Sometimes the lights go off, so you can see the beauty of your own

[@NikasInnerBeauty]

Well this is a bit nervracking! I feel like I haven't been really vulnerable and honest on here in a while 😬🤞🏼

[@HannahlovesStories]

Nika, thank you for sharing! What you said about feeling numb and passionless really connected with me. I have been feeling like that a lot recently too. But I’m starting to make small steps to take better care of myself so that I can feel better and start to feel “normal” again. I hope your healing journey goes as smoothly as possible. Know that there are many people supporting you 💛

[@khalilahd.]

Thanks for opening up to us Nika! It’s not easy but I love your transparency 💜

[@skytealicious]

It is really nice to get a longer video from you here, even if it is about something that is hard for you. The way you formulate your words and express yourself is very special, please don't ever doubt that what you have to say and what you share about your feelings because it resonates so much with other people. I am absolutely certain I am not the only one who understands you and finds your words helpful. Sending you lots of love and good energy 💜 I am sure it won't be too long before staying weeks at home just taking care of yourself, eating healthy food, doing meditations etc will be glamorized too. You can definitely see a shift happening now where the norm is no longer having a completely packed month with socializing and productivity but one where it is also normal to intentionally choose a lifestyle with rest, relaxation, being on your own, taking care of your mental and emotional health, and doing simple things like cooking and housekeeping.

[@NikasInnerBeauty]

Thank you so much for your sweet words🥹 Really needed to hear this today❤️❤️

[@BuffalobillsNation]

@@NikasInnerBeauty hey beautiful what’s up

[@rosessmariie]

Thank you so much for sharing! I’m more than excited to hear more about your journey 💛 I was struggling a lot with my mental health for a few years because I was diagnosed with a quite serious physical disease (at least doctors suspected it), so my life consisted of endless doctor’s appointments, tests and medications. And back then I felt like that was the only thing that defined me. I felt guilty for being sick and being a burden for my family, I had terrible anxiety and panic attacks, so it was absolutely horrible. But then I came across your videos on KZbin and at first it was just something that calmed me down. But then I started trying the things you recommended, like journaling or yoga, and I could feel how it made me feel better. And then you launched your Say Hey Happiness course which I immediately enrolled in. And I’m absolutely serious, it changed my life. I learnt how to love myself and accept myself no matter what, I became myself I guess. And surprisingly, I started to feel much better physically as well. So now I’m doing quite well, I’m working and studying and spending time with my friends. And most importantly, I’m looking forward to many future opportunities that I’ll have. And it’s all thanks to you, I’m so so grateful to you for all this virtual support and love🤍🫶🏻 sending soooo much love xx

[@lilyneva]

Thank you for sharing this. It was so moving. It helped me understand someone I care about, and also myself better. I am so excited because now I will be able to talk with him and understand better what is going on for him. I will show him this video or try to write out what you talk about in a letter. I feel you have inspired me so much. Somehow I feel embarrassed because I feel I should be helping you not you me, since I am older than you, but on the other hand, no one talked about these things when I was little. I feel always so inspired by your videos. I just love how much energy they give me and how they make me feel like I don’t need to feel shame or go around thinking there is something wrong with me for having struggled with mental health things. I feel this strong desire more and more to share things that I have experienced and how I have navigated them, the way you do, to help people, and because I have noticed how much it helps me to talk things out and film myself, which I know sounds weird. I am happy you want to try to bring this authenticity aspect back to your videos. I feel so much tenderness and like love for you when you show this side. I like all parts of your social media personality like I love feeling empowered by your ‘tough girlie’ videos, but I also love so much these kinds of videos. I think even though there is of course much more accepted and common to discuss mental health these days, I still think it is night and day to talk about things the way you do here and the way it is sometimes talked about elsewhere when people talk about the same things but without having any understanding for what they are saying.

[@flw1522]

Hi Nika, I’ve been a follower for years literally, we’re almost the same age and I’m astonished by the fact that we actually deal with the same issue. I’ve been having depersonalisation for a few years and I came up with knowing what it actually is very recently. It’s relieving to see someone else talk about it. Thank you Nika, for that and for everything else

[@mindfulovermindfull9416]

It dosn't matter how big, or how small, all feelings are vaild. I hear you. I see you. And I hope that we can all grow and heal together. I recently found your channel, and I couldn't be more thankful for you. Thanks for sharing and pushing forward!

[@crcodles872]

Thank you for sharing your story. It was helpful for me, because I realized that I have to take care of my mental health and don't put so much pressure on myself. When I see someone who struggling with the same troubles like me, I feel not alone. I don't feel like I'm worse. I hope you can handle with your disease and become more connected with yourself. You're my inspiration and I really missed you so much ❤️

[@larakusar4919]

Thank you for being open about this. It makes me feel like I am not alone.

[@johannam7437]

You put it in words! I struggle with dissociation too and felt like you were describing my past months... I remember you saying that if your videos only helped one person that alone is worth making them - I am that one person! And i am sure that there are so many more out there. Thank you so much for talking about your experiences, even if you might feel like it's way too specific - it's not! I started following you years ago for your mental health content and I know it sounds absolutely cheesy but I am serious: you played a big part in why I am doing therapy and started to believe that there is a life worth exploring beyond all these struggles. Sending love ♥️

[@myrtila]

It must have been hard sharing this but I’m extremely grateful you did. It makes me feel less lonely when I struggle too, with my own problems. Take care of yourself, heal, and when you feel ready, it would be great to see some mental health videos from you. Sending lots of love ❤️

[@LisaLenthe]

I just want to thank you for being as open as you could possibly be with us. As you said you felt a little uncomfortable for talking about such personal things and for that thing only are you allowed to be proud of yourself for doing it anyways. That’s also growth! I recently learned to look for the positives whenever I go through hard times. I always like to ask myself what I can learn from this situation or what this hard time is trying to teach me. This makes it easier for me to deal with it all and I won’t get easily overwhelmed by emotions and thoughts. This takes practice. To come back at your story about disassociation. Even though I don’t recognise what you’re talking about within myself. I, however, knew the feeling of having feelings you can’t reach. About a year and half ago I started seeing this coach (I believe she even might be considered a energetic life coach…?) and through a lot of meditation and an safe space I got to deal with some of those deep and hard to reach feeling. The reason I’m telling you this is because I think this might work for you too. Last, I would like to share some insight with you: you’re never “off course” when you look at the path you are meant to follow, your own souls path. However, we all have this idea for paths in our minds; sometimes they align but more often than not do they not align. So, when something feels “off course”, maybe ask what course you feel like taking?

[@simplysoothesounds]

Thank you so much for sharing and being so vulnerable Nike. I really enjoy your videos and I appreciate you sharing. Never feel silly for sharing and you don't have to diminish what you are going through. If it feel heavy and hard to carry then it is. It's a big deal if it is affecting your wellbeing. I am sorry you are experiencing this. You are a beautiful person with a beautiful soul. I have always struggled with expectations of myself and expectations with others. This is a constant struggle. Striving for "perfection" and always feeling behind and not enough. I am working on this as this affects my mental health.

[@actuallyjusthanne]

thank you so much for sharing your story! I have derealization, and it is SO HARD to feel like you're doing anything meaningful and feel properly motivated, and i've only heard about a couple people talk about it!

[@baelia]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. ♥️I also have a dissociative disorder. I don't know anyone else who has it and It feels like no one really understands me. It's such a hard thing to explain but I really agree with how you described it! I don't experience it exactly the same as you but it's still nice to hear some one else's story ☺️

[@NikasInnerBeauty]

We’ve got this🤞🏼❤️

[@minerva2953]

I love the way you are more conscious about yourself and your needs. I know it is not easy to talk about all our inner stuff, once we have started to comprehend how deep and difficult emotions we are discovering it is hard to share this struggle and since social media it is so hard on people who share experiences, I see you want to protect yourself like I do, not only on social media but also with my friends and family. It takes time to understand our own processes and trust other people to tell about this, it is a matter of finding the right balance between yourself and the world and trying to see ourselves as humans who need support and understanding, coming not only from other people, but most importantly from yourself. Have a nice day and trust your intuition ;).

[@smilermc1369]

I am here since 2017 ❤️ thank you for sharing your story. You’re a huge part of my healing journey! Bless you and feel hugged xoxo

[@irneseip2592]

Mrs Sofia is the best, recommending her to all beginners who wants to recover from their losses and gain more like I did through her strategies.

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My first investment with Mrs sofia gave me profit of over $24,000 Us dollars and ever since then she has never failed to deliver and I can even say she's the most sincere broker I have known

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I remember friends calling me crazy when I started but now I shut up them with my four figure weekly returned

[@helenleahy4396]

I am happy today because of Mrs sofia

[@ankushverma9392]

Her method surprises me

[@marissabaker3952]

thank you for talking about this. i have been struggling with very similar things this year and have never heard anyone talk about it, thank you! 🖤

[@madisonzeringue9972]

I’ve watched your videos for years now and love being able to relate to your videos/experiences as a young woman trying to continue this journey of self discovery. I’m going to keep this short and sweet- just wanted to pop on here and say how your channel has been sort of like a relatable internet friend for me and I hope you find a flow of life that helps you find peace with everything you’ve opened up about in this video. Much love! 🫶🏽

[@Iquey]

I wish you well on your dissociation healing! Sometimes I suffer with it off and on due to the stress and day in/day out slog of work. I find having time to care for your body helps. Ways to make it feel safe, like what feels right for you, either going outside and walking barefoot on grass or the beach sand, or like maybe doing something slow and deliberate like a little coloring task or painting your nails. Also I think having alarms in my phone (with labels about what they are for) helps and like setting them to have new fun songs helps because instead of like an old nostalgic song taking me back to a time in the past, a new song in a genre I enjoy helps me realize it's the present I guess.. it's just like new and different, but bc it's a similar genre it still feels like "me".

[@joanasolposto2598]

You got this. I have OCD, there are ups and downs but I push through. Sending love and healing 💕💕💕

[@paugl4022]

Thank you for sharing this Nika! It made me feel so warm and less alone. Sending you all the love 🤍

[@larakusar4919]

I have the first appointment with my psychiatrist on Tuesday, so I hope that I will finally be able to get proper diagnosis for what I've been going through

[@katjajagodic]

srečno :)

[@dani.vanderkamp]

Thank you so so much for this video Nika! First of all I think it's great that you're back. When I saw you posted a video, I instantly had to watch it. I think we're about the same age and I literally remember everything you talk about, like Zoella's video etc. I love how honest and real you are and I think it's a great decision to share your mental health journey on here again, because I'm pretty sure it will help a lot of people. I personally struggle with anxiety, and that also feels like a "silly little problem" sometimes, but it's my/your silly little problem which makes it real enough to think, talk and do something about it. After all we will spend an entire life in this mind and body. Thank you again

[@annabell5021]

Thank you for sharing ❤️ and you are definately not alone - I feel you 100%! But I think, despite we feel so much better than 10 years ago, it’s okay that we‘re still on the journey ❤️

[@marieb2572]

Thank you Nika for sharing this with us!!! Sending you lots of love

[@maxigrip96]

Just found your channel because I recently broke up with my bf because I wanted to work on myself and become the best version of myself and I just have to say that you are such an inspiration. I think knowing that there are other people who are out there struggling with mental health and that are working with themselves to feel better will encourage me to keep going when it gets tough. I feel like we’re in this together and I think you are such a strong human being!

[@alepabon1572]

Thank you so much for sharing, really. I don’t know if this will help but you look incredible. I totally support you!!💪🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

[@lyreczka]

I also have dissociations since I was a younger teen. I don't know how to perceive the world normally, how other people do it. What works for me is to not read/watch anything related to this condition like anxiety forum threads. It would remind my mind about it and throw into the state. I just try to stay busy and not think about it. Of course I also go to a psychiatrist and have meds.

[@moniousova]

Dear Nika, thank you for sharing this and thank you for wanting to share this journey that you're on 🖤 Last couple of months have been very hard for me as well, which is unusual and soo confusing, because summer is my favourite time and I usually feel the best in summer, but this one.. let me tell ya, no fun.. Anyway, I wish you good luck and can't wait to see the healing progress 🖤

[@asmig1874]

I love watching your videos and can totally relate. Please continue making such videos. All the best to face all your challenges

[@saram5659]

You are so wise! Thanks for sharing 💚

[@arumthathirajesh.2761]

This really helped me.💜

[@carinaconte8723]

Hi Nika! This video came up randomly today, and I clicked on it so fast! Thank you for eloquently sharing your thoughts. Dissociative disorder is such an interesting, yet tricky thing to experience, it’s a trauma response and coping mechanism when the nervous system is so amped up, that it needs to shut you down. I hope and wish there will be fewer and fewer episodes of it, and anxious thoughts attached to it, as you dread when it will happen again. I also came here to say how much I love IFS (Internal family systems) and parts work. I was wondering if you could share in what ways does it help you when you have episodes of dissociative disorder. Thank you for reading this looong comment!

[@skiphopflipflopdripdrop]

Beautiful video title! I just had to click! Thank you for this encouragement 💡

[@ayamahna726]

Thank you for sharing this

[@goddesschess]

Same :) Journey to self ❤️‍🔥

[@Calin0uchka]

Sending you love

[@wanfazali2518]

MAY GOD BLESS U ..AMEN..

[@abbiemind205]

Thank u for sharing 💕

[@anasofia1115]

how to deal with hallucinations? Almost every day I hallucinate

[@NikasInnerBeauty]

I’m honestly not the expert in this. I was on medication when I was hallucinating and I did lots of therapy. Hope you find what helps you and feel better soon🫶🏼

[@SalamSinjab]

Thank you so much

[@ThemilyCurran]

You got this 💛💛

[@anajankovic3038]

💗💗💗

[@LittleSweettt]

❤️

[@BibaontheWay90]

💗

[@juliav2129]

♥️♥️♥️

[@SalamSinjab]

Hope God Bless you

[@blackcat7881]

you are beautiful.....you will cop ....you will b fine....relax...

[@tara6047]

Did you have a relationship w a narcissist? Last I saw you were in a relationship. I found you when I searched how to be happy single or something like that...after a bad breakup w yet another narcissist... Sorry you are struggling. God's got you! ❤ Dr Ramani is a great resource y Crappy Childhood Fairy here on KZbin. 😘

[@Jan-gf7lh]

🍀 🅿🆁🅾🅼🅾🆂🅼

[@quintin3871]

You're no blonde no more :)

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[@maribelsanchezgarcia8810]

You got this ❤🎉

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