Rest In Peace, Sweet Sebastian | Stillborn At 37 Weeks

Ben talks with Lee about his son Sebastian, who passed away as a stillborn baby boy. Ben talks about the anticipation of getting the nursery ready for the arrival of little Sebastian. Ben talks about when they found out Sebastian didn't have a heartbeat at a check up the day before their scheduled cesarean. Ben talks about the help they received from family and neighbors and the help that it was.
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[@donnamorgan2522]

Sebastian looked so much like his Daddy. It’s incredibly sad. We all need to grieve our OWN way.

[@milomoore9450]

Thank you for letting us meet your son Sebastian. We are honored. Ms. M. Moore 🇺🇸

[@katleighc]

I’m glad I found you. This is a lonely walk. Thank you all for being brave.

[@Brianne-kr4ks]

nicely said!

[@juliefreeman4199]

Oh wow, Sebastian looks just like his daddy!!! So very sorry for y’alls loss. He was a beautiful baby. 😢 I lost a baby at about 8 weeks and I know what that did to me. I cannot imagine losing one at full term. My prayers are with you that God will comfort and give you peace and strength. 🙏🏻

[@lirpa1981]

He was precious he looked so much like daddy.

[@lindah1591]

Born silently into the hands of God. Keeping you in my heart at this time.

[@libbysevicke-jones3160]

My first granddaughter was still born, her death broke our hearts. However her loss has made each additional birth so precious. She has two very energetic younger brothers, and cousins. Missed but never forgotten.

[@kimtillman5683]

by the way,so sorry for the tremendous loss of Sebastian 🧸

[@Benzif]

Thanks again Lee and Winter for having me on your podcast.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you for share with us all your dear Sebastian

[@celljrperfectform2002]

I am so sorry my heart goes out to you and your family❤❤

[@lg8159]

So so sorry for your lost ❤

[@taniamonaghan2489]

I’m so happy that they got to take so many photos of their son,he may of been stillborn but he was still their son.

[@novasoto5092]

So sad to hear these two dad's talk so loving about their prescious son's 💙💙💔

[@patriciaevans5906]

Thank you for sharing your beautiful son with us….a precious gift.

[@nickylee1408]

Sorry for your loss,your baby is so beautiful, rip Sebastian 🙏.

[@jessicawilson2772]

I am so very sorry for your loss. I knew clicking on this video would result in tears, but my tears are nothing compared to the ones you & yours have shed. I can't imagine the heartache you feel. I just wanted you to know there is one more person out here (amongst the rest that have commented) that cares. Sending you so much love! ❤

[@melissacamarillo4767]

He's beautiful

[@wowzatrishiebunz]

Sebastian is so loved and I know he feels his parents love.

[@shirleyanneyoung955]

I’m so sorry for you and your wife’s loss. He’s such a beautiful boy and will be lighting up Heaven.

[@tammytellez3481]

I’m so sorry for the loss of your precious baby boy,may God hold you in his arms forever… I just love that you men(Dads) are talking about the loss,men hurt too… You both are helping so many others dealing with loss also.. God bless you all..

[@carolbraswell4488]

Listening to a dad's journey through the loss and emotions was really nice to hear! I wish more dad's would share their story. Thank you, Ben, for sharing Sébastin with us! His soul is never far ❤

[@joyrees7966]

I am a retired labor and delivery nurse and the sad part of my job was to help to deliver stillborn babies and having to speak to the family

[@GJNeb]

Me too. It was so difficult. I really wish I could have had videos like this to enable me to better care for these parents and families.

[@christinawetherby3991]

I had to have my daughters when I took a bad fall down a fight of stairs. It was so heart breaking to grieve for one child while trying to be happy for the birth of my other daughter. The most amazing people were there to help me thru a time I felt so lost in. The only way I can describe it was like I was in this background watching everything from another place. I don’t even know what I said and what I did it’s such a blur. I’m thankful for the Drs 1000%all the nurses. Y’all are trained so well at the things no one should have to see. You guys are truest amazing. I was shown that it was ok to grieve and it was ok to be happy and thankful for the birth of my other daughter. ok to feel because I was so truly. Every yr we celebrate 2 lives. But we also take the time every yr to grieve.

[@kimtillman5683]

so sorry for the tremendous loss of Sebastian 🧸

[@craf-Tpeep]

I'm a trained RTS coordinator and loved the L&D nurses were trained and we comforted the whole family together.

[@julieknight7507]

Much love to this family. I cannot imagine the pain you endured. 💝

[@leorabenjack3877]

I lost my so 3 days after having him itsbeen 44years and He's alwYs here❤

[@SerenDipity64711]

Sebastian is so precious and beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss. Your photos and story need to be seen and told. He was, and is loved💙 🧸

[@kathholbrook8588]

Beautiful baby boy! Forever in your hearts forever in our memories and forever in our lives it’s just so sad we cannot watch them grow and enjoy watching live a life. My heart goes out to you both 😘xx

[@elizvan5758]

Your sweet little boy's life made an impact on the world and in our hearts. Life is so precious and meaningful...that's the take away. Every life is precious and impactful...nothing is wasted. His life was meaningful. God be with you during this difficult time.

[@susanthompson3755]

What a beautiful but very sad story. You and Paige r amazing. 💖💞

[@Bethlam]

I think it’s a beautiful moment in a very dark time when there are pictures taken with your heavenly baby. Like you said this is the only chance to capture moments with your baby. This might sound harsh but it’s almost like you want proof the baby existed.

[@lorileewalters2018]

He’s beautiful and perfect, Love, hugs and prayers to, I’m so sorry for your loss, I can’t even imagine, RIP sweet Angel🥰🙏🏼💙🫶🏼✝️🕊️☮️❣️❣️❣️❣️

[@darlenewillbrandt1628]

Thank you for sharing your story. Your son will always be with you. I am glad you both go to support meetings. I wish that it was available when I lost my daughter's so many years ago. I hold them deep in my soul and heart.

[@patbowman6723]

Learning the story of Sebastion he will now be in my heart forever.

[@wishingyoupeace]

Sebastian is adorable. 😢 I’m so sorry.

[@user-mg9iz8xf4w]

Very very precious! Thank you all and God Bless ❤

[@gillianlaing1073]

So sad, I had a miscarriage & I still cry about it,every anniversary

[@GJNeb]

This was so real and raw. And beautifully heartfelt. Thank you for sharing.

[@megtaylor1027]

I think having the Dads speak is wonderful as well. I am so very sorry for your loss and God bless

[@beepruett7776]

precious baby, thank you for sharing your story.

[@jackierobinson7991]

I lost my first baby at 38 and a half weeks. I know your pain. My prayers are with you. May God bless you.

[@maxineb9598]

When I was 19, many many moons ago, I gave birth to a daughter at 32 weeks. Due to serious problems with blood pressure, I was heavily sedated. A week after giving birth, they took me off the large amount of valium I had been given for a week. At the same time my mother told me the baby had died several days before. She also told me at the same time the funeral had already taken place and the ashes scattered. At 19, it was pretty horrific having to register both birth and death at the same time. It wasnt till 25 years later and I saw my hospital records was I able to grieve. uneral had already been done. How many give birth to a baby they never saw or held? It was decades prior to hospitals taking photos in similar circumstances?

[@jennyyy78]

I'm so sorry for your loss 🙏

[@kimtillman5683]

By the way,so sorry for the great sadness the parents must be feeling for the loss of there beautiful baby Sebastian 🧸

[@ChRiStY4t5]

For anyone but you to scatter those ashes is heart breaking. They should've waited for you to be able to do it.

[@nikkibb1998]

I’m so sorry for your loss. I loss my baby at 14wks . I never got to see my daughters’s little face or features due to having a DNC and I was hysterical from the loss. I still miss my Poppy girl😢😢

[@saramarshall2957]

He's beautiful. I'm so very sorry for your loss of Sebastian on earth. I can only imagine your grief. I pray for your family's continued strength and for whatever healing is possible

[@tamaragray4986]

I am soooo Sorry for Your Loss!! My prayers are with You!! Hugs and more Hugs!

[@Travis.scurts]

Thank you Jesus! that we’ll see our babies again

[@catherineblewett6554]

Such a perfect baby, such utter heartbreak for mummy and daddy xxx

[@Brianne-kr4ks]

beautiful boy! Im so sorry for your loss.

[@mlaurynn8567]

God bless this beautiful Angel. My BFF had a stillborn son back in the 70’s. It was horrifying. A year later, she gave birth to my healthy god daughter. It is something you never forget. RIP beautiful, precious Sebastian. God speed💜🙏🏻

[@user-px1vz7gr9n]

He is such a beautiful big boy.

[@margaretconnery7422]

My sister had a still birth 36 yrs ago and still has memories of her baby boy..A year later they had a baby daughter Laura.Hoping you have another bundle of joy to help fill that Gap in the day's that lie ahead.

[@karifredrikson-lr1mm]

I’m so sorry. He is beautiful.

[@stargarcia3]

You & your wife are in my prayers 🙏🏻✝️

[@lyndaward5179]

You are so brave your baby boy was was so beautiful

[@melissakalson1179]

What a beautiful channel. I lost a beautiful baby grandson to stillbirth when my daughter-in-law was just about a month away from his delivery date when they found he had no heartbeat. He did have significant disabilities that were according to the autopsy, 'incompatible with life'. God bless you all.

[@destinyfaith6476]

Gorgeous baby boy ❤💙💙 im so so so sorry for your loss...he is a beautiful sweet angel now always with you ❤😇💖💜

[@annsmith4739]

So sorry for your loss of your beautiful baby god bless 🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@lindabishop7266]

So so sorry for your loss of your beautiful baby I lost my son at 40 weeks Matthew I think of him everyday he should have been 36 next march u will always think of your baby everyday sending u all my love xxxxxx

[@debbiederosier1591]

I just can’t imagine your pain from just a horrible loss 😢

[@lj9524]

So very sorry for the passing of baby Sebastian💔 Your heartache is unimaginable. God bless you all🙏🌹

[@kellyfostercash8026]

Sorry for your loss, 😢 RIP Sebastian Gray and Bless your Heart❤, prayer's for you and your family!

[@lelabarlow4260]

Lee, your a good daddy. God Bless you both!

[@mimi0424]

This was recommended for viewing. I'm so sorry you have experienced this sad event. Ironically I was going to name our first son Sébastien. Nothing I can say will take this away. I pray you are blessed w many more children ❤

[@christinem.carter-wanner5304]

God bless this family

[@erdozainphoto4815]

Thank you for sharing your story with us. I’m so sorry for the pain you endure. 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@vickythefist7062]

He looks so like his dad .im so sorry .he was perfect😢

[@monarchkind69]

Manuel was 37 weeks also stillborn 28 years ago always with you ❤ all my love to you all

[@CountryChloDoh]

So sorry for your loss. To perfect for earth but I wish all our babies would be spared.

[@darilynlightner7258]

I am so sorry for your loss. I am thankful you have the opportunity to talk and are doing so. Your little guy is precious and he will always be a part of your family. The time you shared together is so important. So different from long days past. My mother delivered twins prematurely ( unexpectedly) and they lived for a day, but doctors never allowed her to see them, alive or even after they were gone. She always regretted she could not hug and kiss them. But she is now with them. I pray strength for your journey and may love draw you closer together. Little Sabastian looks like his dad. God be with you.

[@leoniegoodwin5068]

This is so touching. I was blessed to have 5 children, who I carried to term. I have never had a miscarriage or lost a baby, but I can imagine that it would be one of the hardest experiences that you could go through. I think it is important to talk about this experience, because I think it would help others a lot, especially when they are going through the same thing. I think that Lee is brave to share all his feelings and emotions. Thank you for sharing this incredibly sad and emotional experience. Much love to the family💔❤

[@Elisa.666]

Wishing you all the best from the bottom of my heart 🥺 Me as a new mum of a 5 month old little son feels your pain so much.. I'm crying right now... Please keep up your strength and resilience.. I feel deep respect for you

[@normagrant2946]

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful little boy. Your story had me in tears. I cannot imagine going through what you and Paige had to endure. I can tell that God has given both of you strength through your journey & sharing the love you had for him. Sebastin will always be in your hearts. My love goes out to you and Paige & I am praying for you and your family.

[@valerienelson3296]

What a beautiful boy. I cant imagine life going so perfectly new house new life about to start and then this tragedy. ❤ Until watching this chanel and having 3 easy births I didn't realize the TRUE miracle this is. I saw another couple on here who captured their babys scent. Its such a amazing way to remember. Something different but tragic happened to my child and U still can not believe the sound that came out of me. Its like our true soul screaming out in pain to the universe. I am usually quite reserved so was surprised myself. It's so nice that you created so many memories and had such amazing support. You know if you got through this, you 2 can get through anything life throws at you.❤ I love hearing the fathers side. Thank you for sharing Sebastians beautiful life with us.❤

[@donnamorgan2522]

Thank you so much for sharing Sebastian here-I love the idea he is swimming with the Turtles❤

[@kowalchukm]

You are so strong for sharing your story. God bless your family and I am devastated to hear of your loss

[@anitavalentine4479]

Sorry that you lost your baby boy it must be very hard he never had a life on earth but he well have a great life in heaven and he will be waiting for you with his arms open for a big cuddle

[@jeanlewis7379]

I'm so sorry for ur loss of your precious baby boy.❤ from u.k.

[@coreenaburke5378]

He was a perfect beautiful boy!

[@2115virgo13]

I’m sorry! Rip little man!

[@user-vx4vf3pl2c]

Thankyou for your sensativity and compassion throughout your podcast. So sorry you had such a loss. And oh boy did he look like his daddy. Rip Sabastion. What a beautifull boy.❤.

[@SusanHunter-d5e]

I am so sorry for your loss!. 🫂🫂🫂🫂

[@user-km6ky8zi7e]

So sorry for your loss rest in peace baby boy

[@deborahchapel3938]

My heart goes out to the family I had a full term stillborn on Dec 19 and my birthday was the 22 in 1991

[@1WVaMomma]

My story is very similar and my daughter was stillborn at 40 weeks. 8 lbs. 4 oz. Beautiful Wendy Ann. 8/3/79

[@shirleyanneyoung955]

I’m so sorry for your loss. RIP Wendy Ann.

[@standup2982]

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your daughter, Wendy 💜

[@kimtillman5683]

so sorry for the tremendous loss of Sebastian 🧸

[@CountryChloDoh]

Rest in paradise Wendy Ann ❤

[@dianepiatt5503]

And he is absolutely gorgeous! I am so sorry! Have faith! You will see him again. For now, God cares for all of you. I somewhat know your grief. No one can really know, but my twin sister has lost three of her four children. God bless you and yours. Precious memories! Many Hugs and Love! ❤️. Praying for all good things in your future! ❤️. God sees you! ❤️

[@coolestgrammyintown5598]

He’s Beautiful!! RIPSebastian!

[@jacks316]

RIP Sebastian I am so sorry for your loss Bless you

[@user-bw1dv3iq9x]

Beautiful perfect baby boy.

[@shilohivy4590]

I am so so sorry. I can’t imagine this.

[@tracy4019]

I delivered a stillborn as well. It’s something I do t wish this on any mom. Prayers for you all.

[@420beachlover]

I’m so sad to hear this news ❤👼🏻❤ Lots of love to you both ❤❤❤❤❤

[@mamabear8555]

Absolutely gorgeous! ❤🙏

[@chrisshowering7357]

So sad for you and your family, Sebastian looked a beautiful baby. I'm so sorry for your sad loss may he rest in eternal peace and may God's love envelop you both.

[@joannedibben2352]

What a beautifull baby im so very sorry❤

[@maureenstanzione339]

So very sorry for your loss May deepest heartfelt Condolences May God Wrap his Loving Arms Around You and your family and Loved Ones during this very Sad and difficult time..Sending Prayers for you and Your Precious baby boy One of Gods Most Precious Angels.. Rest in Peace Sweet Baby Boy..🩵🦋🙏🏼🦋🩵🌹

[@roxanneherrman2107]

God bless you. You are a very strong couple

[@scratchy1704]

Sorry for your loss 🕊🙏🌹✝️.Our 1st baby,a girl was stillborn at 32 weeks. I had pre eclampsia and nearly died also.💔

[@angiewilliams10]

He’s absolutely beautiful! I am so sorry for your loss 😢

[@kcpoodlesofpa]

My heart goes out to your family

[@Daniela-Christianson]

He's a beautiful baby

[@katebaxter1160]

So so sorry about Sebastian. He is a beautiful baby. We lost our second daughter , not to stillbirth but to cot death when she was fifteen months old. Life moves you forward when you feel you can’t take another step. Losing a child is the most heartbreaking and horrifying event to go through. You seem a great guy with a lovely wife. I do hope one day you have your third baby alive and well in your arms. You so deserve it and will be exceptional parents. Sharing your sad story will def help other people. It helps you feel there is some good to come out of it all. Take care and all the best for the future. Xx

[@gigitonsvajv]

What is cot death?

[@katebaxter1160]

@@gigitonsvajv hi. Cot death is the very sudden death of an apparently normal and healthy baby/child or young adult. Often they are found like our daughter, in the night in their cot or bed and have died in their sleep. Cot death can happen in baby carriers and other cribs during the day too. There have been incidences of babies passing away whilst been driven in their car seats although it is more unusual. After they die there is a thorough and extensive post mortem to try and find out if there are reasons the baby/child died suddenly and unexpectedly. In our daughters case they could find absolutely no reason. Which is incredibly hard to live with and accept. We put her to sleep in her cot as normal and within an hour she had died. It was and is horrifying,devastating and very hard to come to terms with. We had a five year old at the time and we got up each day to care for her and see to her needs.

[@cindyevans3214]

God Bless you 🙏.My sister was a still born and I know she is in the glory with my parents her name is SanJuanita . ❤🙏

[@junemiller9718]

Rest in peace sweet Angel.

[@NewfieGrandmaCreates]

So sorry for your loss.

[@catrionamartin-hp9hz]

Im glad your family was there Mom help u out at this sad moment😢This is soo hard on u two and grandma to😢 this breaks my heart exspeacial during covid ❤

[@jackierobinson7991]

My baby boy was dead about a week so he was not perfect looking. But i got pictures of him. I got to hold him. I had to deliver natural.. i had him at an air force base. . My heart aches for you. The ambicle had wrapped around his neck. May god bless you.