A Disturbing but Artistic Portrayal of Sexual Abuse as a Child

[@shooshiMooshi]

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[@EvelynandBreelee]

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[@saadahjalani43]

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[@milk_sop]

And yet, there’s the people saying: *“You were probably asking for it.”* as a person who experienced this as a child, I’m truly disappointed of humanity now

[@shooshiMooshi]

Jesus 🤦🏻‍♂️

[@mellow-today]

Same like what? Ive experienced this as a child and now with my ex so this is fucked up,

[@Doodlands]

I know this happens but it confuses me so much, how can you look at someone in the face and say that. How can someone have the lack of empathy

[@Bl_ONDE]

I too was also a victim of this and I definitely agree, humanity these days is absolutely disgusting. If I didn't know that it was this bad, I probably would be able to tell a family member about it instead of keeping it to myself all these years.

[@15xnpal]

How fucked up are people? What even makes them think that you “asked for this”? This is just straight up horrible im sorry that everyone that experienced this

[@Lovely.Solaire]

This quote describes this video perfectly "Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable"

[@achiblitz_]

That’s beautiful

[@ezikod3566]

This is true

[@theshortlife6067]

I always defined art as a way to express your emotions, via music, drawing, or writing etc. But never would I have imagined this...THIS!? ALL THE TORMENT AND HORROR, ISN'T ENOUGH TO SATISFY THOSE WHO ONLY SEEK CONTROL FOR THEIR OWN DESIRES. It all comes down to control.

[@Miloitus]

Completely accurate

[@kolpkii]

truest comment ever

[@Stray_Reverie]

If you watch the cat, it's the only one aware of what's going on and trying to get rid of the hand- it even shoots missiles, and when the hand crushes it, with nothing left to stop it, it escalates to destroying the whole scene. (Noticed this from a comment on og vid)

[@shooshiMooshi]

Oh my god I never caught that

[@jennym81]

I guess it shows how animals can detect danger and try to protect their owners. But the fact that no one came to help the kids when they started crying or yelling for help despite being at a park apperatly and during the day where there would most likely be other people around reflects real life sadly. Since people tend to just stand by and watch and not do anything. Especially now, people will just get out their phones and record which is sick.

[@spiderbacon707]

@@jennym81 i guess you could also compare the cat to the subconscious that tries to protect the conscious the psychological effects of this abuse, since many survivors (like me) end up with dissociative amnesia afterwards (i only remembered after 10 years, which feels really messed up honestly), essentially hiding away the memory which might be what the cat did with all the shooting.

[@lilithstudionow7439]

I feel like that cat represents people who know and try to help the victim but people believe they are making it up, throwing them out of the victim’s life and allowing the abuse to continue. It is not rare for a someone who knows about the abuse to try and help, get told they are making this up because “BLANK would never” or “BLANK does that everyone” and they either leave due to the harassment from others or they get thrown out of the picture all together. Without that person, the abuser now knows they get away with it and that’s when it gets really bad.

[@2763mika]

we might of seen the same comment bc i remember seeing one abt it

[@_st4rzz.]

Everything was clean, bright, and pure at the beginning, but it ended dirty, dark, and disturbing. It kind of portrays how a lot of SA victims feel since they feel "dirty" or "unclean" in a way since they were violated so bad they felt like the "stains" of their abuser that was left on them can never be cleaned or erased easily. It takes time to heal. The stains shows how it progressively got worse and worse as the abuser takes it too far.

[@ElmKyh]

"Blood still stains when the sheets are washed, sex don't sleep when the lights are off. Kids are still depressed when you dress them up, and syrup is still syrup in a sippy cup." -Melanie Martinez (from her song Sippy Cup) The song isn't even about CSA and yet it kind of fits well-

[@astrochikispollo]

also in the beginning you can see the 2 little girls going up and down on a stem of a plant- which it makes me wonder something very bad

[@mimizZ-z]

@@ElmKyhOMFG SO TRUE 😭😭😭😭😭‼️❤️

[@fromtheevoid]

@@astrochikispollowhat are you wondering?

[@RiskoPlexus]

@@astrochikispolloOh gosh, if you’re saying what I think you’re saying

[@sourmilk1071]

I'm a victim of childhood sexual abuse and child sex trafficking. I was first raped at 3, and my abuse/the trafficking ended at 12. I felt this to my core. I fucking understand this. It was so accurate in my opinion. My sister was being abused too so the fact that there were two little girls just.....really hits home. This person captured the loss of innocence, the loss of childhood, the fear, the disgust, the impurity, EVERYTHING so fucking well. These people who came into my life and abused and used me ruined me. My life. My everything. It takes over, they eat everything you loved and everything good in the world until you are just like peko chan at the end. This is truly a work of art and a fantastic yet horrific portrayal of CSA.

[@xdoge_x]

God, what you and your sister went through must've been horrific. So sorry.

[@chmezpolab]

Oh my gosh.. Im. Im so sorry for you. I hope youre alright. I hope you find eternal happiness in life

[@WhiteStripesStripiestFan]

Bad shit happened to me and my siblings too. For us, we just try to make the most of what belongs to us. We like cats. Cats are nice.

[@AAAAAAAAAAAA_AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA]

WTF. holy damn im so sorry that happened to you, it horrifies me how sm1 could comment on youtube and you'd never know what theyve ever been through, probably the worst and thats exactly how i feel rn looking at your comment/story. im sorry that happened, i hope ur ok!!

[@xdoge_x]

@@WhiteStripesStripiestFan Cats are awesome.

[@thebestlightner]

Tbh the reality of the world we live in is so sad. For victims: It wasn't your fault, it never will be. That person was/is sick and you shouldn't have gone through that. Much love to you all, stay safe !! -SA victim myself.

[@shooshiMooshi]

Thank you sm for the message and sharing :,)

[@thebestlightner]

@@shooshiMooshi Np !! I'm glad you're spreading awareness by reacting to these.

[@-AV33-]

I don’t know if I can say anything but I was groomed, bullied, and sexually harassed when I was 10, I’m 11 now and it still happens This is honestly relatable. I just.. left 5th grade and it slowly started happening? I’ll never not know what it’s like to be called r@pable by a 20+ year old man at 1 AM at night. is that child abuse? Or am I being dramatic

[@meowmeow10025]

@@-AV33-no you 100% have the right to be disgusted and that is definitely abusive im so sorry for you i just wanna say never stay quiet when stuff like this happens, always tell authorities or parental guardians to help you !!

[@Literally_DeadpooI]

Thank you, my brain struggles with comprehending it wasn't my fault what happened. I hope you find peace ☆

[@badstreetking]

i was sexually abused from ages 5-11 by my older sister who is 10 years older than me. i love how the video depicted being "tainted," not necessarily knowing what happened or knowing that it was bad but knowing that it didnt feel good. it felt uncomfortable and gross but you cant help but continue what youre doing. i found the abuse so comfortable yet so scary and i think the girls continuing to play/run around after a traumatic event happened kind of fitting with that theme.

[@KiwiQueen-ht9fe]

It's always someone close to you and who can get to you. My apologies that you had this experience from your own blood. I hope you're doing better now. Please drink water and st

[@KiwiQueen-ht9fe]

Stay safe

[@ErzaEthereal]

I was abused by my cousins from 6-8, one was one year older than me and 2 were one year younger. When I look back at it I feel like I’m overreacting and that it wasn’t as bad as I made it out to be but it was, it still affects me to this day and I feel so uncomfortable at family reunions knowing that if someone besides my mother would know, it would ruin the entire family or people just would think I’m overreacting and I don’t know which would be worse. 6 years later and I still feel like my body was taken from me.

[@Mealwormeater45]

Although I was groomed and nothing physical had happened to me I relate so much to what you’re saying. I knew something was gross and wrong about it but I was forced into ignoring that even when I tried to vocalize it

[@mooploop3091]

@ErzaEthereal The same thing happened to me when i was 6 -10 with my cousin and "friends" at school. Although its easy to think that it isn't a big deal because of how small the age difference was, the fact that it made you feel traumatized means it DID have an effect. Its not the intentions of the abuser or the age of the abuser that matters, its that it was traumatic for you that matters. You are valid and are not alone. It takes a lot of courage to talk about this topic especially when there are still people who don't recognize it for the abuse that it is. You are valid and also resilient for going through that and being able to talk about it. You are not alone, remember that.

[@arin_102]

one of the comments say that on 0:13, “pokochin” is a Japanese slang for penis. While “pokopoko” is also an onomatopoeia for “vicious beating, kicking repeatedly”

[@shooshiMooshi]

🥲

[@cuteshark7261]

Yeah.

[@congeetvroom2925]

I felt that…

[@soupydouby]

pokochin is also kinda childish slang, kinda similar to "wee-wee" or something. fucking soul crushing :(

[@arin_102]

@@soupydouby exactly, sometimes I wonder how do these sick fucks get away with doing this to children

[@vivienne3753]

"It's because of what you were wearing" I was 8, on a train, in my frilly unicorn dress.

[@shooshiMooshi]

:,(

[@wooflovesnatsuki]

I'm so sorry

[@richardburke4250]

I’m so sorry

[@Neptune807]

It wasn’t your fault you were an innocent child living a good life and someone did something bad I’m so sorry this happened 💜

[@Sharonluvsgamez]

It wasn't your fault at all... people are rotten nowadays.

[@Neganerd]

I was SA'd by a girl in primary school. She was bigger and older than me and after she groped me in places she shouldn't have to, she told me she wanted to go to the bathroom and keep going, grabbing my wrist and leading me in. The only thing that saved me was the recess bell.

[@StarGaby.]

same no one believes me because "girls don't do that" yes they do i were 7 years old... im sorry it happened to you, a big hug please talk to me if u need

[@Neganerd]

@@StarGaby. Girls can do a lot, yeah I hope ur doing better, friend!

[@marisakirisame867]

Zamn that's weird

[@jamesgaminz8424]

are you a male?

[@Imbuggyboo]

It really sucks that people only say things can happen to a certain gender, it can happen to any. No matter what gender you are, you didn’t deserve what happened to you, I am truly sorry for what victims have experienced.

[@ACowardlyCheese]

As someone that has suffered that trama, I really find it interesting to see how other people portray child SA. I think this video depicts the mental degradation that comes with the trama. I appreciate the fact the "darkness" wasnt given a face or any identification, because in situations like that, the only vivid thing that is left is what they do to you, and how they do it. I also find corrilation of the second girl getting pulled away to be depicting isolation, either by force or coercion. The hole in the canvas got me really fuckin hard. While this video isnt exactly how I view my own, it is an amazing indite of how the mind is, for lack or a better word, corrupted as that type of abuse continues. How you reacted is *exactly* how people should fucking react. With disgust, and contempt.

[@shooshiMooshi]

Absolutely love your interpretation of what this is ACTUALLY depicting (the mental degradation that comes after experience THIS type of trauma). I agree that the canvas represents the innocence leaving the children’s heads after what the abuser did to them. It’s even more disturbing/sad how SLOW it happened. It didn’t just go from colorful to dark. It was a gradual decline :(

[@OnlyMai._.]

I hope ur doing okay :(

[@vixotherealone8737]

I hope you are doing better now and recovering. No one should be forced to go through this. I hope this topic will be more discussed in the future so it can be prevented.

[@elilucy5649]

hopeyou are doing better now and recovering :(

[@christmas.countdown1]

Im recovering a bit but it happens alot

[@Milky_Swirl]

I feel sorry for the victims of sexual abuse

[@cianuiderring5361]

Thank you for feeling sorry it's a bad feeling and when the abuse stops it leaves a disgusting mark on the places you've been touched you can't get off anyting but if you get therapy the memories of you being touch fade away even the figurative nasty marks go away too in the reason why I know all about this because i was SA when I was 8 on my birthday until I was 12 when I was 12 my one of my big sister's notice me sitting on my fucking disgusting uncle's lap and my shirt was messed up like my shirt looks like almost lifted off days later my big sister came to my house again to confront me what she seen that cause me to break down but now I am 15 and when it's September be a sophomore in Vocational High School and working my way up to be a bartender in Hospitality management

[@vincentclay7235]

thank you

[@cristaform]

I completely agree, no one should have to go through something so horrible

[@starrby7790]

And what I hate most as a victim of child sexual abuse is that pedos demand for loli hentai, child s3x dolls, and acceptance of their "sexuality" be accepted by society because it's "hurting nobody" which makes me very badly just want to beat the shit out of them until they die miserably I'll never forgive them for saying that shit and encouraging that what happened to me was ever fucking ok

[@Retsiger]

Thanks man 🙏

[@skiiesstarrii]

I was sexually assaulted and nearly r*ped two times, one when I was 9 or 10, and once again in middle school. Both by people I thought I could trust and thought were my friends. I wouldn’t wish it on even my worst enemy. It’s a horrible thing, and even years later I still can’t cope with the spontaneous flashbacks and I hate people touching me. I just hope that this video can serve as a warning, not to scare people, but to make them aware that things like this do happen very often, unfortunately. Thank you for making this video.

[@SaladDudeThatBreaksinyourhome]

I feel sad for what you been though and i agree what your saying people need to understand this video P.S.: I hope you will have a nice and safe life in the future❤

[@gh0st1yxd29]

I hope everything goes well for you in the future!

[@Taytay-og7ms]

oh god bless your soul I hope you live a wonderful the future I was read this is and I felt terrible I really hope they get caught its really horrible how we have people like this in our world I hope they will get caught someday. I also would like people to understand this video and become aware.

[@starrby7790]

Yes this sadly does happen more than people would like to believe and many refuse to believe it because they just have the image that someone who would molest or r@pe a child is some dirty looking man in a hoodie meanwhile a man who is well groom, trusted by the community, and kind to children can be the one to molest and r@pe a child as soon as everyone puts their guard down and sadly where I'm from people here actually fucking accept pedos because they're "family" hell a mom can well know uncle Tony was in jail for child sexual abuse then watch and do nothing as they see their own kid get violated by fucking uncle Tony and blame the victim for it because 5 yr old Nancy was wearing shorts and a short sleeved cat shirt

[@noellovesbutterflies]

I feel so bad, bless your soul! You didn't deserve that, It's so sad how people you trust, turn out to be horrible and cruel monsters Just know so many people care for you and want to help you! Also I'm going to say something very irrelevant and it may be rude because we are talking about something So sensitive and disgusting, So please forgive my as* for saying this in the wrong time, But your profile picture was my old anime profile pic (I deeply apologize for saying this, while talking about something so horrible

[@transmascichikahoshino]

From a victim myself it’s insane how accurate this video is especially the idea that there’s all these childish things around you try to make light of this situation(the little clouds fighting off the guy in the middle of the video) but the innocence is killed off quickly. Took me years to realize what I actually went through, this shit kills me.

[@BlackbeltHitoshi]

Are you a CSA victim? Well how bad could it really be? Never really had go to through the process of getting csad by a whole fandom because I tried being original.

[@Kurusua]

@@BlackbeltHitoshi just don't..

[@mixtapefilms9849]

​@BlackbeltHitoshi Wtf is your problem dude-

[@uniquenewyork3325]

​@BlackbeltHitoshi just report the comment y'all

[@hongjin7009]

@@BlackbeltHitoshi reported cya

[@chxcovii]

I might not have experience SA but even just by watching this, I felt absolutely terrified and disturbed by what was shown in the video... The pain and fear of what the children was showing was horrible... Her pain screams and begging was heartbreaking to hear... The fact that the predator showed no mercy to even such a small child who have absolutely no way to defend themselves is disgusting... This is something that no one should have gone through. Whether you have a good or terrible personality doesn't matter. NO ONE should experience something this horrible and anyone who says otherwise is disgusting

[@jewel.140]

I agree! I havent been SA nor experienced it, but its still absolutely terrifying to see this as it really gets me into the headspace of how it all can change a childs perspective on everything... Despite being incredibly disturbing- it's still a creative piece to watch, hauntingly beautiful I would say.

[@kirakira878]

I agree, I felt it immensely. And it just saddens me that so many people go through this. But it's just not dealt with by the authorities. :(

[@Mostlikelee]

It’s heartbreaking im speechless right

[@yeralmuzika]

I'm very disturbed, my anxiety went up the roof... If only there's a way to help protect children from it happening 😢 I feel incredibly sad and angry at the same time for those who experienced this, this is not ok

[@trinity-728]

I agree, and I'm very DISGUSTED by how people in society do this ESPECALLY to little inoccent kids.

[@Father_Wormmy]

The part that makes me really disturbed is the fact that at one point (I think 2:51 in the original video), the hand gives them candy and they run towards it. They grab it and the hand comes back and grabs the other girl. It makes me sad that this happens so often that more people show it and other people blame the victims for being guilible even though they thought they thought they were in a safe place.

[@GamerGoals100]

Hi. I’m a student here. I’m also a victim of sexual assault when i was 16 yrs old. I didn’t hesitate to tell my mother and the authorities immediately. Everyone stay safe.

[@ElmKyh]

@@GamerGoals100 brave kiddo, good for you 💚 Wish everyone was as brave, even if I was never abused or bullied the way others are, I still feel like I was bullied by my ex-bff in some way, and I took an insanely long time to tell my parents. Even if there wasn't much we could do, considering the bullying wasn't calling me names or hurting me or stuff like that (it was the other way around, she and her friends would be really "nice" to me, but in a forced way that made me feel uncomfortable), they helped me cope with it. I wish the best for any victims of any kind of abuse or bullying out there.

[@jang2386]

@@GamerGoals100im glad you got the support u needed.

[@GamerGoals100]

@@jang2386 thank you so much

[@Ally_Sammons]

That was what happened with me, but it was with a computer and an hour and a half at least away from my abusive narcissistic step dad instead of candy. Although candy and certain treats that I can no longer eat because of the trauma associated with them were also used after the initial lure

[@rin-is-the-best]

As dark and uncomfortable this is, it's still very important and serves it's own purpose. it helps bring awareness to a huge issue that exists. It's still very depressing though, a portral about how fricked up this place can be

[@ElmKyh]

I loved how it represented CSA, but now I can't sleep (I haven't been sleeping well this whole week, so maybe I should've watched it some other day).

[@JuliXenhop]

I'm sorry you can't sleep :( I hope you feel better soon ❤️❤️

[@ningning5561]

japan is a country where there is little repercussions for perpetrators of child sexual assault… i’m glad more citizens in japan, especially the women, are working hard to bring the issue to light. especially considering how in japanese media, (and asia as a whole), school girls are sexualized. even in the west, men watch sexualized school girl content from japan 🤢🤢

[@PGOuma]

Lolicon and shotacon content too 🤢🤢🤢

[@sillyregrevetatorfan1111]

gross

[@YoLocalBus381]

So disgusting of those poor school girls being sexualised just for those mens disgusting perverted desires 😢😢😢 😡😡😡

[@Unknown-Silly-vv3pw]

WAIT-DID THAT ACTUALLY HAPPEN?!😨

[@cruelcimmcia859]

I watched a tv show in Japan where the father openly said he cleaned his son with his mouth and kissed him but his son was being bad since he’s growing older that it was more embarrassing. The Audience and the tv show host did NOTHING but laugh and make it a mockery. It was disgusting. The mother seemed aware and didn’t care. The father was literally holding the kid like 2 , he was pushing him ? Idk 🤷🏽‍♀️ shit was fucked up….

[@venusbeenus1105]

when I saw the finger poking into the canvas, my jaw dropped. Because not only was it rubbing at first, it started bleeding, and then going in and out. I can’t imagine the pain these little girl victims of SA go through.

[@EnergyBowl]

I noticed the bleeding almost immediately and it made me wanna bawl, it was so upsetting and sad.

[@xxbrohamsliecxx]

I've been sexually assaulted at 8 and groomed multiple times during the rest of my childhood (9-15), and I just want to tell every single person that went through the same: it's never been your fault, you didn't ask for it, whoever did that to you is a fucked up piece of shit that deserves a fate worse than death. Take care of yourselves and stay safe. I love you guys.

[@ZXIA0]

Aw that’s sad:C

[@mythix.destiny]

I truly wish the best for you, physically and mentally

[@Iluv_cats3-z7c]

That's so sad.. But cheer up and stay safe out there!

[@suikaberrii3251]

That part with the finger sent shivers down my spine n it wasnt even a minute in, how can something so simple looking be more scary than most horror shit i see on yt, i just cant imagine the horrors and isolation SA victims go through, being taken advantage of at such a young age where you barely know anything, getting betrayed by the very adult(s) that was supposed to PROTECT you,, The videos potrayal was simple yet heartbreakingly dark at the same time, mad respect to them

[@Ктоя-ь1м]

No any horror movie with scary fictional creatures can compete with real life horrors

[@ElmKyh]

How can poking be both satisfying and horrifying at the same time (in different cases)?!? Seriously, like those ASMR videos poke stuff and it's cute and satisfying to watch/listen to, and this kind of poking will give me nightmares for MONTHS.

[@notaperson7986]

Pokopokopikotan truly is artistic, and well made, but the meaning behind it is terrifying to think about.

[@cauliflowering]

Although I don’t think I can watch this one (I’m sensitive to this topic) I appreciate how you are willing to cover these types of things in a really respectful way :)

[@shooshiMooshi]

Ofc ofc!!! I do my best :,)

[@OnlyMai._.]

OMG I LOVE UR PFP

[@2763mika]

⁠(off topic comment) @@OnlyMai._.I was abt to say that to them too, we love BURNER

[@emu.otor1]

burner@@2763mika

[@g0r3kittyzzzz]

as a victim of rape and sexual abuse/harassment, this honestly made me have throwbacks to that time. it went on for SEVEN YEARS. *SEVEN.* *YEARS.* i dont even know how to explain it in proper words as it just felt horrible..i really hope you all stay safe, i love all of you! mwaah! stay safe

[@justapinkbunny]

Man.... I'm so sorry for what you went through..... That disgusting filthy monster who did it to you should burn in the deepest pits of hell that's what they get for doing disgusting things with a amazing and strong person just like you!!!! Never forget that you're stronger and you can overcome this!!!! 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

[@Moonxsta]

Im so sorry you had to go through that, you're so strong and im happy for you, i hope your day goes well!

[@xdoge_x]

that's fucking awful. I hope you're doing better now, stay strong.

[@g0r3kittyzzzz]

thanks for ur kind words guys ❤️❤️❤️

[@Vertig8.Ignichto]

You're so sweet, It's a shame that sick people are still roaming around causing pain and misery. I hope justice will be served. I'm so sorry that you and other victims of S.A to experience things like that. I hope the monsters know what they are doing and SHOULD ROT IN JAIL. It shouldn'y have been! God, I hope you bring all the sick people in jail for what they did! Much love from Phil 🇵🇭❤️

[@theoneandonlyavace]

This portrays sexual abuse perfectly. It shows that the two kids weren’t “asking for it” like many will say to those who suffer sexual abuse, it shows just how innocent those two girls were. Playing with your friends isn’t asking to be sexually assaulted. It also shows (what I got from it) is the long process of sexual assault. It eats at you slowly, when you try to stop it nothing works. It can slowly harm others around you, too. At the end, I would like to assume that symbolizes that the sexual assaulter got away with his crimes. Basically stepping all over those two girls he sexually assaulted.

[@sonyawong6719]

in 5:10 I noticed one chat in his twitch chat says "william afton vibes" genuinely pissed me off because william is a fnaf character that is a child murder not a pedo and people mischaracterize him alot just because he kills kids 💀

[@Amianione]

That’s not funny.

[@swisscheese-047-c]

ever heard of Dormitabis?

[@HalloweenHalloween-sc4jo]

The shadow hand kills the two girls in this video too though… Not just metaphorically but also literally

[@tiamystic]

Right. Wherever I see someone reference FNAF in real life shit I just cringe.

[@CyanCGMG]

Dormitabas

[@yogurtsimo8675]

im on the verge of tears knowing people go through this NOBODY deserves to go through this

[@thirdwheel9938]

Well that's cute Thanks

[@redwolftrash]

@@thirdwheel9938 weird ass comment

[@gjkdshgkjshjkgdfg]

​@@thirdwheel9938predator vibes.

[@Violence_Min]

​@@thirdwheel9938get help

[@Aiaiueueuej]

@@thirdwheel9938 bffrr nothing's cute with this, people are going through shit and your saying that's cute?

[@snoweleis]

this video feels like when i get flashbacks or remember my csa trauma. there are so many tainted things (triggers) that i can no longer look at the same way without remembering. when i get flashbacks, sometimes i feel as though the things i loved have been ruined. the capri sun i was drinking. the sound of fireworks. the song that was playing. i can’t look at them the same. and that dark and disgusting atmosphere that haunted me made it so difficult to look up at the world around me… i also think it’s heartbreaking that even after she had been “tainted” and the world was messed up, they still played and had fun… because they didn’t understand it… but slowly that fun and playfulness became synonymous with pain and abuse…. ahhhh, it makes me so sad.

[@justapinkbunny]

I'm so sorry that you went through this :( That disgusting monster who did it to you should burn in the deepest pits of hell that's what they get for doing disgusting things with a strong and a amazing human just like you!!! You're way stronger than it and you can overcome this!!!!!! 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

[@soupydouby]

for me, i can't use certain soaps, i struggle going to the doctors, refuse to wear certain colours, hate flashing lights, and refuse to go barefoot ever. what happened stays with me in the little things

[@EvelynandBreelee]

“Is this scary?” More scary than you could ever imagine. The fact that this portrays it’s so well is scary, the screams and crying and the yells for help. It’s horrifying

[@mariandsayoriplushreal]

mar (sprry)

[@EvelynandBreelee]

@@mariandsayoriplushreal yea

[@EvelynandBreelee]

@@mariandsayoriplushreal mari and sayori my two favorite charecters

[@my.fav.no..is.12.point.9]

@EvelunandBreelee you like hanging then?

[@skitterszz]

​@@EvelynandBreeleeVery ironic to how related those two are, terms of death

[@onionrings5006]

TW: mentions of rape and CSA (child sexual assault) this was one of the only ones that hit home as a CSA survivor. even if I didn't get raped, it still felt like got the emotion and feelings of a survivor correct. the fact that the hand is covered in this sludge that will stain and never come off made me feel heard because it doesn't. At least for me, it never went away. the damage stayed. if you ever need someone to talk to about this, don't be afraid to ask. ill be here for you as a fellow SA victim.

[@wondergirl1586]

I'm so sorry for you I could tell you care about other people thank you for sharing so others can learn

[@princess-star-stuff1109]

Have a hug from a fellow victim of this type of stuff! 🤗

[@WhiteStripesStripiestFan]

I'm still disappointed that my professor try to act funny with me. I thought he's being nice until gradually I realized that, the way he acts is just different. I was disgusted. I never experienced sa or csa but that guy just showed me a side that I never thought I'll see. It made me see the world as a broken place. It made me realize how close I was to danger of certain man that have no respect for you and goes around creeping, scaring the living shit out of you. Needless to say, I got depressed for hell of 3 years. Sad to say I was almost healing until the shit with the professor happened. I just almost gave up. I didn't even wear the kinds of clothes I used to wear before the predatory behavior happened. I just... Change. I dress like a baddie, I don't even like the style. But I did because, they don't think I'm innocent anymore, because my innocence was tested and in my own way, I try to win even if it's hard. It's hard to accept that it happened, the abuse sexual or no. If only people know what I went through. But I never said because apparently I'm not important enough to them. Fine. I can do this on my own.

[@spectralkitsune]

I'm so, so sorry to anyone who comes across this. I just have never felt comfortable enough to vent about my experience, and I really feel like I need this. Don't read this if you don't want to, and I apologize. This doesn't become graphic, but please do be careful of your own triggers. (This is rather long) When I was 12, I was invited to a birthday party; it was for the daughter of a family friend. I was one of the eldest kids there, apart from this 13-year-old girl, who brought her two younger brothers with her (~8-9-years-old). They were the only boys at the party who weren't members of the birthday girl's family. The 13-year-old girl immediately locked onto me, as I was the second-eldest kid there. We chatted a bit, and I soon came to realize that she was only interested in talking about sexual topics. I was 12, somewhat innocent, and hated vulgarity. However, to keep the 13-year-old from talking to the younger party-goers, I kept engaging with her. It was upsetting, but I felt it was the right thing to do at the time. I also didn't want to get her in trouble, so I didn't tell any of the adults. The next things that put me a little on edge were the two younger brothers I mentioned previously, who took great joy in antagonizing me, and throwing their food at me. Whatever, they're just immature boys. One of the boys then insisted on sitting beside me, even pulling up a chair right up against mine. He grabbed my arm, prodded me, and would over-all just touch me in ways I found uncomfortable. All with a smile on his face. Everything they did was with a smile. After the birthday dinner, we all went downstairs to the basement to play. The basement was dark, and one half of the room was filled with random equipment and tools. There were no designated games, and the eldest kids (me, the birthday girl, and the 13-year-old) relatively stayed together. I'm not going to go into any details about the 13-year-old's comments about me, as that would be rather petty, and they weren't of much consequence, apart from the fact that they sexualized me and made me uncomfortable. The birthday girl and the 13-year-old went off to a separate corner, and, to be honest, I don't remember what they were doing. There were adults in the basement "watching" us kids, though they just sat in their chairs in a quiet corner and chatted the whole time. There was no supervision. Underneath the stairs leading up to the main floor was a dark corner, which was occupied by an old, antique-looking bed. It had plush, white sheets. I distinctly remember those white sheets. The older girls and I hung around that spot for a while, and I stayed after they had left. The two boys quickly became bored of playing with the brother of the birthday girl, and quickly changed their focus onto me. They were evidently interested in me from the very beginning, and always wanted to be around me. I remember them seeming bored, and I was really trying as hard as I could to make this girl's birthday as enjoyable and hassle-free as possible. The boys proceeded to insist on getting piggyback rides. Odd, but they are bored young boys, so they probably do this a lot with their family. They argued over who would get the first one, and they eventually sorted it out. I sat on the bed, they got behind me and climbed onto my back, and I would run around for them in the basement. I was always worried about disappointing them, so I exhausted myself running around and trying to entertain them. Eventually, I had to stop, and they still hung around me. They especially liked grabbing my legs, and pinning me to where I was standing. They would then pull on my pants. Several times I had to hold them up from how hard they were pulling on them. If there's one thing I will remember from that day, it's them both looking at each other while they were grabbing my arms, and saying, "Let's f**k (my name)." They then dragged me over to that white bed, pushing me down onto it, and attempted to climb on top of me. I had been rather gentle and careful with how much force I used to keep the boys off of me earlier, as I was worried I'd hurt them. I resisted with all my power, but I was a pretty small and weak 12-year-old, so I was genuinely struggling to push these two 9-year-olds off of me. I eventually did, and I was so astonished and terrified that I simply chuckled uncomfortably and politely asked for them not to do that. They continued to grab and drag me around, and I occasionally had to use more force to stop them than I would have liked to. I had to hold one of the boys' hands to a wall briefly to try and convey how I didn't like them handling me, and that boy just gained a lewd expression and stuck his tongue out at me. I stopped immediately, and just tried to stay away from them, hoping they'd leave me alone. Fast forward to present (gift) time for the birthday girl, and the two boys were being rambunctious, and everyone found them annoying. The adults were taking pictures and preparing the cake, so I volunteered to watch the boys in a separate room so they could continue with the party. I had already taken it upon myself to deal with them for most of the night, so it wasn't much different to what I had already done for the past few hours. The two boys heard that I had offered to watch them, and they enthusiastically ran over to me, quickly taking my arms and leading me over to another room. They were pretty much wrestling me to the ground for the rest of the time. Dragging me down by my legs, pinning me to the floor, lying on top of me... It was a constant struggle with them every second. The gift opening and main party was over before I knew it, and I wasn't even able to see the birthday girl open my gift. The parents soon started arriving. Me, the 13-year-old, and her brothers were the last ones left. My parents arrived, and I had to shuffle my way to the front door to get my shoes on because the two boys were latched onto my legs. My parents saw this, and were evidently confused. Before I left, one boy ran up and hugged me around my waist from behind, and sweetly said with a grin, "Bye, Mommy." My mother said, "Aww..." with a smile. I remember how terrible that felt. She couldn't have known, but it still made me feel like what had happened was all normal, and that it was just disregarded. Few times I have fully sobbed in my life, but I did after that night. Nothing really happened, and most of it was because I was involving myself willingly, but I would've wished for those to have been my experiences rather than one of the younger girls there. Growing up, my parents would always tell me to be kind and thoughtful to other people; to put them first--so I did. Everytime that I look back on that night, I always wish that the adults just did their job. The adults were meant to supervise the children. The adults were meant to make the party fun for the birthday girl and the guests. That responsibility and burden should not have had to go to a naive little girl who couldn't help but be a people-pleaser. The 13-year-old girl's family is very rough, the parents are now divorced, and her and her brothers were all adopted. I forgive those boys, and the girl, because they were just displaying what kind of environment they were always exposed to. I hope they're all in a better situation now. Safe to say that I fear young boys and white-sheeted beds now. I also will never be going to that family friend's house, nor a birthday party for any non-family member ever again. Again, apologies for the vent, but I really do feel a whole lot better after many years of having that repressed. Thank you for your time. 🤍

[@onionrings5006]

@@spectralkitsune that's absolutely horrible. I'm glad you feel better now that you've talked about it. I've also forgiven my abuser because it was him portraying his environment. it comforts me and I hope it comforts you to know that we aren't the only ones to forgive their abusers.

[@simp4anything2d]

The music video is so disturbing I feel so bad for victims. It must be hard to go through

[@---yg1cm]

Same

[@SinisterAlex]

same.

[@WhiteStripesStripiestFan]

It is. I'm trying to recover after years. Many good things happened but these traumatic things just creeps back sometimes. At times I even randomly cry when I am on my own, even at work. It's so hard to accept that you didn't get to fight back. I wish that hell exists so that I can sleep in peace. It's dark, what I say, but shit's terrible. Really.

[@choxomoxxo565]

This is just disgusting man, the fact that childhood is one of those times in your life you're supposed to look back and think fondly of and there are just these awful, disgusting people that taint what was supposed to be something innocent

[@pixelstrawberri]

I was terrified that I threw my phone

[@nonstoryadict]

I found a guy on TikTok who talked about what awful things he was told when he spoke up and trusted people with his trauma and one thing that still gets me angry that someone said to him was “You were lucky!” Like NO THE HELL?! People are just awful and when I say awful I mean GODDAMN AWFUL.

[@Alastor_Vox_is_apoopoohead]

whats the name of the channel

[@SethDaUser]

PEOPLE TOLD THE GUY HE WAS LUCKY TO HAVE BEEN ASSAULTED?! THIS STILL MAKES ME PISSED, EVEN AFTER MONTHS AFTER SEEING THIS COMMENT

[@Bleheb-t5e]

Yeah I saw the video 😞

[@sgtsurgeon.]

Watching this was so uncomfortable. I feel so bad for anyone who's gone through this type of stuff. this isn't right. nobody deserves this. I wish you all nothing but peace.

[@Orange_Tanger]

I will NEVER understand how someone can do that to a child 😭😭.

[@__Zeniii__]

To anyone who has experienced sexual abuse, it's not your fault, and i hope that you're slowly recovering :(

[@KyKudos]

Thank you dearest, I hope you are doing okay too

[@__Zeniii__]

@@KyKudos I am! :)

[@SHinierthennyourforehead]

thank you , sweetheart

[@__Zeniii__]

@@SHinierthennyourforehead No problem!

[@JuliannaRuizMendoza]

Thank youu

[@mono_cry]

the way everything went downhill is still terrifying to me

[@Chaos_Fantasmic]

I think the part where the last girl is all alone in the girl in the dark, represents how hopeless the victims feel, alone and isolated, like nobody will believe them

[@gumii2448]

for a victim of sexual assault this hits hard and i’m glad that people are spreading awareness tho

[@lunar_gladioli]

nana825763 is so amazing. not only was he known for a youtube myth (user 666), but his works are the best in general. though i have not experienced being SA'ed, it's so nice that there are people who make these type of videos to encourage victims that they are not alone at all. it truly shows to cruel earth and life is. no one should ever experience SA, no matter age, gender, and sexuality.

[@askatuproductions]

OMG I REMEMBER THAT YT CHANNEL!! It scared me when I was like 10 lol

[@lunar_gladioli]

@@askatuproductions lmao same, but looking back at it his 666 vid was amazing af

[@CCLOUDPIERCER]

Exactly! His videos are so unsettling yet fascinating at the same time (also, the fact that his channel is literally just creepy videos and occasional minecraft playthroughs is so ridiculously hilarious to me)

[@lunar_gladioli]

@@CCLOUDPIERCER the user 666 vid also has hilarious captions, if you didn't know XD

[@PicassosSister-rj5zp]

As someone who's gone through sexual abuse, you start to hate your body, you start changing your personality to prevent it from happening again. Your whole sense of self gets ruined. If anyone starts thinking about you in a romantic way, you feel uncomfortable and gross. I think the art was very fitting, because it demonstrates the way it injures the people who go through the abuse.

[@The_Rat_Qu3n3]

This type of stuff is very good to know, because I have ocs who went through this type of stuff, and I am trying very hard to make it so that way I represent this type of abuse correctly. And I am very sorry that this type of stuff happened to you. I hope nothing but recovery for you.

[@casuallylostt]

As someone who has been SAed as a child this is such a raw but very real story of what it’s like getting your innocents getting pulled away from you:((

[@xdoge_x]

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. You're so strong, keep going!

[@85676bunbun]

LMAO HELP

[@Hatershateonmebecauseimbetter]

@@85676bunbun What the fuck is your problem?

[@cyrusiin]

To anyone who’s ever had to go through this, and the degradation that comes after, I’m so sorry. It’s disgusting how humanity evolved, and none of you asked for it, deserved it or should have ever had to go through that. Everyone please stay safe!

[@BL00DY_IC3CR3AM1]

I'm not a SA victim myself but I have so much respect to you guys who are. You are so strong and shouldn't have gone through that ❤

[@OnlyMai._.]

Also when they try to go back to innocent but they cant cause everything's is now destroyed can show how when a child goes through this they can't feel "clean" anymore and cant go back to how innocent they once were the harsh truth is already exposed to them

[@clairepratt7165]

i felt that so much 😭

[@condensed_sam]

When it comes to animations portraying SA artistically like this, I don't think I'd be able to experience them alone without feeling too unsettled or even triggered to watch. But I still feel like their message is worth sharing and want to listen. Because of that, it's oddly comforting to watch your reactions, like I have a hand to hold through out the video.

[@LBP_Luvrr123]

3:25 You can see that the pigtail girl is trying to cheer up the crown girl from the disgusting hand. I feel bad for the Sexual abuse the characters are in.

[@d3ppress10n]

I was sexually assaulted in 5 grade in my concert band class by a boy who would sit next to me and would make me pick up stuff for him just for him to see me bend down and i was afraid to tell anyone so one day when i was at the nurse i told her what was happening but since theyre was little she could do it kept happening until he moved up a grade because of hes age and i balrey had the courage to tell my mom but when i did she was worried but since it was summer break during that time she was mad at me for not telling her sooner.... For people who have gone through SA it was never your fault that happened to you it was the sick bastard fault for doing that it was never your fault so dont blame yourself blame the person never yourself....

[@jennym81]

I like how the video goes back and forth with being innocent to down right scary and disturbing. I feel like that was a good metaphor on how SA can happen when you least expected and can happen multiple times (Whether that be from the same person or a different one). And each time that happens you lose a piece of your innocence until it's gone. Also the fact that the kids are killed shows how the child and innocence in them are gone or how the kids are left feeling dead inside and disgusted after what they gone through. Pls don't judge or blame the victim in these kind of situations because it's never their fault they were put in that situation.

[@Ldldødødøl]

It sickens me that people would do stuff like this, it’s so sad 😢 Good video as always though:)

[@everythingslayer_888]

I was sexually assaulted in first grade by other classmates. They wanted me to kiss them, and bullied me until I did. I got so upset from having to do it that I got sick the next day and stayed home. When I tried to tell the teachers, they didn’t believe me, and when my mother got involved nothing was really done, and I was bullied for telling. Honestly, being older and realizing how badly it’s affected me since then, this is how it feels now.

[@NostalgicGalaxy]

I was SA and nobody believed me, it something that still haunts me time to time. We need art pieces like this to be the voice for those who are ignored 💔

[@ericgolightly8450]

Who didn't believe you? How do you ignore someone telling you that?

[@Xiaueng]

Wft?! How?!??!

[@aliciamaritza34]

2:41 the girl that got grabbed by the hand (predator) was specifically grabbed by her private parts. That's a good portrayal of Sex*al Abuse. And I'm sorry for anyone who has to go through a traumatic experience 😢

[@qwertyuiop.lkjhgfdsa]

you can say sexual, censoring it helps absolutely nobody

[@stupi-dd]

5:33 Am I the only one who hears an ambulance during this that gotta mean something

[@mingusmungus8458]

Also, the child predator portrayed in the video was portrayed well, the way it shows it slowly cornering the two little girls, which I have noticed a lot of groomers do. I've never been groomed or sexually abused by a predator, but my friends who have and explain their story to me, cornering them emotionally and mentally is a common trait I've noticed.

[@Bracketbasket]

I just saw this for the first time a few days ago and was wondering if you'd watched it or not. I was looking for videos to scare me as i dont get scared easily and just love the adrenaline, this video terrified and disgusted me more than nearly any video on KZbin.

[@shooshiMooshi]

Yeah it does that because it’s real ya know? Something about the noises too 😖

[@gemini1357]

i am not a person who has experienced SA, but i feel bad for the victims. i have seen multiple people here say they have experienced it and its sad to see many of them. those who say “they were probably asking for it” or “it was the clothing”, is a bad way to defend the predator. i wish for all to not experience SA or experience SA ever again

[@friskflowerfell9689]

My friend got sexual assaulted as a child, I feel horrible for her. I just feel disgusted and disturbed by this… this made me sick.

[@anamelodi]

I've been sexually assaulted by my stepdad since I was 13 and it went on for 3 years (me being 16 at that time before i reported it to the police) Because of trauma, I was diagnosed with Epilepsy. I told my mom about his husband and she said *"Let this be our family secret. You don't want to tear this family apart right?"* It's been 6 years now and the court hasnt finalised the case and my stepdad was still a free man while I never got my justice (I'm now 21)

[@hhone748]

god that's such a tough, frustrating situation.

[@anamelodi]

@@hhone748 I haven't seen my mom and lil' sister since then and it's been 6 years now since the court doesn't allow me to see them nor in contact as well.

[@ericgolightly8450]

​@@anamelodiThe court didn't finalize the case? Why not?

[@anamelodi]

@@ericgolightly8450 Because the case is still ongoing and it's been six years now since the case started. My dad won't telle the updates of the case even though I'm 21 years old now. He doesn't wanna talk about how my stepdad had completely ruined me and made me have PTSD and Epilepsy.

[@kentucky_fc]

​@@anamelodiwait! Is your little sister safe??? What if that a**hole does the same to her???

[@yosefbenyosef262]

This really was like my 5 year old self being innocent until i go to my neighboors house to play and you'll probably guessed what happened next and that video really reminded me of that and its a really good example of anyform of abuse and/or hurt or just anything that messes up a childs mind and its really sad

[@Itz.StarOffical]

I have not been sexual abused, nor anything else, my heart goes out to all the victims and i hope the person who did this to the victims are dead or arrested and they never return.

[@highward5292]

lowkey this video made me feel so man angry. I want sexual child abusers to leave the world of living cuz they don't deserve it, pieces of trash i hope the worst for them.

[@hourlydraw]

God my heart sank so badly when the poked hole in the drawing started bleeding,even before I'm actually so shocked.

[@ItoshiiYoru]

As a 13 yrs old girl that was r*ped at the age of 5-6 by my own cousin who's 13-14 yrs old and got sexually assaulted by a housemate, this should stop, It's taking away the innocence from the children, I keep getting flashbacks when I'm about to sleep.. I'm really disappointed. -Note: Never go out without covering your body.

[@M4RIAHZ]

It was not your fault nor was it ever your fault. You didnt not need to cover up anything, as a 6 year old child the cousin who did that was completely messed up. What you were wearing was not your fault at all. Even if you covered up or not. Its the person who SA’d you thats at fault for being that sick. Im sorry you had to go through that, thats terrible🙁 i cant believe there are people out there like that.

[@jang2386]

The abuser does not care.. what you wear doesnt matter, anything you do wasn't your fault. It is the assaulter

[@beanmommy.]

I genuinely feel so sorry for all victims of SA and I hope that they're okay right now. If they aren't, I hope they get the help they need. Please stay safe everyone

[@Qanww]

this is such an old video, at the time I saw it I was very young and didn't understand the references and hints made in nana's art piece. I rewatched it not so long ago and was shocked at how identical it was to my experiences. To anyone who suffered the same, it was not your fault. You're loved.

[@SpoiIedMilk]

The girl who continued to play as the other was being hurt was just saddening. She didn't know what was happening to her friend and continued playing as normal. Until they met the hand again, with her friend being more visibly scared than her due to her trauma trauma. This portrayed the mentality, or at least feelings, of an SA survivor so well.

[@megankassa3633]

my heart goes out to all the victims and survivors of sexual abuse ❤ whether it happened during childhood or adulthood, that doesnt change the fact that it was never their choice nor their faults

[@Sillymeat82]

4:28 (BIG SPECIFIC NOTICE SLIGHT TW SA DISCRPITION) my jaw dropped expecialy because of the blood, it shows she’s very young still and how they still bleed because their body was not ready. Like actually traumatizing a

[@EnergyBowl]

Ik I saw that too and it made me wanna bawl

[@Rs4x3]

honestly yes it's really well made, something like that happened to me when I was a child and it destroyed me completely, I was so scared of men I couldn't even see my dad without feeling scared, I even forgot about what happened and when I started therapy that memory came out again, I reported my uncle some months ago, I was 9 when it happened and it took me 6 years to report him, and the worst part is that I feel guilty, so yes this video was really well made, it captures a lot the state of mind of a child that went through something like that, good job to who made that masterpiece (sorry if I made any mistakes but English is not my first language, and it took me a lot to write something like this, to anyone who went through any of those things I'm really sorry and I know how you feel, take care everyone

[@The_Rat_Qu3n3]

You didn't do anything to deserve what happened to you, and you shouldn't feel guilty about what your uncle did to you. It's his fault, not yours.

[@erwanasuzumiya6347]

It s horrible and as a victim myself I understand that after this experience we feel dirty, sullied and fucked up, but we are not the sullied, dirty, fucked up ones. We are purer, cleaner than what happened to us, we are better than what happened to us. I hope all the victim of this horrible crime will find peace

[@GeminiForest]

As someone who lived through child S/A I really appreciate you covering these topics. You handle it well.

[@Karmatic_303]

I was groomed when I was younger, I don’t know how far he got, some experiences can be so traumatic that you repress the memories and forget it completely. I was 6, he was about 11-12. He was never caught, I know who he is but have never said his identity, just saying he was never caught. He might’ve forgotten it. I knew what sex was but I didn’t know how bad it was at the time, my realization hurt. I thought everything was fine, but I realized that I was a traumatized and neglected child. Sad I have to vent as an anonymous entity on the internet. I’ve only told 2 people, this was solely because one came out about how she was raped and so was her sister (he was caught and put in jail) and my other friend also happened to be there, they are the only people that know.

[@85676bunbun]

Your trying too hard that's enough internet for today

[@dogueraevian6001]

🫂 I’m so, so sorry you have to go through this. I hope you’ll be able to find help soon.

[@R0tten_Do11y]

I'm a survivor of csa (child sexual abuse) I. Was 7 and he was 24. It stopped when I was 13. I was blamed for lying and called weird by my own family when I could not let go of the guy who did it. I have a trauma bond. It's where the victim creates a bond with the predator as a trauma response. I as a child had EVERY SINGLE RIGHT to end my life but I didn't and I'm proud of myself for that. For anyone else who has been through this or is currently going through it I am sorry it is not your fault. You did NOT Pervoke anyone. You are INNOCENT. You are going to be okay. People do care for you. It's hard I understand that but it's going to be ok. Now I want you to say this loud and proud either out loud or in your head. Say " hi I am (your name) and I am a SURVIVOR!!" I'll start first. Hi I am is Klara and I am a SURVIVOR!! Edit: so now here's where I should say that my story is still happy but unfortunately I am not as strong as I wish and thought I was, I am 16 now and my dad started again when I was 15..i have Stockholm syndrome and I am very aware that I should tell someone but I can't, I still love him for he is my father and the only father that I have had, I froze.... He did it again and I FROZE, memories keep on popping up and this isn't the first time.... I was 5 and my step cousin was 7 she sa'd me though I Don't blame her because she probably was getting abused too that's how she knew what sex was, then it was my step dad the main one I was talking about, then my biological cousin who was 15 when I was 11...she got Mr drunk and I gave in because I felt like I had too. I am very ashamed of myself I feel like I'm rotten completely, I have gone to therapy and gotten some things fixed but these memories DON'T FUCKING STOP, they won't go away no matter what I do.... The only hope I have left is the guy I'm talking too... He treats me good... He makes me feel safe, I'm proud of those who have stood up for themselves and got better with their life and have overcame their experiences, and I apologize for not being one myself...

[@Kittycatmeowmew]

Hi Klara, Im Lilya and Im proud of what you've accomplished! Bless your heart!

[@R0tten_Do11y]

@@Kittycatmeowmew thank you but you shouldn't be proud of me as I am proud of you, you are a good person and I'm sorry your proud ness got waisted on someone who is not strong enough to break the cycle, unfortunately my pain has not ceased and has continued after I made this comment a while ago. Please continue to be a good person in this world, you have saved many I'm sure of that.

[@Kittycatmeowmew]

@@R0tten_Do11y don't say that my dear! You survived despite living this horrible experience! That is something you should be proud about :) Don't ever degrade yourself, its not your fault if you couldn't break the cycle.

[@R0tten_Do11y]

@@Kittycatmeowmew your a good person, please don't ever stop being a good person, I hope good things happen to you for the rest of your life Lilya.

[@Kittycatmeowmew]

@@R0tten_Do11y thank you very much and I wish you the same Klara. Good day/goodnight

[@blueturtle3623]

I stumbled across this when I was younger, and as soon as the subject matter became clear I noped out of there because my own abuse was still fresh in my mind. But watching it with another human made it easier to watch and now I see how incredible it is. So, thanks for this. Like I'm still worried for the creator's wellbeing, because it's not something you can create without having lived experience. In fact, I'd go so far as to say you would need to read comments/have it explained to you if you watch it without lived experience just because of how abstract it is. But for those who know, it's immediately too upsetting to keep watching.

[@Lov3dscarz]

this honestly infuriates me, the people who do this kind of stuff to people are horrible, not just little girls but to adults to, its horrible.

[@ferns_lake]

6:39 WHY’S COLLEEN THERE💀💀

[@reneemachuca3026]

Why is dddoxxerwolf here?

[@StarryEd1tz]

the toxic gossip train Chuggin down the tracks of misinformation!~

[@ferns_lake]

@@reneemachuca3026 Huh

[@phanternalz]

(I COPIED AND PASTED THIS FROM THE ORIGINAL VIDEO I'M LAZY) There's 4 interesting theories about this video that I'd like to share out that not many are talking about: 1: even at the very beginning of the video, the background music is already disturbing and off-putting because it's going backwards. Even before anything ever happens. You know something's not quite right but you're not sure what it is. You're distracted by the Kawaii imagery and the current innocence of the situation. Almost as if the music in the background symbolizes how there's a danger lurking around but you just can't see it yet. 2: When the hand first appears in the video and you look closely at the canvas at 0:55, the hand is leaving a stain on both girls head's. Almost as if the predator is messing with the girls head's by making them believe the predator is trustworthy (AKA GROOMING). Thus why the atmosphere is still sweet. They don't know what's really happening yet because they are being groomed. 3: At 2:18, it looks like blood is coming out of the... Area. For both girl's... Maybe it's supposed to be showing what happens to some girl's bodies when... Intercourse happens for the first time... For SOME girl's, their hymen breaks when intercourse happens for the first time. For those who don't know: The hymen is a small layer of skin that covers the vaginal hole. And when it breaks... You get the idea... :( 4: At 2:33, the middle part of the canvas depicts a picture. A cat on top of a blue cloud, 2 red flowers, and 2 white balloons floating above the red flowers. This may be a stretch, but I think thats supposed to symbolize a uterus going through a period. Let me explain: the two flowers look like fallopian tubes, the two balloons look like ovaries, the cat can perhaps represent... Well... The vagina. (The p word means cat after all) and the clouds can represent cotton. Cotton balls look like clouds and most period products are made of cotton. Thanks for reading my theories! And for those who went through SA... I know you're strong enough to keep fighting 💪💗

[@Kukii._.88]

honestly, its disgusting when people blame the victim for "asking for it" and all they do is just dress the way they like.

[@vannilaaaaa]

being saed when youre just a child is so sad ☹️ i could definitely understand the message behind this the pastel stuff is supposed to represent what the child was before, innocent, pure, happy, and just thinks with their imagination. after that, its the complete opposite. theyre traumatized, sad, and if you went through that as a child its hard to recover from/get over. i have never experienced that myself, but to SA victims : i hope you all are doing okay now 🫶🏼 it wasnt your fault at all, and whatever you felt is completely okay. we're here for yall

[@h0pl3ss-r0m4nt1c]

Since most of these comments are from other SA victims I compiled all the healing tactics I’ve found over my healing^^ hope this helps! Cut out any sexual content (this is usually done on instinct but if it isn’t already it can hurt a lot) Find creative outlets (art, music, writing, videos, etc etc) Remember to clean yourself well and eat healthy (this can be really disturbing for some but your body being unhealthy/infected is much much worse) Things to remember : you are safe now, your body is yours and nobody else’s, you are a beautiful person and are more than the terrors done to you, they were evil and don’t deserve sympathy, (duh heh) you are loved and cared for FIND FRIENDS!! Seriously dude, find others that have hurt like you have and can help you heal If you can get an emotional support pet If it helps, wear tight black layers under your clothes to help yourself feel safer (sports brands make some good ones) Remember to speak up about what happened and your triggers as to prevent any spirals Be careful with partners and listen to red flags (ex : crossing boundaries, rudeness, freak outs, manipulative behavior) Find healthy things to occupy yourself (fashion, sports, makeup, drawing, working out, eating healthy, crafting, friends, nature, family, job, school etc etc..) Sh tw!! : if you ever feel tempted to hurt yourself, wrap the places you were considering In bandages (this can trick the mind into giving up or thinking it’s already done) Limit social media usage (this can be really difficult but can really really help) Get yourself a good doctor ex : same bio sex, empathetic, understanding (your body can be seriously damaged and more sensitive after sexual abuse and an ignorant doctor wont help, you should feel comfortable around your doctor) And that’s it! Keep healing! Lots of love❤‍🩹

[@meihuangha]

Many don't talk about the first point!! Cutting out sexual content really makes a huge difference.

[@h0pl3ss-r0m4nt1c]

@@meihuangha exactly! It really helped me and i hope it can help others^^

[@ashleyt.4322]

to those who experienced such abuse as a child and even in years later on, i’m so deeply sorry. it wasn’t your fault, please know that you are cared and loved. thank you for still being here

[@Ochako_Fangirl]

(I'm gonna mention my story, just in case that triggers anybody!) I can very sadly relate to this. Luckily mine didn't end up in r*pe, but I could still very much relate to the video. It was an older cousin, and the way it wasn't an instant disaster was so real. He did it multiple times, and those times sucked, but it was all back to normal once he momentarily stopped. The way it was two girls really hit home since I have a brother that witnessed what happened and while I suffered the sexual abuse, he went through the physical one. I was only a kid, couldn't have been more than 10, and he was a pre-teen at best. He ended up apologizing after I told the truth years later, but seeing that girl all alone in that shot really spoke to me, almost made me tear up. To this day I feel like nobody will ever truly understand my experience and my feeling toward it :( We need more videos like this, doesn't matter how disturbing it seems. If I had seen this, if the adults around me had seen it, maybe my situation could've been prevented..

[@Lolz-Lolz]

4:19 so basically the finger is digging into the child's private part thing so I didn't notice it before but now I noticed it now

[@-Astral-Star-]

As a victim of both COCSA and SA this video feels like it sees the objective of what it’s trying to imply and does it in a way that isn’t romanticized and fetishized which I appreciate a lot.

[@sevenpenceLOLZ]

what’s cocsa?

[@bubsyy]

@@sevenpenceLOLZchild on child sa

[@-Astral-Star-]

@@sevenpenceLOLZchild on child sexual abuse.

[@CorbinsNest]

​@@sevenpenceLOLZChild on Child SA. Where the abuser in the case is also a minor doing it another minor.

[@sevenpenceLOLZ]

@@CorbinsNest thanks

[@creepypeep6837]

I cry every time I watch that video. it’s such a sad and realistic depiction of what I went through and what many others go through

[@aircoway69]

i hope everything will be alright, you really deserved to be treated better!

[@BelphiezPillow]

At around 6:28 the caption said ‘po! pah!’ so it could possibly mean that their father did that to them.

[@qwertyuiop.lkjhgfdsa]

the subtitles have absolutely no or barely any actual basis in the video, theyre from when community captions existed

[@HalloweenHalloween-sc4jo]

@@qwertyuiop.lkjhgfdsa they actually do to an extent. In the comment section of the video, some people were mentioning what the captions said at some points and Nana (the creator of pokopokopikotan) liked those comments, something that he doesn’t do regularly.

[@dakota7865]

still struggling through my memories of when something like this was happening to me. had to deal with it for 3-4 years continuously (s/a & r*pe) and its been roughly 2 since it stopped. this shit really messes you up and it fucked up my perception of how relationships are. the parts that hit me the hardest were the hole and as it got more and more ‘tainted’, i cant do so many things or watch some of the coolest movies without it being a constant reminder of what was done to me. for anyone who is struggling with anything like this, please please please don’t be afraid to speak up. i know it can be difficult and i know sometimes people may not believe you but please. and for those of you who have survived things like this, never ever blame yourself. it will always be the abusers fault, never your own. you are so strong and i am so proud of you for how far youve gotten.

[@mochi_luvr23]

3:34 if you notice the little cat pj the blue cloud, it goes over to the hand and it starts raining on it, as if trying to “wash” away the dirty feelings, but failing.

[@inconveniencestore_]

I've suffered that trauma myself, but especially as a young man I was told I should be glad it happened, that I was lucky. Videos like this show how not only do these events take away your childhood but often you lose any memory of anything from those years but the incidents that occurred. A happy time turned into a vile pot of ooze.

[@starziezyippee]

I was genuinely disgusted at the “fingering” part ( when the hand was poking holes in the canvas ). I’m so sorry for any and all victims of sexual assault, regardless of age and gender identity. I hope you all have a safe and healthy recovery, stay strong, everyone

[@MeowKiii-]

7:10 I really don’t like that comment on it. People need to be educated on how bad this is and how it is continuing to spread because no one’s doing anything about it. There’s so many people who’s voices are never heard, so to get it out people need to show how horrible it is. I understand the chatter meant well likely and i don’t blame them, but really this stuff needs to be spread wether that’s on youtube or not. on the video as a whole: I think art is a wonderful way to show its impact and I really like how easy it is to get the message about how child sa ruins innocence and a persons life so bad there’s no return. The canvas is burned and there’s no way of restoring it to how perfect it once was. I’d like to see the artist make a another one of these showcasing how victims learn to live with it and get better with therapy and loved ones.

[@mamamiaWAAAHHH]

I never experienced sexual abuse but I was sexually assaulted, and it feels.. gross, even though it was two years ago. I have the feeling I'll never get over it. This is a very artistic way to describe sexual abuse, and I must say it's very creepy. I'm just glad survivors and victims are being represented and this topic isn't being glamorized. The effects can change you, and I'm glad it's being shown in this.. Props to every victim, you're a survivor!

[@Hannahtales]

…❤💔❤️‍🩹

[@neuvillette_thewaterlover]

The cat was protecting the girls, and that cat was probably the representative for parents, guardians, and others who care for you...

[@masterplaster2203]

the way the crying comes in once the darkness seeps in, i ain’t sleeping tonight 💀 love the vid ^^

[@v1olence..y2.]

As an S/A victim, the video that was reactedto really hit. It gave me memories and I'm still getting s/a'd. The video is a perfect explanation of how it is.

[@marilynmartindelcampo1273]

This got to me so much I felt that video because How horrible I felt go through a Horrible cycle as a kid. And that fact that you can't always trust ppl because some are horrible to kids and disgusting. I noticed myself When you get taken advantage of as a kid No matter how much it hurts always ask for help It took me years to ask for help and tell people that I trusted What happened to me as a kid. Keep your safe and ask for help ❤

[@mochi_luvr23]

im one year late, JUST discovered ur channel ❤️ i saw one comment saying this showed a perfect example of the quote: “Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comforted.” As a small artist, I agree, but art can be so moving in a way that it can make people feel or think things.