Sick of Being Sick | Lydia's Fight

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Resources
→ 101 self care ideas: anniewrightpsyc...
→ Mental health apps for your phone: fyoured.com/pos...
→ Online recovery support chat: chat.lookinggla...
→ GREAT recovery blog for when you're feeling down: fyoured.com/
→ How to Stop Bingeing (I have done this workbook and love it): brainoverbinge....
(let me know if you have any helpful websites or resources to add to this list. These are some of the ones I personally use.)
DISCLAIMER: I am not a psychologist and have no professional training. The advice and tips I give I have learned from personal experience and the experiences of those around me. Not everything will work, apply to, or be right for every one struggling, so make sure to critically think about whether what I suggest will further your recovery and be beneficial to your overall wellbeing.
If you are having suicidal thoughts or in an emergency or crisis, make sure you reach out IMMEDIATELY to your local support team and call 911, go to the nearest emergency room or follow the emergency instructions provided by your doctor, mental health professional or care team.

[@VintageCupcake077]

When you said "i'm so sick of being sick" I broke down. I totally get exactly what you are saying. It's so frustrating because you want to be okay but you can't be right away. You are amazing and remember that you have others to be there for you who may be fighting the same battle❤️

[@LydiasFight]

+RachelDiaries right? like I just want to be better now haha, I know it'll take time though, and that it's worth the fight, however long it ends up taking. Thank you so much, I will

[@LeluDa11asMultipass]

I honestly don't know what to say to you, because I don't know what to say to myself, & we're in the same boat. I think I only show the motivated sides of recovery; When there are plenty of bumpy days that I don't film because not only am I afraid, but I'm ashamed that I'm not doing this PERFECTLY & it's so hard when we have somewhat of an "audience" watching us recover. I actually JUST found your channel today, and you helped me calm down. I can say that you gave me hope on a bad day, and I commend you for your bravery. 💜

[@LydiasFight]

+Shannan Xtine Yeah it's super hard because you want to help others and inspire them, and I feel like if I am struggling I am letting people down and can't help them. I'm so glad you found my channel and it helped, I'm here cheering for you and sending you lots of love

[@LeluDa11asMultipass]

+Lydia's Fight exactly💕

[@mackowiaksarah7508]

It always amaze me how you're so brave and true. We're talking about ED, living hell. and we can't escape hell without getting hurt a bit on the road. Lydia, you're so brilliant, beautiful and smart that I can't imagine you anyway but happy and accomplished. I'm so far away from your mindset, from your detachment about your ED's voice but I swear you're inspiring me so so much. We're like a family now, and family helps one another ;) I ove you and support you

[@LydiasFight]

+Mackowiak Sarah Thank you so much!

[@MelanieSakowski]

Thank you so much, Lydia, you're so beautifully human. Thanks for showing your vulnerability and raw honesty. You're resilient and incredible xo

[@maureenseel118]

I feel you. Relapse happens so quickly and so easily...I'm so tired of it and just wish someone could hypnotize me into normalcy. But...it's one meal at a time. One day at a time. One battle at a time...and you got this.

[@kathleengish3815]

Thank you. I am struggling hardcore right now too.

[@annabrewer9009]

thank u for making this. it's so true. and u have a voice so u should fricking use it

[@SimplyKinz]

You've struggled before and you got through it, and we all know you have the strength Lydia to get through it again. Keep your head up high & never stop fighting xx

[@noarehring5375]

I think this is actually helpful in a different way. It shows that it's okay to have bad days it's okay for things to not go well and it validates that it happens. Thank you for this video and everything you do

[@mamaguerrera6919]

Praying for you

[@carolineaveritt7161]

We love you and your authenticity, Lydia:) You can do all the amazing things you've set out to do, and more! I'm so grateful for this channel.

[@LydiasFight]

Thank you so much

[@whatthehell8444]

Lydia you're the most couragous and strong person ever! don't forget that you're awesome and that we love you. stay strong and keep the grenat work❤❤👏👏👏😍😍😙😙😙

[@LydiasFight]

aw thank you so much!! You're the sweetest 💜💜

[@elevenbyfive]

i'm so so sorry you are going through this. I relate so much to finding it nearly impossible to say it aloud. I'm so proud of you for finding the courage to share this. It's heartbreaking to see how painful and hard this feels for you. Keep holding on. You don't deserve this torture. You are such a lovely, sweet, kind, fun, intelligent, thoughtful person. I hope it won't be long until you truly realise how much you matter and what a gift you are to the world. I hope you keep sharing the harder things because you deserve compassion and support and it is actually comforting to know i'm not alone in struggling, so i appreciate that too. You are very brave and you can do this oxoxoxo

[@LydiasFight]

+Punk Kimono I can't tell you how much your words mean to me, and how much I appreciate you and this comment. thank you so, so much

[@silviabesusso8589]

Keep fighting, those monsters will eventually go away. You're so strong! ❤️❤️

[@LydiasFight]

Thank you so so much 💜💜 I am!

[@purpleunicorn141]

Lydia- your videos always inspire me on my recovery journey. I hope you know how much you have helped me move forward and to continue to fight my ED. You are doing an amazing job and I am so impressed at your ability to be honest and open up!

[@LydiasFight]

this comment made me so happy, I'm so glad that my channel has helped you!! thank you so much! I'm here cheering for you, let me know if I can do anything to support you. Keep fighting

[@purpleunicorn141]

+Lydia's Fight love you and your videos 💕❤️

[@Rachelizabethompson3]

You can do it Lydia!!!! 😘😘

[@LydiasFight]

+Rachelizabethompson3 thank you

[@SourLemonade1224]

Hi there! I just discovered your channel recently and I just want to say a big thank you:) It's so brave of you to share your story and you've motivated me so much. Thank you again!

[@LydiasFight]

thank you so much!

[@loudelsalat]

I am sooo proud of you! I know how hard and challenging recovery is and how many times you just ask yourself why you're doing it and how many times you just want to stop. So I am so proud of you and every other fighter! I promise you all it'll get better and be worth it. And I think it's perfectly fine if you're honest with us about how you feel. That just makes it a 100% more authentic. As long as you're not triggering anyone - and I know that this will never happen - please keep talking to us like you do. Much love from Germany! :)

[@LydiasFight]

Thank you so, so much

[@LiiittlePeaches]

thank you lydia for this video i often feel the same and then i feel like a loser. but we are not alone in the end everything will be fine :)

[@LydiasFight]

+Luisa Without-O we're in this together

[@LiiittlePeaches]

+Lydia's Fight you don't have to be afraid of falling backwards. I think everybody has to focus this shit. but that is not what makes someone weak because you cannot make the voices stop that are inside of you head. what makes you strong is to stand up again en fight for your dreams! fight for your healthy and take you ed by the hand and tell her: i was in love with you and I needed you for some reasons but now I know why you started and I don't need you anymore to focus the deal problems. I strong enough to hold my head high and deal with all the emotions because there is really no solution in eating disordered. you know so much about yourself now, Lydia. you are stronger and even more clever than your ed. you can do this. it's not easy but you can do this. and even if the voices come across again you ca deal with them. you know what to do. i believe in you. we all know that you are a strong Person because you have already overcome a huge part of the stoney way. best wishes PS do you understand german?

[@alyssamarie224]

keep fighting girl, anything worth having doesn't come easy and sadly recovery is no different i know you can keep fighting and beat your ED

[@LydiasFight]

+Alyssa Marie thank you

[@alyssamarie224]

Lydia's Fight

[@emilyy6813]

You are so brave! I can feel your struggle and I really really hope you'll feel better soon. Keep fighting!

[@LydiasFight]

Thank you so much! I am getting back on my feet now (honestly thanks to these lovely and amazing comments)

[@Ginask2]

Lydia you're so brave! Keep on fighting, I believe in you! ❤️

[@LydiasFight]

Thank you

[@morganreardon5788]

I could see how hard it was for you to film this I'm so sorry your going through this. I totally understand what you are feeling when you talked about going back to treatment. I'm 18 and I've been in and out of treatment i know it seems safe there but the cycle of treatment over and over again doesn't always work. We have to find something outside of those walls to help us along the way. Don't get me wrong treatment is great and helps but it's not always the answer. I hope I'm making sense I love you and your videos your strong you can do this girl!!!!!!

[@LydiasFight]

+Morgan Reardon I totally get what you're saying, and it's so true! Lots of times my first reaction is immediately that I need to go back to treatment, but most of the time other solutions will work better. I'm working with my parents and therapist now to make things easier and work out at home, and leaving going to treatment as a last resort option. I'm also trying to hold on to all of the exciting summer plans I have that I would miss, and use those as motivation and a reason to stay at home and fight.

[@CroatianGirl98]

thank you. really needed this. recovery is definitely difficult, but we will make it xx

[@LydiasFight]

we're in this together

[@zimcatduckie2283]

Ur amazing keep fighting 💪

[@SlowSpace]

thank you. just thank you and we know but you spread hope and that's amazing.

[@LydiasFight]

+Juliet Anna

[@AngelFrost02]

I feel like you too, and I am here for you. You are such a beautiful girl and I love you so much!

[@LydiasFight]

aw thank you so much 💜 love you too and am here cheering for you! Let me know if I can support you in any way xx

[@AngelFrost02]

Lydia's Fight You're welcome. Right back at you :)

[@AngelFrost02]

Lydia's Fight I am definitely struggling with the decision of whether or not to go into the hospital as an inpatient this summer after I graduate high school... I seriously cannot even imagine how terrible I would feel in treatment because they force you to sit all day and not do ANY exercise! I think I would die... with that much restriction. I really do not want to go in.

[@joiascotland7656]

thank you for being so honest :)

[@LydiasFight]

+Joia Scotland definitely super nerve wracking, thank you for your support!

[@joiascotland7656]

+Lydia's Fight no problem! I completely understand why it would be! I hope you continue to be honest with telling us about your recovery as no journey is perfect! I think when you are completely honest about your ups and downs people can relate more to you :D

[@shellybird4304]

I never comment on KZbin videos. Ever. But, today, I was watching all of your videos because I have been hating myself lately. I ate too much food last night, and so I have been doing really hard workouts today, and I've been eating only a little food. I went for a walk about a half hour ago, and when I can back, I went to your channel and watched your eating disorder story video. And...I was wondering "when is she going to upload again?"....qnd then, the minute you said in your video that you planned to film updates, this video popped into my subscription box.....and I just felt like that was a sign. A sign that God is watching over us...I don't know. it just seemed like such a freaky coincidence, soi had to comment. I love you! 😊❤

[@LydiasFight]

+Shelly Bird wow! thank you so much for commenting, It means so much to me! I'm so sorry things have been hard for you too, I'm here cheering for you and sending you love! I'm so glad you found my channel and I really hope that it will be helpful

[@shellybird4304]

+Lydia's Fight Sure thing, and thanks for the words of encouragement! I'm praying for you. xxox :)

[@annabrewer9009]

and u r using it. it's fabulous and I love u and ur channel

[@annabrewer9009]

u can do this sweetie

[@jocelynorenda888]

love you!

[@mannarshbali4223]

Heyyy!!! Myself Mannarsh. I recently started watching your videos on KZbin. Your videos were amazing and they helped me a lot to understand what basically eating disorder is. I really need your help. My best friend recently came to know that she is suffering from this. She hasn't told anyone else except me, so I am trying my best to help her but as u said in your video I can only support her I can't be her therapist. So today she said let's ignore it and I am fine and I know she is not. I am so confused about what to do now. I really need your help. I will be waiting for your reply.

[@breanaperrin933]

I have a very unhealthy relationship with my own body image and food, which generally falls under the category of EDNOS. I restrict when I can get away with it, and hate myself when I can't. I don't want to admit that I'm having these types of problems, because I don't have health insurance, so there's no way I can afford treatment, and considering I haven't lost a very visible amount of weight it feel like mentioning it to people who would care, like my boyfriend, is trite and adds unnecessary worry...this seems like a good place to reach out and ask if there's any advice from the recovery community? I don't want to hate the food I love to eat anymore, and that voice in my head just takes so much energy I feel like I don't have as much for the things I love anymore.

[@ashvinik4075]

I've had a sort of similar experience to what you've described, and I want you to know that you're not alone. I think especially with EDNOS, there can be a feeling like you're "not sick enough" to have a real eating disorder, or you're not doing it as "well" as someone else because it's not as black and white, etc. But that is absolutely not true. You are sick enough, and you deserve recovery. Eating disorders are mental far more than they are physical. You do not need to wait until you are physically destroyed to admit the mental destruction that has already begun. Also, even though you may not be able to afford treatment- even though you may not be able to get a therapist and a dietician- you can still build a support team of the people around you who love you and want you to be free of any demon that is haunting you. You are not adding unnecessary worry by reaching out- this worry is very necessary, and the people who love you want to help you. You are worth recovery. You are not burdening anyone. You are freeing yourself, and that is so, so worth it. You do not have to live your life like this, you deserve so much more. Everyone I have ever told about my ED has been nothing but supportive and understanding, and I know that the people who love you will do the same for you. The ED voice will tell you that no one will believe you, that you are not sick enough- you have to know that your ED is lying to you. You can fight back, you deserve to, and there are people in your life who can and want to help you. Please, please fight for recovery. Your friends and family are your support team, and there is a whole community that you can reach out to if you need it. I know you can do this, best of luck.

[@Karolina-iw2ul]