Return To Sender [Explicit Lyrics] - LuLuYam Official Song and Visualizer

⚠️⚠️⚠️SMALL WARNING FOR SLIGHT FLASHING IMAGERY⚠️⚠️⚠️
A song centered around themes of: alcohol abuse, the fear of repeating your parents mistakes, and the fight to overcome those woes.
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Song written, produced and performed by LuLuYam
Visualizer video and art produced by LuLuYam
HUGE thank you to my patrons who are listed at the end of the video!
Lyrics:
I am not the mirror image of a she beast.
I am not your competition, or your enemy.
Gonna poison all your memories with hennessy?
Go on, do it, it's a temporary remedy.
I been f****n up my mind with the liquor.
Nothing makes it better quicker.
Nothing makes my body sicker.
Gagging on regret, vomit in the s*****r.
Hangover, heavy hitter.
I don't like it when I'm bitter, BUT-
you making it hazy, don't shame me.
Hypocrites always be saying the same things.
Do as I say, and not as I do.
Everything you deflect, comes right back to you!
Don't you ever compare us, you serious?
You're delusional, fucking delirious!
Bet your ass I'm a toxic experience.
Learned from the worst!
Don't you dare act oblivious!
Oooh you shoulda never let me go.
I've taken all this time to grow.
Now everybody's gonna know!
PUMP THE SHOTGUN, BITCH!
You said I'm f*****g crazy.
You hate me when I'm angry?
I'm just the way you made me.
Take that s**t back, return to sender!
I ain't your f*****g baby.
It ain't no if or maybe!
No love could ever save me.
TAKE THAT S**T BACK, RETURN TO SENDER!
Na na na na na na na na na na!
I am not a puppet, I'm original.
You can't handle that I'm an individual.
Mirror image, reversed. Yeah, ya tongue tied.
Seen ya organs, you're ugly on the inside.
Cut you up, blood and guts, spit ya out.
Talkin' ill, on my name, word of mouth.
I rise high, I go North. Ya runnin' South.
Say what ya want, do what you must.
It's over now.
Hit you up in the mind, you're a lobotomite.
Liquor breath in the breeze, I lost my appetite.
Apple far from the tree? I never took a bite.
Don't make me act on spite, because I just might.
I don't f**k with the vodka no more! (no more)
Had the sins of my mother at my front door.
Take a look in my eyes, constantly at war.
I don't know who she is. Rotten to the core.
And you can tell em what you want to.
Ain't a threat to me, I could never fear you.
Clean the blood out my brain with the shampoo.
Lick the pain from the wound. Gotta cut through.
Hah? Whatcha callin' out my name for?
Cut the cord bitch, you don't know me anymore.
Boot you out of my mind, make your ass sore.
I get better with time, like pinot noir.
You said I'm f*****g crazy.
You hate me when I'm angry?
I'm just the way you made me.
Take that s**t back, return to sender!
I ain't your f*****g baby.
It ain't no if or maybe!
No love could ever save me.
TAKE THAT S**T BACK, RETURN TO SENDER!
Na na na na na na na na na na!
Oooh you shoulda never let me go.
I've taken all this time to grow.
Now everybody's gonna know!
PUMP THE SHOTGUN, BITCH!
You said I'm f*****g crazy.
You hate me when I'm angry?
I'm just the way you made me.
Take that s**t back, return to sender!
I ain't your f*****g baby.
It ain't no if or maybe!
No love could ever save me.
TAKE THAT S**T BACK, RETURN TO SENDER!

[@luluyam_music]

Thank you for streaming my work and keeping me afloat. The love you've all shown me over the last year and a half has been tremendous. I feel undeserving of it, but I appreciate it nonetheless. I have far more planned in the future and will be trying new styles of visualizers after this one. That, and possible actual music videos. Thank you all so much. Don't forget to comment and subscribe if you can!

[@OogaboogaTeehee-ho3nv]

Omg possible actual videos? I can't wait, your work is fantastic :3

[@REBOOTWALLYEDITZ_LOVESYOU]

>:3 I already love the song so freakin much.. your so talented >:³

[@Chr0n1cally_0nl1ne]

I love your workk!!!

[@Anti-Villain25]

Love your music, great stuff! Don't stop, keep going! 😄🎶

[@GoreHeart]

YOO I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT YOU COOK UP

[@PS1DemoDisk]

WE TURNING THE TABLES ON OUR ABUSIVE PARENTS WITH THIS ONE 🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥🔥‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

[@M00N.CH1ILD]

WE RETURNING TO SENDER WITH THIS ONE 🗣️🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥‼️‼️‼️

[@midgegc]

Indeed

[@Emberswildwolfers]

YEAHHH

[@IBanshees]

YESSSSS

[@Teetfs4Dayz]

YUHHH

[@Who-am-I-anymore]

YASS

[@Teetfs4Dayz]

"babe what about our date-?" NOT NOW BBG! NEW LULUYAM SONG JUST DROPPED!!!!

[@chasethemaster3440]

The date shall be listening to the song

[@Auledls669]

​@@chasethemaster3440 real

[@magicalgothgirl666]

Artwork is fucking phenomenal, the heart and soul that was poured into this can be felt with every lyric and beat. As someone who was raised by a narcissistic alcoholic, I resonate with the anger.

[@yourfundy]

babe wake up new luluyam song dropping

[@hydri0t191]

No im sleeep

[@toastingbeans]

@@hydri0t191you’re sleep? 😰😰

[@LordWeems]

Your ability to utilize metaphors in conjunction with the rhyme scheme is SO fascinating and satisfying Like "I get better with time like pinot noir", not only distancing the self from a generational curse, but equating said self with something that was desired and overconsumed, with maybe something underlying about *wanting* to be wanted again but knowing in the end it won't happen + it'll end up bad for them both Maybe even something about how the alcoholism has rotted the False Faced figure's mind things HAVE to be told through the lense of a bottle or else the metaphor wouldn't connect, like its all they care about. Another piece of this I enjoy is the art itself. The barbed wire puppet strings, the False Face on the other figure representing a facade of being put-together, the way they swap places, showing how manipulation and abuse can repeat and warp and change hands on a whim. Especially the part with the umbilical cord being pulled out from the throat to be cut off?? Holy SHIT!!!!! Even the way the blood and the toxic sludge are the same colors most often like its impossible to tell which ones which, like the poison runs so deep it's basically lifeblood. It seems as though our master of bad influences is also trying to push some sort of retaliation, or at least get *help* in the retaliation, likely wanting others to share in the experience or this could be easily read as an antithesis to "group therapy". "Group Retaliation", catching a bitch like Julius Ceaser and giving em the Ole Ides of March treatment so no one can say they're alone *or* innocent It's delicious, it's full of "traumatize them back" rage, and a fun listen. I even can throw in a character playlist of mine, and as a writer let me tell you that's a high place of honor. But as someone who's entire family is struck with a similar abuse cycle, my god does this song make me feel less insecure in my wrath and my desire to do unto them what was done unto me. It's not a great idea, but it'd probably fix me lmao I'm eating this song whole like a chicken parm and I'm going for as many plates as I can walk away with heho

[@Asp3nDrawz]

FR IM EATING THIS LIKE SOME GOOD-ASS CUP RAMEN

[@Gate_Of_Gluttony]

People will look at a piece of art and go "it's not that deep" bitch yes it is just look at this breakdown

[@vieoeiI]

YOU WORDED THIS PERFECTLY.

[@MrVentches]

what stuck with me is the part with "no love could ever save me, take that shit, return to sender", how nice they act, expecially after you get out of their range.

[@Pumkin_748]

Hello, Luluyam. I want to say that your songs have made a huge contribution to my life. They help me to exist and also to fight for my life, to go through difficult moments. I suffer from Bipolar personality disorder and have had experience with alcoholism in my family. These songs help me a lot, I love your work. Thank you!

[@CDsCartoons]

We have another hit folks! The beat is so catchy, and your voice at "Oh..." is so beautiful! Time to loop this on Spotify. I won't be returning this banger!

[@feh_x3]

ALL NIGHTER GANG LET’S GOOOOO

[@Skeppyghjo]

LETS GOOO

[@urgurl_elli]

HEREEE

[@s4mj4ms]

TAKE THAT SHIT BACK RETURN TO SENDER‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️🗣️🗣️🔥

[@lukanight666]

The part with "oooh,you've shouldn't never let me go" makes me feel goosebumps This song is LITERAL FIRE

[@TheDJWolfie]

"Had the sins of my mother at my front door." Damn, idk why, but that one just hit me and sent shivers down my spine. This was so damn amazing Mother Roach! So good and so deep! I'm happy to see you grow and happy that I was recommended to you! I'm glad I get to be here! Hope your doing well, keep going head strong! 🪳🪳🪳❤️❤️❤️

[@bbqreal]

Same, that specific line hits hard for me

[@ari_artwork]

luluyam is probably going to be on my top listening too on Spotify this year

[@xanderormak5419]

SAME

[@princekat8915]

I always love how intense your voice is. It somehow makes the message of the song hit that much harder in my brain. My brother, friends, and I will be jamming to this for a while

[@Nekoy1n]

GOD i dont know what it is about luluyam's music that is just a feast for my ears but every single song is just so good and easily becomes a brainworm

[@leecoffill8425]

I'm so sorry you had to deal with that horrible woman. No one should have to. But honestly this is so fucking awesome, and I'm glad you've been able to channel all that bullshit into something both so genuinely fun to listen to and cathartic at the same time. Keep making music, every bop makes the world a little better for people who recognize it.

[@pixiehellpup1579]

My abusive mom has been hexing me for leaving her and this couldn’t have come at a better time. It’s so on point and powerful. I love the coincidence of upload and timing XD I got obsessed with the roach song a while ago and I’m so in love with this

[@trashcat3474]

I love how they say "return to sender." It itches my brain (:

[@axovrity]

TAKE THAT S**T BACK, RETURN TO SENDER! BEST FUCKING LINE OF THE DECADE !!!!

[@midgegc]

So true

[@axovrity]

Please stop liking this comment. I don't like this person and what they do. And what their capable of.

[@calico-cat7786]

@@axovrity?

[@chasethemaster3440]

@@axovrityhuh

[@The-Official-Venti]

@@axovritywho???

[@CharlieSephy0137]

Can't wait to listen to this over and over again

[@ari_artwork]

Fr

[@chasethemaster3440]

Real

[@KrispieQween_official]

TAKE THAT SHIT BACK RETURN TO SENDER🔥🔥🔥

[@thatoneyounganimator6745]

YUH

[@Dradoptme23]

Thank you so much for this song. My father is a past alcoholic and used to throw things and scream all the time. I think he even threw a glass at me once. He's gotten so much better since then, and I'm proud of him, but the pain he's caused me will always linger. I'll always be scared of him deep down. I relate to this song so much. Thank you

[@cyaneyedd]

WE GETTIN OUTTA THE MORTAL COIL WITH THIS ONE 🗣️🗣️‼️‼️

[@henchmen1022]

Here at the premiere gang 👇

[@crunchyboi5235]

Every song Luluyam releases gets better than the last omg🙏🔥🔥🔥

[@keyarthieus216]

The bass shook my earbuds I love this

[@NariNon]

I just got this in my recommendations and oh my god I LOVE THIS??? ITS GOOD???

[@chasethemaster3440]

The algorithm has blessed ye

[@Void_TheDemon]

I didn't expect the song to come out so soon, I thought I would have to wait longer for it but I'm pleasantly suprised! Now on to the actual song, the lyrics and beat/instrumentals are amazing and as usual the art is also really good! You did a fantastic job

[@LiminalTime1983b]

I've been anticipating this since day 1 cause it's just banger after banger loving it!

[@Peachesisgummy]

Your music always slaps so hard! I've never been so hype when I see a song being made.

[@angeldust6437]

WE NEED THIS ON LOOP.

[@sirenisaking8270]

Ok so I love the fact that Lucinda makes it so the her persona lulu helps her off her mom and help her. I love it

[@luluyam_music]

UHHH LuLu helps Lucelia*** just a small correction. LuLu isn't the main character, funny enough, haha.

[@sirenisaking8270]

@@luluyam_music yeah I know that/gen

[@Wh0s_Aa1i]

RETURN TO SENDER 🙏‼️🗣️💯💥🔥

[@ElbyHere]

Spotify recommended Roaches to me last month, and I fell in love with your works pretty much immediately. I adore the crazed and dark vibes combined with the earnest and vulnerable themes; you've quickly become a contender for my favorite musician, so it's cool to see a new release from you as it comes out!

[@-candycaneprices-7289]

I’m so glad my brother introduced me to your music, he got me to listen to “Sympathy”, I was put off at first cause he didn’t specify that it was from a survivors POV but I absolutely loved it after listening to it, I ended up saving it to a bunch of my playlists. I freaking love this one to!

[@chasethemaster3440]

W brother

[@Snoozetheloser]

WE'RE STAYING UP ALL NIGHT LISTENING TO THIS BANGER!!!

[@Choshako]

Daayum, this song totally encapsulates with the lyrics and visuals how it can feel to hate your mom so much that you start having violent fantasies about them. This took a lotta balls to put out there, Yammy, good on you! My personal fav lyric is "I ain't your fuckin' baby!"

[@Azrila_The_Reaper]

Im pulling an all nighter for this one...

[@kinnikoafton9098]

OKAY THIS IS BY FAR MY FAVORITE LULUYAM SONG HOLY SHIT. I LOVE THIS SONG. IM SO HAPPY MY BOYFRIEND INTRODUCED ME TO YOU. OH MY GOD WHEN I WOKE UP AND SAW IT RELEASED MY KNEES BUCKLED I WAS ALREADY SO EXCITED AND NOW I LOVE THIS SONG EVEN MORE. I LISTENED TO THE SMALL CLIP OVER AND OVER I WAS SO EXCITED! I LOVE YOUR MUSIC AND KEEP UP THE WORK! ITS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL AND YOU ARE APART OF WHY I WENT BACK TO ANIMATING! (ALSO IF YOU SEE THIS MR. SIR, I LOVE YOU AND THANK YOU FOR INTRODUCING ME TO SUCH AN ICON AND AMAZING PERSON.)

[@muffinmuffin8946]

Why do all your songs just go so hard? Ive never listened to a whole artists songs before, but ive listened and saved all of yours, its so nice, banger after banger

[@mushroom7451]

your music makes me feel so empowered and understood. thank you for all of this, been a huge fan since roaches first got recommended to me! i honestly can't wait to see what you will make in the future

[@evangelinespirit5265]

Dude, switch the mom with a dad and you’ve got my family 😂 Love your music ❤

[@KateMcKendry-ed3zk]

Luluyam, you’re probably never gonna see this but.. you have changed my life. Your music has gotten me out of a bad mental state just by listening to them, for me music is everything, and just hearing songs that I listen to daily and relate to so much just… helps. Thank you so much for everything. Keep doing what you do best!! ❤❤❤

[@bulianik]

This reminds me how my parents were at my childhood Now they're good, I don't remember much how they were, but this song just vibes with our relationships back then so much Also the line "I'm not a puppet im an individual", i felt this so much, thank you for the song, i love your songs! And the "you say im f-ing crazy, you hate me when im angry that's what the way you made me" ITS SO RELATABLE, i was called crazy cuz of my angriness not a long time ago, but thinking of the reason of that.. yeah, so relatable And even the name of the song, even though I don't really remember my childhood, sometimes i wanna return to senders the angriness and fear they made me feel.. and the other feelings too (i know they did good things too, but thats not the theme of the song)

[@Streberriezz]

LULUYAM ALWAYS MAKING BANGERS 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

[@thatunstableFJ]

ARGH, I MISSED IT??? DARN! Still, going to be amazing 🤩🤩 Edit: It was, obviously, as AMAZING AS THE REST. ABSOLUTELY HAVING THIS LOOPED UNTIL IT CARVES INTO MY BRAIN 🤩🤩🤩

[@exuveum5875]

i know this boutta be fireee

[@KatHarpy]

so happy to catch this out so early congrats on another banger!!

[@Ry3aT04st]

RETURN TO SENDER LES GO ‼️‼️‼️‼️🗣️🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥🔥

[@Chocoloverdude]

"take that shit back return to sender!" Fucking hits HARD i love that!

[@J11nnxx3d]

Lulu you have quickly become one of my favorite artists to listen to on the daily. Your voice is absolutely soothing for the soft parts and blood thirsty on the harsh parts and I am absolutely here for it. I'm so excited for every release of each song that you've made and cannot wait for more!!

[@violentthoughts05]

EARLY GANGG I LOVE ALL OF YOUR SONGS THEYRE LITERALLY SO GOOOOODD !!!! theyre all so original and ive never heard anything like it and graahhh the mental illness in me is gripping every song so fiercely. especially Sympathy, Everything, Moth To The Flame, and Roaches. Please keep making more !! (where you can, of course! Dont want you to overwork! ^^)

[@nathanielsmith1209]

I swear to GAWD, I fucking love LuLuYam so fucking much at the point I have every song she created on my playlist

[@Unknown_Moss]

This is so good. I’m listening to this until I get home. Hope you continue to make music that makes you happy!

[@midnightrose9562]

I went through a whole week of stress and panic attacks while waiting for this song to drop. Worth it.

[@mqstaples114]

This song hits too hard. I have a great relationship with my mom. However, I can apply with my grandmother, who was the matriarch of the family, and she was abusive and narcissistic. She would use all of us to go against each other like her own puppet show, then get angry if we stand up against her. She would want us to be like her then when we don't she tries to destroy you. So thank you for this empowing song

[@Angelmochianimations]

NEVER RETURN THIS SONG TO SLENDER THIS WAS STRAIGHT FIRE 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[@cherryredrabbit2260]

It’s so amazing!!! I love this sm! ❤

[@wallydarlingsspouse]

THIS FUCKING ATE. YOU EAT UP EVERY SONG YOU MAKE LULU!!!

[@konterwayne1881]

Of all your songs, this is my favorite so far. The "pump that shotgun b..." part is just awesome, I love it. Thanks for the awesome song :3

[@spooky8581]

Luluyam is physical incapable of releasing a bad song 🗣🔥🔥🔥💯⁉️💯😈

[@PlusB0y]

i got so excited for the new song that i nearly broke my pinkie finger. thank you for making such a cool ass song -blurry

[@wonderby5129]

Why do I think @KittenSneeze would love this song-

[@ZanesCoolUsername]

💥

[@Grumpy8]

Because they Prolly would, both of these artists are awesome✨️

[@redvsbluefanful]

banger after banger. i honestly dont know how i found your stuff, but im glad i did

[@Omorishitidk]

YAYAYAYAYAYYAYAAYAYAYA CANT WAITTTTT

[@Universe_Kami]

Recently found you on TikTok and was waiting for this song's release. Not only does it hit close to home for me, but everything about it is amazing! Will be streaming this and following more of your work for sure! 🔥💜

[@Chara_the_god]

Howdy! This is the second song of yours I've listened to. The first being roaches. I just wanted to say i quite enjoy your muic and appreciate you making this.

[@CryptidDeer]

Your music is cathartic to me in a way I can't describe

[@pidgeonsloot]

You’re fr one of the most underrated artists ever! This is such a banger and Roaches has been on repeat since a while!

[@CrusadingJello]

LETS GO!!! Fifteen days has passed!

[@hatwhat8808]

Bro this is going to be straight fire I CANT WAITE for this to come out!

[@kasstick_arts]

This was absolute AMAZING lulu, you just keep outdoing yourself with every new song 💪‼️🪳

[@zachtucker5320]

Damn this is straight fire🔥🔥🔥, this is the second of yours I've heard but I'm deadass about to binge what you got

[@gooseconsumer2698]

I love your music so much! It’s finally some art I can personally relate to! Your out here making amazing changes

[@REBOOTWALLYEDITZ_LOVESYOU]

👑🪳RETURN TO SENDER~!🪳👑

[@Rootbeerzmore]

Amazing f🪲cking song and video genuine bop

[@NemaraDengirl]

Oh I needed some of this, she's been on my mind recently. Oh that made me feel better. Glad I found you, keep it up!

[@0xx_owlwood_xx029]

I introduced your music to my mom through your song roaches and she really loves your music just as much as I do, when I told her this song was released yesterday she immediately stopped to put it on her playlist lmao

[@user-qf3hx6gr6e]

Yaaay it’s almost heeeerree

[@musicboxontheocean]

IVE DISCOVERED UR MUSIC YESTERDAY AND I REGRET NOTHIN🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

[@hazelkat594]

For so long ive wanted to find a specific type of music but couldn't find it. Then these songs showed up. Im finally hearing what I've been searching for

[@demonlver13]

Love the old silent hill pause Sound at the beginnings of your songs

[@fewic8159]

Man, i love your art so much. Listen to it every time i feel shitty, it resonates with me so well, can't wait for more of your songs, they're all bangers😭💖💖💖

[@maistheemperor]

this song is incredible, I've discovered your music a few days ago and I love it so so so so much, there's so much raw emotion in it like fbkdbfkskdbskdkdkskkdks amazing

[@bakugami4057]

Another banger from the one and only LuLuYam

[@_Expl0w_]

Was super excited for this song when it was announced, and it definitely did not disappoint!

[@Beeshrxxms]

I've been waiting since early April for this song and I absolutely love it!! Tysm for posting such great content

[@dreamalgia]

hugely relatable and a banger 👻

[@Actually_ember_lol]

Eeeeeeek! Im so excited this looks amazing!!! >ᗜ

[@RisenPhoenix666]

I did not ask to be called out, ouch yammy.. I love the song but that felt like you came for my life

[@drixel_cz]

That bass line goes hard

[@OmishaFawn]

WOOHOO!! BEST BIRTHDAY GIFT!!

[@TheCChaozShow]

bouta play this in the car with my family because we all love ya music

[@Tiny_Teddy22]

Just listening to it isn't enough, i need this song injected into my veins!

[@snowymelody1650]

Omg this was worth the wait! I love it!

[@sowjiru]

TAKE THAT SHIT BACK RETURN TO SENDER 🗣‼️

[@gholst7777]

i still get chills when i watch the mv this is so amazing

[@urgurl_elli]

GODDAMN I LOVE THIS I CAN'T STOP LISTENING TO IT ZOMG

[@yourfruitkiwi6605]

STIMMING SO FRIGGIN MUCH DUDE I LOVE IT