Sick Of Losing Soulmates - original song || dodie

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A one take song with a cat roaming around in the background
Thank you Charlie for letting me borrow his pad. And his guitar. And his cat.
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what a strange being you are
god knows where I would be
if you hadn’t found me
sitting all alone in the dark
A dumb screenshot of youth
watch how a cold broken teen
will desperately lean on a superglued human of proof
what the hell would I be
without you
brave face talk so lightly
hide the truth
now I’m sick of losing soul mates
so where do we begin
I can finally see
you’re as fucked up as me
so how do we win?
I’m sick of losing soul mates
won’t be alone again
I can finally see
you’re as fucked up as me
so how do we win?
We will grow old as friends
I’ve promised that before
so what’s one more?
in our grey haired circle waiting for the end
time and hearts will wear us thin
so which path will you take
cause we both know a break
does exactly what it says on the tin
what the hell would I be
without you
brave face talk so lightly
hide the truth
now I’m sick of losing soul mates
so where do we begin
I can finally see
you’re as fucked up as me
so how do we win?
I’m sick of losing soul mates
won’t be alone againI can finally see
you’re as fucked up as me
so how do we win?
I won’t take no for an answer
---
written after a conversation that went on until the early hours of the morning
dedicated to a really silly boy who is my best friend and i sort of love him a lot

[@Paint]

holy shit

[@luMM02]

Thx you found the perfect words to describe how I feel right now

[@niamhkmcg]

Oh hi Jon! Hiding in the comments are we? How you doing?

[@kerstenchong2755]

Exactly how I feel as well

[@sammi-lea]

+Paint me

[@TiaFellton]

same jon

[@AndiesMints]

Sexuality: Dodie saying fuck

[@TiaRae101]

Ikr

[@kirakruegler6147]

same

[@jessnicol9745]

Oh my god! Yes!

[@Alexa-cj7ih]

YeS YES YES YES

[@StarMintaka]

+Pooch Pearson She curses a lot on her second channel :DD

[@rafa-kt5br]

for the girl i dedicated "would you be so kind" to... the girl i dedicated "absolutely smitten" to... i now dedicate this to you

[@rodhasmana7306]

i went through that exact process - i can now laugh and dedicate 'you' to her. hope you're doing okay!

[@august1224]

@@rodhasmana7306 couldn't relate more honestly

[@godieazul11]

I dedicated "Would you be so kind" too... now it's more like "Guiltless", i still care for her though, hope she's doing okay

[@rafa-kt5br]

@@rodhasmana7306 oh same actually! it took a while for me to get there but i did eventually

[@liam.deshuis]

fuck I felt that so hard

[@ian-ux6sn]

theres something so raw and powerful about her original recording of this song. this video is just a small, secret, quiet place that you visit when everything around you is too loud. when its time to rest but no one is giving you the space, and you just need to soak in all the things youve felt and bottled up for so long, becoming saturated in your feelings. i love her official recording. but theres just something here, on this corner of her channel thats so melancholic and enchanting.

[@mayasato856]

lily idk why but ur comment made me cry lol. “everything around you is too loud” just really hit me

[@crypt1848]

You did it! You broke down this video to it’s bare essentials

[@angelaliu4400]

I love this comment so much

[@singenstattatmen5096]

I will always prefer watching this to the official video (without wanting to say anything against the vid), it just feels so much more personal and I can play my own movie to it in my head, make up or remember the moments that fit it. I also really live the two different version of her 'My face' - the official one a cute bop, the other a sad little melody.

[@kennstenicht1788]

I love this community. For things like this and the way we enjoy and feel her music. It's so true

[@emilyxxx1418]

seriously youtube we need a button that's not a 'like' but an 'i emotionally connect with this it makes me happy and sad and angry and relaxed all at the same time' button i feel like i can't express how much i love this enough

[@lucymaelucy6]

Yesss! I was thinking "the like button isn't enough! I want to immerse myself in this song"

[@catherineprior6580]

you have a way with words my friend I couldn't sum it up but omg you describe it well

[@lucymaelucy6]

+Catherine “Cat” Prior thanks ^-^ it's just such a lovely song that has so much to it!

[@katieofthefae]

I need an emotional connection button

[@cupids_daughter2556]

Gurl this is so true.

[@evan]

I love you so much ahhhh

[@wherehavemypancakesgone8001]

+Evan Edinger Same.

[@naohmy]

ahhhhhhh

[@itshannahost]

DOVAN please :))) Love youuu both xxx

[@nikotatara4185]

+WhereHaveMy PancakesGone? I see a david tennant..;)

[@Cosmicatoms]

+WhereHaveMy PancakesGone? David Tennant is my husband

[@eveningstardraws_]

THE LITTLE SCRATCH THAT HER FINGERS MAKE AS THEY MOVE UP AND DOWN THE FRETS IS SO ATMOSPHERIC AND BEAUTIFUL ITS ALMOST LIKE SHE DID IT ON PURPOSE ITS SO COOL OH MY GOD

[@ettkonto7665]

Abi ThePerson whenever I play guitar and it makes that sound my guitar teacher gets annoyed at it and I’m like HOW IT SOUNDS SO PRETTY

[@junothestar1398]

I know right? Its so soothing and it fits the song so well

[@chloebingham6766]

you can try to make it quieter so i guess she kinda did it on purpose by keeping it as loud as possible? sometimes i press the strings harder just to here the noise lol

[@nannanaya_]

Valencia Okay ed sheeran has that in some of his songs and i always find those almost therapeutic 😔💓

[@swollenapocrypha]

Just classic finger noise, it's mostly audible on acoustics because it just resonates anything that comes through it, also different kind of strings and all.

[@mallorybivans5633]

i remember listening to this a few years ago and thinking "that sucks, i hope this doesn't happen to me", and it did.

[@armanirosetta4121]

me right now

[@lrchesus]

Catherine Brenner 7th grade dating’s a bit different than actual dating though, I don’t believe that you can have to ability to fully love someone in 7th grade

[@williamsilveira6853]

It happens to all of us, the curse of mankind

[@deragenfox3624]

@@lrchesus I wonder if the breakup would be so different? Like with running, the distance you are able to run changes with time. So like running a mile in the 7th grade would make you exhausted and running 4 miles at an older age, when you have grown, would give you the same level of exhaustion. My weird rambly point being, since u deal with it crap at a younger age, would the experiences really be that different? Just an idea, don't scratch please.

[@lrchesus]

Deragen Fox good points

[@sassyqueen5611]

The really beautiful thing about this song is, that everybody who listens to it, has a different person in their mind

[@Maikaiiii]

But it's so accurate for each person. It's funny.

[@alyssavocadoo]

This comment made me tear up a bit

[@Maikaiiii]

+Alyssa Driz :')

[@crystalm.223]

It feels as if I just got punched in the gut

[@panda839578567659610]

i'd have to agree with you there

[@franklynnn]

i've never kept a best friend for more than a few years. even just friends, or acquaintances, they all leave after a very short while. this hit me.

[@Jane-qr7eg]

Paige Mallory same :(

[@idkidk-ef4bd]

same

[@breelodwick9920]

Paige Mallory me too it hit me hard and it still does. But just keep moving forward because your in the dark hallway I started in and a lot of people started in too. But you will find a light to guide you through it. So see you at the end of the dark hallway that leads too a better place and world!!!

[@franklynnn]

brianna lodwick that's the sweetest most hopeful thing i've read all day thank you

[@edengallagher1044]

I've kept best friends, but even them I've drifted away from a little because of distance. And everyone else keeps drifting away too, especially this year

[@ninanoo6000]

The way Dodie said "Yeah." And stood up to stop the video without another word absolutely killed me. Shows how much the words really mean, doesn't it?

[@littlegaykids2263]

i definitely feel this, but not with lovers, with best friends, who i loved. a lot.

[@cali_dreamin216]

yeah...

[@andrew4363]

The songs about friends actually! Dodie said in her explanation video so it makes sense you relate. But obviously interpret the song how you want.

[@citrus_sours2285]

definitely, i've had to move away from a lot of friends and old silly crushes but it still hurts

[@nataliebranco6209]

Who else is totally and utterly obsessed with this song?

[@maggie1416]

Nati anne i listen to this song like every day im trash for dodes

[@honorrae]

ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@lamiasapphic]

MEEEEEEEE !!!

[@karenkollar2528]

ME! Also hello pham😋

[@shreksdonkey6544]

Nati anne I am v v v v v obsessed with this beautiful song sung by a beautiful being 😌

[@WhateverIsTrue01]

Dodie, you should release an EP/Album with all your wonderful original songs. I can guarantee I would buy it.

[@doddleoddle]

I'm working on it! Thank you so much :)

[@Bullitain]

+doddleoddle This is very good news and I am very excited for it

[@WhateverIsTrue01]

doddleoddle yayyy that's awesome! Can't wait!

[@marzipanda_]

yessss, definitely! :D

[@rhi6321]

+WhateverIsTrueASMR i would!!

[@rebeccabusby1118]

I used to get so sad and discouraged when my fingers would slide on the guitar strings, but listening to this has made me realize how raw and beautiful everything can fit together with that scratch

[@katiieproctor]

listening to this for the first time in a while. i've always been able to say "yeah i understand this i guess" but only recently has it hit me. there's a girl i know who's been my friend for nearly four years now and we've been through a lot. we've had huge arguments and i hated her for a while but now, at the end of it all, we're all each other has, and she's moving away. i'm a little bit in love with her and she's a little bit in love with me. this song makes me think of everything we've been through and everything we're going to lose if anything happens to us. i love her. this was a pointless ramble i'm sorry lmao

[@TheJuliana0901]

KatzeOwly I'm so sorry. I hope things have gotten better?

[@maddie2690]

KatzeOwly I hope you’re doing alright

[@katiieproctor]

maddie thank you for the reply. she’s across the atlantic now but i’ve never loved anyone more.

[@katiieproctor]

juliana freire it’s hard, but we’re both okay.

[@siobhanroberts169]

It's like I actually wrote this myself.... it's exactly the same

[@AJFes12]

" We will grow old as friends I’ve promised that before so what’s one more? in our grey haired circle waiting for the end " This line gets me really hard. I've promised that before so whats one more? It sounds like; no, I really like you and I don't want to be just friends but I see It's not working out but I really still want to be friends. I seems so sad because in the end they became just friends even though it seems she wants to be more. At least, they will grow old as grey haired friends

[@doddleoddle]

:) xx

[@AJFes12]

+doddleoddle omg asdfghjkll dodie replied i can die now. um I just want to say that I love you music covers and original music

[@cbb3480]

+AJFes12 ???

[@Maikaiiii]

Currently going through something similar^ Friendship just seems the better route with her though. I know all I want is to be around her though so if that means being just friends then that's what I'll be.

[@starwhale3797]

+

[@lulucth00lhu]

You all have someone in your minds, right?

[@noasagi6171]

yup

[@user-zd1yv8el2d]

Ill make you phil so good youll howell your username woah

[@adrianivy3778]

yeah and i want to cry ;-;

[@AlondraPerez]

Ill make you phil so good youll howell yup...definitely

[@milliep918]

yah... now they are gone

[@eggeggington3271]

It's this version specifically that makes my insides ache and hurt. This version where dodie is raw and breaking but not quite broken. It is so vulnerable, so pure.

[@caitlinmcnamee7705]

I met a girl a while back. She was me. We had the same mind and would (not even ironically) finish each other sentences that's how well we went together. I loved her. I still think to this day I've lost my soulmate. But one morning I woke up to a text. Because it wasn't my fault but she loves someone else. And she promised it wasn't my fault. And she told me that she was sorry. But that didnt cut it. So we broke. I haven't talked to her in 6 months and I miss her like hell.

[@kiwifit620]

Angie Hamilton She can't change her feelings,nor do you. If you miss her try calling her. Even if such an amazing person can't be there to support you romanticly,she might be able to support you in a friendly matter.

[@lilimo1384]

I had a crush on a straight girl and we finished each other's sentences too. We used to hang out all the time but then we didn't for about a month because I got sick and now we basically only talk about school and it's like we don't really know each other anymore. She didn't love anyone else, she just never had any idea about me liking her and I'm not even sure she knows I like girls... I don't really know why I'm saying all of this, I guess I'm just trying to convince myself I'm not alone by telling someone else they're not.. I know she isn't my soulmate but it felt good to have a crush for a while. Now it feels weird. I don't really miss her, but I deeply miss what we had.

[@hannahceniza8230]

Have you two talked? Are you okay? I need answers. Because I hope you’re doing well, stay strong

[@wafflesheep2087]

this is just happening to me now, so i know how it feels and it sucks so much. i hope you're happy now seeing you wrote the comment 2 years ago

[@ellen.13]

It's stories like that that make me wish polyamory (or at least some form of consensual non-monogamy) was more integrated into society than it currently is.

[@RainyBlueSkies]

Listen to 'Absolutely Smitten', then 'Adored By Him', then 'Pas De Deux', then 'One for the Road', then 'Sick Of Losing Soulmates'. Tears forever.

[@yasmindavis3363]

Oh my gosh thank you for this

[@MaddieDaw]

+A Self Called L Those ones are good too but all of those in order are connected. But Dodie said to keep the gossip to a minimum so I won't say who their about.

[@HeyRae]

Saga of sadness

[@georgehumph2526]

+AbstractAlien why'd you do that?

[@bethanysarah6881]

+AbstractAlien I was very confused. But now its like its all cleared up. Its amazing how music can do those things

[@sophiasoriano8413]

"Watch how a cold broken teen will desperately lean on a superglue human of proof." this lyric messed me up. its so freaking relatable, the way I interpret it. ❤

[@zoestyles5698]

+Sophia Soriano how do you interpret that line because it my favorite as well

[@sophiasoriano8413]

+Zoe Styles I interpret it I guess how it relates to me? Like I'm a young person and there was a stage in my life where I was so freaking sad and just felt broken inside and I relied on music and celebrities and singers to remind me that there was still good in the world. :) sorry if that makes no sense lmao

[@gingerpearce1730]

i interpret it as her seeing herself as a cliche; a broken teen leaning on another broken person who appears to have put them self together again, as if with superglue. She looks to this person as proof that it gets better. i dunno it makes me really happy to

[@justvlogs2352]

sophie marie I agree... I always rely on music and it helps me a lot especially when the most important people in my life leave me

[@chelseatill413]

i see it as her leaning on someone who is trying to be strong for her, but is just as broken and depressed as she is

[@lady_caiti]

There's no better mind-blowing marker of time than revisiting Dodie songs

[@Cookie_Comment]

OMG YES. THIS. when i found this was seven whole years old…

[@earthtokiwi8934]

IM CRYING IN THE CAR AND MY MOM JUST LOOKED AT ME LIKE "you good?" SO I GAVR HER AN EARBUD TO LISTEN TO THIS, SHE STARTED CRYING WITH ME

[@yesthatisababytoucan.youre6983]

Family bonding, I guess 😭

[@Cookie_Comment]

😞❤️

[@keirhi]

Sure

[@MsMogosBigBumps1]

Her songs would sound so amazing on vinyl imagine this with the crackle of a record player... Damn

[@charlottetaylor969]

ah my god that would sound amazing

[@zuzpager]

Omg i just imagined the sound and i have literal chills. What a perfect combo

[@BriBryontour]

Stop writing songs that make me cry

[@daphnenolin5610]

Same

[@audreyimogen2957]

+Bry It's getting ridiculous

[@doddleoddle]

^_^

[@alaynagray3225]

+Bry omg same

[@rosieking5351]

Same tbh.

[@corinneelaine3310]

Hey, To be completely honest.... I miss you every day. Not one day goes by that I don’t think about us or what we used to be. I know we weren’t ever in a relationship but that doesn’t change the fact that whenever I hear your name I feel pain because I know you won’t ever be mine. I love every little thing about you, your smile, your laugh, the way you would joke about things to make me feel better, your eyes and the way they crinkle up when you tell stupid jokes. You might not be my soulmate but you sure are someone I want more than anything. I don’t know if us not being together hurts you as much as it hurts me and I hope it doesn’t. But you should know that when I see you it feels like I’m on a roller coaster, my stomach in nots, my heart in my throat, it’s hard to breathe, but it’s good. I want to feel that way. I want someone else to make me feel that way. I want to make someone feel that way. Because we both know we aren’t meant to be. You were my everything for a long time. The moment I start to forget you though, I see you again and can’t get the thought of you out of my head no matter how hard I try. Every day I wish for you. Please don’t ever forget that you’re MY stupid ugly pigeon. - Love, YOUR stupid ugly pigeon.

[@justmart4455]

Damn dude, hoped you've spread your wings and taken off to to sky and beyond. I'm here for you ❤️

[@benjiroy8774]

I connect to this very strongly because I have a straight friend that I was genuinely in love with for a time, but as life got busier and we couldn’t see each other as much, I eventually had to grow apart from him and it was really rough. We still hang out from time to time, but thinking of what I used to feel crushes me.

[@johannaplockl463]

The whole dodie community feels like a pinterest and reddit post at the same time

[@micahfield3943]

You shut your dirty, accurate, mouth 😂

[@MelanieBakerMusic]

fucking hell dodie this is so painfully beautiful

[@haileysopher7597]

+Melanie Baker AGREED!!!

[@emilypearson5957]

I relate this song not to a romantic relationship but to a friendship that didn't last as long as it should have- just goes to show how amazing music is that we can all hear the same thing yet see something different than others might

[@justbxcca]

Same for me, it reminds me of a guy who literally saved my life last summer. We were really good friends a couple of months but just overnight he started ignoring me and every time I tried talking to him he shut me down. It just makes me sad because he promised he would stay, even through rumours etc (alot of people gossiped about our guy-girl friendship)... sorry for telling you this btw, you probably don't care ^^

[@allydening4241]

Truly Becca I feel you and I'm terribly sorry that you went through that and that nobody born after 1970 knows what platonic means when it comes to guy girl friendships

[@emilypearson5957]

I had a similar situation too, hope you're feeling better about it though. Sometimes friendship breakups are the worst kind of breakups Xx

[@charlotteutschig2010]

I totally care, I have a friend who means that to me too and I'm terrified of losing him. I hope that you can feel better as time goes on. I have full faith that you can, it just might take a little while. It sucks :( If you need another friend, I'm always here.

[@arushiseth3979]

Emily Pearson its just that without even realising we give so much of our lives to people,the investment though unknown hurts.

[@allietheunicat8192]

Even 6 years later, I come back to this song and can still feel the twisting in my stomach

[@badjokes1016]

this song can both represent the calm, the eye of a hurricane where you're sitting there, in the violent mess of the storm with them, just holding each other, and preserving yourselves from each other, and the horrible swirl of disgust and sadness that washes over you when you've let a soulmate slip through your fingers, and i think that's beautiful.

[@lucymoon]

god i love this

[@acciobia]

lucy

[@bxccaphanaf7754]

Love you Lucy 💗

[@laurenheath6227]

ME TOO!!!!

[@malakgamal8363]

SAME AND I LOVE YOU

[@miriam4951]

God I love you.

[@TomSka]

This is absolutely beautiful.

[@doddleoddle]

Thank you Tom :D

[@megang5906]

wow no more replies

[@RealNathanLehn]

Megan Gault we’re special

[@mashudlehwan3151]

@@RealNathanLehn hi im gonna join you special ppl

[@RealNathanLehn]

CPZ Nadifa welcome!

[@mariomanno1]

I remember this dropping like it was yesterday now it was almost 5 years ago. Still my personal favourite version of the song.

[@lilali9797]

im gonna waffle but, anywaYS i always go back to this original version -- stripped down, only a few edits to add in those harmonies, just a guitar and dodie's voice. yes, the EP version has its own memories for me, but this song is the one i listened to everyday for the loneliest christmas of my life back in 2015. it made me realise in 2016 i will and probably should lose my "soulmate" and it was crushing, but it was necessary. it gives me nostalgia when it's only one and a half-ish years since i listened to it. i love the EP version, i cried to it a whole lot. but this raw version of the song will never get old for me. it's a reminder for me to cherish the moments i have with the people i love. those can be fleeting. you can lose those people. so try and don't.

[@andrew4363]

Lil Ali I always listened to the ep in school when we could listen to music and before I went to sleep. So I now just have this drowning anxiety attached to it, think hearing your alarm in a different context.

[@LilyJns]

No one can say 'fuck' as gracefully as you dodie 💖

[@xen_x27]

Lily. Jns ur so right *cries* sniff ugh ur so right *sobbing rivers now*

[@maryellisstevens76]

Exactly. She like whispers it like it's any other of her powerful words and just in that it's beautiful.

[@curlykeys8261]

Imagine if Doodie and Ed sheeran wrote a song together

[@AnnaBeth221b]

Oh my goodness! I didn't know I wanted this, but now I really do! The world of beautiful, brilliant songwriting would just implode!

[@the_hylton5449]

DUDE, I FUCKING NEEEEEED THIS

[@jenncampbell469]

That would be amazing.

[@kit4910]

I like how no one mentioned that they called her Doodie! XD

[@cbb3480]

DreamKit I did...?

[@Cookie_Comment]

something about the fact that this video is SEVEN WHOLE YEARS old now… oh my. what a sweet nostalgic masterpiece. :(

[@noodlenorman5736]

Dedicated to a silly boy who is my best friend and i kind of love him a lot. This is why you read descriptions folks, that was beautiful Dodie x

[@helenanderz]

Getting some Daughter feels from this. You need to totally bring out an ep. Beautiful music xx

[@martinaboccaleoni5616]

+Helen Anderson if you guys did a collab my life would be absolutely complete.

[@ivey-pz7rp]

Oh yesssss

[@mimi-iu9mh]

HELEN 😍😍😍😍

[@ihavenosociallife7826]

+PinkDiamond7777777 I ruined it lol

[@PinkDiamond7777777]

Then click like, I shall. :)

[@amandaf8561]

love songs are interesting because almost everyone has a different person in mind when they hear one

[@aoifeisasocialdisappointme7210]

Amanda Frieser Well fuck

[@milliezie8546]

Amanda Frieser well I don't have anyone in mind xD

[@amurray6364]

Aoife is a social disappointment nice name

[@aoife4187]

+Aoife is a social disappointment I think I've found more Aoifes I can relate to

[@user-rq4qp9tf9n]

Not everyone, you never know who they talk about. You never know if some talk about the same person.

[@bongwater8692]

I remember watching this non stop last year and the lyrics lingering in my mind constantly. I was derealised almost all of the time without knowing what it was i was dealing with, and losing friends until i had pretty much none. I was sick of losing soulmates because i was lost in my head and detached from the real world, but i was desperately waiting for that person to 'find me all alone in the dark.' Its a year later and i now have a friend who i've known since the beginning of 2017 and while shes pretty much my only friend she's fucking great. I'm still spaced out and detached, which is almost just a constant thing i've learned to get used to and i'm now getting help. Its not as bad as last year though, and this time i have someone who helps bring me back to reality. Listening to this song now is so strangely hopeful and warm, instead of the loneliness, numbness and longing i had felt only a year ago. I see the song differently now, and its a beautiful reminder of how little miracles can turn utter shit into moments of true happiness because of 1 person. Thanks again Dodie for your beautiful music xx

[@peach8909]

Its been a long time since I've listened to this song. This version in particular tbh... Its so raw and filled with pure emotion and I remember never wanting to feel like how this song sounds. Now here I am, resonating with the song more than i thought I ever would. Watching someone grow distant hurts so much, especially when they were someone you found home in

[@Thomazpaul]

Since Dodie's community is like the best community on KZbin, I feel comfortable enough to share this story. I'm an aspiring actor/comedian and I have dedicated at least half of my life to become best perform I can possibly be. There is only one thing I have deeply struggled with over the last couple of years: being emotionally open in the moment. I, being raised by two psychologists, have already figured out why I struggle with this particular point of performing. I periodically have been bullied for the way I behaved as a child and as a teenager. This bullying has always been about me becoming emotional to easily. I was an easy kid to upset which resulted in me crying or getting extremely angry. I kinda hated myself for being to sensitive and figured that I had to get myself under control if I wanted to make a bunch of friends. (fun sidetone: between 12 and 15 years old I didn't even have one at my school) And because I already had a lot experienced with acting I took this extremely seriously. I started to use some of my acting skills to keep my emotions and connect with people. Not being that genuine I had just a limited amount of succes. But after struggling for a couple long months I suddenly got accepted into a Twelve guys strong friend group. I felt relieved and immediately got accepted for how I was and forged some of strongest friendships to date. However, I kept on being a very emotionally collected person and I pushed a lot emotions away for the sake of being socially successful. During this period of hang-outs, parties and other lovely nonsense I got accepted into this high-level comedy school where I had so much fun exploring the craft of theatrical comedy. In a short period of time I earned a lot respect from the teachers for the way I produced material, but I still was lacking emotional openness. It now has been 3 years since we have stumbled upon this problem for the first time and while having small I haven't really opened up emotionally as much as I wanted. But today I had class in songperformance and I was going to sing this song for the first time. I have always loved this song for obvious reasons and just went for it. Then after the first trial (test round) the teacher asked for my interpretation of the song. For me this song is about being grateful for having close bonds with people in your surroundings and also being afraid of losing those bonds for what reason whatsoever. Then we went on for the second attempt and suddenly song just hit me. The song hit me so incredibly hard, not only the melody and structure but just every word that you have to sing. I saw flashes of all 12 of my dear friends that accepted me when I most needed them and just broke. When I reached the second verse I felt every line I had to sing. The pain, the beauty, the fear of losing what you value so dearly. Today I finally reached the emotions I had pushed away for the last couple of years and once again I felt relieved. This wouldn't have been remotely possible if Dodie hadn't written one of the realest flipping songs I know to date. Even my collected teacher cried during this class and she doesn't even cry over the best of songs. Dodie, I just want to say thanks for the help on my journey ;) and keep on being awesome. I'm stoked to dive into your album and have a great time the creative little wonder that you are. Kind regards and thanks for reading, Thom

[@estefanicruz3688]

Thomazpaul I can really relate to this !

[@astraeaflorence]

This, this is beautiful. Thanks for sharing your story.

[@thatgirlsaz]

i cried reading this i'm so happy emotions exists omg this sounds so cheesy but i relate to you being "oversensitive" and hiding it to the point you can't even feel them anymore is a struggle no one has to go through... i'm happy you are the real you again and i'm happy that you were helped by music (and especially dodie's) it is really inspiring

[@elisabilllopez33]

i am so emotional. i cry over everything. everything.

[@mallmoth]

dammit, making me emotional out here and shit IM SO GLAD, GOOD FOR YOU BUD!!

[@emilyroeser3998]

This song has more meaning to me now than ever. The night before I went to see you in concert up in Akron, my boyfriend of almost 2 years, the boy who told me that he loved me more than life itself, who had dreamed up this amazing future with me, said that he wanted to break up, and that he hadn't even been himself the entire time I knew him. Which hurt so badly. But then, the next morning, he said that he didn't want to break up, he was just having a hard time with the fact that he was living 2 1/2 hours away from me, and he was confused, and he had wanted me to fight it instead of just laying down and taking it. In the end, we decided to take a 2 month break. So we were in limbo, as I was spending the weekend with him at his parents. Plus, he was the one taking me to the concert, as I can't drive. And then you played this song, and when you sang, 'So which path will you take, cause we both know a break does exactly what it says on the tin', I just started crying. It was so beautiful, and so sad, and so incredibly timed. Getting to hug you at the end of it all was honestly so surreal. I think I said 'thank you' about a billion times, because that was all all could think of that summarised my feelings towards you all. So I'll say it again. Thank you.

[@swimmerboy172]

Yep, Hanni brought me here. Great song

[@SamanthaSchucker]

4 years later and this song still strikes such a deep chord within me, almost a sense of painful nostalgia. so so good

[@littlepolkadot]

The best part about this song is that everyone feels the lyrics differently. Maybe some people's are similar, but never the same.

[@davidvangerven5651]

+

[@erinwilliams8402]

++

[@abbeythomas3890]

Sorta Grump O

[@katyblankenship5973]

this is so beautiful, the progression you have made. Something about this song feels so right. You traded your ukulele for a guitar, you traded your sunshine smile for an honest tear, you traded the bright white images and background for a dark nighttime one, and even if it's just for this video, it feels so right. I know your sixteen year old self is smiling at this Dodie. You've grown so much.

[@doddleoddle]

I'm crying at this comment omg

[@emilyeliza6930]

when u come back to this song just cry because you know that your friends are gonna drift apart from you, even though they are all you have anymore.

[@nelrayven7624]

You can even hear the sadness and anger in her voice.

[@ojosabiertos8424]

who else can see something in her singing. it feels like she was going through a lot when she recorded this version. that's why I came back to this video. there's a lot of memories and feelings floating around, so intense.

[@abbyhedrick4332]

that little "yeah" at the end was the saddest thing ever omg

[@Shanelle_430]

I'm here after i watch hanni's vlog

[@Lytchiie]

I hadn't thought about this song for quite a while... God this version is still as powerful as the first time I heard it when it came out. I think about how much my life changed since then, how much I've lost. I hope a few years down the line I'll be able to look back again and see positive changes for once.

[@willparry]

what is it like to have a soulmate?

[@brielizabeth4344]

Will Parry Safe. Comfortable. Right

[@jeenfall8290]

I couldnt said it better

[@coldbrokenteen9826]

how i would describe it is always having a home. 'no matter how far away they are, you know that you're home when you're talking to them. it's just this unexplainable love that you feel when you talk to them, where it feels like nothing in the world matters except for that person. it's the person that can make you feel okay when you definitely are not okay, the person that makes you feel like you have someone when you feel completely alone. it's like you complete each other, and without them you would be a mess.

[@edengallagher1044]

I love these answers

[@megkenny3073]

elise Kylin I wish I could experience that, I guess I haven't met the right person (or any person for that matter) yet

[@kuki.nailart]

you're like regina spektor

[@doddleoddle]

^_^

[@panda839578567659610]

except better!

[@WeAllLovePineapples]

or the Staves!

[@alicechamings4758]

That's what I thought! Love them both 😊

[@helehm]

i love them both so much

[@isthatkate1]

this is my favorite version of this. i just cant describe how this makes me feel. i think maybe it makes me feel scared??? this past year i've gotten really close with my now best friend and i dont want anything to go wrong my god

[@KN-fh8mh]

when you’re so alone you don’t have a friend on your mind to connect this song with

[@drew2415]

i hope you find someone :)

[@KN-fh8mh]

@@drew2415 thank you!!!:))this means a lot to me!!in fact i’ve made a lot of friends since then&just had a wonderful evening with some of them. i believe your wish helped all these come true and i hope you all the best too💗

[@erika4920]

One year since this and now has it on her very first EP. I'm so proud of her 💕💕💕

[@debbiec.9314]

Light!

[@elizapotato4378]

Erika Light! (Phan trash AF be like LADDERS!!)

[@bk7962]

IS THAT BABY PHILLY? AWWWW

[@nataliadussan6709]

Erika and this song has it's own VEVO video too

[@loizerz]

baby phillip.

[@chloemason6204]

I wanna put this in my coffee and drink it every morning

[@GeorgeTheHorse]

Okay......

[@lucyaddabbo9842]

how is that so true tho

[@punkinghost]

actually makes sense somehow

[@imadreamer1507]

I'd put it in my tea every moment of the day.

[@meganthememe1987]

idk why that made sense to mE BUT YES

[@rebeccaogden4583]

Every once in a while I come back here, mostly to look through these comments. I watched this when it came out and I’ve rewatched it along with every new relationship and heartbreak. Timeless song

[@Celimion]

I can't believe this is more than 3 years old. I still remember exactly who and where I was. A lot has changed. Nothing has changed. It's a freaking circle and there I am, at the starting point.

[@jayashrishobna]

"A break does exactly what it says on the tin." That's one of my favourite lines ever.

[@mahaliahudson1615]

Explain it for me?

[@Angelina-bp8cs]

@@mahaliahudson1615 People like to say that they're taking a break in their relationship, like a pause, but what ends up happening is that it ends up breaking the relationship like a fracture instead

imagine dodie and ed sheeran collabing I'm actually crying that would make my life

[@kazoobard8589]

IM IN TEARS THEIR COMBINED AESTHETICS AND MUSIC STYLES AND VOICES AND JUST ASDFGHJKL

IKR

[@katek8311]

OMG I never even thought about that but omg yasss 0.0

[@danimccrum172]

Don't even it's my dream my two fav artists

[@nurysacevedogaete3830]

You just have ruined my life, it would be perfect!! I love both of them 😍😏

[@chahlie.]

im listening to this while writing a letter to my childhood self. she was so awesome, beautiful, ambitious. i wish i was still her. and i miss her so much.

[@natashapontes1314]

I remember when i listened to this video for the first time 8 years ago. What I good nostalgia. I just remember of this song today in a random afternoon. It's good to be back here listening to you Dodie

[@sleebs]

i love the sound when you move your fingers on the fingerboard. it just makes me so happy

[@MazzyMadness]

selsab fingerboard😂 fretboard. But yeah I agree, gives me the tingles

[@dollspace01studios8]

I thought I was the only one who felt that way omg 😍😍😍

[@melododie]

Ikr

[@mika4269]

ME TOO THE FUC

[@AlyCatVideos]

Fingerboard

[@murry_monster]

Dodie Pleaseeeeeeeee make a CD with your beautiful songs!

[@krispaiige7611]

YES

[@davidvangerven5651]

+

[@fruitoson4227]

TAARDISSSSSS

[@chloec7684]

Shes said before that she'd recording some of her songs in a studio to release as an ep :)

[@sevwashere]

+Chloe C EEEEK

[@ihe4rtmitski504]

I’m listening to this in 2020 and am having so many emotions. I love this song a needed to hear it again. I’m having a really hard time and Dodie is just an amazing artist and singer. I love listening to her when I am feeling down. She’s great💕

[@michaels5723]

lol this song showed up in my 2018 snap memories and man. this past year has been hell

[@oddtop5122]

Dodie can you please put your music on spotify, it would be the greatest thing in the entire world.

[@lucia-dw5fo]

YES

[@lill1tha525]

Yes please

[@MadMrCrazy]

+Yellow Sandwich that can be expensive. I think the cheapest I saw was like 10 dollars per month(or was it songs?)

[@kaylasims6717]

+MadMrCrazy either that or 0.99 a month for three months

[@MadMrCrazy]

Kayla Sims That's not that bad. Huh.

[@lucymoon]

This is my favourite thing you've ever written. It's got this delicious Lucy rose vibe that warms my insides

[@inevitableignoramus6301]

Hehee I agree ☺️

[@StarMintaka]

+meowitslucy Lucy Rose, yeesss!

[@doddleoddle]

My lovely lovely Lucy x

[@flippa00md]

This was one of the first of dodie’s songs that I heard, almost three years ago - I remember instantly liking her - and now I’ve just bought tickets to see her live for the first time and i can’t believe its actually happening

[@nneptunem]

this version always hits different

[@fruityeel]

Dodie's channel is like a safe little home for me right here on the Internet :D

[@zoeyriches]

+Amelia Lozano asdfghjkllkjhgfdsaasdfghjkl

[@joker79246]

+Smol Phan Child same

[@ellafriesen7226]

omg that's so true !

[@rowley7016]

i know right???

[@cheesecakesryummy]

I always go to Dodie's channel when I feel unhappy or stressed or just feel like utter shit, she really is a little reassuring home🏡

[@sleeping885]

"i wish i could play the guitar"

[@chiaraa9880]

I'm just gonna say 'hi ukey punk' everytime I see you now 😂😂

[@gemmatribbia1932]

+Chiara Andrighetto True. I see Ukulele Punks everywhere

[@chiaraa9880]

+Gemma Tribbia YOU'RE ICON FOX THINGY IS TO DIE FOR IT IS SO DAINTY AND NICE AHH 👀💜

[@gemmatribbia1932]

+Chiara Andrighetto Haha thanks :)

[@emilyrog8929]

He was my first love and then we stopped liking each other and after a month of arguments everyday he ended it, that was 10 months ago. We tried to be friends like we had said we would when we inevitably broke up but we couldn’t go back to how we were because there was just too much history. The sad thing is that if we had been older it may have worked because we were too immature and stupid to handle everything life threw at us both. I’ve been telling myself recently that it was toxic; not just the final straw but all the way through but I think that’s just to make myself feel better and to distance myself from it and from him. I have issues most likely caused by that relationship but I don’t think I’m ever going to be able to feel that way about anyone ever again and I keep waiting to feel better. Last Christmas we were together in the hols and so this one is proving harder than anticipated and has really struck a nerve I thought had gone. I keep waiting for him to change his mind but he won’t and I know it’s done and it’s such a sad thing EDIT (1 month later) he was sat in the orthodontist when i left yesterday and i sat in the car park of sainsbury’s and cried and i’m crying again it’s been so long when will i be ok EDIT(probably another month later?) on the 2nd it was a year since you ended it, i thought it would be easier but you’ve started talking to me again when i’m around. i think it was easier to be ignored. you’ve moved on countless times and so have i but mine was only pretend. i still find ways to kid myself you still care about me and what i think but you don’t and i know you don’t. i decided a few days ago that it wasn’t as good as i remember and i don’t miss you as much as i do because memories get better and more vivid the longer ago they happened but i just miss talking to you and knowing you think of me. i tell myself the facts but i can’t stop the twinge i get when you talk to me

[@melindahayflinger6090]

This was my 2018 'summer song'. it makes me think of every day spent at 'our' park, ordering pizza at the pool, and then getting kicked out when it closed at 9 pm. We'd bike home, listening to the crickets and cicadas. Towels on our shoulders, sweatshirts thrown over still-damp bathing suits, and half-empty cans of soda in our hands. I wish I could go back and tell myself to treasure it, and to not waste the time when mental health wasn't a problem. When living in the moment was fun and normal, and not painful or disappointing.

[@katieburgess6322]

Who's here after listening to the ep version? ❤️❤️

[@smoewoe]

Katie Burgess mE

[@louthecat8927]

Katie Burgess moi

[@louthecat8927]

French yeh hehe I'm that fancy

[@AbcDef-hz4lg]

Yepp

[@AndyFraserVideo]

Katie Burgess no I'm listening to it before

[@DanielaMBiah]

Repeat, repeat, repeat, repeat

[@tehSteahdy]

Daniela! You listen to Dodie? Woahhhh

[@hello-qz5nt]

+Lynx The Glorified heh it's doddle 😅

[@dnnsthmnc]

+lσѕтѕσυl 33 Her name is Dodie, as you know as doddleoddle.

[@mustachesandpickles]

+lσѕтѕσυl 33 its dodie :))

[@airsea602]

I remember first hearing this when I was breaking ties with a friend of mine that I had gone on some very hopeful dates with. He helped me get the space I needed from my toxic relationship and I attached myself to the idea of him. He reminds me of the the blue the background of this video. Thank you so much for this, Dodie.

[@Boosaidthewind]

Words can't really express what this song means to me. I loved it when she first uploaded this and later it made me feel like home in the middle of my first year at uni where nothing seemed permanent and everything was confusing. It made me sob when I heard her play this live a couple years back because I was instantly transported back to that year when everything was confusing and sad and how this song was my personal little corner of comfort. And I still love this song so so much.

[@rachellily]

This is my new 'Novels' by Rusty, that's the biggest compliment I can give you xx

[@doddleoddle]

honestly, that's the best compliment I could ever get!

[@mizumoon3575]

+doddleoddle is it okay if i write my own version of this song? (I'll give you credit of course)

[@panda839578567659610]

+curlywurly its absolutely amazing. 100% agree

[@oliviamiller-davis4667]

+Mizu Moon what do you mean by your own version?

[@Sneha-Anatra]

+Olivia Miller-Davis dear i suggest you go listen to dodie and rusty singing to Novels - the beginning and description explains it all

[@hannasummers4771]

Oh god, I tried to control myself, but I'm crying now. May I be young, but I've been through too much, and I've never really had anyone to turn to when I'm falling away because everyone I get close to leaves. Now I know how cheesy that sounds, how cliche - but there's no other way to put it. Everyone I've ever became best friends with somehow leaves, whether it's from switching schools or moving or just becoming someone else. It's gotten so bad that I don't want to even try to become friends with someone because I know they'll somehow disappear. There's only one other song that I have been able to relate to as much as this one, especially the "We will grow old as friends, I’ve promised that before, so what’s one more?" line. I've lost so many, I've been told I would be best friends until the end by so many people and have said it myself...they never do. God Dodie, I've never met anyone I can relate to in this way, and we've never even met in person. All I can find words for is...thank you.

[@Tdawgg.]

On the topic. Just Another Ghost sitting here on my bed thinking about life. I'm Sick of losing soul mates. That is all.

[@imconfused801]

I feel you. I have a best friend, and I'm so lucky to have her, but I didn't realize our friendship could be so strong until 4th grade three years ago (we met in kindergarten). Who knows, your best friend could be so close and you don't know it.

[@MadMax-fg4cc]

I learned this song when i was 13 years old, madly obsessed with a girl older than me who for obvious reasons would never give me the time of day, fighting with myself about my sexuality and my gender, feeling like an alien amongst my peers. Now at 20 years old, i sit in my little flat, that i share with my fiance, with my silly little tattoos, my three rabbits and when i pick up my guitar, this is the first thing i play. I sit with my chin on the curve of my guitar and sway with the music. Diagnosed as autistic, with my gender clinic appointments marked on the calendar, i dont feel so weird anymore.

[@rafaeljunqueira8045]

This is my favorite version of this song. Love how you fish with "Yeah".

[@PhoenixPrincessLove]

This is the type of song that makes me want to go message everyone I haven't talked to in forever because of anxiety

[@gentleguillotine2315]

I relate to this song quite a bit. I was friends with this guy, who is a great person who kept me from killing myself multiple times. This guy liked me and I knew, I liked him but I couldn't figure out if it was platonic or not. I figured out that it wasn't platonic too late and he moved on. Every time I talk to him I'm in pain, but at least he doesn't hate me and we're friends

[@ribohe7295]

Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. I hope your ok. Keep him even if he's 'just' a friend. He seems to be a great person who can look after you and help you. The pain you're feeling now will pass and you'll end up with a beautiful, deep friendship eventually. :)

[@gentleguillotine2315]

ri bohe Thank you. That made me smile

[@ribohe7295]

+Brynn Meyer You're welcome :) Keep your chin up.

[@meganthememe130]

I have a similar guy friend well used too. I couldn't tell he was only hurting me becuase he was playing with my anxiety and pretending he was going to hurt himself to scare me. when I came close to suicide He told me to just sick it up and do it. it breaks my heart to this day. I cannot stop talking to him and pretending he's my friend becuase I can't let go of such a long friendship. I'm here for you I feel you. it's tough to get through this, but it's not impossible let me know if you need someone to talk to and I'll be sure to make it happen. stay strong

[@gentleguillotine2315]

bands andanime Thank you. Im very sorry that you had to endure that. I hope you can move over him if he's hurting you

[@mauralavenders]

I’ve never listened to this version of the song before and i kinda like the faster tempo

[@junkacct5954]

it’s so weird to come back to the original recordings on youtube. there’s just the raw emotion of the video versus the studio recording that just adds a whole new layer around the song

[@TamaraEster]

one of my favorites memories relate to dodie's music is when I get lost because I was having and anxiaty attack and I put this song for calming myself while I was walking to the right place

[@fox_6174]

Same :)

[@cris-qi9hs]

i was thw same but cutting and hitting myself a week ago and i heard his beautiful voice and i jusy calm down

[@TamaraEster]

+Cristina Vizcaino Oww :( please don't hurt yourself.

[@cris-qi9hs]

+Tamara Ester (Fishi) dude if i hadnt did that i would have beaten someone elde abd nobody else than me deserves alltñ yhe hate for my awful existance... btw do you speak spanish?

[@TamaraEster]

+Cristina Vizcaino Sí, y creo que no deberías cortarte. Aunque en el momento parezca una idea buena o la única opción.

[@maeeshalt]

this was mine and my friends song like when ever we fucked things up we sent this to each other and that was like a signal for yeah we screwed up now lets fix this

[@bbyg4831]

i love that

[@awkwardadeline8679]

that's cute

[@uwillalwaysbefamous]

hey, i miss you. even though you're not dead i can still feel your soul looming around the tight and small hallways of our school. everytime i pass your old locker ill think of you. everytime i feel my breath collide with my arms ill feel your breath colliding with my arm. everytime your name passes the lips of another person the pain in my stomach will be because i miss you. i have never met anyone like you and i don't think i ever will but what we had was amazing for how little it lasted. it was amazingly small like a intricate firework, each line of the star making another star and so forth. i remember the day you left. hand collided with my cheek and i heard you. you didnt utter any words but i felt you, heard you. but then you left. i hope you know ill be here. but i can't keep waiting for you to come back. i need to move on but it hurts. it hurts to think every other person leaves in a literal sense of a metaphorical one but one day ill pass your locker, breathe on my arm, hear someone mutter your name ill just think of all the times we had. those were all ours. its unlikely that you hare still thinking of me. Honestly i hope you are but i know i shouldn't be hoping that. from, that weird guy from your 5th period.

[@skipdistic1]

god this popped up on my timeline for the first time in 8 years... how I used to listen to this on repeat... the nostalgia this brings is crazy

[@angela_grace3]

"dedicated to a really silly boy who is my best friend and I sort of love him a lot" please be Jon Cozart

[@belleboo7601]

Yes I ship

[@Al-yz4nr]

its to Sammy Paul

[@emilyb2375]

woah it is? where do they say that?

[@franci1117]

If you're talking about the Sammy sitch, they used to date. I think Dodie said it on Twitter. I read it an a sketchy article site once lol

[@THEHOUSEOFBARKINGLAUGHTER]

When sammy tweeted about her ep, she thanked him for letting her write a song about hin

[@dontmintme]

now i want to tattoo this on my forehead thanks

[@elishamaegraham3445]

same XD lol

[@meganthememe1987]

same

[@shannonbellofatto4258]

absolutely adore this version

[@stellae.procidens]

Brooklyn. It's been a little bit but I still remember. That's my person who's yours