Trying To Conceive: Mental Struggles, Testing My Fertility, & Comparison ⎮ Pregnancy Journey Ep. 6

[@oliviagallagher1340]

Kian, I really want to thank you for being open about this. Most Christian female KZbinrs that I watch have children and base their channels around that (I still love that) but your channel makes me feel like I am not the only young Christian wife going through something like this. Thank you making me feel less alone in this experience

[@arr0991]

You know Kian, I still see this (even though still not a finished story) a very much God story. If you think about it, God convicted you guys to start trying already to have a baby. He didn’t say when the baby would come but He said start trying. And if it wasn’t for that, you wouldn’t found out about your Ovarian count (sorry I think I just butchered the name), or maybe neither about your thyroid. So in this journey even with it’s disappointments and highs and lows that I’m sure you guys must have felt all, He is still moving, He is still showing himself. He has given you more time to try than you would have had if He had not convicted you to start trying, He has given you awareness of your health and more purpose to take care of it. He is in all of it, and He is taking care of you. And what a wonderful thing it is to be reminded of, that the God of the Universe is watching over you, cares about you and is taking care of you 🙏🏼🙌🏼💜

[@erinchildress2950]

okay I have to say this because I have been watching the series and it has been the most incredible and weird thing at the same time. I feel like we are walking the same journey right now. I experienced a loss the same month you did. Then in October I also thought I was pregnant and it was my birthday and I was looking forward to being able to share the news with family We are moving in December/January and it is a huge transition for us… Like, different lives and different circumstances, but such a similar walk!!!! Your videos could NOT HAVE BETTER TIMING!!! 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️ Just know I am praying for your positive, girl. Hold on to that faith, because God is going to do beautiful things with it!

[@liannabond4981]

my husband and I have been TTC for 2 1/2 years. But God has taught us so much, actually, taught me so much about managing expectations and giving up control, and realizing He is the author of my life🧡 I learned that it’s okay to simultaneously work on your health & lean on God while trusting Him and praying for a miracle🧡 praying for you and Kyle (& for all who are TTC no matter how long or short) to have miracle babies- love y’all

[@kerrykearns3551]

I hope god blesses you soon me and my husband have been trying since Jan 2020 with month after month of upset when I come on I am praying but trying to accept it's all in god's timing .

[@allisonlucas018]

I think this is the perfect time to release this series. There's definitely someone who needs this now. Morgan Olliges shared her pregnancy journey with her followers before she actually got pregnant and then she ended up getting pregnant four videos into her series. Praying that God will bless you in His time with a precious baby!

[@allyp6713]

Kian, this video was encouraging to me. I too have concerns about fertility as I have some health issues that make getting pregnant and maintaining a pregnancy more difficult. I’m so glad you have a doctor who can encourage you in the healing power of the Holy Spirit! Thank you for sharing this part of your story with us 💜

[@jessicacoleman5957]

Hey Kian, I think our expectations can be our biggest weakness when it comes to having faith that God can move mountains because we are so inclined to figure it all out ourselves instead of waiting on God who will always show up and show out as my mother puts it, haha. I’m currently 9 months pregnant and my husband and I followed everything to get pregnant and our way wasn’t working and we were like if God wants us to be pregnant then he will set everything up for us and so we resumed our normal lives and out of the blue found out I wasn’t pregnant a month later. You have to put aside your expectations and you have to give up the control and not try and do Gods work before he can do it because our way is never the easy way or the right way. This is something I notice a lot about you is the desire to control and put your hope in what YOU CAN DO more than what God can do for you. I would definitely talk with God and learn to let go and let him do it for you. Especially pregnancy when we can get so absorbed by videos, information, other people’s stories and expectations, our expectations. And so I pray that you can find peace with waiting on God and to let go of expectations and any plans your building for yourself which I hope your taking on diligently. You and kyle will be in our prayers, god bless you hun!❤

[@sydney4531]

I had to write this first line down. Amen sis! Praise God!

[@ourhinikerhome]

We’ve been trying for 6 months now (baby number 3)… really appreciate these videos ❤️ it’s such a roller coaster of emotions. Praying for you 🙏🏼

[@ashloudon]

One of the most frustrating things in our human lives is that our time if often not Gods timing. If God layed being parents on your hearts you can rest assured he will bring that to fruition in the right time. Continuing to pray for you and your family ❤

[@hopevitale8050]

There is hope with thyroid for sure! It’s something very fixable. I had a cyst on my thyroid that had to be removed so I currently only have half of mine left, and it’s pulling it’s weight and working like normal! I 100% understand the feelings of up and down with TTC. I’m currently 9 weeks pregnant with my rainbow baby who is due in July, just like my angel baby would have been 🥹 such a testimony of God’s faithfulness to me that he brought it so full circle. He’s in control over your timing too!

[@Kian_Wolfgang]

Congratulations 🥰🥰 so happy for you!

[@Corinneamon]

What a tough journey, Kian! TTC is full of disappointments. Thank you so much for sharing.. it's really helping reassure me that my husband and I are not alone on our journey.

[@ourkindredtales]

I dealt with vaginismus for three years (the inability to have sex) I could of waited for a miracle, but God chose to use doctors to heal me. Now I deal with infertility, again I could of waited without answers, but I chose to go in and get checked. That doesn’t mean I haven’t gave my journey to God. In my conviction I felt God calling me to seek answers. So that when I finally get blessed with a baby, I’ll be able to share that EVEN with PCOS God made way😊 Sometimes God uses professionals because He wants us to find out what He’s healing us of before He does.

[@Haleybluebarry7]

Hey I'm dealing with vaginismus right now!! Really wanting to get pregnant but waiting for more progress 🥹❤️ pelvic floor PT definitely helped me and my DR was a believer ! but I'm only on dilator 3 right now 🥰

[@ourkindredtales]

I’m sorry you’re dealing with this, it can be very isolating. But don’t give up hope! When I was in the midst of it I couldn’t believe I’d ever be intimate with my husband. Now that I’m able to look back at that season I’m just in awe of God’s goodness. ❤Praying for an abundance of peace and supernatural faith as you go through this journey.

[@Kian_Wolfgang]

Wow thank you so much for sharing, I’ve never heard of that before and I’m sure other women are experiencing it as well. There are so many man made things in this world that can impact our bodies in ways God didn’t intend. So I don’t think there’s ever anything wrong with seeing a doctor 🤍

[@sydney4531]

Thank you for sharing your story, prayers are coming your way sis. Your faith is encouraging! Maybe Drs and the use of modern medicine is a miracle ;)

[@jessietaylor7706]

It’s ok what you are feeling. Don’t let anyone make you feel bad for trying and hoping.

[@junglequeen7386]

i will keep you in prayer.. it would be most beautiful seeing you as a mommy. God bless.

[@antoniomichelle484]

Hiya Kian, I am a student midwife and as I was watching your video I really wanted to share what I have learned! My husband and I have also have been trying to conceive as well, for 6 months now. It is challenging - God never fails us! In school we are reading a book called, "Taking Charge of Your Fertility" by Toni Weschler, which is very informative on woman's cycles! Toni shows how woman can take their temperatures each morning (Basal Body Temp- BBT). This shows when a woman has ovulated (shown as a rise in temp), when you are fertile (by the type of cervical fluid), when your period will start (drop in temp), when she is pregnant (18+ consecutive days of raised temps), if she has hormonal imbalances, cysts and more! Very fascinating things. I have been doing this for 1.5mo now and I can see just by taking my temp that I have hormonal problems! I recommend giving it a try, and even a read if you have time! I feel so much more empowered by knowing this information about my body! God is never too early or too late - He is always on time. ;)

[@Jess-vp2wy]

My friend got pregnant after that basal method after trying for 1 year

[@rhondapelletier2141]

I work in a school system and I have the most amazing boss of my department which is the special education department. She is the sweetest kindest most deserving person to have a child and she has been trying for over 13 years with her husband. Well on the 14th year! It finally happened! Talk about shock, lol. she always said it was God‘s timing and it would happen when it was supposed to.🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@kerrylewisRN]

Kian, I will add you to my prayers for success in your journey. I think continuing to post about it would be helpful to others as well. We can also be a community of believers for support. Btw, I’m just an old nana but I like the pregnancy reveals & that’s how I found you. I love that you are a believer. It does take bravery to share yourself to others. Have a wonderful Christmas with family & friends!

[@elizabethhope7623]

Hey Kian! Thank you for being so open and honest 💛 Praying for the Lord’s perfect timing :)

[@JoyousinChrist]

Man, I feel this all too well. It’s hard to rest in God’s timing. He knows our struggles and pain.

[@irinascorner]

Praying for you Kian, whatever happens, it’s in His perfect timing! I pray blessing over your body, over your thyroid and over your egg count!🤍🤍

[@Emmaa118]

Praying for you❤ you will be an amazing mom! Thank you for being so vulnerable along this journey

[@kaylam7799]

Kian, I’m really enjoying your videos and that you are posting more frequently. Going through some similar things. Negative tests are very discouraging as you wait and wait. But I keep my faith and keep asking in his timing but the waiting is hard. It’s so difficult but watching your videos is encouraging too

[@judithreyes7654]

I look forward to your videos every week and am comforted and encouraged by them 💕 thank you sister! Praying for your family

[@kerrylewisRN]

Just know you are on my daily prayers. I think of you often.

[@kayleighjade1416]

Going through the exact same thing at the moment 🤍 So many more people struggle to fall pregnant than we realise, I think you only become fully aware of those around who have been trying once you start trying yourself. It’s a difficult journey, don’t let people tell you that your faith and trust in the Lord means that you can’t feel every emotion that you are experiencing. We are only human. God knows the desires of our hearts and he sees our pain. He doesn’t look down on our deepest hurts, he understands. He just also knows the outcome 🤍 So we can trust that his plan for our lives is good. Prayers and baby dust to you 🤍

[@ericaisblessed5]

I’m praying for the best for you & your husband 💖

[@maddielinch2046]

I think the hardest thing for me when we were trying to conceive was reading Bible verses about how children were a blessing and a good thing and knowing God desires Christian couples to have godly children for him. So in my head I felt like God owed me children and I felt let down. But what helped me get through it was to remind myself that God never specifically promised me children of my own and that either He had something else for me, or He was just having me learn to wait on Him. Either way your journey goes, just know that God DOES hear you. He does not condemn you for feeling doubt or grief or worry, rather He is patiently desiring to give toy comfort and hope. Praying for you!

[@karagrace643]

Thank you for sharing these videos. I want to get pregnant in a few years and it’s inspiring to watch other people’s journeys. I appreciate you and Kyle and I’m praying for you and your future babies 💛

[@krista1234monkeys]

I’m so very sorry for your loss! If I may lovingly suggest the book, Supernatural Childbirth. It will change your spiritual walk and help you in your future endeavors for a little one! It’s about claiming God’s promises! There have been thousands of couples who have had Supernatural Childbirths as they claim His promises! Much blessings to you both!

[@rosettabyler3383]

I’m so sorry you are going through this. Kian, have you had a hormonal blood panel done? The brown spotting before a period can be a big indicator of low progesterone. I use progesterone cream from Amazon made from yams and also take Maca root from Macafam. Both products are very inexpensive. Macafam is great for overall hormonal health and aiding fertility. I have a couple personal stories of women in my local community using the Maca root. I recommend for any women dealing with PMS symptoms, and infertility. Praying you gain answers very soon and that the Lord would give you both strength throughout this journey. Stay positive. Keep your supplements to minimal. Full blood work and saliva testing is a great start if you haven’t already done so.

[@rosettabyler3383]

I also want to add, Maca root is safe during pregnancy. If you do struggle with low progesterone Maca root will be great support during your first trimester as the first 12 weeks your body uses it’s own storage of progesterone. At 12 weeks the placenta starts making progesterone. Another reason why some pregnancies are lost in the first trimester due to insufficient progesterone levels to maintain the pregnancy. Optimal progesterone level will also greatly decrease morning sickness symptoms.

[@Rissa98000000]

We started TTC in October. It’s only been a few months but it has been such a daunting journey. We are trusting in God through it all. And I believe He told me to go to a naturopathic doctor to get my hormones checked. Still trusting in God, praying for peace, and healing.

[@gracemercy656]

May I suggest something that worked for me. Myo-Inositol & D-Chiro Inositol. It helps with the quality of the egg. May the Lord grant you the desires of your heart!

[@PanicAtTheDisco0011]

I was going to comment the same thing! Glad to see someone mentioned this.

[@DaniiVasco]

Hi Kian, may God bless you and your family with patience to understand his timing and make of this time something to enjoy rather than to worry about. I see I you speech a strong necessity of being example for your family here in KZbin or being that amazing history to tell. For this I ask god to give you wisdom to understand that being a human being believing in him through at it all, it is already an amazing history. Enjoy your process and be aware that those that watch your videos only want you to be the happiest human been. Removing that from you mindset will be helpful to enjoy the ride even more. A huge hug and my best wishes 😍

[@kylewolfgang]

So proud of you for sharing ❤ love you!

[@Kian_Wolfgang]

Love you babe 🤍🤍🤍🤍

[@suzique6924]

My daughter in law took, per her gynecologist, Myo-inositol which if you research is used by people with PCOS as well as others trying to get hormone balance. After months of trying she got pregnant the same month she started taking this. We got it off Amazon after research brands. I’m not saying it made her get pregnant but…it could get your hormones in check. Has folic acid so once you get pregnant I’d stop taking it since folic acid will be in you natal vitamins

[@suzique6924]

Also speaking as a grandmother and as a mother of 4 adult children, my very first pregnancy was a miscarriage. I just looked it up, 1 in 4 first pregnancies are miscarriages. Some women don’t know they had a miscarriage but that’s the stats I read. So I will all be ok I can promise you.

[@zareakirby7991]

Hello Kian. Praying for you! I love you. Stay encouraged.

[@amandamills9741]

Have you heard about trying to take mucinex? A lot of women have had success with that. Sending you love and prayers on your ttc journey. ❤

[@sinothandosirunu]

Thank you so much for sharing your journey Kian. This is informative ♥️

[@neichalyflores620]

You’ll be in my prayers :)

[@amygiommetti1661]

Prayers for you love you guys

[@r.m5883]

i mentioned you before to check your thyroid on another video… i can see it is enlarged. I have hashi’s and it’s super common. I believe you can get pregnant, thyroid is healable! God bless

[@r.m5883]

But for all we know, you could b preggers rn😎🙏🏻

[@FairlightChristianna1Cor318]

Thyroid is definitely a factor for fertility struggles.

[@toripritts]

Wait, so does that mean you’re pregnant 🥹🥹 ( around 14:15 ) Praying for you!!

[@jasmine3512]

I’m wondering the same! This is from around her birthday, I think October

[@FairlightChristianna1Cor318]

You can change your Ovarian Reserve?!?? Mine is low too.

[@tashansofwa2426]

No you cannot. You are born with all the eggs you will ever have as a female. You can improve your egg quality which is important in getting pregnant, but you cannot increase your egg count.

[@Alexa-qn6ke]

You cannot increase your eggs unfortunately but you can improve your health in such a way that it increases your chances of getting pregnant even with a low ovarian reserve.

[@Jess-vp2wy]

Hi Kian, I would suggest to do a full blood test it could be that your body is out of whack and you msg need some simple supplements or progesterone or something.. ( I took prenatal for 3 months and iron and I got pregnant) I was a little out of whack, but it worked. I keep praying for you ❤ I know it will happen 🙏💕

[@kita3256]

I’m Confused. This was in October… why so long ago?

[@DaniqueMiddelberg]

Off topic but I just heard you say your birthday is on October 13th and I got so excited because so is mine!!! ❤

[@lifeassaraa9967]

Your midwife is a RARE find! The Lords gift to you!❤️❤️ I had a horrible Doctor!!

[@siebelinkshenanigans1652]

If you don’t mind me asking how much was that fertility test and how much is a midwife? And can I get one while ttc?

[@Believe_Jesus9]

Hi always cheeeing for you kian mamas 🙏🏼😃👏✌🏼💗

[@sher-sasha9817]

Hansome looking back at Kian after she set him down 4:36 😄

[@christinefox9075]

You both need to relax and not try so hard. Take a relaxing vacation and forget about all the efforts. The stress alone may postpone your concievement. God knows exactly what He's doing in your life. Relax and enjoy what you have and God will bless you beyond your expectations 🙏

[@buffyvampire7814]

u can still have ur period . my mother did her whole pregnancy. it happens. to certain people. go to a clinic and get it final

[@Emily-pm5gr]

I'm not a health consultant of any form but you may want to look into the benefits of iodine for very healthy pregnancy and intelligence of babies. And heals thyroid. Just felt the need to share...again not a health person but dr Brownstein and dr.. Darren Schmidt and so many others talk about this. Anyway, please disregard if this is not helpful. Wishing you the best beautiful pregnancies in your life!

[@angiem7725]

Does anyone know how old she is? I’m starting to get worried cause I’m 34 and single and if she looks so young I think maybe I may also have trouble conceiving in the future? I know where all differed but I’m just wondering…

[@heather6404]

I think Kian is around 28

[@lilivinnik4944]

❤️🙏

[@arthemis_edits]

what's the music in your intro? edit: i found it kzbin.info/www/bejne/bXaalYiugKmed7M

[@mathewchristmas7187]

hi kian how is your health today

[@MartinD9999]

Adoption. Eliminate the disappointments and costs and issues and just adopt.

[@Awayyybbcare]

prayer prayer fasting fasting together .. sending love and prayer your guys way! i too desire for a baby and husband, trust in Jesus

[@Angela-cv1sh]

Hi Kian, love your channel and always wishing you the best. Just wanted to say that midwives are not doctors so please avoid using these interchangeably as it's creating confusion

[@hannahann6219]

We have a God who abides with us in the highs and lows of life. Our God is a HEALER (Exodus 15:26). In whatever your story looks like or anyone else’s story, He is our healer and He will not change that ever. Of course I don’t know what God is doing in your journey at this moment, but in any pains of life I pray you always remember that.❤️

[@colleenrichardson5339]

Hey girl, I don’t know if you have heard this before, but the FLO app isn’t very accurate. I’ve heard it’s like 20% accurate for some women, but not everyone. I’ve definitely found this to be true. The days it tells me I’m ovulating, I know I am definitely not.

[@eringill3251]

Is your midwife a doctor ?

[@Angela-cv1sh]

midwives are not doctors

[@eringill3251]

@@Angela-cv1sh I definitely agree. I wanted to see if she could clarify what she means since she seems to be using them interchangeably

[@christinac4247]

Kian, I hope you read this comment... It sounds like you have a really supportive and amazing midwife, thanks be to God! Is she by any chance NaPro certified? If she's not, I want to encourage you to share this Information with her, and I would encourage you to learn for yourself, too. It's an approach to gynecologic health and fertility that is Christ centered, but also very much focusing on your body's specific circumstances(hormone levels, other gynecologic issues) It harnesses the power of the Creighton Model of fertility charting(tracking cervical mucus) and was invented by some top notch doctors and surgeons who have invested their life into this. I promise I'm not a saleswoman lol , just a fellow sister in Christ, with similar struggles. I wanted to share this because it took me a long time to find something like this and I think it can greatly benefit you and your midwife! Please feel free to reach out if you have any questions about it, I can point you in the right direction! God bless you!

[@SJ-um2ym]

Don’t worry, bitterness and resentment is a natural emotion. You are disappointed and that’s ok. I had a miscarriage my first pregnancy (in my 20’s) that was devastating. Keep in mind that your egg count being low could be because you are naturally a double ovulated. You use more eggs every period because each ovary is releasing an egg most months instead of just one. I’m one and my count was low but, that means that you are more likely to have twins! I conceived fraternal twins naturally in my mid 30’s. Your time will come I know it. Remember to relax and enjoy life and the beautiful pleasures of both of your bodies (I know not my business). Just know (gah, do I say this?) that female climax tends to lead to a higher incidence of pregnancy. Pardon me, still not my business just totally unsolicited advice. I can only speak to what my experience and research has taught me. Don’t focus on the goal as much as the process. Also, check out the beautiful photos of the explosion of light that happens when an egg is fertilized (all over google). That is a magnificent thing to visualize.

[@ND-bv2ke]

Please see the videos by Nerida Walker link below on Gods Covenant of fruitfulness and how to walk by Faith in Jesus finished work.I have a similar journey and through Gods Grace and Faith conceived after a 13 years…Nothing is impossible with God …

[@RemainingFaithful]

I’m curious why people want kids. I’m 27 and have no desire

[@r.m5883]

Get your hormones checked! Could be something wrong internally

[@samanthachiwashira2942]

Everyone is different to be honest. Not everyone wants to go to university, have pets and even children. I do understand why people want children and I understand why some have no desire for it. Different strokes for different folks

[@Jess-vp2wy]

And that’s fine. I got friends who have no kids, I don’t want any pets .. I couldn’t think of anything worse lol ( got 3 girls though ) they are so amazing ❤

[@gamewarden2813]

Maybe God has not called you to be a parent, Sometimes God calls us into singleness in our lives or kidlessness, in that case God might have a different and special plan for you!

[@gamewarden2813]

To answer your question, I want kids so I can have a family of my own, share the love of Jesus with them, show them the beauty of the world, and have family to share my overflowing live with, etc

[@Louise-jl2eh]

Totally get about invalidating your own feelings because you feel others have it worse 🤍 I am going through the same struggle with health issues