unrelated to the video but I have a question! is it normal to, for a couple seconds as you're waking up you hear like a conversation but when you're actually awake it goes quiet? it happens with me but I can never make out what the conversations are!

Does anyone know any resources on sidesystems?

How can I connect with other people with OSDD or DID? Are there community networks or Facebook pages? I’d love to learn more about myself from people with lived and living experience so I can balance out all the clinical information online and from professionals face to face. It’s very one sided and often doesn’t speak to the complexity of the actual experience.

Welcome back, I realize we’ve been a bit out of the loop and didnt notice till today :o

Glad to see you again! Great video!

Just became self-aware of my system not even a month ago. Watching this and watching your most recent video about dental procedure consent. It helps thank you.

I really like your "reacting to scientific papers" series. With the way you're presenting it feels really calming and safe, not like reading papers myself and not knowing when I will stumble across something along the lines of "alters are not actually separate people". - host (he/him)

You uploaded! Yay :D We just got braces, the timing is great! - Bamboo

Thank you for sharing and breaking down this case study. Really interesting! 💜

Wow! Thank you for this video! I’m in my late 40’s recently diagnosed DID and wow DID has explained SO much about just labeling what my experiences have been. Anyway- I just discussed dental appointments with my therapist because last time I went was 3 years ago because (apparently) I switched and have amnesia for a time period of a procedure unknowningly so I complained about the tech because I saw her do something unsanitary and then next I knew she was putting her hands in my mouth without having changed gloves etc, so now I guess I basically want someone I trust to always go with me…

This is such a cool video!! Thank you!

This is the absolute best explanation of what it's like living with my system! The moving back and forth they have in their level of awareness and influence on what's going on in the moment. This WILL help people understand what is going on in their own life.

When we had our wisdom teeth surgery we didn't tell our dentist about our DID as we very much do not feel safe disclosing our diagnosis with people we do not know very personally. Switched multiple times during the procedure but everything went smoothly as we are a very high co-operation system 😅 it's great to hear that systems are being accommodated in medical environments outside of psychiatry/therapy tho. I do wish we lived in a world where it was safe to let just anyone (medical profession or not) know about our DID. But due to the stigma & abelism surrounding these disorders, I don't feel like that's a reality yet 😢 this paper is a step in the right direction tho!

Yayy a new upload! Thank you for this :)

oh hi - im here for a video 👍

Hooray for the new upload! Glad to see more videos from you&.

We had a similar encounter. We actually wondered if this was about us. It was not. Mostly we needed them to know that they may need to remind us what happened, where we are, and to know which littles they may encounter and to not overreact to them, and to give them a keyword to prompt a switch to an adult (we have a few trigger words that will absolutely switch us, due to them prompting extreme flashbacks, but the person who pops out is an adult and ideally was the person who went under.) We know things went smoothly, though we dont know if they used that word. If they did, the switch was absolutely fine and not remembered. I like this idea that our ability to consent is very sacred, and in general, we do not try to step on each other's toes. I understand the worry about a system with infighting, especially if someone has trauma that could be triggered by the procedure.

I'm so glad you posted this lol. One of our goals for 2025 is to actually get ourselves to the dentist, which we are not looking forward to, to say the least. 😬

Nice to know that there are doctors out there who will work with accommodations. We've got a pretty good handle generally on how we navigate dental appointments, but we've definitely had a few rough switches here and there - Other Jayson

I absolutely agree with healthcare professionals outside of just mental health need to be more educated. I just found out about my plurality earlier this year and went to a doctor to be referred to the mental health team here in Iceland and maybe a psychologist, but he had *never* even heard of anything like DID or OSDD or anything like that. It was kind of a shock that an educated and professional doctor had no knowledge of this, I am now talking to a psychiatrist though which is helping with searching for someone to diagnose me. - Sky p.s. great video as always!

❤ - Class Act, Bird-snake and tardis.

perfect timing as i, a member of a system, have an orthodontist appointment soon lol

Hi! a new upload! Good to see you posting again.

YEAHHHHHHHH 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

i just had an insane dream experience. one of us was dreaming about something very confusing and devastating, and we were watching through their eyes. we woke up, yet this alter kept dreaming. like, we were trying to get out of bed and all, but couldn't even try to get up and we jept having that feeling of slipping back into sleep, but our eyes were still open. and any time we did that, the same dream was still playing out and things kept heppening, and we finally realized this alter was still asleep. one of us was able to appear as an alien in the dream and tell them that they needed to wake up. they turned away, looked into their coffee cup, and inside was alphabet soup spelling out "wake up." as soon as they woke up they realised it was us. i didn't even know this was possible and i'm on the verge of thinking that i've made this whole thing up. but this video exists, and i feel less alone reading through the comments.

5:40 We've been questioning if we may be a system for a while now (w/ no actual help and dismisive doctors), and there's one alter (lets call them Sol) that was kinds mean a lot. Sol for a while didn't think we could be a system and that it was prolly smth else. Basicly, being aggressive and cruel bc they thought we weren't a system. (We're good now, Sol isn't as mean now.) My question is this: "Could a Persecutor be targeting the system as a whole for being a system, and not bits of the system?"

One thing we experience a lot with dreaming / sleeping is the occasional having older alters urging younger ones, that might be co-con or closer to the front, to sleep, and having their sleepiness bleed over into the whole body. And then sometime during the night, there will be stuff like physical lashing out, protesting, and sometimes screaming (not like scared screaming, but more of a, ".....why is the body so heavyyyyy why is this happenninggggg???" feeling, like you're being forced back to sleep by other alters even though you as an alter might not be mentally sleepy at all, like the decision to sleep was made without your full agreement or awareness, so you're confused) All of it feels so weird that we're sometimes unsure of whether or not these instances really happened, unless someone else like our partner can point them out. Other times, it feels like we dreamt them.

This is so awesome! Since we are a system and dreaming/ dreamscience is one of our special interests, this video was super interesting and helpful! I‘d love to see more or read on the topic sometime.

Old video but I noticed you're wearing a black ring, is that for asexuality or something different?

I thought i was alone on the 'pressure above the eyes' part

6:39 Holy cow. I've had so many dreams where I keep finding tons of kittens and I keep getting overwhelmed and failing to keep them all in one place and taken care of. It might mot mean anything, but it's still bizarre to think that that's such a common dream for me.

most of mine are dormant i believe

Its like a lava lamp lol

We don't know who we are and its the first time. Were scared and confused right now. This is helping us feel better

for me it’s like sticking my head into a pool of syrup. the deeper i go into a memory that wasn’t “mine,” the slower the thoughts are and harder it is to focus and i get a weird sensation in my head.

Gonna vent for the first time about this, I need some place to get it off. My chest. I am very scared about if I am faking… it’s been months since I fully realized it and I’m honestly scared to try and get diagnosed at all. My partners (I’m poly) are very supportive of me, but I also am scared of… if I am faking, then what’s wrong with me? And what will become of the life I’ve had with the ‘alters’ I’ve been living with for so long who have helped me through a lot. This is my first time ever even bringing it up outside of my partners or super close friends/family… and I’ve been so scared every day since I started notice it about what if I’m faking, what if it’s not real and I’m just a liar.. and it’s scary because I don’t know, and due to other mental health issues, I’m scared a therapist would see that and simply dismiss other things I may be going though. (It’s happened before with something else, the guy just dismissed my worries and basically said ‘no, I don’t think that’s right’ and let me leave). I’m so paranoid and it takes such a toll, and I’m so scared to bring it up to anyone.

Oh GOD. The speech withdrawal is so real. Our protector-prosecutor (K) hold us back ALL THE TIME. He hates giving others control, especially to the caregiver (S) (they have a really complicated relationship), and when the S is fronting, it feels like he physically holds her not to say anything that he considers harmful for us in the long run. She (or I) can just try to say "Oh, of course we are friends" to someone she (or I) genuinely considers a friend and K just won't let her. If she (or I) manages to say it somehow, we get this foreign emotions of panic and anxiety and this almost painful need to cut contact with said person. Even though both S and I don't want to, and it will actually really hurt S emotionally I also remember how when I was fronting, one of our ex-friends mentioned wanting to comfort all three of us, including K "if he doesn't mind". And you know, I'm used to being liked by people, so the comfort wouldn't affect me much, but K just sent a WAVE of emotion. I can't really identify them, but it's that kind of emotions when someone who's been cold and detached from people and who's been sure that everyone wants to harm him (sometimes rightfully so) gets genuine kind treatement and is like "what? someone likes me?"

WAIT. wait. So undiagnosed autism and extreme social isolation leading to low self-esteem and feelings of being “evil” could have lead to my current experiences (wondering/questioning OSDD-1b) even if I wasn’t abused as a kid?

Once every few months I get days where it feels like my forehead in my third eye gets hit with a metal spoon, when it started getting worse I thought it was a tumor and got terrified

We were diagnosed with DID, but I think it may have a misdiagnosis, we resonate much more with OSDD-1 We very rarely get full amnesia. Although we used to. I guess therapy could have helped?

We use “my comrades” because we are a collective

I have almost all male, except one NB, one female (but is an animal alter), and one gender less void

For a long time we didn't dare to labell ourself as traumagenic because we thought that our trauma couldn't be considered as trauma. Then we ended up accepting that yes our trauma isn't really traumatising for a lot of people, but it was for us due to neurodivergence, and it was valid. We never felt as relieved as we felt when we accepted that - Aiden

Sometimes we don’t even notice a switch. Usually the fronter will do or say something that is very in character for them causing them to realize they’re fronting

This one really helped me. Im a recently discovered system but I really struggle with convincing myself that Im faking it for attention(despite the fact I've never told anyone) because I always feel like my trauma wasn't enough.

i was diagnosed in the sense that "a professional who works with me made a conclusion and is working in accordance with said conclusion". yet i do not have a diagnosis on paper, because by the laws of my country, in this particular situation he cannot diagnose me. i'm out to my friends but they do not know when someone other than host fronts, nor does it happen too often in front of them. my alters have different handwritings but we share most of the memory. different skills yet good internal communication. our host is just an apathetic alter who, whenever someone else fronts or he has to face the consequences of their fronting, shrugs and goes on with his day. he attributes most of it to himself and just goes "okay, i did something i would have never done. maybe i just felt like it. whatever". that is, i guess, one example of just how complex (and messy, yes) systemhood can be. -M.

Hii!! i was wondering if you’ve ever talked about p-did (partial did)? im trying to learn more about dissociative disorders because ive been thinking for a while i might have p-did or osdd1b, but im not entirely sure

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