What Abuse Does To Your Brain

[@Psych2go]

As November comes to an end, how’s everyone feeling lately?

[@Tallysalad]

Good

[@oxMiLox]

Very tiring 😞😩😪

[@StillInThevoid]

Sad :(

[@stashahermosillo1700]

Tired but I'm ok

[@Zamasu-f9w]

depressed

[@OperatorRekohu]

it’s really super strange how it’s always the good/innocent people are the ones who suffer the most abuse……

[@AlternativeHomesteading]

Narcissists an psychopaths attract good people.

[@OperatorRekohu]

@@AlternativeHomesteading Yea, that could be since on the surface they come off as just normal people but once u start to know them it just goes downhill from there

[@lugburz-shak4629]

No God loves us, for the darkest crusade of the greater evil.

[@Let_me_get_a_name.-_-]

Its because they're good? Its not strange its super obvious that they're abused because they're good, evil people won't even think twice fighting back

[@OperatorRekohu]

@ exactly, I’m just saying its strange for sarcasm :/

[@magentapyramid9245]

"If you're the victim of abuse.....do not hesitate to reach out to loved ones...." I hate to break it to you .... but that's what got me here in the first place.

[@jon2679]

@@magentapyramid9245 hard when its "loved ones" who are the abusers. One of mine actually told me once its dangerous when a narcissist has a psychology degree which she has i didn't realize she meant herself.

[@music0cool]

What loved ones lol, dont have any

[@partyanimal9382]

​​​@@jon2679 That's why you don’t ever mix family in your mental health journey when they are a therapist or a have a degree involving the mind because it causes an imbalance of power and hinders your healing. The separation of family and mental health is very important when they have been apart of the abuse or not supportive of your well-being or growth, similar to your situation.

[@gemmadoyle3926]

Same

[@jon2679]

@partyanimal9382 I've learned

[@AC-ni4gt]

"The axe forgets but the tree remembers". It's terrifying how abuse can screw you over and leave you in a closed and fixed mindset.

[@YeahIDontKn0wEither]

And some victims take it to the grave...

[@sabrinasabrina-w8t]

Dude I wish people didn't abuse each other 😭

[@brid1674]

world has every type of stuff

[@sorachi8788]

War breeds War.. The abused becomes the abuser, however the cycle of hatred ends with you 🫶🏼

[@zetristan4525]

It's so incredibly arrogant to abuse another person! An obsession with power dynamics.

[@Jetsparx373]

​@@zetristan4525 it's all about having power.

[@zetristan4525]

@@Jetsparx373 I could never indulge in this personally. Surely the other person's inner being matters, in itself. Surely my own healthy inner experiencing matters too. Treating the other as a role-player is too short-sighted...🌌

[@NarcSurvivor]

Abuse rewires your brain. When you are being abused, your brain becomes like a sponge and you begin to learn things from your abuser. You may even begin to develop similar traits. Because this is being taught to you. Many abusers justify their behaviour. They will make you believe that it is acceptable. Some can be influential or charismatic. So this behaviour may begin to rub off on you. But at your core, you are still you. You just need to unlearn what was taught to you. While they may need to start again from the beginning. Which is why they will learn positive traits from you and mimic them in front of other people. Because they learned the wrong things. Many of them have an arrested development. They’re not fully developed humans.

[@Ela_Horselover_Forever]

Agree tho :(

[@dantemendizabal675]

I struggle with the adult life because of what I lived as a kid. I am fucked up and no one cares

[@NarcSurvivor]

@@dantemendizabal675 You're not f'd up. You have self-awareness. You recognise that something is wrong, which means that you can change it. You can heal from the trauma. You can process the emotions and rewire your brain. You can become better than who you were before you experienced abuse. In November 2017, I was suicidal. In August 2018, I created my first video on KZbin. By January 2019 I was already monetised. August 2019, I had 30,000 subscribers. May 2021, I had 100,000 subscribers. You can do anything. It all begins by believing in yourself and cutting off negative people.

[@lelak335]

That's true. Do you know that brains fully rested shows more empathy than a tired one? It tells how your brain actually function really well and not the abusers. They're functioning with a tired brain :p

[@lelak335]

@NarcSurvivor What is your chanel?

[@Chickeninmytortilla]

I was a victim of extreme physical, verbal and psychological violence and this video helped me understand more of how my brain may work due to my experiences. Many people in my life make fun of me for many things related to my trauma (fear of relationships, awful memory, having hard time being myself, apologizing a lot and being quiet) which sucks

[@Psych2go]

I’m so sorry for the pain you’ve endured and for how others have treated you-it’s not fair, and you don’t deserve that. The effects of trauma are real and valid, and it takes incredible strength to acknowledge and navigate them. Please know that your healing journey is yours, and it’s okay to set boundaries with people who don’t respect that. You deserve kindness, understanding, and support as you move forward. 💛 You're not alone in this.

[@adammieth7843]

I've been going through this nonsense my whole life buts it's funny how when your in your darkest hour it shows your true character ever since that day a couple months ago my mental health is improving and I now have the resources to get of very bad situation so I don't really know what that experience us going to be like honestly

[@adammieth7843]

When I'm free of the negativy

[@rhiannalopez3805]

I went through that and still am going through some of it but I’ve healed a lot and realized that the brain is a great muscle and once you feed it more love and positivity it becomes stronger and easier to control. Once that happens you have real control of you reality. It becomes more balanced and you start to forget the meaning you give the abuse which is subconsciously happening, instead of hiding and emotionally rejecting any type of goodness you are more open and able to receive all types of blessings

[@maymounax]

You're not alone and of course it's not your fault. I'm sure that you have the ability to heal a connect witg yourself again my luv❤

[@user7-o9w]

I struggle with severe anxiety, major depression and PTSD, as a result of all the trauma in my past, and hearing about how trauma affects the brain makes me realize I’m not broken, I’ve just been through things that changed me. Having gone through a toxic environment at home, I was always on edge, waiting for something bad to happen, and I think my brain just got stuck in that mode. Even now, as an adult, I feel like I’m constantly in fight or flight mode, even when there’s nothing threatening me.

[@nealwailing3870]

With you there...

[@BiggyJMac]

You aren't alone there. I have thought and acted way differently than anyone else. My brain is like a hamster on a wheel 99% of the time.

[@CreativeArtandEnergy]

I’ve been going through the same. It really exploded trying to go to college at 40.

[@Roughfacedgirl]

Me too it dawned on me it is living in survival mode

[@indyd9322]

Have you found anything that helps?

[@swordsnorchids1997]

I really hate how society abuses people carelessly and then blame the victims.. Like what in the hell that pisses me of..

[@elizabethwarman9028]

My Personal assistant will yell at me for spending money, then says she would have not yelled if I had not spend money.

[@kayleighdriessen]

Society has for some time now evolved more around hate or hate & exploitation under the guise of love (like handing out "cures" in the form of beauty-products to provide the citizens with the nessecities to fix their bodily flaws where there weren't nessecarily flaws to be found) than actual love/care for each other.

[@tutubism]

Those who do that display a lack of self-awareness or empathy. They have a habit of blaming others or project feelings of insecurity perhaps due to unresolved trauma & shame or guilt. It's important to practice communication. When things are bothering you. You should learn to open up or talk about it rather than staying silent & suppressing your feelings which will not do you any good in the long run if you want to maintain a strong & healthy relationship with people.

[@Seanus32]

This is it in a nutshell. I don't have a victim mentality but when someone really sets upon you and tries to rip you apart in all ways, am I to feel grateful for not having consented to it? It's on us to be settled within ourselves so that we don't trample on others.

[@elizabethwarman9028]

@Seanus32 my problem is I have a victim mentally. One of many things my Therapist and I will work on in 2025. Of course when my Personal assistant and husband stand in my Personal and yell at me about I don't appreciate them, and I am selfish. Of course God's sister Karma got them

[@A55a551n]

Timestamps 1). The brain under stress 0:33 2). Memory and learning 1:19 3). Emotional blunting 2:07 4). Emotional dysregulation 2:48 5). Impulsive decis-making 3:34 6). Depression and anxiety 4:32 Hope this helps you out. Hope you have a nice day. Sorry this is so late. 💙💙💙💙💙💙

[@bestaneierflott1195]

Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

[@BenjaminCanales-nn9gi]

Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!

[@peishancraken]

Steve_porss1 is the man , I share similar experiences with anxiety, depression, PTSD, and addiction. Psilocybin mushrooms have been a game-changer for me, aiding greatly in my recovery and sobriety.

[@Malaikamuskan-v5z]

I wish those were more easily accessible where I live. Microdosing was my next step for my husband. He's 59 & dealing with lots of mental health challenges, possible CTE & a TBI that put him in a coma for 8 days. Unfortunately, I had to get a TPO since he's 6'6, over 300 pounds, and showing violent behavior, constantly talking about harming others. He's aggressive. To anyone reading this, if you're familiar with BPD, is it common to have an obsession with violence?

[@BenjaminCanales-nn9gi]

Is he on instagram?

[@peishancraken]

Steve_porss1 is the man

[@-Wave-ol]

My girlfriend suffers from past abuse and still lives with the family that causes it, I've been doing my best to help her and find videos for her hoping that maybe by understanding it, it might help her heal. She is currently suffering from depression and bad intrusive thoughts as well. I long for the day I can get her out of her situation. Thank you for making videos like these, they really help me help her, and help her find herself. 💕

[@ADcrackerjack]

Get her to live with you. Although it’s not your responsibility.

[@-Wave-ol]

@@ADcrackerjack ​ That's the goal, we are both underage and she lives far away, we've been dating long distance for several months now. We've been trying to find a way to get her here sooner, but without her parents' permission our hands are tied.

[@BicGirl]

Can I just saying you doing this is so beautiful. I had a partner who’d never do anything like this for me whether it came to the abuse I went through or just learning about my health issues. So kudos to you. Sending lots of love to the both of you ❤

[@ADcrackerjack]

@@-Wave-ol get a job, both of you (if you don’t have one already), don’t drop school (if you both are studying) and keep the romance alive. Best to you two little fellas. Keep us posted.

[@Hyun_berrY-w3j]

Wow, you're very sweet. That's the biggest dream of all abuse victims , to have someone who loves you enough to help you and stay by your side. I pray and hope that you'll be able to get her out of such a situation and live happily together.

[@Lillyd6731]

I often have flashbacks of traumatic events and then I forget them a few hours or days later. It was only recently that I remembered 3 things and didn’t forget... as much as forgetting this stuff sucks, it’s also a lot easier to handle emotionally.

[@Ereh_the_potato]

I just had a trying day receiving a lot of insults from my parents and getting hit, it's really crazy to get this notification right after I wake up...

[@Psych2go]

I'm so sorry you're going through this-it takes so much strength to face something so difficult. Please remember that none of this is your fault, and you don’t deserve to be treated this way. If you can, reach out to someone you trust or a support service for help. You’re not alone, and there are people who care about your safety and well-being. 💛

[@Ereh_the_potato]

That's really sweet of you, but I can't talk about it sadly, It can put my parents in trouble and I've already gone to court because I had talked about it but I'm stuck between the fear of talking about it and the determination to protect myself, my parents put a lot of pressure on me not to "talk about it" or at least talk about it without making them blame for their actions

[@NotWeAreLoved]

@@Ereh_the_potatoyou should not have to worry about protecting them, they should be the ones protecting you and keeping you safe and happy. Please get help

[@FrankJared-ss5jz]

I completely understand where you're coming from dude, may a nonexistent celestial being bless you and wish you a merry existence. 😊

[@FrankJared-ss5jz]

Ereh the potato, I have similar issues to you, I personally struggle with depression, anxiety, panic attacks, low self esteem, and toxic shame. I envy your situation, for I would rather be in your shoes than mine. 😢

[@Hyun_berrY-w3j]

Oh my, Thank you for making a video on this topic. I feel like I've been abused both physically and emotionally by my parents, but because of their brainwashing, I often doubt myself. Nobody deserves violence. I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy.

[@GreysonAuctor]

I am in the same situation. You should keep in mind the DARVO tactics they use and it will be easier to realize they are actively manipulating you. You weren't the one who broke them, and you are not responsible for their feelings, no matter what they say. They're the ones who broke you, you're not at fault, especially if they incited reactive abuse.You don't owe them anything, and you are allowed to talk about your experiences. If they didn't want to seen in a bad light, they shouldn't have done. It's not your job to protect their reputation. DENY/DOWNPLAY your emotions and memory. Watch out for gaslighting and dissmissive statements. ATTACK/ANGER by using real or implied physical/verbal abuse threats to reassert dominace and power. If the above don't work they will resort to take the victim role projecting their motives on you. Thereby REVERSING VICTIM and OFFENDER. If anger directed at you stops working, they will switch to attacking themselves to distract and disoroent you. The reason they prey on your empathy is two fold, to gain a power over you in the form of guilt and secondly fish for validation to stroke their ego. Don't be mean but don't give it to their feigned self deprivation. That guilt you feel for possibly hurting them proves your kindness and innocence. An unapologetic abuser knows it will hurt others but doesn't care about morality in the face of reaching a goal. Saddly They will not accept responsibility because to do so would shatter their, fragile mask. But as cool of a comfort it is, I believe you. Thank you for coming to my ted talk lol

[@GreysonAuctor]

RE: You didn't ask to be born, but they bore you. Therefore, they have a moral responsibility to the basic physical and emotional needs. They may try and hurt you by saying you were an accident, but even in that case, you can reply, " I may be a mistake, but I'm your mistake, so you have to take responsibility."

[@Hyun_berrY-w3j]

@@GreysonAuctor Aww, Thank you for telling me such great words. I really wanted someone to tell me about the tactics of abusers. Thanks a BUNCH, and invite me again if you have any Ted talks lol. And stay safe!! 💓✨

[@GreysonAuctor]

@@Hyun_berrY-w3j 💕

[@gambitadamson1074]

As a survivor who's witnessed more abuse in his life than he should have, i don't think its possible to heal. "Broken beyond repair" is how i described it to my therapist.

[@Chandlerbing54]

Nothing is beyond repair my friend there are ways to heal the brain ,pls find them ❤

[@alexlovehall7796]

As a survivor myself, I know ima need to watch this. I just... need to get ready

[@master_of_krynn]

....?

[@zetristan4525]

Hope it went well... Trust yourself, step by step, despite any falls🤗💦🌱🦋

[@TimM-kz1vl]

Trying to master my anger from abuse has been the biggest hurdle in my life.

[@REBEKAHJOHNSON-lh6xh]

Sheesh. Yeah, I grew up with narcissistic abuse and I ended up in back to back to back toxic relationships with my mother, a “friend”, and a church. I still hold to my faith, but it’s been pretty lonely since. But being two (almost 3) years away from narc abuse, I have been SO much better off. But I can definitely still see the effects of the abuse on me.

[@kitkatmuncher20]

Tysm for making this no wonder I almost failed last year, I fell into depression, became suicidal, parents divorced, dad abused sister too, friends left me, i went insane, extreme stress because of abusive dad screaming at me blasting music at night, he crashed his car too drank too much, he got a heart attack 2 weeks ago and survived and idk why im telling this sry

[@Cookieloafres]

I’ve got bullied due to schizophrenia and I still have to hear my bullies in my head talking about how ugly I am. I get verbally abused and physically abused. I can see them hitting me it make me scared to be around people.

[@TheDirtyWork]

I'm so sorry. Nobody deserves that. My mom and her brother, who recently passed, are schizophrenic, and my uncle was ignored by the family. He had the BEST HEART. He had nothing but was the most generous. You are wonderful and brave!

[@xenaturner1244]

The comments i got still play on my mind, but I still believe I'm ugly and still feel dumb

[@TheDirtyWork]

@@xenaturner1244 i feel you. I was bullied at a young age and no matter how thin I get, my brain still tells me I'm fat, and my mind tells me I'm dumb (despite grades, scholarships, what other people tell me). In my experience, it takes a LOT of conscious effort to rewire your brain. WORTH IT. But I always have to be aware of how I'm talking to myself and if my feelings are "old tapes playing " or residual energy. There's SO much residual energy to release. Somatic exercises (check the Workout Witch) and yoga or shaking and dancing can help. Best wishes! You are lovable and capable! 💚💚💚

[@fivebooks8498]

@@xenaturner1244 I bet you aren’t ugly and neither is @cookieloafres.

[@victimofthiscruelworld967]

Same here and im Aspeger Autist Adult man ..eventhough i've already turned 28 this year but still when knowing that any case happened in my country where something like bullying especially in school..sometimes it triggers by some words that i heard or seen when reading book or even certain pictures and its like flashback in an instance ..either im in work or just in home doing something or even just laying down in bed and imagining or wondering about someone i consider as friend.. Really Hard for me to explain Further on why my brain are hardly to just simply forget it away in just few seconds I've still remember it was 13 years ago and i was in Middle school years where sometimes i got insulted, Ridiculed even sometimes get throwned and those bullies and their peers just Laughed at me making fun of me out of nowhere as im sort of laughing stock ...untill the school period had ended when i graduated from high school and try to enjoy my life for some through playing video games alot and frequent Masturbation..it went on untill i was 18 19 years old thats when im at the lowest point of life where i want commit suicide but eventually i dont dare to Long story till Few years later i try to find a Job but its tough when Autist like me Having an Interview.. that is why i still hard to get fixed job till today besides i never had a girlfriend either because i having some trust issue to make a Relation with anyone who i just new of knowing them besides i hardly to make enough eye contact when speaking to anyone even wtith my family.. Only last year i did social media detox for a week and Semen Retention keep myself away from doing masturbation for a month ..i managed but i failed to when i fell into Temptation .. Fast Forward in here I Tried to move on Completely and Totally and today i can honestly say im better than yesterday once i changed my diet and Abstain from Masturbation for 6 Month already..i rarely feel Suicidal and less angry issue I just Hope one day i will be able to Liberate myself away from all of this Negativity one day..

[@frutigerSora]

My dad has been abusing me ever since I was 4. Throughout the years, he has always justified his abuse and for years I thought being bruised was normal. I do these strange little things I can't really explain when I'm near him. I'm afraid of eating and even being in the same room as him. He always wonders why I don't talk to him, ask questions about life or anything in general, or even ask him to buy something for me. For some reason I do these little twitches whenever I'm talking to him, and he notices this and assumes that I did something wrong, he would always threaten to knock my teeth out, so whenever he talks to me, I have to actually focus on not making any sudden twitches while talking to him. I always isolate myself in my room, I want to rot in bed but he'll just abuse me because of it. I feel like he has control of me like I'm his puppet, he also watches me sometimes and I can see him in my peripheral and it makes me uncomfortable, I can't even smile without him making a big deal out of it. He always thinks I'm up to no good. I feel like I'll never escape this household, I feel like I'm in a prison. He just doesn't get me at all, all those years and he still doesn't know why I don't really connect with him. I'm not really scared of anyone else but him. I see everyone else with normal families and it makes me jealous and sad that mine is so dysfunctional. I wish I had a normal life but this is the reality I'm faced with. I try to escape reality with social media and it helps, but I always come back to reality. There's just so many horrible things he's done to me, I can't even tell anyone because he could get into serious trouble. I just want to move away and live my life in peace. I just had to get this off my chest

[@happilyevernever4289]

It's gonna be alright. You've already done half of the work by figuring out what the problem is and being honest with yourself. You even figured out what the solution is. That's amazing. Now stay focused on this goal. To move out and be ok with yourself. You can do it.

[@spoiledbrat3929]

Your situation is same as mine in the past, what made my life completely change was scientific thinking and science mindset which made me see the world from an entirely new perspective, it helped me with social anxiety and a lot of things because you start to understand the science behind it and how humans work and stuff and the actual fundamental reality of the universe. It's not like it changed my surroundings my family is still the same and behaving the same and I don't expect them to change because they way too negative and I will hate them forever for making me go through these things but I just simply care for more important stuff in my life now. You don't need to go much deeper in science like I did but still a scientific perspective might help and understanding human nature

[@frutigerSora]

@happilyevernever4289 tysm

[@frutigerSora]

@@spoiledbrat3929 I'm glad I'm not alone, I'll try seeing things with a scientific mindset.

[@Chandlerbing54]

Same as mine. ,we are not alone friend , ❤

[@bubbles-13613]

My parents abuse me a lot and I have had a history of sexual abuse too. I have had instances of my friends bullying me as a kid and bad self esteem... Yes I did get eating disorders and habits of SH. The fact that I try hard to study and keep up with my grades drains me up emotionally. I am unable to completely open up to anyone, this video definitely helped me, I would try to fix my mental health and seek more self care in the future. Thanks for reading

[@lisx3353]

The fact you're able to acknowledge the horrors you've faced is a huge step taken by you, and I'm so proud you were able to take this step already! Keep pushing forward my love, and if you ever come across difficulties, there are so many people that will help you out! You can do this! Stay strong

[@GabrielFujiwara43]

​@@lisx3353 went through the same thing, was sexually abused by a classmate back at 6, lost my grandma at 7 due to a stroke (she took care of me while my mom was working so I considered her my second mother) and no one did much helping me deal with the grief, all of that while being bullied until 11 or 12 when COVID hit. I got the eating disorders but my metabolism was faster than most other people so my parents never noticed, I started getting more explosive, and easier to explode in anger too. There's been some points where I would punch myself just from hatred and all of that stuff that I couldn't talk about. But knowing myself, probably I'll try to just not mind it since last time I went to psychologist, I felt like she didn't listen cause she would just do an "uhum" affirming noise and not talk about what I could do to fix those issues

[@katiewarren443]

You are a survivor. You have been through so much trauma. You are worthy of so much admiration.I hope you are able to break through and make a happy life for yourself . Sending you love dear soul. You are precious and deserving of love. ❤❤❤

[@Admit-Audacity]

Veteran of all types of abuse here. Cptsd. I cant work and my brain doesn’t work properly. I am a mum and I gained custody despite having A&D on top. I wish that healthy boundaries were taught in school. But parental abuse and suffering trauma in childhood makes it very hard to filter emotions and standards. What you learnt as a young child you accepted. This is part of the mess that creates your brain, leaving you-open to having few boundaries as an adult. So the cycle continues…. 😢

[@pavelescucristina4734]

How do you… i mean… how do you get a job? Because i can’t, i just…can’t keep a job more then 2 3 months… I know that i find only toxic jobs where people are treating each other horrible, narcissist, very toxic behavior, a lot of anger issues and stuff like that… And that only brings me back to…my childhood. The exact same picture that i can’t escape from. And don’t know how.

[@IslandLife273]

This makes so much sense now. I feel like this. On high alert every second of the day for years and years. Abuse from family, abuse from partners, abuse at work. Abuse everywhere. Then overwhelmed with feelings I can’t cope with. And yes, suicidal ideation, that is becoming not ideation but near reality. I’ve had enough. I can’t live like this. There is no help when I asked for years and I’ve given up asking. I just don’t want to live like this anymore.

[@MrsUzumaki]

I feel you, friend

[@UnlimitedFlyers]

As a survivor, I struggle with chronic PTSD, ruminating thoughts, paranoia and a constant fear that keeps me on edge but emotionally disregulates me. It interferes significantly when I meet new people. I hate that somewhere in the world, the people who did this to me are strolling without a care in the world; it makes me feel that the world is inherently unjust. Days like this exert a toll on me, because I have to really focus not falling into this abyssal trap while also digging myself out of the depression hole.

[@Steph-qz2ll]

There will be a judgement day and everyone will have to give a personal account as to why they accepted or denied Lord Jesus and whether they had repented before their last breath etc. No sins will be left unearthed or forgotten and our God is due back for justice. Cling to Him and feel comfort in knowing we will have judgement day ! 🙏❤

[@pikeflowed]

These people who walk around without " a care in the world " will feel Karmas wrath...there is no rest for the wicked.

[@Steph-qz2ll]

@@pikeflowedit will be from the reaping and sowing spoken of in the bible.

[@indyd9322]

It really does feel unfair that survivors have to experience so much. Wanting some form of justice, or at least protection from it happening again, is totally understandable. If you're a religious person, wondering why justice isn't being served yet can really try your faith. Finding other survivors helps. Knowing there are other people who understand it makes it a lot more bearable.

[@Galaxenro]

I suffered mental abuse for 1 year, got a break, and suffered for 6 more years in a row. This has had serious negative impacts on my mental health. Even though I’m a teenager and my hormones are crazy, I still think the abuse mainly caused my emotional instability. I’m always anxious, and I quite often feel empty or sad, but that’s not how I used to be. It’s very annoying to feel negative emotions almost constantly.

[@Higesgirl]

Suffered psychological and physical abuse through my school years as bullying. Longterm emotional, mental, and verbal abuse from my ex. I'm 30 and trying to get diagnosed. These videos really help point out signs. Thank you for making these videos. 💛

[@TheRealAmandaThomasson]

This made me tear up😢I love this channel🩷

[@zetristan4525]

With the voice of the real Amanda Silvera🤗🤗

[@Katastr0phic_Katicorn]

Please ALSO talk about neuroplasticity and that this can heal to a degree, that there's hope. Trauma is not our fault, and we can slowly take steps to healing it WITH a support system. I am missing big chunks of my memories and my emotional regulation is a constant effort, I have significant trust and abandonment wounds, AND I have healed a lot in a few years after acknowledging and working to them.❤ We were hurt, but there is hope.

[@ORProductionss]

Motivational Speech: If there is anyone out there giving their time to fulfill other people’s needs, I’d like to say to make sure you save some time for yourself. Know who you are, not who you’re supposed to please. Set the right boundaries so you don’t be taken advantage of. Most people struggle with this part because of what’s known as “Fawning,” where you appease others to avoid the fear of getting into a fight. I mean, what even are “boundaries”? What specific ones should I make? How do I know I won’t lose any friends/lovers or family members after this? Why am I like this…? Well, I can’t offer a definitive answer that correspond to any of those questions, but I do know that if you keep letting it get worse, you’ll lose yourself entirely. You will be who “this person” wants you to be, and make sure you stay that way. Your vulnerabilities will leave you exposed to harmful coping mechanisms, and maybe even death…But with the right amount of communication, action and understanding, you will be able to break free. Find your purpose in this life, and keep chasing it until you’ve got it! *I’ll see you in December…*

[@SandyCove143]

This is spot on. Thank you for calling this out. XOXO

[@ORProductionss]

@@SandyCove143 , You’re welcome! Btw, a specific date for what I meant by “I’ll see you in December…” is around New Year’s Eve. Around those days I will upload a motivational video on this channel to end the year with a bang and kickstart 2025! The more people know about this, the better chance we’ll have to make a difference to better the world!

[@josephlim-c8q]

Thank you so much for this video. It really hit home for me, as I’ve struggled with the effects of verbal and emotional abuse from my mother and physical abuse from my stepfather. Growing up, I hated myself and constantly criticized myself, hoping to prevent my mother from doing so. This video helped me understand how those experiences have shaped the way I think, feel, and relate to others, especially in terms of anxiety, trust issues, and emotional blunting. It’s comforting to know that the brain is adaptable and that healing is possible. Your message about seeking support and not blaming oneself really resonated with me. I’m still on my healing journey, but this video gave me a lot of hope. Thank you again for sharing this important information.

[@Psych2go]

Thank you so much for sharing your story-it takes so much courage to reflect on such difficult experiences. I’m so sorry for the pain you’ve endured, but it’s inspiring to see your strength and commitment to healing. You deserve all the compassion and support as you navigate this journey. It’s amazing that this video gave you hope-remember, every step forward, no matter how small, is progress. We’re rooting for you, and you’re not alone in this. 💛 The power of the brain is that it is indeed adaptable. We are resilient.

[@NynnaOnYT9]

i also suffer from not thinking clearly, everything of this video is relatable

[@LyrLight777]

1) no matter how hard, have the courage of not like by others 2) do seek help from therapist, or whatever that's needed 3) yes it looks years to heal, please don't give up, keep on seeking help, evolved, be you, genuinely you, I suffered from it until I was an adult for almost 30 yrs, now I'm healing from it all, only to find, I didn't need to be like any of the bullies, didn't need many friends but only those I need

[@Bellarina-e4e]

1:57 Sometimes, it’s the other way around. Your brain may not forget all bad stuff that happen.

[@TheresaTV1]

Yeah, I forget a lot of things, but most of the abuse I still remember 😭

[@Bellarina-e4e]

@ That’s also what happens to me. I don’t remember some details but the important ones

[@suenoamada]

True

[@mayyoongi5407]

I have been violently abused, physically, emotionally, and psychologically by my father from my birth to the age of 10. After that I developed a severe social anxiety and inability to feel, make friends, connect to others, have boundaries,.... I always stayed in this place of prey, always felt like others were bigger than me and could assault me in every moment. Today I am 20 and I finally started therapy, I understand after about 10 years that walking in the street could cause me a panic attack was not normal. Thank you for your video, it really helps. And I hope that all people who got through abuse finally heal from it, and can start to live, and not survive anymore 💞

[@jubie2216]

At 1:12 in the video, it explains exactly how I’ve been thinking about this. I have Tourette’s, and I believe it stems from my body’s inability to properly cope with stress signals stemming from abuse. Essentially, my body can't distinguish between stress and non-stress situations the way my brain can. As a result, it reacts with tics to cope-it’s stuck in a perpetual fight-or-flight mode, unable to regulate itself. Just like in other people's experiences with fight or flight, the body decides in that instant. Even when my brain tries to calm down or suppress the tics, it feels like my body has a mind of its own, likely shaped by years of trauma and abuse. To this day, I struggle after having been abused years ago. Even when my brain tries to override the tics in stressful situations, my body reacts uncontrollably, and the stress manifests physically. I remember one particular incident while watching an anime. There was an abusive scene, and it caused me to start vocal tics-which is unusual for me, as I mostly experience motor tics. I found myself screaming or yelling "STOP," as if my brain were begging my body to stop ticcing, but my body just wouldn’t listen. It was like my body was reacting on its own, completely disconnected from my conscious attempts to regain control. To stop at nothing so there would be no more harm to me. To stop being abused, or at the very least the feeling from all those years ago. Just thought I'd share :D

[@jubie2216]

My motor tics can happen at random moments; they’re not always tied to abuse-related triggers, but I believe it stems to how being abused affected my brain. For example, a sudden change in temperature, like going from cold to hot in an instant, can set them off. Typically, my motor tics range from my head tilting to the side or violently shaking as if saying "no" to more extreme movements, like my body throwing itself backward if I’m standing. The specific tics often vary depending on what I’m doing-whether I’m sitting, standing, or even driving.

[@the80sfanatic13]

I suffered with verbal, physical, emotional, psychological, financial, sexual, and narcissistic abuse. From my dad and my family. 😢 That was years ago. I'm no longer around those narcissists and toxic people. Amen. 🙏 I finally found peace 🕊️.

[@SirKingCora]

1:45 - If you have empathy than you'd understand why people would have a hard time remembering or reliving painful / traumatic memories. For you, you're hearing a story, for them, they're reliving their misery.

[@ibraheemmohammed5889]

I dont know if someone has said it in the comments already, but I really really need to emphasize: no matter how small it seems, if you think something might be qualified as abuse, IT IS ABUSE TO YOU. Abuse is not just physical, like belts and basements and slaps. Abuse is emotional, abuse is intellectual, abuse comes in many, MANY different forms. Please, do not think abuse is only for those in broken homes with drunken parents or rage-oholics. Abuse can come from loving, peaceful, even caring parents as well. It might not even come from family. Being scolded regularly for coming home late counts as abuse, being alienated from family or group discussions on purpose counts as abuse. Hell, even being side-eyed with a bad intention can count as abuse to some. So NEVER, EVER DISREGARD YOU AND YOUR PAIN AS TRIFLING. YOUR PAIN IS VALID, AND IT IS SIGNIFICANT. YOU MATTER, AND YOU DESERVE TO LIVE A LIFE THAT IS FREE FROM THE PAIN THAT YOU CARRY, NO MATTER HOW SMALL.

[@danae-rain3019]

Beautifully said. Many victims have "imposter syndrome" where despite overwhelming evidence they downplay the abuse and think I'm not a real victim like other people. But there will always be someone who had it worse but that doesn't discount what you went through and how it affects you.

[@Killua_Zoldyck3407]

That’s what everyone thinks abuse is that’s why I thought if I had a scar then maybe someone would believe me people always assume I’m talking about a father or an alcoholic or bruises I feel like women are a lot MORE abusive than men especially because they’re so emotional and dysfunctional they’re just so good at hiding the facts! It’s a lot more affective when it comes from the mother because she’s the one who gave birth to me in the first place

[@Killua_Zoldyck3407]

@@danae-rain3019I think my second oldest brother has that he was always the invisible child that no one payed attention to no one fussed or argued with him and he rarely got any corporal punishments like my oldest brother and I he just chilled in his room whenever he wanted I felt like he always got a free pass and it was easy for him at home the last time I ran away he picked me up and made me feel stupid for running away and he literally said, “I don’t know why you want to be so distant from your family they’re not that bad!” And then he said, “well my relationship with them isn’t like that anymore…we’re friends now!” Just like that…I feel like because he didn’t actually have it as bad as me he feels that way but he might’ve developed that syndrome…I don’t know! He judy doesn’t understand the extent of what I went through with my oldest brother…😓

[@lunalisexe3657]

My heart dropped the moment I saw the thumbnail

[@SamSpray-jg9hz]

Right triggering

[@3niko]

You just described who I am, it feels like. Maybe I didn't know it, but I guess abuse has really affected my mental health. Abuse has been running in my family for generations, it makes me happy that psych2go posted this video as I relate to it and I feel like it brings more awareness to one another's struggle.

[@toryberch]

Thank you for posting this as I now know why all my emotions shut down and am numb. It's been years since I could freely cry or feel sad 😢

[@kerstinmcnichol988]

Fantastic explained with the car break and gas paddle. This is still one of my recurring dreams, that I am driving in a car and the breaks don't work properly. After a decade of self therapy as I reached out for help and didn't get any, I'm now mentally in a very good place as I watched a lot of videos like yours for years and understood that it wasn't my fault. I even managed to regain blurred out memories. It wasn't easy but really helpful to go through the pain of facing those situations for the healing process. I'm so proud of myself and was able to assist my siblings with their healing as well. Thank you for your fantastic work. You really make a difference.❤❤❤❤

[@richardscathouse]

Adulting is hard. 😢

[@jgoodloe4986]

And that's when u retaliate when you're older, you give the abusers their own medicine, make them feel what it's like, same for those who enable it, sure therapy helps, but if the fear is still there then those abusers deserve no mercy, thats what I learned, now the ones who hurt me are suffering from their own terms

[@Psych2go]

It’s completely valid to feel anger and a desire for justice after enduring so much pain-your feelings matter. However, retaliation often keeps us tied to the hurt and pain caused by the abuser, while true healing comes from freeing ourselves from their control, emotionally and mentally. You’ve been strong enough to survive, and channeling that strength into building a life where their actions no longer define you can be the most empowering form of justice. How do you see your future beyond what they did to you? 💛

[@jgoodloe4986]

@Psych2go either being better than them, or showing what kind of little devil or monster they created that's better than them, plus the retaliation only happens when u can't take it anymore, guilt sets in when you truly feel like you messed up, BUT everyones opinions on this is different, but I was just saying what I felt for that I apologize if I made anyone uncomfortable with my words

[@Justacuriouslady]

What if it's physical abuse? I've had instance where I've been physically abused by family and if I were to give them a snarky comment on how they behave or how they act, they retaliate but I also do so back as self defense. Maybe it's a trauma response

[@jgoodloe4986]

@Justacuriouslady that's a good way to make them question their ways, especially making them feel so low, I like that, and yeah it's a self defense thing

[@BoostedPastime]

Thank you because I am in psychological pain every day and content like this really helps a lot.

[@LayAnn]

Holy crap u actually made sense of what I was not able to put into words. I shared this video with 2 people. 1 who I want to understand me so he can learn how to better love me, and the 2nd was with a friend who is right there in the boat with me too. Her and I have been through abuse, and I think it'll help us learn how to heal better.

[@MicroNeuron]

I remember when I was super young, I watched this silly video claiming that a toy could move on its own because of paranormal activity. The video said there was something inside it. Naturally, I asked my parents to buy it for me. When I cut it open to investigate, I found... nothing inside. It was broken so I threw it in the trash, knowing my parents wouldn’t be happy, especially since they just gave it to me for Christmas. When my dad found it, he slammed my head against the wall and yelled in my ear for what felt like forever. Then there was this other time. He tried talking to me, but I locked myself in my room because I was scared. When he couldn’t get in, he broke part of the door down. Afterward, he made me talk, even though I was panicking. Later, he twisted my words to make me look crazy. He called me a "moron." To him, mental health is just people making things up, and he genuinely believes that. He even says stuff like, "I have the right to hit you, but I stopped!" and "My parents hit me a lot, but I don’t!" I wish I was making this up. AND THEN, there was this other other time. My dad got depressed and we lost our house. We had to stay in hotels, then at campsites for a whole year. Eventually, my mom’s sister helped us out, and we finally moved into an apartment.

[@MicroNeuron]

I still live with him, and my parents have decided not to get me a therapist.

[@ellakramar1931]

Looks like we share the same dad. Mine is an autistic hoarder. Our house looked nice on the outside only, like a giant trash can..on the inside. My ex-boyfriend punched me in the nose once as an initiation into womenhood thing. Both of us were 13 at the time. He blamed me for it. He told me he was doing me a favor if I can't handle a nose bleed...how am I going to handle pain from sex in the future, etc...I told him he made good points back then

[@nasil_da]

Those going thru emotional abuse would try to neglect the fact that they were abused, they would somehow think that it's all their fault

[@tatianapellegrinelli]

5:21 the picture of the brain being cared for is so cute! And a great analogy too. Thank you for making this video, it has helped me and I'm sure that it will help many more people now and in the future!

[@kyaralugo6287]

Love you guys❤️ keep going and don’t give up 🫶🏻

[@Psych2go]

Thanks for the kind words. We will never give up and always make content and more :)

[@maytalacedo2942]

This wld explain why I cldnt concentrate or even have to remind myself every 30 minutes or 50 minutes the constant yelling and demanding my name every few seconds fucked up my childhood and cldnt functional verbal abuse from my parents. And because of that I cldnt move on or have a good decent dream job because that always holding me back.

[@Baroness73]

Thank you...healing my brain was the best Self Love act I have ever done. ❤ I appreciate you making this video! 🙏🧠✨️👁

[@ScarletFire13]

I keep reaching out, even telling others I'm in severe turmoil. I am continuously ignored, leaving me with no support systems whatsoever. I have even sought professional help, but was deterred there, as wel.

[@danae-rain3019]

It's devastating to just be dismissed. It seems to be on purpose.

[@Sonicfalcon16]

What i noticed the most is apologizing for the smallest things even if they were not my fault

[@AyaKira15]

Highly recommend the book "When The Body Says No" by Gabor Mate. It explains the various physical and psychological damages you can encounter while under severe stress.

[@puffurry8471]

Sounds very interesting, I'll definitely read it. Thanks for sharing :)

[@Boschtelix]

I can say, without help it's kinda hard to regenerate, I'm now over 40, I turned my experience to be overprotective towards other's, but I feel also some other symptoms u showed im that clip, especially memory issues here and there, and I learn faster by doing then studying.... It's a taff road, and I speak open about my experience, and my true friends know my road, so I know, no matter how dark it could be some days, I know there are someone what catch me before I fall.

[@HamdanAkram-m7b]

Hey, can you make more videos about SA? I think man people need it

[@DemiladeOladebo]

Is it SA when a person that is you g around d the age of 5-8 years old has intercourse with an adult (18-22 y/o) even tho the child didn't complain or found anything wrong with it at that time even tho its now traumatic to them like the child was always alone at home (their sibling ignored them)so the only person who payed them attention was d adult so she didn't mind but noe feels bad is that sexual assault?

[@3rosasnegras]

this video is wholesome 🥲

[@Laney2025]

Thank u I've never been thru abuse but this is amazing❤

[@Psych2go]

Thank you for watching and supporting! It means so much that you found value in the video, even if you haven’t experienced abuse. Your empathy and willingness to learn can help you support others who might need it. ❤

[@mybunnyfuzz]

When the external abuse stops some of us start abusing ourselves just to feel normal.

[@brandonb5394]

this video has been insanely helpful. thank you.

[@Alexlittle9]

This allows me to have more Grace and compassion for myself. Thank you❤

[@luludu4770]

As victim of verbal, psychological and physical abuse, this video hits hard. So hard that its right now a struggle to not throw my phone against a wall so hard it shatters or the dishes i just cleaned - my impulse control had to evolve to very high levels of effectiveness so I actually could grow up to be a functioning adult with quiet BPD (🎉yay) Nothing happened. Ill be careful now, do some selfcare and go to bed. But heck, you did a good job with this video. It explains very well how far reaching the consequences of their experienced trauma go and how much they are NOT at fault for having those. Keep making content :) ill try to not be too angry at myself at least for tonight

[@21_clancy]

I just wanted to thank you for making this video. I think that people need to be aware of the repercussions of a r*pe or any other kind of abuse. I would like to add that abuse could also bring us to drastically change our personality. Also, please, believe the victims; only 4% of the victims are lying, it worth the cost to believe us Stay safe, it could be anyone❤

[@jon2679]

I was gaslighted so badly the memories that i did remember i shrugged off as dreams and some of my memories only come up when a trigger brings them to the surface. It physically hurts to even think about them and people just watch and, laugh apparently i deserved it. I don't even have the energy to comprehensibly express what I want to.

[@FriederickKovacs77]

I once worked in a Banquets Hall. Very Toxic Workplace. A Male Co-Worker was ordering me around, telling me what do and demanding I do his work for him. When I said NO to him, he flew into a Rage, screamed filthy names at me, and tried too hit me. Two other male co-workers had to hold him back. When this was reported to HR, the HR Manager said I was too blame for his Rage because, in her view, "I should have "Helped" Him. I resigned with anxiety attacks that took a year to get over. Good Grief

[@AnnalieseArenivar]

I love how your videos can relate to people who are in need in help watching your videos has helped me through my journey to recovery

[@who4259]

I was diagnosed with bipolar & clinical depression & PTSD makes me extremely defensive. My emotions were all over the place until I shutdown, now I shut down more often than not. I used to hurt myself & I still constantly think about ending myself. It's hard cause I still love in the toxic environment that mental got me here, I at least got out of the physical environment. But it's still so hard, I feel like a failure for not being able to just get better & move on. My life feels like a cycle of anxiety, intrusive thoughts, bad decisions, depression & wanting to end my life.

[@corruptedcatnip9135]

I have been pretty severely abused but i know it made me a more compassionate person. I want to be a safe haven for people who feel like life doesn't make sense. I'm like an island of truth and rationality in a sea of craziness.

[@boogoodie]

This is me and my son. This is exactly how we feel after the abuse from his dad. Nothing we've tried can reverse what the abuse has done to our brains. It's been 22 years since we left him, yet we still struggle with PTSD, anxiety/panic disorder, depression and suicidal ideology. The professionals say we can be cured, but nothing works. I'm sick of fighting. I'm also sick of being judged for my mental health and not believed about my problems. So does my son. He's 25 and is always being judged for his mental health. People expect him to be working and don't understand that we both are afraid to leave the house. They can't see our illness, so they think it's not there. It's very debilitating.

[@leialuminous]

What's worse is that in a world so angry, no one seems to know what abuse is or see it as 'normal' and its so common place that psychiatrists and psychotherapists are heavily backed up, and they need their own therapists. It can create actual psychological disorders and a lot of people are just like 'eh, nothing wrong with that'.

[@Killua_Zoldyck3407]

That’s why I’m going to be a counselor…so I can show people that everyone is not like that and I can be different because I’ve experienced that with three of my counselors…the second one caused me to do self harm…and I don’t wish that upon anyone I know how crazy the system is and I want to make a difference

[@JustMiluna]

My main issue, and no matter how much I worked on myself, it's that somehow the sense of trust you have for others... it's gone. There's no turning back, at least for me. Even if on the surface I manage to look confident, secure of myself, now deepdown it's like having a open wound that isnt showing. I want to be "nornal" again, trust people, being able to construct bonds but I feel broken.

[@Er0s-jm2]

It's worse if your trauma keeps getting triggered by things, like how you we're abused😢

[@tierrahf7018]

Sad but relatable 😪 but very thankful for the time u guys take into making these videos.

[@natetoews2421]

A few years ago I was unfortunately the victim of gaslighting and I was being told that my parents didn’t care about me and I had to quit everything I did and I was better off without my parents and friends and because I was told not to tell anyone about it was so uneasy and a couple of years ago I started to picture myself walking on a narrow path and the rocks were falling and I stopped and walked back and said there is something fishy going on here and I finally told my parents about what I had been through and I am now on the road to recovery and I see a psychiatrist regularly and I feel a lot better now I got my toxic situation out there and the gaslighter is living a life of hell instead of me

[@ChickpeatheTortie]

I got diagnosed with 'impaired learning ability' many years ago. When I asked what caused it the shrink told me "childhood trauma" and it has affected my whole godforesaken life - I've just turned 70 and when I look back on it all I wish that I never had been - spent the last 53 years zoned out on high levels of anti-depressants :-(

[@kittycigs1531]

the second step is looking from an objective point of view and reflect on our own toughts as if they arent ours, it gest easier in time.. it unlocks hidden messajes from the subconcious mind and help you geal your inner child by lisening to yourself and giving yourself the right type of closure ........slowly i dunno if i explaind well but thats something ive been doing that helped me in my dark phase

[@kittycigs1531]

help you heal*

[@THANATOS-PRIME]

Abuse, a mighty lion enough and eventually he’ll think and feel like he’s a scared little kitten. While there was some physical abuse, It was mostly mental that just annihilated self-confidence growing up. The thing I tell myself though is, I’m not my trauma. I’m a a much more stronger and confident and more importantly whole human being. I know I’m not everybody’s cup of tea, but I’m myself and that’s what matters. I stumble I fall; I’m only human.

[@martellus836]

I struggled a lot through my childhood and teens, I was bullied in school by both students and by my teachers and whenever i came home i was a lot of times either put down or beaten by my brother who is nine years older than me. mind you all this happened at the same time and went on for many years. Things got better when we moved to a different town and I got into high school but my brother still lived at home and continued to abuse me. It was a huge relief when he moved out and i didn't have to see him as often. safe to say my confidence wasn't the best and it didn't make it easier for me to make friends, which made me stay at home and miss out on a lot of things. Im 27 now and struggling with Anxiety and flashbacks.

[@THISJUSTTHEWAYIAM773]

At this point, I keep watching because I love her voice. It’s calming and soothing. 😅

[@MizzNee796]

this makes A LOT of sense. i believe that I was emotionally abused for the better part of my life. SMH

[@suddenlycrows]

Mixed anxiety/depression diagnosis, possible adhd. Was a survivor of severe emotional abuse from my grandfather and an ex. I'm a narc magnet apparently. Am in a better place now at least with healthier relationships.

[@Moon.Liberty]

In our suffering we can grow stronger no matter how much we are beaten down and even if it looks like there's no way out we have a choice if the situation allows it or if you decide to take matters into your own hands and escape or ask for help. It's not always easy but it is possible if you have the right guidance. Those who have the same experiences (the same suffering) can relate and and not feel so alone in a world that doesn't understand or care to see the affects it has on you. Most of the time we have no knowledge of the world because we are so young and grow up thinking our situation is normal but there is always an opportunity somewhere whether in the future or here and now to do what's right and wrong. It's hard to stand up for yourself when you're a child that's why so many can't wait to become adults so they can stand up against their abusers and finally have the freedom they never had under evil's control. I lost a brother to the evil that was behind closed doors and I had to escape before I ended up like him so anyone who is suffering in silence I urge you to speak up no matter how many people tell you, "you're looking for attention,"or that "there's no way your abusers are hurting you," they don't know what you're going through only you and those suffering with you know what's going on so please scream, talk to everyone willing to listen, and write it down and send the letter. Do whatever you can to get help and be saved.

[@TarkMcCoy]

They always say "it's not your fault." What if it IS? What if you were such a damaged kid due to autism that you responded to the bids for friendship (that often come as shit tests) violently? I realize now that their rejection was necessary to prevent someone who in the end would have been a disruptive influence from getting in. After a while you learn that alone is better.

[@carlhenry6223]

I was wondering why I had memory problems recently - I had no idea it could be this!

[@ÆtherealMIndset]

It's insane how much you have to experience until you finally feel like it's ok to watch videos like these. Even the algorithm will flood you with videos that will make you second guess your worth as you start watching these. I'm just having a lot of trouble right now and it's really hard to put it into words that don't make people worried and angry with me. I understand why. I don't want to bother people too much. It's not their fault but is being transparent like I am even worth it anymore? It seems like it's just drawing the same people back in over and over again and bringing the same memories back to light. I don't want to have to look over my shoulder anymore. I haven't fought in war. Why am I constantly on edge? I can't even hardly talk to people anymore because the fear that I am doing anything that could potentially inconvenience them or drain their energy, even a little bit is so terrifying to me right now. I'm hyper aware of literally everything and I can't think linearly anymore because I am stuck in anticipation, like I am constantly in the way, ruining someone's day, pushing people to their breaking point, and quite literally ruining their lives. I've pretty much completely isolated myself at this point. I'm so afraid to do anything with anybody because I can't for the life of me look at myself with any respect. I have no skeletons in my closet but I feel like I have everything to be guilty for constantly. I can't even make new friends because when people see me, they think "damaged goods" because I am so tightly wound in layers of thought. If I keep my mouth shut and words to myself, I freeze in the overload and am a complete and utter waste of space, but if I speak, I just make people feel insecure. I have no money anymore. No job. Even old friends from before I literally failed everyone who ever taught me anything about life don't want anything to do with me. Therapists talk to me like I am a complete drain on them, cause I honestly am. I am so stuck in trying to map out my emotions, the existential ideas that used to torment me are comforting. I'm really failing as a man and a human being right now because I can't just be a normal, intelligent, and focused human being. I'm not mad at anyone and I can't even find anything to be mad at. I'm just constantly on the verge of tears now. I just wish I could have done better when I had the resources I used to. Before I started messing up, over and over and over again. Even the people I love the most are apt to talk me into just keeping it all to myself or some of them are just straight up ignoring me and I get it, I just need them really badly right now. I just need something that feels like a personal and real connection. Someone I can spend every moment of my life doing everything I can to keep safe, happy, and successful. That's the only thing I can think of anymore but I keep dropping the ball on that constantly. Am I a bad person to feel this way and to come here to write this?

[@IanScruggs-ln6no]

Good on the outside, but depressed on the inside. I just have a deep hatred for myself because I don’t deserve anything and I’m too afraid to speak to my friends about it.

[@glassmunch]

thank you, it was helpful

[@azucar_skull]

it's ironic this video was uploaded today. today marks 1 full year of escaping my abusers. i distracted myself by making a complicated dish that took all day to make. pozole. it's my favorite dish actually and this is the first time i made it by myself. instead of last year where i was cold and empty, right now i am warm and full. but that doesn't mean today was a great day or an easy day. it took all my efforts to go to the store and buy the ingredients, having to flee back to the car to calm down from a panic attack. twice. but i got home and made the soup, even went back for seconds. maybe next year i can make puerquitos, my favorite dessert.

[@puffurry8471]

That's so sweet! I'm so happy for you^^ ❤

[@AmandaLove-mu7us]

I feel bad for all the people who experienced this pain and then history repeats itself.

[@laurenl720]

Thanks for posting. ❤

[@Sora-wo4oe]

My nightmares, stress, anxiety and depression really messed me up. I've been blamed for things I never did and would get punished for them, my memory is really bad or is it? I don't know, some times I can prove I'm right and others I'm blamed for false memories and I would feel bad for accusing or getting emotional over them. Depression knocks me out so I'm sleeping all the time no energy to do anything, and what's worse about me, I always self blame and shame myself for no being a better person. I overreact over small things like interactions or forgetting. Last I'm always apologizing, even when something is put of my control like an allergic reaction, I'll feel bad for asking a ride to the ER constantly saying sorry for the inconvenience taking up someone else's time. Sorry for the long rant this is the result of abuse I grew up with and still dealing with today, no a fun rollercoaster.

[@isaiahates9533]

I'm 16 this helps me understand where the issue is but how do I fix it I have been abused by my parents but I still love them but that not the problem I just don't want to feel depressed and hate myself anymore and no offense to those that take the medicine but I don't want to take that stuff because I can't take those forever and if I have to take medicine to not feel depressed or upset when people compliment me id rather just end it now so I come here today asking what now what do I do please anyone just point me in the right direction to go witch answer is for me what do I listen to where do I go just tell me what to do and I'll do it

[@terriharvey1053]

Processing your trauma is essential. Negative emotions are attached to your chakras. You have to clear them. KZbin has tons of videos that help as well as music with different frequencies to help heal. God bless❤

[@russellcollins4291]

The abuse cycle is proof that 'pay it forward' works. If we could do it more with positive energy we'd be much better off. 😊

[@bricundiff1003]

I have BPD... I felt this

[@anuruksuriyaarachchi3988]

Have you also engaged in violent media. I did somehow, it's not BPD but the conditions are very similar.

[@conradsieber7883]

I would just be careful about using terms like "damage" when referring to effects on the brain as I think people may understand this as meaning irreversible. Neuroplasticity does allow for recovery even when trauma leads to negative effects on the brain. The other challenge is summarizing research on groups of patients while cautioning this doesn't mean any one individual's brain will respond the same way...

[@16cellito]

I never thought I could cry so much in such a short video... but the cute brain being healed made me stop crying at least...

[@kimlmaojirina58]

The little mascot in the video had me in tears I wanna give them a hug😭