What's Going on Here???🤷‍♀️

Here's the truth about what's going on with me. Thank you for your prayers and following along all these years 💕
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[@kenziekayla8613]

As a woman age 72; I can suspect several traumas that could basically kill your joy; just know that your viewers have come to love you (thru thick and thin; sorrow and joy). Please post snippets when you can. We will continue to like and share so your income stream will continue. Praying for you and your wonderful children. Deep breaths, one hour at the time - until you can make it one day at the time). Im sending a bear hug of support to help you still stand and face tomorrow.

[@saramurillo-garcia2301]

You took the words out of my mouth 🥰🫶🫶🥰🫶🫶🥰

[@michelleowens671]

I’m thinking of you Jamerrill, I hope you get to feeling yourself again soon

[@cherylmccune4350]

We love you and. Send prayers

[@hairhoodoohair5298]

You never know who you will connect with. I'm a 6'4" 41 year old man covered from head to toe in tattoos. I found you August two years ago when I was literally in bed for a moth due to Covid. You really helped me just get through day because of you light and joy. Thank you for that and please continue your healing journey.😋😊

[@ShawnaLynnn]

I’m glad you’re here and feeling better!

[@jacquehoosier6597]

❤

[@brandiparis5411]

💚

[@shannonludden8283]

I found this channel while I had Covid too. It was such a scary time, but Jammerill's calmness was just what I needed. I'm doing better now, and I hope you are too. 😊

[@user-hs4vs5vx6u]

Iam praying we all have issues but TheLoed help us get threw them HE IS EVERWHERE PRESENT NOWHERE ABSENT,

[@rosannasauereisen2827]

"It's okay to not be okay." One of my teenagers says that once in awhile and I'm learning that is true more than I think.

[@TinyHouseHomeschoolLife]

I learned the truth behind this phrase in a very real way a handful of years ago. I know repeat this phrase to people often.

[@erinnstreeter]

For whatever it's worth, Jamerrill, I'm in your corner. There's some old saying about how one stick can be broken, but a bundle of sticks holds together. I'm just one stick, but I think I'm part of a big bundle of 'em, and I hope you can take strength from us. 💛

[@naturalsimpleliving]

I am not leaving or going anywhere. You take all the time you need. I love chatting with you on our zooms, and I will be praying for you. You have encouraged me to walk even more, haha! I've been in seasons, and having my 11 children around me has been healing. God loves you. Sending love and prayers from Wisconsin!🫶

[@IntotheFray84]

I know exactly what you’re talking about. I recently got out of an abusive marriage, which was very traumatic for me and my kids. I’ve lost my spark as far as cooking and certain other things. Sometimes you just do what you can until you make it through to the other side. ❤

[@JamerrillStewart]

Amen 💗

[@lisachatham8690]

Sweet Jamerrill, I have just gotten past a bunch of trauma myself. I "escaped" an abusive relationship and am coming out on the other side. I moved over a thousand miles to get away from him, lived in my car for almost 6 months and just got into an apartment on the first. The odd thing is I have been happier in these 6 months than I have been for most of my life. I feel like I have a purpose and am working on fulfilling it. I have quit smoking and have been feeling good. I know that if I can make all thses changes and come back that with GOD and your family and the family you have here you will be good. I learned in a College course on trauma that we never really get back to where we were but get to a place that can be even better. We are stronger together, allow us to comfort you in your time of need, as without knowing you comfort us constantly. With sisterly LOVE I will pray and send Angels to hold you in your times of need.

[@kathleenmacdonald5389]

I'm so very sorry to hear that you're going through more hard times. I have been keeping you in my prayers and will continue to do so. You have created a support network here that most won't understand, but we will be here for you and to support whatever content you can bring. And if that means grocery hauls, that's okay with me! I think you are amazingly kind and strong. I hope all those you've helped in the past are coming through for you and that you feel the love of this group!! Prayers and hugs!!!

[@debgordon6542]

Just to let you know, you were very clear, crystal clear that you were dealing with other life challenges in addition to the miscarriage during the Costco haul. Prayer flares for you and your family. Your Virginia lovin sister

[@kateymateymusic1]

It hurts to see you suffering. You’ve always brought us so much joy. Praying brighter days are seen soon 🙏🏻

[@BCGirl822]

I’m so sorry you’re going through such hard times. You look absolutely radiant in this video! You inspire me to keep going through my hard times.

[@unleashedpatriot1802]

Praying for you, Jamerrill. It hurts to see such a usually joyful person sad & in pain. Not only is God with you, but all of us are here & will be here, to help lift you up the best we can across the miles. Sending you a big 'ole Iowa hug. ❤

[@andreahapke8886]

You're gonna be ok Jammerrill. We are worried about you but you're incredibly strong. Opportunities lost will return.

[@themartianstitcher7483]

I am not a frequent commentor but watch consistently. Sending you love from Nova Scotia. I understand trauma...lost my 21 year old son in a car crash in October 2015. Do whatever you need to do to get you through the days and back to having your spark. I am not the same person I was but I do have joy and love and tremendous support system. Take care...we will all be here whenever you come back. ♥

[@terrijamieson9985]

N.S. here as well...hello neighbour.😊

[@seatoncinema]

Prayers to you

[@hollysmall3490]

You got this babe! We're not going anywhere, by the grace of God we'll all get through it together!💚

[@mama_of_four]

My heart breaks for you for whatever you are going through but I am so glad you are recognizing it and being kind and gentle on yourself! Most of us will continue to follow you and enjoy whatever content you put out and I know I have a lot of older content to watch in between. I like to watch your videos while I’m doing my own cooking or housework and it feels like I have a friend visiting and keeping me company. You have inspired me to make many changes in my life and to be proud of what I do in my home and for my family and I will always be grateful for that! Thank you for sharing your journey with us no matter what it looks like! I’m sending you so much love all the way from Arizona!❤❤❤

[@TheWaterMinx]

I have certainly been deeply concerned for you. I knew that there must be something very big happening. I will be praying for you, dear lady! Your videos helped me through a difficult and sad part of my life. I pray the Lord will comfort and feed you through His Word and that you find healing. ❤️

[@fadingdandelion4792]

I love you called her lady that is how I refer to ladies I'm speaking too.

[@barbaraketchum8287]

I am just now coming out of a traumatic series of events that left me in a total fog for a year. Through this experience I have completely embraced being gentle and kind to myself and processing through the feelings as I am able. It sounds like you are working through your time as beautifully as possible. I am here to support your journey, especially because you have been so meaningful in my life!!! Blessings, dear sister ❤

[@learningtogether]

You don’t have to be anyone you aren’t and this is where you are now and who you are. It’s been incredibly helpful for you to share snippets as I have been working through my own grief and the multifaceted thing it is. I sure appreciate you!

[@heatheranderson9619]

I lost my husband to cancer in March. He was only 54. Life is hard. I pray for all of us struggling.

[@319roxanne]

To be blunt, PTSD SUCKS! I sat in my recliner for 3 months at one part of my life. I have been fortunate to have counseling, friends and a stubborn attitude that has gotten me through. You I’ll get through. I promise.

[@JamerrillStewart]

Yes and sitting in the chair for 3 months is also perfectly acceptable 💗💗💗

[@sammyhammy78]

I've followed you since your blogging days when I was a brand new homeschooling mama and now through YT. You're like family to the majority of us. We aren't going anywhere! We've got your back through love and prayers and all the things. A lot of us are going through a harder season right now, myself included. We love you, Jamerrill. Praying for you daily. Love you!!! ❤

[@vintagedietitian]

Jamerrill, you have been such an inspiration to so many of us for so many reasons. Watching you acknowledge and validate your pain is so amazing for so many people. I can't imagine being as vulnerable as you are with the world. I know that can't be easy. I feel like God has given you such a gift in being able to serve others by sharing not just your wins, but your pain as well and how He is bringing you through it. I listened to a book recently that really helped me and you were one of the people I thought about and prayed about while hearing it. If you see this (or anyone else who sees this who went through serious childhood things or loves someone who you don't always understand who went through serious childhood things) I recommend What My Bones Know by Stephanie Foo. I imagine many people who read it or will read it may feel so very seen for maybe the first time in their lives. Sending so much love and many prayers.

[@rlcarver]

I am so sorry you are going through this, it seems we all are going through the worst of times these last few years. Praying for you and your family, and the world ❤.

[@stefaniedecoster2772]

Hey Jamerill, I'm more of a watcher than a commenter but I need to say this. I can tell you're in pain and life is really tough right now but I can also tell your strength is bigger than the trauma you're working trough. Take it moment by moment, day by day, at your own pace. Warm hug and love from a mama from the Netherlands

[@fadingdandelion4792]

My brother was born in the Netherlands lived in Germany when I was 8-10 In the 80s . We lived in Monchengladbach Germany. We would travel too the Netherlands every weekend. The most beautiful place I have ever been

[@toniconder696]

I so see your pain, im hurting for you 😢

[@randomvideos_658]

I'm sorry Jamerill, what you've mentioned is totally understandable, this sounds like how I felt when I lost my soulmate, you're not alone in navigating traumatic situations, take your time and do what you can. Sending a a big virtual hug your way. ❤

[@got_style]

So so wonderful to see you again, Jamerrill 💕 Your strength and courage strengthen me; your faith and reliance on the Saviour encourage my prayers for you, your loved ones and for mine as well😇. Thank-you❤❤

[@christymarcin9170]

I hurt for you, Jamerill. I will be praying for healing and for your spark to return. You are a blessing to so many.

[@wandafentonboykin66]

Sending prayers of comfort to you and your loved ones. We will all be grateful for any content that comes our way!

[@doodlebug5105]

Your kind and loving heart jumps through the screen even as you share your spark is hiding. Thank you for everything Jamerill.

[@danner3835]

As a wife of a "KZbinr," I understand the burden of being the one in front of the camera and having to be "on," no matter what. Your life is your ministry and you carry it out with grace and always point to HIm who sustains you. Prayers lifted up for you all :)

[@paulettefoster3157]

You have been a blessing to me today. I have been feeling quite down myself for several weeks; I have experienced many severe traumas myself and have battled this my whole life. I have learned to focus on gratitude and perspective and most all of the time I do very well. Until... 😢 I have learned to keep my eyes and ears open because the Lord sends me the message of comfort or clarity that I need every time. I just have to pay attention and receive it. You were my message today. I don't know what you're walking through right now, but the Lord wanted me to remember that my walk right now is pretty easy. I'm sorry for your suffering. But you helped me today. Thank you. ❤

[@rosemarybravo5348]

Thank you for sharing the journey you are on, and I pray the good Lord will always walk beside you on this journey. Those of us who also have gone through trauma do understand and please know we are with you and sending prayer , love and hugs 💖

[@HeavenlyZenDesigns]

I don't comment very often, but I'm a long time subscriber. I watched this video 3 times, bawling my eyes out, because I needed too... I felt every single word of this season you're in having gone through it myself a few times and I still get stuck in the waves. I started a KZbin channel in March 2023 (art/crafting related) and haven't been able to post for the last several weeks (no spark.. you just can't fake it). My husband and children still need every bit of me so my work, in a way, is suffering. I know you already know you're not alone in this season, sometimes it's difficult to get over the anger that steals our joy. Sometimes it's hard not to question the WHY. I'm not going anywhere. I enjoy all of your content no matter what it is. The fact that you are still able to put out content is so inspiring to me. Thank you 😌 We love you and we will see you in your next video! 🤗🤗🤗 HUGS MOMMA!! 🤗🤗🤗

[@brittany3690]

Praying for you Jamerill! ❤ your videos have helped me through some hard times. ❤ Here’s to brighter days ahead.

[@stephanieburrell4200]

Sending prayers for you and your family. I was traumatized in 2022 and I'm working through that right now. I love your videos.

[@brummymummyof2]

A few years ago I had a traumatic experience which I am slowly healing from after having therapy. During this time your channel felt like a safe place for me. Watching you caring for your family encouraged me to get back to being the Mum I was previously. So we will support you as you supported us. Post what you want and when you want to. And sending you much strength and love xxx

[@sharonbosley6817]

Jammerill, your video resonated wirh me. I have come through a very difficult season of some very traumatic events in my life. During my season, what helped me in so many ways, was walking. I started walking 6 miles per day. It was truly the " therapy" that I needed. Just praying, quiet, exercise always helped me to be in a better frame of mind. Keep walking...it truly is a healer. Sending prayers..😢

[@jorobinson6640]

Thank you for this video. I very much respect the way you are processing trauma ... you are giving yourself grace, working through it all in a positive way, and you will definitely come out of that dark tunnel and see the light again. As women - wives, mums, sisters, aunties, grandmums, friends and co-workers, we've all experienced trauma at some point in our lives. No, you won't ever be the same, but you will be who you're meant to be at this stage of your life. :) Sending much love.

[@ShawnaLynnn]

Give yourself time. We never get over Trauma we just learn how to live with it. You’re strong. You know this because what you’ve gone through. Sending you love, good energy and prayers! Much love Jamerrill! You’ve got this!

[@yolandaw2650]

I’ve grown to absolutely love and enjoy any of your content and even though I have a totally different lifestyle I will continue to watch whatever content you keep putting out and I am sending many thoughts and prayers your way! Weeping may endure for a night but Joy will come in the morning! 🙏🏻❤

[@springhouser3565]

I am so sorry for whatever it is you are going through. You have brightened my day more often than I can tell you when I was going through dark times. I wish there was more than words that I could give you for comfort. You will be in my thoughts and whenever you are back, I will still be here to support you.

[@FrugalFunMum]

Thank You for posting this. I'm a content creator and I'm struggling too after a small medical episode but the pressure of 'sharing' and talking it's just over whelming especially that people who know me personally demanding information and I just don't want to share because I know they go and talk to other people and I just don't know what to do. I am the same as you I've lost my spark and like you I'm trying not to let it be my persona right now. I'm trying not to be negative but I need people to understand that I just need to be here right now and I'll do what I can when I can.

[@elizabethmoore6993]

Thank you so much for this video. I went through a trauma in September and am in a season of emotional cycle. Thank you for sharing as a mature Christian woman.

[@AuntMommyshouse]

I’ve been watching your channel for a few years and although I have noticed deep trauma in your eyes, I also see the spark of the joy of the Lord♥️ I don’t know what exactly you’re walking through but I do know Who is holding you as you walk through this valley. I will continue to lift you and cover you with prayer.

[@SmallTownSouthernWife]

❤

[@psw47]

Oh, sweet Jamerrill..I will always watch whatever you post. I have followed you for many years and support you all the way! I lost my husband suddenly a day after the birth of our 6th. child. I was so devastated with sorrow but had joy from the birth that I couldn't even understand my emotions at the time. It took me quite awhile to come to terms with all the heartache and turmoil I was feeling! I pray for your healing everyday, I could tell there was something else going on. Please rest assured that we all love you and care deeply for you. Take what time you feel is necessary and we will continue to pray and watch. Much love to you and yours. 💞♥💞♥💞

[@amyrivers4093]

Jamerrill you are precious and I want you to know your message came across that there is a lot more going on above the tragedy of your miscarriage. I'm sharing my story with you and others because I am at the point where I am just stepping out of these tough events. I lost my parents a year apart, I was broken into and assaulted, my sister wouldn't allow me to get my half of our inheritance, I'm terminally ill and was also diagnosed with breast cancer on top of all my other lifelong health issues, I was building a house with my Dad and had to keep going and a few more other really personal things and I didn't think that I could take one more step. I was in tears on the floor and my best friend held me and said you are the strongest person I know and I need you to keep going, it's okay to not be okay and most importantly GOD IS CARRYING YOU UNTIL YOU CAN WALK. I tell myself every morning that 'this too shall pass'. I care about you, you are my youtube friend, and I stand behind you. You do whatever is right for you at each point in time. You are in my prayers, God bless you and your loved ones. Xx

[@mimikels9443]

I was traumatized as a young child but had no counseling other than bad advice. I internalized it and every once in awhile it would rear its ugly head. As a wife and mother I just kept pushing it down and carrying on. It damaged me...mentally, physically, spiritually. I am so thankful you have help. So thankful. You keep putting one step in front of the other and work towards completeness. We are here, many of us for the long haul. Youve been on my heart for longer than 2 months. I didnt know why but didnt need to. You are so beautiful here and strong and full of grace. Continued prayers hon.

[@bravehearticus]

We love you Jamerill. Take as long as you need. We'll always be here, ready to take the little steps with you. Love to you ❤

[@kali8789]

Thank you for your vulnerability. You’re always an inspiration to me! ❤

[@rocky6055]

Sending love and prayers to you and your family. I started watching a couple of years ago when I was first diagnosed with cancer. The "experts" gave me a couple of months to live- and here I am. The Lord knows our needs and provides on his calendar.

[@Dannylacy1986]

We are here for you! You have brought us all so much joy that we will gladly stand by you while you need it! And I can’t wait to hear the amazing things God does to bring you threw this! Love and prayers❤

[@au6685]

Jamerrill you are in my thoughts and prayers ❤️ I have been following since 6 years ago. I found you in my sophomore your of college and I’ve gone though tough times and life adjustments during that period. I always loved your videos and they brought me such a bright light. It hurts me that as a viewer I can’t offer you the same. I’m sure other people feel the similar. We all love you and are here to support you. ❤❤

[@mylittleruralhomestead]

Thinking of you Jamerrill, and praying you find comfort and solace in the days ahead.🥰

[@debbiehill2285]

Jammerill, I am so sorry for what your having to go through. Do what you have to do. Take all the time you need. Prayers 💕🙏

[@julieemerson3866]

Thank you for sharing what you feel comfortable with. Sending prayers, love your way. Hope this storm passes soon 💗💗

[@sandyschultz280]

So sorry you are going through this. Do what you can😊

[@scary747]

I felt that you didn't need to explain. We are with you through whatever you need. Many prayers for you and your family. Take your time we will continue to be here for you. I send hugs and prayers.

[@jeniferbanda5981]

Find your joy wherever and whenever you can. It's ok to not be ok. Traumas take time to heal. I truly love your trips to sharp shopper ( makes me want to take a trip to Virginia to visit family and make a side trip). If it's just sitting here in the park having an honest conversation, it's still content worth watching. When I went through a lot of trauma and trials a few years back, I would constantly remind myself of the story of Job and say if he could get through all he did then this too shall pass. I'm not going to lie, it took me years but I'm in a better place than I was. I will still answer the question as to how I'm doing with "I'm still breathing". Take care of yourself. You are in our prayers!

[@SmallTownSouthernWife]

❤

[@towadiwayajameson7487]

I'm so very sorry that you're going through all of this. Hang in there and stay strong. Been missing you here and know we're all here to support you. We miss seeing you and please remember that IT'S OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY. Believe me, I completely understand where you're coming from. I've been through a lot of trauma myself and know how hard it is to come back from something like this. There's a book called Juggling Elephants that might help you. It has me. Keeping you in my for prayers. HUGE HUGS for you.

[@sherij7330]

Jamerrill, Sending prayers as you walk this journey. After trauma, we are never the same. But we can come back strong! With your faith, I know that no matter how long it takes, you will find your joy and flourish:)

[@anitatucker8812]

As a another woman and momma who has faced her own loss and trauma I could tell you were facing a trial in your ife. I give you grace while you are moving through this season in life. I continue to pray for you and your family Jamerrill. Prayers of healing, strength, and restoration. Sending love and hugs.

[@itiswhatitis5784]

There’s a wonderful MD named Gabor Mate that has written books about trauma, I encourage anyone to do a little research on this man. As a person just existing trying to claw my way back from decades of trauma I know your pain, confusion, loss of identity, lack of presence etc. we can all find a way to cope and get through these trying times. I love you all, God will be out light through the dark days ❤

[@susanmorningstar1989]

I am so sorry to see uou go through this difficult time Jamerill.Just know that there alot of us that are praying for you and are sending you hugs and strength to get through these difficult days.

[@acb1057]

Sending tons of good vibes your way! I'm sorry to hear you're going through a difficult time. Do whatever you have to do to heal and re-find your shine. ❤

[@SmallTownSouthernWife]

❤

[@deborahmorton5893]

We completely understand. I understand working through trauma. I am not going anywhere. We love you and will stand by you. If it takes multiple days to create a single video that is perfectly fine. Your videos don't need to be about a huge cooking day(s). If it is just one meal video at a time that is okay too. Sending love and prayers!

[@snoogs30]

Thank you for sharing this. I don’t know what you have been through, but I have in my own life been severely traumatized and it is 2 years later and I still haven’t gotten my spark back. I have 6 children still at home-2 have left, and it is hard but I can’t stay in bed because I have little people who depend on me. Anyway, I haven’t heard anyone till you, speak to my heart. I’m sad and cry and people want me to just get on with life and they just don’t understand. I want to! I just can’t right now and thank you for saying it’s okay. Everyone is different. ❤

[@deannawoolard7326]

I was beaten and raped not long ago and what you said resonates with me so much. I still feel like im trying to understand the new me daily. Trauma in any form is so hard to work through. Love and hugs

[@melissamooney2866]

Prayers and love going out to you tonight 🙏❤ I am so sorry that happened to you.

[@theirishcailin333]

I'm so sorry for you! That's horrendous

[@reneeluiten6386]

🙏🏼❤️❤️

[@carystuder7541]

Sending prayers and thoughts I’m sorry you’re going through a rough time please take all the time you need.

[@sharonfabis9037]

I believe I can safely say we all want the best for you! I will be here for ever. I love your videos. Continue to pray for health and healing! God is good. He will get you thru!🙏🙏❤️🙏🙏❤️🙏🙏

[@veronicadonovan3001]

I’m so sorry your going through such a tough time right now. Thinking and praying for you 🕯. God bless and keep you safe. ❤️

[@kimhaddon1270]

I am here through whatever you can show us. I feel like you need this time. I absolutely know you can only do what you can. No matter what viewers "want", you do it on YOUR time.. Some things are not our business to know and share only if you can mentally handle what it may be. In the medical field, I have learned in my 20 plus years, you cant be the best you if you are mentally cracking.. I hid behind humor, over working myself, and running through a seriously dangerous path mentally... I realized the day seeing patients pass didnt affect me was the day I needed my own mental check in... there is no time limit on it either... big love and I am here when you come back.

[@erinmorgan8546]

Trauma shows up when we least expect it. Healing isn’t linear. Take your time. Feel it, learn from it, love yourself through it, then let it go ❤ We are all praying for you ❤

[@kathleenchambers6485]

As another woman who’s had many life long traumas. I understand how difficult it is to find your spark again. I’m praying for you. 💕

[@francesbolen257]

Girl, I understand and have walked that walk. I was not allowed time to heal from work and when I walked out the office doors I would crawl to my bed and not move til Monday. Prayers for you.

[@SmallTownSouthernWife]

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[@johnmariaburns629]

Its so encouraging how you are handling all you are going through! I know you not only have to be okay for yourself but to all your children. You're a wonderful mom! I'm so proud of you!

[@scarahpurr]

I've been there Jamerrill, including walking walking walking 24/7 to get myself through. I lost 115lbs in the process but gsined immense smounts of prospective on life and where its headed. Keep going, one step at a time. Everything falls into place, just live the moment and feel it❤

[@amcknight0016]

I’m praying for you and your family!!! We love you!! 🤍🤍🤍

[@nicolehaskell1652]

Sending all my love and prayers your way I've experienced second hand trauma myself. You are definitely in my thoughts.

[@karinzoetermeerehbo]

I am so sorry that you have to go throught this! Hope you feel better soon, sending you love and strenght from Europe ❤️

[@siliconvalleymom901]

May you find strength to get you through these difficult days. Sending lots of love, hugs and prayers. ❤🙏

[@JustClaireGrace]

I always find walking to be the thing i turn to in times of difficulty. It's often the last thing i want to do, I'd rather go to bed and stay there, but it really does help me to get outside. Keeping you in my thoughts Jamerrill.

[@tracysanders6900]

We all love you.. we are all here for you❤️when your ready to come back we are here for you! Sending healing prayers and lots of ❤️ 🙏❤️

[@shesinherapron]

So sorry you're walking through trauma and secondary trauma. It's so brave of you to mention it publicly. I'm coming out of my own this past year. I completely understood when you said you're not the same. I will pray for you and for your family. Thank you for being vulnerable and being a light to so many. ❤

[@JamerrillStewart]

Thank you so much sweet lady! 💗💗💗

[@susancichoski9275]

Im in my 2nd year of dealing with back to back to back life issues but "trauma" seems a more appropriate word. Thank you for sharing the healing journey. I, too, walk and really long for walks in the woods. Praying for that new season for both of us ❤

[@itsmetiff661]

Thank you for sharing, it’s easy to allow my mind to just wonder all the things. Glad to know you’re physically well, the children and family are well. That puts my mind at rest. Praying your strength.

[@debbiejones4307]

Finding the motivation when you're going through trauma is so hard. Posting to talk and raise awareness is part of the healing process. Xx

[@amydegregory2137]

Hi! I’m so sorry you are going through all of this. I am praying for you feel better and find your spark. I’m so glad you are taking care of yourself and doing what you can to heal. ❤

[@LM-my1ss]

Hi Jamerrill, when I was diagnosed with cancer and I still had to go to work until my surgery. I would also go outside and walk and pray and sing to the Most High God. I was traumatized by the cancer diagnosis and all that went with it. The only thing that I knew to do was to walk and pray. You will be fine, keep walking and praying!

[@theirishcailin333]

Hope you're all clear now!

[@ChainsawsTuF]

Sending love, light and massive virtual hugs your way, we are all walking beside you and hoping and praying for brighter days. Xxx

[@georgianative5735]

Sending love and prayers to you and your family! God bless you! Will continue watching the oldies until you return!

[@thetherapymama6404]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. You will be in our prayers!

[@nadiaroache6776]

We dont know what your going through exactly but please know we are here for you. Rooting for you, send you prayers, keeping you in our thoughts. May God continue to hold your hand and guide you through this difficult time. ❤

[@hollyhoffman4733]

I am so very sorry to see that you are hurting. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Lots of love!!

[@deborahanderson3659]

Dearest Jamerrill- please know that we all love and support you, and are here to do anything you need us to do. That includes keeping the faith and knowing that you will find your spark again and delight in the world. We are patient- take the time you need. XO

[@Barbie-hz9so]

I’m praying for you, Jamerrill. I’m praying for a total and complete healing.

[@sundaesprinkles]

You are a blessing to me! A sweet and beautiful person. I’m so glad I’ve been able to welcome you into my family’s home in your videos throughout the years. It’s filled a void for me, not having sisters, or a loving mother like I wish I’d had. So- thank you. So thankful God goes before us! Praying for you ❤

[@linleigh8464]

You take the time needed, with healing there is no set time frame. Praying for you and your family!

[@shayvay777]

I pray that you heal at the rate you need to heal and I pray your continued strength. All you can do is what you can do. My sincerest thoughts and prayers with you ❤

[@gracieluvzpink]

Jamerrill, thank you so much for transparency!♥️ I’m on the same boat with you and I pray that this season is healing season for you .🙏🏽🤲🏼♥️

[@sharonlemond2291]

I’m so sorry for your trauma and wish I could help. You are in my prayers. Things will get better. Love you