What is Sexual Orientation OCD? All you need to know.

[@bryanyarrington5792]

It’s the worst one, the most horrible of all the disorders and obsessions

[@tanishaanag541]

I get it.. I'm dealing with this right now... trust me it will be okay...God is with us

[@dacariwhitehead7971]

Most definitely the worst one ian never thought like this and I hate it I always liked girls ion know what these thoughts in my head is but I pray on my soul and brain it goes away

[@AB-zq4fw]

Until your next obsession sets in.

[@christinesvideos]

I agree with this. I’m in a relationship with a male and constantly think I’m lesbian. I even catch myself looking at girls and thinking that’s what you want… I read up online about sexual orientation OCD and then suddenly know I have it. Some days are worse than others = it’s horrid!

[@bryanyarrington5792]

@@christinesvideos I actually forced myself to try to have sex with a guy in hopes the thoughts would stop I did it against my own will in hopes it would just go away this is beyond horrible and miserable I am also in a relationship and am married I have been thru noting but hell since I was 15 with this I am 36 now, sometimes it goes away but I had a incident where someone had accused me of just being gay, I am not bi nor gay. I am straight but miserable. I pray to gods soul my children don’t get this illness.

[@chiaralopriore3181]

I think one of the worse parts is that having OCD makes you doubt the fact that you might have it. I have most of these symptoms, but I can't understand if I have this or I'm just in denial. I might focus on one specific detail of what he said and think "what if this wasn't me? What if I'm actually a lesbian and just don't want to accept it?" even though I've never liked a girl irl, and my sexual attraction is kind of a mistery to me.

[@hassanraza2457]

You are damn right it sucks only doubt causes the problem

[@بسنیق]

Exactly feel the same and just im realizing that its just a stupid thought, but makes me feel so down when thoughts conquer my mind.

[@bryanyarrington5792]

I had it or have it and it’s sad 😞 very very sad you feel worthless you loose your sex drive feels like you loose everything even yourself

[@vivansharmam4028]

How are you now??

[@dylanjm_2986]

@@vivansharmam4028do you have it also because like 3-4 months ago it started and I know in my heart I’m attracted to females but on the daily basis I feel like I lust men and it’s really hard iv had thoughts of ending my life just to make it stop

[@cobrajuicetin]

Its so bad....I even thinking about liking it and it feels real as hell.... I was straight my whole life and now a doubt it..

[@Devi92xx]

Sameee. How are you now?

[@Nicolas14215]

@@Devi92xx Same here, I had thought about sucking and now I feel like the only way to get out of this it's actually try to prove I don't like it

[@herlismilee360]

@@Nicolas14215 no. Being aware of what ur going through and learning about it helps. Talk therapy is an easy step because you can choose whoever to talk to. Maybe get prescribed medication for the brain chemical imbalances.

[@Nicolas14215]

@@herlismilee360 Did You suffer from HOCD?

[@herlismilee360]

@@Nicolas14215 a long time ago.

[@Nicolas14215]

A part from groinal can you feel like you are being atracted more like an emotion than a phisical sensation

[@bhavana9069]

thankyou sir，you have no idea how much it helped me，cried for days thinking iam a lesbian.

[@HeavyToad]

It has came back I was doing so well I was feeling so happy then boom it just came back all the sudden I had a crush and everything

[@brendenstein3285]

Same man

[@vivansharmam4028]

How r u now?

[@LEO_NARDO_D4VILA]

I can relate to most of the things you say

[@artsyalkalearnandgrowbeaut3731]

Very well defined! It’s like that. I have witnessed my own mind flipped my thoughts into completely opposite. I’m straight. And I have been in love with men and happily attracted to them. I love it. But one day I read a homosexual poem as it was in my course. And after reading it my mind tried to forcefully flipped my own mindset. It felt crazy. I had read homosexual stuff and watched the shows as well it never happened before. OCD feels like your own mind is against you. As if it wants to destroy. I prayed to God and started meditation at that point I didn’t know that I have OCD. These intrusive thoughts decreased. But guess what my OCD was directing me to obsess over spirituality and God. It made it so gross. The meditation sounds became dreadful.

[@VKNKREW]

I'm going through the same thing right now. How have you been doing.

[@artsyalkalearnandgrowbeaut3731]

@@VKNKREW I meditated and cleaned it up from mind. It took quite many years to heal all the patterns. I unattached myself from these thoughts. If you have any childhood trauma then heal it. That’s the basis of OCD. Namah Shivay 🙏🏻

[@mariana5133]

wow that was me half a year ago, I started with medication and got a whole lot BETTER.

[@tanishaanag541]

I'm currently dealing with this!! And always rechecking on myself and my behaviour towards the same sex....

[@oidodsonido]

mariana what medication are you on??

[@theflokis2786]

Please help me, what medication?

[@mariana5133]

@@theflokis2786 hey!, well I went to a psychiatrist and she recomended "sertraline" (or zoloft in the US) along with clonazepam (or Klonopin in the US) in 3 month I was feeling a lot better but it's a process, there are many ups and downs. These medications have sides effects such as drowsiness, decrease of libido and others. But it doesn't have to be a permanent treatment. Wish you the best!

[@theflokis2786]

@@mariana5133 congratulations, I’m seeing my first psychologist today.

[@oh5793]

i'm a lesbian and i struggle with intrusive thoughts about men all the time (it basically stems from aesthetic attraction like this video explains and compulsory heterosexuality) but when i watch videos like this i find it kinda funny how absurd ocd can be like it's crazy how our brains work

[@thebookof5rings]

hi, so i’ve dealt with transgender ocd, contamination ocd, pocd currently, excessive hand washing currently, religious ocd to some extent but recently some thing has popped up i’m 17 male and am bisexual but recently i’ve been improving my attractiveness thru working out and skincare and stuff and i took a photo of myself and i noticed how attractive i was, personally for religious reasons i don’t act on my homosexuality but when i took the photo it was like i wanted to kiss myself and like i imagined myself talking to myself as another person and thinking would i be attracted to myself if i was a different person and my brain was saying yes and when i look at the photo i think is that even me someone so attractive as i almost don’t feel like the photo i see and ik 100% im male but i also went to the internet for answers (worst thing to do) now i have fears that i’m autosexual and could gain sexual gratification masturbating to myself but idk if my brain is telling me i like the idea of this and it’s completely stressing me out ik about groinal response and i’m afraid someone will say the thoughts are true and it’s like ocd is saying “you’re just saying this is ocd to escape the truth” 😢

[@livharding875]

I think I have this but more in the way that I’m scared (im bi btw) my attraction to women or men isn’t real, fear of not being attracted to someone not fear of being attracted to them, even tho Ik I’ve had feelings towards both I still have doubts, I always test my attraction to both genders and get stressed if I’m not attracted to someone who’s conventionally attractive

[@christinesvideos]

This definitely sounds like anxiety! The fear of the unknown, you’ll know when the right, attractive person comes along whether that is male or female. Just give it time (I know it’s harder than it looks). I’m in a relationship with a male, always thought females were attractive but never fancied/ liked them. I’ve developed OCD thoughts of what if I’m lesbian… these have come out of nowhere!? It’s crazy how the mind can make you believe things that aren’t true x

[@outofahat9363]

Sounds exactly like sexuality ocd

[@livharding875]

@@outofahat9363 just looking back at my comment now, and it definitely was, I’m better now thank god for KZbin making me realise it was ocd

[@chiatte135]

The worst part is not thoughts. Its gronial response. Its not erection. Its like really milimetric small movements. My brain is like ok if its just a thought i believe in you but you have sensation. So why its happen if you are not this way is the hardest question for me. But i try to be gay i did my best for being gay. I could not. But still my brain says i guess you are tricking yourself

[@-draco-469]

Even in games if there is a character which looks good looking my brain is like i like him and i get weird feeling like iam blushing, i find it weird cause i dont want to like them, its weird and disgusting.

[@dblizzy5343]

this is fucking exhausting all that im saying lol, I'm just tired of wondering

[@lempaalanlecter4731]

I've always been straight but one day i started to think "what if i am gay" and i lose almost my identity. I had psychosis. Now i have luckily medication in ocd.(sorry for bad english)

[@dacariwhitehead7971]

What you got brah I need help

[@lempaalanlecter4731]

@@dacariwhitehead7971 Therapist was my only choise and i recomment that.

[@Ausernameorsomethinglikethat]

Yup had psychosis too

[@theflokis2786]

What’s the medication?

[@theflokis2786]

@@t0li0s same here, I even had sex today with a girl to be sure I still love sex with girls and it turns out to be great. My problem is I’m not attracted to a guy but I get the crazy thoughts.

[@herlismilee360]

I’ve overcome 🙋🏽‍♀️

[@oidodsonido]

please share

[@t0li0s]

How

[@herlismilee360]

@@oidodsonido Talk therapy and being aware of what you’re going through. It could take time but it’s also a chemical brain imbalance.

[@oidodsonido]

@@herlismilee360 so you take medication? if so which kind? ssri?

[@herlismilee360]

@@oidodsonido yes I do but not because of this. Ask a doctor 😊! I’m sure it’ll help.

[@Dolotrelle]

I really need help

[@markyinbelfastxx9088]

Acceptance !!!!! Take the fear away and it loses its power

[@monsev.arellano9125]

Check out OCD UK. There are great support groups there.

[@snas1686]

Same, I am christian and have strict parents. But this is not why I have this. I MYSELF generally don't want to be gay, it's a sin and I sont want it. I have always loved girls and I've always been straight without any doubts at all. But after I had harm ocd and all when that went I slowly started panicking about being gay because if the way I would sit or stand. Nothing else. Not due to slightly being attracted to men. But due TO STANDING OR SITTING IN A CERTAIN WAY DUE TO THE SEAT I WAS SITTING IN. Now I'm constantly panicking and in fear. And due to having panic disorder it makes some things worse. ALL I WANT IS PRROF THAT I CANNOT BECOME GAY AFTER BEING STRAIGHT MY WHOLE LIFE.

[@PortAdelaideLeGend]

@@snas1686 brother I’m Muslim, I’m going through similar things as you but I get intrusive thoughts of me being with a man or me masturbating to gay stuff or me coming out in my head which makes absolutely no sense because I’m not gay, I rested my case when I realised this was my brain playing tricks on me and I recovered somehow for 10 or so months and now it’s back even worse

[@dylanjm_2986]

@@snas1686how have you been so far because I really need help and everything you said is so relatable iv told my self if I ever come out has homosexual I would kill my self

[@madjidtlm7666]

I have it

[@JP-cc9vo]

I am into women and trans women but I fear loosing attraction to cis women and does it mean I am straight or bi because I like the genitalia and am I still attracted to my wife like omg

[@bryanyarrington5792]

It’s the worst theme to have

[@maggieanderskn6687]

I am right there with you. I am praying for you

[@bryanyarrington5792]

@@maggieanderskn6687 do you ever get flooded with intrusive thoughts when your trying to have sex or be intimate

[@maggieanderskn6687]

@@bryanyarrington5792 no because I have not been intimate before. But I can tell you that it is completely normal for that to happen

[@critter_core]

I’ve always known I was Pan but I’m going between ace and being pansexual, I’m unsure of it to this day right now :’)

[@reyest890333]

I feel like sexuality is on a spectrum and a sliding scale. There are features that we all find attractive that can come from any gender, or sex, and it’s society’s narrative that we have to be a certain way that feeds into our insecurities about who we are attracted to. OCD seems like a odd way to specify this feeling of being attracted to someone. I see what you mean with the overwhelming idea of the need to investigate, however. Why is that something to fear or look into? This could be very dangerous when it comes to identifying one’s self.

[@herlismilee360]

It’s not an attraction tho. It’s a very stressful state of mind bc you know ur truth but also living with this that says otherwise.

[@reyest890333]

@@herlismilee360 The truth that I’m gay and attracted to men and the masculine physique?

[@herlismilee360]

@@reyest890333 no

[@Nicolas14215]

@@reyest890333 I think she meant that we know what we want and what we don't, but then this thing comes over with doubt

[@sunstirade1085]

@@reyest890333 it’s the intruding thought that your whole life has been a lie and everything could flip upside down in a heartbeat. In an essence it’s the death of the current state of ego, it is the “I” looking into the abyss and the abyss is staring right back.