Therapist reacts to Slipknot “Wait And Bleed”

[@JeremyMiller-sn6nh]

Your insight on the lyrics is dead on, most people don't realize that metal music is a therapeutic outlet for a lot of people who are going through a lot of things. Enjoyed your reaction

[@calluminkster6892]

......it's a song about a dude who cut his wrists.

[@calluminkster6892]

@KrugSTILLO-pv9ok It's pretty well documented and I remember Corey putting Wait & Bleed in the same category as Iowa in terms of songs which have fucked up stories behind them. Something about a dude who is having a dream about cutting his wrists in the bathtub, but he actually wakes up (or fades back into consciousness in this case) and realises he actually did it, hence the line "is this a dream or a memory". I *think* the idea is that he regrets it? Unsure. But anyway, thats why the final "goodbye" at the end is extra chilling 😬

[@Kuid4or3]

everyone could ve got that...

[@andrewvierling841]

I'm 36 years old. This band saved my life in the 6th grade. The lyrics of this band connected with me so hard. They wrote my soul into songs and packaged it just for me. Thank you for doing this.

[@deathmetalbob8900]

Did the same for me. I was 14 in the 9th.

[@PretoChulo]

38. This album found me in the 9th grade. Saved me and opened me up to the world of Nu Metal. 🤘🏽

[@-gearsgarage-]

Same, I could come home from school, put this album on repeat and take a nap with the speakers shaking the whole house. Good times.

[@theplaguepadart3743]

Same brother, My pops died when i was 12. I found slipknot and they helped me get though so much anger from hell 12 to even now.

[@kingirl3901]

Around the same age. Slipknot and Korn helped me through the shit I was going through

[@twistedrattproductions8010]

Damn. Someone actually gets it! My wife is a licensed therapist in drug and alcohol treatment but has 3 degrees in psychology. She always says that this song is powerful and on point. We both suffer from mental illness. After 14 years, I still have trouble going to her and opening up. But without her, i wouldn't even exist right now. Case in point, I should be dead right now. She saved me.

[@brandeno919]

I agree I hardly listen to rap cus it’s fake macho bs and rock music like this actually talks about trauma and being evil people treat you etc.

[@ArkaeaFCL3]

Bruh, the same thing happened with me and my fiance! We both have mental health problems but we both help each other so much that we basically saved each other's lives. We just got engaged in December and, though we still struggle, if we didn't meet each other, we would both be dead by now. It's truly insane to meet some random person that can become such a huge savior for you. I hope for the absolute best for you and your family! Stay strong!

[@jessee7334]

OMG you sound like a certified wuss!

[@maximevandeneynde7692]

​@@brandeno919 Cap, i am a metalhead myself but there is rap out there with lyrics as deep as any other genre

[@Swolbafett]

Firm handshakes to the misses

[@m4r1t3]

I'm a psychologist and i love this band because their lyrics are so much more than people think...metal and rock are so much more than people think, specially for introverts

[@JMulvy]

"I wander out where you can't see, inside my shell I wait and bleed." - its like I am moving to a space that you don't even know exists because you don't see it in front of you. and yeah it is still painful and lonely but bleeding is what starts the healing process when you are cut. The blood coagulates forming a scab and if left alone to heal it will scar. Making that particular area stronger than it was before. So from now on when I am cut, I know how to make myself heal.

[@JustanotherJoe-ys2vh]

Well said! It’s painful to exist…

[@billhiner3516]

Someone bleeding out, after slitting wrists. You have no idea.

[@JMulvy]

@@billhiner3516 "for some people they take things at face value, but most people know that music is an art and requires you to look much deeper than that." - Marilyn Manson

[@JoeyJordisonLover]

​@@JMulvyI love your response🖤

[@vincentmonaco3311]

I don't think so

[@zeterra6957]

R.I.P Joey and Paul 😭♥

[@LuisRamirez-xn4ck]

I miss both of them Joey and Paul 😢unlike the garbage slipknot has now😢 they are now shitknot😂

[@freezynight5922]

@@LuisRamirez-xn4ckok got it

[@Remmy-iq3bs]

I’m 43 years old this band saved my life. Still struggling but fighting. Thank you again. Love your videos.

[@PrdtRsic]

I'm 40. Same brother. Hang in there

[@android22arc]

Im 36. Same. Hang in there brothers.

[@dzibird5356]

For someone who was not allowed to express feelings out of fear of conflict and believing none of my problems mattered, bands like slipknot have been a lifeline. Especially when having to confront things like grief (mine and others) and realizing I may have had more abuse and gaslighting than I realized.

[@windy-oo2di]

I really like how you can see the link between this sort of music and how it can help in the "conquering of your demons". Corey Taylor's lyrics seem to come straight from his soul and when you can identify with what he is singing about it is a tremendously cathartic experience. That linked with the outrageous sound, energy and yes the masks that is Slipknot is in my view one of the ultimate forms of therapy and no medication needed. It's as though you know your not alone in your suffering and it provides a healthy outlet for the anger that can eat away at you from the inside. I speak from experience. I am a nurse on a paediatric ward and we are seeing a massive increase in teenage mental health which we are not really trained to deal with. I never really know what to say to them to make them feel better. I sometimes think that if they listened to stuff like this they might have had a chance to deal with their problems like I did. Rather than prescribing them prozac etc maybe we should get them to listen to some Slipknot, Linkin Park or SOAD. And yes I am being serious.

[@juliehackett1025]

My kids grew up listening to this music and I can tell what songs are going to be played by them based on how their feeling each day. My oldest uses this music as a lifeline until he reaches me and I help him talk it out

[@miguelgomes6849]

Still my favorite album by them love all songs in there, congrats for the channel

[@nwerd7584]

theyve never made a great album after Iowa, and Iowas only better because of how hateful it is. But "first" almbun is a masterpiece. I do love MFKR tho

[@labelskater613]

Self titled will always be my favorite. When I seen them live in 99 at ozzfest it was a game changer for me

[@Mr_krabz_mcfc]

Yea i was self tilted from the beginning but last ten years i prefer iowa just hits bit heavier..not listened to any of the other albums aprt from odd songs

[@harveyblevins74]

⁠@@nwerd7584ur wrong. Or are you? Lmao. It's all opinion and personal taste bro. I absolutely love the first three albums, and WANYK. They've evolved which is what u want a great band to do. This last album tho scares me. Idk what kind of music that is but I don't dig it very much. Only a couple songs on there I can even listen to

[@atomfallen2409]

Man when this came out fresh it helped me navigate school and life thanks fellas🙏

[@Breaker197]

Just damn. With as long as I've been listening to Slipknot, I've never gotten more out of their songs than when you talk through them. I'm at a point in my life when I really need this too

[@kurtdad3651]

As a long time slipknot fan and fellow advocate, I am quite fascinated in the detailed insight diving into the mind of these lyrics! And she is fun to watch!! 😂 👍

[@schulze25]

This poor girls head is about to explode by the end of the song!! Lol, love this song, band and your break down :)

[@nw11]

Lady therapist you are so good,you're a gift.

[@eyeswideopen4]

F**ing LOVE THIS! Slipknot is the s**t!!

[@kyletheune6280]

She is the ONE person giving me hope for therapists. Someone who understands

[@mikenewfer5293]

I am a survivor or Vanishing Twin Syndrome. My twin passed before we were supposed to be born into this life. My loss still effects me in a heavy way.... This was my first slipknot song when the album came out this was the first song I fell in love with by slipknot and have been in love with them since.... Thank you!! So much for helping me understand why... "I wondered out alone with out my twin into this world.... In side my shell I wait and bleed...we are both bleeding together but totally apart in every sense waiting to be saved he needed me.....I was unable to save him...... Now I wait for him to save me from all this life has thrown at me..... waiting forever to bleed for him because I lost him and he lost me...... I'm a wreck now this song has never made me cry until today!! Thank you.... So much Slipknot 💯💙🖤

[@HeartSupport]

From ThriceTheThird: I have not been through this experience. So I can not imagine as to what it could be like to experience. I can only say I am here for support, and sorry for your loss. I am grateful that you got something good out of the songs interpretation, and thank you for sharing your feelings with us. The guilt you are feeling, which is completely relevant, and fine to feel. I think should be eased a little by the fact that you were not in control of the birthing process, or what happened there. I do not think that your twin would hold you to blame, or accountable in any way. That they would want to see you trying to live your life to it's fullest, even in their absence. Life throws a lot at us, and sometimes it can feel impossible to handle, but I believe you are right in thinking that they are there for you. That they want you to be safe from all the negative life experiences that you are hit with. I would encourage you to not wait for them to save you, but to believe that they are always with you, and always wanting to see you succeed/overcome all of your struggles. I believe in you, and I am sure they do too. I hope that you can find some relief to what you are going through, and feel free to share more if you ever want/need. <3

[@HeartSupport]

From Micro: @mikenewfer5293 It must be incredibly difficult and painful to process the loss of your twin. You were supposed to exist and share life together, to grow and walk through this crazy thing called alonsgide each other. It feels absolutely unfair when you are left alone and when you're the one who has to keep going no matter what. There is this call for life on one hand and you want to honor that, but on the other hand there's also the pain of the injustice that you have both been through, and that somehow you have to carry on with you. There is this forever longing that feels excruciating. I'm so very sorry that you have to deal with such heay loss, and that you have been forced somehow to find your way without your twin. I have not lost a twin myself, but my big brother a couple of years ago to a genetic disease we didn't know was present in our family. My sister and I learned afterwards through testing that we have not inherited the problematic gene, but he did. We had the chance to share about 24 years of life together and I will forever cherish the memories we have. Still your description there and your story hit me as I found parts of me in what you describe. When it comes to siblings it feels impossible to wrap your head around the idea that you may not walk on the same path at some point. That one's journey may be much shorter than the other. It feels unnatural and just not how things are supposed to be. So you are left somehow with the gift of life but it feels overwhelming to even start asking yourself what you could even do with it. It's hard to deal with the sense of injustice that comes with it - why him, and why not me? Why do I even have the possibility to keep on living? How am I supposed to embrace life without feeling like I'd be betraying or abandoning him? This awful sense of guilt it leaves you with is so hard to compose with, and it can attain such deep aspects of your entire being. For all of this, my heart goes out to you so very much. This is a very special type of pain and grief that you've been carrying, and I guess I just wanted to reach out to you and say that I hear you, and to some extent/through my own experience, I get how it feels to be confronted to the unfairness of life, and how it seems that all of our certainties can be shattered to pieces - that it must only be utter chaos. You're left with a deep need for meaning and purpose, for knowing WHY something like this could happen, and how can one make sense out of it, how can one compose with the gift of life when it feels unchosen, and much more like a terrible, poisoned gift. Somehow the answers may be found in keeping on honoring the memory of those who can't share their voice into this world. I believe there are special bonds that not even death could erase or silence. It's a type of love and affect that has no frontier for it is too strong, too real, too present. It keeps on living through you. And you keep on letting this world know about your twin when the world couldn't have the chance to meet him directly. That alone, my friend, is such a powerful legacy, and I am so thankful that you've shared about it here. You allow us to know you, to know him, and to know about the beauty of the love that exists between you - beyond any matter of time and physical distance. He is and will forever be with you, even during times when life seems absolutely unbearable and pushes you down on your knees. He is with you when you smile as well as when you make it through the hardest days. For there is a special love that unites you, and can never be shaken by whatever obstacle life forces you to walk through. Love prevails. Thank you for being here today and for sharing these parts of your heart. I hope for you to continue on your journey and to grow, heal, find peace in the pride of being an amazing human being, and a beautiful sibling to your twin. -Micro

[@claudiasolomon1123]

You offer insightful analysis girl. Songs a therapist can really work worth - Eyeless - Surfacing - Diluted - Scissors Trust me.

[@redx2gaming69]

Daddy

[@Mr.N0B0DY.3D]

The nameless, sulfur, no life, duality...

[@boi-o2479]

The "I wander out" makes me think of the ways animals pass away. They go somewhere dark, so theyre close ones wont see them die. I think and relate this song to literally bleeding out

[@jeremypacacha1705]

Your insight is incredible, really enjoying these videos

[@rileymeyer4977]

Corey is a master at subliminal messaging! I've never thought of his lyrics in the way you do, its always just been good music.

[@bodhiphotography932]

MY favorite track for over 2 decades now.

[@PIZZAdayisback]

The way she almost paused at "i wish i didn't like this" is such a relatable reaction to that

[@jamesjohnson1694]

This is literally my favorite song from them. The fact that you hit on every point of how I feel everyday is uncanny

[@mikegraham3006]

I love how excited you get and break down the metaphors it’s like the kids on the movie Goonies when figure the map out lol exact feelings I had the first time I jammed the Knot.. can’t wait to see you when Pantera Domination in Moscow is on your screen! Mad respect

[@julierfstorie]

One of my favorite slipknot songs always has been. So relatable but if you've been burnt too many times being vulnerable all you can do is keep it in and suffer in silence.

[@athemioszed2233]

4:05 was skeptical at first but you(& your analysis) totally won me over. Keep up the good work😅😊

[@jimmy_jarhead]

I really would love love love to see your reaction and analysis of Everything Ends by Slipknot. Seeing you break this down into the emotional states that the music resonates with inside me makes me feel like someone gets it. Im not alone. Thank you so much for your work.

[@wiltonvivas1009]

It's my favorite Slipknot song, I've only listened to for 20 years and wondered what it actually meant lol thank you the hard hitting wisdom ❤

[@bodhiphotography932]

SAME. 💜

[@erickhanna80]

I really appreciate you venturing out into the rabbit hole of Slipknot's music. I have another one for you from them called Killpop. That song is amazing and I would love for you to dissect that song. Much love. Rock out!!

[@DANIELCadenhead]

Snuff by slipknot also

[@richietraverse5239]

This is my absolutely favorite Slipknot song that awoken alot in me years ago whe the fist appeared i acutally met corey once at his show and he turned out to be my favorite singer well one of them

[@MichaelDavis-si9bv]

Whether she is right or wrong, her passion and enthusiasm is unmatched. Welcome to the Metalverse! \m/

[@Shawn-l1j]

I'm in love with her . She never heard it before and girl rocks it , fits into it😮❤❤

[@Xposthmous]

Are you serious? You don't this chick has heard this song before?

[@Shawn-l1j]

@@Xposthmous Well. I don't know Merry Christmas 🎄

[@ClaymorePT]

This music helped me a lot during my teenage years. I would just come home after a shitty day at school and just listened to this on my disc-man. This song allowed me to just vent on my bedroom... in silence... I've always felt that if I wouldn't do it, there would be a point in my life where I would just end it all.

[@Bloodleth]

It’s like your explaining how I felt when I first listened to these songs as a teenager… and just how I remember everything. Is it a dream or a memory….

[@Norseheir521]

I would love to hear your break down on Slipknots my plaque. So far my emotional interpretation of the songs youve done have been spot on.

[@DANIELCadenhead]

I love your metal reactions you are so on point... I need this thank you

[@TheEMFB]

Her metal face checks out! I love the way you break down the music while also dwelling in the emotions behind it. This was a legit moment/reaction. ✌️☝️🫶

[@mikealkinburgh8290]

I conquered My Demons 11 years and 1 month ago ! And yet daily I sit inside my shell to wait and bleed. I lost a part of me, I don't know where it went

[@izzyth3jok3r777]

Look inside deep inside in the labyrinth of your soul. You are and have always been there. But beware not everyone can see God and not die. You will be freed and realize you never even had to look as much as recognize the fact that you are and have been complete.

[@TheFifthWorld22]

🌟🌟🌟

[@HeartSupport]

From NateTriesAgain: Hey there friend, I can personally relate and recorded a video reply to your comment here: www.loom.com/share/f3a6642cfa6e4fc79b1a617f258e3e72 I also mention Taylor's reaction to Freak on a Leash, which you can watch here: kzbin.info/www/bejne/rZa6cpV-pdNqhKs Thanks again for writing in <3 -nate

[@jackrussell1232]

"So how does that make you feel?" "I felt the hate rise up in me. Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves. I wander out where you can't see. Inside my shell I wait and bleed." "Ok... that's a start..."

[@musicfreak666able]

I love how in every Slipknot video her reaction is: scared/mildly horrified, to “fuck yeah! Heavy metal!” \m/, to “HERE is where the trauma is” keep up the great content!

[@gq-f4847]

I love your reactions and interpretation of your video clips 😍

[@ideitbawxproductions1880]

It's amazing seeing your evolution with this band. "Whoo, I'm sweating! Imagine how much more I'd be sweating wearing one of those masks." 5 months later: "Let me show you my own Slipknot mask..." I love the analysis you've done on all these songs, but seeing you genuinely grow to love this band and embrace their insanity is incredible! Now you get why my brother and I have been digging them since their self-titled album 25 years ago (fuck, I'm getting old lol)

[@sjaakieisitfast8387]

I Love SLIPKNOT and your insight about Wait and bleed is as good as PERFECT and you are totally right about the meaning of it👍🏻❤️🤗. I'm struggling with mental health issues myself, I'm experiencing suicidal thoughts almost the whole day and night because of all my mental health issues, one if them is PTSS...and I'm still waiting for professional help and in the meantime I'm listening to Slipknot a lot for many reasons and I'm therefore very happy SLIPKNOT will visit Amsterdam very soon to give their live performance here in Amsterdam to all their Fans...I can't wait to see them...I Love SLIPKNOT and I Love SLIPKNOT for many reasons❤....one of the reasons is the mental support I'm getting from SLIPKNOT just by listening to them I already feel worthy to still be here on this planet❤❤❤

[@lalaland7603]

I still remember when I heard this song for the first time when I was 17 years old and felt instantly understood, it gave me the certainty other people felt things similarly to the way I did and it made me feel less alone in a very chaotic and disfunctional family life.

[@neilpatrickhairless]

The OG self titled masks were their best IMHO because of how genuinely creepy they all were. They got super elaborate and high end after that but these masks absolutely fit the mood of the S/T album

[@blakemtg47]

I’ve always been partial to the volume 3 masks

[@JamesVestal-dz5qm]

This song is a true classic!

[@emerje0]

The song is about how normal, civilized people can suddenly have a "switch" go off in their head that makes them do terrible acts of violence. One of the key lines is "But I'm a victim, Manchurian Candidate". The Manchurian Candidate is a novel that was published in 1959 about the son of a politician who is brainwashed by Communists to act as their sleeper agent assassin. While it's used metaphorically they're talking about the sort of "switch" that we see in deadly road rage incidents and mass shootings.

[@everyonelovesmajima]

@heartsupport I'm complicit AF in my own loneliness. I'm 37 and I'm just now learning how to talk and *NOT BE TOO STUBBORN TO ACCEPT HELP* because I started having seizures at my job and three weeks ago they found me laying in a pool of blood in the bathroom with a cracked skull. Suddenly I have people asking how I am and telling me my feelings are valid and it's OK for me to say "hey, I can't handle this," and people literally telling me "no, you're accepting this help." The masks actually say a lot about them and that's what I love about this band because their songs are all about those exact feelings. Jim wears the jester mask because he's a joker, and as a fellow Libra I know that it lets him be uninhibited. If you watch him play in Stone Sour without it, he kind of hides. Craig notoriously does not speak and his spikes kept people at a distance. Mick just wants left alone and his is obviously based on Jason, in fact he originally wore Jason's hockey mask. Paul wore the pig mask because he was indulgent, and he OD'd in 2010. Chris's Pinocchio mask becomes relevant right after that. Sid's perma-fried on acid, he just does whatever he wants. His last mask was just a mask of his own face and he seems to be a robot now.

[@originaldeadclown]

god i wish this slipknot would come back this whole album is a masterpiece hands down my favorite slipknot album and one of favorite albums of all time

[@docx02]

I completely relate, and I am currently trying to help a friend of mine that doesn’t realize she’s bleeding out… 😢

[@jro341]

This was the first song I heard from Slipknot. I have been to 4 concerts, the first was 2000, when they had one album other than the one no one knows about. My brother in law just gave me a shirt tonight. It is Slipknot Wait and bleed.

[@fubarfg9393]

I secluded myself for many years. I didn’t want someone to rescue me. I was either going to die or become stronger. The problem was that my response didn’t set boundaries and allowed that person to keep hurting me. I also became very cold and heartless as a result of my approach. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger…

[@briangreen8053]

I cant stand therapists for various reasons but you are pretty solid.

[@derekfish5868]

And it waits for you....this band made me feel like i wasn't alone it's nice to know I truly am up even though I'm almost 40

[@beauwarren356]

I think what you do is pretty amazing. To be able to listen to lyrics and correctly identify words when they are very rhythmic fast or spoken with slang terminology and apply them to immediate and correct psychological responses. To look at songs from a lyrical perspective and not get lost or caught up in the musical melody of the song is really a lost and rare art. I'm a lyric person and I remember almost anything I've ever listened to it's uncanny. I also know the words to this song word for word, and it is a very solitary and angry driving song. I had never thought of it from the perspective of the words Wait and bleed meaning someone who is injured, I physically or mentally or emotionally and waiting for something to change and not doing it thus bleeding out emotionally mentally or physically 😮 Super good

[@tonytyree1913]

Bands like slipknot are how I got through everything growing up. The therapy that comes from just letting it out can not be matched. Multiple suicide attempts and struggling with life. Music has always been there for me.

[@jeremylong7533]

I first heard this song in 1999 on MTV2 late night and was like who is this?? And I've been a huge Slipknot fan ever since. Really like your reaction videos to them. And hearing how you break down their lyrics is interesting. Some things I've already broken down and understand but you give it a whole new perspective here. You got a new subscriber here 👍

[@huwdavies-tallon3305]

As a bullied and lonely teen i use to identify so much with this song. Saw them live in 2009 at 19 was a spritual expreince i will never forget. Maggot 4 life

[@TheMygoran]

Slipknot, and especially this song are a wonderful outlet for the rage we humans bottle up inside us. Everybody has demons inside them and it's good that we don't give in to them. Our society would be a bloody, awfull place. But we can't silence them forever or get rid of them. They seethe, burn deep inside and bottle up. Once the shell cracks, we get tragedies. One way to unbottle is to let loose, pay back whoever wronged us, express hate, scream, be violent. Hopefully there is not enough pressure yet to lead into harm to others, but the longer we wait the more likely it becomes. For obvious reasons, this is bad. But this song somehow feeds the same urges. It get's you pumped and in the zone. It's almost impossible not to move to the song, to get into it. And in the end you feel exhausted, tired, but satisfied. If we can't get rid of our demons, feed them something that doesn't hurt others. At least that's Slipknot for me. A safe way to unbottle and let it all out

[@MOEW-c2o]

i love how shes bopping with the lyrics but shes also talking about how serious the lyrics are like imagine someone intensely head banging to a song with lyrics with deep meanings and going ''yeah well this song is also about self harm!!''

[@dynamodan8216]

The pure voice part and the grungy part are the same singer, Corey is so incredible. And if we're going with the therapy thing, it totally fits. We want to be the good guy angel part of the song, but there is often a rage inside that doesn't match that. Not that I'm approving of self harm or anything like that, but feelings can be shit and it's better for everyone if we embrace the suck.

[@realtigermario]

Straight to business.

[@shawncocker9699]

Holy shit “it’s not the right person” you kicked my ass with that. That one was for me…..

[@ThomasAndrewW]

Taking me back to being a teenager in small town Iowa when this chaos emerged from Des Moines. Here it is 25 years later challenging my worldview again.

[@KiranKingston]

I only recently learned that lyrics say, "I wondered out..." For years, I misheard it as "I want to rot..."

[@C-B.eXe85]

seeing you move with the music makes me subscribe

[@IAmEli12]

W Slipknot, im goin to a slipknot concert this year because it is on my birthday exactly :)

[@edmundobecerrilromero5083]

I love your reactions❤️👌

[@Danknuggz_4200]

Best ozzfest i had ever been to these guys killed it

[@adamgouveia7590]

I love how she’s talking about the song while bopping away at the same time lol

[@kaylafultz92]

Love your content!! 🤘

[@Kantilvih]

I love this! but "this" I mean the song, and your energy, and your insights! and the fund raiser

[@yinxed]

I cannot wait for this channel to stumble upon: Bloodywood, In this Moment, Falling in Reverse, Disturbed, and EPICA.

[@kingizengar]

Yea I can relate. Always have.

[@N8ive_Badboy]

This was my favorite song in HS before joining the military! I was little, I got along with everyone but didn’t have any friends. I wondered why, was it me, was it them, like you just said am i worthy? Is this worth living for? Then I heard a song I’d like to hear your reaction on! Dope- My Funeral Today it’s how I feel still, I’m at the point I don’t even care if I die now, I feel numb it seems even to a lot of emotions I usually have for things! Depression is a war within one’s self and it’s a constant battle. Sometimes it feels like the game of life is about to call checkmate! Then where do you go? To the left where there is nothing? Or to the right, where there is nothing left? Now it seems I turn to alcohol to put a haze on life to make withstand-able, and to block out other thoughts and feelings. Nobody seems to notice when I'm suffering. Trying to play perfect and put on a face for the public but inside I’m fighting fkn demons it seems. I’ve tried to leave subliminal messages to tell with out telling I guess or sound like I’m bitching. I can’t even think anymore

[@HeartSupport]

From adv_mat: @N8ive_Badboy Thank you for sharing something so personal and honest. I see you, i notice your struggle, your pain. The struggle of putting on a nice face for the world while fighting to get out of the dark hole is something many people can relate to, yet it feels so isolating when you're in it. Like out there we need to smile, be normal, interact with everyone like nothing happens, but at the same time we just want to lay down in bed and do nothing questioning sense of whole existence... I know that... been there and asking questions of " what's the point?" It took so much effort to make a move, to get up, to take some action... In my case it took me some time to figure out that it was depression and then i need someone else help.. I have reached out to someone who was the skilled and right person for the job and yea... that worked pretty well in long run. Yes, feeling so bad right now can be devastating weight, that prevents from thinking straight... that sucks all the air out.. yet i want you think remember that it does not define you as a human. This is difficult, yes, but it does not tell your whole story, your whole life. It is not like this moment is whole you... There is more dept to your soul, personality, history and love in you :) i want you to remember that you are valuable, loved for who you are not matter what. That there are people there willing to help and support you, no matter what. You’re not alone in this, even though it might feel that way right now. Thank you for trusting others with a piece of your journey. I root for you and i wish you all the best. Matt

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From KotoHiAme: @N8ive_Badboy Great song selection, not being afraid of death is usually a normal thing. But man what I am hearing is like people trampled on your emotions, your care, your desire to human again. And that lead to the traveling path of drinking. After a while the body can only take so many beatings before it just decides to block everything else out. Currently you could use a moment of space where you are not being destroyed for simply being you. I am starting to notice lately as well that telling people how you simply feel is looked down on now too as well. But I don't understand that concept at all because having emotions is literally the foundation of and the creation of so many things around us. So, hopefully you can return back to the value you have in yourself and build that support back again. So, lets start with the beginning of this friendship. Hi, my name is Koto and I am here to help you bounce back with my arm of support.

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From gravitykills24: @N8ive_Badboy Hello, welcome to HeartSupport - I'm glad you found us and decided to comment to the Slipknot reaction video - and I want you to know - I've been there. I know exactly what you are saying about being depressed and battling yourself. I have gone through several seasons of severe anxiety and depression in my adult life, and luckily they don't last too many months - but they are deep, dark pits that are really hard to get out of - being numb becomes the new normal and nothing seems to bring me joy. I am curious, what branch of the service are you in? Also, I will have to check out the Dope song...I haven't heard anything from them in quite some time. I do understand your comment about using alcohol to give yourself a haze to make life bearable - it certainly helps in social situations, but eventually it just becomes a negative with health, hangovers, and just the addiction allure. I hear you also about the hints or subliminal messages just to see if anyone picks up on how you are really doing, if you are struggling, if you are joking around. I hope you are able to connect with someone close to you soon to share your true feelings, either a trusted friend, or perhaps a professional therapist. I know biting the bullet and going to a professional therapist was the best thing I ever did to battle my own demons - I know I lucked out by finding a good therapist right away that I could trust, just luck of the draw. But he has become such a trusted ally in my own mental health journey - I am so glad I got to a point where I knew I needed help and luckily I was able to use health insurance to locate and start using talk therapy. Anyway, I just want you to know you are not alone in this. Military life can be tough and I am not sure if you are still active, but thank you for your service to our country and the time you gave or are giving to helping defend our freedoms. I am not sure what types of support the government or military gives for depression or mental health, my guess is that they are behind the times...but know that HeartSupport is always here with more content, more reaction videos, and volunteers to listen and encourage you on your journey. Be well, and stay strong in the battle of life, you got this!

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From ericroy: @N8ive_Badboy The struggle of putting a nice face on when you are lost, hurt and have no hope is brutal. I been there its not a fun thing to deal with. What i learned if i have a few people that care about me and want me best and love me. Its ebough to help me go through each day with hope. We are here for you and care about you. God bless my brother.

[@liammerrick6399]

You are brilliant.

[@justint.baldwin2853]

I feel like this all the time. I feel as though I'm unwanted. Or un necessary in society so...... I wander out in solitude and seclusion as not to burden any one else

[@cindymoore322]

I'm so sorry you feel that way 😢

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From Micro: I'm sorry friend that you've been feeling this way. It's awfully painful and heartbreaking to want to embrace life yet to constantly feel like the world around you is just not a welcoming place. That somehow in order to live a fulfilling life you would have to be a certain way, match certain criteria, align with certain expectations... overall to force yourself to be someone you're not. It's unfair and feels like a battle lost before even beginning to try. It is so hard when isolation hits like this not temporarily, but as a continuum that almost becomes our own personal narrative. It leaves you with this sensation of being *outside* of everything, looking through a glass the life unfolding in others' homes, hearts, relationships - but not in your own life. It's as if you were condemned to be in solitary confinment over and over, except that you did nothing wrong that would explain why you are pushed there. Being yourself, and even more *being*, is not a fault. For what it's worth, I've personally felt this way throughout different seasons of my life. Just this dreadful sensation of existing without being alive, of being a part of this world without having a little chance to be noticed. It hurts even more when you feel vulnerable yourself and would need an ear to listen. Instead you're stuck having to muster your own strength and keep on pushing with the hope that this sense of profound disconnection would change over time. I hear you when you say that you don't want to burden anyone else. And of course I don't know your story, but I would imagine that there are wounds behind this fear that make it understandable why it is present today. It's fair to not want to burden others, yet at the same time though connection is the only way to be genuinely known, trusted, seen, cared for and loved. If you were reflected before that you have no worth or that you don't belong, if you were hurt or have been living for a while with the belief that there is nothing in you worth knowing... it all contributes to feel unwanted and profoundly isolated. I don't know you, and again I don't know your story, but I can assure you that you do belong even if it doesn't feel like it, even if you have yet to meet the right people or forge a path that feel safe and meaningful. How you feel about yourself does not condition nor indicate your worth or your right to live in connection with others. What it expresses is your hurt, your fears, your doubts - which are all valid and need to be cared for. I'm personally thankful that you are here today, that you share your voice, that you *are*. No matter what you've been through, no matter who you are. I'm grateful for the very possibility of seeing you now and rooting for you. You matter very much. You really do.

[@THEDOGSBODIES1]

He’s not waiting to bleed, he waits and bleeds, he’s rotting in the depths of sorrow, a place that many do not know

[@ryujigoda3445]

Exactly, take her back to SeaWorld she hasn’t a clue

[@alexisonfire223]

Metal music is embodiment of therapy, the harder they go and more truth song has, gives one a bliss state or eternal peace...While this mainstream radio pop music is designed to promote materialism and false sense of reality for all people listening to it thus making them depressed, disoriented and eventually they go to therapist cuz generic materialistic music destroyed their ego and perception of reality. While in metal and hardcore music is what you hear is what you get and its raw poetry which makes people feel eternal peace throught music.

[@yinxed]

Spot on!

[@JDEvans2009]

Love the insite, but totally cracking up, wanting to enjoy and being scared at the same time.

[@tarriverblues]

This was my anthem as a kid

[@ohsnapigetit4631]

lol...I am so glad you enjoy Slipknot, but I highly recommend you some reading of the history of Heavy Metal. It goes as far back as 1970 with Black Sabbath with their debut Album "Black Sabbath". This genre has had many angry mothers calling the genre as devil worshipping, sadistic, evil, weird and just plain garbage, but the genre is intended to scare and entertain people like a horror movie. but I think it is modern art.

[@brenanwilley1988]

Heavy metal started with death 1987

[@knucker2730]

Metal is cathartic to me. And its for the reasons you state. Metal hits on and goes over realy dark and nasty subjects and situations. Ones that we shy from in normal conversation, if only to avoid people treating you different (my personal reason for not going over hard subjects, I hate being pitied). But its never about being the victim and wollowing. Its about power and strength and the will to find a way forward despite the horrible situation.

[@justjack4030]

If you read this you are loved. Be mindful, respectul and keep rocking you beautiful bastards!

[@christophersmith210]

i've realized what got me out of the pain and heart ache i felt; there's a book i recommend Tim S Grover- relentless. in the book on page 19 " Being good is the standard, being great is going above expectations however being the Best is doing the impossible time and time again." its the idea of always reaching for the next goal. i wasn't hungry and i was complacent with the pain and suffering, but once i got an adrenaline rush of competing whether playing pool, playing video games the light switched n now im happy that i can challenge myself, cheers and you rock.

[@lequebecois9176]

Way far my favorite 🌞

[@Lucek-ot9zx]

This is updated version. The album version of this song is original one, and its even stronger while Corey growls a lot more there

[@NuVegas51]

0:15 love the reaction, but the song is actually about a man who's had multiple dreams about cutting his wrists, only to realize he's not dreaming,

[@eddfineza8616]

ty for the explanation, btw your right on, ty for that

[@shinmarcorp7846]

This song got me through middle school LMAO!!!!

[@shinmarcorp7846]

Awesome reactions and insights, you do a very wonderful service for free for the good of the world, if there ever is a band that is in dire need of their own Therapists its Mudvayne lmao Their early songs were the most disturbed and they then became mainstream favorites their songs Cultivate, Dig, Death Blooms, Nothing To Gein, Severed, Cradle and Not Falling, Happy are some of their best and most interesting I especially love Cultivate and some of their lesser known songs Skrying, Trapped in The Wake of A Dream are equally amazing; definitely a band to gain further insight into. Keep up the amazing work!!!!!

[@nicholasmcbride3520]

A good way to see this song. A good analysis.

[@DarenMiller-qj7bu]

There's so much i want to say but i can't. Would probably be a good idea to see a therapist but i know how that turns out. Love your breakdowns and reactions though. Always cool to see someone groove along with what your own taste in music is.

[@Panoras81]

This is the very first song that made slipknot famous back to late 90s

[@josephdecarlo1262]

I have Autism and Adhd. Slipknot has given me strength to keep fighting to live. I am strong!

[@fortheloveofnoise]

My whole mom's side of the family has Autism and my dad's side ADHD, I just have ADHD and I always fight with my autistic side of the family i just want to run away from the family

[@barrywalker673]

I listen to Metal, therefore I am saved.

[@lLI0Nl]

mb you would like also some songs from Falling In Reverse, like "Popular monster, "Voices in my head", "Watch the world burn"

[@nvcn86]

my first slipknot song.

[@epicmage82]

Reaching out has become a phobia at this point. The thought brings panic.

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From toastaintbad: Hi @HeartSupport_Fans , You aren’t the only person that has a phobia. Everybody has a certain reaction with phobia. I used to be scare and get panic attacks. Panic attacks aren’t delightful. When I see something scary, I tried to think something else or look around my surroundings that helps me calm down. I used to be afraid to talk with others and heights but I have to face my fear. Sometimes you have to expose in order to reduce the fear. I hope someday in the future that you are able to conquer your fears. - Love, Toastaintbad

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From Micro: I'm sorry friend that the thought of reaching out has been such a distressing experience for you. It has definitely been the case for me throughout my life, especially as I had to learn - and continuously learn *as an adult* - that asking for help is a safe step to take. I didn't have the possibility to learn this as a child so it's a constant challenge to face whenever I acknowledge that I need external help and can't shoulder it all by myself anymore. Somehow it is incredibly scary to put yourself out there, to share what's on your heart and knowing that it's now going to be seen by someone. It feels like you can't hide anymore, you can't pretend or *choose* how you want to be seen. You can't trick others anymore by making them see a version of you that usually feels safer to present. Instead you give the tools and knowledge that someone else needs to help you, which is at first to have the possibility to see your most vulnerable sides. It's hard because it feels like having no protection left against potential hurt. You are not armoring anymore - instead you show how you are behind the armor, through how you truly feel or think. It also feels like taking a risk as long as you are waiting on an answer/reaction from the person you reach out to. If you personally had any negative experience in the past after asking for help, you also carry the memory of these bad outcomes. It makes it even more difficult to put yourself out there. There's a certain amount of uncertainty that surrounds the act of reaching out, so feeling a sense of panic and fear makes completely sense. You don't want to be judged, you don't want to be misunderstood, you dont want to generate emotions or reactions in others that would make you feel unsafe or uncomfortable, maybe you don't even feel worthy of others time and care either. It's a lot to untangle and the outcomes are significant. It's profoundly human and okay to feel *fear* when it comes to asking for support. If it can be of any help, Heartsupport has an online forum at forum.heartsupport.com where you can share what's on your heart anonymously, and be heard by people who care in our community. It is a safe place to reach out, be understood and validated without any judgment. I actually used that place over the years to practice sharing about my own struggles, because it felt more manageable at first to write messages to people I didnt know, online, rather than having a face-to-face conversation with someone. It has been a stepping stone over time to finally see a therapist - which I was absolutely terrified by and pushed away for a good decade. It helps to have middle spaces like this where you can practice and cultivate positive experiences following the expression of your own vulnerability. You are not alone, friend, no matter what. It's okay to take your time when it comes to overcoming those fears, it's okay to take babysteps too. This is about you, about your life and heart, so it is absolutely important and matters most. *You* matter. So very much. This panic is present now, but it can be reduced and eased over time, little by little. I believe in you.