TIRED of living...

I had filmed this back in November 2018 when i was going through one of my pretty bad downs... I just felt like i had to talk to "someone" or something.
I'm putting this out there for anyone who feel like they are going through difficult motions but can't talk about it - or don't know how to reach out. Know that you CAN speak about it, despite the fear, and people WILL listen. At least i will.
It's okay (and HEALTHY) to be vulnerable. Give yourself permission to live it at your own pace. Practice positive self talk - i know it's hard - but those kind things you tell yourself, guess what, THEY'RE TRUE. If you need to talk, i'm here. [e-mail]
Stay strong, be vulnerable, and keep loving life - even when it seems difficult sometimes. Because that's what make the good moments even MORE magical. As Eeyore once said: "sad and gloomy, too bad no one's here to enjoy it". I think he's understood something profound..! There's something beautiful about these harder moments... i think we just need to ride the wave to see and feel it.
Don't be shy or hesitant to reach out. [e-mail]

[@FeelTalks]

Just a disclaimer that some comments do not show up for some reason. If you comment, and notice that it did not actually pop up in this section, it means I will get a notification for it but will not be able to see and respond to it! 😔It seems to be a common problem on KZbin, and I apologize. I do respond to every comment and want you to feel heard and loved! You can always comment again, or shoot me an e-mail! You're not alone in this! 💪❤️️

[@vescoellis5980]

U are a beautiful person god watching you😃Flowers 2 U🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹Stay safe

[@FeelTalks]

​@@vescoellis5980 Thank you very much 💚💛💙❤️️🌻Take care and stay safe!

[@vescoellis5980]

@@FeelTalks u welcome keep ur head up and get rid of all negative energy including toxic relationships.U r a beautiful soul outside and inside 😍I live in a rough hood right now and being smart keep me alive so much negative around me but GOD always have a mysterious way of guiding my path and if u have a boyfriend that love u and stick by your side its all good😀I am paranoid schizophrenic but my friend she stick by my side a positive friend is powerful.Much love 2 u and GOD know u r a beautiful soul🌹

[@FeelTalks]

@@vescoellis5980 I hope you keep receiving all the love, support, and acceptance you deserve! God bless your friend for being there for you and keeping you strong! I'll be here if you ever wanna chat! Sending you plenty of strength through these hard times! 😮🎈☀️

[@vescoellis5980]

@@FeelTalks u keep it real I like that 😀A real woman hard to find sorry I hardly be on the internet so busy.You are a real woman and if any time you want to talk or anything let me know I wil give u my number.I keep it real I live in a very rough hood crazy people😃But Iam not scared of nobody u are real woman very rare yes Iam black man but love ur style.

[@neisanland2503]

i'm not depressed or suicidal. i'm tired of life itself, if something came to kill me, i'd accept it because i don't care if i die today or tomorrow. to me it's the same. i don't like pain, pain of thinking that im a failure or useless to myself or doubting my skills and seeing how the world is going downhill it's like being in hell one step at a time. if my parents were able to ask if i wanted to be born i'd say no.

[@FeelTalks]

Hi Neisan, thank you for sharing such raw thoughts. I can definitely feel that you're tired of whatever reality we are living right now. And i must admit, it can be pretty shitty. I truly hope that you still get to experience meaningful connections that make you enjoy this life. ❤️️ I can say that i'm happy i'm still here. Sending love your way.

[@hanililasheep]

Same here i dont want to be born again.

[@iamking_pocahontas5182]

I feel the same way

[@bapbirb]

Fear of pain is probably the only thing holding me back from suicide for now... I relate to you. Its not that I hate life or that I hate people. But Im just tired of being me. I've always felt like there's truly something wrong with me that doesn't make me ok to live in this world. I feel like Im not whole.. Its probably combination of depression and body dysmorphia, but Im not that sad or disappointed at the thought of not existing. The real dread comes in when I come to the realization that since I was born as me, I have to continue to live as me as long as I exist. And I don't know how to accept that reality because it feels like an endless cycle of misery. And often people think that its only because Im being emotionally immature and unreasonably pessimistic, and maybe they're right that what I am is just a complainer who doesn't do much to fix the situation. But I don't care anymore honestly.. Im just tired.

[@ninili830]

You've spoken my mind. I think existence is painful in itself and the worst part is, i have to pay bills for it. I never asked to be born here.😒

[@elido3198]

I'm just tired of trying. I keep asking myself what's the point, I just want to go.

[@FeelTalks]

I understand your sentiment... It can get so hard, exhausting, and lonely. Please share more with me and let me know what is going on in your life ❤️️ You don't ever have to experience these painful motions alone. So many people here feel you. Sending you love and strength.

[@johnboy6594]

Keep pushing forward my friend our ancestors had similar pain and suffering.

[@evilsoul2478]

Man I'm in the same situation like ya

[@BrianBloop]

Same

[@FeelTalks]

@@evilsoul2478 Hope you're doing alright, friend! Sending you much love and strength. Keep going, keep seeking the little joys of life, and believing in yourself ❤️️

[@josephanglada4785]

Life often feels like paying a subscription for suffering and boredom.

[@FeelTalks]

Hey Joseph, that's a way of putting it. I feel you. I think we develop a lot of protective behaviors, thoughts, and mechanisms that serve us well when we are in survival mode. But once we're our own adults with the potential to live differently, these can really hinder our growth and ability to form meaningful connections. So as someone who has and still is struggling to heal and find my own worth/ value/ person, i invite you to question what YOU care about. What is important to YOU and dedicate your time, thoughts, energy toward YOUR values. Not the judgment and voices that you've internalized from others. I believe in you. Life can be different. It's not fair that we have to do all the work, but if we do, we can find a different version of ourselves. ❤️️🍪🌈 Sending you a big hug!

[@thacryinggame]

I love you brother. Lets hang in there even though we’re weak right now

[@BlakeGeometrio]

True. There's nowhere to go, nothing to do, no one to talk to. Life is a subscription we were forced to pay for. 😭

[@hodil293]

💯💯💯

[@rsvpjcp6569]

I’m 20 years old and I’ve tried all these experiences and life just keeps crashing down on me. I’m tired of living just to be disappointed.

[@FeelTalks]

Hi love. I understand. I do. Being disappointed over and over is one of the hardest things to live through. We want things to work out, we keep trying, we keep hoping. But some things just don't seem to want to work out. Please feel free to chat more with me here or via email. We can work this out together if you like. When I filmed this video over two years ago, I would have never pictured myself anywhere else (mentally). But right now I am in the bestest mental and emotional space I've ever been. Please believe me it's worth every try. ♥️🌻 Sending you love and smiles! 💌 [e-mail]

[@arshad723]

@@FeelTalks hey i just feeling so low i cant even fell good ..everything has changed since this year i dont wanna socialiaze um ad there are many things to.....

[@FeelTalks]

@@arshad723 Hi Arshad. I totally understand!!! This year has been absolutely crazy!! How are you holding up? I'm hearing so many awful stories about people feeling trapped in all sorts of ways. I hope you can find someone to talk to. You can always chat with me if you need! I think it's important to remind ourselves that we're not alone in this. It is so hard. mentally, financially, socially. It's HARD! We can't deny it! But we can get through this!! 💪 And don't ever be afraid to reach out. Because being vulnerable and sharing it is part of what brings us closer. Don't keep it all inside, okay? It's not healthy for you. Let it out. If you need to cry, cry. If you need to talk, talk. If writing helps, write. For me, I would just film myself... I would talk to my camera. And that helps. Because there isn't the fear of being judged. Always here if you need to chat. Sending you all the love, Arshad. 💛☀️🌻

[@MrTwettybird]

AMEN I so agree.

[@arshad723]

@@FeelTalks agree maybe this is what LIFE ? all the upps and downs happens to keep ourselves moving to be the stronger version of ourselves

[@Sweetcakeyum]

For me, life is confusing. Society is an enviroment where people are competing with each other. You need to be pretty, happy, smart, active and positive. If you look tired, unhappy or depressed, people might see you as someone who likes to complaint and they will avoid you like a plague. When in reality, u need all the support u can get. But you need to keep up with everything even when you are freaking tired. And what if u can't keep up? Nobody cares, they'll just leave you.

[@BriaBarrows]

This is the one. The competing is extremely exhausting

[@tacumi6784]

I feel that there are many requirements of society on ourselves, and that is exhausting. It's like we need to be able to always react the proper way according to the expectations around us, and it feels like we don't have the total control of our time because there's always obligations that don't let us just simply exist when we are tired or unmotivated. At least that's how I feel it

[@fernandomatos2053]

Exactly, people are fucking selfish. Only care about themselves

[@poorkitty9232]

The last part has me.. I’m just so tired and people don’t seem to grasp that you really can’t move that fast when you’re so tired.. and they just kinda have this attitude that you can just somehow be really fast with things

[@sacrifice3308]

True

[@deliaaasss]

For me, the thought that keep coming to my head is “I didn’t choose to be born” and it just keeps repeating, living seems to be a torture and even suicide is illegal, there really isn’t a freedom of choice in this world at all. I’m just so tired, I know that I won’t suicide but I’ve always hoped to just hibernate like a bear and never wake up.

[@FeelTalks]

Hi DLYX. This is some really deep stuff you're sharing. Thanks for that. I think it's definitely a tricky place to be -- we don't want to die, but we're not living either. Here we are, humans with unique thoughts and desires, but we feel so trapped by rules and laws. We're such creative beings, but nobody seems to want us to develop that creativity. So what's the point, right? I think you should meditate on what you want your life to be, who YOU want to live as and let go of the social constructions that keep you tied to wherever you are right now. As hard as that sounds, I think we will feel so much freer if we realize that all these rules that are keeping us down are made by other humans. And we have the light in us to reshape how we perceive that. Does that make sense? You're always welcome to chat 💛

[@SparklSeoul]

How the heck do some people live without being tired of life? I recently turn 21 and don’t see myself pass 23 years old and up. I’m so exhausted I can’t even get the motivation like I used to before, I can’t have the enjoyment when it comes to my hobbies. Bad enough my brain is mush filled with fogs, anxiety, stress and negative thoughts. Tired of fighting against anxiety and being stuck

[@FeelTalks]

🙁I feel your pain, SparklSeoul17080. I think it's inevitable given that we live in such a fast-paced consumerist capitalist world where competition and fast consumption fuels basically everything... It really makes us question what our intrinsic worth is if not to solely perpetuate this wheel of inequality and exhaustion. I think we owe it to ourselves to reset our priorities and do our best to dedicate as much time we can to those priorities. If that makes ANY sense. So instead of trying to "fit into" this crazy fast-paced culture, i think we need to prioritize our mental health, sense of peace, and stillness. And we just gotta figure out what to do to stay true to those values and priorities. I believe we can do this, SparklSeoul17080! Keep holding on. You've been so strong. 💙🌱☀️We can grow and heal together in a more meaningful way.

[@klusher5556]

Thought so too at 16, 18, 19, 21. And here I am 23 yo and still here. My wish is to be asked some stupid question like; do you believe I God. Say yes and get shot in the head and hope He has mercy on my soul, what is left of it.

[@niahkustaa995]

Me too I relate to you so much

[@ytplol8446]

@@FeelTalks Capitalist means free-market..

[@ytplol8446]

@@FeelTalks I think you mean socialist consumerism.. when you have to lower to please the collective..

[@therandomhamster0076]

I just sat on a bench in the forest for 30 minutes just crying man. Life is hard and it's harder if you hate yourself

[@FeelTalks]

Hey, TheRandomHamster 007. I feel you. Sometimes a big long cry goes a long way, seriously. Let that shit out! 🔥 I've spent the last few days really trying to fight off all these negative thoughts about "I'm so dumb, I don't know anything, I should just not speak", etc. It's so hard when you're constantly in a battle in your mind but nothing's going on visibly. And you know what, i bet more people have these tough battles in their heads than we think. Sometimes it just takes some opening up. Sometimes you gotta take that first step to reach out and share what's really going on inside. Because i know for a fact we're all out here trying to hide the storm. Just look at this comment section. Hey. You got this. Take it easy, take it slow. Let yourself be who you are at your own speed. Be nicer to yourself. Try to start changing that inner talk you have with yourself. Every time you think "I hate myself", think of a time you made someone smile, or think of a funny moment that never fails to make you laugh, or do a chore that makes you feel productive and good. Whatever works for you. Realize that YOU have the power to change how that "thought" impacts you. Beat it. I'll be doing that work with you!! 😅 Let's do thisssss 💪💪💪 Sending you lots of love and strength 💜🍪🌱

[@leonorceballos8996]

This is scary, because this is my exact thought process. And I feel like I am just telling myself wait. But what the fuck am I waiting for.

[@Bambotb]

+1 i am going end of this summer unless a miracle happens

[@1Sinnagad]

That's the thing y am I waiting and for what or who?!

[@milatabakova7612]

Litterly same...i'm scared

[@FeelTalks]

Hey Leonor, that's definitely a tough question! I feel like we know there's "something" to be experienced that we haven't yet. And we need to be seeking out those friendships, connections, and experiences. And we need to promise ourselves that we'll recognize and let ourselves fully experience "it" when it comes. Whether that be true care, happiness, inspiration, love, whatever it is. These are the emotions that will keep us going. And sometimes we gotta work to seek them out. Trust yourself, trust that you are worth experiencing good things, trust that you can make those meaningful connections. 💛 Sending love your way!!

[@raymilbelmont2521]

@@Bambotb are you still there?

[@Melike.76]

I feel this so much i get a weird feeling in my stomach and i constantly get anxious like I’m tired of living but at the same time I don’t wanna kill myself i can’t describe the feeling it’s because I feel so lonely I don’t have any friends left anymore and I don’t socialize with people I cry sometimes at night before sleeping I hate this feeling

[@FeelTalks]

I wish i could give you a hug ❤️️🌹 It's definitely one of the shittiest feelings. After giving it some thought, I definitely feel like this deep sense of nihilism and sadness we live comes from existing in a high-productivity/ economy-driven world that strives at the expense of our humanity. It's a difficult thing to try to "create" a meaningful identity for ourselves when our society forces us to become machines. But hey, we'll find something. Because our desire for love, creativity, and authenticity is more powerful! 💪I'm sure the discomfort we are experiencing reflects a need for our soul to find a way to realign. Sending you positive vibes! Keep going 💛☀️

[@Melike.76]

I'm just Mei ❤️

[@FeelTalks]

@@Melike.76 Always here if you'd like to bounce any thoughts/ feelings, or chat about life! xx

[@pharmagram5695]

that's totally me! i feel sometimes that i am destined to be alone

[@bananamilk_928]

I feel the same way. How do you cope with it

[@elin_]

I'm depressed but not suicidal. I'm just... terribly disappointed in everything. I'm not going to try to harm myself or anything, but if I die naturally or from some accident tomorrow.. then I'll just accept and embrace it.

[@pog-ify9738]

Im tired of being myself already, like I always question my existence

[@FeelTalks]

I kind of know the feeling... It's definitely hard to describe, so hard to know just how similar what we are going through is. I can only speak for myself, and i think i'm currently getting to a point where I believe there are nice things out there for me to experience, and that (most importantly) i deserve to experience them. So this allows me to see myself as just a vehicle or a means to live life, but life isn't lived in me --- does that make sense??! 🙈😅 I really hope you find inspiration and beauty and love in this world and this life. There is so much to learn and feel. We gotta keep going. ❤️️ You're always welcome to chat if you like!!

[@pog-ify9738]

Well, thank you for the words😁😁

[@eliontodi8929]

@@FeelTalks i disagree with the part of lessons. I know that you learn something from different stuff in THIS THING CALLED LIFE,but it doesn't mean that it's true 100% of the time. I'm not the only person who understands this.

[@jazzermill4463]

I'm on the point that I don't f*cking care what's good anymore. My grades, family, and even myself. Nothing is fun maybe in other world might be.

[@FeelTalks]

Hi Jamil. I feel you. It's a really awful place to be :( But please hold on. Maybe we don't need to go to another world to feel differently. Maybe we can live this life the way we want to live it. Maybe we just need a change of environment, mindset, surroundings. It's a lot of work and sometimes we don't believe we're worth all of it. But please trust me when i say you are worth it. I'm sending you lots of love and hugs. You got this. One day, one thought at a time. Let's work toward a different reality together, okay? 💛🌻💪

[@Hope.9822]

sometimes I just want to leave, disappear and stay alone, but sometimes I think there is something worthwhile, I don't know what it is and I try to look for it, the truth is that I feel tired, I think I can't go on and I try to get up again and again...but I don't know how long I can keep getting up.

[@FeelTalks]

I'm sorry to hear this, Melissa :( It sounds really difficult and shitty. I really hope that you never give up getting up and trying. Because there is something out there for you. It's inarguably very hard because we just can't know what to look for! All we can do is keep trying, keep being open to new opportunities, keep having conversations with people and look for new doors. I think a big part of it is also about not being afraid to get out of our comfort zone. Because only then can we get a chance at finding ourselves somewhere different than where we are now. Does that make sense? So i hope you keep trying, keep going, keep trusting yourself that you will find what works for you. 💛🧁️🍍🌻 Sending you so much love and am rooting for you! I'm always here if you need to chat! xx

[@link2815]

The fact that you're responding to everyone feeling down in the comment section is just... wholesome. Comments from several months ago, and comments written literally yesterday. You are a truly great empathetic person who deserves the happiness you're looking for. I really hope your life turns around and you get through the battles you're going through! I'm rooting for you! Much Love

[@FeelTalks]

Thank you sooo much for all the love and support! I'm sending lots of hugs your way! I hope that this year brings you joy and some peace. Whatever reason or emotion that brought you here to this video, know that you can always share it with me 💛🙏 It's crazy how many people can connect through painful experiences. All the love, Link! 🌹☀️

[@mitulmakwana575]

agreed lol I just commented the same thing :)

[@zakiazmi7457]

U are not alone..im tired of this world & selfish arrogant people who doesnt care about each others..we are force to live in this world, until we die.. 😢

[@FeelTalks]

Hi Zaki, i'm so sorry you are going through these motions :( It is truly a shitty place to be. I hope that you can find a place where you DO feel loved and cared for. At least, i think, through online communities right now, we can reach out and find people who are going through similar emotions and circumstances. We can connect with people who actually know what it feels like and acknowledges the pain we are living. Please feel free to share anything you would like. Hopefully you can start healing soon and experiencing genuine joy and peace 💛🌱

[@wafaaramadan4662]

It’s very comforting to feel that you’re not alone and you always make me feel that through your Videos, So thank you 💗

[@FeelTalks]

Wafaa!!! 😭💖✨💞 You beautiful soul! I'm so happy we bonded through the pain we lived. I think these make the strongest connections! Love you!

[@vanessar.6085]

I felt this. I'm in a spiral right now. Things just keep happening and I'm past the point of exhaustion. Like I know it's going to pass and things will get better. But with this exhaustion, I need that "pass" to happen NOW because I just can't take anymore of "life's surprises." Some days take all my energy to just wake up and be OK with being awake.

[@sarahb4484]

@Vanessa R I understand you, you aren’t alone. I feel exhausted too and I absolutely dislike this feeling. I have 0 energy and I feel very tired of

[@sarahb4484]

@Vanessa R. You aren’t alone, I understand you, I feel exhausted all the time, I feel tired of the noise of the world and I have 0 energy and there is nothing to do with nutrition. I have heard so many people complaining about the same feeling maybe could be 5G that’s causing this shift on us. I don’t know definitely is strange and some days are more difficult than others. But we must keep going…

[@skellydragon9020]

I don’t feel like I belong in this world anymore. Everyone judges me and i keep being brought down by everyone I know. I’m always upset with something or someone and I don’t know why. People I try to talk to always shoo me away so it’s hard for me to make friends. I try to be happier and more open minded just to be brought right back down everyday.

[@FeelTalks]

Hey Skelly Dragon. I, sadly, know what you mean. I hope you don't lose "who you are" and keep trying to communicate and expressing yourself. Always. It's so important! 🌻🌻🌻 It's a pretty sad and sick world we're living in now. So many people are suffering in silence, and suppressing their vulnerability -- which is SO unhealthy! So please keep reaching out, speaking your mind and heart, and MAKE your place in this world! I'll be here rooting for you! ❤️️💥

[@eliontodi8929]

I can understand what you're saying. But let me be clear about something. When its enough,its enough.

[@toptopperss]

I'm so tired of living right now. I'm struggling every single day. Things I used to do that could make me happy useless now. I feel numb, empty and so tired that want all of this to end. I'm in pain, trying to make everyday good, keep smiling, having fun, but inside I'm dying. I want this to stop.

[@FeelTalks]

Hey TOPTOPPERSS, i get you. It's super tough. Things that used to work for me don't seem to work anymore either. Finding new "normals" has been extremely hard. I think you can let yourself be honest to yourself and to your friends about how you're feeling. It's shitty. I'm sure a lot of them can relate! It's not sustainable to keep going as if nothing is wrong. Open up. Talk about it. Share that part of yourself with the people you care about. That's what's going to help you get through this. None of us can be doing this alone. Reach out. And maybe take a break. Don't wait until you're forced to. Take a break and do nothing, refuel a little. You gotta take care of yourself. ❤️️ Sending love and strength your way! 🧁️☀️

[@Hhhjsaaij]

I searched “im sick of life” and clicked the first video

[@FeelTalks]

Well, we are many people to feel this way... But keep trusting yourself. You can always chat with me if you like ❤️️ Sending you lots of love

[@chandrakalapambi3583]

BRO LITERALLY, SAME

[@randomfornow]

literally

[@queen12368]

I honestly feel this it just feels like I’m living the same life over and over again in it gets tiring

[@user-iy3qc5mw9s]

It feels like i will never escape this state. Im constantly afraid of tomorrow. I really don't want to continue hurting. I simply grow tiered of feeling happy just to stay awake until 6 am in a complete fear(?) Anxiety (?)

[@user-iy3qc5mw9s]

And the worst part is I lost all my progress. I was getting better, I was trying to like myself, but nothing matters, since I don't feel like giving it a go, I don't want to get better, I want to stop. Does that makes sense

[@dt7202]

It makes perfect sense. I’m right there with you. I’m so freakin tired of it all. I don’t want to live anymore. If someone came to kill me, I would be relieved. Because death to me right now is looking mighty peaceful and quiet. I don’t know if there is a heaven or a hell, but the potential nothingness in itself seems like absolute heaven. I’m really sorry you’re going through this bullshit. And I wish I had some positive words for you. But I don’t. All I can say is I’m sorry. You aren’t alone friend

[@user-iy3qc5mw9s]

@@dt7202 well, it we are going down at least we are not alone. This 3 month were... something and I feel like it was worth it, yk? I've met a lot of new people with their own stories and experiences to share. No, my insomnia and anxiety didn't just disappear, but now I have meds to deal with them. Still there are times when i don't feel like continuing to live, feel like everything is just stupid bullshit, but i have better support system and coping mechanisms. Yeah, our existence doesn't have sense nor meaning in terms of greater matters, but one day you will say "Good morning" or "thanks" to person who really needed this words, maybe you will be the reason they decided to see tomorrow and discover something they want to live for. You never know

[@user-iy3qc5mw9s]

@@dt7202 take care, stranger, i believe in you, i really do.

[@mitulmakwana575]

Not sure if u will see this 4 yrs later, but I appreciate how u put in thought when u responded to these comments. It shows that this topic is meaningful to u. So thanks for that, hope u are doing well!

[@animationvibe1154]

when you do everything in life and dont wanna keep repeating it because its too boring

[@FeelTalks]

I totally understand. That's exactly what brought me to tears at work. I was doing mundane inventory stuff. I think we feel awful to be trapped in a system that is based on profit-making. We really need to take time and effort to think about what really matters to us and where we want to be investing our thoughts and energy. If what we do feels meaningless, then we are bound to ultimately feel empty too 😔 Sending you love, courage, and support! xx

[@bobbarker9339]

I'm almost 60 and I have lost lust for life. Nothing is interesting anymore. People are horrible. Death seems like a comfortable way out. I guess it's just a matter of time.

[@melanysalazar7006]

I am kind of relieved that I'm not the only one going through this because sometimes I feel very guilty for feeling like this even though I don't want to- thank you for opening up about this, it must be very difficult to but it's helpful for others who are going through similar stuff so it is very appreciated. I am hoping that things are going better for you now and everyone else who's struggling with this, sending lots of love, and may 2021 be full of blessings and nicer memories in spite of these difficult times and other stuff we may be going through ❤

[@FeelTalks]

Thank you for your comment! You are definitely NOT the only one going through these motions :/ And yes, I was terrified of posting this video, but ended up being one of my most viewed + commented video. It really showed me how much people struggle in silence. And i sincerely hope we can, together, foster healthy environments for vulnerability 💛💙❤️️ Sending you lots of hugs and care. You can always chat about anything with me! Happy 2021, dear! 🎉🌟😍🌻🍻

[@Retr0ver4]

This seems terribly relatable. I'm turning 16 soon, I don't even enjoy birthday's anymore which should not be happening right now. I told my mum that I don't really want to have a proper birthday anymore. I feel like I'm just going through the motions, things that I should enjoy I don't anymore. Some days I feel semi happy and then some days I feel like I don't want to exist. I have really bad anxiety and panic disorder. Sometimes I'll be sitting in class and if I'm feeling anxious about school or other stuff I start to feel a shortness of breath, like I'm bracing for more air, I sit at the back though so nobody notices. I hope that when I leave school life will get easier but I feel like the older I get the more downhill things become. I don't feel comfortable telling people about these feelings. I can't even cry anymore. I usually just bottle it up until It's too much for me and the next panic attack happens. People always say I look depressed or I should smile more and I just say "I'm fine" because I feel like if I talk about this stuff they'll think I'm just looking for attention. I have always been really pessimistic, when I was younger from like 6 to 9 I would have wierd nightmares every night and they were all different I only remember 1 or 2 vividly. I'm just scared for my future and I feel like there's no hope for me support wise, when my mum tells me that "things will get better just finish your exams and get through school" I don't believe her and it feels hollow like I know life is gonna be shitty for a while.

[@FeelTalks]

Hey Retr0. I know the feeling... I felt forced to keep a happy front for everyone when I was really unwell deep down. Always feel free to chat if you like to share more! We can talk here, or DM, or email ([e-mail]) Any method that works for you. It really sucks when no one listens. It sucks when our society is shaped in a way that makes us afraid to speak our truth, share our pain, and be vulnerable. But i'm here to tell you that it's okay to share what's really going on. It's okay to be yourself -- even if that means not happy and "fine"!! I'm here to tell you that it is SO important to recognize and accept these parts of us. That is the only way we can begin to understand and work toward changing, or healing ourselves. Keep going, i'm rooting for you. Take this one day at a time. Sending you so much love. 🧡💛🌻🍂 Looking forward to chatting more with you! xx

[@pluto31337]

It’s so hard staying strong, I’m trying but it’s so difficult, tiring, and overwhelming. I just don’t even know anymore

[@FeelTalks]

Hey, thanks for sharing. I know these times are especially tough, too :( Please feel free to share anything that's going on in your life! You don't have to be enduring these hard emotions and experiences alone. We're in this together 💪💪💪❤️️ You got this!

[@pluto31337]

@@FeelTalks may I dm you on Instagram?

[@FeelTalks]

@@pluto31337 Of course! You can also e-mail me (because I'm not often on insta, i might not respond as quickly :) [e-mail] Please do whichever works best for you 💛

[@FeelTalks]

@@pluto31337 Of course! I'm so sorry I didn't include it. It's @hellogoomba. instagram.com/hellogoomba/

[@pluto31337]

@@FeelTalks hi I emailed you! 😊

[@ruuruu1690]

I can't believe im getting older and now i can say to someone else like "when i was a teenager" Getting older is very depressing, i regret that i ever wished to be adult sooner. I wanna go back to my childhood, i wanna experience those happiness and playful day again. Life is very tiring, suicide is never an option. No more "i want to die" But "i want to disappear"

[@shoestring9333]

I know the feeling myself i feel like even praying can’t save me at this point There’s nothing really here for me the life I wanted will never be no matter its to late for me

[@FeelTalks]

Hi there. I'm sorry to hear this is how you are feeling about yourself and about life. It is truly a shitty place to be. I sincerely hope that you can find a way to embrace who you are in this moment as opposed to the "you" you wish to be. YOU are living through these experiences and feeling these emotions. That's who is truly valuable. Life doesn't have to be anything grandiose, like what society has taught us all our lives. It can just be what it is. I know that these pandemic times make everything even harder to process. I'm sending you all the love and strength. You are worth living and exploring, Shoe String! I'm here if you wanna chat xx 🌻

[@Bambotb]

Partying is disgusting and fake

[@shoestring9333]

@feel talks thank you I really do appreciate you so sorry for the late response it’s crazy I got shot a few time recently and almost died but God Spared my life .

[@robertwolf3382]

hope you are doing ok now. Its very brave for you to talk about this stuff. You are helping a lot of people out there 🙂

[@FeelTalks]

Hi Robert! I am doing well, thank you so much. I appreciate your kind words and support! Definitely hope to connect with more open and warm people like yourself :) 🙏💛

[@robertwolf3382]

@@FeelTalks awe thanks! 😁 yea we need to take the time and see if other people are ok, even if we don't know them. I'm not trying to plug my KZbin channel lol, but that's why I started my channel. I suffered in silence for so long and I don't want other people to feel like that. I'm gonna subscribe to your channel. Hopefully it grows!

[@FeelTalks]

@@robertwolf3382 Right back atcha! 🙏 All the best, Robert! Keep spreading positive vibes! 🤗🥰

[@robertwolf3382]

@@FeelTalks thanks you too 🙂

[@worldoficeethonekamrs4103]

There is a point in our lives after we have experienced lots of people, places, and things... We realized that true inner peace and fulfillment will never come from those things.... It’s as if our #SoulsAreCrying for something... #SomeKindOfAssurance.... Something that will fill a deep void and emptiness.... That people, places, or things never will ..... ❤️❤️❤️

[@FeelTalks]

I would love to chat more and hear you expand on these ideas!

[@chikauzor6950]

I think it's a yearning for God. I don't know.

[@Hookandhalf]

Thank you for sharing this, made me realise I’m not alone - positive vibes to anyone reading this.

[@mayanagri]

Thank You for making this. I go through the very same on a daily basis, the only push through is that what lies next. But it is hard nevertheless and I empathise with you and all the people going through this, it's a tough battle but what other choice do we have. Sending you lots of love, support and strength. Thank You soo much for sharing.

[@FeelTalks]

Thank you for this beautiful comment 💞 I hope this connection can help bring you more strength and resilience as you move forward. Keep on keeping on. One day at a time, one moment at a time. Sending love and support back to you! 🌈☀️

[@velzz6043]

I keep coming back to this video whenever i feel down and these past months i just don't wanna live anymore. The only thing that keeps me alive is my senior dog. This video gives me some sort of comfort idk, but thanks Mei, i know this vid is from 2yrs ago but i hope your mental health is in a good place now

[@FeelTalks]

Hi Velzz. Your comment warmed my heart. It means so much to know that sharing these incredibly tough emotions has brought you comfort in your darker and difficult times. I truly hope that you will keep giving yourself those chances to discover something about yourself, and about the world. For me, it has been such a wild ride, but I am here right now! And my mental health has been the best it's been -- ever. I sincerely hope you keep going and get to a place where you feel still, safe, and peaceful. I'm always here if you need to chat, vent, share, cry, or just be in silence. ❤️️💚 💛You got this! Sending you a big big hug!!

[@yassineelkarmoudi5803]

Thanks for sharing 🙏 peer pressure, insecurities and emotional pain can take us into dark tunnels like you said. No one becomes a pessimist overnight but bad experiences and trauma can make us only see the fails and not the wins. Searching for a reason to live....

[@FeelTalks]

😭Yes, indeed! I hope we can be there for one another and start forging healthier mental health lifestyles that really understand and are catered to the depth of some of our scars. I think the fact that the impact of these awful experiences is so invisible makes it extremely hard for people to acknowledge them, and to "fix" them. We really need to speak up about the struggles we are going through alone. It's crazy how this video has brought us together in some ways. I had no idea so many people were going through the same motions. Much love to you, Yassine! Always happy to make a new friend. 🌻💛🎈🧁️

[@foolgazer]

Sobbing to this. You're really comforting to listen to. thank you.

[@FeelTalks]

Hey Teisha W. I wish i could give you a big hug. Crying and letting it out is often times a good thing! I hope you let yourself have those moments and embrace your emotions. They are very real and they are a part of you. Always feel free to chat if you need a friend! You got this! One day and one thought at a time ❤️️🌻

[@foolgazer]

@@FeelTalks Thank you for this 💝🖤 sometimes nice things from a stranger over the internet can make a big difference in feeling less alone and I appreciate it 💌

[@tharukajayasinghe5373]

I don't have the energy to type down everything I feel rn, but just wanted to lyk that I'm grateful for this beautiful video. There's comfort in knowing you are not alone

[@spyqui5505]

Honestly I respect you for still answering/reacting to comments

[@FeelTalks]

Always here! 💛💙🌻 Well. I'll try as much as i can! ^^ Hope you're well :)

[@jaivaidya7571]

I totally get this. I'm so sick of trying to talk or being nice to people and each and every time I get ignored or left alone. I've honestly stopped trying and it's been a tremendous waste of time doing it. I regret how much nice I've been to people coz in return I just get hatred.

[@FeelTalks]

It's definitely a really tricky thing... And you know what? You do you! Be the 'nice' that YOU want -- and if/when they don't recognize it, you know in your heart that you were fair and it's their loss. I feel like humans forget what being human is. I'm sending you much love, kindness, and strength. Take your space in this world and choose who you let in/ fight for. ❤️️💪

[@jaivaidya7571]

@@FeelTalks I can't believe you replied. Many a times it's just the channel owner doesn't even see the comments. You truly are a good person. I wish you all the luck and love you need to progress in life :)

[@FeelTalks]

@@jaivaidya7571 Thank you for your kind words! You are always welcome to chat, if you want to talk about what you're experiencing and going through. I know we all appreciate some connection in these tough times. Please always believe in yourself and your strength to pull through anything! Much love!! ❤️️☕️🍪

[@jaivaidya7571]

@@FeelTalks couldn't thank you more. ❤️😌

[@Dim2134]

I have a lot of words jumbling in my head but thank you is the dominant phrase. That and good will. I hope you're still happier and living well. I needed to hear this.

[@FeelTalks]

Hi Dylan, thank you for commenting and sharing these feelings. I wish i could give you a big hug! I am doing much better, actually. I've had my share of crazy rollercoasters and just two months ago i went through arguably the most difficult time of my life. But here i am, feeling stronger and full of possibilities than ever! Working toward my goal of becoming a social worker. I'd love to hear from you, if you ever want to share 💛Sending love your way!!

[@stercraze066719]

I hope you are doing well. A lot of times I feel the same way so don't ever feel like you are alone. Today was a bad day for me and I had no one to talk to and I found your video. Thank you for being so open about your feelings! You're always welcome to reach out when you need someone to talk to or listen.

[@FeelTalks]

Hey stercraze06! Thank you SO much for this beautiful message. It really means a lot. Currently, in this stage of life, I have overall so much better than I was a couple of years ago. I still have my ups and downs -- like today's a weird one for me. Reading your comment really warmed my heart. Thank you. 💛🙏

[@stercraze066719]

@@FeelTalks It's nice to hear that you are doing better now. We all have our ups and downs in life but with all my heart I wish you a wonderful and happy life. I've included a video that I wanted to share with you. You can watch it or not. This channel has had many good teachings for me when I've been down and out and needed inner peace. kzbin.info/www/bejne/pmOueaJvaraepM0

[@brandonrubio6840]

Man i wish i could go back in time to fix so many things, but i know thats imposible and it breaks me, knowing that my life went a totally unexpected direction, im 23 years old and dont see me making it to 30 at least, im so tired of failing and trying just to be disappointed over and over again, life is very tough as an adult and learning that the hard way sucks, but you just have to man up and deal with it or be permanently kicked down by life, i hope everyone that sees this finds this useful to make good choices in life and always put yourself first, because your family cares but they dont care more than they care about themselves, we all have problems so being a burden to them just makes everything more stressful.

[@nessabezz3988]

I can relate, I tell myself that I will wait..in the meantime I try....itry ...to get through each and every day....I truly hope you are doing better and thank you.

[@FeelTalks]

Thank you for your message. I am better now, actually. SO MUCH better. And I'm slowly finding it easier to love life more as i go. And would love to share that with more people as well. Sending you warm hugs! ☀️💚

[@user-lz6dm5lk9y]

You are a very sensitive and intelligent woman. What you have felt is VALID. I wish I knew the perfect thing to say to you. I have felt much the same as you my whole life. I am not sure there are any answers, at least not here. One thing I do know is that I am glad you are there and have shared your experiences with the rest of us. You are a dear woman. Thank you for sharing. Bless you.

[@FeelTalks]

Thank you so very much for your kind words. I hope you also feel validated in your feelings, because that's important. We're all in this together. I'm sending you a big hug and lots of encouragement! 🍪☕️

[@sureshnandhagopal4941]

"I shall wait until I do......" that's really helpful... 🙏🙏 I'm 29 and I wonder every morning when I wake up if I am 70 already,.. So much of experiences and I sometimes wonder all for just what why i am alone in this .... So now I say, " I shall wait until I compelete my masters "

[@FeelTalks]

YES. Do the experiences, live the moments, share the emotions. And recognize when something beautiful is happening in your life. I was letting the negative weigh me down so much that it was hard to see when things were good... Keep doing things, creating things, and loving things. Keep expressing yourself, and believing in yourself. And I'm here to chat if you ever want to!! 💛☕️☕️ You are never alone in this feeling of loneliness... And you will make your place in this world. Please just keep going ❤️️🌻🌻

[@a.visitor4309]

I'm an old lady. Sometimes I am tired of living. You are young. I've been there. I know what you are saying. Oh, if I could be young again. Your youth is marvelous. Don't focus on the negative so much. Forget people. This world is more than people. More than our emotions. As an old woman, I can attest that I was you, for the most part, but it all went by so fast that I can not believe that I am now old with not much precious time left to live. Depression steals away precious time. Nature gives us a reason to want to live. To explore further than what we think we are. I am now old and spend too much time on wishing I had the youth I once had back again. I was pretty and now I don't like the old person in the mirror.

[@hollis684]

Cant see your pic...but im sure that you are a fine lady inside and outside.

[@tman5634]

A.Visitor Well said, i'm an older guy & would say just as you have here. I've experienced the hell many have, the not wanting to live any more that many have. I've somehow come through it knowing that there's always light at the end of the tunnel, positives are around the corner for all to experience. Now I look back & i'm wanting to help all those that are suffering in the ways I have in life. We're all much stronger than we think & LIFE is well worth living, be at peace with yourself, relax your mind. Your time of happiness will come.

[@knightsalmon42]

Thank you. I think I'm going to spend some time planting flowers, get a few more pups, watch more movies, read more books, eat out more when I can afford to and listen to more music. It won't cost much.

[@JohnsonKayla12]

Thanks for this video. I don’t want to die because I have my young son who I can’t convince myself would be happier without me. However I’m tired of constantly letting myself down and being so close to failing. I’m tired of work. I’m tired of being responsible. I just feel incapable and like I just want to give up on everything so I can have a clean slate. But I can’t because I have a child. Just feel backed into a corner. Can’t talk to anyone about it because they can’t help. I hope things have gotten easier for you.

[@FeelTalks]

Hi KeiyaValecourt, thank you so much for sharing part of what you're going through. It definitely sounds tough and i'm sending you a tone of love and hugs to help keep you going. 💛 I totally get not wanting to share with anyone because they either won't get it or can't help in any meaningful way. I do feel like it's important to try to find a couple of good supportive people to whom you can go to if you need to vent or cry on a shoulder, you know? For me at least it is very helpful. Know that you can always share here. Clearly so many of us struggle with similar emotions and experiences of feeling trapped.. I hope we can keep each other strong and be that light for one another. You are so strong and resilient for your son. Know that you can be just as bright for yourself, because you are worth living and exploring. ☀️🌻🍪☕️ Big hugs to you!!!

[@Mimi_113]

I totally resonate with you. It’s because our hearts are so big and open we pick up all these different energies and take them on ourselves.. ❤️❤️

[@FeelTalks]

Hi Mitch! That's such a beautiful way of looking at this. I hope your heart is equally as big for yourself and that you are being extra kind to yourself during these tough times! I know it can be particularly difficult. Sending love! 💛

[@Mimi_113]

@@FeelTalks ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@WolfPup-gb8ze]

I got a lot out of this. Your video is moving. It lets me know I'm not alone. And reading the comments lets me know even more I'm not alone. I'm hoping and praying for the best for all of us. Thank you very much.

[@FeelTalks]

Sending you a big big hug, WolfPup5150! ❤️️🌱☀️ We'll get through this.

[@AsmaaMohamed-kt3wk]

I am also tired. Tired of faking that I am OK. People around always give themselves excuses but they do not excuse me too as like I am not a human. People think I am too complex but don't know what I am going through and what I went through. People outside my house think that I am living a good life but they don't know that their life is much easier, the things they have that do not really mean much to them I am actually wishing that I have half of it. Inside the house no one understands too. No one wants to let me do the things that make me happy and they expect me to be perfect at the same time.

[@FeelTalks]

Hey SU. I'm so sorry to hear that. It is so incredibly hard to be living in this situation where people are not acknowledging your reality, pains, and emotions. You're so strong for having come this far. Believe in yourself. Trust the YOU that knows what makes you happy and DO those things. Don't ask for permission from people who do not seem to understand. YOU know who you are, what you need. Be your own best friend 💛💙 Know that you are not alone in this fight to express yourself. I'm here if you wanna chat xx

[@AsmaaMohamed-kt3wk]

@@FeelTalks thank you alot. What actually is keeping me standing that I have dreams to achieve I don't want to be just someone who came to this life and just left. But at the same time I am going through a lot of pressure that make me want to give up on my dreams and life. I want to thank you again and again ur words are so deep and meaningful to me really I feel like I am not alone💙

[@FeelTalks]

@@AsmaaMohamed-kt3wk It can definitely be so hard to have dreams, and feel pressured by society to be "something" or "someone", and feel trapped where we are -- all at the same time!! But the truth is, maybe the purpose of our life is just to live fully, you know? Discover ourselves, explore ourselves, make friends, feel our emotions, make connections! Our life doesn't have to be anything GRAND. It can just. be. And that should be enough. And i'd like to remind you that YOU are enough. Anything you do, or choose to give, is. enough. Keep being you, keep shining 💛 And it's okay to need to cry and feel awful. Let those emotions sink in, and we can embrace life together. ☀️🌈 Much love to you, SU! Hugs!

[@AsmaaMohamed-kt3wk]

@@FeelTalks I can not express how positive energy I gained from ur words thank you, much love 💙

[@tairi2009]

Sometimes the only thing that gives me comfort is the knowledge that nobody makes out of this alive. So it's almost like, you know, what's the rush?

[@FeelTalks]

This is a very sad and comforting thought indeed. I guess a more empowering take would be "Well, only once. Make it count. Make it full." Right? And I know how hard that is when the world seems so careless and cold. But I promise there are reasons that make this life worth living. Find and explore the beauties out there, friend. I'd love to chat more with you! Feel free to share more anytime 🙏🧡

[@tairi2009]

@@FeelTalks Thank you for being wholesome. "Find and explore the beauties...", I like that.

[@FeelTalks]

@@tairi2009 Always here if you wanna chat about anything at all :)

[@terrellsmith6715]

True

[@stuff1784]

I wish I would just go already. I’m 25 and DONE. I am hoping to clock out at 30.

[@lilli-.-]

Hearing you say that felt very personal but so comforting to me. Thank you ❤️ I needed to hear someone say that ❤️❤️

[@FeelTalks]

Hey, i'm here if you need to just chat, or need to hear some encouragement. It's quite a difficult thing to be experiencing these emotions. You don't have to go through it alone. Lots of love to you! ❤️️💚🧡💜💙💛

[@lilli-.-]

@@FeelTalks thank you love ❤️❤️

[@galapoeh1817]

@@lilli-.- Hey, whats your age? Maybe we can be friends who knows!

[@teresapetoral4260]

i just feel that everyday is the same im so tired of it come to the point where i start to question my self i feel like im just wasting my time im so tired of it but coming to this video and crying it all out it actually felt good thank u so much.

[@FeelTalks]

Hi Teresa, I feel you 🙁 And yes, crying it out is a great way to sort of reset. Remember to practice self-compassion! Be kind to yourself as you're going through these motions. What you're feeling is valid and it's okay to not be okay. We'll get through this. Sending you a big hug!

[@N-E-O_]

I feel like I’m dying on the inside... I don’t wanna be here anymore I’m stressed so feel like shit and school is just making it even worse😔

[@FeelTalks]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's really shitty :( I want you to know that it does not have to be like this -- life, i mean. I hope we can work together to create a reality that gets you excited, that inspires you, that makes you want to learn and create and feel! It might be tough, but I think we can make it happen. Always feel free to chat more if you like! We need to be unafraid to explore these shitty emotions so that we can understand them, start creating change, and move away from where we are in life now. Does that make sense? All the love to you, ojthegreat7 ! 💛

[@N-E-O_]

@@FeelTalks thank you so much i appreciate those words of inspiration , I really needed to hear that i´m having a good day today.. I appreciate your responce and feedback much love and support you deserve my sub as i shall stay loyal to you (>

[@FeelTalks]

@@N-E-O_ Enjoy the good days! They come and go, but we are allowed to feel good and take it in when they are here 🌻❤️️ And don't hesitate to just shoot me a message if you ever need to hear some encouragement! We should be able to have that when we need it :) xx

[@N-E-O_]

@@FeelTalks thank you for being here❤️🙃 and how do u say your name is it pronounced “may”

[@FeelTalks]

@@N-E-O_ Yeah! It is :) Exactly like the month :P

[@BullProspecting]

I hear ya. I'm so over the stress of work,home and trying to make everyone happy.

[@FeelTalks]

:( Make sure you're taking care of yourself too! Don't just drain yourself out 💛 Sending love your way to hopefully refuel you a little!

[@justb743]

The way you described it is so accurate thank you so much for this it really helped me at such a low point right now

[@FeelTalks]

Thank you for having found me! I'm always here if you need to chat or get some encouragement. What we're going through is definitely very shitty... No one should feel alone in it! Sending you much love and courage 💛♥️

[@justb743]

@@FeelTalks thank you its so nice to feel like I'm not alone, it gives me hope for the future

[@FeelTalks]

@@justb743 ❤️️💙🧡💚💛💜 !!!

[@murad3460]

I understand you very well dear. I'm also very social, lively etc. But sometimes I just can't help myself and thoughts take control and make my day/week shit. I hope and wish for the best for you! I hope your life gets better.

[@FeelTalks]

Hey John, life is slowly getting better for me. I still have my emotional downs at times. They are not nearly as bad. I feel like they are pointing at a bigger need to heal within me. And I can only start healing by first accepting where I am. My husband has been a huge support for this journey. I hope you have someone dear in your life who believes, accepts, and loves you wholeheartedly. I'll be rooting for you no matter what! Keep being beautiful, and social, and kind. But especially, remember to be kind to yourself too! xx

[@Igr4yI]

I literally just started high school 3 days ago and I've had 4 breakdowns already.... This Video REALLY helps... Thank You :D

[@FeelTalks]

Hey Wizastik. Thank you for sharing that, it sounds frustrating :( As someone who genuinely HATED high school, I can promise you that it gets better. As you grow older and as you discover yourself more and more, you'll learn that you actually do have the power and resources to make your own choices. You DO have agency in deciding what you need in order to feel GOOD and fulfilled. So in the meantime, take it easy, and focus on the big picture --- life is not about the meaningless drama or what other people think of you. It's really about recognizing that you are one of a kind, and there is so much potential within you. So dive into that and give yourself the chance to experience yourself in so many different ways. Fuck labels, try all the things, be all the things and see what feels TRUE to you. Does that make sense? I'm always here if you ever need to chat. You got this 💛💪

[@martinezjose4525]

I can never tell my mom anything how I feel because it will end up turning up into a Argument

[@FeelTalks]

I know what you mean.... I remember never being able to just "have a conversation" with my mom. I hope you can see that this has nothing to do with you. Your mom has her own healing and self-awareness to go through before she can properly connect with you -- in a healthy way. I hope you don't feel discouraged in trying to express yourself ❤️️ Keep sharing your thoughts, keep having them, keep feeling them! 🌱

[@EriiikaGuerra]

Thank you so much for this video! I’m exhausted and every single drop or energy left me and it was comforting to listen to you

[@FeelTalks]

I feel you, Erika. It can be so incredibly difficult to do more and give more when we feel absolutely drained ☹️ I hope you are able to engage in consistent self-care practices that can help reenergize YOU. Please try to be kind to yourself 💛🌈 You've been through so much and are doing your best --- and that's amazing, boo! 💪🍪

[@almiraazhr]

hi i actually just want to thank u for making this video, its the 3rd time i think i came back to this video while reading comments, i actually feel like im not alone :) i genuinely thank u for making this, bless u always

[@FeelTalks]

It's my pleasure, Almira Fathima Azzahra. To be honest, it took me months before I could get myself to post the video because I was so scared. But in reality, so many people feel the same way. I think if we all realized how much we share these emotions, we will feel less alone and less afraid to speak about them. Sending you love and strength! ❤️️

[@ad.i3986]

i could talk about my life for hours but... it is just what it is, feels like i was born to suffer. memories from past, worried about future. how am i supposed... ahh i wanna hug someone and cry

[@FeelTalks]

Hi there. I'd love to give you a big long hug and cry together. If you ever do wanna talk about your life and share parts of it, you are always welcome to! You can write me a long-ass e-mail, we can chat, whatever feels good for you :) Hold on! 💛🌱

[@LIT70]

It's two years later. I'm just now seeing this because I was searching for some understanding. You so get how I am feeling. I hope you're better and happier. I'm still trying. Thanks. ❤❤❤

[@FeelTalks]

Hi OohRah, thank you for your comment. I still have my ups and downs, but i'm glad to be alive. I've definitely experienced some truly meaningful connections that i wouldn't trade anything for. Hope you're holding on, too 💛

[@wedontknow333]

Thank you young lady, I appreciate you. I not sure I feel much better but less alone about it.

[@pharmagram5695]

never believe what you are thinking when you are sad or depressed cuz what you say about yourself at this moment it's not the reality ,just stay little strong and patient for one or two night and your thoughts will surely change not all days are the same one day you are the most sad and one day the most happiest ! :) (sorry for my english spellings mistakes) and thank you mei for this video it was so helpful for me at a difficult period in my life i felt understood and that i have to keep going ♡

[@FeelTalks]

This is so beautiful, thank you Sarahh Bl. 💛🌱 I will remember your words next time I'm going through a down! 🙏 Sending you so much love! and all the hugs!! Especially through these hard times! Your spelling is great! 😮

[@Edwinbraun20]

Yes. I can feel that too. I have beautiful wife, home and been traveling to many different places and making many different friends... it doesn’t make me feel much better. Feeling very very tired and super super bored. Really would love to do some drugs but... I live in Taiwan and it so hard to get my hands on good strong products here. I think my brains are completely fried and therefore... no dreams, no interest, no appetite and no plan nor desire for the future. I’ve a... whole PlayStation full of games that I bought but never had motivation to play. Scooter that I don’t want to ride, car I don’t want to drive, friends I almost never reply... and my mom, I was used to call her every day, now I can barely force myself to call her once a week coz just don’t have anything to say. People always ask me “how’s it going”/ “any good news” / “what have you been up to” and so on... My answer is always “good good mate! Cheers! Yourself?” Or “oh not much mate. Been doing this and that and been here and there”... regular BS. Actually just been drinking vodka and tequila because all the better drugs aren’t available and feeling so useless. Like a parasite. Being pointless and feeling extra pointless. So yes, I totally understand your pain. It’s awful. I think it’s because brain cells are dead and some neurological issues... like bad brain chemistry or sth that’s causing it. I think 🤔 Have to wait for a while, maybe some smart guy invents some very good medicine some day. Something that will fix it the brains and make us feel good again. 🤞🏻

[@FeelTalks]

Hey Edwin, I'd love to get to know you more. I'm so curious about your journey and how you ended up in Taiwan (I have family there and have always loved the sceneries). I understand the challenge of living a life we do not feel inspired by. I hate small talk, I feel like people aren't interested in what I really wanna talk about, I feel like this world is not made for me. I sincerely hope that we can find what works for us -- what gets us going, what inspires us, what brings us joy -- in this life. Tell me more about you! What do you do? What would you like to do? What makes you laugh? Please feel free to share anything with me, I'm all ears! Cheers to you! 🙏🍻☀️

[@Edwinbraun20]

@@FeelTalks thank you 😊. I followed you on Instagram. There have that message function. We can chat there sometimes. Very cute cat photos you have there 🧸😊

[@StrangeAttractor]

I feel the same. You articulate it very well. It's what we English call the black dog, and it just jumps you and flattens you to the floor every few weeks. It's a cross that millions of us have to bear. I'm glad I came across your video this evening.

[@FeelTalks]

Thank you for your comment. It's a very beautifully strange (in a sad yet magical way) feeling to hear that someone understands this mess of an experience!! Glad to be here going through these motions together ♥️🌱

[@StrangeAttractor]

@@FeelTalks It's so great you reply to everyone. I watched a couple more of your videos last night. You're making tough, strong decisions about your relationship with your parents that I didn't make until I was 30, and some people never make. Freeing ourselves from the need for our parents' approval is the single biggest step in maturity, IMO. A hell of a lot of people are going through this, your videos are valuable and bring us together :)

[@FeelTalks]

@@StrangeAttractor Wow, thaaaaaank you! 😭😭😭😭 It feels so special to read you! It was definitely the most difficult decision ever, and also not guaranteed to work for everyone. Thank you for acknowledging that and connecting with me through this experience. It's so precious! 😍😭🙏

[@SparkyHelper]

Thank You! Such courage to put this out for us.

[@FeelTalks]

Thank you so much for your comment. It means a lot! I hope you are holding on. Whatever reason made you click on this video. I hope you are giving yourself the credit you deserve for being so strong. Sending love your way!!

[@clsm2195]

Not gonna lie you're an amazing person helping all these people in the comments without asking anything in return,maybe that's One of the reasons you're here,to uplift and save others.Truth is the reason i got here is cuz im down bad as well,shit just going left everytime.But i dont wanna talk,just seeing these comments and listening to this angel in human form was enough for me,i hope yall get thru whatever it is you're going thru ❤️💯

[@FeelTalks]

Thank youuu CLSMafia. Your comment fills me with ❤️️💚💛💙. I hope you get through this, too, whatever it is. No need for talking, know that we're here. I'm here! Even if it's just silence. Know that I'll sit through it with you. 🌻

[@FeelTalks]

This is a reply to mischa. I received an e-mail with your comment, but it somehow did not get posted on KZbin. I want you to know that you don't ever have to apologize for the way you are feeling. Because it is always justified in some way. We may not know how to express why we are feeling a certain way, and we are afraid people will judge us for not being "happy and jolly" so we often will say sorry. And i have been there many times, so my heart sink when i read that you are going through really tough times AND you feel the need to apologize for it. I get tired too, mischa. So many people here feel you. I hope you never give up on the real YOU inside, because you are one unique human worth exploring and worth living. If you're tired of conforming to the world, stop. Do what makes YOU feel creative, alive, and fulfilled. I know it's so much easier said than done. I'm here to chat more, mischa! xx

[@divineeye1254]

This is so weird man ... you feel way more genuine than people I know in real life and most everyone

[@leeanucha]

Wise words. Very inspiring ideas to keep living. I will give them a try. thank you

[@FeelTalks]

Hi Smith Js! Please please please don't hesitate to reach out if you feel for chatting about your experiences, and how 'giving them a try' works out for you. Like i said in another video, i feel like we all go through incredibly difficult-complicated-dark STUFF. And if we shut others out to live them alone, it's a missed opportunity to create a real connection with someone --- a connection that can actually touch us. I believe that it's by sharing these deep thoughts and emotions do we truly start to understand the beauty of our lived experiences, and of our emotions. We can chat if you want! ^_^ [e-mail] Sending you so much love!

[@lizzylia6524]

Thank you sm... I needed this. Love you

[@FeelTalks]

Always here if you need to chat. I think letting our emotions out and allowing ourselves to be vulnerable is the first step to healing. But we have to make sure we have the right tools or people around us to support this journey. Love you too, dear ❤️️🌱☀️

[@grvcas]

idk im just tired. im only a freshmen in highschool. 14. and im so tired. i didnt even live my life and im so done already. i feel like im just stuck in time. everything is overwhelming and hard. this whole pandemic, school, life in general. im just done.

[@FeelTalks]

Hey grace, i feel you... For what it's worth, i had suicidal ideations in high school. It was some of the darkest times of my life. Although on the outside everything seemed fine, i was just drowning inside. But ten years later, i'm glad i'm here, doing my thing. It still gets tough mentally, but i know i can work through it. Trust yourself. You are strong and resilient. You got this. 💛

[@crazyvideoholic9380]

I don't wanna die but live my entire life alone without a single human being around with me.

[@FeelTalks]

That sounds really lovely, actually. 💚🧡💛☀️ I support you!

[@moroweilayefa2891]

I thought I was the only one that felt this way😌

[@rDottore]

Hi „Feel Talks“, I just wanted to let you know, that I have tremendous respect for you, and your bravery, to share these vulnerable and authentic thoughts of yourself (during this dark time, through that you were going through in this moment) online here with and also FOR us, so that everyone, who is going through such a time aswell, has „at least“ you, as a understanding companion. I aswell have immense respect for you, as I know - just by watching and listening to you for these 5 minutes - that you are a extremely STRONG person, and if someone else would have had to go through, what you had to go through, I bet, he/she wouldn‘t be here anymore. So it is a WONDER, that you are still here, and I‘m so thankful for that. I believe, that you are a lovely friend to have, who always has a big and open ear for your loved ones. But when this dark times and thoughts once in a while haunt you, I bet and believe, that you always battle them alone, as you dont want others in your circle bring down, or let feel even the smallest amount of the heavyness / weight, that you are carrying in that moment. (I know that, because I‘m like this aswell. ….) Again: THANK YOU, for being so authentic and brave, may the best be yet in front of you & come for you! :-)))

[@FeelTalks]

😭😭😭😭😭 Your comment means so much, thank you! I'll be here if you ever want to chat. I hope you are on your healing journey and experiencing yourself differently (hopefully in a new, more loving and compassionate light) because you absolutely deserve it!!! Thank you for finding me, and for sharing this beautiful beautiful connection. My heart is full 💞🌈🍪 Hugs!

[@leratomoepya478]

Broken with tears rolling down as I'm watching this... thanks for the video it helps❤... especially when there's no one to talk to 🌼. Tired, hurt, broken... but ill keep trying.

[@FeelTalks]

Keep on keeping on, Lerato Moepya. You got this. Thank you for commenting and sharing this connection. I'm sending you lots of hugs, strength, and energy!

[@leratomoepya478]

@@FeelTalks Thank you so much ❤❤❤.... Sending hugs, love and light your way. You are amazing!!

[@FeelTalks]

@@leratomoepya478 ​ 😭😍🙏🙏🙏

[@amiebluedilly9385]

Hi , i want to talk to you. I've been bored and tired since a very long time. Like three years. I cannot even smile. It's like every moment kills me. I'm tired of being like this. I've tried a lot of things. Nothing worked. I'm done with failures and people around me. Everyone around me betrayed me. I've always helped people. I'm done with this world and this life. The things that once made me happy , now they're nothing for me. I'm losing interest in every thing.

[@FeelTalks]

Talk to me! I'd love to hear your story and how you feel navigating these different spaces (your feelings toward yourself, toward 'the people who betrayed you', toward others...) It must be really tough! But keep going, keep sharing, please. ♥️ Send me an email if you like [e-mail] We'll chat! 💚

[@FeelTalks]

Hi Amie, it's been a while and I haven't heard from you. I would love to get to know you and know how things are going for you right now. These are tough times, and I want you to know you have a friend in me. Please feel free to reach out if you'd like to chat about anything at all! ❤️️☀️Sending you much love. xx

[@kennyfunseth6908]

I fail at everything, I'm always depressed, I never laugh, I'm a loner. Can't believe I made it this far. Ready to leave this world. Thank you for the chance God, I tried.

[@FeelTalks]

@@kennyfunseth6908 Hi Kenny, i'm so sorry to hear that :( I really hope that when you close your eyes and look at your life, you can relive the funny, lovely, and beautiful moments that you have experienced. I hope that you do not feel lonely in your sadness or pain. I hope that you feel at peace with your body and mind. I really hope that you experience laughter. Lots of it. Whether through watching some comedy, or through changing how you see things. I sure miss it sometimes. Don't be afraid to be silly. Much love to you. 💛🍪

[@hanoli7933]

I can relate to you, bro Life is shit

[@val-zv3ko]

this was brave🥺 thank you

[@Ponk_80]

I'm so sorry that you and anyone else have to go through these kind of situations, sorry for my lack of words, i'm Danish, I want to heal the world, because I know from my life what it feels to struggle every day, I just found out a few months ago why I have never fitted into society, my working memory is not functioning, so I can not really relate to anything or anyone, and therefore have always just been on the sideline looking into life, and i'm 43. i'm so tired of life since I have no one to turn to, but hopefully realizing what is wrong with my brain, i might be able to talk to my doctor, and find others with the same connection, because not being able to remember 99.9 percent of my life, is a major struggle.

[@taufiqzaid7037]

Thank you i really needed this.

[@FeelTalks]

Feel free to chat whenever you need 💛 You're never alone in this 🌻 Reach out however you like. You can also e-mail me: [e-mail] Sending love your way! xx

[@Somewhatdamaged1989]

I guess it is not an acceptable philosophy for society in general, but I do believe that in the conditions we live in this system we should have the option to just go away with dignity, based on a humanistic perspective of taking care of the people that just don't feel comfortable being here anymore. Even thought there are days I enjoy being here, most of the time I don't and I just lost most of the freedom and enthusiasm to make any move that could have a positive impact and show me a glimpse of a brighter future. So what happens is that we have a suicidal group being led to the most extreme pain of carrying they're own existence to the point they choose any of the horrendous methods to take their lives, leaving behind a story of suffering for family and friends. We are not stoping suicides, so we should have a clinical approach to it. Honestly, I don't want to hide from the people I love that I`m leaving, I wanna say my last words and I want them with me to say goodbye as I close my eyes with a smile on my face for finally ending the pain of being here. I know Im just dreaming, but I believe this is part of the freedom we all want, it is a human right to decide do leave so let people do it gently and peacefully.

[@FeelTalks]

Hey Lucas, thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. It is definitely a valid and super interesting idea. I have to admit that has crossed my mind as well. In some states, "death with dignity" is finally being made available to people who are suffering from excruciating end-of-life illnesses. This is definitely a very "progressive" and "shocking" practice to be legalizing and we still have a long way to go for it to be recognized as a human rights' issue! So I agree with you that it will take a loooooong time before our society as a whole will even consider "mental sufferance" a valid enough reason to provide death-with-dignity. With so many religions and traditional cultures forbidding people to end their life before their "time", I don't see this happening in a couple of lifetimes. I can't say if i am fully "for" or "against" this idea, as more details about the conditions, accessibility, and criteria need to be discussed for a position to be had. But i'm very grateful for your comment and thought-provoking topic 🙏💛 And no matter where you are now, I'm sending you lots of strength to keep going and maybe feel that spark where you can be excited for life again. I've learned for myself that i feel best when i'm connecting with people who are also hurting. These forms of connections are truly important and meaningful to me. Maybe through this path i'll find my "spark" or "purpose". We make it what we will, really. Love, Mei.

[@sexymary]

I'm tired too. I feel trapped 😫😣..I wish there's an easy way to disappear without leaving a trace.. 🤤😣

[@FeelTalks]

Hi there! I get what you mean.... But i want to ask you, and invite you to think about this: Which part of you would you want to see disappear? Who or which part of your identity makes you wish that? Because whatever your answer is, i feel like THAT'S what needs to change. Not YOU as the entity that you are. You know what i mean? Personally, I realized that i only ever had suicidal ideations or wishes to "just disappear" when i would think about family and my relationships with different family members. For others, it may be their work or school environments. What i'm saying is that there is something that isn't working for you right now. And we need to figure out what that is, so that we can work toward getting you somewhere you WANT to be, and live, and grow! It is so important!! You deserve this! I'm here if you wanna chat! 💛💙🌈🧁️

[@921ster]

Dark thoughts are part of life, we All have them. Im currently experiencing similar symptoms. I’m trying to move forward, but it feels like once I do take a step forward, I immediately take a step backwards. Just remember you aren’t alone. We all have dark periods in our lives. Sometimes you just want to disappear. Believe me, I get it. Sometimes we need help, talking to someone, medication as well. Don’t give up.

[@IrishMobster9000]

I'm very lost in who I am and how I feel, though I'm happy to see I'm not alone in these feelings. I struggle to stay positive and certain things make me feel like I don't want to keep trying to live the best life I can. I'm trying though, thank you for the video.

[@FeelTalks]

Hey Thomas, thank you for your comment. I feel you. And please remember that it's 100% fine to not be positive all the time. We're allowed to go through our motions and acknowledge our feelings. Sometimes it totally sucks. And know that you'll ride through it because we're resilient and we got this. 💪 Sending you love!

[@FourthWig]

I’m truthfully tired of living, but I don’t want to make anybody go through suffering. I just have so much hate and sadness bottled up and nobody to talk to. And I just can’t imagine how everyone at my school would feel. But I still am just, tired of it All

[@FeelTalks]

Hi FourthWig, thank you so much for sharing this. I can relate to the feeling you describe. I truly sincerely hope that you feel like you can share your emotions and share your story regardless of how others react. It is your right to express your truth and it can be liberating. Please keep holding on and keep going because you absolutely deserve to experience good things. 💞🌱☀️🌻Please try to be kind to yourself and allow yourself the time you need to grow and heal. Sending you lots of strength and a big hug!!!

[@strangewayfaringstranger]

You know what, I wrote a whole long comment but erased it. It's a dangerous thing opening up on the internet. Not because of you. But because of who might else be reading it. But, you truly are a good person. Just reading your comments to other people. You don't even really know who they are and what intentions they might have, yet you respond with care. In my book, that is something good. Anyways, one way or another, the world is gonna end me.

[@FeelTalks]

Hi there! Thank you for sharing so much. I know it can be quite scary doing it publically. I was lucky enough to have received so much love and kindness for sharing so much of myself. It's funny that opening up to the world was my way of coping being shut down by my family. What I've learned (to my BIG surprise) is how much people relate to the pain I'm living. So... here's my innocent self encouraging you to open up because you might discover beautiful powerful healing connections with people who know exactly what you're going through and how shitty it can be. I'm sending you all the love. If you like, we can chat more one-on-one by e-mail! :) [e-mail] I'd love to know your story :) I've definitely felt that it was me against the world at some points in my life... And now I'm slowly starting to feel like there's a place for me, or that I'm finally creating one for myself? It's a strange feeling i cannot describe yet. Anyway, let's chat more! xx

[@Echho1]

Thank you for this 🫶🏼 you are beautiful. ❤️

[@the_clarinetster6568]

It’s soooo hard to constantly try and try so hard and still not be able to reach the mark. You think okay I’ll keep trying until I get there and I’ll finally be happy, but you’ve tried your hardest and you make some progress but it just keeps getting harder and harder. I hate feeling this way..

[@FeelTalks]

Hey, i feel like so many of us know the feeling you're describing. I just hope we can all get to a point where we feel confident that we are living for ourselves and not whatever standard society has set... I hope we can see life as something worth going through even if there isn't a "higher purpose". You're always welcome to share more thoughts. Wishing you all the strength and resilience to get through the tough times and reach a state of mind where you can feel safe, at peace, and full -- without all the prescribed superficial "happiness" we're taught to chase. Sending one big hug your way! 🍪🌈🌻

[@user-le8tg3re1s]

I wouldn't say that I'm depressed or anything,I kinda just wanna sleep forever and escape reality,I genuinely feel as though I can't stay here any longer,there's nothing that you can say that I haven't heard already.They say "give your life purpose,better and more fun times are coming,you have loved ones who care about you",all of these I've heard over and over,I just don't want to be here

[@FeelTalks]

:( Sorry to hear that. I know it's an empty place to be. I hope you can get to a place where you feel safe, loved, and content enough to want to live life despite there being no purpose to it. I think it's unfair of society to ask that we abide by their meanings of a "good life" ("successful", "happy", "long", etc) but it's also very difficult to give our own lives meaning when we haven't experienced the potential of it... if that makes sense. All i'm saying is that i hope you can live life for what it is: living it. It doesn't have to have a purpose or incredible meaning. It can be simple, repetitive, "boring". But it can be filled with connection, kindness, and generosity. I'm sending you lots of love and a big hug!

[@C2190]

the only emotion i feel is emptiness and pain the only thing that keeps me alive is going out with friends to eat or doing stuff with them,just the little things make me feel something that’s not emptyness but i dont feel like it’s gonna last long,i just don’t want to feel anything anymore...i hope you keep pushing 💜

[@FeelTalks]

Hey, C. I really hope you keep pushing too! I know there is MORE of that essence that makes you feel something nice and good when you are with your friends. We need more meaningful connections in this world, and I think people who truly know what loneliness and emptiness feel like can make powerful changes in other people's lives. Please keep going, and remember that you are not alone 💛🧡💚 We got this! We'll heal together!

[@augustusxxy]

Thanks for the video. I hope you're doing better now. ❤💐

[@FeelTalks]

Hi dear, thank you for having found me! I am doing much better now! And am hoping to be able to be a friend for anyone who feels the way I did in this video. We can get better. It's 100% possible! We just need healthy support systems ❤️️🌈🌻

[@candirach]

I just had one of the worst days of my life and this helped me breathe a little so thank you

[@FeelTalks]

Hey rachh! This means a lot. Thank you for sharing that with me. I hope you're doing a little better today and still taking those deep breaths. You got this!!

[@mechasenpai951]

Life is tiresome, I have no friends, my dad was never in my life, I work a 9-5 job, I use to have a dream but that dream died, everyone is fake, people think they know me, it just pisses me off, life use to be so much better when I was a kid, what happened? what happened? I guess I deserve it but now I just wanna leave

[@lovethyneibor22736]

Dear soul ❤ What's your opinion on the philosophy of antinatalism?

[@Createyourluck23]

You just typed my life , your not alone my guy

[@lilosnitch3247]

I wss sad because i felt alone....i became depressed when i reached out to people and they laughed it off...literally....and when i asked what was funny, they ignored me and grouped up and talked behind my back and said i was dramatic and emotional

[@FeelTalks]

I am very sorry you had to go through that, really. It's the worst experience anyone can go through... I sincerely wish i were there to give you some hope and make you feel heard. Sometimes there are critical moments in our lives that mark us forever. And if only something in those moments was different, our entire view on life would be different. I am here now, and I'm telling you that what you're going through is 100% real for you, and i respect that. Always feel free to chat with me should you need a friend. Stay strong, and trust yourself -- especially when other people let you down 💛🌈

[@user-de6tq7ce6p]

I love you for posting this

[@FeelTalks]

This means a lot! Please feel free to share your story and thoughts. I'm always here if you need a friend ❤️️

[@BlakeGeometrio]

I can relate to being suicidal as a kid. I truly believe I was born this way and my life has been miserable since the day I was born. My parents have been horrible, my peers have been cruel, and life is just so exhausting. It'll never get better for me. I'm destined to end everything as soon as I can.

[@salutemimi81]

Same