕊️❤️🌹 x

[@NinStardust]

Thank you for sharing your experiences with us Ren. Much love to you 💖 Sorry for your loss. RIP Joe 🕊️

[@viantria]

it's a very sad and real life story Ren, thank you for being able to open up and transform pain and suffering into beautiful songs that can really support strangers who find them, this is a real gift

[@mickjuul1977]

❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@marcushernandez1981]

I lost my son to suicide 5 years ago. I have been considering my own for those 5 years due to this and my own battle with chronic pain. I found your music last week, Ren, and it saved me. You saved me. SOMEONE knows how I feel!

[@one4theditch38]

Please stay with us, you’re loved!

[@scoutjack]

I hope REN sees this. I’m sure he’d appreciate it. I’ve been there but thanks to whoever I’m still here.

[@PShabx2]

I’m very sorry you lost your son, it’s tragic, I can’t even imagine! Chronic pain sucks royally, but you stood for the fight, and now here we are knowing you and please know you are loved! We don’t have to know one another, it’s the positive energy that feeds us and we gain the strength to hold on. I lost three cousins to MD, it was insane living knowing when you will die. I miss them often and reminded of the words they left behind. There’s so much I can say and share but all I want you to know is someone out here is going to need you one day and like you found Ren, they will find you and you too would have saved a life. 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽❤️

[@utfofuo4468]

Hey, im reallly sorry for this situation and hope you can realise that there are lots of people tha feel the same way as you lots of love and hope everyone thats reading this can see some light at the end of the tunnel

[@davidlutjen1050]

My son took his life and mine has been a walking hell ever since. He was only a child at 16. Many many times I've thought about the only way I could see him again. It's hard in a way that you pray no one else should go through. I'm sorry for your loss.

[@hollykuhn9512]

As a nurse i know people want to say dont talk about this but its a good sign when someone opens up about their thoughts about this. Ren thank you for this video and song. There's nothing wrong with feeling and opening up to let others know they can talk. I want them to talk before its too late. Thank you Ren

[@nocturnalsurf7021]

You're amazing, thank you!

[@THEDANCINGCENTIPEDE]

Reach out your hand until they take it. You are amazing.

[@treebles]

from one nurse to another, thank you for all you do! spending your life in the service of others is the most rewarding feeling, but it is also very difficult~ difficult physically, difficult emotionally, difficult mentally, etc… much love to all the nurse out there!

[@rebeccalansdown9484]

I'm a survivor of an attempt and I have to say that your music resonates with me. It's such a lonely, pain filled place to be, thinking about suicide, making the plan to end things. If someone had showed me your music back then I wouldnt have felt so alone. I doubt I would have followed through if id had even a bit of hope that things could be better. Im grateful to still be here and to have had the chance to do so much more with my life. PLEASE, never stop believing in yourself! You are reaching so many people with what you have created.

[@sprucemaroose]

The wold is glad that you are here, keep bringing your light to it. This music brings us who feel like a speck of sand on a sandless beach, together and know that there are others that understand

[@drisk7691]

I'm glad you decided to stick around. We need people to like you to share your light. God bless.

[@SweetBabyJesusOnTheCross]

It's good to hear you realise now that you would have been making a mistake had your first attempt succeeded. Too many never have the opportunity for hindsight. But it's not really so much "surviving an attempt" as much as it is failing one, is it? Calling oneself a "Survivor" in this situation only really serves as an attempt to minimise the level of responsibility one believes they have for their own actions and makes attempts to find the root cause(s) that looked them to attempt suicide, less likely.

[@kpodonnell7924]

Tomorrow is the six year anniversary of losing my 20 year old child in similar circumstances. Time does not heal, it accommodates. Beautiful song Ren. Thank you.

[@CALLYPSO16]

❤

[@sorryformyenglish2778]

So sorry for your loss ❤❤ Big hug to confort you from a human to another

[@margaretc5679]

❤

[@vivienneclarke2421]

My 13 year old son died 12 years ago,of natural causes. And yes,you are so right.....Some things time does NOT heal. Losing a child is one of those things. I'm so sorry for your loss,and I hope that you've found a way to live with the grief and still find happiness.......❤

[@michalvictoria8846]

“Time does not heal, it accommodates”-beautifully said.

[@EarthyBlendPOV]

You’re a beautiful soul Ren. Thank you for everything you do.

[@jakobkellner2781]

Yes, a beatiful soul, you hit it ! I am gonna travel to England because of him to See him live❤

[@davethorntonphotography3342]

exactly my sentiment, what a truly unique & special soul, the world needs this right now with all the BS we're being told to comply with

[@daniellaelainekilcline6452]

Already had it on repeat

[@EthaMusic]

Second this

[@krismcgowan1299]

My exact thoughts! Not interested in these type songs but his way with words are masterfull ,world & life topics could only come from someone goin through or been through it makes me want to & not live his life which is a weird juxtaposition as normal subcontious would have stans wanting 110% to be in their "idols " place, for an artist so young he's found a look on the world I've not long embraced at 40 & fk me I've lived a few lives 😂, mad respect!!

[@Kokopelli641]

Englsih is not my native language so i'll do my best. Thanks man, I've been in a depression for about 12 years, I fought as hard as I could but I've started considering suicide 6 month ago. With my last piece of life I asked for help but no one answered to my call. But i heard your song and it gave me enough energy to fight one last time and find the right people to help me and it worked. Now I have pills but not forever and i can live a new life. I know I own it to myself but you helped me so much. So thank you with all my still beating heart.

[@sylviayoung1901]

Not sure where you are but I know Kokopelli. Are you Dine'? Do you live near Farmington? Would love to meet you so we could be 2 humans', talking, face to face. I know a thing or gazillion about pain. I will listen.

[@tamsin1969]

Thanks for sharing hun. I've made a number of attempts over the years, but now at 54 I thank the God's I survived. All we have is each and every minute, right here and now, to make the decision we're going to choose happiness and gratitude. Despite the past, despite what's happening in our lives, we have to choose to have faith and trust the process. You are here for a reason. All the absolute best mate. (Have you read "Desiderata")?

[@skylxr_staryt]

not sure how and where you are now but i hope you're doing alright

[@bridspear7428]

I don’t know you, but I am here for you. There is so much love in the world and so much love here for you

[@SunfireSG]

Rest in peace, Lunney. Will always appreciate your friendship through school.

[@laurafromliverpool]

It feels like a privilege to be allowed so far into your heart Ren. I'm sorry for the pain you feel.

[@nitwitter]

sometimes it’s too much to keep it in and with that, he will continue to help those that are afraid to reach out. we are witnessing a big push in the movement that’s long overdue. 🫶 Thanks Ren, your vulnerability is inspiring further than you know. You understand marketing and how to get into peoples souls of all ages, job well done and you deserve to find your own inner happiness.

[@Valineris_The_Phoenix]

Beautifuly put!

[@namoric]

That's it. those are the words I was looking for. Well said.

[@rockinrobbie1985]

He's not alone. A lot of us feel this way 😞😢

[@laurafromliverpool]

@@rockinrobbie1985 I'm sorry for yours too. ❤

[@TToBBaTime]

This is not a career, not a march to fame, this is a man's artist journey we get to follow 🙏❤️

[@evechoseknowledge1604]

Beautifully said. ✨🙏🏼✨ What a privilege to see his truth as an artist, and more importantly an amazing soul.

[@ryanhenro7649]

❤

[@bobbywalker6307]

So true, Ren will be recognised for his greatness nothing else

[@nicoleschickova8674]

❤

[@SableCatDog]

"It never really felt like the right time." I've never seen a single sentence so perfectly describe suicidal thoughts. Constant, always there, always on your mind, but just... not quite yet. I'm just going to finish this book. I want to know what happens in the next season of that show. I can't leave the house this much of a mess, I'll do a deep clean first. There's always a reason it's not quite the right time yet. Until the moment it is. And when you feel this way, every second of your life is spent finding things that make it not the right time yet. I've never heard anyone make music that understood me like Ren does. I'm mentally ill, severely depressed, and I have an autoimmune disorder. He reaches out to us and says, "You're not alone in this." Some nights moments like that are the only reason it isn't the right time. I hope he knows that. I hope you know, Ren, you're saving lives with your music.

[@Vffhndsercchi]

He just saved mine. I mean it. He really did. He really did ....

[@LKand7]

I understand exactly what you're saying. Another line that rips at my soul "looking down and seeing tranquility "

[@njyates2396]

Your comment makes a lot of sense to me. I heard somewhere throughout life, someone say "I'll do it when I finish a bottle of shampoo and conditioner at the same time." It never happens. I hope it never does for the person or wherever I heard it.

[@njyates2396]

Thank you for staying. I know I'm four months past when you posted but I really hope you are still here.

[@SableCatDog]

@@njyates2396 I am! I'm watching an episode of Star Trek Next Gen with my friend every day. Keeping me here for now ❤️

[@lizziegreeneyes]

Please never silence your voice nor your light, Ren. You are a beacon.

[@candicewelch]

45 years ago I drove my car off a bridge. Last week I contemplated an overdose the difference between now and then; I know the feeling will pass. Keep writing Ren, it's needed.

[@pauli_marie7644]

I am glad that you're still here. I hope you'll feel better soon. I hope you know how strong you are and how much the world is better off with you in it.

[@roberthighsmith26]

You're loved. I love you, friend. Reach out if you ever want to talk. You're not alone

[@hyza]

stay strong friend 🤍 proud of you for surviving

[@MsRedbelly]

Much love & strength to you. I hope you find joy & adventures in the future that make your life richer. I’ve recently grappled with wanting to give up since my partner drowned in late January. He too battled suicidal ideation & depression for many years. It seems he drowned accidentally but we’ll never really know. He had said to me before he wanted the sea to take him away.

[@Astrocat393]

Same, I used to attempt it so often but not now, I know things get better plus I don't want to miss what Ren is gonna do next! Lol

[@shooterperth8794]

Hi Ren. I’m a 55yo Veteran who suffers from PTSD,Major chronic depression,Bipolar disorder plus many physical issues. I cannot explain how much your music resonates in me. THANK YOU. Never give up your truth,you are helping people in ways that you and I cannot imagine . I pray for your strength to carry on in this disjointed world and for your happiness and success. Again THANK YOU. I lost 7 brothers in a single year from 4 different wars a while back I wish they had had the opportunity to hear this,maybe some of them would still be around. To all my veteran brothers and sisters out there never,give up I can tell you from my own personal struggles and attempts that there is hope and light on the other side I’ve seen and lived it. I love and pray for you all no matter where you served or who with . One foot in front of the other and NEVER give up,it’s what we do.

[@Trent_Walter]

Thank you for your service, I wish u all the best.

[@docmarbles4369]

Whole heartedly agree!

[@Diamonddog59]

Be well x

[@damagecase13]

You are not alone friend.

[@mikemclean8211]

Kind words from someone who is experiencing what you have gone through, 1st thank you for your service, 2nd keeping an open mind look into micro-dosing magic mushrooms, there seems to be a lot of great potential in helping with depression. Lots of info on you tube, try to find one you trust

[@mrvi4245]

You saved a lot people w that song man... Hope you know... We all thank you...

[@YunsDolls]

I believe he did and does. I wish I could have listened to this song with my son. I found this song today. It hit me so hard. My son was gone eight years ago. I don't know about your situation, but I hope you enjoy every moment of your life with your loved ones.

[@user-nf7eh2sy7j]

This video smashes EVERY commercially made music video, that's EVER been made. Within 2 minutes of watching my first Ren video, "Hi Ren", my instincts were SCREAMING super nova. Dude is miles above super star potential. Maybe the most versatile and influential musicians to ever exist. I'm 50, I've heard it ALL and never heard anything like this kid. I told my wife he was different, after hearing 1 song and then I dove down the rabbit hole and realized just how different, versatile and intelligent Ren is. Genius recognizes genius and this kid is HIGH level genius, PERIOD, not just verbally. EVERYTHING he does SCREAMS genius. Kid is the Saitama of the music world. Killing everything with a single punch. Stay freelance bro, never go industry. You don't need those rats. Your star is rising, regardless. You ARE a force of nature, no doubt.

[@njyates2396]

This comment wins the internet in my opinion nad I just found Ren about 6 hours ago and am so shocked I did not know about him before now.

[@amandalincoln5232]

Hi Ren…I’m sorry you lost your friend. I lost my son. He would’ve loved your music! Thank you for writing such a beautiful song. You will save lives with your art ❤

[@staceycline4261]

Beautiful

[@alysmarcus7747]

already has

[@kevinwilson455]

Oh, wow... your comment hit me there just as the song was starting. Sorry about your son, Amanda x

[@koenraadkoerts9229]

Sterke en veel wijsheid .

[@Oggham]

❤x

[@joshuacalloway4637]

Brother…I haven’t cried since late 2006, after I hit my last roadside bomb in Iraq, and was flown to Washington DC, for a year of ineffective mental treatment. I haven’t cried in 16 years…unable, or unwilling. I listen to your music constantly while I’m out drinking, after once being 20 months sober. As a writer myself, every time I hear one of your songs, I understand them a little bit more… A couple weeks ago when I stopped a medication, my emotions came back…now…I can’t listen to you without crying. I want you to know, you give people like myself permission to feel, to be pissed off, and accept whom we are. As human beings, or artists, and students of navigating our own minds. You are truly loved and appreciated, brother…empathy doesn’t make us weak…it reminds us that what we do for ourselves, we do for others. 🤙🏻

[@ellisbell614]

Joshua, you've probably heard "thank you for your service" many times. Reading your comment, words fall short. All I can say from one woman to one man that gave up so much for so many is that I love you. Simply put. I love you. I thank you. I keep my promises and I promise I will always keep you in my thoughts and prayers everyday. If their is anything I can do.. I'm a drummer. I know that music is excellent therapy. I'm glad you have that and Ren to help. 🙏❤️🕊️🇺🇸

[@hells_kells]

This was so beautiful to read. I feel like Ren was put on this earth to share his pain in order to help heal people. I'm so sorry to hear what you've gone through, but I'm glad that coming of the meds and connecting with your higher self is finally helping. Know that you are loved and supported, and by sharing your story, you too are helping others. It's always ok to be vulnerable. Take good care of you ❤

[@bearbait7405]

Joshua, I served on Walter Reed’s Ward 57 in 2006. I was a tall blond in a white consult jacket. Perhaps we met. You are my brother and I pray for each of us. Years later I suffered a multi-trauma and I walk the walk. My mottos changed from, “One can do more…” to “Courageous suffering begets fierce joy.” You and I are loved and admired more than we can ever know. I pray for your peace, and that joy.

[@TristramSavage]

Fuck all, thank you for your service.

[@SuzanneO707]

@@bearbait7405 Wow, fierce joy. Thats me all over.

[@swenoyme9049]

I remember discovering you in a busking video a few years ago. Seeing how far you've come, and everything you've gone through on the way. The world is gonna know you. Make the ground shake, Ren!

[@danieldinsdale3248]

Man this really does hit different to most modern music. The emotion being expressed is on a whole other level. it’s more than just music.

[@eva-ov8sp]

How are you feeling?

[@danieldinsdale3248]

@@eva-ov8sp that’s a hard question to answer my friend, but I do know that it is always warming when a stranger asks. I hope you live long and find peace x

[@eva-ov8sp]

@@danieldinsdale3248 thanks but...if you're not ok we can talk about it

[@danieldinsdale3248]

@@eva-ov8sp I admire your persistence friend but honestly I’m feel better. How’s life on your end?

[@eva-ov8sp]

@@danieldinsdale3248 i'm better too but please don't give up ok?

[@wendyodum6403]

This song was released on what would've been my son Elijah's 24th birthday. He took his own life on September 24, 2021. Ren your music touches me, moves me. Your honesty helps me heal. So thankful that you exist.....

[@bearbait7405]

Prayers lifted for the repose of your son, Elijah’s soul and for your peace.

[@Keriousity]

much love big hugs & lots of compassion. my heart is aching for you.

[@deborahcarson8310]

❤

[@kimanddanahaagenson5595]

SO sorry for your loss.

[@misterdutchification]

That is very sad to hear. I wish you all the best! ❤️

[@jodi.lynn.]

During a month-long camping trip in the summer of ‘97 I found my friend hanging in a tree when I woke up one morning. To this day I have never shared my thoughts or feelings of that morning with anyone. I’ve carried this baggage for decades, not knowing what to do with it. I appreciate you, Ren. You are able to express feelings that I haven’t been able to articulate all these years. Cathartic. Thanku. ❤️‍🩹🫶🏼

[@christelsegbars1630]

Oh this reaction is heartfeld and so hitting home..warm hug for you.❤

[@jodi.lynn.]

@@christelsegbars1630 ♥️

[@succatash]

What are your thoughts and feelings?

[@elliec7677]

Gosh I cannot even imagine having to go through something like that. I’m so sorry you’ve carried that pain with you for so long. I hope that you can work through that trauma and see the good memories you had with your friend before that day 💓

[@roghoffa5390]

❤️

[@mausandthimble]

Ren's music cuts so deep, yet heals at the same time. Thank you, Ren. For all that you are, for all that you do. ❤

[@i_RaKiii]

Your an absolute legend my brother. Because of you, now we all know Joe, and his memory will forever live on. I’m certain he would be so proud of you

[@earlenereyes485]

I am a 75 year old woman, and this got my first KZbin comment ever. Thank you, beautiful boy.

[@alexlowe8829]

Congrats. All the best

[@stammers4208]

Deserve a nice comment

[@ShairNisar]

This cheered me up so much after bawling my eyes out thank you for your comment ❤

[@mickram23]

Here's hoping you continue to explore more on KZbin. I'm not far behind you in age and was convinced that modern music was generic and stale. Artists like Ren prove me wrong. But what's also obvious with him is that he has a deep respect for music from the past. I take it you can't possible have missed seeing Chinchilla?

[@obscurevisions91]

This is my favorite interaction on all of the internet.

[@DrStranged0ve]

I've listened to this 10+ times today, grieving the loss of three loved ones in just the last few months, this has really let me just sit and feel everything today. Sometimes it's just hard to let yourself feel, but listening to this opened the emotional floodgates. Thank you for that.

[@chrisellis74]

Your talent is stunning, the lyrics, the twists the turns,the remix’s, the fusion of bits of your other stuff that always seem to fit, the different types of music you use, the way you wear your heart on your sleeve and your beautiful transparency

[@darrenraffan7804]

Oh Ren, as someone who considered taking the decision to ‘stop’ and who is now working as a mental health nurse, your ability to articulate the pain and emotion of depression and su!c!de just blows me away, every single time. What a beautifully artistic soul you have. That was absolutely breathtaking 💔

[@Twonicus80]

One of the more enjoyable tangential effects of Ren Fandom is that, if you accidentally get really obsessive, you get to know Joe a little bit along the way. Thanks, ren.

[@mau19885]

12 years and it’s every day that I miss my brother. Thank you for releasing your art. It helps and it heals. ❤❤❤❤❤

[@dominikblack8943]

I found you and your music about a year ago with Violet's Tale. I was in a dark time then and you sorta just hit home and i fell in love with your message and your passion. You've helped me through some really tough times and I'd like to thank you. It's taken time for me to actually sit and listen to this song because I know what it's about and what it means to you. I'm so sorry for your loss and I really hope your friend is in a good place right now, watching you and seeing the man you've become. I'm having a few drinks right now, and one is going to be for you and yours. Keep doing what you're doing Ren. Even in the darkest times, we can always find the light

[@LiamSeniorYT]

I have been struggling with dark thoughts for a long time and last night I found myself scared, alone in the woods, it has never got this bad before. In the UK, the video has a link to “the Samaritans”, a charity there for those who need some emotional support. I clicked the link and spoke to a lovely lady for half an hour. Then the police came and helped direct me to more support and crisis centre. Last night. This song saved my life. Thank you Ren. Thank you so much.xx

[@janetparsons4088]

I hope you heal Liam.

[@neenerss]

Glad you are still here ♥️

[@annaanon8419]

From the daughter of a victim of mental illness, I promise that the ppl you think won't miss you, will. I promise their hurt will never heal. And I promise they're glad- and I'm glad you're still here.

[@laughteraddict1003]

Hang in there brother !

[@heyarrhh]

🫂

[@Basaltmbl]

Young man, I'm so amazed by you. What a wonderful song ....I hope it helps others step back from the edge!!! Love your bravery to share your loss and thereby give hope to others.

[@rbrookstx]

Nothing else to say but thanks man. You’re a truly powerful story teller who’s raw and human and it’s needed so badly in the world to have people willing to be this way. It’s a hard path to take.

[@Yarnhacker]

2:26 when it drops here, the breathing and the piano weeping,, sounding so very alone in the world, detached from everything and everyone. This is an incredible piece of art Ren. Here’s to Joe, your wonderful best friend. 💜💜💜E|3 💜💜💜

[@juliebarrow5743]

en pointe Yarnhacker

[@miisvegas]

Ren’s “music” is unlike anything done previously. When introducing his songs (more so “works,” or masterpieces) to anyone unfamiliar w/his talent, I explain it as beyond “music,” rather it’s lyrical art … poetic storytelling to a beat. And here we all are again experiencing, feeling, getting caught up in this magnificence. The subject matter is tough, emotional, but again poetic. I want to tap my feet, bob my head, and sing along, yet I’m crying my eyes out. This juxtaposition, a polarity, is what makes this fascinating. An emotional outlet for a man continuously grieving and wondering “what-if,” but also a tribute to a best friend dearly missed and yet so deeply present. Without a doubt this is ART!!! And to repeat Yarnhacker … “To Joe.” 💔

[@GOTGames]

Anyone listening to this, just know no matter what anyone says, there is only one you in this world, you couldn't be more unique and more special! One of a kind! ❤

[@juliebarrow5743]

True

[@ellisbell614]

Yes!❤️

[@davo_t]

Yep, unique. Just like everybody else.

[@allybandy3047]

Even more than that, in the entire existence of the universe, there is only one you.

[@Musiklife.9049]

Yes, indeed and for everyone, so special, 1 of 7.8 billion!

[@stepoole597]

Man you know how to crumble me and doubtlessly many others. So fucking heart wrenching. The world needs your music and your fragility.

[@dumdum5241]

The songs that you put out recently are incredible, just brilliant, unique,original, strong stuff, love them all.

[@Leks3777]

My 16 yr daughter has been suicidal for past 4 years. I haven't been able to really reach her , I've used anger, talking, coaching, and begging. I showed her this today we cried. This showed her there's 2 sides to suicide the person we loose & the person they loved in us that would go with them. Thank you Ren for being so vulnerable & valuable at the same time.

[@erikpalumbo2400]

I hope she turns the corner.

[@torlcean]

Hope she gets through the troubling times she's having. Much love from the UK!

[@michaelmccormack5325]

So happy to hear about the experience you shared with her today. Wishing you two nothing but the best for the future. :)

[@EricRozell-rf6oi]

Music is beautiful

[@Oceanno69]

Hold her tight, we lost our daughter 9 years ago to suicide. My heart will always be broken.

[@aestill7252]

My sons first experience of suicide was when their 16 year old cousin took his own life. In a 2 year period we were connected to 6 other men who also chose that path; my eldest son's best mate, at 23, an uncle... the list goes on... thank you for talking about it and I look forward to hearing your words in this song. Words are so important. Stay strong.

[@aestill7252]

Oh and... One of my all time favourite songs has the same title: kzbin.info/www/bejne/bniyi4ptntyapKc

[@mistydouglas2874]

Thankyou for sharing..bless you 🙏

[@aletheaestill923]

Thank you - I helped open a boxing club and we lost 2 young lads there during Covid and a female friend during that time too. The threat of suicide is real - We have become almost desensitised to it now, which is really sad.

[@dustyntonks7388]

😢 I Lost 6 friends just in motorcycles and I don't count the ones freefalling on the whites

[@primitivedogs4638]

I used to listen to Shinedown Daylight. Brent Smiths voice gives strength.

[@jmac4513]

Loneliness and self critism are my companions throughout my journey of whatever this life is. Suicidal thoughts give me company often i try to drown them out but i am so depressed its almost deafining

[@grantmillington9104]

WOW! WOW! WOW! I only discovered you a few days from one of the many reaction videos. Listening to your music really puts my own plight into perspective. You are an incredibly talented individual, thank you for everything you are doing for us. Much Love.

[@one4theditch38]

I have been completely depleted since hurricane Ian, I Lost almost everything and now separated after 20 years of marriage, don’t get to see my children every day anymore which crushes my soul. Ren you have helped give me faith when I thought it was no longer possible. Keep fighting the good fight please,it helps so many, thank you.

[@user-jr1op3yk6k]

Stay strong mate

[@bearbait7405]

Courageous suffering begets fierce joy. Prayers lifted for your suffering and courage and May you find His peace. KkXpax

[@rbbea]

Stay strong mate…you never know what tomorrow will bring…

[@mdanam]

Wow, brother you are my soulmate. I lost everything in Hurricane Sandy, lost the relationship with my wife of 30 years, and haven't been able to speak to either of my daughters in over 5 years. Hang in there brother it does get easier. What doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

[@stephaniemichelle2771]

I went through Ian too. I lost everything after Hurricane Michael. Keep on pushing! You’re not alone.

[@IlanLerman]

The honesty in your emotion is utterly vital. You’re doing something hugely important, Ren.

[@CosmicHamsters]

I have to admit I was putting off watching this one, but having just watched Justin's reaction video I came here to watch in one go. Having tried to stop someone from jumping many years ago your spoken word part of the song got to me and made me cry. My world stopped too on that day, for a long time. Absolutely stunning video too Ren. Much ❤

[@shannonslack4448]

This really hit me, especially during the last part when Ren put his entire heart and soul into how he felt. An amazing song that has and will touch people like me.

[@CannabisIsMedicineUK]

such a powerful song.. as someone who has attempted suicide a few times, and struggles with Complex PTSD, and also as someone who lost a close friend to suicide, this song is so relevant to me.

[@Jai-uk]

I don’t often comment but wanted to say thank you for helping my husband finally release the pain of losing his friend of 50+ years the same way and realising he is not alone in the way he feels. You have a very unique talent.

[@coreyms]

Dude I literally don’t understand how you never miss for me. With every other artist I have obvious favorites and others I don’t vibe to. But, me personally, ya just never miss. Also, aside from the music, the artistry of this video is amazing. I’d watch an entire series in this style.

[@thomasgoldschmidt298]

I am in the same boat. I haven't seen an artwork or song from Ren that did not speak to me in one way or another. He just does not publish misses. That makes it even stranger that he was discovered just now, and not years ago. The art he created with The Great Push is amazing too. (I know some of their busking videos went kind of viral too, but what we are experiencing now is different.) What Ren does with this newfound influence is admirable and amazing. It is a very fine line and balancing act to gain popularity and not get corrupted by it but use it for the greater good. Ren seems to be a masterful tightrope walker too.

[@chrischamberlin5124]

Same for me. I have bought all his music and have it all in one playlist. Just put it on random play and it’s the only thing I’ve listened to for months.

[@mosheyehuda52]

Ditto

[@Jmaccxx]

A.I imagery, you can tell a mile off. Shout out to the directors though.

[@coreyms]

@@Jmaccxx The directors must have done an amazing job piecing all of that together

[@mattressfour20]

Oh my... that smashed me right in the feels. Relatable Ren. Very relatable. Tears in my eyes for you and for me and for those we've lost. Big love for what you're doing brother!

[@heather_henson]

Thank you for sharing with us. I needed your music!

[@Stino0208]

When I was 18, I lost my 16yo sister to suicide. It's been almost 9 years and it still hurts. She was my best friend and I miss her every day and want her by my side. What a strong song this is, Ren. Thank you for such beautiful, relatable words. My sincere condolences.

[@kimanddanahaagenson5595]

I am SO sorry for your loss.

[@stevepursglove6624]

Simply outstanding (again!). I'm 69 years old and I've never seen or heard anyone as authentic as Ren. We are witnessing the emergence of a very special talent 👏👏👏

[@SanitysOverrated]

Powerful stuff Ren, listening to this bought tears to my eyes. I haven't had than happen in 30 years. I get the struggle of life, have suffered it all too much. The pain inside close to engulfing me. Ive been on that edge too many times, even now with all i have, family, friends, some success but it never feels enough, like somethings missing inside me. Physical pain in my body, pain in my mind so bad i think my head will explode. It comes in waves and washes over me like a tsunami. Keep on as you are Ren, you're doing so well for yourselves and your music helps many people. Much respect.

[@ErebosB]

Thank you so much, Ren. Thank you for doing everything you do and helping me put words to the pain. Truly love everything you do ❤❤. I'm looking forward to seeing everything you put out into the universe.

[@emmyhusfloen]

Wow, "It's hard to take off from the ground when your wings are cut".... That is deep... my son died by suicide in 2014, Ren, Thank You for voicing the pain that occurs after having someone die by suicide. I am constantly awaiting your new songs to be posted!! Love your work!! Thank You!!

[@craigevans8912]

❤

[@whitecloud3731]

❤

[@nocigar8867]

❤

[@unikstar]

[@SamRansome]

❤

[@esotericprana]

I'm a 46 year old male and this is the first song that's made me cry that isn't directly associated with a moment in my own life. Between 'Hi Ren" and this I've never encountered an artist that hits me in the soul so hard.

[@joemcallister128]

I'm 52 and I'm right there with you brother. Thought I was too old and too hardened for any "new" music to get to me. Then I heard "Hi Ren".

[@gavin4805]

Yep 46 too. And this guy is next level. Never been so excited to watch an artist grow, he is groundbreaking & his music will be talked about in generations to come.

[@truthpanda1966]

i'm way older than all of you . i'm 81. you are all punks

[@aerobill8554]

54 in a week and same here. Ren has lived a lifetime already it send and somehow has the gift and talent and puts in the hard work to translate his thoughts and emotions into relatable music. What a guy. Greetings from the Netherlands.

[@paulgrillo]

Exactly the same - I love 90s grunge, 70s disco, 00 nu-metal , and more , but Ren's art/music/story telling resonates at such base a level. What an incredible talent , first artist in probably 30 years , actually maybe all my years, that has made me stop , think , listen and just be awe struck.

[@oatmeal]

This song is incredible. Thank you for writing it.

[@Tommy-yf7wq]

I'm currently in a detox unit recovering from a heroin addiction I don't think I can do this and I don't Wana be here anymore I hate feeling this way ren Ur music helps me so much more than you know thankyou

[@sabrinaskovholt7427]

Praying for you Tommy ❤

[@mookiepookie11]

This was the hardest one yet. I lost my mom, then my little brother and sister to suicide in the years following. It’s been hard to be the only one left, but people like you really give us all hope and support with your words. Thank you, Ren.

[@lebluedragon9320]

You are so awesome ❤ You've got this, just keep pushing through :)

[@leighhartsoeify]

I can't imagine having to deal with such a disaster as that but hold tight ]God has something amazing for you I pray you will seek him much love and respect to you for holding on and not giving up friend! Please read this verse in the bible Jeremiah 29:11-14

[@dos_mas_805]

Sending you massive and eternal love. I've lost one family member to suicide and can, but at the same time can't begin to fathom the depths of your loss or the grief you must overcome daily. Love you

[@sski3665]

Your words tore through my heart. I will pray for your mind to be at peace tonight.

[@carlahelin5203]

(((Hugs)))

[@gloomcircus]

I’m still in recovery from a su!ic!de attempt in February. I was sectioned and am now in a much better place. Things really can get better but i didn’t believe it when I was in that headspace. It’s truly a disease. I’ve struggled with thoughts like that since I was 17. I’m 25 now. Thank you for this song Ren. If I hadn’t lived I wouldn’t have gotten to hear it ❤️ I try to look for the little things like that now. There’s so much to experience and learn and see. Thank you for making all of us feel less alone and seen. Thank you for sharing your art with the world. It’s a much better place with you in it. Condolences for your friend. I hope he found peace. 😓

[@ILTOMBA]

Thanks for sharing these hopeful words

[@christelsegbars1630]

Dear Jiji, you are worth hapiness, you are loved by all the strangers from all over the world who react to your honoust reaction..... please accept my warm hug for you❤❤❤

[@dred8616]

How did you come to suffer so much at such a young age?

[@gloomcircus]

@@ILTOMBA thank you for reading ❤️ there is always some hope, no matter how small

[@gloomcircus]

@@christelsegbars1630 thank you so much for your lovely words. I am accepting your hug to give you one in return. 🫂❤️

[@danielmarshall8149]

Ren, man. Thankyou. Your music really resonates with me. I've shown your stuff to friends. They don't all get it but all seem to respect it. I struggle daily although everything is great. I feel guilty af. I wish that I could be an open book like you. I can't.

[@sarahsettimi7273]

I am so happy i stumbled upon all this new music tonight. I am in awe of you. Always have been. Amazing.

[@llchristensen77]

Well, I'm fucking wrecked. The emotion you poured into this is beautiful. I hope making it helped you heal just a little more. You've got an army behind you now and we appreciate you more than you will ever know. 🖤🖤

[@GrowthAddiction]

I lost my girlfriend to suicide 4yrs ago, completely fucked up my life. Brought me to suicide, brought me to addictions to numb the emptiness. I pray those who are experiencing the same thing, same thoughts, same feelings, reach out. I love you, we can get through this ❤️

[@emilgrinderslev1654]

Thanks man. I needed that. Drunk while I read this but made me go to fucking bed...

[@GrowthAddiction]

@@emilgrinderslev1654 🙏🏻

[@roberthighsmith26]

Hey bro. Lost my wife 2 and a half years ago. In the thick of it still it feels. You ever want anyone to talk to, save my info. What happened happened, but we're still here and I love you man

[@eminencerecords6049]

@@roberthighsmith26 ❤

[@cleverjoemusic]

Wow, powerful stuff. Hits like a brick. Thanks for creating and sharing this. Brilliant.

[@kerrylambourne8310]

Holy shit. This made me well up, gave me goosebumps and I'm obsessed. Ren, I hope you realise how many people you've touched. Truly... You are a pioneer. You deserve the number one album ❤️🖤❤️

[@Sam7seas]

Lost my son to suicide 7 years ago - when I first heard Hi Ren it resonated on so many levels for male mental health. Thank you for your courage in bringing this crisis to the front of our minds and confronting the epidemic that is so taboo in our society. ❤ love and strength to you Ren! You are a legend!

[@CALLYPSO16]

❤

[@sofly75]

❤

[@lindseybriggs2771]

❤

[@sorryformyenglish2778]

So sorry for your loss. Big love to you my felllow human ❤

[@bearbait7405]

Prayers lifted for the repose of your son’s soul and your peace.

[@LostLegendTrance]

To say I think you are one of the realist and most interesting artists I've listened to in an age is a massive understatement. In a world of filters, egos, PR agents and bullshit, you are truly a breath of fresh air, Ren. 🥰

[@JenniferBode]

As a nurse, CPP, DID, and AuDHD…this song hits and hurts. I am glad to say attempting was more of a struggle than talking about myself and how I’m feeling. Thank you REN!

[@georginalangdale5571]

So beautiful, Ren. Thank you for your honesty and your artistry. I'm sorry for your loss, i'm grateful for your music and messages 🙏

[@kevinotoole885]

You are something else mate……..I’ve introduced my 10 year old lad to your stuff and withheld a few expletives here and there 😂 but hearing him sing the first few bars of ‘illest of our time’ in the shower this morning made my heart melt. He loves you man and your music is the first he’s ever taken an interest in. He’ll never forget you bro and long will your legacy live on as it’s growing by the minute!!!

[@benawake4eva273]

Awesome! Good job Dad!

[@loneyb11]

Same here!!! My daughters 10 and 7 singing your music (ones I can play :) each time they jump in my truck!

[@robjohn5036]

I was watching Animal while my 17month old grandson was round and he was mesmerised by it and he never stands still that long normally! I'm 54 and can't listen to nothing apart from ren and chinchilla, love you guys ❤

[@zed4225]

Sweet as❤️

[@usefulidiot-]

🤣🤣 I also introduced Ren to my 14 year old boy but my 5 year old son is absolutely obsessed with Rens music. He bugs me half the day to put Ren on, then I have to quickly turn the volume down for the expletives, which I don’t always manage to do🤣🤣 but after a little chat, he understands not to say those words outside of the house🤣🤣 His top songs just to name a few are Power, Girls, What You Want & diazepam & the love music trilogy.

[@sandralynnsparks3468]

My nephew died of suicide about one week after I last got close to it. I got help. He didn't let anyone know. This was a few weeks ago. This is the only time I will mention it. The family keeps silent. Self destruction runs in our family. I learned how to transform suicidal feelings by letting go of things instead of myself. I am still letting go, to make sure the urge does not come back during this very dark time. I keep finding purpose in my life to keep from doing this thing to myself. You help me so much with this task. When I heard a few days ago that you were planning to release this song I was relieved. We are the kind who walk through the fire and out the other side. We talk about it. My nephew couldn't do that. Let's keep talking. It helps.

[@ILTOMBA]

Thanks for sharing

[@bearbait7405]

Prayers lifted for the repose of his soul and for the family’s and friends’ peace.

[@sandralynnsparks3468]

@@ILTOMBA Thank you.

[@sandralynnsparks3468]

@@bearbait7405 Thank you.

[@DDWH_SB]

And here I'm crying rivers again. I can't cry, even if I want to so badly. There's just nothing than that f*cking depression and that running running running in my head. But every single time I hear and see your music/videos, I just break out in tears at the end. So thank you for letting me feel something again. All my love goes to you and your art. You deserve to be known and to be heard - and now you are. And we all are so incredibly happy for you, and so f*cking proud - as you should be. ❤

[@aileenokeeffe88]

I love this song so much, it brings up the worst points in my life life which is so difficult to carry around or even say out loud. Being affected by it but also feeling those urges at the worst points is a part of being human that I wish was given the kindness and openess you do justice to. Ren thank you, I don't know what kind of works you make in the future but this song is enough to shake off my apathy and try to face the world honestly. I hope you stand tall knowing the world is a much better place with you in it.

[@ohb71303]

Lost my dad to it. It’s been 8 years (as of May 15th). Think of him every day. Remind myself to “get past today. Tomorrow is a different problem.” Honestly believe that your music helps. Didn’t know if I really wanted to hear this, but thankful I did. From one stranger to another, thank you and much ❤.

[@bearbait7405]

Prayers lifted for the repose of your father’s soul and for your peace.

[@susanpower514]

I'm so sorry for your loss. It must be shattering to lose your parent to suicide. We never get over such losses. We learn to live with them. Sending you love.

[@noazelinger5396]

I hope talking about it helps with the pain and the healing.. as someone who struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts- I’m hopeful that these conversations can make the whole subject less taboo to talk about so people don’t feel alone in their suffering. From one stranger to another, thanks for sharing and stay strong💜

[@Jadedxx]

I lost dad 6yrs ago and we're coming up on what would've been his 67th birthday... my brother in law 14yrs ago when he was 23. It still hurts. Sorry for your loss... 💔

[@KCsFunHouse]

You done Joe proud with this one my friend. 😢By being this vulnerable you’ve give a voice to and told the story of millions of us who have lost someone to or attempted suicide. Thank you ❤

[@D.RED420]

I was actually a little surprised that that wasn't what was mentioned in his comment about the 'inspiration'(for lack of a better word) for this song, I love that he is such a transparent human being that seems to bring kindness, love and empathy out of other human beings. But when I listened to this the first time, I was an ass 'assuming' that was what this song was about. I guess I was wrong, I'm sure it resonates today, regardless. I am Sure, as with many of his songs, we all take it where we need it, we all have a different journey, but we all feel the same feelings. As we are human beings. 🥹 Much Love. 💚🦋🎶

[@thehangingparsiple5692]

@ KCs Funhouse 💯💯 true

[@JMemski]

​@@D.RED420he mentioned it not long ago in his community posts you can see it ❤

[@slotmetal1334]

7-22-23 it’s been the roughest few days since my brother took his own life. I’m lost. I’m broken. This song is hitting me beyond words. Hold your loved ones close. Rest in peace Chris. I miss you absurd.

[@Maggie_n_Mitch23]

I can hear your tears , , I'm so sorry for your loss 😥

[@slotmetal1334]

That means a lot. Thank you.

[@jacobperez391]

My heart breaks for you and yours: "come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Hold fast to the word of life. I hope you find truth peace and love.

[@user-so9du1cx9o]

I felt every word of that lyrical bomb, bro! Good job getting that out of your head!

[@HeidiSaid]

“He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment.” 💔 That’s a great photo of you both - and I hope everyone donates in anyway they are able. Take good care thank you for sharing Joe’s story. For creating and sharing. For choosing to be here now. 💛

[@smokedog2185]

Inless it's a place u pay to go in, unfortunately u after be admitted by an hospital after a serious attempt on your life "which is very fucked up" for them to even consider admitting u, have been sectioned twice now and both times a was in pinderfields hospital in A&E locked in a room for about 20 hour until their was a free bed b4 they would take mi to a fieldhead mental ward in Wakefield

[@rmf7479]

That is def one major issue that should b repaird yesterday w only one judge that I Kno of(in FL EEUUAA) that is tryin 2 do so. I'm almost pretty sure he was wrkg inoutof Miami at the time but that was practically a decade ago. Can relate. Many many levels. Tytyty keep up keeping up

[@christyheffernan1248]

I tried to check myself in once in the boston area and then hours later they told me if i wasn’t trying to kill myself i couldn’t stay. I wasn’t. And that was $1500 later

[@christyheffernan1248]

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[@smokedog2185]

@@christyheffernan1248 I only know about here in UK m8, I thought u had to pay for all medical stuff in America

[@mEmklat]

Man. My friend jumped too. I'm sorry, Ren. It doesn't get easier, but I do feel seen, hearing this. Thank you for sharing this, and I hope knowing you've touched so many people helps you, even just a little.

[@grumpyfinn]

you said it for me

[@shanebruce3997]

so sorry for you loss man!

[@bearbait7405]

Prayers lifted for the repose of your friend’s soul and for your peace.

[@kentsharp4830]

@RenMakesMusic My guy!!! I’ve recently gone through some real tough times in my life. Divorce, addiction, job, children… It’s been the hardest year in my 41 on this planet. Your music is so emotionally charged and has keep me fighting for the next day. THANK YOU REN!! You don’t know how many people you‘ve helped!! I hope to one day get to see you perform life here in the states. Thx M8!

[@mariaking8049]

Watching this again..finding more I missed previously...even the artwork in this is incredible, like an Old Master in motion..a little of Vincent V.G. I think...beautiful..gentle..and hitting like a freight train all at once...desperately needed..a lifeline for so many.. Thank you.

[@Acatyoucantrust]

Glad you were able to complete the song, a painful but (hopefully) therapeutic process for you. I can't wait to hear it ❤

[@coggy52]

Wow, Ren! A beautiful tribute to your dear friend. Has me choked with tears every time I listen to it. That’s one powerful song!! Sending hugs.

[@laurahulland]

I came here from a Sinéad o Connor video and someone said your monologue at the end of this was brilliant and got wrenching (nothing compares to you is her love song to her dead mother and she says she was thinking of her when she sang it) so I popped over to listen. You’re super talented. Reminded me of how I felt when I listened to Eminem back in the 90’s. Please take comfort and strength from their fans. You clearly see the consequences of Suic!de so I hope you stay for your family, friends and fans. God bless you ❤

[@jerrychronister7232]

just keep coming back... absolutely brilliant

[@AVNDRfound]

This is the authenticity in music that the world needs. Please don't ever stop doing this.

[@theprinceofcrows8691]

YES... You nailed it. 🤙

[@julesbc9031]

Absolutely ❤

[@JG-jc8dm]

If i could hit the thumbs up 1000 times I would.

[@johny79action]

The day this comes out is my birthday and I've been living with cripling depression and anxiety for 4yrs, right now I'm low but I know I can be the man I was again. I too had a friend like Joe, last year he jumped of a cliff even though he hated heights and nobody knows why he did. We all have our bad times and need someone to listen, we need to look out for our loved ones and try to be the hand they need for support. I am so glad I found you Ren as your music has helped ground me when I'm start to slip, thankyou for being a beautiful person.

[@crystalmckinney6816]

Keep fighting Johny. The world needs you.

[@astariavink553]

Johny, things do get better, you will feel light and cheerful again one day, I promise. I’ve been through it and am living proof that things do come right again and life can feel light and joyful in the way it used to once feel. Hold onto that HOPE. Please find and invest in a great psychotherapist or Jungian psycho analyst that you connect with and has the same values as you. They can really, really be transformational, if they’re good and in tune with you. For now listen to The Blindboy podcasts mental health and psychology podcasts. They are pure gold, helped me ALOT!!! You will get through this. You will! 100% possible. You woudn’t be here on this earth if you weren’t meant to be, remember that. Eventually life will show you why, it will come. With time and reflection you will find more and more tools and tidbits that bring you more peace and joy as you soften into accepting yourself and seeing you’re strengths and value. You just have to be strong and get though this challenging time, you will be so wise once you make it through. I kind of like to think of these conditions as a very loud wake up call, maybe it’s your soul telling you to look inward and work though and release layers of trauma/ un healthy core beliefs…to find and live in alignment your authentic self. Or it’s something or many things in your environment that needs to change, so that you a living a life that aligns with your values. Also please watch ‘Stutz’ on Netflix - really cool mental health doco, lots of amazing mental tools nuggets of gold. Disclaimer, I’m not a psychologist - I’m just speaking from my single personal experience. Ps. Even psychologists/ doctors reccomend their patients to listen to the blindboy podcast!! Just search for his mental heath or psychology podcasts. You’ve got this! You have value, you many not see it now, and you may feel those terrible crippling feelings all the time, but with the right help and knowledge and reflection and tools things will come right again, you will feel peace, joy and sunny again. ❤

[@SuzanneO707]

Good wishes on ya birthday mate. Hang in there. There are good things out there. Its hard. Push on through. Your not alone.

[@rosiebalyuzi2177]

❤

[@clarissathompson]

There’s a whole world of us pulling for you, my friend. I’m so glad that you are here and sharing music, time, and your story with us. Thanks for being awesome you❤️

[@bb9938]

There's not many songs in my 50+ years revolving around the sun that have left me in tears... And here we are, writing this comment moist eyed and emotional. So sad for your loss Ren, but thank you for opening your heart to the world.

[@strive4impact]

Dig deep. Resist the feeling when it hits ya. Such a beautiful thing you've done here Ren. Thank you.

[@chloemcewan7379]

Everyones crying and full of love at the same time.. ❤ Rennnnnn!! Thanks so much for everything you do. You will save lives with this song.

[@BridieCate]

Joe, I'm so sorry that your pain was so unbearable. Sorry that the broken health system didn't recognize that your wounds were so very urgent and life threatening, even if they weren't visible. Freckled Angels is beautiful, Ren. Heart-breaking that it came from the abyss of grief, the one with no answers to the anguished "what ifs" that keep us awake at night. The kind that tears into us and leaves us with eyes so red from tears that we can barely see. Milestones like birthdays are so hard, hugs to you and everyone who loved Joe.

[@KeithGills-fn3pp]

Yeah man. Your music makes me feel like I am understood. All I want every day is for the suffering to end and for my hope to be realized. I feel like I'm living but unable to live and dying but unable to die, and every day just bleeds into the next, but feeling like someone else can relate helps aleviate the burden. Thank you.

[@CricketGirrl]

This is the rawest,most honest song I have ever heard. Thank you, Ren. Your honesty honors us.

[@roo5384]

Young artist, I am a middle-aged woman from Canada. I have lost so many friends to drugs and suicide. My days are ghosts. This captured it perfectly. Thank you.

[@misterdutchification]

I hope you’ll find the light 🙏🏻

[@roo5384]

@@misterdutchification I have through Stoic practice, kindness, and community service.

[@simonerm76]

I am so apathetic at this time of life that it is really strange to feel empathy and such strong feelings from a music video. A hug to everyone who resonates with Ren 💪🏻

[@0Onyx13]

I know the feeling. I can't bring myself to do anything productive all day, and then spend the evenings hating myself for it. Ren is one of the few things that makes me feel better. Much love to everyone, you're not alone, and you're all important. Never forget that.

[@dryroastedpnutta6253]

Big hugs back...you're not alone in your loneliness #stayrenstrong

[@dryroastedpnutta6253]

​@@0Onyx13❤❤

[@Danieldeduiker]

Thanks for the sharing of the music. Can so relate to it very helpful

[@GroovyGirl1990]

This young man who talks like he's old. He talks like he's been through it, he talks like he's cold. Talks like he's been around, talks like he's up and down, talks like he's deep down in it. This guy is brilliant.