Shit just sucks sometimes ❤ Loss is a bitch

[@carpo719]

Thank you all for your Support over the years, and if you enjoy the channel you can contribute through patreon, www.patreon.com/carpo719? or if you prefer a one-time donation I signed up for "buy me a coffee" which allows people to make a one-time donation and leave a message. buymeacoffee.com/carpo Be sure to check out my podcast as well, "15 minute free thinking" which can be found on all podcast platforms. open.spotify.com/episode/3bMmzbPBAjsOtHVAFS9QMb?si=DNBEkPQaTlObnakU0eiB8A I have quite a few unlisted videos there as well about some topics I don't share on KZbin ;) Be well, stay safe, stay strong... and have a wonderful day❤

[@jeltoninc.8542]

My father died when I was 16, like you said, I think of it all of the time. You’re not supposed to forget. Our memories are how they live on. This time of year is all about celebrating death. Without death and the impermanence of life, we wouldn’t know the joy of truly living. Happy Halloween season 🎃

[@DorkCity182]

Ptsd from seeing something so horrible will change you forever. I really feel for this man💛I hope he finds healing

[@jeltoninc.8542]

I’ve got so much to be thankful for. Man, life is WILD. It can get rough. Glad there are people like you out there, Carpo!

[@KamrynWalks]

Rest in peace Paul’s son. I’m in my mid twenties and I can relate. Don’t think i’d ever do it but it gets intense out here in this world. That’s why being kind to all helps.

[@Jason.L.M.]

Thanks for sharing. That's some heavy news. I hope the best for him in his situation

[@hiroyopoetker]

great powerful listen! Its sad how things evolve oddly!!!! Im trying to teach myself how to deal with loss and its tough!

[@irishguyjg_2ndchancerecovery]

I lost my job, my son just got out of the pediatric ICU in Minneapolis Minnesota, scared the shit out of us with pneumonia, he's 13, we just got home from children's hospital and I'm grateful I'm watching this and knowing you are going through stuff too makes me feel better, of course I wish and want all the best for you and your concerns and cares. Love ya brother

[@carpo719]

@@irishguyjg_2ndchancerecovery I'm sorry to hear about your son that's wild my son's friend just was diagnosed with pneumonia the other day too. Not too long later I found out that he had been vaping, and I have no idea if there was a connection but if your son has been exposed to any of that stuff be aware. Kids do crazy stuff at a young age

[@jackasswhiskyandpintobeans9344]

I live in Eagan. Hope you kid is doing well. You will get another job!

[@windwarattack2300]

Very emotional video brother....I lost my father also from Cancer....and the story of your customers sons suicide hit hard....I'm so sorry for him...I can't imagine the pain and grief he is in now....You are correct without family , friends and the love we share with them...then we are nothing

[@starbear1322]

My dad killed himself in 1980.at that time I was heavily into hard drugs and continplating the same. His death saved my life.when I went to the funeral I witnessed the pain and confusion that those who knew and loved him were going thru. They were lost and ungrounded . At that point I understood how we need each other and that although it's our life to choose life or death, I saw it as a selfish act..I never continplated suicide again

[@tonygareth221]

Man I have so much going on all at once I can’t believe it! So much and I’m like damn enough already! Plus I’m anxious and stressed out about what could be coming. Life is hard bro! But it’s so good too. Hang in there

[@carpo719]

@@tonygareth221 ❤

[@DopamineSchizo]

i recently read in a book about death and what we do with it, it said we are ignoring the subject. a few decades back there were rituals with christianity for example that faded away the last years. i think if my sister dad or mom would die i think im gonna break down, sometimes i think i will be the first one. toxic positivity i think these times plays a role too, sometimes you just have to say this really really sucks

[@ronaldiii9416]

Memento Mori . Chanted by Catholic monks on certain occasions. I chant it when I'm trying to throw stuff out, empty my house out, in preparation for the inevitable.

[@irishguyjg_2ndchancerecovery]

DUDE I'M SORRY FOR THAT LOSS MAN............ that's heavy brother. I'm very sensitive to those subjects and suicide is a hard thing, obviously. Sending my love and respect their way in the ether of this life. I make videos every day to try save people from this type of fate, because there is always HOPE! WE SHOULD HAVE HOPE, ITS HARD TO FIND SOMETIMES, BUT ITS out there, it's not always on social media or in the halls of schools, but it's who we hang around with and what we do. I'm very sorry for your losses of you guys mothers, niece and friends. Sorry brother.

[@jackasswhiskyandpintobeans9344]

When I turn 50, my mental health plummeted. Around that time, I got a psych doctor and a therapist. I didn't click with either. The doctor would just stare at me throughout the appointment. Didn't speak, just stared. The therapist wasn't my type, and I didn't respect her. 10 years later I have a pretty good psych doc who has me on two good meds.

[@turbompson4546]

I was considering getting a lobotomy myself.

[@jackasswhiskyandpintobeans9344]

@@turbompson4546 The meds work for me. A life of racing thoughts and anxiety replaced by a bit of fogginess. I like fogginess.

[@turbompson4546]

@@jackasswhiskyandpintobeans9344 get out and socialise more, and the anxiety will subside.

[@jackasswhiskyandpintobeans9344]

@@turbompson4546 That's easy for you to write. I'm actually a pretty good chit chatter in person. I can strike up conversations with complete strangers and be interested in what they say. Trust is my hangup. I don't exactly trust people. My combat tour in Iraq complicated some underlying mental or emotional issues. "[Get] out and [socialize] more, and the anxiety will subside." You sound exactly like more 1st horrible therapist.

[@ethantelford798]

Great Vid Bro as Always

[@irishguyjg_2ndchancerecovery]

Thanks Josh! I love your topics dude

[@RobFranzen]

Don't forget the stain & primer dude.. sounds like one of my reminders😅

[@hiroyopoetker]

You just shared a beautiful message with us brother! But Im thinking about at the end and how the owner of the house seems to be very complacent about a kitchen.... Does that energy flow into the state of his children? WOW my mind is now pondering too much unwanted details! Im not trying to talk bad about him as I know thats not his intention. I agree the house is now a very awful memory of what had happened? please have a nice dinner!

[@jessesargent4097]

the better help joke was good

[@Chris-ji8jw]

Yeah. Never forget.

[@Blessed_0U812]

That is so horrible. My gosh, so sad. I'm so sorry Josh.

[@carpo719]

@@Blessed_0U812 well I didn't know him really, but feel bad fir his family

[@Blessed_0U812]

@@carpo719 yesterday it was 5 months since my 13 year old was hit by a car. Shit does just suck sometime. But I am still here. Still remembering. Still living my best life. Because I know my son would absolutely want me to do so.

[@ShouldaWaved]

I just found a lions mane, growing off the end of a dead log, i just went in the woods for a little walk, started following an old logging trail grown over, basically just seen a lot of silver birch and was looking for for chaga, just for the hell of it no intention to harvest the chaga, did find a couple Chagas left them alone, i picked the lions mane though, its a little past its prime starting to get tinged yellow on the top, its a cute littke lions mane, a obout time i find it and the elusive morel earlier this spring, usually its herecium corolloaides so im all happy. Sorry the young man killed himself, i canr help but wonder if he did it to get back at his dad, like phuck the house is this going to get the message through. I'm not on the pitty potty or blame game but it sure sucks when you have a father and your always asking him to do something inviting him and he ignores you, always. I'm so pumped about the lions mane lol

[@laswanlewwis]

Happy Thursday 😊

[@jackasswhiskyandpintobeans9344]

I have suicidal ideation. It's always in the back of my mind. I'm old though. A young person has so much to live for. I look back and my life is punctuated by constant failure and sorrow and just a bit of success and happiness to keep me going.

[@crazyj902-topic2]

Sorry for your loss dude, it's never easy. he sounded like he had everything going for him. I'll tell ya what:Im gonna tell you the story about Destiny Rennie (aka Destiny Toney) I had this friend a while back named Destiny, prettiest woman you'd ever see, beautiful Native woman, coolest person you'd ever meet, only young too. a year ago she felt sick and went to the hospital and they kept turning her away and turning her away repeatedly until one day she had to be brought in by ambulance where she lost her consciousness and it turned out she had a bad case of meningitis.. due to her being Native American they assumed it was because she was a drug user (harmful stereotypes) and based her treatment (or lack thereof) on that assumption.. as a result of this she died at 22, alone in a hospital bed.. they just let her lay there and die. I had waited and waited 7 long grueling days at the hospital, cryin', shaking, prayin' to God for good news that she would awaken but she never did.. the article is all over the news, if you look up Destiny Rennie you'll see articles like " *Lawsuit launched by family of Mi'kmaw woman in N.S. claims negligence in her death* " it was the most gut wrenching thing ever, and I experience a spiritual awakening after hear death (not a good one) and till this day, Im still suffering this loss - it doesn't go away..

[@notdisclosed4597]

I'm seeing it dude.

[@HoTrEtArDeDcHiXx]

They let you say the S word now ooh 😯

[@irishguyjg_2ndchancerecovery]

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[@Arggggggggg]

Condolences for your family/friend losses and that young soul and his poor dad. I never felt good about the idea of trying therapy. Instead, I was deep into self-help and new age/new thought, "spiritual not religious". The only thing that finally helped me was Jesus. Anyone going through depression and suicidal thoughts, or just going through a rough time, please pray and ask Jesus to carry your burdens for you. He will. He is your savior if you believe. The way to hell and eternal death is a broad path, but the way to heaven and everlasting life is a narrow path. The only way to God is through Jesus Christ and the power of the Holy Spirit. That is the trinity.

[@Cheese-is-its-own-food-group]

Yes, losing a child is almost unbearable. I lost my 28 yr old son 2 years ago. He walked out in front of an Amtrak with his girlfriend, leaving behind a beautiful wife and my two adorable little grandsons. It was a doubly traumatic and difficult experience for obvious reasons. I was so angry at him for the longest time but terribly heartbroken, as well. I’m ok now. I have my good days and some bad. I’ll be alright, though. I can’t imagine having my son kill himself in my home. I could never go inside, let alone live there. Man.

[@Arggggggggg]

That man unfortunately has learned he put more energy into his house, career, and leisure than he did his son.