this podcast is a HOT MESS!🔥

[@Darqueness]

You touched on so many things I've felt/thought about my own life for ages. The concept of “we all have our masks/armor that show diff aspects of ourselves but each is just a piece” is in line with a thought I had a while back about myself, wherein everywhere I go, each different group I interact with, sees just a part of who I overall am. With one group I'm more playful and jokey, another more strategic and technical, yet another more inquisitive and curious, among many others. Like I'm a whole kaleidoscope of elements but none are "fake" or disengenuous just different aspects of who I overall am. Your courage in sharing this vulnerable part of how you feel about yourself is highly commendable and I thank you for sharing it, as it's not only fascinating to hear but also thought provoking in having me gain insight on some of my own things here and there. Definitely looking forward to see where these go.

[@grahampearson1626]

I think you nailed the format there, very relaxed and calming...if that's what you were going for don't change a thing. Be well, good luck and I hope you find the happiness you deserve. Not just to Michelle, but to anyone reading this.

[@JCokoro]

Enjoying the short hair 😁 but keeping these all on main channel is a great shout

[@DeafAlone32]

The past fiew videos really connected with me. The more you show us the real you the more I realize i relate allot to you

[@DarkHorseWorkshop]

I'm actually pretty much in the same position as this podcast at about the 20 minute mark. I fell face first into leather craft, and it's alright, but it's never been a dream of mine. I enjoy KZbin, Making Videos etc. But I need to stop worrying about what's going to happen with my channel if I start taking chances and just do what I need to do to be happy and everything will work itself out.

[@thadcruz8623]

I love this, Michelle! This is perfect because you're in your element. It's not messy at all!

[@michelle-c-smith]

Thank you so much!

[@nnamdiuyalorjr2896]

@@michelle-c-smith Keep up the great work, Michelle. I believe you will enjoy cross training between Jeet Kune Do and Kenpo 5.0. 👍🏾

[@DarkHorseWorkshop]

Dreams are just Dreams without Goals. I love that quote. I've been planning a podcast for too long, always thinking about what I need in order to do the thing instead of just doing the thing. :)

[@gerda_g]

You are actually a total badass for this. I needed it as much as you did. 🔥🔥🔥 Appreciate you sharing and letting others see who you are.

[@michelle-c-smith]

You're so welcome!

[@thetamage]

Michelle, I watched you entire video and have seen many of your training videos. It’s fascinating to watch you in action. I can appreciate where you’re coming from, your identity tied to your skills and accomplishments. My opinion is that it’s important to remember the old concept of “Be, Do, Have” If you can be anything, you can do anything, if you can do anything you can have anything. Start with the question, “What do you want to have?” and work it back to “What do I have to be?” Ultimately, it’s your choice to create those things for yourself. Your being is not a “performer, staff spinner, stunt woman, etc.” Those are doingneses. You alluded to it when you spoke of your power. Your being is one who can put in the attention, attitude, effort and creativity to do all of those things successfully. You’ll find a better way to express this about yourself I’m sure. But you are hugely powerful. I know that whatever direction you choose to do and have you will be successful because of your ability to be. -My humble 2 cents

[@bensolo7000]

I can relate to "the power of imperfect action".

[@Iliparabo]

The fact that you did this sitting on the floor and with no script, made it more engaging, natural, organic. As a follower, I felt closer to you as a human being. You certainly achieved your goal of getting rid of the "costumes" or "armor" and giving us the human being. Looking forward for the next episode. LOVED IT! ❤

[@magvs_mæstro216]

Right?

[@listerheb]

I have watched your spinning vids for ages and I love them. But if I'm being truly honest here, the videos where you talk openly and honestly are some of the absolute best you have! I don't know if you need a separate channel for it or if this is where it should go, I'm not good at those things but I do know you're amazing because of your journey and I'm thankful to hear you speak your truth, please keep it up!

[@shadowofchaos8932]

I recognized you on a few shows lately. Charmed twice! It was then I knew they shot the show in BC!

[@davehlewis]

I'm an elder millenial with Autism so can identify a huge amount with what you are saying about this. The place you have been in the last couple of years is exactly what I am in at the moment. I am not sure who I am, and for me unfortunately the physical side of things is very hard and are taking it's toll. Look forward to the next episode!

[@silverroddo1468]

I started take steps towards getting a house built (by me-gotta save!) and I realized just how messy it is, in the 20 or so years, the offices that are involved in land, plots, lots, environmental etc., all those are haven’t been stream-lined. I mentioned this, is because i should have taken these steps long ago, but if had i known-i would have-because what they don’t teach you, is how to go about land ownership, house ownership, it’s all based on-go here, then there, go see the plot of land-ugh! All that to say, get things going, even if it doesn’t seem to begin anything. But i get it, there is a apprehension of not getting the right direction at the first attempt. Believe me, i hate it when I go somewhere and they tell me, you don’t have the right paper-work (especially if you have to walk). A comedian said, “doing something the first time as an adult seemed like a big deal like climbing a mountain when you were a kid, but when you actually go do it-it’s like stepping up onto the curb from the street.” It’s slow going but i’m getting there. Just gotta do something, anything, a little planning in the down time doesn’t hurt either.

[@BenjiChainReaction]

This was a perfect "hot mess", and it is when you are at your best. Thank you for sharing! I was a"Spock" too growing up and can still relate.

[@michelle-c-smith]

Yes! Thank you!

[@barbarab8870]

I think this format feels real and authentic. I absolutely relate with what you said. Also, it’s nice to know I’m not alone in preferring to sit on the floor & stretch & move while I work through my thoughts.

[@TheCosmicburrito2]

Wow! I love your hair! You look amazing! 😮

[@unstablewindz9462]

One word to describe your podcast . Authentic . Keep doing the real you 😊

[@michelle-c-smith]

Thank you so much 😊

[@lucaslamoureux151]

When you said that they kept trying to tell you that you are not neurodivergent and you realized now that it was because you had learned to put on the mask of a person, hit in a way I didn't know it was going to for me. It clicked with me. Thank you for being you on your own journey. 💛

[@WolfKinder3]

Thank you for doing this. A lot of the things you said were things I needed to hear right now. Isn't it wonderful when that happens. 😊

[@tcao42]

Know what I love about …”this mess”. It is real! There are no retake…cut…reshoot…etc etc! It’s real. I work in pro sports and this is real. Love it!

[@bradkauffman3925]

Women aren't the only ones who wear masks or armor..... I grew up with an abusive step father that firmly believed that kids should be seen and not heard. To the point where I couldn't even do sports in high school because he flat outside he wouldn't take me to practice or games or anything. So I was forced to swallow my emotions to swallow basically who I am and trap thim inside, to the point that at 45 I still don't know who I am.....

[@acromiss]

As an Autistic dude thats obsessed with Star Wars, I found you through your Saber videos. Yet, this is the first time i've met you. Hi Michelle. Your take on masking and how its affected your personal life and professional career is enlightening. i also see how COVID has shown people who they are without the constant grind of society and its social structure. I'll keep watching for sure.

[@michelle-c-smith]

Thanks so much for joining in!! Glad you’re here!

[@avrggy]

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!! You're wonderful! Because you're amazing, just the way you are

[@杰-说话都要講道理]

You rock 🤘 🔥 🔥 🔥

[@magvs_mæstro216]

Digging the new haircut!! You seem natural at this. You being this relaxed on your very first podcast, is relaxing in itself.

[@BrianBorges-ez3ls]

Hey Michelle! I really enjoyed this vid. The costumes analogy really resonates and, in this time of rampant social media, will do so for most people. When you spend so much of your life "on display", it gets to be a habit to always be "on". I noticed that you seemed truly happy to be yourself in this vid, and that makes me happy. Thanks. ( As a floor person myself, stay away from the chairs!)

[@WisdomOver50]

Awesome! Congrats on the new podcast! Keep going!🎊🎉👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

[@David-su4is]

Thanks for this. 60 something kid with all the labels ADD, dyspraxia, dyslexia, LD, so yeah, what you're speaking about really resonates. Keep them coming, if you can, I'll sit and watch. Going to go stretch now.

[@jamieleecreate]

Thank you for sharing such insight of your personal journal! And I want to applaud of your courage and honesty. I can see that you are trying and really trying hard to stay on this new journey of yours. As you said it does not matter that it is not perfect, the main thing is your willingness to be IN IT and GO WITH IT. Eagerly awaiting the next episode. Also, the fact that you are stretching while talking to the camera, make me feel like you are chatting with friends and not putting on a costume to do a show! Thank you for being the YOU YOU. No more costume Michelle! 🧡👏🏻😃

[@HowBarbaric]

I liked this a lot! Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing more of yourself with us and your insights. I'm looking forward to your next episode! And I love this format, and the stretching! I say keep doing it, but do whatever you feel most comfortable with. ❤

[@dmm737]

Michelle, love your KZbin channel and this new podcast. I have been doing martial arts for over 40 years and still feel like and imposter. I know what you're talking about truly, keep up the good/great work!

[@YovaRodz]

Hey Michelle! Its so great to see you again! A podcast! Love it! 👍✌❤

[@michelle-c-smith]

Yay! Thank you!

[@danielkritzinger2599]

I very much enjoy listening to you, you explain very well! Happy about the opportunity of getting to know you better. Great start of this new adventure. :)

[@Lauraisgreen]

I feel so seen on every level 🥰

[@TKSpaceman]

Had a bad day. Listening to you brought back some inner peace and perspective. Thank you for that!

[@marveldreamer]

Your cat has been the guest of this week 😄... I'm Javier. I follow you from...long time ago, your skills with the swords are awesome, but this has been good too. I liked listen you. You are intelligent, how you show and explain...you has surprised me. And has been rare your stretching but funny. Keep with all, the sabers are cool, but with this too, because is not a mess. 😉

[@cam4894]

Yay! It’s a thing!!😃

[@bluebomber81]

Can't judge the mess cause it makes way, way too much sense to me except I really have no understanding of this masking. But a lot of what you said feels like things I do to a lot of extents, with some exceptions, but of course there's gonna be. I know I do it to some extents but then others I can't at all. So weird, and so fun, lol. Small talk breaks my brain. Relate to Spock, who interestingly feels more emotion than anyone else. Then I also relate to robots and 'othered' type of characters. D.A.R.Y.L. is one I remember a lot. Even The Terminator for how I'm always scanning my environment. But that's the worst one maybe and what saber spinning has been the most help to. If I'm honest what you want to do is exactly how it's going with me. I'm still hopelessly lost but the saber stuff rn is already saving my mind from exploding at work surrounded by a cacophony of mall-shoppers on days like today. But then you talk about all of this stuff and it's so me, so it's helpful to me and to god knows how many others as well who have no idea what's going on here. So yea, I think I'd be super fucked if I didn't end up with a reason to start doing this and then searched and found people are actually taking it seriously and all, lol. I am in that shit you described and fighting to get out so a lot of coincidence seems to be working in my favor. And that's what it is because even professionals are pretty stupid on this. Then some of us live in 'that country' that doesn't believe in healthcare and so talking about these things is all we have. And then family can sometimes blow. They've seen some TV shows, Rainman or something and know what all this is and 'you're definitely not that.' You mention the stim aspect, that's big for me, too. Especially the newer sabers with all the lights and sound you can play with, it's almost overwhelming at that point. In a good way, tho, I just need more patience about that aspect. Also might have to be mindful about the loudness cause sometimes people ask me questions, like 'how do you do that?' and I might be yelling PRACTICE! at them. They get weird, but a lot of them are weird where I work, to be fair. Anyways gonna wrap that up guess I needed to put that down somewhere and you made it the spot. Appreciate it! 👍

[@pear92]

Really enjoyed listening you talk about life and neurodivergence and stuff! Also thanks for the reminder that even small progressions towards a goal are still progressions

[@spaceangel6945]

Love you Michelle, you nailed the hair what more does anyone need. :) Seriously, I love what you are doing and you being you. When I do Zoom I do it on my yoga mat laying down in front of the screen. The cats like it. I might use a little extra lighting. I was called Spock by family, but that was a while ago. Now I have badass little ones especially 5 sisters I know. Will they make it? There are those growing up in dysfunctional homes and a few growing up with helicopter parents. I get to be the crazy uncle, the Obi Won Kinobi of the family. I do a little ballroom and Latin, had teachers tell me to smile. I was thinking, not if I don't feel it. I was fortunate my first dance teacher was really good and started us of with the best advice; "The only rule of dance is to have fun." Of course I am talking about doing what I am doing for me. There are rules and there are laws as well. One teacher I really liked, a professional, was doing things that looked like she was defying the laws of gravity and physics. She would back me up on the not smiling thing, though she always had a positive attitude. I have always been the simple, innocent, naïve cornfed kid. I joined the Army and it's probably not more real then that. Much of my work I could not talk about even with my spouse. I was also the big brother and I guess that was enough to establish myself as a military leader. You can delegate authority, but you cannot delegate responsibility. A sergeant will say "I am not yelling, I'm only talking loud enough so you can hear me." :) I have had to deal with anxiety & depression; which could mostly be from living such a sheltered life. Now, with the invention of cyberspace I enjoy exploring different personas. I also like my privacy and anonymity. I am pretty good at the physical stuff but I am constantly working on my social skills. Michelle you are more than an inspiration. I really believe the best thing is when people gather together to do something physical.  "The happiest times are when people get together and do something... People have the most fun when they are busting their ass." ~ Ted Turner

[@maisieaveston5197]

Michelle!! I loved this and it's always a pleasure to listen to your thoughts. As someone who grew up doing dance and gymnastics too, a lot resonates and I love the stretching! It feels casual and reminds me to move my body too :) Fantastic and can't wait to see where this continues.

[@Lorax2k2]

I relate to everything you said. I am also in the process of finding out who I am without the masks I have collected over the years

[@nordicson2835]

Really like the short haircut , you look great . Hit the ground hard and fast , adapt and overcome... you got this.

[@davidpope8880]

I like new hair style. It's great!!

[@shemarlosscott2656]

Cool Podcast Michelle Christa Smith You Look Amazing Thank You For Uploading The New Video I Enjoyed it and You Were Fantastic

[@shemarlosscott2656]

@officialmichellechristasmithco Thank You

[@Herandro_just_Herandro]

Spock was right. Humans are highly illogical. Even so, they manage to succeed. Live long and prosper, Michelle. 🖖🏻

[@acojovanovski2833]

I am in Toronto. Is there any chance you will have a seminar here?

[@MidianUK]

you're doing something new! hang in there, it gets better!

[@Random_Musings]

Congratulations on starting this up. You've got this!

[@reggitwend7405]

Well done video Michelle. Can't wait til the next one =)

[@michelle-c-smith]

Thank you! 😀

[@titangrey3894]

Fantastic job Michelle! I loved the whole video! I believe it will help a lot of people! Keep doing it your way! 😎💡🗡

[@Greystark3]

Please continue to do these podcasts as video also it was great hearing this from you 🙂 I want more!

[@gman30251964]

Maybe a wireless lapel mic might help you feel more comfortable when you are recording? It definitely will allow you to stretch..

[@TheLetter536]

Such a cool podcast, I love it!! Keep it up, looking forward to discover more of You as You grow.

[@michelle-c-smith]

Thank you so much!

[@danielhill3261]

Yes, staff twirling and martial arts are skills, but what you're doing in this video is a skill also. And I would suggest that opening up like this is a much harder skill to learn. Maybe that's why so few people do it.

[@zmickeylangelo]

Однажды на вписке один знакомый джокер сказал мне «не срывай с людей маски, там могут быть люди, и они могут тебе не понравяться» Gorgeous haircut, what a lovely company for daily stretching routine

[@plaguemonger7231]

Stay strong❤

[@cid627]

I love you so much ❤. Saludos desde Tijuana! You have to be in Star Wars, make it hapen I am with you

[@-AT-WALKER]

"Im perfect" Yes, yes you are!

[@68Mie]

👍 thankyou Michelle , i feel you. Have you thougt of playing Mara Jade in star wars? She has a purple lightsaber and is bad/good. Nice haircut. Good job 👏🏻 with the pod.

[@jaysartori9032]

I watch you spin your stick around me and you have something alike? That is school we each have our own cross to bear We both view school as prison. My prison was in hell and my mind, also I'm still learning how to spin the bow staff. P.S I really like your podcast.

[@kenonthespectrum2638]

I'm autistic and this talk speaks to me❤

[@chaosreaper9255]

Will this podcast be on spotify?

[@plaguemonger7231]

Same here ARMORED

[@Perfect1583]

Strive to be imperfect. Perfection symbolizes completion which leads to stagnation. One cannot move forward or grow if there is nowhere left to climb. Feed on the incomplete and imperfect. Perfection is apathy... Apathy is death

[@davidferguson2996]

Love the new cut. Can't wait to hear from you.

[@Gediwan]

I enjoyed it, thank you.

[@plaguemonger7231]

🤘

[@ShinMufasa]

Awesome

[@plaguemonger7231]

Right

[@Iliparabo]

❤❤❤❤❤

[@danielhill3261]

So, watching your videos Michelle, I can say for sure that you are a glitch in the Matrix.

[@gakarelina2038]

Очень красивый новый образ!👌

[@plaguemonger7231]

👍

[@plaguemonger7231]

Raaa!

[@stratdx]

Children of divorce. I was a different person on the weekends. Different at home. Different at school. Never really noticed at the time. Hey! Who the hell ARE we!?!?

[@stratdx]

@officialmichellechristasmithco nah

[@jeffpricefamily3905]

I think your ready for MMA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't worry your such a badass no woman will want to challenge you !!!!!!!!!!!

[@tivaltluokkanen5403]

Hi ❤ 🇫🇮🇲🇽

[@davidpope8880]

Join the club.

[@plaguemonger7231]

4 sure

[@madlycan]

best of success. I know the masks can be tiring.

[@TheDingham]

Been following you for a long time and it saddens me to see you this way. I'm not saying this to be cruel even they you'll probably think i am. You need to spend a lot less time on the internet/social media. You think it's helping but it tearing you apart. I hope you figure this out and find you're way.

[@thepuffenphoenix1500]

Are you still doing classes

[@michelle-c-smith]

Yup, live classes happen 1-2x per year and my online academy is open year round!😻

[@rrhorner79]

That's 4 people. LOL Just kidding.

[@rrhorner79]

@officialmichellechristasmithco Michelle, is this your read email address?

[@plaguemonger7231]

Myself a lot of pr

[@plaguemonger7231]

What?

[@Pigeon.Channel.Ahmed.Pur.East.]

Hello Dear

[@plaguemonger7231]

🫣

[@tcao42]

...a chicken dinner?!!?

[@plaguemonger7231]

I'm perfesinal amiture sorry bad grammar

[@moataz688]

❤ why change your hair style, please bring it back long ❤

[@plaguemonger7231]

U seem more happy b U ❤

[@Bruceleekungfoo]

Michelle you are super talented and an awesome individual but what exactly are you trying to convey or what do you mean about "costumes", "mirrors", "hiding", etc? Your talent has become your career, it doesn't encompass all of you. Right?

[@plaguemonger7231]

B u

[@avrggy]

Are you an aquarius by any chance?

[@nunocarneiro464]

Looking great with that hair 🤩

[@dannyarnold4201]

*_Are you by chance a Filipino Martial Arts practitioner? Just curious_* *_Amazing Skills, you’ve got! I subbed to your channel!_* 😎🍵 🙏🏻📿🪷 🐅🔥⛩🏯🥋🧘🏻☯️🏯⛩🔥🐉