TERMINAL CANCER AND MY BIGGEST FEAR

[@peeweetoms]

Totally agree with the fear part, no one want's to miss out. But with a time limit on things, sickness, fatigue and the rest of the junk that comes with cancer, it really pushes you to want to do more. I know I feel that way. Keep fighting and keep doing what you are doing people love you loads :)

[@85sevenheaven]

Awww! Another of my favorite people!

[@SadieKay1]

You guys should do a collaboration x love both vlogs, they've become entwined in my daily routine x

[@dovestone_]

LOVE your vlogs too, Dan 💗💗

[@kellym7555]

PeeWeeToms you are awesome too. I'm new to your channel but have been binge watching your videos and you are so fun and have a great sense of humor. Xx

[@karentiede7069]

Ahhhh dan! 💙💙💙💙💙

[@wxman2003]

My fear is ceasing to exist. Never having another memory. Never to have another emotion. Never to be happy again. Never being anything ever again.

[@kirstenlongacre2105]

I suffer with anxiety and depression and I've let it control my life over the past few years. Your positivity and ability to make the best of situations despite what's thrown at you has changed my mindset completley. You've made me realise I shouldn't take everything for granted and that I'm stronger than my demons. So, thank you!

[@ElizabethKanas]

laurenthomsxn I love that! So well said!

[@joannlovespapillons]

Very well put 👍🏼. Same here

[@lauraalvarado2477]

Well said she teaching us to live life to the fullest and to be positive ... life' s too short!!!

[@kimmiekins]

this is exactly my current situation. I found her channel and it really made me change my outlook on life.

[@kimmiekins]

AdamHiker if you need anyone to talk too in here. I’ll try to Help anyway I can

[@PrincessofErised]

This broke my heart. Someone that loved life so much, deserved so much, yet had it snatched away by awful cancer. I hope that everyone donates to find a cure for this plague of mankind. Rest in Peace you beautiful creature.

[@lightmyway1327]

I just watched this again it really is heartbreaking to hear of her hopes for the future, yet at the same time she knew her time was short, the end of the video is so gutwrenchingly sad I just wanted to hug her 😢

[@gloriamaryhaywood2217]

It's hard to comprehend why such an awesome lovely young woman like Emily, was ear-marked to have her life cut SO DAMN Short!! LIFE...It makes No Sense sometimes. It is so Frigging Un-Fair! Did I mention I HATE CANCER???!!!!

[@ukisa3rdworld586]

Cure is available I'm sure of it.

[@vanessalang2018]

Cancer sucks….it always takes the good people…

[@jocannon8190]

Oh, Emily Hayward. I found your channel two weeks ago, and ever since then, I have got up every morning and been in the gym for 7am (I have never taken it seriously before!) I thought: if Emily can do it - SO CAN YOU! I just wanted to let you know that you continue to inspire, uplift and motivate us all. Sending you both so much love (and gratitude!) xxxx

[@anitavaughan5037]

Jo Cannon Hi Jo, I'm with you. After a 3yr lapse working out, I'm right back at it too! If this amazing young woman can do it with all she's facing, I can too! Keep on keeping on!

[@jocannon8190]

Exactly! I just needed to write it down somewhere, because Emily's influence on my attitude has been quite phenomenal, and I feel *so much better* for doing it!

[@11jamielee]

Jo Cannon same here! I’ve been enjoying life so much more and enjoying the gym again! Your energy is contagious and an inspiration! Keep on ,keeping on, Emily!

[@floss84860]

Me too! Emily has inspired me so much, I’ve been going to the gym regularly now for nearly a month and just started doing exercise classes to take in up a level, I’m currently very sore after my first body pump class yesterday!

[@00aga00]

Jo Cannon me too!!! I have NO excuses left!!!!

[@85sevenheaven]

I'm so grateful for you. I am 45, so fearful all tye time, barely leave my house...you inspire me to do better, be better, do more. I am literally changing every area of my life in part (mostly) because of you. Even with all you face, you are full of life. Really appreciate you and pray for you and Aisha. ♡

[@baggs1111]

Good luck Tammy

[@HidesCriesDies]

Anxiety is awful, sorry you're dealing with it. I'm 41 and have a moderate anxiety problem which makes simple things like going to the bank horribly stressful. I try to remember the sense of accomplishment when I force myself to do things that I'm scared of.

[@alexandrasarno6394]

Im 38 and have horrific anxiety even on meds..Im seeing a new phsyciatrist soon. Reach out to proffessionals for help if you need it..❤

[@myralawson4543]

TammySchmit Tammy, I know exactly how you feel. I am 57 and suffer from PTSD. I stay home most of the time because I get so nervous and the anxiety gets so bad when I think of getting out and being around ppl. I see Dr.’s to no avail 🙄. I stumbled onto Emily’s vlog and fell head over heels in love with her and Aisha! I was like her in my 20’s! Loved the gym and weights and I could just kick myself in the ass for allowing myself to get like this. Thank you lots for you comment. It really hit home with me. ❤️

[@mrssarystew]

TammySchmit good for you. You can do this. Take it slowly. X

[@hogarthay]

I feel part of a team Emily. Every subscriber you have feels the same.

[@patrooney2283]

Frank Hogarth : 👍🌹😙💕

[@ilmjc09]

#teamemily ❤

[@nnicollan]

Team Emily!!!

[@mridul7639]

I just want them to know how much love we feel for both of them.

[@ElizabethKanas]

Frank Hogarth Exactly!!!! ❤️💕✌🏻👌🏻💁🏼😇

[@josephbader1243]

2018 was the worst year. We lost Sophia gall. jun1 Emily hayward june 28 claire wineland September 2, and dan aka peeweetoms. September 28. Miss you all lots. Loved but never forgotten.

[@Sabouma28]

FLY HIGH BLUE EYES Em died on June 26...

[@Beezybayb]

Really missing peeweetoms

[@daffodil614]

THIS is what we love. You being real, you being and doing YOU ❤

[@theresacarmody702]

Beautiful Emily .You didn't miss out .You lived your short life Right up to the end .RIP beautiful angel 💞

[@boobearx2987]

That look at the end is soul destroying 😢 Oh Em 😭 Why did you have your light taken so soon. You were incredible. I hope there is an afterlife and that everyone who loves you gets to see you again xx

[@PinkClouds1]

It’s just not fair that she was taken form this world and she was robbed of a long life she so deserved 😢 I still watch you Em Xx ❤️

[@sandrad4099]

I could be your mum,age wise, but, young lady you are teaching me so much. I look forward every day to seeing what you've been up to, you are a joy to watch. That smile of yours could light up a room. Just remember you don't always have to be strong, you have a right to be fecking raging mad and petrified at the same time. My dughter had high risk leucemia years ago and it was touch and go for a while. but thankfully she is still here with us, so I know a little bit of the dynamics. Keep swimming xxx

[@denisehaley1466]

How can people give this a thumbs down Emily is a beautiful young smart woman just sharing her journey with people who are interested in how she is coping with cancer her positivity inspies me and lifts my day dont watch if your going to be negative

[@suzyq4982]

Still missing you girl ❤ Just seven weeks later this Angel was gone 😢

[@laurajeanbotha5321]

How heartbreaking to listen to the end of this Vlog. Who was to know that you would only have 6 weeks left. I find it so difficult to be positive in my life, as you were in yours with cancer, but I love watching you & how positive you were right up until the end. I will certainly miss your Vlogs even though I still have loads to watch. ✌🏻🌹

[@jimlong4182]

I have been watching Emily a lot lately. I have new tumors. I also felt my heart break at the end of this video. I just wanted to reach in and hug her and save her somehow. I watch her videos and I talk to her because in my heart she is still here. She knew what she was doing. She knew we would all need here later down the road. and we do. I'm crying now as I type this. Thank you Emily.

[@laurajeanbotha5321]

@@jimlong4182 Sorry to hear your cancer may also be spreading. Emily never gave up her fight till the end. I had to stop watching her videos for a while as I hot terribly depressed, but there are still ones I watched. Don't give up, Emily fought to the end. Try stay positive & fight with all your mite, to say f^^k cancer. Wishing you well.

[@nadishe]

@@jimlong4182 Hope your feeling better now Jim, stay positive and let us know how you are doing please!

[@lesbihonestasmr955]

This actually breaks my heart man how things happen to the sweetest of people ur inspiring to be so strong stay blessed 💜

[@joleneplourde9885]

May 2021.... the end of this video makes me cry 3 years later. Em knew she didn’t have long and her sad face as she walks away still kills me. 😥 Miss you and Aisha 💔💔

[@aplainjaneproduction8285]

She was so happy in an earlier video about her hand doing better too. I hate seeing her so sad.

[@sunuman4454]

Have only just found her. She was so amazing. The strongest person I have ever seen. May god bless you. Beautiful young lady. Xxxxxxxxx.

[@aplainjaneproduction8285]

I found her recently too and she really was so amazing. I am old enough to be her mother and she is teaching me how to live the right way.

[@sunuman4454]

@@aplainjaneproduction8285 yes me too. I’m 53. She loved life so much. X.

[@aplainjaneproduction8285]

@@sunuman4454 such an inspiring story that I know we all wish hadn’t ended like it did. So heartbreaking.

[@sunuman4454]

@@aplainjaneproduction8285 yes. So sad. She was so brave. X

[@aplainjaneproduction8285]

@@sunuman4454 I was just thinking about her. I am out working and was getting upset about personal situations then I thought about her and tried to adopt her positive mindset

[@redrickgrass]

I Miss you Emily Hayward. you continue to inspire me by who you are! Rest in Peace Emily!

[@stalks1413]

If the world was full of Emily Hayward, what, a perfect world we would have! R.I.P. you Angela. 🙏

[@PurseTrippin]

YOU my dear are the most POSITIVE, SWEET, KIND, ENERGETIC, LOVING, HUMBLE, WARM SOLED, INSPIRATIONAL, BEAUTIFUL young lady on youtube. You are a true hero in every aspect of the word. I'm so very proud of you!!

[@petersavage9456]

That Chicken Purse Chick she is indeed!

[@suzypee]

Remember she is a soul not a sole.......that’s a fish 😃😃😃🐠🐟🐠🐟🐠🐟

[@suelaugesen9665]

Oh darling girl I just want to give you a big hug .... that was so hard for you xxxx

[@joannlovespapillons]

Sue Laugesen I believe this is the first time I’ve seen Emily sit still with an emotion concerning her health. It certainly is inspiring how she gets through the ups & downs Her sitting quiet at the end wanted me to give her a hug or look her in the eyes & tell her *you, EMILY, are an amazing person*.

[@tfiorentino]

...when you say that you don't want to miss out on opportunities every single day, to make life matter every single day, just know that each and every one of your vlogs makes a HUGE and EVER-LASTING impact in my life (and I would dare say in most of the people watching your videos), and ENRICHING my life learning about what really matters: love, family, friendship, will power... So even when you are feeling most tired and think your vlog may be too random, know that you've actually made a real significant change in this world, in the hearts and minds of those who are watching, listening and learning from you... you may not realise it, but you're moving mountains! A big hug!

[@Carlaaaize]

Since you are gone I keep watching all you videos again and again and can´t believe there is no new one coming from you. I love Aisha too, but it is sooo sooo sad. You were soo strong :( Sending love to Aisha

[@julespowell4896]

I popped back as I had been thinking about Emily. This breaks my heart hearing Emily say she doesn't want to miss out on life. Emily was the most amazing person. So strong and the loveliest. Cancer is so evil. Much love to Aisha and Emilys friends and family.

[@oranjelibertine]

Just re-watching her videos. Such a bright shining star. If I can be a quarter of what she is, I'll be happy.

[@misstracey301]

Emily, the feeling is mutual. Do you even understand how much you give us? I am always full of gratitude for the smallest things life gives us and you've elevated that gratitude so much more.

[@MaryleaMemaw]

Thank you for sharing your life with us!

[@Birdhouselady]

Emily I'm 63 years old and you have taught me so much about life. Thank you Hugs to you and Aisha.

[@12missmolly]

Emily. You are incredible. Your funny, smart , kind , passionate and loyal . You are so much more than cancer. I love your energy . ❤️ . Everyday is a blessing for any one of us. You have helped me realise this xxx

[@timothysherreyehler5095]

Sharing your life how it is, is a true gift, Emily! I have quickly fallen in love wIth you over the few weeks since I found your channel! It's quality over quantity, for sure, but give yourself permission to take it easy when your body needs it, especially after heading to the city yesterday, at rush hour! At the end of our lives, we won't be lamenting on missing random traffic jams, etc., will we?! You are a gem, Emily, and I'm so thrilled that you found a beautiful partner who is always your 'soft place to fall'. Love, and best wishes for an awesome week, gals, Sherrey in Southern Ontario, Canada💘🎗💘

[@raerae2959]

I only just found out about Emily last night and today I've literally binged on her videos. .. I can't believe this happened to a beautiful and happy/smiley girl who deserved a long and happy life with her beautiful wife family and friends.... Life can be cruel af. ... RIH Emily... and to her wife stay strong , ur memories will get u thru this xx

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

I’ve sold 12 million records, I’ve been on the covers of magazines, I married a famous actor, I am mother to three children, I’ve lived in beautiful homes, I come from a long legacy of famous people… I tell you none of it has satisfied me, none of it has brought me peace of mind, or true joy. The only thing I seek is God. Because one day I will meet him face-to-face, meet my creator, wow! My point is… Seek the kingdom of God Emily! That’s where true freedom lies. Your vlogs are changing peoples lives, giving them strength they never knew they had… You’re doing God’s work! We all love you so much. Jesus + nothing = EVERYTHING 💪🏻

[@ronanwalsh7024]

The thing that stands most about to me about Emily is her honesty and integrity.... it's why she's loved so much.... she was 100% real. That along with being the most beautiful girl inside and out.... there was no bullshite about her, she told it like it was for her and people like and admire that. She's definitely the most inspiring person that I've encountered, especially because of her age and situation she was in. A truly remarkable girl.

[@aplainjaneproduction8285]

So well put, definitely the most inspiring person I have ever seen in my 59 years

[@twograndbeauties]

Tapering down on steroids will deplete your energy and your mood. I know from long-term steroid use. Just be aware. It can make you weak and teary, even if you're never like that. You are a brave, beautiful woman, Emily. I hope God blesses you so much. And I'll pray for you.

[@leemoore4749]

I’m a little concerned that your speech is deteriorating quite rapidly from last weeks posts to the two most recent. You are clearly aware of this from the editing in this vlog. Please mention it at your upcoming appointments. I’ve watched your whole channel over the last month. Kept quiet till now

[@murphymcanulty9123]

How is her speech deteriorating? She sounds the same as usual to me

[@Cy93]

@@murphymcanulty9123 Ikr? The only time I heard it was on her last vid. 😕

[@candybar791]

Emily’s face at the end of the video just broke my heart! 😢 bless you darling rest in peace 💋

[@freedomuk9418]

Emily was truly unique beautiful soul kind hearted will be missed bless

[@tashiaonwuchekwa399]

What an inspiration her life was. Been watching every vlog and it has been the sun to my rainy days. You will forever live on.

[@sweetea3272]

Ughhh, why is it always the best people that go too soon. The world is starving for high energy, intelligent, positive people like Emily and yet... They never get to stay long enough 😭😭😭

[@kyliestanley7451]

One more thing we don’t ever want to miss out on your life either and the journey you are taking us on and you both our changing other peoples journeys you sure as hell have changed mine and made me have a whole new out look on things just never stop being you. we and all your KZbin ARMY are behind you both all the way ☀️

[@karenlavin9372]

I started watching Emily's videos 2 months ago and I'm hooked her motivation is incredible, my daughter was diagnosed with cancer at 14 months old and it was the hardest struggle but watching you gives me so much hope and faith to carry on,I also wonder how Aisha is doing much love 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[@leonoraerskine5848]

Some people have very long lives and never find what Emily had with Aisha. She packed a lot into a short time. I'm 55 and this young woman inspires me to stop moaning and make the best of every day. I found this channel after Emily had gone and I hope she knew how many lives she had touched.

[@agutfog1031]

Thank you for being so honest and real today and sharing your feelings so openly with us. Don't forget that you are coming off steroids and also have a cold, which affects you mentally and physically. Just know that there are thousands of people who care about you and want to give you all the support they can, even if it is only by commenting, or subscribing, and for those who believe, by praying. We just wish only the best for you. Hugs.

[@michellecashin3448]

So sad you were and still are the brightest star

[@lindagardellini6321]

You are so loved, Emily, and if love could cure you, you'd be in tip top health and cancer free!!

[@Lomadias]

Your positivity is absolutely stunning, thank you so much for sharing your journey with us.

[@cooterpooter]

i've lost count at how many times i've come back to watch your videos. still so heartbreaking to know your gone. i can't explain why i keep coming back. i love you so much. i loved your videos and how you showed your life. they actually made/make me feel better. what a huge loss.... life is so unfair! we never met, spoke, or anything but i felt like you were such a close friend. i still cry over every video. you are and always be loved and missed from the bottom of my heart.....PEACE dear one....PEACE

[@PurpleLuci]

Literally crying happy tears for you, you and Aish are like amazing and even though you have such adversity thrown at you, you both just deal with it. That’s so amazing, and I pray that you live to both be a 100. Got so much admiration and love for the pair of you 💜

[@kate1705]

Normally “positive thinking” speeches turn me right off, but your message comes from such a frank and genuine place that I find myself looking forward to every new video! It’s not even about your cancer - it’s because you accept when you’re not feeling the greatest without letting that define your day. It’s simple but fucking hard for a lot of people. Thanks Claire ❤️

[@martinlongley7658]

Emily you look great I’ve been following your channel and you are a true inspiration you really are. Keep smashing it

[@denisereynolds2399]

Awww your just lovely hun. I had a hell of a lump in my throat watching this, especially the last bit when you were pouring you heart out. Your just pure magic and you will be here for a long time yet hun and do the things you want to do. Your feeling good and looking good . My doctor once said to me as I have s heart condition, she said “if your feeling good, well then you probably are” so your body tells you when it’s not happy. You keep up this positive vibe love and the journey your on, I’ll be watching you and your vlogs. Your wonderful hun. X🌹♥️🙌🙌👍💐👊🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟xx

[@teddyb3795]

We love you too! Wish I could meet you x

[@mrssmith545]

Emily, you’re an amazing person. I don’t think you realise how much you mean to us who watch you and are sharing your journey. Stay strong and feel the love coming towards you like a wave x

[@MissScrapAlot]

You are so beautiful and the life that radiates from you is amazing !

[@MyHeartStrings55]

Much love from Texas . Keep doing all of the things and loving all of the people. I live a journey of chronic pain. You keep me full of life .

[@jacqcampbell2855]

you make me smile. big hugs xx

[@leelak9763]

I hope Aisha keeps all your wicked trainers....never missed someone I didn’t actually met like you....hugs and much love to Aisha....why can’t I stop watching your videos....

[@Kim-n-Brian]

Just want to let you know we will all push you as far as you need us to...you are 1 in a million with the additude to go with it.....you may never get to meet us all but that doesn't take away the way we feel for you or what we wish for you ! My wish for you and I am positive I am not alone is to see you fight this shitty cancer , put it all behind you and live a happy life with your beautiful wife ! We will mentally help you fight this as long as you need us ❤💓💖💞 !!!

[@andreab.whispers2329]

Kim couldnt have said it better!

[@KoguryoKid]

Just recently became acquainted with Emily and Aisha. (It's now 31 May, 2020.) Your love and light goes on and glows on.....in places far and near, reaching and inspiring everyone everywhere. My partner is now undergoing treatment for NPC (a form of head-and-neck cancer). He has finished most of chemo and starts 35 radiation sessions in a week. I am going to backtrack and watch all of your videos with so much gratitude for sharing your experiences in this hard journey. John/Wayne in Australia

[@SeriousMUAddiction]

Always do you Emily. Whether you are having a good day or a not so great one, whether you take us with you out and about or you are just chilling at home, whether your vlogs are long or short...Know that so many people across the world do and will continue to support both you and Aisha. Sending so much love and positivity!

[@auntielisalisabopeepsa]

I’m in tears 😭 I so wish I found your channel Emily before you passed away. Been catching up on all the videos. I’ve been battling stage 4 metastatic breast cancer since 2014 and I wish I had more people in my life who love and care about me like you did. I’m not alone but some days it feels that way so I tend to isolate myself so I’m not a burden. Your strength, courage and inspiration till the very end is helping me to realize I need to continue fighting and make the best of each day. At the end of this video I cried 😪 because only a month or so later you were gone and I think you knew your time here was limited. Thank goodness you had Aisha, your family and amazing friends and a remarkable team at the Royal Marsden. Fly high with the angels 👼🏻. RIP Emily 🙏🏼🍃🕊

[@Narlee2226]

They have come up with a treatment that attacks brain Tumor its in the uk now it cost around $30,000 ...i felt so upset for Emily and her fight to live and now this has come out nearly a year later :( i wonder if it would of worked on Em :( love from Australia ❤💚💛🧡💜💙

[@coeg9930]

You left me in tears at the end of the video. I'm so impressed on how strong you are. you are an inspiration. I know that I love to try new things in life but sometimes it's just easier to stay in the comfort zone. But through watching your videos I learnt how precious time is and that we all should enjoy everything we can. you are so positive and kind which is rare these days. I usually never comment on videos but I just wanted to let you know that you're a wonderful person!

[@jennifermills5015]

It's not the years in your life, but the life in your years that count.

[@mridul7639]

This is so true.

[@kalamcshane9388]

Well sedd

[@velocitygirl8551]

Eww.

[@desiderata333]

Emily it means so much that you’ve opened up your heart and life to us. I offer you and Aisha all my love, support, compassion and prayers. I have MS, am 54 and my 17 yr old daughter has massive chronic illness and we are both disabled. YOU have inspired us to be stronger and better versions of ourselves! Though it’s hard for me to walk much with the MS, I’ve been going out trying for those walks and thinking of YOU! I say if Emily is working out so hard I can push to walk and now I’m up to half an hour! 😭❤️ May not seem like much for for me it is monumental since MS Steals so much walking capacity. I plan on moving forward and hiring a personal trainer that specializes in disabilities cause I want to get stronger physically. I OWE that to YOU Emily. Keep persevering and thriving darling. I wanted to give you a hug at the end of this video because I know your burdens are very heavy. Just know we all love you and Aisha very much and if you ever come to Connecticut you can stay with us. God loves you darling. 🙏🏽❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🏽

[@danielleantony9971]

Cynthia Anelante aww my mum has MS I know how hard it is for you x

[@desiderata333]

danielle daffers thanks so much. Prayers for your mother. Xo

[@LadyTheBubble]

💚💚💚

[@misstinsley2010]

I almost forgot, Aisha is freaking awesome too! LOVE YOU GIRLS SO SO MUCH♡♡♡

[@paulataylor2308]

I am a 48 year old woman who has suffered mentally all my life. You have shown me that your strength is addictive and has made me look at life differently. You are a beautiful beautiful person so amazing and i thankyou for coming into my life. I send you all my love and healing energy 😇🙏🙏

[@LaurenWoz421]

I don’t know if I’ve ever wanted to hug 2 people so much! Those lucky subscribers! 😊 doubtful i would run into you since I’m in Michigan, US - but here’s a giant virtual *HUG* for the both of you ladies! We adore you! 💖💖💖

[@harrietsmith5262]

There’s something about this girl that I love!! There’s days where if one thing goes wrong my whole days ruined... but this girl is so positive and happy, and I honestly admire her so fucking much❤️

[@ventolininhaler1583]

It must have been difficult to sit in front of the camera and be so honest...respect Em!! Keep teaching us how to love life and how not to waste our precious time. Lots of love xxx

[@hidingid]

my fear is doing things out of my comfort zone... you inspire me so much. I can't even put it into words.

[@AniaCrochetpl]

Much love from Poland! You are amazing! big hugs!

[@joannlovespapillons]

I believe this is the first time I’ve seen you sit still with an emotion concerning your health. It certainly is inspiring how you get through the ups & downs I loved hearing how you & Aisha balance each other. I so wanted to give you a hug & look in your eyes and say, *you, EMILY, are an amazing person*.

[@jademassey2976]

We love you too Emily the ended made me cry not seen you like that before and we’re all here supporting and routing for you and you are giving us so much just watching your vloggs u amaz is the feeling I get wen I watch u makes me feel I can take any problem and concur the world 🙌👌❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌

[@SuperMickeyr]

That ending really got to me also! That look!

[@jademassey2976]

Honestly iv been bed ridden with severe anxiaty for 2 years now but since I found ur channel my mind set and motivation has changed I want to wake up every morning now and appreciate life I didn’t care before as I felt I had no way out but thanks to u uv made me think about how important life is to see you power through u don’t understand what help u have gave me without even trying.... I appreciate you so much life’s hard but u make it look easy even with wot ur going through....... I pray u find a way out a miracle for u and Aisha love u girls ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌

[@gloriamaryhaywood2217]

Almost all of Emily's videos are so up-beat even tho she was in such a life and death struggle. So, yes, towards the end of this one there was no way to miss that certain look of resignation. Broke my heart in two!! What an Amazing young woman Emily was. I'm so grateful that God created her and that she chose to share part of her life with us.

[@susanpola867]

Emily I totally get how much support you get from your subscribers. I had a breakdown several years ago and around the same time found social media - specifically Twitter and my world changed. The support I've found there really has made such a difference to my wellness. Thank you for your videos and the amazing positivity you share with the world. So awesome how many people watch and wish you well, you deserve every one of them.

[@Diana-tf5xq]

Start looking at holidays for when your feeling better give you something else to look forward to? Your amazing what a bundle of energy you are Kidd. Your in our thoughts 24/7 xxxx

[@staceyhogg7664]

I don't think you know how you make my day everyday making me see all the positives instead of worrying about negative things.You make us all grateful for the life we have.

[@niamhmcmahon2657]

Hayward-Hassan is such a beautiful double-barrelled name!!!

[@bethx3260]

you are such an inspiration! you make me realise I have nothing to complain about in my life, you are so positive, it makes me want to love life as much as you do! You are an amazing person! Keep doing what you are doing :)

[@samdoucette3259]

I know you're gone, Emily. But I needed this video today. Thank you.

[@keepitrealdowntoearth4328]

Dearest em,my heart is breaking for you,my daughter just gave birth 7 weeks early! But Emily's doing fine I've asked her to watch your blogs because you are so inspirational and her fears and tiredness is overwhelming her,you made her feel better,and to keep on fighting.so thankyou!!! Bless you hon,I kiss my grandaughter in spirit and wait for the day I can hug her for real😍😊I just wish I could hug you too❤️so I'm sending internet hugs to you and Aisha to say ,you helped my daughter today❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@TheDubrose1]

Thanks for being so open and honest Emily,, you're an inspiration to us all and much loved xx

[@helensparks7631]

You are so right. Everyone should live their lives to the full doing what makes them happy. Cancer is horrific, and there are so many people out there that are lost suddenly too through car crashes, accidents, heart attacks and we never know when it could be our turn to go. You are so right that we should all do as much as we can to make ourselves happy and enjoy the time we have with our loved ones. We never know when it could be too late.

[@db757lbh1]

I just really enjoy you and Aisha’s personality. I would literally sit transfixed if the vlog was you wandering grocery aisles telling us your favorite foods. Now that I’m saying that it occurs to me I need to get out more. lol

[@mskataymskatay2760]

Emily, you are gone but you are still inspiring me. I'm in the fight if my life against Stage 3 breast cancer, but I've adopted your's and Aisha's positivity and attitude. Thank you for being my teachers.

[@melh3941]

My heart breaks for both of you having to deal with this. Even with all you two deal with daily your keep it real and are true inspiration!!! 💕

[@SleepyWoppit]

I’ve been changing my attitude to my life and health because of you. Your energy, drive, enthusiasm and love of life is simply outstanding. I have so much respect for you. You’re changing the world!

[@LillianC]

Emily, you are loved around the world!! ❤️❤️💕

[@megz_85]

Em it's OK to sleep in your bodies way of healing and all the meds babe so don't beat yourself up. And yes live everyday to the absolute fullest! Your such an inspiration I don't know how much you know you have motivated and helped literally 1000z of people. Love ya babe and your positivity! Every breath is a gift and I believe your attitude and positivity plays a big part in your overall well being xxx

[@Sharonlee334]

Prayers for you girl! Your an inspiration! Your honesty and sharing is amazing. Lots of love to you and your family! ♡

[@murdershe......7378]

Emily, you are truly a beautiful soul, I have so much respect for both you and Aisha and this quote popped into my head and made me think of the grace and beauty that you show every single day. “The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman is seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. True beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It's the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows & the beauty of a woman only grows with passing years.”

[@Courtney-gq6so]

I think about you both everyday and it saddens my heart so much that you are suffering so badly. Love you lots and thank you for inspiring so many people

[@kimmieporter4101]

Remember while you are packing in everything in a shorter time, you don’t miss or deny yourself the little things, little rests and a little “off routine” things as sometimes by doing these things they bring you rest, contentment and the little awesome surprises in life. So sleep in a little sometimes, eat the chocolate, skip the gym and just sit near the ocean and do something out of your comfort zone once in a while.... My heart goes out for you. I watch you everyday because your positive attitude is commendable and phenomenal! You always ask if we want to see something in your vlogs....I always dreamed of going to England but that is not going to happen now, so I would love, love, love you to show us more of where you live, your favourite places or things you love about your home country. If able, of course! ❤️ I’m from Canada btw! 🇨🇦

[@BB-ny3eu]

Your energy and positive outlook is amazing , always inspire me xxx

[@sloane629]

As far as what do we want to see in the vlogs.. I could watch you & Aisha , sit on the couch, and just talk!! I’ll bet I speak for lots of people!! 💗💗

[@ElaineSharon358]

Don't ever stop being who you are!!!! your honesty is why you have so much love and support. I am inspired and amazed at you sheer will to fight! Love you lots for Atlanta GA USA❤💕

[@bethhoare9839]

Oh Emily😭😭! Your kill me every time you talk so deeply about your cancer struggles! You’re so bloody positive it amazes me every single day. I am whole heartedly hands down so proud of you and how you are handling your struggles everyday. Both you and Aisha are incredible and are by far the dream team! Love, and respect to you both xx

[@rachelsaviation346]

Emily 💙💙💙💙 we are all here for you , I nearly cried watching the end , sending love from Australia

[@joannasmith5155]

Yup you got me on this one . Cancer has been my biggest fear in life. Lost my mum too early and my aunt last week and my dear sister in law just got diagnosed with breast cancer. An evil illness. Wish we could wave a magic wand for you. But saying this you have guts of steel like no other, total inspiration. This was raw but your truth shows your true grit. Love in abundance x