Usually, people can almost never tell who is fronting. I have only told my closest friend about my system, and they only could tell one time when my alter asked where he had to go for a place I already knew

I've been doing research on DID and alters since an awakening last year where I realized I was a therian. It feels like a bpd thing but I was starting to think it's a did thing and now I think it's osdd instead but I still feel so alligned with my bpd diagnosis. And the bpd overlap makes things extra confusing, because I relate to so many of these things but I worry about labelling myself incorrectly out of a worry of being wrong about myself and misrepresent DID as a whole. I also don't know if bpd and osdd can technically "exist at the same time" in the sense of being diagnosed with both because of both of the disorders fundamental functions. As much as I've learned in this past while, I still feel confused, and I know I wont ever know the truth about anything and everything but it is pretty damn tiring feeling like you misunderstand yourself all the time. Very much appreciate this video

oh no, the emotional amnesia is painfully relatable i feel i have alota memories with little to no connection to what i was feeling, i would have to guess my memory shit feels like a pile of a mess, everything so messy and memories can require so much digging, idk why

Just wanted to say I really found the video informative and enjoyed it. It’s also impressive how well you seem to articulate things, I just thought I’d point it out because why not

Thank you so, so much. You have no idea how much this means to me.

The main problem Im having at the moment is that I dont seem to be switching, or having amnesia gaps ( i think ) I don't really have crystal clear memory of my days, but not hour long chunks of memory suddenly disappearing, sure that has happened, but I could still recall somethings And the switching, I do think it happens, but Im always kind of me, llike I dont black out. So I can notice it it by a change is speech, mood, behaiviour, interest, not want to listen to a song or show that I would die for, etc. And I have kind of talked to myself, what felt like I was talking to someone else, since I was a kid So that leads me to believe I don't have DID, or Im faking it, But I also think I have did, Im just very very confused to be honest

So happy to see you back!

You're doing the work. Thank you. This was so needed

Hii!! I’m a little in our system! I’m helping doing research because our therapist tried to tell us we weren’t a system and that we have never dissociated! I Got my name when little us was with our grandma and when the body was little she always called us pumpkin!!and I really liked that name!! So I used it now :D (P.s. we know about each other because I write in a journal and I guess I didn’t hide it good enough and the host found it hehe)

I'd like to find out a) the exact brain activities that define each of the four quadrants b) brain activity variations within each quadrant, which define different dissociative states

a lot of this is wish i heard years ago after i brought up something to a therapist in our first session and in the 10 minutes of knowing me she told me i “didnt seem crazy enough”

i just noticed unfamiliar people talking to me in my head and had no idea how to speak to them individually because i had no way to refer to them so i just gave them names based on other names i used and they were fine w them because they never really thought of names theirselves i guess

the amount of times i leave notes to myself like “this thing happens to me, i dont know why, and i dont really know how to explain it or if anyone else experiences anything familiar so i dont know how to explain” and then i see one of these videos and theyre like Oh that happens all the time actually thats quite normal im always so shocked ??? i feel like i am learning so much about things i already knew

Great to see you again :D

This reminded me that I kind of wanted to write a review for my terrible therapist so other people know what they’re getting into.

For me they either 1. Know their name already 2. Don't know yet but I help them choose one 3. I have name ideas but they have something else in mind so I just help them figure out which they like best if they all feel right

funny story once an alter formed and didn't have a name so we called them newbie... it's been a while now and newbie is still newbie so i guess it's their name now lol (newbie uses they/he)

For me it’s feeling physical things move in my brain and my upper body sort of sinking/dropping/being pulled

This was really helpful! Thank you so much! As a recently acknowledged system I (we) have problems with identifiing who is who. Im sure this will help us a lot :)

What if people with DID/OSDD don't feel the need to heal? Maybe they enjoy the multiplicity? Is that a problem? What if they don't feel the need to even get therapy? Should they resist that or be encouraged to get therapy anyway?

OMG we were reading this same book!!

your work, research and skill to break complex things down to a level where people are able to understand what’s going on is extraordinary. seriously.

Really long video? That left like 1 minute, I was so interested it flew by

I really relate to the example with the test. I also describe it to other like this: It’s like when you wake up and right after you’ve woken up you remember everything about the dream and then it quickly slips away and all you have left is a vague feeling about that dream. It might come back at a later stage though.

well, there goes my last excuse

Yayyy glad to see y’all back around <33

I love the technicality in this video. Looking forward to more. Welcome back.

I'm questioning whether I'm an osdd-1b system for a buncha different reasons and it's really confusing. I've been doing research for a while and checked out the dsm5, DES and other sites, I'm about 90% sure by this point that I likely have osdd-1b, but if anyone has any more resources or any advice for how to go about this I would be unbelievably grateful!

A small tip that helped my partner system that my system also does! If a journal seems like a big task to you, maybe consider getting one that can fit in your pocket. It makes it seem like a much smaller thing to do, and it's easier to carry arround. You have to replace them more often (especially with how much writing our system does) but it can help! Maybe you can even start with larger journals later!

So good to see yall!

I struggle with this a lot, one of the early rules our system set was "whoever you feel like you are, you are" bc of how much it happened.

Hi I recently discovered I'm a system & didn't know it! First video I've watched since after discovering this. (I say since after discovering it, I can't tell how long I've had it even tho pre-discovery me would've denied it) But yea awesome to find a resource about this! Shalt go back & watch more

I hadn't heard the distinction between faculty dissociation and multiplicity, but that makes so much sense. I'm glad to have the language for that now. As for the pathological vs non-pathological axis, I prefer to think of that as more of a spectrum from helpful to harmful, with neutral in the middle. Overall, great video! Looking forward to more from y'all in the future <3

I can’t decide which I like more - this video or your shirt.

it's ironic that you came back with a video now, when i was just diagnosed with osdd-1 yesterday! not specified because we don't fit neatly into either category, although probably 1b. i feel like we're somewhere between osdd-1b and p-did. i have been seeing this therapist for 3 1/2 years now and always said i wasn't looking for a diagnosis (focusing more on managing symptoms from other disorders), but she decided there's enough impairment that she's comfortable diagnosing me. and she thinks there are a wider range of presentations than are usually talked about, as she's seen them with various patients. i think my experiences along with others' is why multiplicity/plurality should be seen as more of a spectrum, including both pathological and non-pathological presentations, with a lot of us being somewhere in between the two. anyway, excited for the series and glad you're back! your videos about your experiences with being a system were helpful in describing some of my own experiences to our therapist, even if some have some outdated information. they are still helpful and i'm glad you're keeping them up. :)

Great to see you back. It does not seem right that only pathological multiplicity be called dissociation. People with PTSD can dissociate. Dissociation is part of the definition of borderline personality disorder. I look forward to your future videos.

you, the alexandrites, and the redwoods have all helped contribute to my interest in did/osdd research and activism pertaining to neurodivergency so thank you for yet another insightful video <3

HELL FUCKIN YEAH THEY'RE BACK

Y’all have helped me so much!!! I’m so happy to see you again ❤❤❤

You look so great! Great to see you!

Omg you're back!!!

I find isolating the definition to pathological dissociation a bad idea. It doesn't help at all and would probably result in the separation of the research into pathological dissociation from the rest. There is already a big separation between research and therapy in psychology, there is no need to make it bigger.

It’s great to see you guys making videos again! Yeesh a video from y’all and a video from Oak in the Alexandrite system so close together, what a treat😊

So happy you all are back in this time where misinformation is starting to go rampant again!

So happy to see you back. Y'all were the reason why I figured out that I'm part of a collective so it makes me so happy to see you doing this series. The first episode was really interesting and I'm looking forward to future episodes. Teagan

Would it be fair to restate one of the controversies you outlined as whether to name all trance states as dissociative, or whether to only name patholoogical trance states as dissociation? Or is trance state too broad a term, or not used in scientific research?

OMG!!!!! WELCOME BACK!!!!!!!!

This is not something i had thought about.

So glad to see you again! Exciting