Therapist reacts to Hate Myself by NF

[@EvalenaSheets-of7zb]

THANKS LOL yall an amazing community much love and support, this song is something i hold close to my heart its something i relate to so heavily also your outlook on his songs are the most accurate on yt so keep it up 😊👍❤ this absolutey made my day

[@ColinsCountry]

You’re actually an absolute legend🤣

[@HeartSupport]

so glad you liked it!! sending all the love! this is such a great song

[@MmaFan34]

@@HeartSupporthow do I apply to be a volunteer?!?

[@EmperorPenguin1999]

this is one of my favorites by NF right behind Therapy session so thanks for getting her to react. we appreciate your consistence

[@EvalenaSheets-of7zb]

@@EmperorPenguin1999 no prob bob 👍👍

[@Citrux298]

love the reaction but WE NEED MORE NF MORE FREQUENTLY!!!!!

[@waylonbreaux2366]

This song immediately earned a spot on my Life Soundtrack. I burned my life down in 2003 and it took YEARS (and the love of a good woman) to get me through the self hatred I had. You ARE worthy.

[@alonzolara627]

Can you do running or mistake by NF

[@boogeyman8102]

Running is my anthem I'm waiting for that reaction video

[@Dave_DD4477]

Do both please

[@noahlaferriere5515]

Yes, Running please, so good!

[@jfirebird5833]

She's not ready for Running yet though - I mean she ABSOLUTELY nails her NF reactions - spot on sees his message so well but I don't think she's deep enough in the catalog for Running.... whenever she is ready for it though.... EPIC

[@ZoeJane-Music]

Or Mama! Those three are my absolute favorites!

[@dabbott34]

Every song he writes is like a story already in my heart. This man is a true artist that is truly for the people.

[@hunterschrak9354]

I found this song so late in my journey. "I don't want to die, I just want to get relief" speaks to me in so many ways and I know it does to others as well. I fight this battle every day and frankly it's exhausting but I found my reason to fight and I hope and pray that everyone here has their reason. to everyone who hasn't yet, please keep looking for a reason to fight. Keep looking for a way to shut that voice up. It's so hard but I promise it's worth it.

[@babybc8810]

Love how you broke it down in depth! Makes me realize how much of a genius NF is!

[@joelharris363]

From one therapist to another, I love your insights on this one. Thank you for exploring the voices and the hidden hope that exists in what otherwise sounds like a hopeless song. If you want to see an interesting progression of Nate, I would recommend reacting next to Trauma, then Lost, then Drifting, (I would insert Hope here next, but you've already hit that one), then Running. You really see Nate first in his brokenness with Hate Myself, then sitting in that aftermath in Trauma, then opening to hope with Lost, making the decision to fight with Drifting, confronting the false voice with Hope, then renegotiating his trauma with Running. On a personal level, I was so happy for Nate to see his personal growth across the albums. He's truly a treasure.

[@jfirebird5833]

Great list - Has she done Just Like You yet? So many.... so many...

[@joelharris363]

​​​@@jfirebird5833No joke! I'd say Just Like You and Change are the two most session friendly songs to use in counseling. Must covers for therapist reactors.

[@janlammers1000]

This song helped me through my depression at a young age… its so insanely powerfull. Everything he says in this song was me a few years ago.

[@AshrekaKuku]

ME too i relate to all his songs 100%

[@EvalenaSheets-of7zb]

also a lot of people skip over a lot of his songs because "there not part of the journey " but there really important to really get the journey make sure to listen to, just like you, change, running mistakes, why, outcast, stress, and if you want love, and story. 😁 oh and NF i'll keep on its like 10 years old yet still spot on

[@Mr.Schneeebly]

Agreed, change and Running are two of my favs

[@hhholly]

As a therapist, this is one of my favorite artists.

[@s.y.g-jd5157]

This song got me through so much years ago definitely a soft spot for this song

[@ActuallyJamie]

NF is a legend

[@cristianconstantin46]

Is truly is ❤

[@nikoc575]

NF has helped get me through the last 8 years alive. Every single thing you feel so intensely, he raps it.

[@devilrox45]

The Interlude which comes right before this on the album he talks about how what is considered his most successful time is also his worst and most depressed moment you should listen at least on your own time it gives an insight into his thought

[@trentrockwell6598]

“Let Me Go” is one of his most underrated songs too

[@RazerDefense]

Great reaction, glad to see your back on the NF train...

[@cargelock]

I was just thinking this. Only and Change I think were two songs I focused on heavily when the album came out. And still to today to some extent :).

[@TheFunnyHub98]

I literally relate to every word of this song… it sucks that I think this way but it’s true❤️

[@HeartSupport]

From Ghost: @TheFunnyHub98 I'm sorry to hear that. I feel the pain of each lyric of the song too. I feel like that almost every day. It does suck doesn't it? But as I go day by day, I try to remind myself that there are people who love me for who I am. There are people that want to be with me, near me and talk to me. Sometimes it's really hard for me because I don't believe them - cause "I know better". However there really is the little voice in my head that tells me it's not true. I hope you can find a bit of love for yourself. Because I know what's down there and it's not pretty. I'm sending virtual hugs.

[@HeartSupport]

From Riri: @TheFunnyHub98 Hi there, I'm really sorry this song is so relatable to you, it used to be relatable for me too. It's hard because we are in a constant fight with our inner self and we feel that we deserve all those negative things our mind tells us, just because we can't break those lies by ourselves. Sometimes we really need to listen the positive things we hear from people around us, and to try to believe them. Those small things matter and should be taken in consideration, at least this is how I started to clear my vision about myself that lead me to some realizations that maybe they were right about me, and after all I am not this bunch of negativities. And even if we don't have people to tell us those positive things, we have ourselves. And we can take a better look at our actions and to highlight the things that make us a better person, maybe you helped someone and they were really greatful, or you said a compliment to someone, you're a good listener or you inspired someone or anything that you can think of, to prove that you are not as bad as you think you are, it just takes time to realize that. I know it's not easy, loving ourselves it's a long painful process but even if we can't really reach that step, we can learn how to take care better of ourselves, because we deserve that. We deserve good things to happen to us. What else helped me was to go to therapy, it felt like those thoughts were given a new perspective to look at, and you know sometimes things are better if we look from a different angle. Have you considered going to therapy? And you always have our community that will support and encourage you. I hope you will find the power to love yourself!

[@Trinity1976]

I understand wholeheartedly, friend! I've lost all hope more than once in my life, but my kids and music are my rock. You have family here, friend!

[@AutobotUmbreon]

Her reaction to MISTAKE would be priceless

[@derlotsch]

One year ago I saw NF live and when he played this song I cried my eyes out. At this moment I didn´t know, that this year would be much harder for me. Today I saw all of your NF reactions on your channel and I am so thankful for your words and little pushes, so I can now listen NF with more hope. Much love from Germany

[@TheJgolfw]

He sings on 3 to 5 songs on every album! He is amazing singer within his range! You're amazing at this!

[@jenniferp3721]

I just want to give NF a hug and say, I understand. The Feels are real.

[@Raptor_Rap]

please do drifting its such a good song and has so much depth and is my favorite from him

[@wtmckenzie13]

Jesus. This song resonated so fucking hard for me. I'm just starting to find peace. Told myself the other day that maybe I'm not great, but I'm still trying to be better. And it felt really good. Hating yourself is so consuming. But we all have something in us that is great. Sometimes you just gotta dig it out. I love you all, and you are loved

[@rhsrhrhjsj-uj1um]

I relate so much to this song, I just can't equate life with being worthwhile, for as long as I have memory it's been suffering, cowardice and guilt of the pain I cause others have kept me here but I am so incredibly tired.

[@zerker9461]

Nf is the best artist out there. I can't imagine life without his music

[@BrianScott2478]

A lot of people see this song as bad or sad, but it is actually about getting out of that bad/sad place. Listen to Interlude. The short track precedes Hate Myself and helps shed a little light on where he is coming from. The Search album is dark, but it's about finding hope that there is light out there.

[@maddogthekid8290]

NF is deeply rooted in me since year 6, he helped me through a lot, and his songs are truly amazing. I love these reactions!

[@User-ft6dc]

'Only' by NF is another great, deep song if you want more NF.

[@AlijahKessler]

I am a huge NF fan and he sings a lot and he reminds me that God put me on this earth for a reason and to move on

[@SaddleLight]

Thank you for your reaction and grappling with the disparity of this song. There is a brokenness and a hole in the human heart that can only be filled by the God that is missing. We are born broken, but he came down in flesh and blood and died to fill the hole that we can’t. Without Him, all is hopeless.

[@frantisekpokorny5680]

I just spent over two hours watching this series. It was fun watching someone's journey to becoming a fan while revealing the journey of my favorite rapper. Ps. it's cool how quickly you realize what he's trying to express through the text. So far the best reaction to NF that I have seen

[@alexgamer-ih6xi]

I've had NF on repeat since he wrote every song, without knowing - what a relationship. It's nice seeing someone paint a picture that can't be painted. If only I could afford more than listening.

[@Yipned]

I HAVE BEEN WATCHING ALL THE NF REACTIONS! Please do WHY and I MISS THE DAYS

[@hwlpictures]

NF...could hear this wonderful piece of music 24/7

[@DarthChosen]

NF never misses

[@bedlam285]

This song describes how I used to feel about myself. Took a life time to find hope and break the cycle of self-hatred.

[@memerijn2292]

the thing that hits me the most is the end. You can hear the pain in his voice when he says "its hard when i hate myself..". way too sad

[@anonymouse6111]

Please do WHY by NF next, this speaks volumes for me

[@Lock-Vlog]

This song is one of the best i love it

[@kalicomasonry6847]

Alexander Stewart - if you only knew. It touches on a rather touchy subject. One that I've been going threw here lately.

[@kenziebrooke4981]

This was one of the songs I sent my family as a last effort to get help. My words couldn’t articulate what was brewing in my mind but NF always describes my thoughts perfectly. Thankfully I got the help I needed❤

[@lojo7904]

Listen to remember this by NF it’s truly a masterpiece and has such a deep meaning

[@josemarcano6812]

1. Thank you for your thoughtful analysis of this and all the songs you dissect. 2. You should consider doing a comparative analysis of NF’s song “How Could You Leave Us” and “Mama” as both songs are about his mother. However “Mama” shows so much growth, healing, and yet remaining hurt that he still has.

[@runyunhyde4373]

Let me go is a great follow up to this song. The interlude really lays the ground work for Hate myself. It's less than a minute. I suggest listening to it on your own time

[@alexandergob3753]

Only is another great song, with a similar vibe. I have had these two (+Change) on repeat for a long time

[@NathanCline12-21]

I listen to 3 NF songs every day, Nate, Remember This, and Hate Myself

[@weswilliamson6587]

Thank you for doing more NF! I love this song so much. I'm so thankful that this song no longer describes exactly how I feel, but it's so poetic it will always be a favorite! I suspect that often when he pitches his voice up, like in the chorus of this song, he's representing a younger or a hurting, more vulnerable part of himself. I think in this song he's talking to himself.

[@ingrid_farrell]

MISTAKE is another must-listen!! Also from the HOPE album!

[@adriancasillas1536]

NF (Just like you) amazing song

[@mysticscythe]

You should listen to remember this by NF

[@ThisIsSB44]

NF is a great singer as well. On the Hope Album he really shows even more of that. But for older songs you can hear him sing in the song Wake Up and a few others. Also please do Let Me Go and Drifting. Both are amazing pen game from Nate

[@KScreations19]

You are truly a gift Dr. You are amazing.

[@bryancronbaugh4265]

Honestly you’ve helped me more than my actual therapist has. My therapist basically keeps telling me get my crap together and I am but there’s underlying issues I can’t figure out.

[@wescraig5023]

Ok she's my new favorite KZbinr! Started with Nutshell and just listened to this one! Love this so much!

[@WilliamPullig]

I can relate to this song completely for the past 5 months and it just keeps getting harder when you and everyone you care about hates you.

[@HeartSupport]

From FurnaceFest_Fans: @WilliamPullig From a homie who is a little older (42) - it gets better. Hang in there. You'll find people who love you for who you are in time. You'll learn to love yourself. Lean into the community you can find, even if it just on line. You're never truly alone - we're all in this together!

[@HeartSupport]

From FurnaceFest_Fans: @WilliamPullig From someone who has hated themselves from a long time, it can get better. You can learn to love yourself. It's not easy but the world is better with you in it.

[@Chadrick9276]

I love that you dissect these songs from the artists perspective and provide your insight to the listeners. The reality that a single song can have thousands of connected sentiment is sad but I am thankful for your insight and outreach.

[@siahtaylor4942]

Even after listening to NF for years, I really appreciate these types of videos and what you have to say. This and Ren's Su!cide are probably the ones that hit home the most for me.

[@Aaron_kerr95]

Love your reactions. There so many you can do literally loads, change, I miss the days, MAMA, prideful so many, notepad, but you keep doing you such good reactions

[@mistertrollface7642]

Hi! I have started watching your reactions to the NF-songs and I have stayed tuned the entire week (binge-watched them all). Thank you so much for improving the mental health of so many people throughout this series (and your other song-watches ofcourse). I work in the mental health field myself and I know how much music can do for a person. It’s amazing. Could you do a take on ‘Running’, ‘Bullet’ or ‘Gone’? Once I started listening to NF, especially after I went through a pretty intense break-up with my ex, these songs really spoke to me. Please keep doing what you do and if you are ever looking for people helping you out on your KZbin-endeavors, I would be willing to help if I can! Keep shining your light!

[@xfactor1497]

Please keep coming with the NF content ! The whole journey!

[@nineshine3839]

Ren and NF got me through a lot

[@sherylh2570]

Thanks so much for what you do!! Please keep it up for all those souls who think they are the only ones out there battling thru it-my daughters were one of those and are better than they were, but still to use their support system to help them 🥰

[@captainmothradestroyer6998]

Would love to see someone cover "Chasing" by NF. Almost makes me feel the way I do with "Hate Myself"

[@CannonVulcan]

I have been recommended NF a few times never checked them out. Love your channel so clicked. Love this song and listened to Mansion right away, both great.

[@ingrid_farrell]

RUNNING by NF is my favorite song on the new album--you would absolutely LOVE it!! But you should also absolutely do MAMA since it's like the part 2 to How Could You Leave Us and I can't even express how much it filled my heart hearing it after all these years listening to NF!

[@thereeder5rs]

I've always seen this in this track, but couldn't put it in words, but you did. I only could put in contexts of the whole album and Nate's personal journey. This was a time he spent time in a therapy and working through things. Just like the track Nate is a journal exercise.

[@travishilldore7826]

I dont normally comment on videos, but one of the things you pointed out rang some bells in my head. I have been fortunate enough to do some traveling, and one of the places I visit regularly is Japan. They have a fountain that has 3 streams and your supposed to drink from those streams to gain wisdom, health and success. My guide told me to only drink from two, and that is because if you have everything you no longer have anything to strive for to better yourself and the only path you have from that point is to degrade. Since a condition of life Is change you always want to be striving for that change to be betterment and never put yourself in a situation where your only option is to back slide... love your content, thanks for putting this out there!

[@DigitalFergitron]

The tiny pieces... are... "HOPE"... NF is a genius

[@davecondreay]

Yay! So glad you finally did this one! I saw NF on the Hope tour in May. He didn't do a lot of his older (sadder) songs like mansion or therapy session, but he did do this one. I heard it starting, and it created a release for me. Up until about a year ago, I was wandering the worst parts of the mental health desert for 10 years. I was absolutely hating myself and praying to God with my arms open to end this time or end me. (even before I heard this song) Then I heard this song and immediately fell in love with it because it gave words to how I was feeling. "Those" thoughts would come and go like a guest in me, but I didn't want to die, I just wanted to get relief. (long story short).... Standing on the floor of that sold out arena, once again singing this song with both arms open, crying my eyes out and it just being a release and realization of it being the end of my 10 years wandering the desert. Towards the end, I was able to look around at the other people to see a lot of them with both arms up and crying their eyes out. At first that gave me the feeling of "ok, im not the only crazy one who relates to this"....then I thought about it for another second and that thought came back as almost one of sadness that "wow, there are many thousands of people just in this arena who relate to this feeling." Thank you NF for giving a voice to so many people who all feel the same way, but cant speak about it.

[@WarTurtleWoodworking]

I'm here for all the NF reactions!!!!! Great job!

[@elizabethdunford5423]

It's been so long!! Finally more NF!!!

[@isaacjordan9793]

Bless you for your service thank you for the guidance in this difficult life, I love your content so much, I have night terrors and I watch this before I can fall asleep

[@chelseanelson7536]

Love the insights in this one! You are so good at pulling out all the things I'm feeling about the song that I can't put into words, and also saying things in a way I never thought of! Funnily enough, the thought you ended this video on is a theme in another NF song that's among my favorites called "Just Like You"!

[@mentalhealthwithalana]

Ahhh I love NF!!!!!!

[@DeElias04]

Love your take on this song!❤

[@Night_Furry_123]

I felt this so much. I’ve been dealing with suicide for the past 4 years I hate myself and I don’t know what to do, and now it’s so hard not to push it over…

[@HeartSupport]

From Riri: @Night_Furry_123 Hi there, I'm really sorry to hear that. It's a living hell to battle suicidal thoughts for such a long time, and it's exhausting, weighting even more on the heart as time passes. It's so easy to hate ourselves and so hard to go into the opposite direction, but not impossible. And maybe sometimes we need to ask for help to get out of that pit. This song was one of my anthems songs when I was suicidal along with others that kept me here, I know that dark painful place and how hard it is to just not give in, but I'm still here, and I am better. I might say that you have a spark that still keeps you going, so you can too get better. There is hope awaiting, but sometimes it's harder to see it and to hold on to it. Have you tried going to therapy? For me it helped a lot to start therapy and to talk to someone who was a professional. And other things what helped me was to do more things I enjoy and to connect more with people, because I isolated myself. If you are in any danger there are crisis line you can call. You are not alone in this. And you are always welcomed in our community anytime you need to be encouraged. I hope you will find that strength that you need and the way to love yourself. Hold fast!

[@Iadybug-yj5ek]

More nf love it❤❤❤

[@gobi1030]

So glad to be in the hopecore part of youtube. You & your community are amazing.

[@SychoA]

im waiting for MISTAKE, REMEMBER THIS, CHANGE

[@thomasmacdiarmid8251]

Really in the very act of being creative and making music, NF shows that he has a spark of hope and determination to hve a better life. It's very like what Nietzsche said and Schopenhauer some 150 years ago: "You say you're a pessimist, but I happen to know that you're in the habit of practicing your flute for two hours every evening." You cannot continue to be creative and productive and have given up all hope.

[@davidzacharias4493]

I've noticed you really like NF.. you should listen to his albums from the first album.. in order song by song. They tell an entire story. Ilove NF so much.. and listening to you talk through the lyrics feels like a therapy session for me.. i JUST subscribed to your channel today... I'm freaking hooked.. the song from him that hits ME personally the most.. is "mansions"

[@JADONEDITS]

I am crying it is so relatable 😭😭😭

[@Frogboi-wn8ud]

Love everything you do here on this channel!!! I’m sure I’ll get lost in the sea of comments but a song that hit me hard I just found was “Baby Don’t Cut” by Bmike. Again love the work you guys do ❤️

[@rxiiny_dayzz6740]

RUNNING BY NFFFFF

[@patrickblack7823]

I can’t wait until you get through the whole catalog and do all the songs on Hope. I saw him in concert twice this year. His singing is actually really good. Especially on the Hope album.

[@Switch0k]

@Heartsupport Everytime I hear this song I start crying. I just keep hearing the self hatred I have in it. I love the perspective here. There may be another voice.

[@HeartSupport]

From AprilleShellie: @Switch0k NF has always been a favorite artist of mine to listen to because he has always been real about everything that he has dealt with or is currently dealing with. He is very good at putting a spotlight on all the dark part of his "mansion." He is also very good at highlighting the hope for anyone that listens to him, even if he doesn't fully believe it himself. He is doing again here with a topic that so many people, including myself, struggle with. It is hard to hear that other voice in your head because the self hatred one has the microphone turned up as loud as it will go, but that other voice still screams has hard as it can to be heard over all the noise. Something that I have to remind myself that just because a voice is the loudest, doesn't mean that it is right. Just because that voice tries to drown out all the other thoughts, doesn't make it the best one. Self love is a hard thing to give yourself and I still struggle with it to this day. I feel that it is something that I will always have to struggle with, but I do find myself having days where that voice doesn't have the microphone. The other voice still has not found it's way to the microphone yet, but I count any day where the self hatred voice is silenced as a good day. Thank you for sharing your story and if you have days where you can't find the other voice in your head, we will be that voice for you. You matter, we love you and we are happy that you are apart of this community.

[@HeartSupport]

From NateTriesAgain: @Switch0k NF has such a beautiful way of doing that...of touching these deep emotions inside of us. Giving voice to things that are heavy, that are hidden, but that are raw. I know self-hate. What's weird about it is that it's comforting in a way. There is a "rightness" to punishing "wrongness". Or perhaps it is just a familiarity. There is a predictability to it, an ability to control it. Whatever that thing is, this song gives a way to express that feeling without necessarily directing it towards ourselves. It is in a sense, talking ABOUT the feelings rather than having to actively embody them. There's a beautiful release in that. It is a mourning, a grieving of the pain, rather than self-inflicting. NF is a gift. I also want to share that I am experiencing self-love in new ways recently. I experienced an event where I would normally spiral into shame. And I made a decision that the way I was going to respond to this - when I self-shame and self-hate, it doesn't lead me anywhere. And I decided, I'm going to try something different. So I took care of myself. I held myself in this place of not having to have answers. Allowing myself to just be. Reminding myself that I am loved. And not rushing beyond where I was. It was really powerful. That moment gave me hope that self-hate isn't the only answer, the only choice I have in response to shame or "bad" things or events. While it is a journey, the more we lean into it, the more we access it and express it not only through music but in community and with others...the more progress we make, and the more of our story becomes beautiful, overwriting what once was tragic. Thankful you chose to lean in here today. -nate, heartsupport staff

[@codywilkinson4469]

Mistake is my favorite off the album then running both great songs also I miss the days off the search album that's my #1 nf song it's got a choir vibe great song

[@adamschwartz3935]

It’s crazy that the majority of the songs I’ve seen you cover are on my playlist. It’s like you are playing right off my Spotify , your videos really help and I thank you for what you do, getting the message out there that there IS help. Another one you should listen to is jeckyl and Hyde by five finger death punch. It’s amazing

[@bendixstp]

I only watch your NF reactions. They are the best ones out there. Pls do more of them. Maybe do "remember this" By NF

[@Jbydg]

This song made me get sober after my divorce. Shout out to NF for providing this music.

[@tomelement251]

Love your NF reactions! The song of his I connect with the most is "I miss the days" - I'd love to see your reaction to it!

[@chichiibegbu6223]

love the hook its so relatable to me 😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥

[@ranajoy05]

Pls react on NF search album in order to get the full experience...i am damn sure you will like it❤

[@peytonkocher6324]

Bullet - NF is a must

[@gupi6]

I really wanted you to do this song too, thanks!

[@jaysdarkangelx867]

You should check out why by NF. It the song he did right before “the search”

[@Magic_Man333]

the singing was really good and you neeeeeeeeed to listen to 'oh lord' from therapy session

[@DinoGaming_Edits]

I think exploring the music of Alec Benjamin would be a good idea as well. He explores some of the same themes of the mind, trauma and society issues, though he's not as similar to NF in terms of vocals and instruments, but still would be a good choice in my opinion! (One of his most recent ones was "I sent my therapist to therapy.")

[@Fens12]

Anson Seabra - I Can't Carry This Anymore. It is a slow one, but it hits pretty hard!