Surviving Chaos and Trauma-Gabrielle

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Gabrielle, a survivor of childhood trauma in Central Texas.
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[@L8-4A-D8]

Wow, she is very intuitive and self-aware for a 25 year old who suffered so much childhood trauma. I think she will have a very good future ahead of her. It took me 50 years to come to some of the realizations she has already figured out. She would make an excellent therapist. The best thing that ever happened to me was meeting my husband, who is a very calming presence in my life. It sounds like her partner is similar. After failed marriages and relationships I learned that if you lived a childhood of chaos and abuse the best thing for you is a partner who had a stable, happy childhood. Children born of chaos need to avoid an adulthood of chaos if they are to heal.

[@avadventuregear]

“Tornatic” best description. She’s wonderful. I hope her life is filled with joy. ❤

[@stacycrombie]

Yes! Great descriptive word "tornadic"

[@loveblue2]

I could really relate to Gabrielle. I grew up in a very emotionally charged, violent home. My middle brother, 10 years older than I was, had serious emotional issues. Several times a month, for DECADES, he would go into these rages where he would be really angry, swearing, destroying furniture and household items, throwing butcher knives into doors, etc. He once threw a pet parakeet out the back door, cage and all. One night when I was 4 years old, he went into one of these rages and my mom decided that she, myself and another brother (5 years old than me) would just go to bed. So, I'm laying in bed and I can hear my brother still raging downstairs. At one point, he yelled, "...when you motherfuckers go to sleep, I'm going to stab you to death!!" Hearing that, I became even more terrified than I already was. My mother never checked my brother on his behavior, which, as a 4 year old, I interpreted that to mean she was afraid of him too, which terrified me even more. (Years later, I asked my mom why she never called my brother out on the carpet about his behavior. She said if she had said one word to him, she knew she would have killed him). The night my brother made the stab you to death comment, I became an avid people watcher. I was always afraid that one day my brother would get angry enough to make good on his threat, so I would try to gauge his anger level. The morning after the stab you to death comment, I woke up with a stomach ache and diarrhea. Now, 68 years later, certains kinds of stress will trigger an IBS attack. Over the decades, I've had every test known to man to try to treat the IBS. Every test comes back normal. Childhood trauma is so devastating. My only solution for trying to learn to live with it and not allow it to destroy me is to use it as a gauge of the kind of person I DIDN'T want to be as an adult. Thank you for what you do, Mark.

[@taraflynn1640]

My heart feels this..... My gosh. I'm so sorry. I, too, grew up with a very violent brother. I'm moving through so much processing and somatic care in my current life.

[@reallycoooool]

I've had a vasectomy to protect my unborne children from my parenting. More people should be responcible, and know the limits of their sanity.

[@thematriarchy2075]

Half of the world don't even have a choice.

[@carlitasway2477]

I commend your honesty and insight

[@katnikkerkayla]

@@thematriarchy2075soooo… are you saying he shouldn’t have a choice to not have kids because there are other people who can’t?

[@thematriarchy2075]

@@katnikkerkayla No, i am saying, that it is wonderful to have a choice to not have children.

[@Bonnatella]

​@@thematriarchy2075would you elaborate on this statement? Who doesn't have the choice?

[@jordanwood183]

When the woman told her that her sexual abuse was karma coming back to her from somehow being an abuser in a past life, what would have been BEAUTIFUL would be if Gabrielle had responded by saying “interesting.. well, do you remember ever knocking someone’s teeth out in a past life?” ..give her a couple seconds to think about it, & then: 🤜🏼 💥 Victim blaming comes in many different forms, whether it’s southern Baptist or a hippie yoga cult. Most people lack critical thinking skills and choose to have their ideas/beliefs issued to them.

[@stonemanson4884]

Lol

[@krsmedley]

This is an awesome response.

[@SuperMir00]

I've been fortunate enough to find Gabrielle when I moved to Texas when looking for a yoga studio. The energy of the studio is a direct reflection of her. Some people who have experienced trauma let it consume them like its a part of who they are. Others, like Gabrielle, use it as something to learn from and become healers of trauma. Such a peaceful studio! Highly recommend

[@jessicadh8170]

im in texas too. i have been stalked by a stranger and raped and trying to stay positive and still love others like Gabrielle. it doesnt just happen in childhood it can happen as an adult too. adults failed me too in my graduate program when i needed healthy people. healthy people to guide me, healthy people can help others but sometimes chose not to and that in itself is harm too.

[@LeskoBrandon2x]

How tall is she?

[@glendathompson19]

She's still very much in her head. I hope she can really find the peace that she plays like she has. She needs someone to listen..I think that's why she talks so fast because she is afraid of not being heard..she seams like a sweet woman and just needs to find her own way. I hope she does❤

[@Emscom]

@@glendathompson19you see much

[@juliedascoli2850]

@@jessicadh8170 .a..a. . ...a..m

I feel so blessed to have been able to hear you share this Gabrielle 🙏 I cannot thank you enough. I wrote down some things you said that will guide me and stick with me forever. Someone else here recently said something like we can think of the ‘end’ of healing as being able to work through ‘things’ to the point where we are able to then help others going through the same things. You are loved and appreciated and yes, this good stuff will stick- you’ll still have some not as good days or even maybe extended periods but you now know it won’t last forever and you’ll live more in the ‘good’ days than the ‘bad’ 🙏 😊 Thank you again so much.

[@undividedlight]

It sounds as if Gabrielle had an NDE (Near Death Experience) from her brain injury accident. Such a beautiful soul , thank you for sharing your story. ❤

[@ellenfisher3792]

I agree! Out of body experience, the vacuum experience of being sucked back in

[@johnfreund4456]

I've learned not to compare trauma - trauma is trauma is trauma... and to the person going through it, it's bad and can destroy them. I resonate with her willingness to iterate her life. She was actually very lucky to have the wiring and energy to navigate what life threw at her, and had some key people in her life and used that. She was even able to look at the people who put her through the trauma and see them as human... pulling stones out of the mud and building a foundation. Most importantly, she has met herself where she was/is - over and over again. Very inspirational.

[@lizdicaprio906]

Gabrielle- I CAN RELATE so much to you, similair to my story & I've been thru. I am recovering from Post childhood Trauma. This is one brave and strong women, as I. Bless you. I also have found Yoga, thou disabled physically from my abuse.....I knew always, that you "modify" WHAT I didn't know is the other benefits felt immediately in Yoga, which I learn daily and it's benefits. YOU ARE SO STRONG. Sometimes, it takes narrow-minded people who've never gone thru it..when it happens to them...then they finally get it and understand. Until then, these people remain ignorant to other's suffering. You are a SURVIVOR

[@jackinthebox6143]

What a sensitive sweetheart! I think she would be a great mum. She could could then have the family and share the love she missed as a child.

[@amynix7999]

What you said about the grey area. Man. I resonated so much with that. I literally have random poetry in my journal titled the grey area, and have written those exact thoughts. And how important balance is. And calm. I hope you continue to have all the peace you so deserve. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@SweetUniverse]

That brought out some anger in me, "Why do you think you got raped?" Omg. Only to be topped by, "Well, you just have to be okay that you raped someone in a past life and that it's your karma." That's the worst counseling/ advice I've ever heard. 🤬🤬🤬

[@sylwiakowalczyk3270]

She is so so beautiful and smart. Obviously she has done some work and is on hopefully on a good path.

[@Hubertt-tp1yq]

So self aware! Best wishes for a happy life, Gabrielle. It took me till my fifties to face my abuse issues and I truly wish it hadn't taken that long.

[@divinefemininity7807]

I'm still tripN off the fact that she said her mom didn't have a bowel movement for 2 years, and the general practitioner just gave her pills for it.....😱 That is a horrible case of medical neglect, I can't imagine all of the other illnesses that spawned from that. Smfh. 🤦🏾‍♀️

[@divinefemininity7807]

@@Rachael7062 I know, that was crazy. And the fact that she had to take care of her as well as be abused by her was really f***ed up. 💯

[@divinefemininity7807]

@@Rachael7062 I know right, the dad just passed the buck..... 🥴

[@ralphchapman2933]

Wishing all the best for Gabrielle!! You have such a light in your eyes. Your life story touches my soul. Thank you Mark.

[@FawnhillFarmhouse]

What an amazing young lady!!!! Sending you Gabrielle lots of love!!!

[@laura4dsunshine]

Oh wow very resilient woman. I can relate. I think there are people who are born with a natural intuition about people and life. She has a very strong spirit. So beautiful, too. Sweetheart, I knew you were a Libra when I started listening to you. Know that we are the justice keepers in the world. You are a very sweet person who seems to try to remain happy, but know that you had a very unfair, cruel, brutal, bad childhood and upbringing. Most people are lost, Gabrielle, spiritually in this world, but they think they have it all figured out (your mother). I think you should try to acknowledge and accept the bad treatment and abuse you suffered and recognize it as bad. 🙏

[@stefaniaponitz5738]

Wishing Gabrielle the absolute best!!!! I recognize so much in her story as well her pain and working through it. Chaos is such a good way to describe it. The impact that long lasting chaos has on the development of a child is underestimated. We're just like little copy machines, copying our previous experiences so when chaos is a big part of our childhood it's no small thing to find your way through that in adulthood. I'm so glad you found yoga!

[@Joiously]

I understand your story, and journey. I have travelled a similar path. What is important to me is remembering that I live in an imperfect world full of imperfect people such as myself. (I am not perfect.) There is no such thing as a utopian society on the earth. God will wipe away all my tears in eternity. Evil people will be judged and there will be no more sorrow, sickness, or pain in the eternal presence of God. This journey is about our ability to love and forgive people for their transgressions against us. We all fall short of the glory of God daily.

[@AgeBond-yp3ed]

Beautiful😍 the tremble in her voice says a lot

[@raulmedina5446]

Gabrilelle, seems like a old soul, her healing will take the time that she needs, i am a Gestalt therapist in Mexico, i am shore that if she works therapeutically with her emotions, she will heal faster and more authentically, her anxeiety level is high, Gabrielle you are strong, a person with purpose, you deserve to threat your self with love, patience and compassion, my best wishes!!!

[@judytinker3392]

This lady is so sweet and so smart and well spoken. How old does this happen to someone and how did they get caught up in this?

[@spngbobsquarepants8755]

Can completely relate!!! Congratulations on your wisdom at such a young age!! took me until my 40’s to understand many things and I’m still a work in progress Ps when I was 14 my family was pretty much taken over by a cult. I am also a libra, and infp You go girl I am surely rooting for you and me!

[@Rich4zero8]

Walk away from that astrological mindset, and/or way of thinking. Seek Jesus Christ. The only one that WILL SAVE YOU ❤️‍🔥💯🙏🏼

[@kevinm8865]

​@@Rich4zero8I never understood why people mistakenly assune God and astrology/personality-study cannot co-exist. Why do you feel compelled to just say "God" is the only thing that's real? If you truly believe that Jesus died for the forgivenss of our sins amd is the Son of God, you should realize all things were created by God. Evolution could still have happened. Patterns of behavior (personality) could still be somewhat aligned to periods of the Earth's rotation (months). God can do anything.

[@spngbobsquarepants8755]

@@Rich4zero8no thanks

[@Lowdermoomoo]

@@kevinm8865 recently started seeing a very christian psychologist and I was nervous because I’m not very religious, she didn’t ask or pry into my beliefs, and she looked excited when I told her my MBTI type, I imagine it’s another way she can understand how to help me according to my cognitive functions. She said it’s her job to help me, not to beat me over the head with religion and it made me feel very comfortable despite having a tremendous amount of religious trauma that was the root for my childhood abuse. She believes in everyone having their right to make sense of their world however they see fit as long as it doesn’t harm themselves or anyone else. Which is my belief as well. So I’m with you in that sentiment.

[@AngiMc]

We need more, Mark!

[@yoginikaltri333]

Integrity incarnate! Raw truths sang like a poet in love with ‘birth’. This Sister is extraordinary. She is hypnotic to listen to….. Please do a follow up. Is she an artist? Im only 1/3 way through vid but wanted to read comments. Was I the only one impressed and enthralled by Her? Beautiful Ascended Soul! May you reach Nirvana soon. What you describe is that dimension we go to when we physically pass. The description of her NDE is EXACT! She has lived a 1,000 lives. Some Light-workers are extra special. This one is AMAZING! TY for sharing your Soul with US!🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌏

[@yoginikaltri333]

I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! Just got to part where she talks about a cult and yoga! She practices yoga! Ascended Masters come back to earth to contribute consciousness back to planet even though it’s a choice they WILL that choice. Kinda like Jesuses being sent back to earth. She is a powerful manifestor When she hit her head she chose to back to life! It was that stone parking space bumper! She died instantly, she chose to come back to this very thing. Share what happened and raise the vibration of earth. Some sadhus live solitary live alone in forest but they still raise the vibration here on earth. NDE’s are the closest you will know the harmony of ‘Nirvana’. You get a taste and you then live fearlessly. Almost untouchable. I’ve been there. No amount alcohol drugs compare to the high of absolute ‘Love’ pulsating you into being Love incarnate! I too I guess chose to come back. My life is synonymous with trauma. I do not remember 8-14… but remember the fear of being beaten or dragged by my hair by two narcissists that are proud of themselves which baffles me. I guess I too have that in common… resentment & forgiveness for parents abuse (physical and mental). To this day they say I ruined their honor… narcissistic families can be lonely and cold place to exist as a Loving being. In every lifetime you choose to what level you can ascend consciously. You give yourself the play. Then commence to test your consciousness and know it is you becoming God! Beautiful Sis! Beautiful Ascension and THANK YOU for doing your due diligence of mastering navigating the quality and integrity of your Consciousness. Hare Krishna Beautiful Sister!🌏👁️🙌🏽

[@yoginikaltri333]

In on 19:43 and she is sharing feeling energy and psychic abilities! I too am an intuitive. In the 2016 double murder of counselors for transitional home for young adults out of foster care I helped the mother get answers and faced off with the chief of police over Lizeth Yadira Lopez and Erica Hickson by Ronald Dorsey on live news and on television and Univision. They were racist and didn’t even get search dogs as my sister was yards from my room in a sewer for ten days! I jumped a sewer system for the mother, went to sentencing with her. The old woman was broken. Liz had a bag of vitamins that she was preparing to take to her ailing mother. She helped the community by working with troubled kids and was a good daughter. I believe her energy served me for Justice as I faced off with her abusive ex fiancé and the chief of police to embarrass him. I knew all along racism did not allow them to care for my sister and bring sniffing dogs so she wouldn’t the in the sewer system 10 days right before Mothers Day! On news I told them Liz told a second woman would be murdered. The police emailed me to stop scaring the neighborhood and that it was probably murder by domestic violence. For 3 months I kept warning the community that a second woman would be killed. Erica Hickson was killed months after Liz only then police investigated. Same transitional home, Erica and Liz were co workers. They went into the apartments to medicate young adults from traumatic foster care history at 18. Guess that’s what we are called.. intuitives. I’m only at 19:43 and her saying I can instantly feel others energy is uncanny… me too! This is my last message! But yes… SO GRATEFUL YOU CAME back to aid in raising the vibration enough to change course. Many civilizations have been wiped out due to their aversion to ascending but descending in consciousness. Only Love can save this civilization and stop WW3. It has already begun but can be avoided being global WW3. Live Consciously Every Day. Integrity is all a man takes to his grave. Ascension I’m consciousness is the only lesson in this dimension aka simulation. Hare Krishna👁️🌏🛸 KalTri333~

[@yoginikaltri333]

Libra here too👁️⚖️🌏 Tiger year! Revolutionist!

[@sarahdeshay1394]

I guess crazy sees crazy as something special.

[@joeallegra4778]

Such a beautiful woman...thanks for sharing Gabriella thanks for sharing..

[@dougwalters3644]

That karma story was NUTS!!!!

[@janetpersons7647]

My sister and her husband did EST training back in the day. They did stuff in the training like not letting them so to the bathroom and the like. It was a difficult time for the whole family because they were pressured to get everyone around them to do the training too. :(

[@cnk1980ck]

She had a near death experience when she was outside of her body when she hit the concrete💕

[@twshatney]

Your self-awareness and determination on understanding your relationship with your mother is so … Fucking amazing.

[@Skumpakrig1984]

Continue to grow and be your best. Wish you all the best !

[@dakotac180]

Whether you like it or not you will reflect your parents image at one point or another, its up to you to break the cycle. I hope she keeps just living for herself and being present.

[@kushcraft9914]

To survive the darkness one must believe in the light .

[@whoisharo4689]

Had no idea "tornadic" was a word until today.

[@tltate]

She has such a sweet disposition. Is there a website with more info on Gabrielle? I would love to read that book when she finishes.

[@James-re1yf]

I live in fort worth next door. She is so beautiful Shes stunning wow

[@hollyonorato6]

Thankful for yoga everyday...thanks for sharing this empowering story, Gabrielle. 🤍

[@infinitebeing211]

Good luck beautiful, hope all your dreams come true, you deserve peace!

[@robinfoster2696]

I'm glad that you feel better :) Got away from your trauma. Being kept by people in a situation where you can't leave them - EVER - is HELL. I am glad you can escape with healthy outlets. I like nature and being away from people. I can't do yoga and am in mental discomfort trying but love being outdoors doing cardio and that for me is enough. That - and DOGS. I'm so anti-people after trauma I don't think I'll ever recover. I'm always on edge, anxious, say the most ineffective, anxious, weird things and blurts as I just want to go back to my space and just be alone. I've done significant damage to myself from trauma that my brain which apparently is split into argumentative segments for the rest of my life (like a trial). I've removed myself from trauma with pill overdoses and suicide attempts also. It was all church and male domination oriented. Now i just do my best to kick that away from me before it forces itself onto me again.

[@jerryrigmanhattan6]

This girl is so beautiful and amazing! Thanks for sharing your story it’s been so 😂educational

[@zoooejenkins]

She looks EXACTLY like the actress Ana de Armas

[@АленаГосниц]

Вы умная и красивая, да хранит Вас Бог!

[@carolebuckle7977]

Gabrielle you are a beautiful spirit 🙏🏻🥰🇬🇧xxx

[@Bible_Man]

All the unanswered questions you have of your trauma and the situation with your mom seems like my story am so sorry for what you went through. Recently the Lord Jesus Christ revealed so many unanswered questions about my mom and my dad that shook me, but the revealtion was something not my mom's side of the family or my dad's could've helped me with, but only the Lord. I pray you find the answers your looking for and the Lord helped you in your healing journey. May the Lord Bless you beautiful soul.

[@angelachavez657]

I'm what is the difference between subscribing to the channel and then just watching this on youtube?

[@thematriarchy2075]

On Mark's own channel you will get the uncensored interviews. The tube will not allow him to upload his work the way it is, and on his own channel there are interviews that are not on the tube at all.

[@angelachavez657]

@@thematriarchy2075 thanks

[@wilburkookmeyer5804]

I thump🤙my heart out to you Gabrielle❤what an incredible interview!

[@mariemeyer1734]

Wowowow. She is incredible and what a strong woman ❤

[@stewnotstewie]

Stunning

[@EdinburgMSify]

Such a beautiful young lady, she makes me think of Charlize Theron. I love her tattoo's. Praying for her life to only get better!!

[@thematriarchy2075]

And do you have anything of more substance to say to her? I can't help it but to feel slightly depressed when seeing so many comments that are only about looks of women.

[@EdinburgMSify]

@thematriarchy2075 no actually I don't have anything else to say, if I did, I would have said it.

[@thematriarchy2075]

​@@EdinburgMSifyThat's true, but what about being open to be a bit less superficial? Is that possible?

[@EdinburgMSify]

@thematriarchy2075 no, not possible. How about this. You mind your business and I'll mind mine! You don't worry about what I'm writing and I won't worry about what you're writing. Peace!!

[@thematriarchy2075]

@@EdinburgMSify Of course that's possible, but this is a comment section, and that's a place where people interact, but since you are not open to it, i will respect that.

[@fetalmalice]

Hey Mark why not offer a sealed bottle of water to people. 9th interview I’ve listened to where it sounds like mad clicky pasties in glorious loud sound.

[@andreacaughey6761]

The way she said she’s always been intuitive is a beautiful gift being a traumatised child gives you because you’re always having to read people and read situations so that you can behave in a way that keeps you safe 😢

[@lifemusic1980]

You got it

[@gabriellemaes4078]

Omg! What weird parallels! My name us Gabrielle and my mother died when I was young. I also was a part if a yoga cult when I was doing my certification..God bless you sweet Gabrielle! ❤❤❤

[@andreacaughey6761]

@@commonsense2680 same! My intuition has saved me so many times and ppl I love too x

[@maryisagpg]

Yeah I’ve always been intuitive from a traumatic childhood and being in and out of foster care and more, but I’ll be honest with you. I don’t really like that part of me because it constantly has me on high alert. I’m always super vigilant. It’s tiring feeling other peoples energy and having to read the room in order to stay safe. It’s not a great gift. I would much rather not be intuitive. I would rather not know things right away just from looking at somebody. It’s a burden not a blessing.

[@kimberlywilke466]

Exactly! That’s called hyper vigilance

[@SweetUniverse]

Same. One person in my family said, "Why do you keep thinking about the past?" I don't! Bad memories hit me at the damndest times & it's the oddest things I'll remember. My parents were alcoholics & I grew up in a domestic violence home.

[@xmondlos]

same here, I fully understand & it's similar for me as well, just hits you out of nowhere & then you can't shake it off easily.. takes time to feel better especially when the anxiety mixes up with the depression, it's like overall extremely overwhelming to experience & to explain to others, I'll just sit there while dissociating.

[@deborahjaffe]

Same here. Family members and some “friends” say move on, get over it. It makes me feel worse. They don’t understand trauma, C-PRSD or now they are saying Complex post traumatic stress injuries… because disorder just makes us feel worse about ourselves

[@sardonie]

They choose amnesia and dissociation, then they don't remember the past, they act and reenact it... Myself, I prefer "thinking" about the past, it obliges me to work on it.

[@donnalee8699]

I think ppl telling you to get over it is abusive. The insignificance and lack of empathy they are placing on your pain is re traumatizing - get away from them. They are not serving you in healing ❤

[@TeamAwesomeDad]

I don't understand how anyone can bring up 'god' to these people. Obviously 'god' didn't fucking help these people AT ALL. My best guess is that maybe 'god' isn't helping because he doesn't exist

[@behindDoorsOfHomes]

What a beautiful person. Such self awareness. Thank you for sharing your story

[@i.m.hidden2788]

To Gabrielle and whomever is reading this who is recovering from this kind of childhood trauma: I want you to know that you ARE a GOOD PERSON. And you know what? It’s your time on earth as much as anyone else’s.

[@Joshualuv13]

Thankyou.

[@brookegoslin]

♥️🙏🏼💫✨

[@cahleyv]

❤

[@murraystockman134]

Cheers

[@beckymellon8135]

Sounds like she definitely had gastroperisis for sure, I’m so sorry she must have been so sick. I wonder about kids with sick moms mainly because I am a sick mom but I was well until they were teenagers thank god!!!! I love hearing these real stories it helps me be better and know I’m not so alone. What an incredible survivor she is 🌹❤️✌️

[@hlolypop]

Agreed, and gastroparesis is a symptom of EDS which can also cause heart issues, joint problems, so many systemic issues. Thankfully we know more now.

[@beckymellon8135]

@@hlolypop for sure

[@kyleoneill1944]

Attempted suicide by drinkin 3 4 lokos hahahahahahaha I don't think that's considered a suicide attempt

[@absurd_patience]

These days eating McDonald’s can be issued an attempt depending on your average calorie intake divided by a substantial portioned diet.

[@kyleoneill1944]

@absurd_patience okkaayy?? Yeah give a starving african child a happy meal from mc'dees & I'm sure they'd get some nutritional value from that. Maybe in your delusional mind of shopping at whole foods & earth fare your whole life you'd think that; but the human body is pretty resilient .In other words- You're soft

[@brunolima7402]

Gabrielle seems to be a very nice person with a beautiful soul.. i hope she finds happiness and a way to deal with all her past traumas.

[@czarina7786]

Therapy for years. Would help. I know.

[@pinkythechihuahua3156]

She seems very nervous and I'm not following her stories😢

[@joshuafulfs8084]

Wow I can Relate almost 100%. Found mom when I was 16. Still don't think I've learned how to deal with it

[@jenniferboonemathis757]

Gabby, I remember you being such a sweet beautiful girl. I had no idea of the life you we're living during your time at Huckabay. God has protected you and brought you through, to be a shining light in this world that you are. Brazes's mom

[@kamijenkins4202]

@jenniferboonemathis757 This is such a wonderful comment that you left for her and for the world to see. I love to watch the @Soft White Underbelly channel and I have never seen a comment from someone who knows the past life of someone being interviewed. Thanks so much for your comment and saying good things about this person. God bless you and the interviewed person and @softwhiteunderbelly. There is ALWAYS healing to be done.

[@VesaJay]

0:18 what the f*** are you saying ma'am. Just a bunch of word salad

[@llrice00]

Yessss! Omg Im glad Im not the only one.

[@Tylerdurling54]

She’s beautiful

[@Exodus_Gaming7]

Fr man

[@christopherback2103]

These chicks are so f****** damaged and they've been looked at that way for so long that it's really pathetic to even say that. That's a human being. Stop looking at the skin and the hair and the eyes and the makeup and the tattoos because that's all that's ever been done and it's weak

[@Singleshotfreddyy]

Her:"yeah so I grew up with my sister's Mark: "so are you an only child or?" 😂

[@thatpart]

Growing up in the chaos of having no adults that you could trust, the notion of control becomes a mechanism for survival. Trauma helps to double down on this notion. As we become adults, it is incredibly hard to define that control, and even harder to put any of it to the side for someone else. Great interview. Thanks for this.

[@DING1o1]

She’s someone I’d want to be friends with! Very insightful person

[@sengagirl1295]

Am I the only one exhausted ?

[@bambineal1956]

Move through life seeking and being in peace. At 67, I have learned when I am not feeling at peace, it is not where I should be. Spend time in the creation of nature. Keep sharing as well. You will go through many changes in your life, some good, some bad, it is that way with everything, and how we grow. ❤

[@FreeQWinC]

What a gift of you sharing your story and writing a book. It is helping in healing others and a reminder that we are not alone. Thank you so very much 💖✨

[@sleepingninjaquiettime]

Definitely awesome to see someone grow up in a traumatic family and have physical trauma and use emotional intelligence to calmy understand her trauma and upbringing. That sometimes can be rare, a lot of people continuously dwell on their problems.

[@besreal3419]

Gabrielle's a natural beauty with a delightful air of innocence left in her; which I adore and at the same time want to rescue her from; fearing selfish men will immediately be drawn towards and want to prey upon her. Amazing that she remained unfearful of and loving towards a mother who beat her so severely. I just heard on NPR about an ex-Nun who was beaten by a head nun which she likewise dismissed as not the worse thing that ever happened to her. We've got to do a better job of informing kindergardners "If anyone ever hits you, it's time to call 911 or run to a neighbor the first chance you get; or tell your teacher the next time you're in school." Then we've got to pour as much $ into "accountable" Children Services as we now do the US Military. The true enemy is within our boarders, so long as child abuse and neglect goes on undetected and unsolved.

[@cerinabenson8753]

I hope you get a chance to read this, Gabrielle. I can relate, hear, and see you. I just turned 26 a couple weeks ago and the feeling you described after you turned 20 is exactly how I explain it to others. The way you look at life is refreshing to hear and gives me hope that there are more people like us. People who knows it'll work out. Even if it feels like the worst thing ever, it will work out. Allow yourself the grace to forgive and learn. Thank you again, I really needed the reminder. ❤

[@vikiquigg5903]

Not taking advice from people I dont want to be like. Holy shit.

[@isabellaarellano4161]

I really appreciated your interview Gabrielle. I loved your approach to not only being real on the pain, but sharing your journey into healing trauma. We think in pretty similar ways, I wish you all the best and all success!!

[@ArphelC]

I am getting my ass kicked with childhood SA that came to forefront.. it kills me that my parents worry more about their pedo relatives and not the mf they birthed… or the shame me telling them brings.. I wish they would listen.. it feels so alone

[@myahollandia3552]

She's beautiful

[@jubby89]

As a mom, turning into a mom will unveil past trauma of the parenting you received. I would say the best gift you can give your child is to do inner work. Children are also a catalyst for change I find. My son has made me a better person. But also the the most important job in the world. You are just a wonderful soul. ❤

[@lmla46]

@Jubby89, ehh, Not to be disagreeable, but I disagree about becoming a parent bringing out, or unveiling as you say, past trauma. Promise, the more time you put between yourself and whatever trauma you've experienced, by facing it, talking to a lover, husband , wife, trusted person, counselor, whatever, and finding that balance between accepting things happened that you had no control over and the future, then it really really does become ok. Definitely cam and does define who you are, but that's not a negative.

[@BMO_Creative]

Satan gets too much credit for stuff he didn't do. Mom maybe had Gastroparesis. Gabrielle is well balanced and a strong survivor because she allows her emotions to stay connected. Amazing woman!

[@CroiaCallahan]

Gabrielle, I have a saying I’d like to share with you: “A child will grow up to be who they are either BECAUSE of how they were raised….or IN SPITE OF.” You are an amazing young lady. I’m proud of you.

[@Iamleahloti]

So very true

[@DadinWA]

I appreciate Gabrielle sharing her story about her childhood. Seeing more of this will bring out awareness and it's ok to share and let out feelings that are bottled up. As a single father who raised my kids pretty much full time, priority was making sure my kids are doing great and communicating with them regularly. thanks for sharing.

[@cherylstryker5903]

It is difficult to follow her. Her thoughts are all over the place.

[@jalennelson6008]

When will we stop hurting children?

[@fairygurl9269]

*Complex PTSD

[@Th3Think3r]

Thank you for sharing your story Gabrielle. I am glad you found a supportive partner. I wish you the best.

[@MoAnn81]

She has a good head on her shoulders, she’s articulate, smart and very pretty. I wish her nothing but the VERY BEST! 💕

[@kamijenkins4202]

She reminds me of Charlize Theron with a touch of Amanda Bynes!! She has a beautiful personality and very pretty.

[@homesteadschooled4587]

It's funny when she mentioned the feeling guilty for being sick. My family is great overall, but my mom has always been a bit of a hypochondriac, and I can totally relate to feeling guilt whenever I get sick. My mom would always avoid us when we were sick as kids and I can't tell you how often I heard "I can't get sick right now". Even to this day, if anyone in the family gets sick (including my kids- her grandkids) it's always like we did something wrong for going out to the places we did and getting ourselves sick. I don't think the cycle has to continue, though. I have 4 kids and I am the opposite of my mom in that regard. We go out, we pick up germs, and I cuddle them when they are sick. It takes a conscious effort on my part, but because I recognize it for what it is, I'm able to make different choices.

[@patriciaque197]

Congratulations in breaking the cycle. It can be be done! 🙏💛🙏

[@TaraLeigh_in_Canada]

Blessings to her and her journey

[@lorisimon2338]

I never wanted kids and had a great childhood--I'm 67 and no regrets!

[@SweetUniverse]

"You've been wanting to do better your whole life." I ❤❤❤ that. Yes! To me that's what's important- just being a better person every day. ✌✌

[@kristis4571]

Heaven/God is real. Someday you will realize this. Best wishes for continuing to heal from a traumatic past ❤🙏🏻💜

[@judyhazen1201]

Thank you so very much for the stories you’ve given us. It’s shown me how small and big this world really is and we just don’t know the stories of the other souls we walk beside daily. 🙏♥️

[@jpmoney685]

Charlize Theron doppelgänger

[@ismanovska]

Oh wow she really is 😮😮

[@mick488]

Move on

[@itsmelili326]

Like a Lotus flower. Your preserverance is admirable. One who can recognize that pain patterns are passed on, has the power to change their path. I wish you continued peace and healing in your upcoming journeys. ✨️

[@baker1saautomatic]

You are an amazing person. Something knew I needed to watch your interview this morning. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. 💜

[@senorstronk]

I'm right by Erath county, in comanche. sure is a small world. best of luck.... I left the city to come back to the country in 2021. the city aint it.

[@MsAdventure531]

The algorithm brought you…

[@senorstronk]

@@MsAdventure531 i've been watching this channel for well over a year.

[@simontodd619]

What a lovely person you are Gabrielle and what a wonderful message you send out whether consciously or not. Keep going on this path and continue to be true and above all kind to yourself. Finally, I do hope that you are blessed with children as I think you'll be a wonderful mother, remember are not your parents so why should you become them just because you become one. Take care and thank you for sharing your story.

[@lizdicaprio906]

SCIENCE FACT: The mind DOES NOT erase, what the HEART can not delete. Don't tell any survivor to "Get over it" or "She's stuck in the past" IT DOESN'T work like that.

[@donnalee8699]

Best one liner ever - Q: What has helped You to grow A: Not taking advice from people I don’t want to be like

[@rmorph33]

If you are reading this I Love You. No matter what you have gone through in this life…..You are beautiful!!!! God is Peace, I Am Peace. God is love, I am love. God and I are one(EVERYONE👆) I swear to you Jesus….Saints of all religions are Beauty Beyond your concept!!! They came to help us through the bullshit of this life….so YOU DONT HAVE TO be ALONE!! EVER!!!! You have within you happiness, joy, an ecstasy that is new each and every day. No matter what you’ve done, said, or been through. I Love You. It’s all going to be ok!!!! Find God ✌️

[@M-i-k-a-e-l]

Yes, Jesus is King, but there are helpers/saints in all religions that guide us to love our God and our neighbour more - and that is the first and foremost.