And happy new year! This year Im learning german to become a train driver there, so that's taking most of my time. Some of my resolutions in the creative realm are mostly about maintaining the "flame" alive, to not let stuff like my channel or my journaling habits die when I'm busy and to keep a baseline of documenting/snapshotting this period too, made a couple videos going more into detail ab it as well. I don't have an intended theme thats going to thread thru everything like "frame studies", i do have a yt channel project im narrowing down on that's not this one but aside from that i don't have a pre-thought focus

3:30 what video was this?

you’re so under rated man i don’t understand how you aren’t way bigger than

Happy new Year, Visa! Wishing you and your family lovely and interesting times ahead!

happy new year visa

Hey Visa! I used to enjoy your twitter content but at some point I got auto-blocked for some reason 😢 do you mind unblocking me? @0xmmo

good yap sesh, the screaming event was so funny 😂, didn't know about that haahhahha it must've been hilarious and cathartic. do you know if more of those spawned because of yours? aside from the "event organizer" job offers lol the part about "singapore has its best years ahead" and how SEA in general is handling the internet better than EU/US is really interesting to hear as a (mostly) european. I think just the fact that you believe that is powerful in itself, here in europe (or, well, to not generalize, spain where i'm from, germany where i'm going) the vibe is certainly not "the best years are ahead" and i think that takes a toll on people's souls. Even though you're just one person with one opinion i think you speak from having observed your surroundings i'd say the overall "vibe" there is much more positive than the vibe here (even if on the ground/mainstream media doomerism can be similar throughout regions) and for the parts that concern me personally in the "yapping business", i think this talk was a nice moment to reflect on how i'm balancing my "yapping" and my "analysing" and i think i'm doing way too much yapping and way too little analyzing lol. i refuse to be grouped with "the clueless" players simply bc of vibe reasons LMAO but i am probably acting way more "cluelessly" than "seriously". I will say that "yapping kinda cluelessly but not quite fully clueless" still has some benefits, but there's tension and frustration in playing like that. It's not really "in the middle", "ayy lmaoing" between "playing cluelessly" and "playing too strongly, crashing and burning" benefiting from compounding growth + hacking media etc, it's off balance.

great video! what resonated with me: i've come across you convincing yourself multiple times that "just being prolific" is generally a good thing no matter what, but there's clearly an ever-present unconscious blocker to that thinking that you have to "logic" yourself out of every time. maybe the next time you feel resistance, you can trust that "just do/make it" would be the conclusion you come to if you think about it for a while, and that lets you skip the thinking and skip straight to the doing :) (and i say this as someone who similarly struggles!)

hey V., thanks for the video. some things I thought while watching that may or may not resonate: firstly, this interpretation of "inner sanctum" reminded me of something a brazilian writer calls "an untouchable inner truth", something we're always chasing, trying to pinpoint with words etc. and because you were digressing (very much a feature of your communication, not a bug), I thought of the idea of rituals and how repetition (of words, of movements, of offerings) is essential to sacralize something. in a way, the wrestling bell and the sidewalk stars are talismans, they are the destination of energy, and in a way the photos and plaques placed in public spaces work like that too, as anchor points for attention and energy. saying this to reflect on how this appears in what you do, what the equivalent of talismans might be and which are the "offerings" that are repeated (talking points, the core concepts of your philosophy idk), how all this relates to the chosen iconography etc oh I think there are two paths here, one in which you analyze these things about the media pieces that catch your eye (media studies I guess), and the analysis of how this movements happen in your own personal stories/your work (in the broad sense). Probably those paths cross each other in many points But mainly thinking of a structure in which there is a center (or a few) to which all paths lead, and one way to go might be to keep those nodes/anchors/stories/talismans/posts in sight while wandering around sounds a lot like your mind seem to work actually lol anyways, just some loose thoughts. thanks again for the video!

As I follow this thread all through the stupid bravery stuff you’ve written, it occurs to me that the more “we” make in public, the more artifacts we leave for future makers normalizing the process of creating, and, maybe, the more we train the machines to make like humans. (A welcome correction for the amount of creating driven by machines of all sorts perhaps) We is in quotes there because I mean we humans, not that I myself have triumphed over my own “stupid chicken” nature to create much… yet. Thanks for your meanderings. I’ve had a couple of 🤯 this morning from following them. So there’s that. Too.

It’s weird that from the creator’s perspective it feels like you’re repeating yourself (this happens to me too). But as a viewer/reader it’s almost never how I experience it, even if I am watching and reading all of someone’s stuff. I also feel like your particular “niche” is so vast that you can talk about what feels like the same thing thousands of times and it’ll always feel new to me. It gets deeper with each rotation and that’s fun to witness.

I feel your point about a massive volume of junk but think it's probably not that bad. The good stuff surfaces anyway; either if you go on a channel page and sort by "most popular" or a good video is pushed into the feed/recommendations by the algorithm. Most people know what to expect from your content and come back for you talking about more or less the same topics. The same way viewers come back to a woodworking channel building a table again and again (this time with blue resin, dark finish, etc.) So, its ok or to be expected that you repeat yourself sometimes. If you really want to grow your channel, you'd probably want to make every video as polished and high quality as possible (at least sth that mr beast preaches). But ig thats not your goal given time constraints and if you see a vid as a rep to figure sth out for yourself.

lol "looking for stimulation" i like that i thought your autoconvicing was interesting, the point about saying the same 5 things 500 times. i think that if you "have to say" it 500 times that's indeed telling as you said, it's its own sign of something. for example in my own journey ive made essentially the same video several times because i felt like i still "had to say it". and conversely, now i've stopped the continuous rhythm of production, because of time in a sense, but also, because i realized that i don't feel that need to "have to say", now i "have to say" other things (that i'll put somewhere else) but i still think that like your stuff with malcolm, i don't know when the things i've said will be useful, so i've no regrets of having said them, they were the things i had to say then and in the process i found out that for the moment, i just don't need to keep saying them. all this to essentially say that in a way i find admirable the fact that people find their 5 or 10 things to say so early

i've read you talk about it on substack, and i think there's also a thread with pictures? but i'd like to hear you talk about the idea of inner sanctum and how it relates to the meta-structure of your work no pressure to get to the Thing ofc, just riff about it ^^

Amongst my friends, I like to ramble a lot if I get excited about a topic. This video makes me wonder if I should do that in public in the form of youtube videos. It has always been scary to think about uploading content and worrying about any potential negatives that may come with it. I don’t often think about the positive benefits from doing that because I have always felt the negatives out weigh the positives. I am often spending so much time in my own mind that I don’t get to connect with the real world/ other people. It has been hard to overcome when you let the outside weigh so heavily on yourself.

"repetition legitimises (repetition legitimises)" - Adam Neely

Hmm yea why not pick an interesting topic you’ve very comfortable talking about, and just talk about it in front of the camera for <10mins everyday. Each talk/recording is one rep. And you repeat that rep for 100 (or 30) days. Same topic, over and over. You can remix what you’ve said before, you can try a different voice/lens to approach the topic, summarise what you’ve said before.. etc. Then on the “last” day, attempt to talk about the “best of” of the 30 or 100 reps.

I found your stuff through your interview with Chris Williamson. After reading some of your very old blog posts, watching some of your newer videos, I think I finally realised what draws me to your content. All your work (that I have seen at least) feels very conversational. It genuinely seems like I am sitting down with someone, they are feeding me this stream of consciousness and we are going on this journey of processing an idea in real time. I have no idea how stimulating that thought is, but I guess I was feeling some kind of stupid bravery of my own today.

super inspiring talk, visa! would love to hear you speak/write some more on tools for distinguishing "good" vs "bad" deviance...

appreciate all that you do, visa!@

Love this raw update walk and talk - you got my wheels turning, thanks Visa!

At 1:34:14 it occured to me that a conversation (in a mirror session) feels like a collaborative activity between two persons to build maps, make maps more high resolution/accurate, discover new ways to map (in other dimensions), notice unexplored territories, understand how the maps are used, which map(s) are useful and how, determine which part(s) within the self is using which map(s), reference how the map(s) have evolved over time, etc. I somehow find the maps analogy quite compelling. 🤔

Wonderful breakdown mate

34:55 “Who does that? Is it the creative, or the professional?” “Uhh… NOBODY does it hahahaha.” So relatable 🤣🤣

Wow, it so high quality

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wish you rest and recovering from the tiredness! 3 years does seem like both a long time, yet also a very short time. I was going to make a november status update too so i was looking at my channel and i realized it's only been 2 years since i started my 100 video series. It feels (in my body? like a similar sense of tiredness) like it's been such a long time ago and that i've been doing it forever, but if i think about it it's just been such a small part of my life so far. and i love caroline, you've worded it very well, the "seeing her think" part is a big factor of why i watch her that i don't think i'd ever articulated, even tho i've made one or two videos about how and why i like her videos so much lol. i've always focused more either on the vulnerability and related abilities, or the "meta" abilities like sense of pacing, etc, but her "pedagogy"/way of thinking about interior design and breaking stuff down is definitely another thing that i really admire from her.

Sorry in case you mentioned this somewhere else I missed, just curious if you knew “Are you serious” was a different tier of sorts before it was published, or was that something you realised after the response you got from it?

fascinating...

This is so real. Been running into this so regularly.

I think there are two people grabbing for the steering wheel in my brain: the 'child' who wants to do what feels good in the now and the 'Adult' who wants to protect the child but also feel good about it. I messed up in school because outside reasons and lack of natural 'intelligence'. So I made up for it in college by grinding as hard as I could, till burn out. And I realised, this was why I messed up in school too. Because I thought of living as 'you have fun' or 'you grind till your arms fall off' Now, I still fall prey to this black and white thinking and balancing the child and Adult as they fight for control. The times when harmony has worked out, is when both are satisfied somehow (it feels good in the now and The Adult feels good about it) Those times are rare unfortunately

Nice, love it

Hey man, just wanna say I enjoyed listening to your perspectives and your unique personal takes on living more publicly. It’s especially refreshing and feels close to home with your Singaporean take on it! 🇸🇬 I’m someone who has been pretty private and low profile all my life. And it makes me anxious thinking about all the criticisms and hate that could be amplified if i were to take on a more public persona. As someone who tends to reflect and introspect a lot… Ive been quite mentally exhausted before processing things that I’ve said or others said and takes time to overcome it logically and emotionally. Yet, as you’ve mentioned - putting yourself out there is a great way to invite people to connect. Cos how else would people know what you stand for and join you in your cause? And perhaps my realisation today is that shedding away the private life is a necessary lifestyle change to make. It’s a natural choice to make if the true intent is to increase reach and help a wider community.

13:50 on Friendly Ambitious Nerd 25:50 origin of labyrinth metaphor in Introspect 32:00 nerdy lineages 35:00 identity and representation 40:00 singapore 47:30 twitter 51:00 royal touch 58:15 isolated nerds 1:03:00 self-obsession from fear not love 1:06:00 asking for help 1:24:20 richdecibels' stringing up the hammock 1:26:00 rapid-fire questions

what is the podcast about?

Is this on Spotify? because I can't find

This one has slightly the better sound quality.

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The 'rewarding your readers' idea reminds me of how long form narratives were serialized in the newspapers like Sherlock Holmes

"I am giving up on trying to find better ways than doing what works" is a great quote!

I’m reminded of Calvin Harris saying it’s easier to start a song with a rough concept in mind OR the idea from "the timeless way of building" that the house builds itself in the mind with the patterns you want to incorporate.

regarding VV1/VV2 and maybe VV3, i was thinking the other day about the order in which one "should" read those. i think even tho i liked introspect/vv2, and i liked FAN/VV1, that just bc introspect hadn't come out at the time, I read them in that chronological order, but something of the aftertaste had me feeling like if i were to recommend the books myself to someone else, i would probably choose the reverse order. first read introspect, then FAN. i actually read a quote recently about an unrelated subject that was "if introspection were sufficient to reveal the true structure of human psychology, it's not clear why we would even need to do science; we would just know. It's precisely because careful observation and experiments can tell us things about ourselves that we didn't already know, that science is useful.", and even though it is about a different topic it somehow made it click lol. introspect as the starting point and FAN as the frame after it from what i've read from you i think that introspect kinda arose after that post-FAN era, the "VV2 era" was borne out of the feedback of that, out of the things ppl were missing, ppl's blindspots that you saw, so maybe you agree with that order as well. and tying it to the frame studies/substack/VV3 era maybe the added challenge is that this is actually going to be what goes after VV2 instead of "before it" so there's no "gaps to fill" and it's more uncharted. the "if you were to make just one [x] per year what would it be" question is interesting. i'm blanking out tbh, i think questions going around it often but i never come up with a satisfying answer for myself. maybe it's because my [x] is youtube videos and i (maybe mistakenly, given my audience lol) see them as spiritual dialogues so i expect to come back in a back and forth continuously rather than "tackle something in a big blow" and then dip. i relate to what you said about the "video essay" thing as well, in my case not bc of time constraints bc i have a kid tho lol, just bc i can't find my voice, and maybe even more importantly, the message, for that "container". i do think it's probably time for my version of thinking of, maybe in my case not OK computer but my Creep/Pablo Honey instead of keeping playing gigs at taverns, or maybe even practicing at the school music room On A Friday lol

some co-living houses have chore charts but that makes cleaning up feel like…a chore. Instead we just host a weekly dinner and housemates naturally clean up beforehand cuz their friends are coming

little one seeing all around looking at sounds

YOU HAVE SIBLINGS?!? PLURAL?!?? That is by far the greatest revelation of this podcast. I can’t believe I’ve followed you for years and was led to believe you were an only child! Despite the noise, nice episode - always fascinating to hear more Visa & Sharan lore!

Looking forward to see the next iteration!

Just came back from a trip. They are great chapter markers for life. Even the preparing and returning.

nice video

Visa, about "you should quit when you feel its time to quit", but what if the feeling is just to escape short term pain but looking back it feels worth it to pushing back against the feeling and completing, how do you distinguish between genuine feeling of "this most probably wont work" lets pack it aside and low level urge to just give up when difficulty sets in "this is too much effort, I could do xyz and get better results right now" which might feel good since it feels like progress, but you are stuck in a pit of low level effort which is not good enough if you want to perform at higher level and achieve higher goals?