The Caretaker - Everywhere At The End Of The Time

0:00 It's just a burning memory
3:32 We don't have many days
7:02 Late afternoon drifting
12:37 Childishly fresh eyes
15:35 Slightly bewildered
17:36 Things that are beautiful and transient
22:10 All that follows is true
25:41 An autumnal equinox
28:27 Quiet internal rebellions
31:57 The loves of my entire life
36:01 Into each others eyes
40:37 My heart will stop in joy

[@shitsalad429]

You’ve heard of the Stairway to Heaven, you’ve heard of the Highway to Hell, now get ready for: Elevator to Purgatory

[@buzsick5485]

damn. that was clever 0_0

[@pixelgamelvr]

Fuck you take my like and subscription

[@dumbdannia6326]

Damn, this hits

[@bcbloxxer9734]

made in heaven moment

[@trollge5881]

@@bcbloxxer9734 hey is that- nvm

[@vampirerockstar]

Shits gonna get real once you see the people with meme profile pictures make dark and depressing comments.

[@martonto]

Hello

[@granty3796]

yea, saw one with a had to do it to em with a dr phil m&m pfp make one

[@richard4975]

Lol

[@underwatermonkey3443]

yup

[@sianure6211]

@Nicholas Negosian Yes

[@Delta225]

Hot take: You're not supposed to listen to the whole thing at once. The albums were released six months apart, so you couldn't hear it all upon release. Thus, you listen to one album, take a break for however long you want, then come back and listen to the next album. It's like visiting your relative, then leaving for a while, then coming back and seeing how bad their dementia's gotten.

[@kahnwalters693]

Kahn Walters

[@user-xk8lt6ff6r]

i guss i'll take your advice thank you

[@Manner970]

The songs were made by a artist that died he created the music to go with his art it’s gets weirder and weirder each song

[@Delta225]

@@Manner970 Oh no Leyland Kirby is very much alive, these were made to end the saga of The Caretaker. It is heavily implied that the character of The Caretaker is suffering through dimentia and dies, but Leyland Kirby himself is alive.

[@Manner970]

@@Delta225 well yes I researched him he got the ideas from a scene in the shinning which was the ballroom scene and some effect have happened to people listening to the music it kinda messes with your mental health and it can cause amnesia

[@mr_sparkly_face4087]

One time I was at a nursing home to visit my great aunt with Alzheimer’s. I’ll never forget something that happened that day. As I was in the big social room of the nursing home, and watching Golden Girls with old folks, an old lady with Alzheimer’s comes up and sits right next to me. She leans in and puts her head on my shoulder. I ask her for her name, I can’t remember what it was, but a second later she tells me I look just like her long lost husband. She tells me she misses him and lays her head back down on my shoulder. Tears welled up in my eyes at the realization that she’s all alone with no loved ones in that wretched building. Later as me and my family were leaving, she asked if she could come with us. Of course I had to tell her she couldn’t, and she seemed ok with that. All she asked was that one day I’d come back to visit her. I couldn’t make that promise so I said nothing. Months later I go to the nursing home again to visit my great aunt, but I didn’t see that one lady again. We were there for a while, 4-5 hours, and I never saw her again. My heart grieved at the fact that the one lady, who’s husband I resembled, was gone. Go to your local nursing home, and love the residents. Many have no family to visit them or to care for them. They need us.

[@dustythenascar3777]

How this does not have replies baffles me. I wholeheartedly support your statement. Not too long ago a good family friend called Ed, was practically alone in his resting home. Every so often I visited, since he was blind from diabetes related issues, he would always say “Its good to hear ya.” The only other person he had was his wife. Visit them and make the most. It will at the very least make their day a little better.

[@chi11y29]

Wow. Your right. I love residents and older people, like my great grandma's, they have such good hearts and are always so sweet and kind.

[@astroblaze_z779]

this actually makes me cry.

[@seanmalatesta4957]

On the funny side of it, "Alzheimer’s comes up........ I ask her for her name, I can’t remember what it was!" j/k

[@halamandra1]

she seems like she would be a really nice old lady you'd see on the park too. dementia is really sad.

[@skylarkeeler1093]

Brings me back to the good ol' 1930s - when I had to wait another 70 years to exist.

[@OkieDokieSmokie]

Yea, when we still had 70 years before we started fucking everything up.

[@skylarkeeler1093]

Ok Gaming Things were already getting fucked up, ahaha.

[@chistinelane]

Mom said it's my turn in the existence waiting room with permanent repeating ballroom

[@rats6136]

that was a good ol wait wasnt it

[@Xajane02]

Everybody talking about this as a good and fun thing. Just knowing the “story” of this whole album makes this super scary and really not enjoyable. It’s still a masterpiece.

[@kerberosNetwork]

In my history class this year, an assignment was given where we had to talk to our grandparents and ask them questions about there past, younger self. I thought it was a dumb assignment at the time, but i cant tell you how much i appreciate it now. I interviewed my grandpa. We had a sheet with a list of questions to ask. I remember propping up my phone recorder so i can re listen to what he said to type the paper out later on. My grandpa grew up in grand rapids Michigan and lived in your average suburban neighborhood. His mother was very kind, sweet woman. His father on the other hand, was troubled and had a difficult time expressing his feelings. He told me that when he was little hed often play with the neighborhood kids, but every year a circus would come downtown, and him and his brother would often go down there to watch. One time they met the owner of the circus who pretty much asked them "hey kids wanna job?" so they helped tend to the elephants. I asked him if he ever played an instrument. It took him a long while to remember. He told me he always wanted to play the trumpet for school, but it cost 45 cents a week to rent, and when he asked his father, he yelled and told him they didnt have that kind of money. He was very sad, i could see the regret in his face when he told me this. Broke my heart. He also told me about what music he likes, its this classic stuff. He loves jazz and Mozart too. Maybe this is why this hits so hard for me. He went on to tell me about his favorite books, and other memories he could remember. Ill never forget how long it took him sometimes. We had to skip a couple questions. He didnt know the answer to his own life story. As we were wrapping things up i asked him what his favorite memory was. He told me it was playing baseball with my stepdad. "Matt would look at me and say 'please we need another player' and what was i supposed to do? ...Thats alot of pressure!" That was my favorite one too. My grandpa dosent have dementia, he isnt sick, but hes still old. Hes still forgetting. I didnt understand at the time why we need to do this project, but after listening to Everything At the End of Time, i can tell you why: To help them remember. Everytime i hear a trumpet, ill think of you, grandpa Larry. Love you.

[@dandan6627]

That was beautiful

[@JEFFISWEE]

Thank you for posting this

[@Zeding_Stuff]

I`m crying.

[@hawkz3613]

very cool blaze fireball, thank you

[@laoscurita]

❤

[@bluegato5613]

x1- melancholy x1.25- the beginning of an old christmas movie x1.5- the beginning of an old movie x1.75- the beginning of an old romcom x2- the beginning of an old comedy

[@lucasmaguire5014]

That is creepily accurate to me somehow

[@thimothey66]

holy shit

[@lumaa_dev]

that's oddly accurate

[@lucasmaguire5014]

@@lumaa_dev ikr?

[@dezgasting]

late afternoon drifting on x2 sounds like something heavily distorted though

[@zoudv5162]

im autistic, this music makes me feel really sad because, my mom is in her late 40s and i don't know what i'd do without her, just thinking about the fact this could happen to her in the future makes me sad, we spend everyday together, the fact that she could forget all of that is just saddening,

[@jaydenludewig7401]

dementia is a terrifying thing. rather than spending time in fear, make the most of what you have, before it slips away.

[@crystalstarrz]

By thinking of all the moments that she made you smile and brought you joy would be uplifting. Smile because she is still with you dear one! Same way many of us are smiling because we’re happy that you’re here. Much love ❤️

[@jamesbeddow2375]

same

[@OnlyKammy]

Just keep your head up and support each other and I promise it will work out BTW I may also be slightly autistic and I have a lot ov freind ho have autism (severa autism and they support etother) you sound caring kid im 12 to you got this man god blees your mom and you 🙏🙏🙏

[@rattfish]

I’m glad nobody is like “Y O U. J A I L.”

[@SAM_ARTHUR_CL0VVNDOLL]

The elevator to the afterlife.

[@john7180]

Percy...

[@a.c.7573]

until you hear the rest of the stages

[@grugg3108]

@@a.c.7573 the elevator fell, it's a scary experience and the music skips. You survive the fall, but you are severely injured. The power in the elevator is low and the music is now a drone that occompanies the sound of the rescue equipment. You realise the injury is pretty bad and later die to the injury. There is the unwanted description of the album that was needlessly metaphorical.

[@breeeegs]

"NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!" *music gets louder as the flames of hell engulf you. Satan smiles and bops his head along to the tune while stabbing you in the ass with a pitchfork*

[@SAM_ARTHUR_CL0VVNDOLL]

menachem rephun kinky

[@GrandmasterofWin]

My grandmother is 90. My parents are in their 70s. I turn 30 this month. My best friend killed himself at the beginning of the year when he was 30. I feel 19 in my head and I think I look the same until I see teenagers and they look like children. My parents are slipping a bit already and it scares me. They rely on me now and I'm not ready. I feel like an overgrown child, but I look around and see the same in everyone else. People drink and do drugs and watch tv and play video games to hide from their existentialism. In quiet moments though, all of these adults have flashes of realization... we don't know what the fuck is going on. We pretend that everything is OK to give a sense of stability and optimism to the younger people and kids, but we're all lost. One day you realize that people look at you as a Sir instead of bud or kid, people start seeing you as a possible threat because you're not small anymore, and people stop trying to help you... You're on your own.

[@supertajnykana8146]

That's so true...

[@mathiascoroi]

This broke my heart man, i don’t wanna grow up

[@ianplace9977]

I feel like I will relate to this when im older

[@MoonCakeisaLie]

We’re in this together, all of us.

[@adrianno5128]

tldr prob cap

[@cecileleal3351]

I'm seventeen years old and turning eighteen this year. I've lived a normal life since i was born. I have a kind and caring family that helped me get through depression and suicidal thoughts two years ago. Everything is fine, everyone is healthy but, i realized only recently that, i had no memory of what happened since i was born and up until i was eleven where i start to have some recollection of the events. I do have some memories with good friends but, when we talk about it together, they're telling me all kind of stories and jokes about what we used to do and i'm like : "Are you sure we actually did that ?". It feels weird, cold and lonely, i don't want to forget what happens.

[@tete2234]

and then they laugh at you and saying "you didnt remember that" while youre trying to remember in confusion.

[@beatricelee3348]

ah, 17 going on 18 get the reference?

[@sommelierofstench]

i’ve forgotten more than i can remember at this point it feels like. sometimes memories come back in a deluge though. i hope you can remember your past. i take many photos so i don’t forget things as much now.

[@JagwarX]

I feel like when i have moments where when I have blotches in my memory it’s because of my lack of purpose or mindfulness in that time of life. I just go through the motions so I have a hard time recalling those events. I try to be more in the moment now and I can remember in great detail the last 7 years I’ll see if I can remember in another 10 those moments

[@jekis1238]

look up "infantile amnesia." That might explain some of it. Additionally depression can altar memory.

[@evaphan2720]

"Hey, grandfather. I'm sorry I never said goodbye to you. I'm sorry I never met you before. I know you're gone, but I hope you're watching. Bye, grandfather. I love you." Edit: Could've been better, but my Writing from when I was 13 wasn't the best. So guess what? You know what I'm gonna do, y'know what I'm g'nna do? "... 4 Years. That's how long *we* took to 'scape these Storms 'n get to that Agency. Agent *[REDACTED]* said that you were the one who killed my mom? That right? Well, I d'care. I miss y'man. Fly high. Noseumazhngos." i put in "noseumazhngos" because i thought it would be cool i should probably write an entire fuckin essay on this (Hey, we gotta get back to that Database Retrieval.) yes i know im just doing something here (Well, get your ass over here and help!) 'kay jeez

[@deadlycuddles3091]

How sad :(

[@StealsAndEatsYourSandwich]

Why.. is this.. relatable..? I wasn’t there when he died.. I miss him..

[@Beanosmemethingy]

I can relate so much to this... my grandfather ( which is my dad's father ) died before I was even born, and my other grandfather( my mom's father ) died in 2018...

[@deadlycuddles3091]

@@Beanosmemethingy yoooo

[@evaphan2720]

@@Beanosmemethingy damn my grandfather died in 2020 because of covid

[@gabdlr]

I am currently working as a nightwatchman in a parisian hotel, I put this music in the reception and feel like in a dream

[@soolikagsdi]

What a uniquely interesting and strange experience.

[@McMurphyMillions]

I'd be watching every corner for twins if I did that

[@metatron7515]

don't fall asleep in your chair there's no telling where you'll surface

[@gabdlr]

@@metatron7515 the last time it happened i thought i woke up in an old swiming pool in the middle of the forest, the water was warm and regenerating

[@gabdlr]

also anoter time I thought I woke up in the hotel but I could hear everybody sobbing inside the rooms, then a little girl came from the street, she seemed to hide from someone. At this moment the main door opened again and a very old and creepy shape came inside. the shape touched the girl, I tried to protect her in my arms but it was too late, she was already dead.

[@piper2768]

the trouble is, you think you have time.

[@knotslot]

this comment is so underrated

[@felixstone5615]

bro... that really hit me. I didn’t know that eight words could be so powerful.

[@IMN602]

SHUT UP MAN IM ALREADY FREAKED OUT :)

[@josephmedina9098]

And now i won't sleep for days... Thanks man

[@MartinAvechuco]

My dude, this one hit home.

[@sixscorpion8169]

I used to work at a cathedral, and every Sunday, this old man in brown torn clothes came in. He was honestly one of the nicest people I've ever met, but one day he stopped coming in. A few years go by, and nobody at that point remembered what he even looked like. When I started driving home, not sure when it was, but it was around 2-3 years ago, I looked at a guy in a flashy suit, bowtie, and the shiniest shoes I've ever seen. I looked at his face, and realized it was him. I stopped and said hi. It took him a few seconds before he recognized me, and then we had a long conversation. He asked me to come home for dinner(I used to get off work around 4), and he hopped in the back of my car. We drove for a while, till he said turn. We pulled into a driveway, and both got out. His place was huge, and was really nice. We ate lasagna that night, and for the next couple of night, I hung out with him. One day I drive to his place, because I got off early from my new job. But as I made the same turn, I actually pulled into an old abandoned warehouse, and the roof was falling apart. There was only one thing recognizable. The smell, of freshly made, lasagna. I went home, and went to bed. The next morning I woke up, and went to work. The cathedral is a nice place to work, but man the dreams are something different. That guy still came everyday. Unfortunately he died a few years ago, so the town buried him. R.I.P Paul, may you be happy wherever you are.

[@viciousKev]

2spooky4me

[@retsreinyrelgeinthrelaveri1456]

huh

[@spectoestis3106]

YOU CAN'T FUCKING DO THAT TO ME!

[@buderpycat9765]

My Grandma died of dementia, all she could remember was my name, when I was little she would always tell me that my name fits perfect with me when ever i went to her house. I didn't really realize me and her husband were the last ones. I wish I could have her back just to talk to her one last time.

[@nony3042]

Sad hope you are ok

[@zod_]

these comments making me cry man

[@Doctordoomedalr]

Ok

[@carsanxgen1466]

i'm 20 and this music makes me feel like I'm running out of time

[@BNardolilli]

you are

[@blondie2998]

we all are

[@the_birthday_skeleton]

don;t worry. you ran outt of time long, long ago., :)

[@jreynoldswrap]

I'm 29 and feeling the same. Push yourself past laziness when you can, but also find some way to relax everyday. We're all passengers in these bodies, going through time at an alarming rate. Cherish every moment. Every moment will be a memory in time.

[@gummybearstudios4163]

google "Torschlusspanik"

[@OkieDokieSmokie]

This album feels like the 2nd half of your 1st day at school.

[@bochen1079]

what

[@fireworksfordinner]

@@bochen1079 I get it

[@bochen1079]

Alex Winterhalter I don’t, wtf does that mean

[@OkieDokieSmokie]

@@bochen1079 that feeling when you realize it's not that bad but it's not going to get any better, a mix of a relief and discontent for the future ahead.

[@milesium-487]

Stage 6 represents adulthood.

[@TTancevat]

I’m 13, yet I’ve always had a fascination, almost a nostalgia for life before my own. I grew up poor, and lived in an old 1920’s house, with most of our belonging from yard sales hosted by elders giving away the old belongings in witch they once raised themselves upon. Most of my toys were old, and smelled old. I myself had many old stuffies, and a small music box that played the second song: “We don’t have many days.” I grew up with old songs, old toys, old wallpaper, and old memories. When I listen to this song, I think of the yellowed carpets of some attic or basement. Walking through what to 5-6yr old me; seemed like a jungle. Teddy bears, vinyl records, old wood, faded China, old tools, carpet, smells, photos, dolls, trinkets. My first memories were born from the fading memories of old. This music is exactly how I envision them. I can’t belive its just a burning memory

[@AStackofcookies]

lie! we dont have many days was made in 2015

[@AStackofcookies]

lie! we don't have many days was made in 2015

[@BloxySnow]

@@AStackofcookies the sample tho is much older

[@mrclean445]

everybody says this is creepy and unsettling but I find it rather relaxing. I listen to this while studying it kind of reduces the stress. Feels like I actually have nothing to worry about

[@israel-np6ii]

i agree... all but the beginning part. its really unsettling for me...

[@cosmamariuta7300]

It's the fact your brain doesn't understand the nostalgia this song is giving, your brain is like: "Why do I fell nostalgic?" "What does it even remind me off?" and that happens in the 1st part, "It's just a burning memory", that's why the 1st part is called like that.

[@robokill387]

Because this first part isn't the creepy part, listen to part 3, 4 or 5.

[@nacheitor8563]

Kinda ironic studying with this album ngl

[@nahset]

I cannot beloved some people cried over music...

[@kozy703]

I wish I could be in a big room with everybody in this comment section. Everyone just hanging out. Some are talking. Some are not. but everyone is glad to be there.

[@perpendicularparadox]

Kozy same omg

[@mooncrater1286]

Yes

[@phonironi1579]

Sounds great

[@psychogirly910]

Kozy Count me in :)

[@alezbalez4996]

i'm in

[@LeviJules]

My new favorite music genre, Void Lounge.

[@VenomFrogPwned]

It’s called Hauntology. It’s already a thing.

[@hershmysson]

HAHAHA god, that cracked me up

[@zorkwhouse8125]

@@VenomFrogPwned hmm - I'd always heard it was classified as post-rock, but maybe what you mentioned is a sub genre therein

[@lunasllenas1997]

@@zorkwhouse8125 This has literally nothing to do with post-rock.

[@zorkwhouse8125]

@@lunasllenas1997 I beg to differ - post rock is pretty broad as a genre. You can lump in everything from See-feel to Low to Flying Saucer Attack to Mogwai to Talk Talk's later albums. There are tons of small genres inside it like Slowcore and Math rock etc. So, it can be whatever genre you think it is, in addition to also being post rock. I've been writing about music for 20 years, there have been dozens of sub-genres popping up over the years as people try to come up with more and more silly labels for music - when genres are kinda dumb anyway b/c (as right now) so many people disagree on what does and doesn't define a genre. Also I worked in music stores for years - where we constantly argued over what section of the store different artists belonged in. In a lot of cases its a matter of opinion, but I dunno. What do you consider to be "post-rock"?

[@medievalducky1590]

First stage. This is where Dementia first manifests. It seems like nothing is wrong since little details are forgotten so subtly you wouldn't even know or care. You've planned with your best friend from High School for a reunion. It's been so long since you've seen him, you can't wait to meet him again. You remember the first time you met him in High School.

[@Lincyna]

I'm just going to throw this out of the way and just forget it. I'm Korean who refused to take the trip of 세월 ferry because I didn't deserve to be well-known or a simple ride. My friends, the majority of them loved and knew who I was back when I was in middle school. We barely survived the terrible, dark society Korea naturally has to offer for their own people as I was perhaps one of a small amount of them who was fortunate to live. Suicide was common, especially for kids. I am now 22 years old in Korea, 21 on the United States of America soil as I was, very fortunate enough to live here on American soil and work my way to become an American citizen. However, I am not, very unfortunate upon realizing, that I should've stayed with them on that trip and be the only student who was meant to be part of it, to survive to live and tell the tale. The darkness consumed to the core, and that's okay because I already accepted it, as I have nothing to do but do what people do lurking in the shadows, hoping that whatever I do that looks inhumane and disgusting to others would be enough to satisfy me. I'm now in college, and they stopped at Highschool. I love them, and I miss them.

[@Howisnohandleavailable]

나는 그들이 당신을 그리워할 것이라고 확신합니다. 미국에 오신 것을 축하합니다. (구글 번역을 사용하여)

[@iratepirate3896]

RIP all those young men and women.

[@ianjagga3629]

힘내세요, 친구분들도 분명히 작성자 분이 살아계시고 잘 지내시고 있다는 사실에 엄청 기뻐하고 계실거에요 :)

[@TJ413]

It's a flipbook. You can see how it's curling up, how if you chose to "unfurl" it, it would naturally be wider than it was tall. Not indicative of a normal book or a magazine. The biggest indications are the deformations at the end of the pages-- It's where you would hold your thumb to flip through each of the pages separately. At this point, it's been used so much that the areas where one would flip through have become physically damaged, pages have begun to clump together, it's lost its color... It's a representation of someone's mind and memories fading because of age.

[@haemmer]

Thank you so much.

[@arya0794]

I dont like the pic, as you mentioned its a flipbook and for me it looks wet and wet flipbooks are well not good because its harder to flip Yea off topic reply Ik

[@arya0794]

Dont mind my reply I didnt read the comment fully

[@chemicalfuzzy]

I thought it was a paper towel for the longest time, so yeah. This seems like a better interpretation. Thank you.

[@gpliskin]

The artist, Ivan Seal, specializes in painting objects that seem familiar but you can't quite point out anything in them to understand what the object actually is.

[@egg6026]

It feels like remembering a time I never visited... a ballroom I was never in... a love I never felt...

[@egg6026]

signodan i completely forgot i had this as a profile pic oops

[@hisholiness4537]

Leyland *Kirby*

[@Squiddiessquids]

It’s da kirb

[@SubTonic]

That's why this album works so well as a metaphor for dementia. It evokes a feeling of familiarity and nostalgia at the beginning, and makes you 100% empathetic to what's being expressed. It's mindblowing how much care went into the whole thing.

[@hulsy8101]

t'd

[@poemasacolor]

30 here, this music makes me feel like I'm in a planetary station just at beginning to terraform, far away from the milky way, receiving the signal on an old radio while the memories of those who have loved us most are fading million thousands of light years away.

[@Warning_OpinionAhead]

CORRECTED TIMESTAMPS: 0:00 - A1 - It's just a burning memory 3:32 - A2 - We don't have many days 7:02 - A3 - Late afternoon drifting 10:38 - A4 - Childly fresh eyes 13:37 - A5 - Slightly bewildered 15:38 - A6 - Things that are beautiful and transient ---------------- 20:13 - B1 - All that follows is true 23:44 - B2 - An autumnal equinox 26:32 - B3 - Quiet internal rebellions 30:03 - B4 - The loves of my entire life 34:07 - B5 - Into each other's eyes 38:43 - B6 - My heart will stop in joy

[@27ddecommentaries43]

Fun fact : stage 1 has : Early Stage 1 = A1 - A6 and Late Stage 1 = B1 to B6 , same as Stage 2 , letters mean something

[@Warning_OpinionAhead]

@@27ddecommentaries43 Stage 1 has sides A and B, Stage 2 has sides C and D, 3 has E and F and for the later stages there is only 1 song for each side.

[@kahnwalters693]

Kahn Walters

[@Warning_OpinionAhead]

@@kahnwalters693 Kahn Walters

[@JustATest01]

@@kahnwalters693 Kahn Walters

[@farter_snail]

holy shit there’s so much atmosphere in this comment section someone could easily make a cartoon out of this

[@hesiod_delta9209]

A dance party in the existential abyss, complete with ragtime music and a trippy painted art style.

[@Marzlpan]

I feel like nobody could truly capture what it means without... 40 hours of morbidly interesting footage

[@Swiatlocien]

Comment sections under ambient pieces are always like this. One of the most beautiful, soulful places in the whole Internet.

[@AethernaLuxen]

That's one dark cartoon

[@alexsiemers7898]

Cartoon? More like a whole movie

[@invaderderpygirl]

I work with a 75 year old guy who lives alone with just his cat. No kids no family, aside from his brother in a different state. Hes a smart guy and healthy for his age, but we're both aware the clock is ticking. Sometimes he repeats stuff he already told me. His names Gilbert and hes my best friend, I dont want his twilight years to be spent alone. Im 20 I have time to share and he has wisdom to pass on. I just wish I could stop the seconds from slipping by

[@jamesbeddow2375]

im sorry about that

[@thenamesvaston5002]

Is he okay?

[@finn4aviation320]

Hey man please let me know how Gilbert is doing. I hope you guys still spend time together

[@hopep6215]

Hows Gilbert now? Is he okay?

[@TheArquimedes]

Gilbert

[@Gramp-aw]

This album *was* heartbreaking to listen to. I was letting it play as background music while I was playing games with a friend and the thought of "One day we wont be playing games like this anymore, one day one of us will be gone forever, one day we'll all forget each other" enveloped my mind. The album isn't heartbreaking, the future is.

[@-Arthur_Morgan_]

i know :( hey good luck with the future

[@F59PHI]

My grandpa recently died of Alzheimer's disease. Every time I think of this album I remember the times he would go berserk over things that didn't exist, or when he tried to do things that seemed totally irrational. I really think that this is an accurate representation of what happens to your mental state. During his last few months he just wasn't there. Nothing at all. I really miss him, but just thinking of what he would live through if he were around today haunts me.

[@kgeml1544]

Am I wrong, or can one die with alzheimer's and not from it. I'm sorry for your loss.

[@SpamtonGSpamton4.99]

Why yall gotta talk mostly about grandpas it hits me so much😢 I am sorry for your loss

[@F59PHI]

@@kgeml1544 one can die of Alzheimer's because it literally kills your brain cells, and the brain physically gets smaller. Once a certain part of the brain is destroyed, the person will lose functions and die.

[@thegrandatm1844]

@@kgeml1544I’m pretty sure it affects muscle memory making you unable to swallow but idk I’m not a doctor

[@vibemaster4404]

Getting serious apocalypse vibes from this. The human race is gone. The flora and fauna are non-existent. There's nothing left but an old record player, chugging along as if nothing ever happened.

[@gavinisdie]

Ipod in namibia infinitely playing Africa : am I a joke to you?

[@felixstone5615]

this comment gets a certified vibe award from me.

[@wingflanagan]

"We know of an ancient radiation That haunts dismembered constellations A faintly glimmering radio station While Frank Sinatra sings Stormy Weather The flies and spiders get along together Cobwebs fall on an old skipping record"

[@vibri8775]

.. its supposed to be dementia

[@markusman09]

@@vibri8775 no one cares its a good song

[@sheppin_]

So I’m only on the first song and I’m scrolling through the comments and it’s making me very worried

[@Marzlpan]

Haha welcome to this pocket of the internet

[@sleepocity1747]

Good luck

[@AlastorTheNPDemon]

The full length piece is over six hours. If you have a chance, listen to it all the way through... Put it on in the background while you're doing chores or something. It's a worthwhile journey.

[@sheppin_]

Freddie the Eliminator Alright! I’ll make sure to do that

[@photoslum]

the comments on another video of The Caretaker led to anthro-planes. Yep. its real

[@Zedorfska]

yesterday when i visited my grandma, she cried like she didnt see me in years. i shrugged that off but now while listening to this, i really hope what i think might be happening, isnt

[@mnep5]

I hope she's ok 🙁

[@ellereynolds2910]

This album is about dementia. When your a dementia patient the longest memory you can remember is your favourite song and when it starts to fade you do too.

[@chuck1prillaman]

Goodnight Human race. It was a good run we had. Sleep well.

[@GANDEIA]

hey, can you hear that? I am a Brazilian artist and I produce independently. The Caretaker and Basinski are great inspirations to me. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iqGVgWiJYtmrjKs

[@luiswonder2101]

Really good

[@KurtRiley]

Goodnight, my friend.

[@antonmanu5817]

it felt really weird reading that

[@creativeusername6430]

read me a bed time story first

[@breckon2684]

I love how the first song is just a slowed down version of the orchestral part to Heartaches by Al Bowlly, and it was renamed to it's just a burning memory, because that is an actual lyric in the song.

[@ZiggyCashmere]

Yes! I was wondering if anyone else noticed that. Was super happy to hear Bowlly in this.

[@ChanceRhodes]

I love how you just wanted to tell people this but wanted to sound more casual so you prefaced it with "I love how"

[@brianwtf]

well it is sampledelia, you know

[@darklord220]

He also died in a bombing raid

[@youtubeisevil]

sames goes to What Does It Matter how My Heart Breaks

[@draexian530]

This is not an album for people who remember a time when the records sounded like this, when the technological stylings of this collection were "accurate." It is for people who knew those people, or the people that knew them, and will one day share their fate. This is a memory of the things that we have not yet lost. Hold closely to the bonfire, friends, for the night of a dream is long and terrible.

[@bandits1613]

I love how the songs just repeat over and over it really makes you think the this person has forgotten the last half and trying over and over to figure out what it was

[@HarryScutt]

Then in stage 2 and you hear the same loops but they cut abruptly short, to show the person has forgotten how even the short snippets they used to remember go

[@boxyman6]

vaporwave for old people?

[@leewaylod]

yes

[@majogarcia8729]

More like drone for mad people

[@dermotmacconville8354]

swing wave

[@jandopandeiro]

G E R I A T R I C

[@PansBox11]

But seriously, how is this music made? Is somebody actually making this or is it just some old record? I mean either way it’s good don’t get me wrong.

[@louismyatt1507]

it is warm and pleasant but also eerie and deathly...

[@bleachbucket9440]

Your profile pic is eerie and deathly. Jesus Christ

[@hermisondi_3500]

It’s like a somewhat friendly ghost that could kill you at any moment

[@thomasfisher3083]

This album is the sun confirmed

[@cofkavos]

This album in no way creeps me out. It's just melancholic and lonely. It's beautiful and haunting. I always tend to forget ironically that my grandfather had dementia before his sudden death -- It wasn't severe to the point of forgetting faces and his children but there were things he'd constantly forget -- he isolated himself and my grandma isolated him to some extent. These songs and this genre in general really brings his memory to me so deeply.

[@12345Yeah]

Congratulations

[@movedaccount5311]

I used to be a social kid, really social. I have both Autism and ADHD. I had friends, bullies, just a schoolgirls life. I eventually moved. Nobody gave me a single glance. I was invisible. this sounds dumb, but it’s 100% true. I have a feeling all my old friends forgot about me. I’m all alone. I had no clue what to even do from this point. I eventually just stopped socializing. i’m still bullied, i have 1 friend. that’s it. now we’re getting way too many assignments right now. it’s stressing me out so much. I guess im also Everywhere At The End Of Time as well.

[@milfplazahotel]

i feel u

[@cosmicoleous]

Forgetting is a fate worse then death.

[@dy7296]

"There are some things far more frightening than death." ~ Grand Inquisitor

[@aksolopl]

Why are there so many deep comments?

[@KoenDraws]

@@aksolopl Because when videos express these kinds of dark topics, people feel comfortable sharing their experiences with everyone.

[@bruh-wg8hq]

@@aksolopl it's a deep album

[@Desepted]

I'd rather die than have dementia when I'm 84

[@trevan5035]

Who else is scrolling way to far in the comments cuz they can't take this journey alone

[@zionfinley5011]

Yes. Please hold me o~o

[@user-wf6xe5zj4g]

@@zionfinley5011 Me too owo

[@benobii]

Trevan I tried doing it alone, but I ended up with an existential crisis by stage 3

[@ohseespolice7419]

the journey only begins, my friend... trust me, it's gonna be ok...

[@lennydurber1522]

It’s comforting but scary

[@cxndygutz2722]

I'm really worried about my grandmother. She's 57, and she's showing early signs. She forgets seemingly mildly significant things more often. She's more depressed, and more angry. This is some of what I've heard stage 1 is like. I'm scared for her, truly. I hope that I'm just being paranoid, and that she doesn't have dementia. Even her husband has pointed out that she's "acting strange".

[@gooolixx]

hows she doing now

[@coatguy2990]

just try and be there for her and talk to her from time to tie, you don't wanna hate yourself later on for not supporting someone in need

[@cxndygutz2722]

@@gooolixx Sorry for the late response but, it's all gotten worse.

[@gooolixx]

@@cxndygutz2722 oh man, keep doing good for as long as you can

[@kiddosneakybeaky3934]

@@cxndygutz2722 Can you maybe take her to a doctor, if you can? I can also link you to a youtube channel that gives advice and help to those taking care of patients with Dementia.

[@Nightkite]

im 13 (about to be 14 on may) but this album makes me feel so sad, makes me feel like i'm on the shoes of someone who has been through it all, through the trials and tribulations of life, and now they're just fading away, like a memory. Now i feel extremely bad for not being able to spend enough time with my grandparents..

[@beatricelee3348]

11 going on 12 get the reference ?

[@TheBreadMan25]

@@beatricelee3348 Yes. Sound of Music :D:D:D:D:D:D

[@thediscorder6912]

I'm 18.It's ok to know that ''it will all end someday'' except when listening to this type of music haha. It's ok to know that tomorrow won't be any different than today yet one year from now you will remember being 14. Or maybe you won't remember. Does it matter in the end? ''How much time is there?'' isn't really a good question to ask... ''How much will I live?'' is a much better one. In time you just realise that even if does one day come to an end, why should we feel bad about it? Just live now and enjoy what you are doing and make sure that everything that matters to you isn't forgotten. Stay with your family of friends or relatives and just listen to them talk. Go out, stay in, have fun, study hard, feel bad sometimes, feel great sometimes, have long walks, do some cooking, do some writing, talk to people, go see your friend, listen to music, find a hobby, watch a movie...the list is very long if you think about the things we subconciously do yet we never stop to consider. Even if one day it won't matter or it won't have any significance, it's very important that we do these mundane, everyday things. So you can choose what matters to you. When I was 14 I remember how I used to spend all summer playing video games since I didn't have any real friends. I remember the breeze of the cold nights just looking at the stars. I remember how I used to love walking around the forest near my city. I can still do that stuff even if I'm not 14. I remember that last day of highschool last July. I was the one putting back all of the chairs in their place after the party was over. I remember how I went back home super tired, sat on my bed and thought "welp,now what?". I sat there for half an hour and just went to play some overwatch after. I didn't sleep well that night. After summer I'm still keeping in touch with some of my old classmates and see them once in a while...things haven't changed much. I don't feel bad that highschool is over even though university is kinda hard and all of that. I'm still okay and that's what matters to me at least. I kinda feel bad for not keeping in touch with my grandparents as much. My cousin was born some months ago and I'm glad that something good happened this summer. Even if I feel bad it won't fix things, but caring is what makes us human. I guess we can only try. If you reached the end, thanks for reading. I don't really know if you should take advice from someone like me, but please don't feel bad about things. Just remember to treasure your moments even as you grow older. Maybe this half an hour that took me to type this won't be just me rambling about my boring ass life. :)

[@dreamgirl1937]

ur probably 15 now same as me, i feel u like i relate a lot. I am so relieved to hear that there is someone put there that is feeling what i feel.

[@gogofuntime_yt]

@@thediscorder6912 Well written, thank you for the advice.

[@GiveSic]

You're walking through your old highschool, the doors are locked keeping you in, not a soul can be found, everything seems familiar but strangely vague and empty. You aren't truly there, but rather in a place that resembles it. Somehow and seemingly from nowhere you hear haunting vintage music but no matter where you go the music always seems like it's being played from down the hall or across the room. You can hear the needle scratching on the record but the music never ends, never pauses. Things are calm, still, tranquil. Like a painting. How long can you stay here all alone? The music can only keep you company for so long..

[@inventgineer]

"How long can you stay here all alone? The music can only keep you company for so long.." Not true; you are your own company, and the music is simply the soundtrack of one's endless exploration into the infinite, if looped, corridors of their own mind. One could wander around in here forever.....no sense of time, no concern, just existing tranquilly between soothing fragments of memory; the glue that holds the broken fragments of perceptions together :)

[@bonniejunk]

*resembles, not reassembles auto correct is a loser

[@GiveSic]

@@bonniejunk Tell me how I didn't notice that even though I read it like 5 times lol

[@elliottmcpeek7443]

i really love this comment dude, cool short film idea

[@jamesfoz6400]

​@@inventgineer Sounds lovely in a sense, albeit somewhat creepy, especially if it doesn't 'evolve' into the full version, cause I don't want to be inside their by the time Stage 4, let alone what Stage 6 would invitingly become. Which reminds me, I need to finish the whole thing one day.

[@concernedthanos6725]

You ever watch the first episode or listen to the first song of a album and know your gonna commit to listening to the entire thing

[@AlecNormal]

Important follow up question: have you listened to the entire discography?

[@BitsOfNyan]

Ive never been more Insulted by something I 100% agree with

[@sin8283]

Thanos you,re right but the whole album is over 6 hours long so ill pass on that one XD

[@kyreviews4000]

i’m trying so hard not to cause ik it’s sad

[@juliangriffiths9583]

@@AlecNormal yep and the crap haunted me for 2 weeks

[@ognitron8191]

A Memory You've had it all your life Stowed away In the back of your mind Aware of it, though never having fully explored it Many years have passed Since the day the memory was born Many friends have come All of them are gone Flown up Away to the heavens You wished for a full life, and you've reached your goal Though age is slowly starting to take it's merciless toll... With a gleam of remembrance The memory starts smoking And with a bright flash of light A flame starts glowing The memory's ignited Lit ablaze Throwing sparks Spitting Sputtering You feel it awaken you In a moment of reflection, it fully envelops you A reminder of what was A snapshot of the past A shadow of a time that is no more... And as abruptly as it started, it stops The sparks cease to glow, the flame goes out And with the dying light, the memory is gone Lost forever Another piece of your life Another piece of you Forgotten No need to worry No need to worry After all, It's just a burning memory

[@yellipohyodiyol1096]

Poem moment

[@lakosca]

Bars.

[@determinedgamer0612]

Pun intended

[@Kenjii_the_duckk_]

this. this is beautiful. one of the more stunning pieces of literature i have seen.

[@nerdnerdman6151]

This completely makes me remember band class in 4th and 5th grade. It wasn't a required subject, but it was still kind of fun. But, any time you walked down the hallway, there was this eerie echoing that would make you stop and think about everything you'd ever done in life. I remember just stopping mid-stride and tripping, almost losing one of my teeth. But, I didn't care. Also reminds me of my dentist's office, which is where they revealed to me that my teeth were attempting to push the others out. It was scary as all hell, and I was scared to death that my teeth were just gonna get pushed out one day. My teeth didn't get pushed out, and I hope they never do.

[@ratsmacker390]

It feels like my brain is trying to remember a memory with this song that doesn't exist Edit: I remembered this comment existed because of a few replies and I’ve since gotten very into early 1920s music, now I’ve heard Heartaches by Al Bowlly and Say it isn’t so by uhhh I forgot the names so now I’m immune to the vaguely terrifying feeling of the first two songs because the originals are so good, haha

[@Game_Hero]

you should listen the full album (all stages), you'll then realize how terrifying your statement is.

[@swaggster5248]

Yeah, like- you know you’ve heard this before but you only just now stumbled upon it, like you know every note the song is about to hit but it surprises you when you’re right

[@eclatshwartzbaumcybertune2063]

@orange sus but ... thats like vaporwave ... i was in the 80’s and i do remember stuff... but my brain was underdeveloped... and seeing all that i missed is like new things that happend but not for me...

[@roundturbo8471]

I've remembered things I've never experienced vividly from listening to stage 1

[@averagetboihater8357]

Ikr its like i know the song but i know i dont

[@DrizzleFootage]

*I remember* *But **_It's just a burning memory_* *As **_We don't have many days_* *We're on a **_Late afteernoon driving_* *I look into your **_Childishly fresh eyes_* *_Slightly bewildered_* *While **_Things that are beatiful and transient_* *And **_All that follows is true_* *_An autumnal equinox_* *Inside few **_Quiet internal rebellions_* *I will give you **_The loves of my entire life_* *Starring **_Into each others eyes_* *_My heart will stop in joy_* *I remember*

[@theununtrium]

Now try that with stage 2

[@Cookiesurvival]

Sadly, this is the story that will be forgotten

[@pixynowwithevenmorebelkanb6965]

@Mason Wyberg When i Post awerness confusion when i stage 6

[@crap4brainses]

@Mason Wyberg when i advanced plaque entanglements i advanced plaque entanglements and synapse retrogenesis so i sudden time regression into isolation

[@greenishpiss3588]

Would look great as stage 5

[@kyrq0]

These pieces of music trigger something in my mind. I don't know what- but it makes me feel some sort of way. Very indescribable. But it's a feeling of sadness. I've been diagnosed with severe depression recently and these songs highly resemble what goes on in my mind when things get really tough. Being all alone in a dark room every day, messy floors. Old food still on the counter for weeks. Bugs. Makeup smeared all over my face from 2 nights ago. I feel like these songs perfectly resemble this feeling and all my emotions on a day to day basis.

[@xxenergie5724]

Am I the only one that goes instantly on the verge of tears everytime I hear just a burning memory?? Or is it just me? Like it brings so much dominants it's unbelievable. it hits you like a truck,out of nowhere.

[@SpamtonGSpamton4.99]

When i normally listen to it i get somewhat a weird feeling of nostalgia, but it doesn’t make me cry, only when i’m reading comments that are sad, thats hits me like a truck.

[@m_crowley6674]

slaps so hard i cant remember the name of my dead wife. where am i? im cold. help me

[@bencastle0830]

gabecrow LOL BEST THING IVE READ TODAY

[@itsenzo3000]

Hahaha yeah I... What...? The ni... I forgot

[@w.h.merrow3064]

how does it feel to be a human being attached to so many memories?

[@m_crowley6674]

@@w.h.merrow3064 a lot

[@user-vb6gi7dh9b]

Haha good one.. Wha? Where am i? Where did you run off to... What's that? You're right in front of me? Ah ok .. Where did you run off to?

[@dinommoss9141]

cursed tom and jerry soundtrack

[@midloran]

XD yes

[@seanxxxxx1]

LOL BRUHH

[@ChrisPoindexter98]

One of the genres that has been put on Leyland Kirby, the mixer behind all this music, is plunderphonics, which apparently calls upon old public domain library records and other forms of cultural musical memories, especially of a British sort? Of course that's only one genre label he's had put on him, not one exclusive to said artist, and this is all just from a short Wikipedia dive or two, but it makes sense that even us young people; fuck, that sounds ridiculous to say when I'm gonna turn 22 in a couple weeks; can still have some nostalgic connection to this style of music through timeless-ass, good-ass shit like you just brought up.

[@orangetheorange7302]

GJHBYJYB CGTTVTCR NOOOOO

[@gavinisdie]

Tom and Jerry in Fallout

[@0ContentDeleted0]

This is my second favorite stage in the album (Stage 3 being my favorite). For the most part the songs are very calming. It’s not that distorted and the crackling is quite, this is before the patient even knows they have dementia. And it’s definitely the easiest stage to get through. My top 5 songs are 1: My heart will stop in joy 2: Childishly fresh eyes 3: We don’t have many days 4: Late afternoon drifting 5: It’s just a Burning Memory Honorable mention: Into each others eyes

[@kataris3563]

Everywhere At The End Of Time - Stage 1 Lyrics A1 - It’s Just A Burning Memory Heartaches, heartaches My loving, you meant only heartaches Your kiss was such a sacred thing to me I can’t believe it’s just a burning memory Heartaches, heartaches What does it matter how my heart breaks? I should be happy with someone new But my heart aches for you A2 - We Don’t Have Many Days Say that everything is still okay, that’s all I wanna know And what they’re saying, say it isn’t so A3 - Late Afternoon Drifting I can be happy, I can be sad, I can be good, and I can be bad It all depends on you A4 - Childishly Fresh Eyes Moonlight and shadows, and you in my arms And the melody in the bamboo tree, my sweet Even in shadows, I feel no alarm While you hold me tight in the jungle night, my sweet Close to my heart you always will be, never never never to part from me Moonlight and shadows, and you in my arms A5 - Slightly Bewildered ...so the world will know, here I go, I’m Alabamy bound A6 - Things That Are Beautiful And Transient Every dream with you, I’ll sway, dear, to the waltz you saved for me Every dream when I’m away, dear, I’ll hear this melody Whisper goodbye and gently say, dear, that in all the days to be You will sometimes remember the waltz you saved for me B1 - All That Follows Is True It looks like rain in cherry blossom lane The sunshine on your smile’s no longer there B2 - Autumnal Equinox In a little second hand store B3 - Quiet Internal Rebellions Do you remember water lilies in the moonlight The silver stream where we would dream the hours through Do you remember water lilies in the moonlight We closed our eyes and saw a paradise for two B4 - The Loves Of My Entire Life Willow weep for me, willow weep for me Bend your branches green along the stream that runs to sea Listen to my plea, listen willow and weep for me B5 - Into Each Other’s Eyes Smoke from a chimney means a log on the fire, and a log on the fire means love Love means that you’d be in my arms at twilight, and that’s what I’m dreaming of It’s been so lonely to live with such a memory If you would only forgive and once more let me see Smoke from a chimney and a log on the fire, and you there waiting for me B6 - My Heart Will Stop In Joy A room with a view, I have a room with a view, of wonderful you, my nextdoor dream ‘Cause you're the one and only one my heart truly adores And I’m so glad my window pane is just opposite yours

[@mr.nazareth4501]

the first album is chock full of nostalgia for the greater days of ballroom music, and rightfully so. you missed the old days where you could dance the night away, with not a care for tomorrow. you missed the feeling of invincibility, talking shit, getting hit and hitting back. that time you played one of the top 10 hits for the love of your life, such a treasured memory. now where did your keys go? they were here just a second ago... this is stage 1.

[@troywright359]

Dementia

[@chipred]

thank you jotaro very cool

[@Yashiro-nene_dies]

We've become robots in today's society.

[@goldenproject1892]

@@Yashiro-nene_dies Beep boop. I am a robot.

[@colonelcorneliuscornwall3547]

Shit man I guess I’ve been living stage 1 since I was born

[@Smashaflee]

Stage 1: "Here we experience the first signs of memory loss. This stage is most like a beautiful daydream. The glory of old age and recollection. The last of the great days."

[@settingsun5582]

Dude stop making me cry aaaaaa

[@sin8283]

Why,d you have to make me cry again! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@Smashaflee]

@BalbinoGD I wasn't looking for praise but thank you

[@therealwisemysticaltree]

Stage 2: "The second stage is the self realisation and awareness that something is wrong with a refusal to accept that. More effort is made to remember so memories can be more long form with a little more deterioration in quality. The overall personal mood is generally lower than the first stage and at a point before confusion starts setting in."

[@mahanusb8120]

damn heh great days i gusse you can say great days 🙂

[@joshuaheuer7793]

I myself work as a Caretaker for the elderly. I work with patients in stage 2, and ive even seen quite a lot in stage 5. Ive heard so many amazing things about them, what they used to work as, how great of a teacher/parent/whatever they once were. And now I have to guide them every morning so that they can get up. Its amazing, so terrifyingly beautiful to know what it feels like. And my mom closing in on her 40s is very forgetful. I could not imagine living without her, or even losing her before she dies. I simply cant stand the thought. This album is mind blowing.

[@lollibob8557]

Эти мелодии заставляют вспомнить былое... Эти произведения, без сомнений, повлияли на моё эмоциональное состояние, - этим они и притягивают, ведь редко можно найти среди музыкальных произведений что-то подобное. Дальше нет смысла рассуждать об этом, остаётся только наслаждаться...

[@eokagaming2721]

take from google translate "These melodies make me remember the past... These works, without a doubt, influenced my emotional state - that's why they attract, because you can rarely find something like this among musical works. There is no point in discussing it further, it remains only to enjoy ..."

[@Claire-pe3oq]

my grandma recently passed away due to dementia and this album just really set it in for me. i never really knew her and reading all of these comments fills me with such regret. i wish i had held her for longer. i wish i had been more patient when she asked what my name was 3 times a day.

[@James-tv2bm]

Claire wow. That sucks. My grandma is currently going through the same thing right now and it’s not getting any better for her. She sleeps until three in the afternoon, and forgot my name more than once when she visited me with her caretaker. She’s on my dads side and I never really got to know her that well. But she didn’t forget how she loved me or how I made her feel happy etc. which was why she stood holding my hand complimenting me for minutes on end. But she’s still family and that won’t change the way I feel about her or whether or not I’d visit her. But this comment just opened my eyes and made me realize that my time with her is fleeting. My grandma is leaving and I don’t know how much time I have left with her. It could be any day now. I have no idea I just know that I have to enjoy every visit I have with her and every memory that isn’t blur to her. Thanks

[@lachlanlorenz6350]

@@James-tv2bm i hope your grandma is doing okay

[@josephway7809]

It's good that you're decent enough to think of it now. Somehow I think she knows that. The thought is worth more than not caring at all.

[@ThePipolus354]

Is she okay? I hope she's doing well

[@Claire-pe3oq]

@@ThePipolus354 shes dead

[@NewRomancer37]

she sits contently scrolling through her feed, an obsolete Samsung touch screen, smiling at the forgotten memes we used to share. she was always so cutting edge back in her youth but i guess as old age cemented in she became set in her ways. she looks up from the cracked screen and looks me adoringly in the eyes "i love you James" "i love you too my sweet" i achingly whimper back to her James was her ex. i don't mind, she seems so peaceful right now...

[@din5390]

This is the best comment

[@howstich610]

Damn.

[@kayleehiggins8448]

omg i’m sobbing

[@Zipotricks]

this perfectly sums up what growing old in this generation will probably be like.

[@formodius]

I just want to live on an island with my wife , we are sitting in our wooden chairs , both of us are old and ready to go We are on the beach , it’s a sunny day I look up to the sky while the sun rises , thinking about the fact that someone has been born in this very moment, I look to my wife Heh....she already left , well it’s my time I achieved life , maybe this is all a dream Anyways , the sun is rising with my soul

[@pinklemonade8046]

Con las primeras canciones no puedo evitar pensar en mi abuelo, cuando era pequeña y él trabajaba en su taller con música viejita, boleros y vals. Él trabajaba, hacia juguetes para mis primos y otras cosas. Después dejo de poder caminar, por lo tanto de trabajar; creo que es algo triste porque eso era lo que le gustaba, eso y el futbol. Amaba el futbol, jugaba y era arbitro. Nunca le pregunté mucho, porque comenzó a olvidar y contaba siempre las mismas historias, también temía a la oscuridad porque decía que ahí estaba el demonio Su memoria se fue, solo una parte quedó, y eso es algo triste. Aun así, con esto de fondo parece algo poético el como una persona simplemente deja de recordar. Se escucha poético, abstracto pero hermoso, triste pero bello; complejo, solitario, nostálgico, peo al final de cuentas poetico.

[@pharrella_de_Vil]

My grandmother for the first time this year called me a few days early on my birthday instead of late. She just turned 80 last year. She’s been calling me less and less, but when I do speak to her, she’ll forget something I’ve said within the last 5 minutes. My grandmother raised me, so it’s unexplainable to say how I feel, but watching her lose her memory, watching those moments fade, is a special kind of painful and it is comforting to know that someone can put that into music.

[@normal4187]

I like how the vinyl bumps sound like embers burning.

[@Kriskazam]

slow burn of memory....

[@GANDEIA]

hey, can you hear that? I am a Brazilian artist and I produce independently. The Caretaker and Basinski are great inspirations to me. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iqGVgWiJYtmrjKs

[@esteban_cortez]

@@GANDEIA Really you make that ??

[@GANDEIA]

Yes, I composed and recorded all the instruments at home, did you listen? See my instagram @gandeia_ I have a visual work too!!!

[@dizzee6089]

@@GANDEIA wow dude. That was phenomenal. Great work!

[@everchanger23]

"Darling, you look as lovely as you did that night 40 years ago." "My love, that was yesterday." "Oh, was it? I'm sorry I must have been day dreaming." "Dad, who are you talking to?" "Excuse me, who are you?" "Are you ready, my love?" "Darling, you look as lovely as you did that night 40 years ago." ___"I'm not ready." "I remember this song. Didn't we used to dance to this song?" _______"Please don't go." fin.

[@ankofrankes9405]

I think people dont realise how accurate this can be...

[@o.602]

@ETI yo i love this quote. Did you create it?

[@bigol9223]

@@o.602 Ecclesiastes 1:18

[@Ralph_Sandwich]

@@o.602 aka Ignorance is Bliss

[@Amuntsen]

@@Ralph_Sandwich derp

[@SkyenNovaA]

The first track, "It's just a burning memory", makes me feel like an alzheimers patient who just got diagnosed, and is sat down with her husband, remembering all the good times while she still can. It's a very powerful piece

[@V0W4N]

How to troll everyone: Step 1: come up to somebody Step 2: ask if they know Joe Step 3: they ask who is Joe Step 4: but who is Joe? Do i know him? Why do i remember this name as somebody really close to me? Step 1:

[@youtubecopyrightstrikespee8835]

this music becomes strangely relaxing once you quit being so afraid of it, the odd emotions you don't want to feel because you don't understand them, just embracing it makes it a dream...

[@quilty9322]

I know this is 7 months late but yes, it sort of does, it gives a sort of sweet yet terrifying calm, like if you go to sleep you die, but its a peaceful death.

[@formodius]

@@quilty9322 death is actually peaceful because you don’t know what happens , maybe you will be reincarnated in an alternate reality where people are turned into Titian’s , then you would appreciate death more because WE DON’T KNOW WHAT HAPPENS

[@candel7481]

This has always been relaxing to me.

[@piemack9389]

So true. listening to this album for the first few songs were creepy as hell even the calmer ones. now listening to them they are pretty nice and relaxing but it is still sad listening to these songs on the full album because you know this is the only time things are calm and cohorent. but without context the songs are pretty relaxing

[@tbrown55]

The ghosts in my apartment are enjoying this.

[@wrathofthelamb2849]

*bueno*

[@Asterngeisha]

That sucker punched me in the mind feels and now I'm terrified of my closets and hallway.

[@OrchestralOrg]

@@Asterngeisha *that's fine. All you do is use your mind to place good things in the hallways and closets. Like, fresh roast beef sandwiches and a coke.*

[@Asterngeisha]

@@OrchestralOrg 🤣🤣🤣

[@vincentcarrot]

the most appropriate comment

[@Mr.Fundillo]

Recently a relative of mine died in an accident, the fact is that I was listening to this part of the album when they gave me the news. Now every time I listen to this part of the album it's impossible not to think about that event, plus for some reason, some melodies played in my head throughout the funeral. This caused me a greater impact knowing in the type of situation in which I found myself.

[@myheartwillstopinjoy8142]

Gosh, I love this whole project. I feel bad for anyone who doesn't know it exists or who doesn't care enough to listen to it.

[@thegrandatm1844]

They probably don’t wanna listen fo 6 hours but still you can just listen to each stage separately

[@user-su3gh6sd8v]

this makes me think reincarnation exists because something deep inside me is really feeling something, my past life is really digging it.

[@StarmanGhost]

This album makes me very glad I don't have a family history of Alzheimer's. That's far from a guarantee I'm safe, of course, but I'll take whatever I can get.

[@camron.w1841]

You and me both buddy. My Dad was working in care homes for alot of his life and the people there are fine. But watching the degradate like that is haunting.

[@SpeedXaaa]

@@camron.w1841 Can definitely attest to this. I worked at a nursing home for 3 years. It was heartbreaking, especially when I had to watch someone slowly deteriorate from ALS. It's not fun

[@crustymongrel1898]

My family does. I’m scared

[@lukassheridan5271]

@@crustymongrel1898 hopefully by the time we're old people, there will be a cute for dimensia. All we can do is hope

[@therock1160]

@@lukassheridan5271 Yes. There will be a cute for dimensia. That is the correct answer.

[@ADi-ge7ny]

My great-grandpa was still alive when I was about six-eight years old. I'm still glad I got to spend time with him, but I don't really remember a lot. The only memory buried inside my head about him is when I learned about his passing and the funeral that was held in remembrance of him. He was a very good man and liked spending every second he could get with my grandparents and me. I just hope wherever he is now, he's enjoying himself without a thought of pain or stress. I'm in middle school now, and I still visit my grandparents often. I'm over for Thanksgiving, and yesterday I was at my great-grandparent's house. I saw pictures of him and had memories about what I'd always do over there with him and my brother, and it's just a really great moment I have whenever I'm there. Rest well.

[@ninaj6051]

I have a specific health situation in my life, and I'm just 30, but... I feel a bit like I'm dying, and it could happen if I wait in this state long enough. As this feeling's been haunting me, and brain fog is getting worse and worse (it's a similar thing to dementia), as I have hypothyroidism among my conditions, I felt like finally checking this out. I now struggle even to type this out and the music is running in the background, and it resembles my inner world a bit. It's not that severe as real dementia, or being old and literally dying at any time, but still...

[@Qwerty-uy5ur]

im here to ask what has happened to you since this comment was over 1 year ago, i hope nothing bad happened, like actually getting diagnosed with dementia

[@IMN602]

"We don't have many days" is possibly the most heartbreaking thing I have ever heard

[@jeviltheotherdevil3027]

Were all having a good time, until it all stops... And you don't even know what just happened, it was just happy times with friends and family, and then just cold, dark and eerie silence...

[@lcdream4213]

wait till you hear the whole album

[@lcdream4213]

🙃

[@Tarkus_H]

Surrendering To Despair, The Way Ahead Feels Lonely, A Brutal Bliss Beyond This Empty Defeat, Place In The World Fades Away, also pretty equally cheerful titles.

[@ratoz8127]

Those are just the early stages my friend...

[@dualdarkelu8495]

For anyone curious, this is not the full collection, the full collection of songs is around 6.5 hours and is supposed to musically show what people going through demetia feel like.

[@kahnwalters693]

Kahn Walters

[@octaviolopez7475]

@@kahnwalters693 i couldn't agree more

[@themouseproject4709]

Yeah this is just stage 1

[@EternalJaneDoe]

It’s just stage one since this was released when the first album just came out.

[@lcdream4213]

@@kahnwalters693 holy shit *i mean love him or hate him he is spittin fax*

[@vnillafrosting]

for some reason this playlist is meant to break people, or it does for most. i find comfort in this playlist. it’s as if you’re in a fantasy world, no problems or worries.

[@CubicApocalypse128]

Listen to the other 5 stages and you'll get it.

[@friskgaming729]

2x but I’ve learned the true meaning of the album.

[@romriom]

While listening to this album I started to lose my breath very weirldy and It gave like memories like it was all a dream And something else that when I was around 6 we went to a nursery home as part of a school's program we gave them scarfs but something that broke my heart is that suddenly a lady hugged me and all she said was ''thanks you'' It still makes me emotional till' this day

[@whirvis]

Hearing this music makes me concentrate and work faster than I have in a long, long time. Not because the music relaxes me (which it does), but because it gives me the dread that I have only so much time left on Earth. I don't know how this music does it, but it does. I don't want to spend my life getting nothing done, I want something to leave behind for when I'm gone.

[@derrilazkia1002]

Looks like you've found your Memento Mori

[@krispo7256]

We don't have many days

[@2lexander]

The hardest, yet truest comment I've seen on here.

[@cocolonger]

I agree but , sadly it won´t matter in a thousand years , all that we are, is here and now.

[@dareislowdown]

Any recommendations like this? I just had the same experience. I'm working right now, and I was in a flow state until the video finished. I've found that Hammock---specifically the album Silencia---puts me in a similar state. Though they're not similar to this at all as far as genre goes, they give me the same productivity through a kind of "How did I forget what it feels like to have that childlike fascination with whatever I'm doing. Existence is incredible. Even while I'm working." They have a dramatic ambient sound.

[@leafdog2714]

A sleepless night that lasts for an eternity. An old man going to a bus stop every day at the same time every day wating for a long-dead relative who will never arrive. The labrynthian halls of a playhouse's backstage during the early-morning hours. An asylum patient humming the same tune from his childhood for hours and hours.

[@fantasticsituation9461]

thanks for adding a new dimension of terror to this experience, friend

[@hutao6823]

this album really makes me reflect on how much of an impact dementia and just health issues which revolve around memory loss just makes me feel so sorry to those who lost others to memory loss related issues. i lost my grandad to dementia, yet i never knew him. he seemed like a nice person. however, i never took into account how he actually felt. he was alone in a care home, just sat there for hours, his life fading away without even realising. i had always fantasised on how it must feel for your life to just fade away, and all those memories you had just fade and you can never remember. and yet, you just cant realise it until you take those last breaths, and close your eyes for the last time. you’re finally free into a world of which there is no worries, stress, negativity. you’re finally free.

[@trullbusthecrimeeater9406]

I think I have an idea why this stage features more repeating samples than any other part: they’re supposed to represent earworms, Short bits and excerpts of music and songs that get stuck in your head for a while. People with anxiety and/or depression tend to experience them more. This early in the stage, the caretaker doesn’t know he has dementia so the uncertainty is causing him stress which leads to earworms.

[@-FishLove]

I don't have anything clever or nostalgic to say but I just want to be a part of this comment section with all of you.

[@Chillerll]

You made it. You are part of the cringe-fest now.

[@skrrt-skrrt]

In another few hours, the sun will rise.

[@emmymaria453]

Jajaja, I love you

[@payforoxygen]

that in itself feels kinda clever though

[@monkeDluffe]

My favorite comment after scrolling for ten minutes

[@sasasa1541]

This music is disturbing in an unearthly way. It’s good to keep that disturbance sometimes, I think it anchors you. It always reminds me to appreciate what I’ve got, to savour my memories now rather than to feel them slipping away from my head in seventy years time.

[@oacmd282]

If you did not know the context, would you find stage 1 disturbing?

[@fluky1986]

Late afternoon drifting is stuck in my head

[@TheMare1989]

Imagine being 60% through your life, having the time of your life, but something then feels off all of a sudden and you can't remember as much. Then you get the horrible news. You try and try to deny it until you hit that final stage of grief. Your memories by now are very much deteriorated, but not fully distorted. But the fog is forming, and try all you might, you can only blow away a single memory and even then it will get covered by the fog again much more heavily. In a few months, you can only pick up some barely coherent moments. Once the coherent moments are gone, you start to go in a sharp decline of calmness. "Why can't I remember? Why does this happen? What is going on? Is it just a dream? What is happening?" "What is...." The final sentence was separated as you have forgotten how to even ask yourself in your mind. It isn't a fog now. It's a melting mind full of confusion and horror. But then it's all gone, you're a canvas, that is turned around. All the thoughts are there, but they're covered by the back of the canvas. Like a fog. But suddenly, it all comes flashing back. You know your life is ending, but your heart will stop in Joy. You can keep denying the heart monitor going faster and faster until it's a flat line. Your heart has stopped in joy. The only relieving thing in this horrible mental disease.

[@dullknifefactory]

"Who's voice do you hear when I speak?" Said his conscience. "I don't know" he replies "Is it me?" Says a white bearded God. "No" "Is it mine?" says the love that got away. "It used to be..oh darling it used to be." from nowhere, the faces of dead friends lost to time "What about us?" They pontificate. "Why are you here?" His voice begins to crack. Before his eyes could produce any liquid memory he sees A version of himself. A little boy that will never exist again. "What did you do to me?" The boy says quietly. He begins to weep "Please stop."

[@Igor-my6ml]

Come on man, don't do this to me.

[@felipepalmacastro]

ᵖᵒᵗᶦᶠᶦᶜᵃᵗᵉ ᶦᵗ ᶦˢ ᵇʳᵉᵃᵏᶦⁿᵍ ᶦᵗ.

[@gavinisdie]

So this music would be God's voice to those who are living lvl

[@dumbdannia6326]

_"Please stop"_ That hits different.

[@StaleBaguette]

The waiting room to heaven.

[@elgato7106]

*to hell

[@SkaPastaMusic]

El Gato !! Purgatory

[@grugg3108]

Stage 5, purgatory Stage 4, hell Stage 6, hell, but just kinda sad

[@lyleslabyrinth21]

Why do these comments sound so accurate tho

[@arya0794]

The forbidden elevator music

[@livichan]

My great grandpa was the best. Everytime when me and my sister were younger when she had to leave, she would take us to their house (which was like 3 minutes away.) Everyday, we would stay there for hours playing, watching tv, or something like that. Usually, My great grandpa would always make me and my sister a big bowl of popcorn since he had those machines that makes it in under 5 minutes. I remember 2 years ago, I'm 14 and we're about to leave to go back home (which is 14 hours away) and I had my braces still. He gets up and asks us if we wanted popcorn for the road, I said no knowing I couldn't eat it but my sister got some. In November of 2021, he died in his sleep I'm supposing from an illness he had. Now my great grandma is now suffering from dementia, she would forget my families names sometimes, forget what she ate or did, and would struggle. Right now she's in a hospital due to her being sick. I'm hoping she's ok. I love you both, and I miss you Great grandpa.💜

[@sirgilmour1714]

I really enjoy this, very relaxing and I always come back to this to get the old 1900s vibe I dare never go to the other Stages...

[@millardfillmore2869]

Not-stalgia

[@blitzthespittah3712]

Sir Flemeington II of KZbin underrated

[@ohboy1113]

Nostalgn’t

[@TerribleTonyShow]

No-stal-gia

[@mekaijohnson]

@@TerribleTonyShow I believe he was making a joke.

[@TerribleTonyShow]

@@mekaijohnson I believe I was too

[@RandomOrdinary_Girl_6123]

Yeah, this project as a whole is really depressing, but out of context, this one stage has some really peaceful music to take a nap to.

[@nony3042]

Ok but don't take a nap because your going to wake on other stages that are very distorted

[@municipalitycraft6308]

@@nony3042 stage 5…

[@awesomesauze7]

facts tho

[@acedepth]

just think about how you would react to waking up and hearing stage 6 in your ears

[@awesomesauze7]

@@acedepth i would die

[@BoredLoserAlpha]

Musik is art

[@catch-2321]

Stage 1: Wow, I don’t really get how this seems sad! I rather like the nostalgia of it! Stage 6: *Oh.*