Ren - Suicide - Reaction - Content Warning - Suicide Topic - So Very Sad

[@LeeannG]

So much credit to the reactors that read Rens words before listening to the song. It gives it so much more gravity.

[@rebt6096]

Chris, it’s okay. I see the mental struggle and suicide videos you react to. It’s hard, and that’s okay. In my personal experience of mental illness, you communicate the tough stuff. You say the right things. And you get the message out. And, this is key. You don’t stop. You haven’t shied away from a song titled “Suicide”. Thank you. Be blessed.

[@larryshair]

Thanks so much ❤

[@67goat]

The two lines in the middle of the first part, "sick boy, sick boy, bitten by a tick boy," and "I feel like its not me, it's the world that's sick" are audio and video samples from his song "Sick Boi." It's a good piece. I won't ruin it by saying more than that.

[@SuperMunkeh]

The lyricism, artistry and vulnerability in that last verse is an absolute masterpiece. Ren is incredible.

[@dawnpatterson8708]

This one.....hurt. It took me a bit to realize that this is a GIFT of perspective. There are many who are so lost in the depths of despair. That they can't see a hand, friend or those around that love them. This was an intensely personal glimpse into the pain that a loss such as this creates. Yeah, it hurt. It was supposed to. But, if it helps just ONE person take a moment to think about how their loss WOULD affect those around them. It was well WORTH the pain. Thank you Ren, for sharing. Thank you Larry, this was special.

[@larryshair]

Thank you so much for your kind words!❤

[@dawnpatterson8708]

@@GhostWatcher2024 It seriously took a whole day of crying WITH him. To see this as the gift that it is.

[@let_your_weird_light_shine_2.0]

I have dark thoughts sometimes. Have had them my whole life. Maybe that's why Rens art hits me so hard. Back to Hi Ren, when he says; I'm the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope. Then the pendulum...swaying from dark to light, and how the light casts bigger shadows... Ren is able to put what it feels like so eloquently into words. He is really a gift to those of us struggling to keep going. I broke down the other day. I cried on my way to work. Cried on my breaks. Asked myself tbe quations ; why do I bother, when does it stop being so difficult, when will I have the strength to choose happiness? Then I listened to this song for the first time last night, and it reaffirmed for me, why we have to keep going... the thought of hurting the people I love, is too much to bare. My children. Their father. My, father....my best friend.... So, I'm gonna be here tomorrow. I just wish I wasn't so sad. I don't know how to turn it off. So, I'll just keep searching, I guess.

[@larryshair]

You've got this. Thank you for your comments. The people around you need you. We need each other in this life. There is much joy and support we can offer to others. Also, whether we admit it or not, we all search for the truth in God and to know Him. That's why we are here, for His good pleasure. May the puzzle piece of your life fit perfectly into his picture. If you're searching. search for Him. Blessings to you my friend. SO sorry for these moments you're struggling with.

[@j.k.1963]

I knew you would react with all you have in you to respect Ren, his friend, his great loss, his anger and frustration, but most of all the endless pain and despair. Thank you. And reacting to this video without encouraging those to speak out when being troubled, is impossible. ❤

[@dorkette_chicky]

Truly appreciate the time you took with such a profound work of art. Peace Friend.

[@ManneyM]

Amazing reaction and analysis, to an incredible track and tribute from Ren. RIP Joe Hughes, Ren keeps your candle burning bright 🙏🤗👍🇬🇧

[@notquitehuman7402]

The bit you didnt get: "my skin felt counterfeit; sillicone, rubber"

[@flightlessbird1892]

🖤

[@lea88pu]

The last verse is really powerful bcs it is so raw and vulnerable. Masterpiece ❤

[@ozwaltreacts4709]

He’s describing symptoms of his illness in the first two verses. I get those too.

[@robmarar]

This is my interpretation of the (fibonacci/double dutch) section of Ren's spoken word poem. The fibonacci sequence being (0, 1, 1, 2, 3, 5, 8, 13, 21, 34, 55, 89, ...). It's a mathematical sequence that when drawn out, is an ascending spiral that appears in many patterns throughout nature, also known as the Golden Ratio or Godly form. It's something beautiful & yet has no rational explanation of how it appears in many different parts of nature. Double Dutch in British English, literally means nonsense /gibberish. So what he's poetically saying is that he sees the world as both polar opposites, unexplainable natural beauty & never ending nonsense.

[@BoydOfPray]

Thanks. I'd been wondering about this line.

[@justmejustme4444]

He previously talked about his psychosis and how it led to him looking for patterns to try to understand what was happening.

[@jasonmoccaldi9336]

I didn't realize double Dutch had that meaning in England. That really helped explain that line. Thanks!

[@jeannewolfe4489]

Thanks so much. This makes sense now.

[@RyanTravis23]

Love you Larry. And Ren too. Love to anyone who is struggling. There's always a better day ahead. I'm a living testament to that. ❤

[@froshmasta]

I've been watching your reactions for quite a while now. Pausing and reacting is exactly what I want and expect here so try not to feel the need to apologize for it. We want to hear your thoughts! thanks for what you do

[@larryshair]

Thanks so much!

[@richv.1594]

100% agree

[@redbandita020]

I've been forced to play the "if only" game, since the end of April, when my cousin took her life. I find the song triggering and soothing, at once. I have lost with her also my 49 yo innocence and the idea that we wre indestructible. I still cry almost every day, and it's been 2 months... It's unfathomable, even if we now know more about her motives, issues, reasons. None of them seem valid. But I can't be mad at her (like I was with my friend, 20 years ago when she chose that path). I saw my cousin's remains, and even in death, she looked so, so sad. RIP ❤Martina❤

[@larryshair]

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. It's so incredibly sad.

[@samrichardson7683]

Ren is truly special. Deepest condolences. Lovely reaction Larry. He has so much more for you to watch Larry. We need a Renday

[@C4.Cooper]

I recently found your channel through your Ren reactions....thank you for your insight and genuine reflection on the connections within your own life. Profound, Sir. ❤

[@larryshair]

Thanks so much! Welcome to this little Rabbit Hole!

[@docdurdin]

Larry, thank you for reading Ren's message about Joe. So many missed that, it is the epitome of the love that flows through Ren.

[@larryshair]

Thanks so much!

[@blackfairyxdusy]

I’m almost 30 now and I’ve tried to end my life so many times in the past. I was almost successful a few times. Unless you’ve been in the mindset you’ll never get it I guess. Technically it goes against every instinct you have as sentient being to want to end your life. You see in tunnel vision and when you think of others around you, your mind tricks you into believing that your doing them a favour. ‘They might mourn but at the end of the day they’re better off without having to worry about you’. I still struggle everyday but I’m engaged and I’m happy, i see a future with babies and grandchildren 🥰 I just needed to say this because saying ‘you owe this to -whoever-‘ will actually make a hopeless person feel worse and push them more. I’m not talking for all survivors but for me and the many other’s I’ve known. I’m only spreading awareness not negativity 🥰

[@larryshair]

Thanks very much and I'm so glad that you didn't succeed in your attempts. Good to have you here.

[@blackfairyxdusy]

@@larryshair I’m glad too! Things are still difficult but it’s good too be here

[@AwkwardSquirrel13]

​@@blackfairyxdusysending love from one survivor to another.

[@blackfairyxdusy]

@@AwkwardSquirrel13 ❤️❤️❤️

[@jenk4653]

Thank you for taking the time to read his words before playing his song. It makes me cry every time.

[@jenk4653]

The first part of this song was about him and his contemplation of su!clde due to his struggle with lyme disease. But the song wasn't complete. He did an interview with Knox and realized he still has issues grieving for Joe and went back to the song so the second half was him talking about his survivors guilt of not getting to him on time.

[@OpTricky]

Thank you for reacting to Ren again, precciate you Larry! Always loving the content, even when it gets emotional because we're crying too.

[@hilltigger]

There's no fixing or explaining an unexpected death. You can't logic or comfort it away. I lost my son almost two years ago. In moments of silence, It hits me worst. Even the thought of trying to wish him back stings like a knife. The ache is both a longing and a charring of my wound at the same time. There is nothing I can do to bring peace, but I refuse to let go of the pain because the loss is all I have left of him. I sometimes dream of the future that he will never see, knowing that he could accomplish it. There is no comfort. There is only the occasional wince I feel when I see a potential memory I could have had. Those who have lost someone so dear are in a small group that will slowlly drip tears of pain until they are once again with their loved ones.

[@larryshair]

I'm so terribly sorry about your loss. I can't even begin to go there and imagine that level of pain. Blessings to you my friend.

[@hollyryalsgrubb1273]

I appreciate your way of reacting to this. I can only watch a few reactions to this, sparingly so am just now seeing this. Thank you. It's one of the most beautiful songs, musically, lyrically and emotionally.

[@TallinnCity2410]

Survivor's guilt is tooooough((( Thank you for another heartfelt reaction

[@that_averagetyp]

I know you don't like to hear language like that but... FUCK... that hits hard. Especially to someone who almost made that one last step as well. There was a highway underneath in my case... Thanks so very much for reacting to songs like this. Loved the reaction!!! P.S. I tried to tell my mom about all this but I just couldn't, I choked... and changed the subject before I even started it. I never talked to her about any kind of emotions, struggles or anything like that because I thought it's a sign of weakness and I wanted to be tough to make her feel safe, to protect her from everything, especially my dad... So there's nothing else to do than... I promise I'm gonna tell her by the end of the week...

[@patriciajohnson9654]

Karole, a mother loves her son no matter what. I have three of my own. She will embrace your strength and your weakness. You are a part of her. Much love and respect to you🤗

[@that_averagetyp]

@@patriciajohnson9654 Thanks, Patti. I know that. I want to take my mask off, I want to show my real self, but... the problem is... I don't really know who the heck am I without that mask... maybe that's the real me and I'm wearing a mask here, in these comments because I finally found someone who I can talk to and I'm scared of loosing you guys... or maybe I'm just overthinking to kinda delay the whole thing... I don't know it anymore... I got lost...

[@patriciajohnson9654]

@@that_averagetyp Won't ever lose us💕💕💕

[@larryshair]

You've got this, my brother. I can tell you that you will feel so much more free and (hopefully) supported. This could take that relationship to new levels. Praying for you my friend.

[@that_averagetyp]

@@larryshair I did it. I told my mom, and I kinda regret it. I told her that I'm dealing with diagnosed depression, that I was taking antidepressants for couple months and I'm going to therapy sessions every week for seven months now. I told her how it started, and pretty much how it went down from there. I told her that I found a friend online who saved my life, gave me the strength to finally ask for help and he is just there to lift me up when I need it the most. I was so proud of myself for finally telling her all that, it took huuuge weight off of my shoulders... and then she replied with something like "ok, we all have problems, thanks for telling me" and changed the subject. She didn't even shed a tear... F**k! that hurt! a lot... What was I expecting... talking about emotions? In our home? Pff... forget it... I went through all this shit for her, I didn't want her to burry her son... guess she wouldn't care after all...

[@mabraarbam]

I think your reaction is beautiful. Thank you so much!

[@larryshair]

Thanks so much!

[@eko4710]

I normally skip over the talk in the beginning (sorry) but the reason this song means so much to me is because i personally knew someone that commited suicide. And when you read rens article and mentioned the Birthday of the friend he‘s singing about my heart sunk because that‘s the death date of the friend i personally knew. Damn.

[@Maverick-lk4ck]

One thing I love and appreciate your reactions is the authentic emotions and the inspiring knowledge you share when you don't have to, majority of reactors are here for the clicks but we see that it's the passion of what music gives you to us all is why you spend the time to do reactions,much appreciated, truly hope you reach the goals and more on this platform

[@larryshair]

Thanks so much for your very kind words!!!

[@derekleffler6742]

He says "Skin felt counterfeit, silicone, rubber" which basically is saying that he felt like he was not himself. He was not comfortable in his own skin.

[@annebiebrich9155]

Great reaction! Ren has a beautiful gift of singing and speaking straight into our hearts and souls!! ❤

[@nurselorie2271]

You really should do freckled Angeles !

[@richardhuff1256]

Great reaction as always. Hoping to see more reactions of Ren. You have just scratched his surface. And he was not exaggerating with the 5 muns thing. He tells the story in his community posts. He got a call from a friend that had been in contact with Joe while he was on the bridge. Ren only lived a 10 minute walk away (he figured he could run it in 5) he threw on clothes and ran while trying to call him. The line was busy he figured that was good because it meant he was still talking to someone. When he got about to the end of the bridge it changed from a busy signal to out of service.... He figures we was about 2 minutes too slow. A heavy weight to bear and let go of..... Seriously though keep going with Ren, you haven't even got to his rap! He has sooooo many songs that I bet my life on you loving them.

[@simonbennett3171]

I wish I could like this more than once!! I loved this reaction to an amazing song. Thank you.

[@larryshair]

Thanks so much! You just did! : )

[@ThaPietjah]

Amazing real reaction as always. Thank you!

[@MalcolmMXTaylor]

A great reaction video, Ren is in a better place more recently, but this is a great message to spread the word about a subject that is so often censored and locked away. It's only through speaking about it that can help to overcome it!!!

[@christina_ellis]

Much love my friend ! Fantastic as usual , thoughtful and sincere. Pause when you want and speak your mind that's what I'm here for. A reaction is so wide and such a spectrum of different kinds of them , I feel like with such a thoughtful reaction like you did can allow pauses whenever you like. Xo!

[@larryshair]

Thanks! 😉

[@m1ccey]

that's what he does, making AI digging deep into human feelings..... ❤ just think about your best friend jumped down a bridge, you're just a little to late and his body was never found so you don't even have the chance to say goodbye.....

[@ronpotts6385]

Amazing song and video. "The treading on the tracks in the nighttime" line got me, because one of my cousins was hit by a train at night nearly 30 years ago. He actually survived, after breaking nearly every bone. He was walking too closely to the train tracks while walking home from a bar, very drunk. The family all assumed it was just an accident, but he would admit years later that he was out there by the train tracks because he wanted to die. He was going through a divorce, and his wife was fighting for full custody of their two toddler-aged children. He's disabled now and unable to work. He doesn't see his children and has been self-medicating for years. He refused all offers to be taken for treatment. He is basically "lost" now; his addictions will claim him one day.

[@ThaPietjah]

Hey Chris, I've got a "new" one from Ren, this is more a fun up beat song from Ren, The song is called, "Losing it (FISHER rap retake)" It is yet an other side of the Majestic Ren.

[@richv.1594]

Chris, this was a hard one to watch . Thank you

[@geralynsteppe5974]

After listening to your closing words, I think you will really appreciate his newest release, For Joe. I loved your reaction. Edited to add that Ren typically posts his song lyrics in the comments section, just fyi so you don't have to struggle to understand.

[@Volintena]

When you come to the end of all your attempts to find a solution to your suffering, you no longer look back, but only to that final act, to make the suffering disappear... #SurvivedSuicide2016 Greetings from Croatia, Sibenik... ps New song => Ren - For Joe (Trilogy in one song)

[@serratedchimera3871]

"I see the world through Fibonacci sequences and double Dutch." Or how I understood it was "I see the world beyond the organized chaos." I'm probably wrong tho but that's how my brain works 😶

[@DGBMenno]

Thank you for the reaction!!!!

[@braydenbuzzetta7351]

Hit deep and so lyrically talented. There’s a song from the UK called Blinded By Your Grace by Stormzy and MNEK. Can you give it a reaction? It’s about the grenfell tower victims in the UK

[@Ianjowett1]

the line after the bruises are my brother, skin feel like silicone rubber , silicone rubber is often used in make ups for film , and plastic surgery , looks like flesh , moves like flesh but has no feeling , its like being numb . im an sfx dude so have experience , and with depression and its a great analogy .

[@sabrinaevans8746]

Both my sons committed suicide last year. There is no other pain like it.

[@stubyles1654]

Yeah Double Dutch is a old rope skipping game that goes back hundreds of years....Dutch immigrants brought it to America in the 1600's.....but it was also used as British slang basically meaning "Gibberish"

[@ikingipapa]

Freckled angels next? Dominoes? Penitence? Crutch? Humble? Runaway? Insomnia? Depression? Fire? Have you done any featuring chinchilla or sam or eden? Have you done the tale of Jenny and screech? Lol sorry there a huge rabbit hole to hop down

[@larryshair]

Thanks for the recommendations! Yes, the Jenny Tale lineup has been done, Chalk Outlines and Hi Ren so far. We'll have to dive into the list you gave little by little. Thanks!

[@UNIONFEATURES]

Accidental Partridge

[@bill2472]

A great compassionate reaction.

[@Mvtobebo]

Just admit its not a cold you were just getting ready for the moment Ren yanks your tears out. It's ok though I cry at something different in his music every time

[@jkoll42]

FYI "Double Dutch" is British slang for gibberish. The fibinacci sequences imho could either be like you said just a never ending complication or it could be that so much he sees in the world revolves around that golden rule

[@iamlpinthe312]

I know Double Dutch as 2 people holding jump ropes with them going in different directions while one person ( or two) jump in.

[@jkoll42]

@@iamlpinthe312 that's correct in the jump rope world but it's also British slang

[@ronnysehackfressecoolman2066]

Love this chanel❤ you should try Jordan - Complete🔥🔥

[@larryshair]

Thanks so much!

[@mldkenny]

Reading the words at the beginning makes such a different to this most touching song, it makes one appreciate the depth and magnitude of seeking help at whatever cost. Total respect for doing the reaction in the way you did.

[@xdaniedx]

In nature the fibonacci sequences logarithmic spiral shows up almost everywhere. The best example is the nautilus shell and it's chambers that spiral almost perfectly to the logarithmic spiral. It can alse be seen in flowers, hurricanes, pinecones, spiral galaxies in space. It can also be seen in the way tree branches form or split. The main trunk will grow until it produces a branch, which creates two growth points. Then, one of the new stems branches into two, while the other one lies dormant. This pattern of branching is repeated for each of the new stems. Double Dutch requires skill, agility, strength, and it encourages creativity, timing and trying to sing on beat. It's actually an excellent workout for brain health too. RIP JOE Hughes, my family and friends and everyone else in the world lost to suicide.

[@IronRaspberry]

“Double Dutch” is also a term for gibberish/nonsense (making it difficult to understand). This is how Ren meant it.

[@cyclops153]

If you are into hard topics, listen to Light in the Hall by Fred Small. He's a favorite artist of mine but I could only listen to this song once. Even if you don't react to this song, do yourself a favor and just listen to it. It is heart wrenching.

[@rog2224]

"Double Dutch" is British idiom for 'gibberish' - so 'Fibonacci Sequences and Double Dutch' probably means the tension between order and chaos.

[@luisrivera3056]

Skin feels counterfeit silicone rubber, is described by the anxiety or depression medication that gives you that out of body feeling...

[@foust71]

I love you man.

[@larryshair]

You too!!

[@Jivansings]

There must be those with whom we can sit down and weep, and still be counted as warriors.

[@larryshair]

SO very well-said.

[@larryshair]

SO very well-said.

[@marloeslaughter8688]

This song was hard to hear the first time, and it continues to be hard even now… I knew this would get to you, because it gets to everyone Gotta suggest Popular Monster by Falling in Reverse and hope that one day you may get to it!

[@user-dy7bv4he2d]

I know this is a 4 months old, but Lyme disease can cause purging.

[@rudyb.]

Beautiful song and tribute to his friend Joe. I know Joe singing at the top of his lungs to REN’s songs now. RIP.

[@MsMegF]

Double ditch in Britain is basically just nonsensical words from what I understand.

[@MsMegF]

Double dutch not ditch!

[@testpattern23]

I was siting and sleeping beside my little sister's bed in 2006 while I tried to protect her...I couldn't and I was in Seattle when she got really sick, by the time I was able to make it back to the family she was already in hospice, and she lit up when I entered the room, we always had a special connection.

[@larryshair]

It’s such an incredible blessing to be able to appreciate those moments. We take much to much for granted. Those moments like you had with your sister is what makes life so full. Blessings my friend.

[@cas9065]

you are right.

[@notquitehuman7402]

Oh shit im about to see you cry..

[@larryshair]

lol, right?

[@gmourareis]

greetings from Brazil!!! ❤️🇧🇷❤️

[@larryshair]

Greetings!

[@adancer3592]

In respect for a artist who doesn't restrict usage Why not respecting the music and how it was intended to be seen . Pause and analyze after you watch it .

[@analisasmith7927]

Double Dutch means gibberish - you can’t understand it - so… order and chaos? (The skipping thing is American).

[@kevinsattler6603]

Besides being a jump rope game. Double Dutch means means gibberish. Something that you can't understand. Peace ✌️

[@lauramorris7843]

In the UK, double dutch just means gibberish. Xxx

[@Shadowking2175]

Double dutch is a british term for gibberish

[@multieyedmyr]

Double Dutch is slang for gibberish.

[@Ianjowett1]

in theat context double dutch is a uk term meaning words that dont make sense

[@jeremyEasley-kc6wz]

KASEY CHAMBERS CAPITALIZING,,, Eminem cover lose yourself

[@philflynn9161]

❤

[@Haffelpaff]

For gods sake please listen at least to "sick boi" from Ren too, but since you are in to Eminem and Rap really every song he released since hi Ren will surely be something you like

[@kaynesheldon4905]

That sickboi stuff is from another song he has out called sickboi hahaha

[@Tomvaneester]

why hold it ? emotions are true. i cant listen to this so,g without cryng. i heard it at least 100 times. evety time. every. time.

[@adriandospia9452]

❤❤❤

[@ChristbaitRising]

❤

[@kathybrown6763]

❤😔

[@Only.The.Best.]

Do Twisted-Skylar Grey Ft. EMINEM, Yelawolf

[@rveino2978]

👍🔥🤟

[@belindamelville2270]

❤😢😢😢❤

[@Codex7777]

I'd recommend letting an artist at least finish a line before pausing. I know you mean well but you killed the flow and emotional build of this very personal song. Listening to a song in a series of cut up and often repeated, 2 second chunks, isn't necessarily the best way to hear/feel a song for the first time. Not every lric has to be paused and repeated, or analysed to death. Especially for a track like this. The meaning, even in the poetic and metaphorical parts, is pretty clear. How anyone can pause during that final section, on a first listen, is beyond me... Letting it run before picking it to pieces, would have been more respectful.

[@Codex7777]

The patronising advice, to Ren, at the end was particularly galling. Do you think he's too stupid to understand these things? Good grief!

[@larryshair]

You're missing something. I would recommend you try a few reactions with letting it run through without pausing and let's get out a stop watch and see how quickly YT will either block your video or worse, give you a strike and you lose your channel. You game?

[@puppenbuhnebauchkribbeln1183]

🥹🙏🏼

[@carleto35476]

Hahahaha making that appointment? If you have health insurance lmao I like your videos but this country is fucked because we only take care of the rich

[@flightlessbird1892]

Take a shot every time he pauses Love ur reactions but this was way to many pauses (not talking about the end part)

[@Hope-cm8fb]

Larry - Thank You so much 🥹🥹🥹🍀💚. Today I watched again all Your reaction to Ren❤. Ren & Aurora are beautifil, young, clever, unique, human. So different and so similar 🥹🥹. Sensitive Souls🤍🤍

[@larryshair]

They are definitely souls!

[@Hope-cm8fb]

@@larryshair ♥️♥️ yessss😊

[@jessmichaels1973]

❤