Schizoid Hyperawareness Explained

[@grantwithers]

I was unaware that other schizoids were doing this, but I definitely have for a long time.

[@EmilyMcMaster]

I love that all of your videos are so short and concise. I had to laugh at how you ended the video with no outro or elaborate plugs for social media etc its very schizoid and I appreciate it. I also know receiving compliments is weird so i never expect you to comment back. I usually just say thanks really quickly or sometimes force an "aww" before the thanks so I look like I have emotions but really it just makes me feel self conscious that they see me. I process the compliment later when I'm alone. Following gratitude I change the conversation quickly to not dwell on the praise too long because it has the opposite affect for me and usually makes me feel self conscious. If I receive the same compliment enough times only then I start to consider the possibility that it might be true. Once this happens it does build my confidence and this frustrates me sometimes because i feel regressed compared to other people. Just wanted to share that as it might be relatable to others as indiference to praise is something in the criteria for schizoid.

[@SchizoidVision]

Cool 😎 I relate to how you process compliments and praise. In person I find that I detach from praise, and brush it off. The thought of knowing that I have done something well in terms of achieving a goal or providing something of value is good, cognitively registers as positive. But in the moment when in the presence of others I tend to emotionally detach from it. I do appreciate positive and constructive feedback, so that I know whether my efforts have been appropriately directed ;)

[@I-See-The-Play]

Very interesting and very deep. Much to think about here.

[@riedodenise1236]

Thank you !

[@kalpapadapa]

See, I can't help but see the same patterns in codependent dynamics, such as lack or loss of identity and a shame based perspective, but shame is so repressed that it's become unconscious, and the protection mechanisms are there to avoid shame at all costs. Being avoidant and anti-social are just perfect ways to avoid shame. Lack of insight is I believe because of repression which probably goes with delusion, as becoming aware of shame would be too destructive to the ego. Repression is why there's lack of positive emotions like joy, happiness, etc., and why there's lack of motivation. I see it as the same patterns and behaviours, but the schizoid might be an extreme case.

[@e-t-y237]

Great and helpful delineation! Since the self is actually relational, the sequestering of the true self away from interactions leaves a void in their experience (but not in the true self proper). Meanwhile, the true self, rich in emotions, sensitivities, aptitudes, tastes, tendencies, preferences (that's far from empty), languishes in its dissociated state. True it remains underdeveloped and unactualized in many ways. The empty, deadened experience is occurring where the true self is MIA in the relational field.

[@SchizoidVision]

I agree that the emptiness in schizoids is linked to emotional dissociation. It is also linked to emotional depravation in the formative years that has restricted true self-development in connection to the external world. I think that because schizoid individuals have different levels of self-development the true self varies between individuals, with the secondary schizoid being more in touch with what you describe as the true self. In the most severe cases of schizoid dynamics (with defenses formed at a very early age) the depersonalization and fragmentation of self, caused by splitting, combined with the emotional dissociation, makes it very challenging to create a singular integrated concept of self. But yeah, we certainly possess an emotional field, sensitivities, aptitudes, tastes, tendencies, and preferences.

[@e-t-y237]

@@SchizoidVision Thanks for the great and thoughtful replies.

[@SchizoidVision]

@@e-t-y237 Your're welcome.

[@annabanana50]

I’ve been watching your videos for a while now. I’m schizoid here, and this summer a neighbor yelled “hey neighbor” from his window while I was working in my garden in the back yard. This intrusive behavior angered and annoyed me so, the same neighbor tries to talk to me and ask me personal questions when he sees me, making me beyond uncomfortable.

[@SchizoidVision]

Your experience is relatable. People can be so intrusive guised as 'friendliness' or ' just being sociable' without considering whether their efforts to connect are actually 'wanted' by the other person. It can create negative future expectation in us, like hoping we don't see them when we just want to get on with what what we're doing. Hopefully, your neighbour will get the message and keep their distance.

[@e-t-y237]

So zoidism is basically a defense mechanism? Maybe in toto a defense mechanism?

[@SchizoidVision]

Yeah. I would summarize it as: A defensive adaptive response to uncomfortable conditions.

[@e-t-y237]

@@SchizoidVision Wow. I wasn't expecting that answer. Thank you. So, if its an adaptation, we can re-adapt?

[@e-t-y237]

Quoting from something I read tonight: "deeply ingrained defense mechanisms have become reflexes in our consciousness" ... so that, their expression is not really our self, but an avoidant evasion of our self. This would make readapting or walking back the adaptation a central focus of treatment/therapy/healing ... this to regain a footing in our true self instead of in the defense mechanism.

[@SchizoidVision]

I think that it depends on what age the defenses were formed and what stage of self development a person was at before defenses were formed. I think that in the secondary schizoid there is a much better chance of 'adapting back' to who they were before the conscious trauma occurred. But if the trauma occurred before a self concept was fully formed, it may be that to remove these defenses could be impossible and possibly catestrophic to the stability of the individual's psyche. However, they could learn to function better in the world with their defenses still in place.

[@t.a.4356]

Sorry but no. I use this to stop strangers from filling me with their miseries and annoyances which mostly results in them often resent me for my detachment, which only drives me to hate them even more since I hate masking with a passion and the more bootlickery exists in my surroundings the worse they get about me.

[@RolandoRatas]

damn, I'm a zoid and I had an estate agent do a 3 month inspection on the rental property I am in and you could not believe what discomfort and hatred I had for this little encounter. I bet he hates me now. What an unpleasant condition we live with.

[@TaraRoberts111]

With this hyperawareness we can sus out what people are about and dodge them.