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Today I spoke with Jenny McGrath, who grew up exposed to Christianity, placed her faith in Jesus at a young age, and became very active in overseas missions, but ultimately deconverted as the truth claims of Christianity fell apart.
We touched on many topics, including:
• Growing up being homeschooled and spending a lot of time in church.
• At a young age, asking Jesus to come into her heart, and then repeating that process to ensure she was really saved.
• From a young age, being concerned about the eternal state of her friends.
• Focusing obsessively on being honest, good, and pure so that she could be right with god at all times, but still feeling dirty and wrong all the time anyway.
• Getting a purity ring at age 13, leading her to focus even more on honoring god through chastity, but also feeling more shame than ever.
• Becoming disembodied as her nervous system reached critical stages of "fight or flight" and led her to disassociate from the perceived spiritual threats.
• Being taught that she could not trust herself or her body, but finding a safe place to feel more embodied as she did competitive dancing.
• After an experience with a sexual predator, doubling down into how much she needed to work to be good and overcome her shame of feeling like "soiled goods."
• Sensing that god was crushing her as a way to punish her for her sins and refine her.
• Doing missions in Uganda and South Africa to take her spiritual sacrifices and outreach to the next level.
• At a secular school, being free for the first time to truly question her white, heteronormative theology and worldview.
• Learning to see people's humanity and individual journeys instead of seeing them as a project and someone to "save."
• Realizing that she had not been taught about autonomy and consent in relationships, especially in the context of patriarchy-based courtships.
• Deconstructing her faith as she learned more about the evolution of the Jesus character and the way the early church used power and violence to force people to adopt Christianity.
• The importance of health sex therapy to heal from purity culture.
• The importance of teaching body and thought autonomy to the next generation, without threats or coercion, and with the necessary resources to make informed decisions.
• Moving past the good spirit / bad body duality that was prevalent from her Christian background.
Many thanks to Jenny for sharing her story and insights!
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