Why I Left

[@kurlykayla9013]

Michelle, I took your videos for granted. You were straight to the point, creative, and drama-free. The beauty community of today is toxic.

[@xPATrisha]

not really drama free, but a great inspiration.

[@kurlykayla9013]

@@xPATrisha Ah well, I don't remember any drama. Oh well lol

[@paladindragoongirl18]

@@kurlykayla9013 There's a blog named MichellePhail on Tumblr and it highlighted the drama that Michelle was involved in. She was angry at a 16 year old girl saying the word retarded. Promise also vented about her in a tweet (I can't remember) but never mentioned Michelle's name. She has been called out by others before but it's been a long time already. She hasn't been in the spotlight lately.

[@paladindragoongirl18]

Kia Jones Wow, I didn’t know about the incident regarding the cat. I am aware of the incident with her iQQU product not being FDA approve. Anyway, I don’t really care for Michelle Phan because I was never a fan of hers to begin with. She admitted that makeup is not her passion.

[@Sarah-eh7bw]

Kia Jones she does acknowledge in the video that money brought out the worst in her.

[@dinaanya6730]

The reason KZbin has a beauty community is this woman. I miss her.

[@bubblebutt4919]

Dina Anya With all that beauty guru drama i miss Michelle Phan

[@dinaanya6730]

@@bubblebutt4919 same here... same

[@kierah6087]

Where she go? Somebody better find her an bring her back ASAP!

[@xxKEVZxx]

We all miss her

[@chocolatefactory6313]

Same

[@RosaCharice]

Michelle Phan is the mother of the beauty community. It all started with her.

[@Uchiha.watashi]

wooord

[@nicolequiambao2860]

@Claudia Becerra she's the sister of promise husband. They're sister-in-laws.

[@FaithPeach]

She definitely did start it, you're right. I got into makeup because of her. ❤

[@tatianaarielle6435]

Rosa Charice fr

[@laurenshwarts2149]

No, honey, it started with Marlena with Makeup Geek...

[@MashabaKabir]

Who else is here after her latest video? So glad she’s back!

[@TramTran7]

Crying in the club

[@christinecapidos7286]

Yesssss!

[@psychos5940]

Do you know why she really left before 2 years ago I didn't understand the real reason please tell me if u know..thanks

[@arcie02]

Me

[@myohmyli]

Gurlll me!

[@DoctorFashion]

sometimes i miss the old youtube .. when it was just a platform to upload whatever before money got involved

[@simong4124]

BritxBrat2Fashion i do to

[@minchirominchi8657]

BritxBrat2Fashion ikr

[@minchirominchi8657]

People like niga higa or yogscast

[@tula__]

BritxBrat2Fashion so true.....

[@Wadha910]

me too💅🏽💔

[@kun6167]

i’m kind of glad michelle left this toxic beauty community behind. she’s the only ONE who doesn’t care about the fame, she only cared about herself. she’s the REAL mother of the beauty community.

[@thatstupidgirl905]

yassssss

[@ok-hd5bb]

Promise Phan too

[@ladybird74786]

So true ❤️

[@christinet1004]

Yee

[@christinet1004]

1k like

[@cecilia3313]

She dipped at the right time

[@ka-bc7hj]

true 😂

[@cuckoophendula8211]

Hooo boy, I can imagine her looking at this and thinking, "whoa! what the heck happened when I was gone?!"

[@juhsticka]

I’m saying

[@swchsn]

IKR

[@CEDL4072]

Especially with her past. The Internet is brutal nowadays. She has $50 million dollars anyways. She doesn't have to ever work super hard if she doesn't want to. I know she has her makeup line now that seems to be going well. I saw some of the comments here criticizing some past behavior but she admits in the video money and success brought out the worst in her so it's not like she lied about that. She admits she got too ambitious. So what is the issue here? Social media is so toxic now why would anyone wish that hell on her?

[@jokenzie9075]

Maybe instead of begging Michelle to return, (I’d love it as much as anyone bc I miss her) maybe we should just try to follow in her footsteps and become a newer, drama free & uplifting KZbin community. She was everything we should aspire to be. 💞

[@GamingWithMus]

agreed.

[@monikitty26]

Agreed. Michelle cannot save these people. They need to redeem themselves by realizing what they are doing is wrong and change course. Until they do that nothing will change.

[@ladycaticorn2950]

I agree with you. If we are true fans, we should want what is best for Michelle. She gave us all so much. I want her to find happiness and peace; I know she wouldn't find it here in the toxic, nasty, hateful beauty community that we currently have. It's not her job to save people or to fix something she never broke.

[@el7dian]

The solution lies in our hands. If we stop supporting all these toxic people then they will either change either they will go away. But the problem is that most of us love toxic people and we make them to climb up the social and economical scale. They might be talented but most of them are empty or i can even say petty and cruel sometimes. Idk what else to say. All i know is that I'm sick and tired of the beauty community as it is now.

[@honestpenaldo]

el7dian she back you know that right?

[@mr.balloffur]

I hope she's found peace and is creating her own happiness.

[@vivian-zg3ve]

Mr. Balloffur i’m glad she’s back. she seems a lot happier now

[@MichellePhan]

Reading all the comments. I'm smiling so much. Thank you everyone :)

[@TheMaestroChannel]

Great story, change and success is hard to achieve but your story inspired me to get up and try something different.

[@ambreenhamid5326]

Michelle Phan I am depressed and lonely

[@JesslynLyne]

always waiting for you

[@mailam2480]

Michelle Phan FIGHTING

[@victoriamadaline3892]

Michelle Phan Welcome back😭 We missed you so much😭❤ We love you!❤💖❤

[@katiewitherkay3446]

This girl needs to be a voice reader for audio books! Her voice is so relaxing

[@lamiaalghamdi5749]

Katie Witherkay agree 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼

[@missyevezic2070]

YEESSSSSSS I ARGREE!!!!

[@reesearanzado]

She doesn't have to do it if she doesn't want to

[@flormuro1766]

I always though her voice was so beautiful 🤗...

[@ingerek6198]

Katie Witherkay Christianity is an anti-Human; anti-Natural; anti-Spiritual; anti-Scientific programme of death and destruction, and there is so much proof of that. It was stolen; twisted; perverted; and corrupted from very, very ancient Paganism, which is based on and around Humanity; Nature; Spirituality; and Science, where there is also so much proof of that. -> exposingchristianity. com -> joyofsatan. org

[@TheGammerous]

“You can’t buy happiness, but you can create it” - Michelle Phan

[@DJRickValeOfficial]

Indeed

[@no7734]

We need you now more than ever, Michelle...

[@noneisallminussome371]

I dont think she would like the state of things here. If anything it would make sense if she doesnt want to come back at all.

[@priels.f3375]

alich says u go away

[@saadbunni]

Very true but wr cant be that selfish. She needs her more.

[@adcd31]

Buy her products for support

[@saadbunni]

@@adcd31 We always have ahah her true fans have never left. I can say ive always been subscribed she was the FIRST makeup / channel in general i ever followed and back then she just started. She doesnt need our money for support although it probably helps she knows she has and has always had support from her true fans and the people that care most in life. ♡

[@Fstop313]

"Foundation. Powder. Highlight. Setting Spray. Long ago, the four nations lived together in harmony. Then, everything changed when the Drama Channels attacked. Only Michelle, master of all four elements, could stop them, but when the world needed her most, she vanished. A hundred years have passed and the Drama Channels are nearing victory in the War. Some people believe that Michelle Phan will never upload again onto KZbin, and that the cycle is broken. But I haven't lost hope. I still believe that somehow, Michelle will return to save the beauty community."

[@merita.7548]

damn you give me hope

[@mariakartal8212]

Lmao

[@lovelymabel1762]

thats funny

[@Chikimsan]

Am I the only one who read this in the tone of Avatar's narrator 🤣

[@teenagedirtbag9801]

Why am I crying

[@izufreckles]

*she started the whole beauty community and she was also the first one to realize how toxic it was after years of being in it*

[@cassiaagy]

I’m not annoyed that she left. All of this stress and anxiety that she talks about would have only gotten worse. Nowadays everyone posts the same content because it sells. She put her mental health first, good for her x

[@AmaraReyal]

The beauty community really needed this right now

[@rugma1696]

Yes

[@mdhcccc]

Amara Reyal the beauty community could be the stupidest shit I’ve ever heard lol

[@ruthieer4015]

Now she is a millionaire and doesn’t need to make anymore KZbin videos. She sells make up of the brand she bought off of L’Oréal . After she sold Ipsy for millions.

[@Verbsdescribeus]

now and forever :)

[@reliablemaid]

Amara Reyal FrugalFinds...we love you. You are still real!

[@nikkietutorials]

THE QUEEN 🙌🏻👑 I am so beyond proud of you!

[@jk-py6fm]

Yesss! Nikki😍🍓

[@patriciabplaylist]

😍😍😍

[@alanas2791]

I love you Nikkie! Michelle was the one who really got me into KZbin and how I learned about health and beauty and skincare and whatnot. I've been following her since the beginning and now follow you. lol. Love you both!!!

[@luisavilez17]

NikkieTutorials you and michelle are my life, not just for showing me how to look gorgeous, is for really feel the beauty in myself love you so damn much 😙😚😘😍

[@synthiabouda1096]

Luis Avilez Two humans are "your life" ? Seriously? Wtf

[@oshl4387]

I don't care what anyone says. Michelle Phan is iconic, will always be a legend, and is an OG KZbin Beauty Guru. She basically invented or predicted the mainstream success of things like Clarisonic: "Hey guys buy a sonic oscillating toothbrush and use it on your face to exfoliate." She also used to pull from her art background and give awesome DIY cheap hacks and tips like using Dawn antibacterial dish soap to clean makeup brushes and beauty blenders - instead of buying expensive cleansers - something that my female relatives still do, up to this very day.

[@apricotsapricots472]

“My intuition told me it was time to leave” okay she’s psychic.

[@gregorclegane2007]

Agreee

[@ESNYC703]

You got out before it really became toxic

[@mernam5056]

👍

[@xerilaun]

:')

[@neeno001]

i think it was toxic for years behind the scenes, which could’ve been a big factor in why she chose to leave

[@tsRR09]

Ive seen alot of comments about how the community is bad, can someone give me a summary of whats happened?

[@rynnaxo]

tsR what do you mean by that?

[@safiya]

this video is beautiful! i'm glad ur in a better place now, michelle! ❤️ can't wait to see what's next!!

[@deepikabasnet4229]

Safiya Nygaard just came here after watching your video :)

[@viperhiper77]

deepika Basnet like same!

[@paolaavila35]

Love you Safiya!!!! ❤️

[@davidrojaz1115]

Hey

[@AzeKano]

+deepika Basnet lol I did the same

[@Seivuki]

I miss her she was the first channel I ever found 😢

[@KJ0376]

SHE HAS A NEW CHANNEL DOPE2111 and promise phan

[@icecreamcake9330]

@@KJ0376 sorry,but that's not her

[@mariagrace8520]

@@KJ0376 that's promise, her sis in law. Dope2111 was one of the first channels in YT I've ever discovered, I discovered it in 2012.

[@이린-r4l]

same, i grew up watching her videos 😔

[@kellaia255]

OOOOH MIKA YOU LIKE K-POP??? ME TOO GIRLY! ME TOO!

[@clp480]

God has 3 answers: Yes. Not yet. And there’s something better.

[@annaceyq]

I think he also has a 4. This is not my path for you.

[@thatgirllalicia]

Chao Lee amen 🙏🏾

[@sapitron]

It's stage IV cancer.

[@TheJulietxo]

@@annaceyq Isn't that "There's something better"?

[@ahnobi]

I am not getting younger

[@mminksy]

Who’s here during the James and Tati drama? Wanted to remind myself of the old beauty of KZbin Edit: thank you so much for all the likes! Glad to know I’m not the only one out there feeling the same xo

[@amesh4575]

Shelbie Chester yes same 💔i miss her

[@patheticallyy]

Same. Remember bubzbeauty?

[@soph4552]

Shelbie Chester same

[@alexmedina7266]

Yess 😞💗

[@Pancitoux]

Meeee

[@WayneGoss]

100%. everything you said. 100%. Thank you xx

[@MelitaBintoro]

yay

[@ZayPierre]

Heard of you... never watched your videos... somehow this one gravitated toward me... law of attraction maybe... i salut you in your efforts and thank you for being a reflection of my own awakening process.... blessings! Namaste

[@madinaabdi6362]

Zay Pierre me and you both

[@renatamarki2435]

Nini...I am so surprised seeing you here, strange to see you can be followers and UTbers as well. 🙃😜 Hope you OK, I did not watch you for while, but last autumn u were a big lifesaver for me. 🤓☺️ I really liked yr videos specially when u take off yr social face. 🌈⛰🌳🕸🦉✨

[@darlingmoon003]

You and Michelle have always been one of my favorite KZbinrs to watch. I am so glad to see your comment in this video.

[@WavesofColours]

She is definitely an OG for the KZbin beauty community. And she is also a tale, precautionary or not, on how to stay humble and how to overcome that evil of ego, fame and money. She at least has the humility to admit she was getting weak and from there grow stronger.

[@fayemiyu]

Hama Jordan she IS the OG

[@tompaulcampbell]

OG? Like that something good! Why do youngsters use negatives as positives instead of actually learning the language? Your choice of terms is "the shit"!

[@whimsicalwonders4928]

You didn’t care about. “Beef”. Or “tea” You didn’t start a “Scandal” You put the word “Beauty”. In the beauty community

[@Demitrival]

I miss Michelle. She was one of the first youtuber that I saw 10 years ago when I was only 10 years old. Crazy

[@madgurl5951]

She is the 1st makeup guru I watched on youtube and will always be my favourite. I hope she find what she's looking for. I hope she will stay happy and healthy.

[@paldlara1]

Same ❤️ I’d spend hours watching her videos

[@keidyserna]

Same

[@natashanazaimi2850]

Same im gonna cry

[@kimsang7182]

Since Michell left, I just feel sad...we have seen to many drama with "new" influencers and its just make me sick. Michelle was so genuine !

[@LillyFama]

Kim Sang same I can’t deal with the toxicity

[@sierramarie8059]

I can't even watch them! why watch a video who's purpose is to try and make you feel more beautiful (teach you a new make trick, tutorial etc...) when they make you feel so ugly watching it with so much negativity!

[@_sadgirl_8730]

who's here after Michelle's hello video??

[@hashimi6985]

meeeee

[@dope2111]

Seeing you go through all this right before my eyes, I can tell you you've definitely blossomed in a beautiful Butterfly like the one we saw on our hike. Let see where life takes you .. Hopefully to a land with lot of yummy Pork buns and Bunnies !!!!

[@bangtann6420]

dope2111 AYE SAILOR MOON 🌙💖

[@nadinenutella5147]

Hi Promise! You're such a good person to always have Michelle's shoulder. You go girl!

[@ilianapedraza2894]

dope2111 God bless Michelle Phan on your new journey. Life is too short for you to be tied down and be a label and a Guinea pig. You are not a product you are a child of God that WILL accomplish and succeed in everything your heart desires. Lessons learned and we are proud of you having the guts to be truly and fully happy once again. Take delight in the Lord and he will give you your hearts desires. Psalms 37:4 much love from Iliana Pedraza 💞🤗😘

[@LPSCANDY10]

dope2111

[@niomiejupiter8365]

dope2111 true true food and animals all you need to be happy

[@잉잉-u9k]

2019 Feb anyone? I'm going to wait for years for our sweet queen to return, who's with me?

[@risebeforeending2561]

Hi 2019

[@lilamaeconnaire6888]

Meeeee

[@myaedelman]

Hi how you doin?

[@잉잉-u9k]

@@myaedelman fine

[@sunflowerbabe2773]

I think you missed the entire point of the video LOL

[@aztiray_123]

She was the first “beauty gurus” I watched. My bf actually lives in her hometown when she was first getting big. He said everyone would go to the boiling crab because she was a waitress there! Small world!!

[@maya-db1hj]

That's so cool!

[@edwardkim8972]

Money buys security. Happiness is... up to you.

[@milo1685]

It’s hard to be happy without security don’t you think

[@edwardkim8972]

@@milo1685 This is true. But if we are agreeing here then are we also saying that money is important as well?

[@lavenderscent2334]

Money can help you achieve happiness but it isn't happiness.

[@edwardkim8972]

@@lavenderscent2334 agreed.

[@nushratgt5879]

this isn’t just a video about beauty and youtube and money. it’s a video for all of the people who are going through something tough. whether it’s depression, anxiety, stress, etc. everyone needs their own time to grow and learn. learning to love yourself isn’t taking a bath or having a “me day”. it’s a slow change. growth comes slowly. give yourself the time to slowly grow.

[@HeadOnClouds06]

Wow...very well said😊

[@meshal7563]

I came here after her recent video with Harpers Bazaar 😭😭

[@anchaj1169]

M M me too

[@vanesssatitus4114]

Me to 😔😊

[@pamelagarcia9270]

Same I miss The OG Beauty Queen

[@shankeethakannan4337]

Me too

[@novalia1989]

Me too 😭

[@catrineltoncu3347]

I miss her so much..she was the one teaching me how to do my make up since 6 th grade. Now I go to university

[@RedLipstick19]

Catrinel Toncu same

[@shortysha123]

“Every night my parents would fight... and it was always about money” THAT HIT HARD

[@edgarthepug8127]

Her plan on a leaving KZbin was good because the beauty community is to toxic or harmful even for the youth

[@BABYKOPOHOME]

She was the pride of our nation

[@deea3859]

Why are you saying she WAS? She should still be. Just because she is not longer on youtube, doesn't mean her achievements are erased .

[@thobongbangtang865]

Em buồn lắm chị Pu ơi

[@ickyynikkii]

I think it’s a Hamilton reference

[@dariusdalton4815]

What nation are you from?

[@ThoNguyen-dv3tm]

Chị Pu😀😍

[@sxinranz]

I still remember that day...when I came home from an average day of school to see this video. I watched it. Today, January 5th, 2019. I'm watching this once again. Even though you're gone now, you will always be my inspiration.

[@hiba1485]

Imagine BTS do the same 💔😭

[@hiba1485]

@@1derl4nd I know It hurts

[@garychee9184]

Literally rewatched this video after Tati's video and the collapse of the beauty community making me appreciating that back in the day we had Michelle who REALLY uploaded makeup videos without any drama,scandals or TEA whatsoever... These beauty gurus nowadays should really learn from Michelle and take a break from the internet to really figure out their miserable lives and solve all their problems privately like an ADULT !! It's so ridiculous that Michelle was the only person who did the right thing leaving the community and grew from within mentally and came back stronger and more mature.

[@artemis_liz7096]

I miss the old KZbin, where when you searched anything. You saw a person who turned on their potato camera and talk about something they’re actually PASSIONATE about. Not some fortnite KZbin hungry for money:(

[@artemis_liz7096]

Don’t get me wrong. Money is awesome, but youtube is being consumed by it

[@artemis_liz7096]

Just like Michelle:(

[@MJN_SEIFER]

To be fair... the majority of what I still see on KZbin are people who are passionate about what they are doing (and that includes the Fortnite KZbinrs, because, you know, some of them are just enjoying the game?)

[@zephirothia]

agrees..we the 90s kids get to grow up watching it..kids now only get to watch paul brothers and other viners' migrants that do pranks and stupid sketches showing boobs n booty to get views..cheap content

[@dundee6402]

sephiroth When were you born

[@healanimatthews1140]

funny how when a depressed person says that they're depressed someone thinks that because she has money her depression is invalid. Depression can be found everywhere.

[@xbeautyofmakeup]

preach.

[@alexhrtcore]

Hollow be thy name well because she had money she was able to do all those self finding things and take off into a new adventure. Good for her I say but I'm sure it wasn't all bad I'm glad she found her self throughout it all.

[@amyheath5170]

SO TRUE. Money CAN'T buy your way out of depression and success DOESN'T heal depression. Depression doesn't care how rich, popular, beautiful or successful you are..... Those that don't endure depression will never fully understand. Sure, they may post a blurb acknowledging it on their Facebook, Twitter or Instagram accounts..... but they wont understand that it can take you to the lowest of lows and make you feel completely alone even in a room full of people. That you can't just 'think happy thoughts' or have a girls day and shop until you drop and *poof* it's gone. It doesn't go away and it doesn't care who you are.

[@cats2537]

Yeah money can't buy happiness but it sure as hell relieves a few pressure points.

[@FresaraHa]

Yeah poor people think that... and because they are poor they have more right to be depressed than successful people...little minded people stay the same for ever...poor in every way so let's let them be the idiots they are so they can be more depressed at their lack of money, dreams, ambition and all the thing they will never know about... well not because they are poor of money, but poor of mind

[@multifandom6136]

To be honest, I really miss the old beauty community. No shade, no drama. It's all about beauty arts behind the makeup with makeup tutorial. No doubt that Michelle Phan is the real mvp of beauty gurus. We all were still young, living with big hopes and big dreams back then, sit in front of pc watching her Barbie Makeup Tutorial Video, which inspired us to do makeup as a kid. And I swear I miss all of that. Incredibly nostalgic. It's like the world knew that the community is about to be a huge mess and save Michelle from it, and im glad that she left youtube. You can tell how much she enjoy her peaceful life right now, living as a normal human without chasing the fame. And i'm happy for that. I'm happy that the world could save Michelle from toxic drama. Michelle, we will never forget who you are. We still love you and still support you no matter what. Stay who you are. ❤️

[@ladycaticorn2950]

That Barbie tutorial was one of my favorite videos growing. That and the Parisian makeup video were standout videos I rewatched growing up. I miss all of that so much, but I'm glad we can still watch the videos and appreciate Michelle's years of hard work. I'm glad she left too, it would be sad to see the toxicity of this platform ruin someone who is truly a beautiful soul.

[@sarazaldana1480]

"Sharing my everyday makeup routine....not groundbreaking" what!?!? GIRL you created the beauty community of youtube. I remember only you and juicystar

[@Xforeverlove21]

both of them are the OG beauty gurus

[@Xforeverlove21]

and don't forget Bubzbeauty

[@minorkey5286]

she wasn't the first nor the second

[@Maya_hee]

No but she is the one that made the beauty community so popular before it became absolute bs​@@minorkey5286

[@CL0UD143]

Her voice is so soothing

[@redlittleteapot]

KZbin Official I definitely agree from the start

[@angelicasvideos9234]

Soo truee

[@nikkisoriano5065]

hi hope you can check out my vlogs 💛

[@alixmerkitty2459]

When she says "money can't buy happiness" she's not saying it from the perspective of a rich kid. She's saying it from the perspective of someone who grew up poor, soneone who has been a broke college student with bills to pay and a family to support. She's one of the first big KZbinrs. An Asian-american child, she was the daughter of two immigrants. Her family was very poor, so she worked extremely hard in school in order to get into a good college and support her family by making a lot of money. But in the end she realized med school was not for her and she applied to art school instead. I believe due to her grades, she even managed to secure a scholarship for art school as well. Her mother was devastated that Michelle would not go to med school but in the end accepted it. The students in Michelle's art school were all presented with laptops, which also had access to internet. She used the webcam to film a beauty tutorial and flash forward to the present: through consistent hard work Michelle has made enough money to support her family. Anyone who says she has no idea what she's saying, that she couldn't possibly know the true value of money is, I hope after reading this you've gained a new perspective.

[@MichellePhan]

Wow, very accurate! Thank you :)

[@ognjengaric2687]

Money doesn't buy happiness... but it does buy a ticket to Switzerland

[@joie16]

Alix Merkitty - well said. That's my perspective too. Love and Light to Michelle always.

[@ErikaVerduzco]

I guess you can't and that's why you're talking shit?

[@dansmith6856]

Great recap. Bless

[@ldrxo7258]

*Michelle needs to come back and get these Beauty gurus together ASAP! Whole community been a mess since she left, return to your kingdom Queen!!!!!*

[@K4TSWRLD]

LDR XO Factssss🙌🏼😤

[@robertlee8832]

@@K4TSWRLD yee hawww

[@barbie2181]

yesss

[@erno9019]

nikkie, jeffree and charles + tati are the only gurus that are not mess

[@MadMadameMeg]

I think every HUGE beauty guru needs to sit down in a well-organized conference with and without youtube and fix EVERYTHING. Literally. KZbin is messed up. Casey Neistat has said so, Shonduras has, Roman Atwood has, Tanner Fox has, and a bunch of others like Shane Dawson and Grav3yardgirl. Things need to change. I like that money made the content because back when youtube first came out right before Google took over about 5 or so years before, it sucked. I didnt like it at all. I hated how everything linked to a video and they were crappy. Right before Google took over like 1-3 years before is when youtube was awesome. I loved it and still do for the creators that dont let the money make them. But honestly the money and drive to get the views to make the money is what made people become better creators. Its true. I just love how a bunch of creators have said this on KZbin in videos and a few in emails and its just ignored for big buisness that supplies the ads that pay the creators and youtube. Google is money hungry and I wish the owner of KZbin hadnt sold out to them. You can tell because they changed the play buttons twice since the first ones they made. I hate the new ones. Its an ugly recessed button shape in a plaque. Its not a button anymore. So lame. The only one to stay the same is the diamond one cause not a lot of people have it.

[@bridgetqiaozhang1864]

I almost cried watching this...this video is so inspiring. I miss Michelle and how genuine she is.

[@izzygee2216]

Bridget Qiao Zhang I had tears too.... 😌

[@khanhtrandinh109]

@@izzygee2216 hdhhxghi

[@gigicas3476]

Idgaf what anyone else has to say but Michelle Phan forever sits on the Beauty Guru throne, she paved the way for most of these beauty gurus!

[@kaskass]

Zayn Malik so true. Before all that instagram makeup nonsense

[@3c11p531un4r]

Zayn Malik I want her to come back the current beauty community is shit 😭😭😭 (and yes I know she hinted on the video she'll no longer make beauty videos)

[@emilyquang7523]

OMG I LOVEE YOUR PROFILE PICTURE

[@Jayblissy]

Yassssssss....... amen 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@nythebest1]

Absolutely! She's the OG. Anyone who can't see that she literally paved the way is blind.

[@alkali7957]

was anyone a kid when her barbie makeup tutorial was uploaded? i was and i miss her ):

[@Cattyismynameee]

dhwani chan omg me!! I remember watching her barbie tutorial

[@daxgrey6620]

was the first video i ever watched by her 😭

[@definitely.]

Me

[@111-x1b]

1000 subs with no content oml gud ol days before i grew outta makeup:(

[@solarcowgirl]

Yeah

[@Bala-yu7hg]

2019 January 1st... We're waiting for your return to the social media. We Miss you... We miss the positive energy you used to fill in our hearts... We miss the sweetest smile of our Big Sister who helps us to get ready as A Princess in our memorable occasions. We miss our dearest friend who gives us courage and inspiration when we feel everything wrong. We don't know how many years it's gonna take to see You again but we hope You are doing well and living happy with prosperous lifestyle. And we'll keep on waiting to see our Sister... With lots and loads of affection. Wishes from India...

[@madisonj8828]

Don't you understand? She's out for a new happiness. True happiness. She is NOT coming back. And I respect her for that. Her choice was very wise. I may not know anything about her and her social media, but I know she is out there living a happier life. Don't pull her back.

[@jqxx2538]

@@madisonj8828 no. She might come back. Its not that she hates making videos or sharing content, she loved it but she lost herself in the midst of it. This was her happiness, her dream. I don't think she's ready to stop. She's still creating, through her brand. Through her social media, she has said that she will return once she recharges, referencing this anime (?) character that recharges before he returns again, stronger. In the description of this video, she also says she'll come back once she feels inspired to share again. Yes, she is happy now. But it doesn't mean she won't come back, no one can guarantee that she will, but she might. If you don't follow her or know her I guess you really don't know then. She's still uploading videos on her brand's channel.

[@madisonj8828]

Well she has disappeared for a year.

[@madisonj8828]

So i took a pretty good guess

[@irenechow8501]

@@madisonj8828 what happen to her.. I dnt understood

[@nafhar]

Here here after watching Marlenas dear influencers video... now i understand why Michelle Phan left ... so sad to see these pioneers of the beauty community leaving the platform... these are people who paved the way for the current influencers...

[@Ash_W04]

She's not completely gone though, I just watched her Jaclyn Hill lipstick review with Promise 😆

[@lilithjade4363]

Nafha Rasooldeen what was marlenas video about

[@faithsimon2947]

I complete and utterly miss Michelle's videos. I started watching her when I was 10 and I'm 19 now. Time really flies.

[@aliceontheinternet123]

Faith Simon me too

[@zephirothia]

u made me feel very old girl..i watched her when i was 25...guess how old i am now lol...n yet still hangout on youtube..dont i have kids and career to look after?? what am i doing here?? ok bye

[@kaitlinpave2678]

Faith Simon I felt this 💗💗💗... Our generation lives in and threw social media

[@VentiColdbrew_]

Me too exactly

[@ArtisticPainter2364]

I watched her when I was 11 and I’m 16 now :(

[@redBeckspider]

Why is everyone so bitter about her success lol. She's a person of ethnic minority and came from very a low economic status. She had many odds against her- it's not like she had everything handed to her on a silver platter. If anything, it should be inspiring?

[@diannasalva3116]

Rebecca, I agree with you, 100%.

[@AbsoluteXero]

Because other ppl started off with the same problems and they didn't become successful like her.

[@iwannaseesnow]

some white girls ( not everyone ) are racist, they dislike successful Asian woman

[@jenamaen]

Rebecca true! couldnt have said it any better!;)

[@AdnanKhan-ty2sl]

At this moment in time, I'm taking a dumb.

[@iamkareno]

The best story teller alive. Made me tear up. 😘😭😻

[@Nora-ik4mg]

IAMKARENO :)

[@freesoul2176]

i love you kareno so muchh u make me happy in every time you post a video

[@kaskass]

IAMKARENO same

[@elisasancho600]

omg I wasn't expecting you to watch Michelle phan

[@julie_tania_renee]

Elisa Sanchez If I'm not wrong, they are very close friends

[@sophiaahmed7623]

Who is watching this in august 2019? And hoping for a new video even after two years of silence?

[@lavenderpetals64214]

You got your wish she just posted a new video

[@RutujaDicholkar]

And it happened!

[@cultchaology]

this aged well.

[@musical_trashie0952]

sophia ahmed and now she did :)))

[@baigel4913]

Aww Michelle this is heartbreaking hate the idea of you being in pain 😞 I'm glad your on this new journey

[@ellazacharyga1332]

Baigel Reacts :(

[@zurple0r]

Hi

[@personstudios8587]

Baigel Reacts i

[@SumDumGai5]

Baigel Reacts No more TV commercials, I suppose.

[@nuts6033]

Bruh.. everyone goes through hard times :P she's not perfect, just like anyone else

[@akidearest]

Absolutely beautiful the way you perfectly painted the road to success and the hardships that come with it; for anything. Also, for anyone that had conflicting feelings on the ending having ads, know this is something she's working on for herself without anyone really telling her to. As she said, she is still striving to continue creating and discover more without anyone dictating her. Now she can use the money she's earned from her previous success and the lessons she's learned to build another chapter of her life. Thank you Michelle, I hope you found peace during your time away. Good luck.

[@jasmine3572]

hi aki!

[@karmascapes]

akidearest 😲😲 OMG AKIII!! Hi!

[@sleeepy181]

Oshit aki, sup?

[@smol3361]

what a koinkydence

[@bethanygreen6175]

akidearest ah hi Aki! Didn't see ya here :33 love ya!

[@SooryaRajesh]

My first ever beauty guru. Most importantly, the one who taught me that it's cool to be kind, passionate and curious. Thank you, Michelle. I wish you all the best in your future endeavors.

[@jfvb4054]

she uploaded again guys... she’s back to save us

[@joyfied1196]

i hope she's feeling well ❤

[@abdulrhmanadelsalam]

Shane needs to make a series with her , there is so much i need to know about her and her life .. so much

[@Gothmothh]

Honestly I wouldn't want Shane to do that I love Shane Dawson a lot and I also love her but I think she's ok I don't think she'd like it if she comes back the beauty community is so fucked up right now I don't want her to get hurt or go back the toxicness (idk if that makes sense I'm sorry)

[@MinhNguyen-fv4js]

And I also don’t think she would do it, she never liked being famous and didn’t like the fame. So I’m sure she’d lay low but it’s okay I still love her

[@Gothmothh]

Minh Nguyen agreed

[@KerriFairy88]

Yes!

[@luzhernandez5321]

I think it would be great but not sure if she'll be willing which would be understandable

[@alyshajohnson1515]

Can you imagine that all the KZbin's we watch now will end up like this in a few years

[@malkamanifested]

alysha johnson omg that's true...

[@Glacial_Wintrr]

Oh... now I'm just sad.

[@bellaengalla7829]

So sad 😭

[@kaylagarcia6581]

Please stop now is not the time to play with my emotions

[@promethanol4162]

Well now I'm depressed

[@blueoranges6961]

She really paved the way for the beauty community. Legend. This girl I know loves all these toxic ass beauty gurus and when i talked about Michelle Phan she was like who? Makes me sad people missed out on such an inspiration

[@Cayoroots]

And this is why celebrities turn to drugs and get depressed. Don't be so hard on them

[@holobackpack4848]

I think the biggest reason we love your videos is because you remind us of those innocent days where KZbin wasn't a career, but a field of people expressing their passions and joy. You can't find passion or joy on here anymore. Just people basing their worth on the validation of strangers. Best of luck in finding your joy again❤️

[@whitneyhoustonstan2472]

Kristen Embry lmao so many ppl act like making money off of KZbin videos is a taboo or a sin. Like it's not wrong to make money. And the fact that young people are able to make money doing what they personally aspire to do as a lifelong job is quite amazing and something that should be admired.

[@inkyheaven]

Kristen Embry I totally get what you're saying. Beautiful comment worth thinking over actually. It's not that having a career out of KZbin is bad, but everything comes with a price and one slightly influential person's actions /lifestyle or a trend these days influences many others. It isn't just KZbin, society increasingly has been lacking soul. On the one hand you can say we have people who are very aware and open minded and accepting (compared to previous generations) , but there's also a lot of emphasis on glamour and marketability. Competition, the survival of the most aggressive and active lot, brings a strange obsession for perfection. A world where everything is for sale, is ultimately stifling as a whole, whether it brings profit for individuals or not is a different question altogether.

[@PlanetGrunge]

Probably one of the most genuine KZbinrs today. I find it so moving that you were able to be so honest with us and share how you really feel. You will always receive hate, that's part of being a part of this world, as you know. Some people just don't want to be empathetic and that's okay. Your talent, ambition, kindness and honesty will take you to beautiful places. Here's to you finding your true happiness. And whenever and if ever you return - we will be here, like we were 10 years ago.

[@Catfood19143]

Yxzmine Aww you are so sweet ❤ That's hard to find nowdays. (If she saw your comment) it probably meant alot to her ❤

[@TaniaDey1326]

Wow you amazingly expressed how we feel.

[@zakmik2341]

She's The Best!

[@Ufsykmbdseyjhbds]

I miss your voice it's so authentic and relaxing.

[@lifestyleofcori1792]

Sky Cornfield I swear it is then the animations are so soulful and beautiful 😩

[@lamingtongirl123]

Sky Cornfield She's not really authentic...I've heard bad things so I can't really look at Michelle the same way.

[@Ufsykmbdseyjhbds]

lamingtongirl123 what did she do?

[@85corolla]

Sky Cornfield Never judge a book by its cover, just saying. Not that I am saying she was bad.

[@maiatamati7865]

Sky Cornfield ikr

[@cherryjello3921]

"Back then, I was showing you how to look more beautiful. Now, I want to show you how to feel more beautiful." -Michelle Phan this is my most favorite quote like ever, I grew up with you watching your videos. Im in love with art and want to be a illustrator doing concept art for video games, shows, movies and/ or books. You taught the most important things on chasing your dreams. You're my role model and I am very thankful I watched such an amazing role model for kids when I was younger. Thank you

[@abcdefoff3307]

Her voice is really soothing.

[@nayeyi1012]

i could hear her talk for hours and i would never be tired of her voice

[@appellationsobriquet6205]

I'm crying whilst watching this.. I've been a fan of yours since 2007 when I was only 11 years old. I will always support you no matter what and completely understand your reasons for taking a break. Love you Michelle, and always will! xxx

[@whyhellomichelle]

Appellation Sobriquet her true fans will always support her

[@urahairymonster]

Appellation Sobriquet me too!! I couldn't help but tear up! She's had such a positive impact on me and I couldn't believe that she was struggling so much. I'm so happy that she found peace 💕

[@cyborgsaiko]

Sneaky Snek stop making me cry

[@EfeBurakEfextina]

"next video *why i left again* lol" Seriously? She didn't said "im back" This is her last video. Stop bullying her...

[@thetake-geopolitics4961]

Efe Burak you don't know that

[@christai8558]

Jvrlucena unfortunately, she did reply to a comment on Instagram saying that her KZbin journey has ended.

[@thetake-geopolitics4961]

crose Novela ahhhhhh, I'm so sad now

[@karlawolfia259]

Efe Burak Say* Not said, say.

[@cigdemt3670]

Efe Burak aha bir Türk

[@aisha-gd2ky]

Lesson: don’t let your ego over take your true self, don’t let the judgement and expectation of others take priority of what makes you truly happy. Hope you’re well Michelle - watched you ten years ago when I was a young girl, now I watch you as a young woman and you’re still inspiring bravery and the truth. 💗

[@Sk-do3jt]

This is so me and it all still isn't dissapeared yet, I think this counts for most ppl too much enemines

[@tinangpagala5265]

she have the most beautiful voice in all the influencers

[@mallorymallory1518]

JAY ruinmi long story short: youtube was toxic for her

[@Sh3ngLong]

I don't know Michelle Phan, nor have I seen any of her videos, but this video definitely resonates with me. I hope she finds her bliss as she begins her spiritual journey. Sending her much love and light.

[@z.n.j1267]

same

[@emilymarierobertson]

Larz me too 💜

[@Balomari1]

Exactly

[@Balomari1]

I just saw this when I when to see my brothers account on KZbin then I saw this so I tapped on it and I love this story but it’s very sad

[@Rakeru93]

I cried, you always get me so emotional Michelle. I've been watching you for the past 7 years and this made as emotional as your Sailor Moon video. So glad to see you're building yourself up again. Life isn't a flat line, and it may seem hard to keep moving, but it only makes us better human beings. Love you. And good luck for you too!

[@itha5363]

i miss when there's no TEA , canceled culture .. beauty community so toxic and full of drama.. we really miss you :(

[@karinarose2726]

Please share more of what you did to buy time Michelle. I'd like to see more of your realness and experiences. Share the hard, easy, and anything but.

[@retiredfatui]

Karina Rose she left everything behind her and didnt look back, 8 minute mark

[@karinarose2726]

yes i watched the whole video but does that mean she left even her old relationships and how did it affect her. if she doesn't want to share I'll be here no matter what.

[@theebeautybunny]

this was absolutely beautiful. I am speechless. welcome back, Michelle.

[@theebeautybunny]

Nat Mont can't what?

[@natmonnttt981]

I think I posted that by accident.

[@StephiNguyen]

I saw this notification and had to immediately watch. As a Vietnamese woman, Michelle Phan truly inspires me inside and out. This video was absolutely beautiful and I can completely relate to her background story. I'm chasing my dreams through KZbin and highly encourage you to follow your passion as well!

[@Jenny-ir6ng]

Stephi Nguyen girlll❤

[@8DarthGhost8]

Stephi Nguyen this video had nothing to do with Vietnam or being Vietnamese...

[@bethanydelay1638]

8DarthGhost8 ok who cares

[@hridbarai6565]

8DarthGhost8 yeah but Michelle is Vietnamese

[@xlectraheart]

Stephi Nguyen So if she wasn't Asian you wouldn't like her?

[@corinaceren1]

You are the reason why started my KZbin channel. You might be the reason why I’m going to leave 😌

[@simplynautica3233]

I hope you are happy ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@britaneyxx]

ok

[@jennyneedsmeds]

ok

[@shadeen680]

SHE IS NOMINATED FOR BEAUTY INFLUENCER 2018 , PEOPLE'S CHOICE AWARDS. GO VOTE FOR HER , I JUST DID.

[@MalikkMeza]

Shadeen Sajid why... like yes she was one of the best beauty gurus but she did absolutely nothing this year if anything it should be the ones who actually upload to influence the community in a good way

[@shadeen680]

@@MalikkMeza because she did a lot of the work offline . And she did influence in regards to makeup. Relaunching a whole makeup line again and doing so much other stuff . She didn't upload this year but she did to a lot of stuff offline. And there's a reason she is nominated so I think she deserves a vote . But yeah everyone has different opinions

[@miago2285]

Welcome Back Michelle, we've missed you. I'm so proud of you for this. Thank you ♡

[@stcfanie]

michelle was the first youtuber i ever watched im sobbing

[@cyborgsaiko]

and I'm legit crying

[@lalapisy]

jimin's jams are in my fridge same

[@nishupatwary9369]

She actually taught us about reality more than our schools did.

[@saladcaesar7716]

It's our job to search about reality. Not anyone else's job.

[@momo-qr2wl]

Michelle this is absolutely beautiful. Good for you for having the courage to step out and heal, I can't wait to view your new projects.

[@AmandaEnsing]

So beautiful! You were the first person I ever watched and was one of the people who inspired me to begin my journey. Thoughts and prayers to you and your family! I wish you happiness and health!

[@ItzNeenaNique]

I love you ♥

[@brendalee4027]

Neena & Nique

[@masonminor177]

She said she’ll return when she’s inspired to share new ideas. It’s been almost two years. I guess it will be a long time for her to be inspired. :(

[@Nitaka12]

She'll return when she runs out of money.

[@Sandraebenezer1]

@@Nitaka12 Yeah, because there isn't other ways of income. Only KZbin right?

[@andreacantarrero7817]

@@Nitaka12 KZbin wasn't a source of income back in the day. She probably sees how disgusting the beauty community is and doesn't want to come back.

[@shookyyoongs745]

@@andreacantarrero7817 so true

[@laflaquitadetexas]

@@andreacantarrero7817 you hit the nail in the head!!!

[@btsmylife1495]

Here after her recent video of kylie skin review collab with promise...we miss u queen😢

[@Rooskwa]

Every youtuber should watch this from time to time.

[@myselfc2244]

Rooskwa Mostly the Paul's

[@WoFanPR]

KZbin Is not for real people like you anymore to much clickbate, copypaste, drama, ego stuff, etc just for money. Thanks for Let us believe about dreams come true with your example.

[@MaroonStorm]

You're right about that! KZbin will never match it's glory days when money wasn't involved...

[@FaithandNova]

@@MaroonStorm I actually looking forward to the day the either cut their pay so we can weed out the phonies.

[@summerrossi9457]

It’ll be EPIC when she makes a return

[@caitr3149]

The entire beauty community will be QUAKING!!!

[@yakeisoba1]

She is still there at Promise Phan's channel

[@anielson6152]

@@yakeisoba1 yeah!!! i love promise

[@enila.g8590]

Michelle doesn’t even wear makeup anymore /.\

[@anathemaaaa]

I miss her, but her happiness is so much more important. I can't imagine how her mental health would suffer in the current beauty climate :(

[@sotaesty2]

A beautiful soul indeed

[@tiffvo9545]

사랑keilana Jimin-shi

[@kels4life519]

사랑keilana shut up

[@tiffvo9545]

Kels4life geez

[@katie_the_lady]

June 2018 anyone?

[@pamelawhite4352]

Katie Weinhold yee

[@cyborgsaiko]

Yess. Ahh she's releasing some new products and hearing her voice in her ig stories was so bittersweet :')

[@cookiegirl1104]

Katie Weinhold me

[@King-bl8oe]

Yup

[@lestercrest5158]

yea

[@solfm1995]

There are many chances that you will not read this, that it will not matter, but this video made me cry. I remember the first video I saw of you in 2012, I remember what I used your videos in some moments. You always gave me a wonderful person, you were the first famous person I admired. I still remember when you mentioned me on a pillow talk how much everything has changed. I am very happy that you are finding your way, I am very happy that you are looking for happiness. You will always mean something to me. Thank you. Good luck.

[@shojololi9430]

This would be an amazing manga. Girl power. Growing up. Finding who you are. All those people who hurt you and tried to take control. Perfect villain. I still Michelle. But this is what's vest for you. And I hope you are happy now.